Bladderbrain

Sorry for the delay. I really am bad at grammar and try my best to get all the missing words in correctly before I post. Any way you don't care about my grammar, hope you enjoy installment one. -_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_- The sled wasn't covered in silver bells, no it really wasn't fancy at all. It wasn't painted red, in fact it wasn't painted at all. There weren't gold runners, just plain steel. It was hearty, not showy. There were not presents on this sled, just furs and blankets. No hot cocoa, but there were supplies for those in need. This wasn't the sleigh ride that was pulled by 8 tiny reindeer. No, that was in another stable. This sled was pulled by 4 large polar bears. The bears upset the reindeer, so they had needed a second stable. They were not cute or fancy. They were intimidating and large. No, this was not Santa's sleigh, and as she surveyed it she realized it suited her and her mission much better. The big man was a joyful man, he had always made her smile, but he had a flair for the fancy. That wasn't her style. She preferred to get the work done and be prepared for the next thing. It had been this way since she had been brought here. What a day that had been. Santa had seen her work, though limited by her means she had always done what she could. Back then it was 4 dogs though, there was no magic to her work. Now she had the power of Christmas. Reminiscing, her mind wandered to when she had first met Santa in the flesh. It was quite the shock when she had arrived home to the sleigh, THE sleigh, in front of her house. Her precious cargo wrapped in the folds of the sled. He had let himself inside, presumably by the chimney, at least that's what she assumed later and he was entertaining the rest of her family with stories. He had found cookies and milk somewhere and was devouring a plate. Always the sucker for sweets, Santa was never without a candy cane or a cookie or candies of all types. At least it kept him plump and jolly. All that sugar may even be the source of his jolliness. Who knew? When she entered he never even looked up until the story was over. Her guard had been up, but she let it play out. You didn't do her work without making a few enemies or not being able to read a situation. If he had been there for harm he would have started before she got there. When the oaf had finished his story, the family went to bed leaving the 2 alone to talk. Still fully believing he was just an intruder she listened to his proposal, he wanted her to come to the north pole and do her work there. He had seen her, watched her. She thought he was a stalker. The conversation was not a long one, nor was it convincing. In the end he had to show her the truth through his magic. Flying reindeer and a glowing nose. The final convincing factor that had made her say yes was his list. It showed her everything she needed. She could help so many more, her mind reeled at the possibility. She could be a hope for the world instead of some small corner of nowhere in a really big world. Yes, she could change the world like he was. When she realized it, she was more than happy to say yes. The tears of joy he had brought her that night still found themselves on her cheek tonight. That had been hundreds of years ago. So much had happened in that time, including their marriage. She had resisted his manly temptation for a 100 years. Whether it was the fact there were no other men around or she had truly fallen for him, they were happy. In truth the what's and why's of it all really didn't matter to her. What mattered was that the family was safe, cared for, and never left wanting. Which, let's be honest, at the north pole, who could really not have all those things and more? The finest toys were made here. The greatest foods were brought in from all over the world. Here beneath the ice, where the magic held strongest, the temperature was always comfortable. It had amazed her that night. The night she, the family, and her sled were brought home. The awe on their faces, the awe on her face, and that goofy laugh of Santa's. Of Course then it had been smaller, maybe only the size of a large sports stadium, but it had grown overtime. Now it was larger than most cities in the world. With its own skyscrapers and high rises. Of Course it looked nothing like the drab cities of the world. There were Christmas lights all year round. Twinkling and shining for everyone to see. Walkways between the towers shared Garland and bows. Christmas trees were at every corner. However the biggest difference was the noise. It wasn't quiet by any stretch of the imagination, in fact the noise may have rivaled normal