Looks like I am not the only one in my area who has gone crazy and is seeking therapy. everyone is booked, i do have an appointment next week with a therapist, so, got that going for me. I also have a friend I can call incase things start to get crazy again. I was in a very low place in my mind, (VERY DANGEROUS) for me to be. With everything happening, I was on the verge of ending my life. Ive never gotten this depressed before. It was like all my will power to stay alive left me until I got help. Ive gotten into a stupid argument with my dad a few weeks ago, but we are ok now. I kept beating myself up over it, the past is the past. I also note, its a Miracle That I have been staying sober the whole time since August.