Angela Bauer

Welcome, Fleeced Baby Girl. I totally love your screen name. My Mom bought fleece sleepers for all us kids until we were over 12. Since that was the winter we spend in Iowa, she got me a new pink fleece sleeper that I wore until the summer I turned 13. I only stopped wearing it because it was so hot that summer. I never had perfect contol and lost all my night control at 12 when I reached puberty, so I was diapered inside my last two pink fleece sleepers. Although diapered every night after 12, I did not find out about the joys of AB until I was 26. However, when I was 13 I began to adore romantic adult spanking scenes in novels. At 15 I began to attend adult spanking parties as a sub. I played in the adult spanking scene in several cities for 11 years before I met an AB, and within a couple of months I was way more into AB than being spanked in front of a room full of strangers. Mind you I still find being spanked by my husband sexy, but we only play that in private these days. Write me if you like, my e-mail is shown as my website in my profile. Baby Angel

Hi Gerber, I would love to visit your blog, except you did not include the URL in any of your several messages about it. Share the URL and we will visit it.

Welcome to Daily Diapers, As Three Rivers says, this is a marvelous friendly community, covering the entire range of people who are curious about adults in diapers to Diaper Lovers and Adult Babies. In my adult responsible life I am a senior partner of a big law firm and happily married sine 1991 to Don Davis. I have been bladder incontinent since 1976. By way of coping with the downsides of needing diapers 24/7 in 1990 I discovered the joys of relaxing as a big baby girl, so in that mode I become Daddy Don's Baby Angel, with AB clothing over my diapers. Everyone here has a unique take on all this, so by reading many of the posts, you will reach and understanding of DL and AB. Look at Just Diapers to learn more technical stuff than outsider care to know. Scroll down to Links and Announcements and in that scroll down to the topic "A Sad Movie" The first message provides the best link to REDEMPTION a 21 minute video advance look at the up-coming feature movie of the same title by Michael Bryson. This is a hard-hitting expose of the way foolish parents over-react to set-backs in toilet training with physical and verbal abuse. See, a wide range of interest are covered here at DD. Luv ya, Angela Bauer

Hi Curious, Since I left home for university at 17 in 1981, I have needed to buy both baby and adult diapers in stores all over the USA. In my early days as an attorney my firm had me traveling almost every week. That was the time Attends were being withdrawn for most stores, as Depend gained market share. Perhaps when I was 26, the clerks thought I was young and buying them for a grandparent. Never has a clerk been rude to me, nor have they conducted on the job training about my diaper purchases. Let me tell you, had that happened to me, I would have left, being sure the cash receipt showed the time and a code for the clerk. Then a bit later I would phone, asking for the general manager if it were a chain store and the owner if I knew it was independent. Once I got that person on the phone I would ask if the time of day and clerk code identified to him the correct person. After I got that answer I would say that I am an attorney representing the people who as a test just purchased aduly incontinence supplies at that store. Going on I would retell the events, and ask what remedies the store intended to offer my clients. Should the manager try to bluff, I would say that the Federal Americans with Disability Act makes it a crime to discriminate against people buying adult incontinence products. My demand would be an instant apology or I would file a claim on behalf of my clients with the nearest US Attorney. It is the fact that is true, it is a Federal crime, that scares the owners and managers. They might think they can bribe their way out of trouble with the local cops or DA, but they know if the try that with the US Government, they will be in even more trouble. Look, like I always say, the owner wants clerks to smile, get the money and get on to the next customer. They do not want clerks making fun of customers, and they do not want a group of employees talking when they should be working. Nothing like that has happened to me personally, nor to my sisters who all wet. But I have had to put the fear of the US Government into managers about other things. Remember bullies always back down when confronted with reasonable resolve. The law is on your side. Same goes thay US Labor Law requires employers to accommodate incontinent people. Failure to do so is discrimination and a serious violation of Labor Law. Luv ya, Angela Bauer

There have been several "Why Me?" moments with diapers. Of course there are no answers. The women of my family have a genetic issue causing us to lose bladder control at puberty. Diapers were openly available in our home. Mom made no secret she wore for bed. My first "Why Me?" came shortly after I returned to bedwetting after puberty, and after Mom coached me until I could pin my own Curities, when I knew I liked my diapers. My second "Why Me?" came when I was 26 and discovered many nice adults were willing to pay to learn to be incontinent and my reaction was "Why can't I sell them my incontinence?" My third "Why" came in 1991 when I met Don Davis. He accepted me in diapers and was willing to enable my increasing desire to relax as an AB, to which I said "Why not Me!" Luv, ya, Baby Angel