cities. Instead of people yelling though, they were laughing. Instead of car horns there were streets filled with Christmas music. It was a wonder to behold. It had never grown old, sitting on her balcony watching the world she had come to love. Watching the streets full of laughter and fun. Her work was not nearly as demanding as Santa's, it afforded her more free time. Her list was shorter, maybe 10 names each year. Though, She checked it much closer than just naughty or nice. It was a meticulous task, one of detail and import. If she failed it may ruin the whole of the north pole, one mistake, one piece out of line and it could ruin the delicate balance that had been created. She surveyed the sled again. It was always the perfect size. Each year, bigger or smaller, it was always perfect. That magic had been a wedding gift from her husband. She checked the names for the 500th time. They hadn't changed in months, they were exactly what they had been. Each was perfectly made. Pure hearts, pure intentions, there was no mistaking them. She longed to hold them, it wouldn't be long now. She willed them to hold on for just a few more hours. No, not long until her mission would begin. The elves were busy with final preparations. Elves, as her husband called them. They were wonderful in their spirit. Never stopping their work, playing in the midst of their work. Making games and competing to finish first. Some, almost as old as her. Their faces finally showing age, beginning to look "adult" while only being a mere 3 feet tall. Wondrous indeed, they had seen so much of life, they were truly the reason Christmas kept coming each year. Working tirelessly, never seeing anything but hope and joy in their work. For instance, Conan was patting a polar bear by the name of Boris. He held out raw meat for the bear, a final snack for him before the night's mission began. There was no fear even though the elf was barely able to reach the bear's snout. Instead Conan's face only ever showed joy at his task. Smiling as the bear took the snack and nuzzled his handler in return. In what other place would such a small being feed a beast such as this? At least without becoming part of the menu. She smiled at the scene, she knew every one of them, they were her world, and they in turn were the lifeblood of the north. She left the stable, content that all was in order. Or at least being put in order. It had been many years since she had to intervene on preparations. They knew their jobs very well. Down the street she walked purposefully. It was time to be dressed for the journey. In her room, Santa waited for her. After centuries there was no need for words. He simply smiled, nodded and winked at her. It always made her heart glow a bit, her stomach fill with butterflies. The man had her heart, no one could deny that. She dressed making sure each layer had no gaps. It was a long way across the ice and it got cold. Finally she took a look in the mirror. She had seen the image before, a mostly slim woman, older looking but far from frail. Her hair in a tight bun, sensible for her work. The same red velvet and sash that Santa wore, but tailored for her. "You always look stunning my dear." Santa said from across the room. "I hope you are safe tonight. Remember we have a vacation to attend to in January so don't do anything crazy." She laughed, "you're a big goof. You know as well as I that the bears would never allow me harm. You saw to that didn't you" With a hig she was off. Her sled wasn't as fast as the red sleigh. She would need to leave soon if she was to be home before dawn came on her last stop. The roads were quieter than normal, the elves rested tonight as much as they would. Back in the stable everything was ready. The bears hitched, all her needed things in place. She tucked the list into a safe spot and spoke a few final requests to the elves close by. It was time. Her demeanor instantly changed from smiles and laughter to grim determination. Those nearest her knew this change well and knew it was time to be out of the way. "Boris" "Freya" "Magnus" "Linnea" She called each bear by name. "We have work to do. Now pull!!" The bears lurched into action. Through the open stable doors they went. Mrs. Clause at the reins, standing on the sled she was commanding. There was relief in beginning to move, Her mission had begun. It wasn't a mission of peace and goodwill. It wasn't a mission of generosity or kindness, there were no cookies or milk waiting for her at her stops. It wasn't a mission to bring toys but rather to bring help. She held no delusions about what she was doing. Her mission was search and rescue, and it was one she was good at.

