Healing (epilogue)

[Random3435]

Chapter 1

Disclaimer: this story starts pretty dark if you don't like it I suggest reading something else. Also this is sorta a sequel to my other story 'understanding' but it's not required. The connection is mostly that some characters from that story show up and I wanted to give them more character. 

 

I looked down at my phone. I'd just been sent the last text I'll ever receive. After all I wouldn't exactly be able to take my phone with me where I was going. The world had nothing left for me. I'd tried to make it work for years. All the medication and therapy did nothing to help. I knew some were willing to help me. What my co-worker had just sent was proof of that but it was of no use. Nobody really cared it was just what was expected. When I go nobody would mourn me and quite frankly the other side was better anyway.

Of course there was the possibility I would just die and be stuck in nothingness but even that would be an improvement. I opened up the bottle of ethanol and chugged it down. Upon doing so I began to lose consciousness and the last thing I saw was the bright light I was expecting.

POV: portal control officer at littlecare portals and adoption

The room was deadly silent. We'd been watching this little on and off for a while and as predicted he was about to do something that made the noobies tear up but I had a job to do. "is the portal set up?" I asked to which the head portal technician said

"yeah. Whenever you're ready we can get him over here"

one of the doctors in the room said "we got the med team ready to save him when he comes through"

I was relieved at that as the poor boy seemed miserable and as I expected he had opened up the bottle of ethanol he had. As he swallowed some I activated the portal. I looked over at the platform to see if he'd made it. Luckily he had and he was being taken to have the ethanol taken out of his system.

After my shift was over I went to check on the littles we had saved that day. Today was one of the busiest in a while so there were quite a few. All were now sleeping peacefully in a crib waiting to be adopted. This is what made the job worth it. These littles needed love and thanks to me and my team they would have the chance to get it. Better here than in one of those countries that treat littles with abuse and pain.

POV jack

I woke up feeling fine for someone who just drank what was essentially poison. I looked around feeling exceptionally tired and saw I was surrounded by bars. Clearly I was in a large crib as were the others in the room. I soon felt the need to pee and fitting my infantile sleeping arrangements I had a diaper on. Some would probably try to avoid using it and ask to use the toilet but I just decided to go right then and there.

Presumably someone would change it. With that out of the way I soon fell back to sleep. Soon afterwards I found myself awake again and this time it was certainly louder. Many in the cribs around me were panicking. Clearly they weren't expecting to wake up in a crib and since the light was now on I could see we were in what looked like a daycare.

I had to admit it looked quite surreal. I could tell everyone here was an adult like I was or an older teenager at the very least but they were all dressed like babies. Unlike the others I decided to just stay calm. Surely they knew the situation would be explained soon enough.

Almost as if hearing my thoughts a massive woman approached me "smells like someone left a present for nanny"

she then carried me over to a changing table. It was definitely a surreal experience having my diaper changed as an adult but with the size difference it probably seemed normal. After that was done and I was in a fresh diaper that wasn't filled with shit and piss she said "how polite. Usually new babies are so fussy when they come here. I'm sure a nice mommy will come adopt you really soon. Now go play"

she then put me down and I walked towards the large box of crayons and started to draw hoping the others would leave me alone.

Unfortunately it didnt take long for those hopes to be dashed. One of the people who I assumed ended up here in a similar way to how I did said "hey you seem alright with this. Why's that? You into this shit or something?"

I just continued with my terrible drawing until he walked away. Eventually others came over to draw but left me alone. I noticed they all seemed distraught. Understandable since like me they must've been teleported here maybe even after doing the same stuff I did. Luckily there was nothing in the room that could really hurt anyone so nobody tried to kill themselves to escape this infantile prison.

Soon we were fed and put back into our cribs to nap. This repeated for a few days. A cycle of playing, eating, drinking and sleeping. Occasionally we'd get a new arrival and other times one of the nannies would take one or two of us out of the room presumably to be adopted . One even adopted three at once. Naturally I wasn't one of them. I wasn't shocked at that. Who in their right mind would want to adopt me.

POV abby

"Well here we are. Are you sure you're OK with getting a new baby brother"

once again Ryan nodded and said "yes mommy. I've always wondered what having a brother is like"

to which I responded "well just remember the portal littles here are hurt and need lots of love to feel better so don't get jealous. I'll love you both equally"

I then heard Ryan put the pacifier in his mouth and start sucking on it while in the baby carrier. My precious baby boy was the best thing that had ever happened to me. When Ryan had asked me to adopt him while hanging out one day something just clicked. He was the most important person in the world and I would protect and love him forever.

I remember being shocked when he asked me to adopt him. I was shallow and a bit of a ditz back then. However despite that I accepted. It was two months until graduation but I dropped everything to prepare my recently acquired house for looking after my soon to be baby boy. I still remember my mother's smug face when she saw that and her saying she was the same when she adopted my baby sister.

All my plans were cancelled while I got the nursery set up and got all the toys and diapers he'd need. Even the rest of the cheer team knew what was up when like 2 others prior I'd cancelled all plans. I'd gone full mommy mode and I decided going with girls to get my hair and nails done or go to the bar to get laid was a waste of time and money. like many amazons I could never bear children making sex seem like a waste. I didn't completely stop caring about my appearance. I'm definitely healthy and not fat but everything is natural. 

Motherhood changes an amazon that's for sure. Makes us change our priorities from ourselves to our child. but I still had more love to give. Ryan was happy but I wanted to do something like my mother had and help a little who needed it. Ryan was never unhappy with his life but many are. When I talked to him about this he was supportive. Sometimes I wonder who the real baby is in this relationship as he seems more mature than me at times. He was even the one that suggested molly's company as we were friends and she'd happily get me a reservation to adopt any portal little I wanted. She'd even paid for the surgery that let me produce more milk so I could feed both. I still had to pay to replace some of my clothes as they didn't fit due to my now larger chest. Most of my casual clothes still fit though. 

So that's how I got here. Outside the portal little orphanage. Full of portal littles that couldn't handle life in their dimension. The thought of what they did to get sent here made me tear up.

Yes plenty of dimensions had a portal where littles volunteered to come here to be cared for but this facility was for those who didn't. Those who tried to end their own lives. I internally prepared myself and walked in. When I got to the front desk I said to the receptionist "appointment for abby s stone"and she pointed me to the door on the left.

As we walked down the corridor Ryan took out his pacifier and started a conversation that helped keep me calm "didn't know you had a middle name mommy. What does the s stand for?"

to which I responded "Samantha"

he then said in understanding "that's granny's name right?"

I looked down at the adorable baby and said "that's right. You're such a clever boy"

Soon after we arrived to the door that leads to the one way windows that overlooks the daycare/large nursery the littles are in. There was a fellow amazon close to my mother's age waiting for us. "nice to meet you miss. You're that friend of molly's I assume?"

to which I said "yeah that's me"

she smiled at that and said "alright come with me"

she then opened the door and saw a few other amazons here for the same reason as me. I looked through each of the windows and while on the surface they were full of adorable littles I could see so much pain. Some looked positively miserable while others were better at hiding it and acted more like the babies they resembled but they were still clearly distraught.

In the 3rd window there was one in particular that stood out and I knew he was the one I would adopt. He seemed so... Distant. He didn't even interact with any of the other littles. I wondered why but when I looked into his eyes I saw so much pain and most of all loneliness. Was he in the most pain? Did he need me the most? I didn't know. But I did know I could help him.

Also while I never understood the trait until now many amazons are able to just know they love a little immediately. I used to scoff at that but now? I somehow immediately knew I loved this little. I told one of the employees my choice using the number on their shirt and we went into another room to discuss adoption.

We went over the usual stuff. Background check, questions to see if I could handle two littles and my reason for adopting. Then we got to discussing that specific little. "he's certainly an oddball that one. It's only been a week and he's already accepted that he's a baby it seems."

I was shocked at that. Most native littles took months or even years to realise that The decision to willingly be adopted was never taken lightly.

Portal littles were notoriously unable to accept being a baby weeks or months after being adopted. I guessed my shock was visible because she then said "you think that's a shock? Here's the kicker. He has never resisted our treatment at any point. Never complained and just spends his time drawing alone."

my jaw dropped at that "were littles babies in his dimension as well? I find it hard to believe that the change from adult to baby that suddenly would be easy especially considering... Well" I said not needing to finish that sentence. She knew more about the situation than I did.