Craig, thanks for the kind words. Despite some sensational articles to the contrary and a phony PhD dissertation a former AB firm sold, there is no scientific research into diaper related affectation, objectphillia (the latest shrink talk for fetish) or even fetish in general. Instead what we have is the best theories of the most dedicated mental health researchers who would like funding to explore fetish and know that is a career ender. The most generally accepted theory is that spanking and diaper affectation and objectphillia begin (are inculcated) by a random innocent action during the first 12 months of live, way before conscious memory begins. There it lies quiet or latent, sometimes for decades, until a more evident action takes place toward the patient. Perhaps a nurse at the hospital was kind to Craig in a nursery when he was a day old, or more likely at age 6 months although he could not know it at the time, a diaper change made him happy. Then when older his grandmother requiring him to be diapered was the trigger "allowing" him to act in a way otherwise taboo. Many mental health and medical professionals have radically divided views on my families approach to preparing us for a lifetime of incontinence. Some say they drove me into AB, yet most of my cousins and my two brothers and two of my sisters are not AB/DL. Besides most shrinks concede of the affectation compulsive conditions, infantilism is the least dangerous medically and physically. Therefore it is irresponsible therapy to displace sucking a pacifier and replace it with a cigarette, and so on. I believe Granny, Mom and Aunt Betsy did the ethical thing, made diapers openly available, sweet talked us into wearing them on trips and took the risk some of us love wearing diapers. Mom freely admits she does not mind the sensations, especially today with better products. Rant #2: When I read Craig's quote, I looked at my original and saw somehow my signature appeared above question 9 and my answer does not appear. So: 9. Were you ever ridiculed? As a child and teen my entire family was supportive of all of us who wet and wore. Any family ridicule was about my intensity wanting to become a lawyer for corporations. Years later my sister 4 years younger than me and a year older than Missi the AB sister/costume designer got drunk at a party and called both of us, and our husbands "wacked out sick freaks" to make games out of being incontinent. It did not really bother Missi, our husbands or me, because all four of us have happy successful and well-paid careers doing what we do. The judgmental sister has never held a job above minimum wage and is unemployed more than working. She is the alcoholic. Worst said about Missi and myself is we dring our Ensure from Evenflo nursers with PUR or Munchkin clear silicone nipples. By Golly, doesn't everyone do that? Mom said it best that party, "Darlings, consider the source! She always was a difficult child, a shame I was against spanking back then." Luv ya, Angela

My baby sister Missi has wet since puberty just like me, but lost her day control a week after she graduated high school. She is a movie/TV costume designer and married years before I did. In 1990 she had just given bith to their daughter and was staying at home, leaving her lots of time to read all kinds of magazines. One evening after work I visited her and she showed me the current issue of Fetish Times with three illustrated articles and also a fiction story all about Adult Babies. She also read an article about incontinence management suggesting AB as a coping strategy. On my way home I visited an adult book store, bought that Fetish Times and really read those articles. Soon Missi made herself a bunch of adorable big baby girl clothing and bought herself pacifiers and nipples for toddlers. Her husband started out just playing Daddy then progressive joined in as a boy baby. Missi and John are discreet and use common sense, so it was not until their daughter was 14 that she told Missi she guessed not only her folks play big baby, so do many of their friends. Like me, the daughter lost her night control at 12. Missi never made a secret she is incontinent. Let me tell you, her daughter is one adorable smart and level-headed young women I have ever known. She is an after school intern at my law firm, has straight As and skipped ahead a year. As far as I can tell, her parents are doing everything right. In their case being AB/DL does not make them poor parents. Angela

I had worn night diapers since I was 12, so I knew I would be diapered for bed in my dorm. Although I promissed Dad and Mom I would not drink at university, the evening we moved into the dorms there were a lot of keggers. I had wet myself a couple of times while drinking in high school, when I did not wear a diaper, so that first evening at university I put on an Attends as my new roommate watched fascinated. When I helped her back to our room about 4am my Attends still could handle another big pee, and she at wet herself in public a few times and was soaked. Once her hangover cleared by lunch the next day she asked me to diaper her for the keggers that night. She went drinking so often by the end of our first month she was going to the store and buying her own bags of Attends! Rock On in Diapers, Angela Bauer

