This is something that we all struggle with however I could only speak for myself. I know many of us have this affinity for diapers from a very young age, how we deal with it is up to the individual. From my experience I kept this as a deep dark secret, there's only one other living soul that I've talked to about this. However having said that life is about trying things just like anything else being gay or transgender you have to learn to deal with it. I find my fascination with diapers going back to when I was young and I started using him about the time I left home over there. This would be some 40 years plus I've purged twice tried to walk away from it but I do feel better when I'm able to express it and personally I think it's mentally better for me to do so. You may find yourself feeling better about yourself just in a better mood because you're not keeping your interest in diapers deep in the back of your mind. Whatever it is there are number of people that think the same way and we all have to find our own way to express themselves but it's nice to know there are a fair amount of people just like you and now through DD you can talk to them. Good luck with your decision.