dlforever68

Can’t believe another year has gone by since my last entry.

I continue to come back to dd, maybe weekly, sometimes more sometimes less. I wear majority of the time, keep it mostly relaxed and let my pee flow, but have not lost control. Nummer 2 is still more of an exception, but in the recent many months I tend to go more often as well.

After nine years my body somehow knows when I wear a diaper as it just runs and drips and drops, at the same time the limited periods I don’t wear a diaper I can manage. It might sound strange, but this is where I am right now with a real mental need. The hours I don’t have a diaper on it really like feels something is missing. 

I just go with the flow whenever I want to or not, but try not to have long breaks in between. I noticed if I have longer no wearing periods like a two days or more the desire comes back pretty strong. This is when the binge gets really harder to manage as I tend to over indulge. Therefore it try not too have too long breaks and just be diapered mostly and enjoy may days without being controlled by it.

At night I always wear a diaper and don’t mind turning to a bedwetter, but it seems for my body that is not an option. After 9 years it still holds back until I wake up at 4-4:30a just to let it go and fall asleep again. Not the end of the world and time will tell.