1. Earliest diaper memory A month after I turned 4 Dad, Mom, an older sister, an older brother, me, a younger brother, and younger sister were on a car trip. I was dry night and day at home, as were my older sibling, while the younger sibs were not toilet trained. Mom had told me when they first talked about the trip that because Dad did not want unsynchronized toilet stops, all us kids would be diapered while in the car. The morning we left Mom put me on the sturdy family changing table, pin me into 3 Curity diapers and pulled on a pair of Gerber vinyl panties. I watched as my oldest sister, who was almost 9 was changed. During the trip Mom would change all of us once about 1PM, then take everyone except the 2 babies out of diapers until the next morning. Mom had told me she herself wet, but it was the first evening at a motel I saw her pinning her own diapers, while talking to us girls. Mom was not embarrassed. 2. The first time you realized you liked diapers On trips and special events I was diapered many times a year up to the time I turned 12, when I lost my control. Mom taught me to change myself, and I already knew I did not mind being diapered, I was relaxed since I did not need to pay attention to my bladder and I really liked that. Also, to me pee always feels nice as my diaper gets soggy and soft inside vinyl panties. 3. Unique or memorable diapers sightings I knew that my favorite Aunt Betsy who lived across the street wet, and all her kids were very slow to toilet train. When I was 17 I babysat her kids, including my favorite cousin Matt, because he still needed pinned night diapers. He was so sweet, and when I had played with him during the days he was never diapered. 4. Times you have been caught or exposed In our family diapers were change in front of people constantly. Some of my siblings watched me being changed on trips. Once I could change myself, every night my 2 younger sisters 8 and baby sis Missi would watch me in fascination. 5. When you have told or confessed to someone else When I was 5 I told Mom I sometimes wished I could wear diapers every day. She just laughed and said eventually I would be diaperd 24/7. By age 20 that was true. 6. The first time you wore Mom and my older sister have told me a few weeks after I was dry 24/7 we took a car trip and I was back in diapers at age 3, but my first memory of wearing was the trip when I was 4. 7. The first time you bought Mom, Aunt Betsy and Granny were against "those new-fangled" disposables. They bought 21x40 Curity gauze diapers by the case. I was the first in the extended family to get a scholarship to a university and mine was in Upstate New York, a long plane ride. This was 1981 so Mom relented and said I should get used to wearing Attends, because I could not wash gauze diapers in my dorm. Early in August my older brother drove me to several stores Attends had told me stocked them. That way I was used to talking to store clerks about diapers for adults. At the last stop of the day, the store nearest our home I actually bought my first bag of Attends. I was thrilled and none of that embarrased me. 8. Discovering that there are others like you With in the family it was conceded the only one of us who wet and resented her diapers was my next youngest sister, who also was the only one to lose all her control at puberty, so she had to wear to school most of middle and all of high school. Perhaps that was her problem. When I was 26 Missi was so excited to say she discovered articles about adults who wanted to learn to wet and the joys of Adult Baby. Then I was sure I was not the only person who liked being diapered, I even loved the sensation and I still do. I have been happily married since 1991 and early that year went back to pinned gauze diaper at night and home when possible. Days I have been able to only use slip-in disposable pads for 20 years, but still keep Attends Youth Briefs and Attends Small Pull-Ups at home for when I am sick and when we travel. I make my slip-in by cutting off the taps of Size 4 Pampers Cruisers. Live free and be happy in diapers! Baby Angel 9. Being ridiculed

Nikki, Sweetie Darling, take a look at my picture as I nap with my stuffed toys while wearing diapers and vinyl panties and also using my pacifier. I am not embarrassed to share this with all our members and guests. I am not saying you should rush to Boots or someplace, buy a lage pack of disposable nappies in your size, put one and and then how it to friends and neighbors. Just know all of us who actually wear diaper and nappies have bought them somehow, often in person. It is scary at least at first, but you get past that. Someone has another topic about that, buying the fist bag of diapers in a store. The thing is, Precious Nikki, is that until you privately put on a nappy, anything I say about the comfy feeling will not make sense to you. Eventually once you are wearing a nappy you will try wetting it. That first time as a big girl wetting a nappy is a memorable experience, and I hope it is as wonderful for you as it is for me. At 12 I started wetting my bed. Since my Granny, Mom and older sister all wet, everyone expected one day it would be my turn. Oh, I had worn diapers as an older kid on trips because my bladder is tiny. What a difference it was the night after I wet my bed without a diaper to wake in a damp diaper about 1AM realizing I had not felt the wetting. So I tried to stay awake, and so I did for the first time feely myself wetting with no control. It did feel so nice. Bless you and keep you well and Happy, Angela