I thought it was time for a Christmas story. I've got a good bit worked out already. This is just a teaser for the first chapter. Before every part I will try to post triggers that will appear. This will either go really well or really bad. If the latter happens I'll probably stop. These stories have all affected me in my past. My fantasy or fancy is that great can come from grave. We have to hold those things in our hearts, the things that are good. I won't call it easy or simple but when the world shows how cruel it is we can show the good. It's not to say scars won't remain, but we can use those scars to remind us of exactly what we refuse to ever be. -_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_- Everyone knows the story of Saint Nicholas. Yeah, yeah, jolly old man, with the jello belly. Laughs like he's insulting the world. You know the 8 tiny reindeer dragging around his overly puffy, wrapped in red velvet self. We all know that story, it's been drilled into us since birth. We've grown up on his kindness and his joy. His mystery feeds us as we try to understand how he manages such feats year after year. Truly, we all know that story. We may even recall his famous little Rudolph. With his nose all aglow. Guiding the sleigh to safe harbor in storms. His fame may even rival Santa Claus. He stands among the greats, saving Christmas time and again. Yes, even his accomplishments have breached the isolation of the north pole and made it to the mere mortals. These stories we know by heart, they sing us to sleep through the year, and for one night they rouse our excitement and refuse us rest. Yes we know these by heart…. But there is a story that is not told often, one that often is overlooked, or worse…. wrongly told. This is a story of another great good. For only good things are allowed at the north pole. Only pure hearts, honorable intentions, these things are allowed in this place of wonder. However, Selfless love is desired above all others in the North Pole. In reality, all of the greatest stories here are rooted and built on selfless love. The story, our story, is all about finding that one virtue. Finding it where it has held strong, held strong against tyrannical monsters, against overbearing circumstances. Where it has stood as a bastion of hope for the weak, refusing to die amidst the suffering. This story is about bringing that selfless love to the place where it will be grown and nurtured. Where it will be celebrated and cheered. Warmed and cherished, much to the dismay of the oppressive envious ones who witness the miracle of our story. It is true our story always begins in the ruins, it will, however, always end in a palace. You see, for those to be given the honor, there must be proof. It must be evident that their hearts do not waver. Even in the darkest nights, the lowest valleys, the coldest winters, or the loudest tempest. Yes, our story may not be widely known, nor is it famous from the songs sung by millions of children, but we know, yes we know the story. We know it all too well, we have lived it, and with each new face it is refreshed in our minds and hearts. Now you will know it too, hereafter, Yes you will know it too. You see, it is time we like all the other immortals tell the story, the great story, the story of our greatest benefactor. The story of Mrs. Clause...

Apologies for the delay, life has gotten me sidetracked. Good ways but it has been distracting. Anyway heres what you guys want.... -_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_- Ch. 18 To be or not to be or what's love got to do with it? The Gersons were obviously not happy about Joshua not being there when the door opened. It was written on their faces. Both in a set of fancy clothes themselves. "Would you like to come in? It's hot outside, and dinner is almost ready." Tina kept her voice flat. Better to just appear unamused than angry, she thought. Stepping inside, Mr. Gerson sighed, "I'm quite certain we will get to the bottom of this, dear. He has always been smart and we can definitely save him if he truly wants to be saved." "You didn't see him, he was distraught." This fight seemed to have been an all afternoon thing that hadn't ended when they got to the Vacation home. "He sat there with his head in his hands." "Yes but you said he was in nothing but a diaper. How in the world would it not be embarrassing for him. Now please be nice. We have a lot of power here if what you think is true actually happens to be the case." Mr. Gerson appeared to be a voice of reason. There may be hope yet, thought Tina. "I guess we shall see." She did not sound like she was dropping it, more of biding her time. Tina closed the door behind them, "I know you'll be anxious to see him again. I also know he is anxious to see you. Gary, my associate, went to bring him downstairs. While we wait, would you like some appetizers? A drink? I have wine, fresh pineapple juice, and some cold tea. "I'll stick with water, easier to taste anything in it." Mrs. Gerson spat out. "I'd prefer you have the wine, might actually settle you down a bit." Mr. Gerson laughed. The glare he received in return let everyone know it wasn't an appreciated comment. However, he never seemed to notice it. "I would love some wine, but would you throw a splash of pineapple juice in it?" "That doesn't sound half bad." Gary remarked entering into the kitchen with a laughing football of a little under his arm. "I'll