She sighed and said "yeah. It worries me. I know he's not happy. You don't chug down a bottle of ethanol expecting to survive but he didn't even react to still being alive. Please for his sake baby-proof the entire house"

I responded by saying "don't worry. It's already impossible for a little to hurt themselves in my house beyond tripping on the carpet or something"

she seemed relieved and put a piece of paper on the table and said "just sign here and an employee will bring him to you in adoption room 5" I didn't even hesitate to sign

Jack POV

I had lost track of time while I was in here. There were windows so I could roughly tell how many days it had been however we had to sleep 3 or 4 times a day. Days here are definitely longer than back home and trying to sleep only once a day would be impossible for me. Waking up in a diaper filled with shit and piss everytime was surprising to say the least. I guessed it was something to do with the juice they give us. Even the ones who didn't want to use their diapers due to being adults before had no choice. I didn't mind to be honest. I expected this when I woke up in nothing but a diaper and a t-shirt with a number on it. I thought it had been about a week and I once again saw one of the nannies coming in to take someone to be adopted. When I was the one picked up my shock was visible. 

She turned me around to face her and said "guess who's getting a new mommy? You are."

she then started tickling me forcing me to laugh. I had to admit it felt good to be picked for adoption. It made me feel wanted so I continued to have small smile on my face as I was carried out. we went into a room marked 'adoption room 5' and I zoned out while the two amazons sorted out the adoption process. While they were doing that I noticed there was another little in the room strapped to a stroller. Unlike the other littles I'd seen he was content to just sit there sucking on a pacifier. I could see a bulge of a diaper underneath his blue romper so he was definitely in a similar situation to me.

He briefly waved at me and I waved back just as the amazons were wrapping up. "here you go" the nanny said as she passed me to the unfamiliar amazon

"hello Little guy I'm going to be your new mommy" she said to me in the type of voice every amazon seems to use to talk to people my size and that is predictably the way you'd talk to a baby. 

"alright little guy would you like to face me or face away?" she asked

I was confused until I saw the carrier she was wearing that would put me right under her huge breasts that oddly enough didn't cause the expected reaction. Instead I could only think of them as milk dispensers as opposed to seeing them in a sexual light. 'Perhaps it's because of how I've been treated. Or has the milk they've been giving me been breast milk?' I thought to myself before saying "facing you mommy. It'll be like giving you a big hug"

she awwww'd at that and obliged while I cringed at my ability to talk like a baby. She wants a baby so I knew I had to act like one to make this work or I'd end up back here waiting for someone else to adopt me. When she put me in the carrier I decided to wrap my arms as far around her as I could to hug her and she hugged me in turn. I had to admit I felt happy in that moment. Loved, protected and wanted. I could feel her moving but didn't fear falling. Somehow I knew I was safe as we went outside to her massive car.

Soon I was out of the carrier and in an infants car seat next to who I guessed was my new brother who was in an identical seat. "ready to go boys?" she asked.

"yes mommy" we both said and off we went to my new home. 'at least temporarily' I thought to myself sadly. 
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OK this took way longer to write than I expected. At the end of my first story I said another would come soon but finals are a bitch and I had to rewrite this because the first version was awful. 

Not to go into specifics but there is a reason jack is so calm about this situation and it's not meant to come off as lazy writing. It'll be revealed next chapter. 

 

[SGTbaby]

Looking forward to the next chapter 

[Guilend]

I’m definitely interested in seeing how this goes

[Moon3ye]

It seems that the authors on this site are always thinking about what they want to write when it comes to DD stories. I can't remember ever starting to read a DD story where I thought, "Nah, I'd rather not". And it's the same here, I'm really excited to see what happens next.

[Jayme]

This story has piqued my interest as well, I'd love to see what happens next.

[bje]

I like how this starts with a mommy who is loving and wants to help. It is also a plus that she already has another adopted little that she consults about the adoption. I am looking forward to the next chapter. I will also read you other story that I didn't notice before.

[Random3435]

11 hours ago, SGTbaby said:

Looking forward to the next chapter 

 

10 hours ago, Guilend said:

I’m definitely interested in seeing how this goes

 

34 minutes ago, Jayme said:

This story has piqued my interest as well, I'd love to see what happens next.

Glad to hear that. I'll try to have chapter 2 up in a few days

 

7 hours ago, Moon3ye said:

It seems that the authors on this site are always thinking about what they want to write when it comes to DD stories. I can't remember ever starting to read a DD story where I thought, "Nah, I'd rather not". And it's the same here, I'm really excited to see what happens next.

I'm in the same boat I've read a decent amount of these and decided to write a couple myself for that reason. 

31 minutes ago, bje said:

I like how this starts with a mommy who is loving and wants to help. It is also a plus that she already has another adopted little that she consults about the adoption. I am looking forward to the next chapter. I will also read you other story that I didn't notice before.

I thought it was a good idea since it makes sense to me at least some of the people who see everyone smaller than them as their children would be that way. Also considering how the adoption happened it makes sense she'd treat him as somewhat of an equal who just needs to be taken care of due to his small size. I know it's uncommon with DD stories but I wanted to start with a couple more lighthearted stories before I inevitably start writing about cruel and evil amazons who brainwash and harm littles. 

Thanks for the feedback 

[Random3435]

Chapter 2

Soon enough I saw we were in a driveway beside what was to me an absolutely massive house but here it was probably a fairly standard two storey house. Ryan was unbuckled from his seat first and slowly placed on the ground and walked up to the door. Oddly enough mommy insisted on carrying me to the door. 'wait I'm already comfortable calling her mommy?' I thought to myself as she carried me.

I thought nothing of the fact that she was carrying me and I assumed she just thought I'd prefer that. She wasn't wrong if that was the case. It was hard to explain but being held by her just made me feel safe and loved. Soon she opened the door and walked into what I assumed was the living room.

Mommy put me down and put Ryan in the playpen that was in the living room and said "now stay here and play while I change your little brother OK."

to which he simply responded "yes mommy" and she then picked me back up and carried me upstairs.

Considering the height I was at and the fact that I was going up made me instinctively hold onto mommy. I was never a fan of heights. Too many bad experiences with those. I realised pretty quickly that my head was buried in her chest. Normally this would have two results. An uncomfortable stiffness in my underwear or diaper in this case and me being kicked in the balls by her. I guessed the second part didn't happen because to her I'm just a baby. As for the first part I genuinely didn't know. 'what the hell is going on? Am I already conditioned to not feel that?' normally I'd be in agony from being pent up for so long but that hadn't happened either.

We entered a room but I wasn't sure what room it was as my head was still buried in mommies chest and was focused on what happened to my mind and body anyway. I was placed on a changing table and instead of just changing my diaper she took off my shirt first and then changed my diaper. The fresh one was definitely thicker than previous ones. I wasn't sure if I'd even be able to walk with it on. I might need to crawl. "since your new to this I'm starting you with a crawler diaper. If you don't like it please tell mommy OK?"

it didn't feel uncomfortable so I said "OK mommy. It feels good for now"

she then carried me downstairs and on the way said "I'm so glad you're already used to calling me mommy. Most littles take a long time especially portal littles. You have no idea how happy that makes me"

it's hard to explain but I could hear the love and affection oozing out of her words. She wasn't lying. She was definitely happy. It makes sense people in this situation would normally take time to adapt. They'd be getting used to having a different mother after all. Soon we entered the living room. 

There was a large playpen with some toys in it that I was carefully placed in. Ryan was there playing with the blocks and there were a couple stuffies next to him. "now you two get to know each other while mommy makes herself some dinner. Don't worry you'll get milkies soon enough"

she the walked into a nearby room presumably the kitchen. Taking her advice I was about to start a conversation when Ryan beat me to it. "so. You doing OK?"

I was puzzled as to why that's the first thing he said so I asked "why do you ask? Do I seem troubled?"

he then sighed and said "look I'm not going to beat around the bush like mommy will. I know you tried to kill yourself. That's how portal littles end up in that facility"

once again I was shocked. Not at what he said since I'd figured that out ages ago but it was odd to see such things said by someone so infantile. I also didn't expect him to be so blunt. He wasn't exactly wrong either. 