My long time pal Robert joined DPF in Dec 1991 and has gone on to be my consistent correspondent. While we were just finding the link to get Redemption running on our computers, Robert found it on My Space, read the feature-length Treatment and immediately sent Michael Bryson a message of support. Robert has received answers from MB about various things. MB has told me in PM that he used the link I gave him to visit us right here and he considers our discussion very insightful. He had to go out all day yeaterday and will be answering the questions I sent him. O also am in contact with Dawn Judson, the real and loving mom of the star as Amber/Younger Girl, the one the only Alya Judson, who turned 13 in Dec 2007. Already Alya has a whole lot of screen credits and agents in Los Angeles, Austin and Houston. Dawn and Ayla confirm that no diapers were wet during the making of the Redemption video. Those are two different sizes of generic adult disposables purchased in a San Antonio store, small for Ayla and Medium for Monica Curtis who plays Older Girl/Amber. All the diapers were hand decorated with similar stickers, which were then covered with wide clear tape. The plan was to have several close to identical for each of several sequences where Young Amber was supposed to be in the same diaper. They did not remember the total number of sets and total used during production. The larger diapers for Older Amber also were decorated as close to identical as possible, but they only needed the one kind of set, since Older Amber diapers herself and for only a few hours, it was supposed to be the same one the entire time. They were not there when Monica and Michael taped their scenes at a different location set. By happy coincidence yesterday (Sunday Jan 27) Don and I had brunch at the home of another married couple (Peggy and Lance) way into AB. We were joined by 4 other AB couples. Two of the other women only are mommies and Don is only a daddy. The hosts and my baby sister Missy and her husband John only play AB. Each of us has viewed Redemption on our computers many times. The hosts were playing it for us on a new 72" LCD flat screen, and let me tell you, it looked fabulous! Lance is a movie studio executive by day, and with Peggy makes adult spanking videos on the side that are very popular. Another of the husbands and a very submissive AB, is a leading financier of Independent films. My sister Missy is an award-winning Hollywood costume designer. All three of them had bought stickers. Then instead of applying them directly to the diaper, they scanned them into computers, enhanced the design using PhotoShop, and output the results on a laser printer into thermal transfer paper. That same thing is used to make custom T-shirts. The resulting decorated cloth diapers are beautiful. It remains to be seen how well the transfers stand up to washing. Missy also output to a newer film product. The film is super thin, almost invisible and very flexible. The inside is sticky. That is where the image goes. The outside is matte finish, so the result looked like scaled-up Pambers Cruisers, Size 7. Missy had carefully redrawn those characters from a bag of the real Cruisers, then enlarged the image slightly, so the cartoons were in scale with the Attends she was using as an experiment. Unfortunately the cost for the film is currently $4.00 per sheet which makes decorations for only 3 diapers. Not practical for routine use, but Missy is starting to use that new material making costumes. When Michael Bryson is ready to make the feature length Redemption, Missy is sure the price of the sticky film will come down so a Kinkos could make them. Probably you cold not make them at home because the sublimation laser printer costs about $8,000. It does also make prints 24" wide by any length. Wow! Adam makes his usual good points, that all over the internet people of various interests are discussing Redemption. Ultimately that has to be good for child abuse and suicide prevention, and also good for us in the AB/DL community. Way to go Adam, Robert, MB, Ayla and Dawn Luvs, Huggies and Pampers to us, Baby Angel PS, play nice while I am away this week, because Michael Bryson visits us!