have one too." Holding Joshua to eye level. "I should probably put you down, you're supposed to be a big boy tonight." Joshua seemed happy to Tina's eyes, that oaf had been able to pull it off again. Gary was one surprise after another. Seeing him with her little man had made her smile in spite of herself. She had to admit it was even a little endearing. He settled Joshua on the floor and straightened his shirt for him. Joshua turned and his face sobered. "Hi mom, hi dad." It was a simple greeting, born of someone who was embarrassed. "SON, it's so good to see you!" Mr. Gerson never missed a beat. He was hugging a stunned Joshua. Mrs. Gerson followed suit but she seemed to hesitate more. "Let me look at you." She said, eyeing him up and down. "Well you look well fed, hearty and cared for. You even look like a man. Your mother said you'd been made into a baby and I was shocked." Mr. Gerson retorted. "It does appear you are not as babyish as I had thought." She seemed suspicious. "I'm not convinced yet." Tina piped up. "Let's eat dinner, it's hot and ready. We can talk business afterwards." Cindy and Joshua sat on one side of the table while the Gersons sat on one and Tina shared with Sarah so Gary ended up alone. The dinner started off awkwardly quiet. No one really talked much, only Cindy seemed immune, she simply hummed and ate with an air of oblivion. Gary broke the ice, "Well how is the hotel? You guys have everything you want? Those places are a little crowded for my taste." "Gary, you wouldn't believe the level of service there. It's incredible!" Tina had a hunch Mr. Gerson and Gary were going to be fast friends. That could be troublesome. They chatted about all sorts of things, from shopping to fun excursions, to good places to take a nap. Everything you could do on a vacation really. "Hey, I have an idea, why don't you join us tomorrow morning? I have a guy thing planned for Joshua and I." That peaked Joshua's interest, he sat bolt upright but kept his head down so it looked like he wasn't interested. Not that anyone could miss the excited intake of air or the upright posture. He often got stuck doing the "girl things" since he was the only boy in the house. "What's that?" Mr Gerson asked, obviously just as excited. "Weeeeell, I have a couple ATVs rented for the morning. It wouldn't be hard to add one to it if you could be persuaded." Gary sounded very business-like. Tina just rolled her eyes. "I might have to push a meeting around or cancel my golf game, but it could be arranged." This was trouble in the making. "Deal!" Gary's boisterous shout and a slap to the table made everyone jump. "Mrs. Gerson we do not have as adventurous of plans but we are going shopping if you'd like to join us." Tina made sure to sound polite and invested. She really didn't want to ostracize the little. "I will think about it, I had planned to do some shopping and it seems my husband has made other plans on me." The guilt trip she was laying out was quite obvious. "Are we really going to drive ATVs? I've always wanted to try that!" Joshua's face lit up. "I mean can I?" The last directed at Tina, nodding her approval she smiled at his exuberance. "You sure can." Mrs. Gerson did not miss the exchange. Joshua had asked Tina for permission, he hadn't looked at anyone else for even a fraction of a second. That was not the behavior she had expected. It brought a confused look to her face. Dinner wound down and desert was taken out to the porch, the sun was settling down and the moon was in full force. "I know you'll have a lot of questions, and we want to answer them all. However, I need you both to sign something simple before we do. Without it, the hypnosis all of us share will block our ability to communicate fully." Tina removed contracts from her bag. "We have all signed the exact same at one point or another." Placing them before the Gersons. They didn't respond other than to start reading. In the meantime, Tina crossed the room and checked both littles. Right as she laid hands on Joshua his body let go and performed its duties. "Well that won't do. Sarah, will you handle him while I take care of Cindy?" Sarah nodded, motioning for his hand she led him off. "Hey, we aren't done yet!" Mrs. Gerson yelled. "Mrs. Gerson, the air here is quite wonderful with the smell of flowers, if we do not leave for a few minutes it will be heavy with the scent of fertilizer." Tina responded with an amusing and long suffering tone. "Don't worry Sarah will bring him back soon enough. As I and Cindy will also be back." Tina took the girl upstairs, leaving Gary to entertain the guests. Cindy knew the drill well, which was half of why Tina had chosen to change her. The other half was the desire to hatch her plan to put Cindy in something thick enough to make that dress waddle. Cindy's legs went up and the diaper came off, "Mommy? Do you think Joshua liked my dress?" Tina's brow furrowed. The girl was not tame-able, she did her own thing regardless of who was watching, or who was involved. "I don't know, princess, did you want him to?" Tina asked honestly probing the girl. She ignored the question, giggling, she responded, "he was very handsome. I liked his pants, they made his butt super cute." To Tina she sounded like a teenager in the midst of a crush. Tina grabbed the thickest diaper they had, meant for a 12 hour stint, and began her labors. "Baby girl, don't be upset if he didn't, he has a lot on his mind