I held up my hands and said "well you got me. I assumed you didn't know"

he then looked at me in confusion and said "you seem oddly calm about this whole thing. You killed yourself, got sent to another dimension and now ended up in a lifetime of babyhood. Yet you're so calm."

I just shrugged and said "yeah. I guess it is odd. Guess my brain is just numb from this insanity"

there was a real reason I was calm but I didn't want to risk my new mommy hearing it. I decided to take the chance to talk about him so he'd stop being nosy and said "OK so how'd you end up here then? Same as me?"

he then said "nah I'm from this dimension. I met mommy in highschool. We graduated the same year so I thought she'd make a good mommy so I asked her to adopt me. Fast forward a few months and she does so at graduation. That was about a year ago"

that made me briefly pause. I was smaller than Ryan so I was probably younger in their eyes but these two are the same age as each other. In fact they're likely younger than me. 

"yeah most aren't willing at first but at graduation every little who tries to run gets caught and adopted. It's why many choose their mommy beforehand"

Ryan said. "Why's that? If adopting littles is so common why wait till graduation?"

Ryan responded by saying "can't until the little is 18 and not until they graduate unless there is a good reason like if they poop themselves. This country is the best in the world for little protection but pretty much every little gets adopted"

OK so that told me a lot. I knew about the little/amazon power dynamic and that littles were treated like babies from back home but that last part alarmed me "what are other countries like?"

he then grimaced at that "other than the few island nations of free littles they're all different levels of cruel. It's messed up. They see us as babies yet they hurt us and do cruel surgeries. You don't want to know. You're safe here though so don't worry"

I couldn't help but be shaken by that. At least I was left intact and no surgery was done other than presumably what got the ethanol out of my system. 

Ryan gave me a hug and said "look it's fine. Do you think I'd willingly be adopted by someone who's not nice?"

That was a revelation "wait so some people here actually do this willingly?"

I asked referring of course to the baby treatment. Ryan laughed and said "yeah. I was gonna get adopted anyway. Might as well make sure I snag a good one"

I then heard mommy say "funnily enough I was thinking of something similar. Gotta adopt someone might as well pick someone who knows what's best for them" 

She then sat down with a plate full of a meat I didn't recognise. She simply started eating and watching us. Not even bothering to watch TV or anything. The difference in maturity between her and me and Ryan was obvious. We really did look like babies so it makes sense this dynamic exists. Ryan was still wearing a blue romper and I just had a diaper on. Mommy looked legitimately beautiful but she wasn't like many young women I knew back home. she looked pretty but didn't seem the type to waste hours in front of the mirror which was good considering she had two babies to take care of.

She simply wore a t-shirt, jeans and sandals. She was naturally beautiful and there was a maternal warmth radiating from her. We were her world as cliche as that sounds. It was clear her focus was on us and not herself. It made me wonder how the hell she was still single.

Soon she finished her dinner watching us the entire time as we played. I was surprisingly proud of the tall Tower of blocks I had built but it came to an end as she then effortlessly picked us both up and sat down on the couch with us on her lap. With the sheer size and strength difference between us and her it wouldn't have even occurred to me that she was younger than me if Ryan hadn't essentially told me.

'maybe that's why he doesn't feel weird being babied by someone who's the same age as him. She's so much bigger and stronger we are babies by comparison' I thought as we were turned around.
 

Next thing I knew I was face to face with the largest breasts I'd ever seen. Yet again I didn't have the usual reaction. This was getting concerning but it would be weird considering the situation so I guessed it was a blessing and that could be the reason. I tried to hide my confusion and looked to my right to see Ryan sucking on her right breast.

It took all of 2 seconds to figure out what he was doing and as if to confirm this mommy said "don't worry little guy. Just try it and if you don't like mommy's milk you can have something else".

Seeing as she expected me to breastfeed I decided to immediately copy Ryan and drink her milk. When the liquid touched my tongue I immediately drank enthusiastically. 'Holy shit what did she do to produce this? And I thought the stuff I got at the adoption facility was good' was all I could think of while I did so.

The rest of my mind was focused on the extraction of the heavenly liquid. She was able to produce tons of it as by the time she was empty I was completely full. 

"did you like it?" I heard over the haze I felt probably from being full of ambrosia.

All I could do was say "I want nothing else" before I fell asleep surprisingly content. The last thing I felt was pee landing in my diaper. 

Abby pov

My heart melted at the sight of my new baby boy sleeping peacefully. I stuck a pacifier in his mouth and he instinctively started sucking on it. I saw Ryan was also looking tired as per usual but he was more used to amazon breast milk's effects so he wasn't sleeping yet.

I started carrying them up to their now shared nursery for a nap and asked on the way up "so how's your new brother doing?"

he looked up at me and said "he's calm. Odd considering his situation and I'm worried he didn't actually tell me why."

I nodded in understanding. Sometimes I forget Ryan is the same age as me despite legally being a baby. I probably would've taken his calmness at face value. "well we'll see how we can help him later. Now you need a nap. We'll get him some new clothes tomorrow and I need to get my maternity leave sorted out" 

As I said that I was already placing them in their shared crib. If either was uncomfortable with the arrangement I had a second crib to separate both of them. I hoped that wouldn't happen as they looked adorable cuddling each other as they slept in a milk induced haze. 'I wonder if he was serious about an all milk diet. I know Ryan loves the stuff but is it that universal? ' I thought as I left the room. 

Jack pov

I woke as per usual in this dimension surrounded by wooden bars. The difference was it was definitely more comfortable than the ones at the adoption place. Kinda like back home when I went from my old mattress I'd had for way too long to a memory foam one. This felt even comfier. I was glad to know that the hyper advanced technology in this dimension had been put to good use. I soon noticed I was being held and it took a minute to realise it was Ryan. "uhhh Ryan. What are you doing?"

he then opened his eyes slowly indicating I'd just woke him up and said "'yawn' what's it look like?"

in a very calm way to which I responded "uhhhhh this is weird on multiple levels"

he looked at me quizzically for a bit before a look of understanding appeared on his face "look we're brothers now. Is it that weird for two baby brothers to hold each other." he said in a tone that suggested he was serious.

"I guess. Just don't get any ideas OK? No offence but I'm straight." 

That caused a worried reaction from Ryan and he simply asked "you don't know do you?"

I looked at him blankly and said "I don't know what?"

he then sighed and said "When they saved you they also removed your sex drive and ability to produce sperm or get hard".

Now it was my turn to be shocked. "what the fuck!? How can you say that so casually? They messed with my brain and body and I'm expected to just accept that?"

he then responded "please for your sake keep the bad language to a minimum mommy won't like it. Yeah it's messed up when you think about it but it's normal for littles here. Besides in this situation it would suck. Can't really relieve yourself y'know?"

he pointed at my thick shit filled diaper for emphasis. I was still unconvinced but I knew there was nothing I could do about it. I immediately changed my opinion on amazons from this one conversation. They're fucked in the head. 

"look on the bright side. Kidnappings here are basically nonexistent as a result" Ryan added.

the implications of that made me go pale. "yeah in other countries littles get kidnapped by little breeders or sold to them. In some cases hypnosis is used to basically make them braindead. You don't want to end up in that situation. That stuff is thankfully illegal here"

I couldn't believe what he just said. Amazon's treat us like babies. They see us as babies and yet they do that to us. I cried at the thought of that. My logical mind knew it wouldn't happen to me but I was still scared. I didn't want to be kidnapped and sold to some sick fuck. I was also horrified that some people just like me ended up like that. This world is fucked. Ryan seemingly sensed this and hugged me tighter. "look it'll be fine. You're safe here" he said while patting me on the back still held. 

"I'm an idiot" I said through fresh tears.

Once again bafflement appeared on Ryan's face "how are you an idiot? You need help me and mommy will give it to you. You're not an idiot for being depressed"

I looked him in the eye and asked "you promise not to tell mommy?"

he nodded and said "I don't like hiding stuff from her but for you I'll make an exception"

I then said something I never planned to tell anyone. I needed to get this off my chest so I quietly said "because I knew they'd teleport me here to save me" 

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And now you know why Jack is so calm about the whole other dimension thing. I swear I didn't pull this out of nowhere I always planned for this twist. 