Well presented Adam! We are led to assume that Younger Girl Amber did wet by accident the first time shotly after the father died. PTSD would be a problem for her and the medical literature is full of cases where a side effect is incontinence, mostly in bed, so that is called Secondary Nocturnal Enuresis. Without immediate, appropriate and experienced treatment Young Amber will not on her own recover from PTSD depression or wetting. Under the mad attacks of Monther it would quickly become total bladder incontinence. Thus when the mother dies, Young Amber has double PTSD with collateral profound incontinence. This video jumps back and forth between present day married Older Amber and her faulty recovered memories of the loving idealized family with her father and the madness after his death. These scenes were intended as a way of explaining a feature length film also titled Redemption, a treatment of which, written by Michael Bryson, is up-thread her and at his My Space page. many of these scenes were not described in the treatment, which hits only the highlights of a proposed movie. The part left out is the crime/death scene investigation. Amber has to be led out of there by CPS lady using the pink daiper bag that Amber did follow irrespective of who was carrying it. This happens often in the treatment. Amber was never accused of murder. For one thing you cannot charge anyone under 14 with homocide, and in the treatment Amber is 12 when her mother died. In the video there are 11 candles on the birthday cake, but she might have turned 12 while her father was alive and it is not shown. The other reason Amber was not charged is the local medical examiner is said to have ruled this suicide by a self-inflicted single fatal gun shot wound to the head of Judith Scott, the mom. We only saw the faulty memory of Amber, but it also might be a situation where the medical examiner lied in the autopsy report to save the cost of a complete investigation, something of a real scandal in Bexar County, TX home of San Antonio and the film maker. Following a brief custody hearing Amber is placed by CPS in a mental institution right out of "One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest" with dashes of "28 Days" The forced infantilism was previously the main plot point of the 1973 horror feature "The Baby" Amber is subject to shock therapy and does not get out until she is over 18. Early in her stay she injures herself badly with a kitchen knife, hence the visible wrist scar. Certainly Stockholm/Survivor Syndrome would explain Young Amber often being cooperative with the infantilism. Look at the scene where Amber walks down the stairs wearing a jumper and using a pacifier, lets mom do a diaper check, accepts an affectionate pat on her bottom and stands waiting to follow the pink diaper bag out the front door. She also did wet constantly, so her diapers 24/7 were functional. We must remember all that is suspect defective recovered memory after therapy, so to Amber she resented and would not leave the diaper bag to sit outside in her shirt and diaper. The lack of her security diaper bag might explain her fighting back. Everything Adam says about never fully giving up her diapers, pacifier and baby bottle when depressed could be the life story of every kid who fell under the spell of diapers and baby games. Few psychologists report any successfull treatment of adult diaper affectation. Just one reason is normally the goal of therapy is to replace a risky behavior with one less risky. The catch being diaper affectation is the least physically dangerous such behavior. Dispalce it and the patient turns to alcohol and other drugs, which is irresponsible therapy. Let's keep this communication going, sharing all opinions There are no wrong answers

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Hardly ever will any simple style of plastic pants be comfortable in bed over a disposable diaper. You have two waterproof layers touching and sticking in such a way the leg elastic can be pulled free of the skin, usually at the wrong time. The simplest approach is to buy ordinary knit cotton briefs as tight as you can get into over your disposable. The tight all-cotton knit will hold the disposable in place, yet will allow air to circulate, thus letting the disposable work as intended. Then, if you still are having leaks, use the vinyl pants over the cotton briefs holding the disposable. This way there is no plastic to plastic contact. The three layers will be stiffer than just the diaper, but you will get used to it, As for less expensive vinyl panties, for your use I highly recommend Kins thin vinyl style 1300V. Kins is the corporate name for Babykins and is also the name of their adult department. Kins is in our links section. They are in BC Canada, have a toll-free number and accept on-line orders. Ordering a single pant is extravagant because of the shipping, but spread over 2 or more pair, you will find it less than $20USA. Another traditional approach is to wear Bedwetter pants over the disposable. These have an absorbent cotton lining. From Kins the lining is terry and the plastic can be stronger than thin vinyl. Bedwetter pants are way more than $20USA each. I do not recommend any pant that combines a plastic layer with a cloth layer, because they are so difficult to wash correctly. The cloth needs very hot water and the plastic need luke warm water. Then the inside of the plastic and the part of the cloth next to it dry very slowly. It is always far better to keep the lining and the plastic separate garments. The ordinary cotton briefs work as well as the terry and the combo I suggest cost a lot less.