right now. Remember he has not seen his parents in years." "I know." The obvious disappointment in her voice tore Tina right down the middle. Her heart felt for the little girl, but she also needed to keep the unity in the family. How could this end well? She didn't see a good ending but she also couldn't see a way out. The girl had rejected 3 suitors already, ones she had carefully placed in her path that had tried their best. One had even ended up with a pie down his diapers. The story had been outrageous, and Tina had to stifle a laugh the whole time she had spent cleaning him up. Oh, how mad that little one had been. Just reminiscing had brought a smile to Tina's face. "What's funny mommy?" Her charge brought her attention back to the present moment. "Oh nothing, my wild child." Finishing the task up she helped Cindy sit upright. Being as well versed in the role as Cindy was she knew better than to question the thickness of the diapers she was wearing. "Now let's get back to our guests." "Mommy, can I still wear my heels?" Now that was going to make that waddle something to behold. "Of Course sweetie." Off they went back down the stairs, the dress now a noticeable amount shorter than it had been. If she bent over, that diaper was going to show itself, Tina may have to manufacture a reason, it was just too cute. Watching the waddling tiny girl in the red formal dress, with a butt so overly padded, Tina resolved to make it happen. —----- Back downstairs Gary was stomping around like a maniac, telling some thrilling tale that probably never happened. Mrs. Gerson did not look amused, but Mr. Gerson was on the edge of his seat. ".... the bear was going to pounce on me, and I was flat on my back! I had no idea what to do. Right as it was about to drop itself down on me…" that was the moment he realized he'd gained two more audience members. Tina had been watching long enough to now know he wasn't telling the truth and none of it was real. "What happened then, Gary?" Mr Gerson pleaded for the end of the story. "Well, he decided I would make a bad meal, and we shook and became friends, I also gave him my lunch." Not the answer he had hoped for, obviously not as thrilling as the rest of the story had been, Mr. Gerson sat back dissatisfied with the resolution. "Well I'm sure the bear was happier. Good story though." "Gary," Tina interrupted. "You were supposed to stay on topic." "Oh, well we covered the basics, and we got sidetracked somewhere along the line." Rolling her eyes, she followed the little back to the chairs on the patio. "How far did he get, Mrs Gerson?" She had been the only responsible party out here. "He told us about the coalition, and the mission it had. He even let us know you employed a bear once and that it went rogue. He had to make sure it never hurt any littles." Her sarcastic tone hinted at amusement but definitely bordered on being exasperated with Gary. "He has that effect on a lot of people, I assure you." Tina winked at Gary and they both shared a knowing laugh. "All right then, let's get back on subject, at least until Joshua and Sarah can get back. The coalition is intent on finding ways for both littles and amazons to work, live, play, or just plain exist in harmony." Tina started up. "We know this is hard to believe, and we are working to make it more known. Have you seen this emblem?" She held up a charm with the symbol of the coalition on it. Mr. Gerson took it, "we've seen it everywhere, in our hometown even. It was in the plane, our suitcases had been marked with it, and the hotel has it next to their main door." He paused. "You don't mean to tell me….?" "Yes, it is the coalition's mark." "If that's true you are a much larger part of this world than I thought. We have never been able to uncover the meaning behind it. Believe us when we say we have investigated it." Mr Gerson went on with wonder in his voice. "How did you keep it a secret?" "Well, there have been considerable efforts there. One we use contracts like the one you signed, hypnosis to keep mouths shut about the inner workings, which is actually Gary's doing, and not for the reason you'd think. Probably the biggest is passion for our work." Tina said it proudly, like a mother hen showing off the egg she had just laid. "What about us? We haven't been hypnotized" Mrs. Gerson was skeptical of it all, and her tone made it evident. "That's what the contracts are for. If we truly felt threatened by you, we would remove your knowledge of the coalition tonight. However," Tina added quickly, "I really don't see that happening. None of us want that, we want to reach an understanding before we part ways." The silence was like a giant blanket no one could get out from under, it took mother nature sending a bird by singing its song in the night to lighten up the mood. "How can we trust you? Littles suffer so much at Amazon hands." Mrs. Gerson for the first time that night sounded curious. "I believe the best way for you to do that is coming down the stairs." Tina never missed anything. Sarah returned following the now clean Joshua down the stairs. The Gerson's attention shifted to their son, their attitude had changed. It wasn't accepted but it was at least curious. "Son, will you come sit beside your mother and i?" Mr. Gerson patted the seat. "Sure," there was no hesitation. "I want to tell you both something. It matters a lot to me." "We are listening." Mrs. Gerson had affection in her voice. It