 

Feedback is appreciated and I promise a full explanation will be in the next chapter. 
 

[maly]

Oooo i like a surprise twist, this is great please keep it going.

Maly.

[SGTbaby]

Like the twist!

[Random3435]

Chapter 3

The cavalcade of shocked reactions continued as Ryan looks like he just blue screened. "what!? How!? That makes no sense!" he said with zero calmness whatsoever

"shhhh I don't want mommy hearing that"

I looked around and listened out for mommy's large footsteps however I heard nothing so I said "if I tell you it must stay secret"

Ryan nodded and I decided to tell him the truth "you know how amazons over here can look into other dimensions and pull littles out of them to bring them here?"

he nodded at that "back in my dimension we were working on the same technology. We got it to the point we could look into other dimensions but not go there"

POV jack
Date: November 6th 2022
Dimension: C-137 (home) 
Location: CL technology, project dimension control room

After 2 years we'd finally gotten the portal to work. Sort of. We could see into other dimensions. Observe them. But we couldn't get anything in or out. This project was something straight out of science fiction and had taken its toll on everyone most of all me. Others had questions about this project. What was its purpose? Why was this started? How in the hell did the ceo know other dimensions existed and how did he create the basis for this project?

I didn't care about any of this. I was tired. The pay was good but work was hell. I just wanted a break and in my field that was impossible. Besides I doubt they'd ever let me leave after having worked on this but since the project was working to a degree we began looking through dimensions for one that fit the CEOs needs. What were those needs? No idea. 

After a few days of searching we came across one that was just bizzare. People our size were treated like babies. Not as some weird fetish stuff but legitimately adopting and caring for them. The people doing this were massive and with the size difference we thought at first littles were babies. I never thought to look at the rest of that world because I was captivated.

As I watched people being adopted by complete strangers and showered with love and affection I felt empty. I shook my head and muttered "are you crazy? You don't want that do you?" to myself.

I likely would've forgotten about it the next day had I not been told it was that dimension the ceo was interested in. I was confused until max clarified "yeah it's a weird place but from how long you looked at it you must've noticed how advanced their tech is"

I simply nodded and said "yeah that's a good point" 

For about a year and 10 months we worked on the portal trying to get it to work so people could go through and we could obtain their technology and we had little luck. Well they had none. I on the other hand had discovered a way out. I wasn't exactly happy. I was on anti-depressants, the company paid for therapy and nothing worked.

I wanted to go to the other dimension. I wanted to experience what a loving family was like even if just for a little bit. I found how to make that happen. I saw they had a portal that could get anyone from anywhere on this planet over there and they did that to help those who couldn't handle adult life anymore.

Nobody suspected anything since they replaced them with a corpse presumably a clone. I then hatched a plan. Sam would text me while they were observing me which had apparently happened many times while I wasn't there (the theory was they couldn't see the underground lab) and I would chug down ethanol only to be saved by the giants. 

Jack POV 
Date: September 15th 2024
Dimension: DD-165 (diaper dimension) 

Ryan took a minute to go from shock to understanding and said "so you found this dimension. Saw what we did"

I then nodded saying "yeah. Only this country though. I saw how littles were treated and that some from my dimension were saved from death and treated with love an affection. I desperately wanted that and well here we are. The plan worked"

Ryan was both shocked and sad. It was visible on his face. "so you didn't want to die. You wanted to escape." he said quietly.

I added "I'm a coward. Before this I wanted to die but couldn't do it. I wanted to be loved. Even if only for a few days. My family are all either dead or abandoned me. I had two choices. Stay in a doomed world and never experience love or come here"

We stayed as we were for a few minutes. When mommy came to take us downstairs and just in time. The combined smell of two smelly diapers was distracting. Ryan kept his word and didn't tell her about my situation. When we got to the spacious living room mommy said "alright my little angel we're going to go get you some clothes and toys after breakfast and a diaper change. OK?"

I was a bit apprehensive about going out in public surrounded by giants but mommy's loving smile was all it took to assure me that I would be safe "thanks mommy" was all I could think to say

I wondered what was for breakfast but then I thought of something "mommy can I pwease have some milk?" I asked in my most babyish voice.

"aw of course you can. You never have to worry about that. If you're hungry just say so and mommy will sort it out"

she then effortlessly lifted me up and took off her shirt so I could start drinking the think, creamy ambrosia she called milk. Soon she sat down and Ryan joined us and just like yesterday he was using the other breast. While we fed mommy said "now once you're both nice and full we're gonna get some nice clothes for my perfect little baby boy."

I was in a haze but I was still able to tell she was talking about me and it felt good. I was happy that she cared about me. Soon we were both done and I fell asleep almost immediately.

I woke up in the car seat from yesterday. I noticed I had a clean diaper so I somehow slept through having it changed. I couldn't stop myself from yawning. That caused mommy to giggle and say "sleep well sleepyhead?"

I was embarrassed by that and said "sorry mommy. I don't know why I keep sleeping like that"

she then said "awww don't be sad. Babies need their sleep and mommy's milkies make babies fall right to sleep. Even wittle Ryan had to nap a little"

the boy in question held his hands up with his pacifier in one hand and said "guilty as charged"

that made me feel a lot better and I saw we were nearing what looked like a massive mall as we parked mommy said "OK so today I'm allowed a day off work since it's a Sunday but tomorrow I have to go to work. Jack would you be OK with going with Ryan to daycare? After that I can get 9 months maternity leave it's just my boss really needs me tomorrow"

I was scared of meeting so many strangers at once especially amazons but I hoped if there was at least one familiar face there I'd be fine. I nodded and said "it's OK mommy. I'm scared but I think I can handle it."

she then got out of the car and opened the trunk. After she got something out of it she opened the door on my side and got me out of the car seat she hugged me saying "thanks for being so brave" before putting me in what I realised was an odd type stroller.

I think it was called a baby carriage and it was for two people so naturally Ryan was next to me. instead of sitting we were lying down in this one there was a cover to shield from sunlight and rain and mommy could easily check on us at any time. There was also a blanket draped over us but our heads were poking out. It was like riding in a giant bed.

we went into the mall and like everything else the place was massive. I looked around and were it not for the size it would look much like a regular mall. Well that and there are way more adult sized babies in strollers and many more stores for childcare supplies. I asked "how can you tell the difference between a grown little and an amazon baby"

as I was wondering if they were all littles since none of them looked like adults at all. Mommy then answered "it is hard to tell isn't it? Most of them are probably littles"

I didn't want to push further for now but made a mental note to ask how she knows that later.

There were some things I observed. Most of the people with babies were amazon women on their own or a few had an even taller amazon man with them. All involved seemed happy but I wondered if there was a stigma against single fathers like back home. Besides that everything was normal. Amazon children were messing around and begging their parents to go to toy stores.

I saw a nearby video game store that was an absolute sausage fest besides a few confused mothers, families were talking to each other at the food court. Infant and toddler childcare was clearly a huge industry here and it seems most amazon women were here for their kids adopted or otherwise. All of this I observed through small gaps since mommy took up a good chunk of my view in this baby carriage. 

Soon enough we were. Stopped by two amazons who asked to see us. They looked a little bit younger than mommy but not by much. "awww they're so adorable" I heard one say.

It felt odd but pleasent to be called that "be careful little Jack was just adopted so he's a little shy" mommy said.

I would've said something but I felt myself being tickled and I couldn't help but laugh so hard I peed. "looks like someone's ticklish"

the other new amazon said she then added "don't worry he likes it. You try."

I gave a thumbs up to reassure her friend that I didn't mind but she just shook her head and said "sorry little guy I'll wait till I have my own little"

they then both left and said "thanks miss" and started talking with each other. I didn't catch much of what they said after that.

"sorry about that Jack. Some amazons like to do that especially when they don't have their own little. Amazon maternal instincts are strong"

I nodded in understanding and said "it's fine they seemed nice"

I noticed we'd walked into a store and I wasn't sure where mommy was going to put the stuff she was buying but she was able to just hold a basket in one hand while pushing the stroller. I couldn't quite see what we were buying but it was obviously for me especially when the cashier asked if she'd adopted recently. When we exited the store she put most of the items in the bottom of the stroller which must've had something there for keeping stuff in but she opened a pack of pacifiers and put one in my mouth.