Nikki Sweetie Darling, If I did not post on one of your other messages, I am so sorry. This morning I saw this was flagged a short time ago. Quickly reading the suggestions, they are right, especially the new message from Smarti. Except I know women my age with daughters your age, you and I have a lot in common. Perhaps you still have bladder control with is wonderful. I hope you always have the option of going places without a diaper when you want. On the other hand I was told as a small girl the chances were after puberty I would be incontinent, as was my Granny, Mom, so aunts and soon my oldest sister. Since my bladder is puny, for trips Mom would pin me in a diaper eventhough I was a dry girl day and night. Thus when I did start to lose control diapers did not terrorize me. Lucky for me I managed to have day control all through middle and high school and even through pre-law. By then I would sometimes wear a diaper under my skirt to class. Law school was a different city and I just wore 24/7 for the day convenience and for need at night. I had never dreamed there were sane adults who wanted to be incontinent or who wore diapers for fun until I was 26 and an attorney with a very conservative law firm. My youngest sister who also has no bladder control told me she read that adult baby games were a coping strategy for incontinent people. It sounded like fun, but then I had all the fears. What if someone finds out at work my diapers are more than a necessity? Well, until I was 12 Mom or my big sister often changed my pinned cloth diaper in ladies rooms. We did not use discreet disposables in the 1960s and 1970s. Kids would spoy my diaper and sometimes they would point, stare and make jokes. I never let it bother me because I already knew it is not possible to wear diapers frequently and not be caught. Nikki, the same holds for being an AB, DL or TB. If you are confident going into a store and buying a pacifier set, or some baby bottles while asking a clerk about nipple alternatives, almost certainly they will assume you are buying for a relative, are the mom or the nanny. Even when you buy adult diapers, the clerks only want your cash or credit card. From 1989 to 1993 my law firm needed me to travel by plane nearly every week. I wore disposables 24/7 and had to have fresh bags delivered to my hotel rooms. More than a few times I would forget I was using a pacifier when a client or colleague came to my hotel room, or I would see them in the hall while I was getting ice. If anyone asked, I would say I was quitting smoking. That was also an era when people who went to rave events used pacifiers and even wore disposables on the outside of their slacks. Pay attention to Smarti and the others. Until you try wearing an adult diaper and wetting it, you will never know if it is your thing. Probably you will want to try several brands and styles because some work for one person and some for other folks. I assume you grew up in disposables. Today's adult diapers are sort of like toddler Pampers from 1980 inside, but many styles now have the cloth-like outer surface you probably have not worn as a kid. The good news is that many modern adult diapers have tabs that can be repositioned many times. As an entry tryout consider the Depend Adjustable. It is not the best diaper going, but it is a pull-up, with the benefit of 2 tabs per side to perfect the fit. Those are a super training diaper, because they stay in place while you fiddle with the fit. Later by instinct you will get the tapes in the best spot first try, but that does take practice. Best wishes and happy AB diapering, Baby Angel

Hi Everyone, Yesterday a member posted a link in the Links section for a firm that provides consultation world-wide to makers of baby disposables. That firm is Carlos Richer Investments. They run a lab dedicated to doing disposable quality testing, and even explain how to do it for a science fair. The link is: http://disposablediaper.net The author explains the similarity between the original polyethelene plastic outer layer, the transition to some other plastic and then to cloth-like. Turns out it is not cloth. It is an even thinner soft plastic bonded to thin plastic made to feel like cloth. Richer advocates using it for premium brands of baby diapers because when mothers hold infants in their arms the outer cloth-like is more comfy for the mom. The infant can't tell. The implication is cloth-like is more expensive, not a way the makers save making, but maybe sell more. Oh, yes, if you want to make your own disposables, Richer sells an assortment of new and slightly used baby diaper making machines and low, low affordable prices. Only thing is the building needs to be at least 200x150 feet, longer is better.

Heven, Like a Fish just gets better and better. So Lily has a baby sister named Daisy. Does that mean there could be another sister named Rose or Poppy? I should have gone to bed, but when I saw a new installment, I stayed up to read it. Luv, Baby Angel

Luv and Huggies for Pampering us by providing this link. Carlos E. Richer is the world's leading independent consultant to the baby disposable diaper industry. Who knew he also writes in an entertaining way, so you learn more about the construction of disposables that you thought you wanted to know. Want to buy a machine to make your own disposable diapers? Carlos Richer Investments has a selection of new and "slightly used" diaper making machines. Cost? Like a boat, if ya hafta ask, ya can't afford it. Oh, and you need a building over 200 feet long, the longer the better. The machines are as much as 50 feet wide, and you need space to store the stuff that goes into a diaper. And more space to store the finished diapers until you ship them to customers. How many diapers per minute? The major manufacturers run each machine up to 1,000 per minute. If Carlos said how long it takes to change a machine for various sizes, I have not found the information. It must be there. Everything else is, even jokes about diapers and a few pictures of big baby girls. My frustration pleading with KCC about larger Huggies and P&G about larger Pampers and Luv got me speculating buying a machine. I will need to save a lot of pennies because he says the starting investment is a million dollars for the machine, plus another couple of million for the supplies you need to get started. Then leasing such a huge building has to cost a whole lot. Oh, the kicker is that apparently the reason we do not have Size 8, 9 and 10 Pampers Cruisers is the oldest machines in use max out at Size 5, and most newer machines max at Size 6. Pampers must have custom built a machine for Size 7. Bummer that Carlos does not consult about making adult diapers. Maybe I could buy one of those machines and set it to make diapers smaller than Attends Youth and Small, with modern features. Richer shared there does not appear to be enough market for tape-on diapers for people too big for Size 6 and too small for conventional adult disposables, what we call the "GoodNites" size. Obviously I have gotten it all wrong. According to Carlos Richer virtually all disposables currently on the market are more gentle on the skin than the most carefully washed cloth diapers. Reading his research, he makes a point. Skin is best when dry, and all this talk about the inner feel-dry layer is correct. Published articles saying cloth is safer were written a long time ago, and compared cloth to first generation disposables from before disposables came with tapes. In those days cloth diapers were changed at least six times a day, while often today toddlers need only 3 disposables. Of course that assumes there is a disposable that fits. The nice thing about cloth and pins is they can be adjusted for ideal fit. Ya just gotta change them more often. All kidding aside, Carlos Richer has a fabulous site.

