I fully admit I have only tried cheap drug store brands, so this is purely wish list stuff.
really thick between my legs
very absorbant/leak proof
noisy
not a pull up... i want them to open and slide under my butt
I would say it is definitely sexual for me. I mean -- there are comforting nonsexual aspects of it -- but putting myself in that situation is a definite "starter" for me.
Yes, I remember. I was 16. I had been chatting online with a guy for a couple of months. It started friendly... turned sexual and eventually turned into sort of a daddy/little girl thing. It wasn't something I had put much thought into but it "fit". Or maybe I was just an impressionable age. It moved to diapers at some point and I have been an off-and-on user since then.
I am new to this board, too... also tend to be very shy. Like you, I've never talked to a real person about it. My issues are not medical -- mental/emotional and sometimes sexual -- but I would guess I land on the 2 to 5 age. Hugs.