I noticed an orange like flavour and as if to confirm she said "thought I'd get you some flavoured pacifiers like your brother has. Tell me if you don't like any of them" I nodded and continued sucking on it to confirm it was fine.

Soon we entered another store and was carried out of the stroller. We were in a massive baby clothes store. Not the baby section of a clothes store. The entire thing was for babies. Mommy grabbed a ton of different outfits and moved me and the stroller to the changing rooms.

Luckily these were huge so the stroller fit in. I'd be uncomfortable leaving Ryan alone considering what I knew about other amazons. I then spent the next 20 minutes trying on different infantile outfits. They all fit and I didn't mind any of them so mommy decided to buy all of them. While on the way to pay I said "mommy won't all that be expensive? You don't need to spend so much on me."

mommy then looked at me and said "don't you worry about money. I have plenty and if it really became a problem I have friends who can help. I just want you to be happy"

I fell silent and felt guilt at wasting so much of her money but decided to drop it.

"alright I just need to get some lunch. You still OK with milk jack" mommy asked

I responded "I cant think of anything better" she smiled at that.

I wasn't lying either her milk was amazing. Once we reached the food court she was about to feed us while she waited on her lunch when we were interrupted "hey mind if I have a look"I heard from an unknown voice.

This one was different. Most people here had a light Australian accent just without the slang or dialect.This one sounded more american. Definitely like someone from a northern state and not Southern "may I ask why?" mommy asked.

I could tell already she didn't trust this woman. "I'm not from here and I was told littles were even more cute here and wanted to see if that was true"

it was obvious nobody was buying that but she relented and said "fine but no touching or giving them anything. I don't want them regressed like yours"

"mine isn't regressed. Isn't that right owen"

I then heard the sound of someone popping a pacifier out of their mouth and saying "nope. I'm happy and love my mommy she would never do anything bad to me".

She then looked in the stroller and I was immediately on edge. It was hard to explain but she looked like a predator eyeing her pray. Ryan put an arm over be protectively and said "that's enough. You're scaring him"

she didn't go away immediately but thankfully mommy said "you heard him. stop"

she obliged and turned to her and said "sorry the bigger one seems frustrated. I'm not shocked"

I was angered by what she implied "what? You calling me a bad mother"

the other amazon laughed and said "no of course not. I just think what you do in this country is cruel. Littles may be babies but they're fully grown and have needs unless they're regressed. Instead of helping with that or regressing them you remove those needs. I'd never let my precious Owen get backed up with cummys. Besides I can send it to the breeders so more lovely babies are born"

thankfully mommy interrupted her disturbing view on littles by saying "go away. People like you make me sick. Littles are babies to be taken care of and given love. Not be used as toys to fulfil your sick kinks and bred like animals"

the creepy amazon then walked away and I hoped to never to see her again. She creeped me out and the way she talked about her adopted son creeped me out. 

"I'm so sorry about that. I shouldn't have let that monster come over here" mommy said. Her lunch arrived soon after. "just let me eat this and I'll feed you both and we can go home"

I couldn't help but be happy about leaving this place. Ryan whispered in my ear "judging by her accent and how she said she treats her little she's probably from little hell"

I was confused at the name but Ryan elaborated "oh yeah you don't know what that means. Most other countries are less kind to littles. Her country is the worst so it got the nickname 'little hell'"

soon mommy finished eating and before she could feed us I asked "mommy what did you mean by regressed?"

she sighed and said "in most countries it's not uncommon to use hypnosis to permanently turn their brains to mush. You look like a baby but you don't have the mind of one. Regression forces you to. Some littles here choose to be regressed but it's rare and illegal if they don't consent"

I was scared about that happening but I didn't have time to think about it as mommy was starting to feed us. while I was a bit worried about feeding in public the fact I could now see we weren't the only ones made me feel OK with it. Once again I felt relaxed and soon fell asleep.

I woke up in the car but this time I had a dark blue romper on that was surprisingly comfortable. I wondered how long it would take to get to the point where I'm not immediately dead to the world after feeding. When we got home the same thing happened as last time. At this point I figured she carried me because she was worried I'd fall or something.

She definitely seemed protective and I noticed Ryan was barely tall enough to easily climb the 2 stairs to the front door. We then spent the rest of the day playing in the playpen and watched a movie. Of course it was incredibly infantile and even the actors (the ones that weren't giant anyway) were wearing diapers and wore infantile clothes. I even commented "even littles with jobs wear this stuff?"

to which mommy said "they don't have jobs. It's just something fun to do and they love being on TV. it's adorable"

then Ryan spoke up "mommy could we get on TV someday?" mommy then laughed and said "sure thing little guy. Maybe when Jack is all settled in you two can do that"

I smiled at that. It would be fun. Soon after it was done we were carried up to the nursery to continue playing while mommy made herself dinner before feeding us and putting us in the crib. I noticed a baby monitor nearby so I made sure to avoid talking about anything I didn't want her to hear. 

"hey do you think she heard us last night?" I asked 

Ryan said "probably not. I heard her go outside before we started talking"

that made me feel quite calm and decided to start drawing stuff on one of the pads of paper in the room. When mommy came upstairs I showed her the poorly drawn animals that even by the standards of crayon drawing I knew was bad but she found it adorable and she said she'd put it on the fridge. Once again we drank from mommy's breasts and I fell asleep.

Dream POV

I woke up in a crib but noticed Ryan was nowhere to be seen. I looked around but it was too dark to see. Soon a familiar voice was heard "hey there little guy. Hope you like your new home"

then that creepy amazon showed up seemingly out of nowhere "no. I want my mommy where is my mommy?" I cried out.

Immediately the amazon laughed and said "don't you remember? She doesn't want you anymore. I'm your mommy now."

I couldn't believe it. It had only been two days and already she abandoned me. I couldn't help but cry. the creepy amazon then said "there there it'll be OK. You're no use for the breeders so I'll just have you regressed and you won't mind. Well there won't be much of you to mind" 

Awake POV
When I woke up I was sweating and tears were going down my face. I noticed Ryan was awake and he asked "you OK? You were moving around in your sleep and crying"

I then responded "I had a horrible dream" while still crying.

Soon mommy ran through the door and picked me up "are you OK? What's wrong?" I then told her.

"bad dream. Please can we stay like this for a bit?"

mommy sat in a chair that was in the nursery and said "of course. Mommy's here for you" I continued to cry into her chest for a while. 

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OK so first of all sorry this took so long. I had to change some stuff as I changed my mind about where to take this story and it's really hot over here and that makes it hard to focus. 

 

Next chapter will be Jack's early introduction to daycare and the chapter after that I'll actually try and develop Jack and his mommy as characters. I feel I haven't really done that yet. 

 

Hopefully I can write something good as I've never been great with writing good characters. 

As for the accents please don't read into it I don't hate Americans or think they're evil I just went with a random accent to make it clear they're not from there but still have them speak English. Also the reason I gave everyone else australian accents is literally just because "LOL Australia is a nanny state so I'll make this litteral nanny state diaper dimension Australia" joke sorry if that offends anyone 

[SGTbaby]

This read fine. I like the outing to the mall but wonder how Daycare will go. So additional background or even a POV from jack’s company now could be interesting. But looking forward to it either way!

[LtlGary]

Really loving the story so far. Keep up the good work cause I can't wait for the next chapter!

[Random3435]

12 hours ago, SGTbaby said:

This read fine. I like the outing to the mall but wonder how Daycare will go. So additional background or even a POV from jack’s company now could be interesting. But looking forward to it either way!

There will definitely be some of that but not much as it's not that important to this story other than being how he knew about the other dimension. They will be important for a future story that I'm thinking of writing though. 

10 hours ago, LtlGary said:

Really loving the story so far. Keep up the good work cause I can't wait for the next chapter!

Good to hear. Hopefully the next chapter won't take over a week 

[Guilend]

I’m not a fan of having someone’s sex drive taken away, it would be torture for me. But having sad that you are writing a lovely story here and I shall continue to read it just because how well it’s written and because the storyline is very good. Thank you for sharing your talent with us. 

[Random3435]

5 hours ago, Guilend said:

I’m not a fan of having someone’s sex drive taken away, it would be torture for me. But having sad that you are writing a lovely story here and I shall continue to read it just because how well it’s written and because the storyline is very good. Thank you for sharing your talent with us. 