The Treatment for Redemption is found on Michael Bryson's My Space web site. Apparently he started developing a feature length film. For reasons he has not explained he filmed what is in the video first. Many of these scenes are not found in the Treatment. That is not unusual since Treatments do not include finished dialog, nor every scene. What is in the video probably would fit in the feature in a couple of places. The portions with Mother/Judith Scott and Younger Girl/Amber Scott, with and without Father, likely would be used as flash-backs while Amber is in the mental institution. The the scenes with Older Girl/Amber and Husband would conclude the feature. At least that is my guess. I sent a personal message to Mr. Bryson on his My Space page including the link to this discussion. He might well have read it by now, although he has not replied to me. He did check message today, but perhaps before my message to him went through. BTW on Bryson's My Space page, a link is provided in a message before the one with the Treatment text, there some production photos that everyone will find interesting. They move from right to left slowly enough you can see them.

Hi Lil, Are you using conventional diaper pins with plastic head? Some are made with heavier wire than others. The First Years are generally the best. It helps if you stick the point into a bar of hand soap. That lubricates the wire when it is going into the cloth. So what when the soap stays, because it washes out. Hand soap is the only lubricant safe with diapers. If your diaper pins are not sharp, you can fix that with very fine grit sandpaper, 150 or higher. After you sharpen the points be sure to wash the pins, and then stick the points into the soap. Do this and pins last a long time. Sharp soapped pins also do not damage the diaper fabric. Baby Angel, who sleeps in cloth diapers

Smarti, My personal guess is The Naughty Astronaut is so used to diapers she needs to catch dribbles when driving. I do the same thing. Since that does not require a full pull-on or tape-on adult diaper for women, a slip-in pad is fine. For high profile women buying infant diapers is discreet, and the Naughty One does have small children. Chances are she was doing like I have done, and use the toddler disposable not as a stuffer but instead of a sanitary pad. Actually for me a Size 4 Pamper Curiser work for this purpose better than any of the feminine and incontinent products out there. Normally I do cut the tabs off, but it is not uncomfortable when I don't take the time.

Thanks Smarti, for providing the link to Michael Bryson's My Space page, then later printing-out his treatment for Redemption. By coincidence in my frustration trying to reach Michael Bryson directly, I discovered his My Space minutes before seeing your message. I had not at the time figured out how to actually read his page. Your link solved my problem. As we all know, there are various opinions about every scene in the video of Redemption. Reading his treatment does not answer many of our questions. It seems like what he was going to make was a combination of "One Flew Over The Cuckoo's Nest" meets the 1970's horror flick "The Baby" also about forced infantilism, with dashes of several police procedurals. The mystery is why Bryson decided to make a video that is focused on the violence toward Amber/Younger Girl and then Amber/Older Girl, leaving out the middle about the mental institution and yet adding scenes not mentioned in the treatment. When I finally was able to send a private message to Michael Bryson on his My Space account I told him how much I appreciate Redemption, how much discussion it has created right here and I gave him the link to this discussion. Who knows, maybe he will share with us why he decided to write this story, then present it as the video we watched. Since he has not listed me as one of his friends I could not post a comment, but I do see the mother of Ayla Judson is one of his friends and her picture includes her talented daughter, Ayla herself commented on his VEOH page.

OH, Heven, Like A Fish just keeps getting better and better. Luv this and do keep it coming. Baby Angel

Hi Emily, I totally agree with you. Since I lost my bladder control at age 12, I have needed to change my own diaper in public restrooms thousands of times. I also well remember from age 3 to 12 when I had good control, but a small bladder. On trips Mom would diaper me so Dad was not frustrated by frequent potty stops. Those days were before handicap stalls. Mom only used pinned cloth diapers. You really have not lived until you are on your back on the counter of a ladies room being watched by women and little girls as your mom pins you into a dry diaper. Mom was loving, but shall we say when I was 11 it attracted attention. Maybe for me in the long run it was good I had a background of accepting diapers. It was so much better when I had learned to change myself, standing in a stall. Some work days I am in my law office which has a private bathroom. More often I need to change a time or two in a ladies room on the same floor as whatever court is hearing my case. Fortunately I usually can use slip-in pads. My experience is hardly anyone pays attention, yet I never am entirely sure, especially when a woman on the jury hearing my case sees me.

