Bad Day

[DailyDi]

Very depressed today. Fighting bad thoughts and the urge to cry. No real reason, just life with clinical depression

[spoonchicken]

I feel like that most days too. *hugs*

[diapered charles]

On 7/10/2024 at 2:22 PM, DailyDi said:

Very depressed today. Fighting bad thoughts and the urge to cry. No real reason, just life with clinical depression

I'm going through some mental battles myself. It sucks. One cannot run from one's brain. Feel free to Me me anytime.

[~Brian~]

On 7/10/2024 at 2:22 PM, DailyDi said:

Very depressed today. Fighting bad thoughts and the urge to cry. No real reason, just life with clinical depression

@DailyDi

Mikey:  I sometimes get this way, and the way I deal with it is to try to get out of the house a couple days a week, or more if possible.  This week, I was thinking of my cousin, and I had been thinking about him for a couple weeks or so, and I was going to call him........

I ended up setting up a visit to see my Dad and stepmom:  I had to cancel it this week, because there was some sort of misunderstanding as to how I can get there on the bus.  I had 3 people from the bus company tell me three different answers.  I called Dad and told him I wanted to reschedule, and my stepmom wanted to do that as well, and so I did. 

At about 5:30PM EDT on Wednesday:  I got a call from dad:  I was thinking that he was going to reschedule with me, and I started to tell him that: He then said "this is important....." then he proceeds to tel me that our cousin died about 15 minutes before he called me.  My parents were with him when that happened as well as one of my aunts and uncle:  apparently, he had cancer that he was fighting, and he had been in the hospital off and on.   I was told that he had a "Brain Bleed" and he needed to be taken by helicopter to the hospital in Burlington VT (Level One Trauma Center), and he was connected to Life support.

Soon however, his condition got worse, and the family members there made the decision to remove him from that, and he died soon after.

It was a strange day, because someone was "with me" all day in spirit:  I had no idea why, but now I think that the reason was because my cousin was ill, and somebody was trying to help me deal with it:  He was a cool guy, and he and I would always talk "gadgets", and he gave me a mac (the one I am on now), a couple of Ipads and he knew that I am a "tech nerd". This Imac will now stand as a rememberance of him.

Not too sure how to feel, but at least he is no longer in pain and can Rest in Eternal Peace

Brian