i am in a constant battle with my head that no one sees music helps but what happens when i have no defense left i want to act as a baby and be taken care of but this world will not let or it will make fun of me for it i feel this way at random times it just suddenly happens i feel like crying like a baby for my mommy but i can't and even if i could there would be no answer do people care?? the answer is yes they do but is anyone near me no they are not words help a lot i just wish and hope that someday i can meet someone be it a friend or anything that would make the pain stop even for a second i put on a happy face when i am sad and when i am sad i do not allow myself to feel it somehow for me the question remains if i where to be completely babied even for a day would i be able to cry again and maybe be happy