I agree it's messed up to mess with a person like that. Hope you didn't get the idea that I thought that was a good thing. I don't. The point is that while for the most part amazon's in that specific country see themselves as nice and caring they're controlling just like they are in most stories. Yeah in the end abby cares for Jack and Ryan and she's not a villain but that doesn't mean she's immune to the controlling nature of amazons. She's just a different type of controlling than the other amazon that briefly appeared. 

Any future story I write won't have that happen so if that's a sticking point for you any future stories I write will be free from that. Thanks for the feedback BTW I don't consider myself a great writer but I try and I'm glad you've enjoyed this so far

[Guilend]

5 minutes ago, Random3435 said:

I agree it's messed up to mess with a person like that. Hope you didn't get the idea that I thought that was a good thing. I don't. The point is that while for the most part amazon's in that specific country see themselves as nice and caring they're controlling just like they are in most stories. Yeah in the end abby cares for Jack and Ryan and she's not a villain but that doesn't mean she's immune to the controlling nature of amazons. She's just a different type of controlling than the other amazon that briefly appeared. 

Any future story I write won't have that happen so if that's a sticking point for you any future stories I write will be free from that. Thanks for the feedback BTW I don't consider myself a great writer but I try and I'm glad you've enjoyed this so far

I never thought you thought it was. It is a different DD and it’s a good addition in my opinion. I’m just happy you’re able to write and do so well doing so. If you write your other stories this well then believe me I’ll be reading them as well. 

[Yas9119]

ah yes Dimension C-137 i see what you did there XP

[Random3435]

Chapter 4

After about two minutes I was able to stop crying. "there there little guy. Are you OK now?" mommy said.

I nodded "yeah. Sorry I ruined your shirt"

she laughed at that and said "don't worry about that I can just put on another one"

as if to prove a point she put me back in the crib and took off her tear stained shirt leaving her with nothing but a nursing bra on the top half of her body and walked out of the room. Luckily the curtains were closed. I didn't want creepy guys seeing mommy like that. Soon she came back in another shirt and removed out clothes. Mine were covered in sweat so I was thankful. "now do either of you have a present for mommy coming?" mommy asked.

We both shook our heads and she removed our diapers but I was confused when after wiping the piss and shit we didn't get changed. Instead she carried me and Ryan to the bathroom. The bathtub was already filled with water and some toys. When we entered I saw myself in the mirror and did a double take. When she put us down I said "mommy can you lift up up to the mirror?" she answered by carrying me over to the mirror.

I hadn't seen myself since I came here and I looked like a completely different person. All the hair I had besides the hair on my head was completely removed. Not only that but most of my muscle mass was gone. I still had all my fat but I didn't look obese it just looked like I had normal baby fat. The last thing I noticed was that I looked visibly younger.

Back at the adoption facility I thought I was the oldest there as few looked any older than late teenagers but here I was with face I had in my mid teens at most despite being in my late 30s. I was amazed "I look so young. How did this happen?"

I was placed in the bathtub on the side away from the taps which is where Ryan was. I briefly felt a bit embarrassed about sharing a bath with him but I soon that feeling went away. As mommy started to bathe us she said "when they saved you they did a bunch of other stuff. I don't really understand it but there's a machine that permanently gets rid of hair and a few years ago it became possible to de-age littles using nanites"

I couldn't believe what I was hearing. Removing body hair was believable but de-ageing? That was insane. "you don't mind that do you? If it's a problem it's reversible" mommy said while I was staring blankly just thinking about it.

I looked up at her and said "nah. This is great and besides I think this look suits me more"

she smiled at that and said "I didn't want to say anything but I think you look adorable like that"

I couldn't help but be happy about that. I then added "I guess it is a fresh start. I essentially got more than 20 years of my life back"

both mommy and Ryan seemed unphased by that although Ryan commented "must be weird having me be the older brother even though your like twice my age"

I laughed a bit at that "yeah but I don't mind" 

The rest of the bath was fairly uneventful. Me and Ryan were careful not to splash any water while playing. I was a bit surprised that mommy had seemingly no reaction to how quickly I had adapted. Back home I never would've acted this childishly but here it was natural. Maybe I did belong here.

Soon enough we were done and despite saying I could do it myself mommy insisted on drying me and Ryan. when drying I was red as a tomato when mommy was drying my uhhhhh well you know. Yeah I still wasn't used to that yet and that was why I wanted to do it myself. We were then changed into fresh and very infantile outfits and before we knew it I was asleep in the car. Yeah that milk still knocked me right out at this point but the naps weren't lasting as long as I woke up before we got to daycare. 

I decided just to look out the window of the large SUV and it looked like any other town just way larger. It really put into perspective how small I really was in this world. The only real difference was just like at the mall there were way more babies. Whether they were amazons or littles was beyond me especially now I realised how young they could make an adult my size look.

At one point we stopped at a red light and on the sidewalk I noticed an amazon with what was clearly an adult in a stroller. He looked a bit older than I currently look but he seemed completely out of it. There was no intelligence in those eyes. I wondered if he was regressed. Soon enough we continued to the daycare and it looked just as you would expect. Just a normal large building although it looked closer in size to what I expected from a school here. 

We got out of the car and I was carried while Ryan walked over to the front door. We got to the front desk and mommy said "excuse me I booked these two in for today"

the person behind the desk asked "names?" and mommy responded "Jack and ryan Stone"

and the person behind the desk started typing on her computer and when she stopped she turned and said "Do you have anything specific you'd like us to feed them?"

and mommy placed the bag I hadn't realised she was carrying on her shoulder onto the desk and said "yeah I have them both on an all milk diet and there are bottles of milk I pumped in that bag. They're marked with their names."

she then took the bag and said "OK just drop them off at room 3 and I'll make sure this bag gets to the nannies in a minute"

mommy then added "one last thing I adopted Jack just a couple days ago and he's a portal little so please be patient if he's uncomfortable with the others"

The other woman then said "awww is the little guy shy? Don't worry Jack you don't have to play with anyone you don't want to I know it's hard for portal littles"

I noticed a bit of sadness in her expression and wondered if she somehow knew how I got here or if mommy signaled it to her in some way. We were then carried to a door that said room 3 on it and mommy opened it. Inside was a massive soft looking room. The floor looked like I could fall from my mommy's arms and I'd have a soft landing but still sturdy enough to run on evidently by the 30 or so littles doing so. There were plenty of toys, a massive ball pit, a few slides and everyone seemed to be enjoying themselves.

A woman who I assumed was one of the nannies came up to us and said "awww is this the new guy?" obviously referring to me

"yeah I wanted to use my maternity leave to help us bond some more and y'know get him used to all this but I'm desperately needed at work. I managed to negotiate a longer leave though so hopefully that'll make it up to this little guy"

the other woman then said "that sucks but hopefully he's OK. If he's uncomfortable we'll try and help him out OK. Now you better get going. Wouldn't want you to be late"

mommy then turned me to face her and I thought I saw tears but she wasn't outright crying "OK Jack be careful and I'm sorry for leaving you here so soon. I promise to make it up to you"

she then hugged me before putting me down and leaving. I didn't know what I was expected to do so I just followed Ryan.

For about an hour I had more fun than I could even remember having before. You wouldn't think that was the case but just not having to worry about being judged for immaturity and having friends to play with for once made it a blast. I was never exactly an extrovert but the other littles were very easy to get along with and many just wanted to help me adapt. These were by far the nicest people I had ever met besides mommy and Ryan.

Unfortunately after that hour was up I was given a painful reminder that kids can be truly horrible. I saw a girl approach me while we were messing around with some of the toys. She had a pink onesie with a very visible diaper bulge and her blonde hair was in pigtails and there was a scawl on her face. I asked her "what's wrong? Did you want to play with us?"

she scoffed and said "why would anyone want to play with a freak like you?"

I didn't understand what I had done to deserve this so I asked "how am I a freak?

she looked at me like I was an idiot and said "you're a portal little. Let me guess. You were some reject nobody cared about so you got here. You're from a place where you're supposed to be an adult but you ended up here. Anyone from there would call you a freak"

Ryan interjected "that's enough Kate you always do this"

she then said something that really struck a nerve "you want to make your mommy happy? Get regressed then you can at least pretend to be a normal baby"

I sat there motionless and Ryan looked about ready to punch her in the face but luckily someone came to the rescue. An amazon picked up Kate and said "how dare you say something so horrible. You're going in time out to think about what you've done"

she then carried her over to the cribs on the other side of the room and put her in one. She then came back and said "are you OK?"