Dear Diapered Witch, Since I was not part of the REDEMPTION creative team, nor have I interviewed Michael Bryson, your guess is as good as mine about every aspect of the film. Having talked to hundreds of independent film makers all expecting to be Hollywood's next Michael Bay, I venture some guesses here. The whole concept of abuse by way of force diapering and infantilization is so far off the radar outside the AB/DL community, I personally assume either Bryson knows someone who went through exactly this, or found some first hand acounts. Maybe there was a trial? Weird as it seems, behind the MTV edits, there sadly could be a lot of truth. What I do not assume until Bryson tells me different is that someone not connected to AB/DL would make all this up from scratch. The bulk of your question is: Why would someone forced into diapers return to them later when depressed? Although with the retirement of Mary Ann Hogan, PhD who practiced psychotherapy in St. Louis until about 1996, actually did counsel several people way into diaper use beyond incontinence. During the SpringFling'93 my husband Don and I hosted in Hollywood, Dr. Hogan was flown in by one of her clients. She spent parts of two days interviewing me and all the other women at the convention. Her goal was to write a text book about therapy of several fetish behaviors. After working on it several years, nobody would publish it. That is the closest anyone has come to scientific research into fetish of any kind. Don's younger sister is a practising psychiatrist in Santa Barbara, CA. The only AB/DL she has met are from our close circle of friends in the Hollywood/Los Angeles area. All of us are at peace with our inner diapered child or diapered lover. None of us have gone to her for counseling or therapy. So is her opinion any more valid that yours? The first time I saw Redemption on-line this week, I immediately phoned her, then talked her through the links. She consulted one of her friends who specializes in juvenile and adolescent urology. They had viewed the film and called me back on a conference three-way. What the urologist pointed out was that "Younger Girl" did in fact suffer Secondary Nocturnal Euresis, doctor speak for bedwetting after years of being dry. So, when the girl started to suffer Post Traumatic Stress disorder as a result of the auto accident and survivor guilt, bedwetting is a commonly reported symtom. Thus when the girl wet her bed several nights, providing her diapers was not out of line. Perhaps Mother herself was nuts, and went about sweet talking the girl into using the diapers. Most rational parents would have put a rubber or plastic sheet on the child's bed and relaxed. Then the next step would be an easy to wear discreet pull-up such as GoodNites. Rationally the idea of managing wetting is to sell the patient on owning her own urine. With a kid much over 5 it is possible and ideal to train the kid to change his or her own diapers. Probably parents and medical pros avoid using the diaper word with kids age 5 to 15. Okay, suppose the girl was not nuts, just slightly mixed up. She knew she wet and she knew she did not want to wet. She wanted to be dry like most kids age 10. She did not know the stats about percentage of girls age 10 who wet, so she would assume she was unique and odd. Then Mother got into serious hitting, not spanking, since we can see Mother is sitting higher than the feet, her body covering the girl's bottom, and the girl is face up. So that part is clearly abuse. Since Mom was bonkers and hated her daughter, her abuse turned to forced baby regression. None of this means that despite being forced, the girl was not comforted by her diapers, and sometimes enjoyed the pacifier and baby bottle. What the girl hated was being hit in the face, yelled at, diapered by force and violence and then made to be outside with her diaper showing. Combine that with Mother being so stupid she left a S&W .38 Chief's special in her bedside drawer with no safety lock. We also do not know who taught the Younger Girl the FBI 2 handed grip and using both thumbs to cock the hammer. In most states minor children under the age of 14 cannot be tried for serious crimes. Probably a decent defense attorney would plead any charges against the girl down to spending some quality time re-gaining her bladder control and getting past the several PTSD layers, since the mistreatment by Mom would send many into therapy. Now it is over 12 years later. Younger Girl is now married to a decent guy, played by Bryson. She went out and bought the closest kind of diapers, paci and bottles she could find. All that treatment of her incontinence did nothing to remove her love of diapers under certain conditions. Nor did it deal with her craving to suckle, a paci or a nipple on a bottle. The best part of Bryson making this movie is that after seeing it people are thinking about child abuse, firearm safety and just possibly juvenile incontinence. We all here add messages about the AB/DL aspects. Comments?