I was on the verge of crying but I looked up and nodded but then I immediately freaked out. The woman looked like a younger version of the creepy woman from the mall, she even had the same blonde hair and her accent was similar. Ryan saw this and held me saying "stay cool she's alright. She's from that horrible place but she's cool"

She nodded at that "yeah new littles usually react like that but I've actually protested for little protection back home. It's why I'm here because they want rid of me."

Ryan then added "yeah she's living over here until the heat is off. So in about a year she's going back. It's a shame too because she's great and been offered a permanent job here"

I then responded saying "well if Ryan says you're cool then I trust you. Sorry I freaked out you look a lot like some creepy amazon we met at the mall."

she seemed worried about that "uh did she have the same hair colour as me, wear too much makeup and have a little called owen with her?"

I nodded and she said "oh god why is my mother in this here of all places!? Don't worry I'm nothing like her. She's sick. I've seen how she treats Owen and it's messed up"

I reassured her that I trusted her and she stuck around and played with us for a bit. She genuinely seemed to care about us and not in the way her mother "cared" about littles and it helped distract from what Kate said although I didn't forget it. I assumed that was the reason she joined us. That and she stopped me from falling off the slide. It probably wouldn't have hurt much but I appreciated that. 

Soon enough it was time for lunch and a nap. I was already tired from playing for hours so I didn't have a problem with being put in a crib. I was given a bottle and the amazon said "my name is Jessica by the way"

I then said "thanks nanny Jessica. I'm 'yawn' glad some people even from bad places can be good. Makes me hopeful"

she then smiled and said "me too little guy. Me too"

I blushed a bit and said "you're very pretty. Way nicer than your mommy"

I wasn't lying either even with my uhhh altered mind I knew she was good looking. Not sure why I brought it up but I just did. Maybe it was to make her feel better after I was scared of her she then said "daaaaw you little charmer you. Now drink up."

as I put the nipple of the huge bottle in my mouth. It was easily half a gallon of milk. It wasn't as fresh but it was still delicious. When I finished Jessica took the bottle and said "sleep tight my little angel"

I woke up to Jessica's smiling face "wakey wakey cutie"

she poked me lightly with a long bright pink nail so I joked "alright I'm up. stop. Don't want you to be the one crying when you break a nail"

she giggled at that and carried me out of the crib and changed my diaper making sure to tickle me while she did it. I noticed the others were in a circle so I sat next to Ryan when I got down from the changing table. Kate glared at me for a bit but she was easily ignored. "there's the sleepy head"

one of the other nannies said I then said "sorry about that I'm not used to how sleepy mommy's milk makes me"

she then responded "that's fine we're not mad are we?"

and everyone immediately responded "no we're not mad"

at the same time. After that the nanny spoke up "we're just about to start talking a little bit about ourselves just to get to know each other since you're new. Why don't you start?"

I then froze up. I never really liked telling anyone about myself since well... People don't exactly like me but I tried. " uh what's to say? My name's jack, I'm a portal little, I got here a few days ago and my mommy is the best thing to ever happen to me"

the nanny then asked "and what does your mommy do?" I then froze up and said "uh she..."

Ryan saved me by whispering "she's a doctor at a hospital for littles"

I then continued "she's a doctor at a hospital for littles"

then everyone started giving more detailed descriptions of themselves and their parent or parents and I wondered to myself 

'I really don't know anything about mommy. Am I just using her? I love her don't I?'

after everyone was done we got back to playing and after about 2 hours mommy came to take us back home. When we got in the car she asked "did you two have fun?"

we both said "yes mommy"

but Ryan added "unfortunately Kate tried to ruin it. Again"

mommy sighed and said "I will never understand why she hates portal littles. Sorry about her"

I then reassured her "it's not your fault. By the way when we get home can I talk to you for a bit. There's... Something I want to get off my chest"

both mommy and Ryan looked concerned by that but mommy said "sure thing. We got a long ride home so do you two want some milk?"

we both responded "yes please mommy"

and she parked the car on the side of the road and pulled out the massive bottles from the bag she gave the woman at the front desk earlier. I chugged that stuff down and predictably I fell asleep. When I woke up I was on a changing table. Mommy was about to start changing my soaked diaper and she noticed I was awake. She said "hey, you. You're finally awake"

I then said "yeah sorry your milk makes me do that"

she then changed me and said "Ryan's upstairs playing so you have me to yourself. What did you want to talk about?" 

I then mustered up the courage to say "please don't take this the wrong way. Would you be happier if I was regressed?"

mommy looked so sad she even cried "why would you think that? Was it Kate that made you think that"

I then said "I'm sorry but I just needed to know. I'm nothing but a burden. I've always been a burden. I just want you to be happy. You make me happy. If me being less difficult and me being more like an actual baby makes you happier it's worth it"

She then said "and I want you to be happy. You're not a burden. You're my perfect little baby boy. You don't have to change. You're hurt. I want to heal you"

I then put into words the one thing that had been eating away at me this entire time. "there is another reason"

mommy then asked "what?"

I struggled to say it but eventually I managed to get it out through the tears "because I figured if my mind was gone it would hurt less when you abandon me" 

End chapter 

Yeah I keep apologising for the long waits but unfortunately I had the flu for like a week. I swear I'm cursed. this happened while writing my last story as well. Anyway the next chapter definitely won't take this long. I'll try to get it out before I get my first of two covid vaccines in July cause I don't know how I'll react to it. Thanks for your patience and sorry for the wait
 

[Pierry Louys]

Great chapter very emotional!! This story is definitely pushing some buttons is really great to. See a new perspective in a diaper dimension story  

[the diaper mike]

Awesome chapter welcome back please continue with this awesome story

[maly]

The wait is worth it when we get a quality chapter like that. Thanks.

Maly.

[SGTbaby]

Glad you are feeling better! Great chapter by the way! Very sweet and sad all at once.

[Jayme]

On 6/23/2021 at 6:31 AM, Random3435 said:

because I figured if my mind was gone it would hurt less when you abandon me"

This hits the feels with a giant war axe.... I hope he gets the reassurance that it won't happen...

[Random3435]

Chapter 5

Abby pov
I sat there completely dumbstruck. We'd only known each other for a few days but we had already bonded. He was my son. My precious baby boy. Ryan's little brother. Yet he was genuinely scared I would abandon him. I imagined that scenario. Never being able to see him again and leaving him to await another adoption and I cried. I couldn't live with myself if I did that. What mother could live with abandoning her baby?

Ryan would be devastated at losing his younger brother. He had already taken the role of the protective older brother so they were definitely close. I could never do that to Ryan. I hugged jack tightly but not so much as to harm him. Littles are delicate as their size suggests and now I was scared he would disappear if I didn't hold him tightly. It was completely irrational but I didn't care. We sat there for a few minutes crying into each other until I finally decided to say "Jack. You're my son. I would never abandon you"

he looked hopeful for about a second before that was seemingly crushed and he asked "why would you? Why would anyone want me? I'm garbage to be thrown away"

I had no idea what caused this mindset so I had to know "why do you think like that?"

Jack POV

I really wanted to accept what mommy said. I desperately wanted to believe I would live a happy life with her forever but I knew that was a pipedream. So I answered her question with "because I'm a burden. You could easily get someone better. A little that doesn't have to take time to adapt and be what you want them to be. Maybe you'd have time to find love and have babies that will actually grow up"

mommy gasped at that and said "Jack. Don't be silly. You're hurt I'm aware of that. I knew when I first saw you and I wanted to help you, to heal you. I don't care if you're a little different. In fact I find it cute and as for that second point do you know one of the reasons amazons have such a strong maternal instinct for littles?"

I shook my head. I hadn't even thought about it. I realised I really knew nothing about mommy despite how close I felt we were. It felt like a lie. I never took the time to learn about who she is as a person. I was selfish. Yet another reason for her to abandon me. She then told me something that made me feel horrible for her "it's not just because littles are as helpless as babies. It's because many amazons are sterile for some reason. I'm in that boat. I will never be able to give birth"

I felt like a monster right then and there. All I ever do is fuck up over and over again. Constantly saying things and not knowing or even really considering how people feel about what I'm about to say. Once again I started crying "I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry. I didn't mean to hurt you like that I..."

she then put I finger on my lips and said "shhhh don't worry. You did nothing wrong"

I then cried out "LIAR!"

mommy was shocked and asked "why would you say I'm lying?"

I of course responded by saying "I just reminded one of the only two people to ever care about me that she'll never have children"

she then reassured me "you're wrong. I do have children. Two precious baby boys I will love and cherish forever. I don't care about you both not coming out of me. You and Ryan are my sons and I'll never let anything get in the way of that. As for being unable to give birth you didn't know. You couldn't have known but I got over that pretty much immediately after I found out"

I then asked "but wouldn't you rather have more time to find someone to love on equal terms? You're a wonderful mother and you deserve to have someone to find love or even get married one day. I don't want you to be lonely"

mommy laughed at that "I used to think like that honestly but motherhood is more fulfilling and as long as I have you and Ryan I'll never be lonely. Besides we all know there's only one thing they'd be thinking about"

we both laughed at the obvious joke "don't worry I have plenty of friends who are amazons. You'll meet them soon enough" 

I desperately wanted to believe her I really did. I said to her "trust me. You don't want me. My family from back home didn't want me so why would anyone?"

mommy looked at me shocked "what do you mean your family didn't want you?"

I then sighed and said "exactly what I said. They all abandoned me one day. I was only about 2 years old so I don't remember them but they abandoned me and I haven't seen them since. I spent my entire childhood in an orphanage. Nobody wanted to adopt me because I was a freak. What you're holding in your arms are damaged goods. You got the trash nobody wanted. I wandered if being regressed would make me a better son for you so I asked"

I then cried into her shirt. I couldn't help it but I finally continued. "the one time someone cares about me and I use them. I deserve to be thrown away"

mommy looked at me and said "you haven't used me. I'm your mother it's my job to take care of you. To make sure you're happy. I want to help you to heal the damage done. You're not garbage"

I had a melancholy laugh at that "yes I have used you. I told Ryan. I should've told you but I was scared you'd abandon me if I did...."

I then told her the same story I told Ryan. About how I knew about this dimension, how I knew I'd end up here and how I knew what life it would lead to. I then said with tears in my eyes "so you see you're not even helping someone that needs it. You're helping someone that selfishly left his one world to live the carefree life they wanted. I don't need help. I don't deserve your love. I should've been left to die that day"

I then suddenly heard Ryan who I thought was sleeping say "you're wrong. Just because you knew what would happen doesn't make you selfish and it doesn't mean you don't need help. You do. You were miserable in your old world. We want you to be happy"

mommy clearly agreed as she added "he's right. You're hurt. I noticed that when I first saw you. How you got here doesn't matter to me. I love you and want to help you so will you let me?"

it took some more comforting words and reassuring after that but they had finally gotten through my thick skull and I relented. "I would love nothing more. Thanks for giving me a chance. I love you too. Both of you. I'll try to be a good son."

ryan then climed onto the couch and we had a group hug. It felt nice to be loved and held like this. I wasn't absolutely confident but I felt much better. I wasn't worried about being abandoned anytime soon and hopefully I would be able to adapt to my new role in life so that would never happen. There was still a small nagging in the back of my mind that it was too good to be true but it wasn't at the forefront of my mind. Soon we broke off the hug, we got fed more milk and I still fell asleep really quickly.

The next day I woke up in the crib and my nose immediately picked up on an awful stench. I asked "hey Ryan. I haven't eaten in days how do I keep pooping?"

he then sleepily shrugged "I don't know. Maybe amazons put something in their milk to make us poop. They seem to love changing stinky diapers."

that made me think 'why do amazons want to look after a child at it's most helpless for so long? Seems like a huge hassle to have a permanent baby. Amazons are weird'

soon we did the standard routine of getting changed, washing and then drinking before I woke up in mommy's arms while she quietly sung to herself. I didn't want to interrupt so I just stayed there listening. When she stopped I said "you have a nice singing voice mommy"

she went red at that and Ryan who I just realised was also being held right next to me said "trust me I've been telling her since highschool and she still won't believe me"

we both laughed at that but I felt bad when I saw how red mommy was getting so I stopped and hugged her trying to reassure her "don't worry mommy it's OK to be shy about singing in front of people"

she chuckled at that and said "sometimes I wonder who the baby in this house is" 

honestly she had a point. Despite being taken care of like the babies we resembled nobody minded that we didn't talk like babies. Not fully anyway. I had certainly adopted more infantile mannerisms over the last few days. I wondered if maybe that was because they wanted both to fulfill the needs of their maternal instincts but also want a friend or close family member they can talk to. It was nice but it got me thinking.

I decided to put these thoughts into words "mommy I've been thinking. This arrangement is wonderful for us. We get taken care of by a loving mommy and live the lives of fairly carefree infants but what do amazons get out of it? It seems unfair to me"

mommy pondered that for a second and responded "well amazon women want to be mommies but most can't do it naturally so we adopt. It feels really good to take care of you, it's hard to explain but it just does. Well that and breastfeeding feels really good on top of helping with bonding Besides littles are absolutely adorable" she then started tickling us both and we couldn't help but laugh.

We just sat there talking for a bit when Ryan said "hey did Jack tell you about his new girlfriend?"

I went red and asked "what are you talking about?"

Ryan gave me a sly grin and said "don't pretend you don't know. Jessica would be very upset if she heard you say that"

mommy laughed and I went even more red in the face and said "she's not my girlfriend. That would be weird and probably illegal"

mommy then spoke up over relentless laughing "oh does little baby Jack have a crush on the pretty daycare lady?"

Ryan then added "well he did call her pretty and they were talking for quite a while"

I don't think I could get any more red but that was proven wrong and I yelled "oh come on I'm not even capable of feeling that anymore"

mommy then held me closer and said "we're only messing with you don't worry. I'm not upset. She seems like nice girl. Just because you don't feel those adult feelings you can still like girls it's not like they put a 'make girls yukky' chip in there"

I then saw the humour in the whole thing and laughed "don't worry mommy she can't replace you. I won't let her take me away"

mommy laughed and said "and I would never let her do that either. Nothing wrong with complementing her though and I'm sure it brightened up her day being called pretty by a cute boy like you"

I blushed and said "am I really cute or are you just saying that? I was always told I was ugly."

mommy then got serious or at least appeared to and "no more of that. You're perfect and adorable and I won't let you put yourself down like that" 

After we were finished laughing and making me feel better it was nearly time for lunch but mommy suddenly asked "would you to like to go the zoo?"

Ryan seemed excited at the prospect and it took me a second to reach the same enthusiasm. I had never been there back home but here it was probably full of animals that didn't even exist in my world so we both excitedly said "yes mommy".

She then said "alright Jack would you mind if we went with one of my friends and her little?"

I nodded and said "yes if she's friends with you she must be nice"

mommy nodded and said "I called ahead earlier and she needs to get herself and her daughter ready so you two can have lunch first"

I rolled my eyes and said "women am I right?"

referring to the need to get ready and even mommy laughed at that one "yeah she's not as bad as she used to be but she still doesn't seem to get what casual means"

we then started feeding and at this point I wouldn't be shocked if I was incapable of eating actual food any more. While I was used to the milk by now I wasn't able to resist the sleeping pill like effect so I fell asleep. I was excited to go to the zoo and meet a new potential friend. I was never good at making friends but this should be easier than back home. 

 

End chapter 

 

A shorter chapter this time. Not by a massive margin but it is. I couldn't see a better point to end it than here. Next chapter Jack makes more friends and it should be an uplifting chapter after that one more chapter and it'll be all over. Can't really add conflict at this point since Jack has accepted his new role so not much I can add after that (I really need to put some kind of antagonist in my stories at some point.)

Sorry if this scene seemed a bit rushed considering what happened in it but it's the best I could do. Sorry about making you wait so long again but I get my first covid vaccine and I don't know what fun side effects I get so it might take a bit. Sorry in advance for when I inevitably procrastinate and take 2 weeks to write one chapter. Again