was motherly, and Joshua responded well to that. The boy launched into a speech, it had obviously been prepared, it came out way too smoothly. "I know this isn't what you wanted for me, but it's what I want. Mommy saved me from having to run from amazons all the time. I was always hiding or having to out smart them in the worst cases. Even my job was doing the same." The memory of that moron Handicraft burned again for a moment. Tina made a mental note to check on him. "I was wearing down, getting tired but I wasn't getting anything I wanted. No family, no friends, I wanted more, Mommy is giving me that. I know you are worried I am hypnotized and, truth is I am, but only to the degree I want to be. My continence was taken in a different manner." He paused long enough to allow himself to be interrupted. "How was it taken?" Mrs. Gersons concern was evident. She was about to be disappointed. Joshua went flat faced, his voice came out just as flat "I cannot speak about the inner workings of the coalition with those not in the coalition." Turning on Tina she yelled. "What the hell is that?!? What have you done to my boy?" "Firstly, you need to understand that everyone here will give you the same response. If you were to ask. Try Gary." His shocked face said she had won the moment, and of course the question was asked, and he blanked and responded exactly as Joshua had. It was his law after all. He had known the problems associated with blabbing lips and wagging tongues. So as a founder, he had instituted Gary's law. Simply put, to ensure the coalition's success, no outside entity could hear or be made to understand the inner workings of the coalition. It helped to keep the coalition safe. Hints still leaked but only what the coalition allowed. "Are you going to do the same to us?" Mr. Gerson asked. "We would prefer to, otherwise we will need to wipe the info. Because of the contract he and I have, I need to make sure he gets this chance." She motioned to Joshua. "Contract? You have a contract with him?" Mrs. Gerson this time seemed surprised. "Quite so" "I'm game. When can we do the hypnosis?" Mr. Gerson was eager. "Mind you I have no intention of diapers or adoption but I want to be more informed." Gary responded then, "I figured you would be, and we are always out for adult littles too, aren't we Tina?" Well there went the leverage, sigh, well she would make the best of it. "I would prefer you both at the same time, it would cause strife between you two and I will not be party to ruining a marriage." The statement made her think of Cindy's statement earlier, was she stopping them? Should she allow them to be together? She'd have to contemplate it later, this wasn't the time. "Do you think we can trust them?" Mrs. Gerson was incredulous. "No." "Then why are you so eager?" He gestured at Joshua, "he trusts them. Do you remember him? He was smarter than both of us when it came to dodging them. If he can honestly sit there and say the things he said I can trust them." That gave Mrs. Gerson pause. Tina could see the tears form in the corner of her eyes. This was either good or bad. She got up and fled to the far side of the house. Mr. Gerson went to retrieve her, but Tina stopped him, "Mr. Gerson, I wonder if I might try, woman to woman, mother to mother?" He looked quizzically at her, paused only for a moment, as if considering the two personalities here. Then he simply nodded and looked to Gary, "the night seems to have taken a fun turn," he held his glass up, "you wouldn't have something more fitting would you?" "Ha! You're on!" Gary responded with way more enthusiasm than Tina was comfortable with. Those two were going to be a problem. They left for the kitchen, Joshua toddling behind, Cindy and Sarah started counting stars. Tina left on her mission to bring another into the coalition. —--------- I wasn't sure what to do, but mom and mommy seemed to need to sort it out on their own, and I wanted to hear more about the ATVs, I had been patient all through dinner and not asked but I couldn't hold back. "Gary, when we do the ATVs do I get to drive one?" I asked my excitement leaking out, I felt like a kid again "Ofcourse big man! We have a spot picked out." He poured two glasses of something from a bottle, then remembered I was "big" tonight. "Would you like to join us?" I thought for a minute, it would be a welcome treat, and it may make sleeping easier tonight. "Sure." "This is gonna get interesting." Was Gary's only response. I was handed a glass with what I assumed was alcohol, by the smell it was definitely a strong drink. We clicked glasses and they downed it all in one go. It dawned on me that it was a shot, not a sipping drink. I followed suit. It burned the whole way down. It made my insides all warm, and made me cough like I'd just inhaled water. "Good stuff huh?" Taking my glass from me and handing me juice, Gary asked. That was probably more than enough for me anyway. I sat listening to dad and Gary talk. Not really paying attention much, after a few minutes I could feel the effects of the drink and I was pretty certain I needed to do something fun, like jump in the pool. That sounded fun, it was hot in these clothes anyway. Not waiting, I started to remove my shirt and head in that direction. My shirt didn't take long, removing my pants was pretty easy too. In nothing but a diaper I headed to the pool deck. Why was the earth moving? I wondered if they had a whole lot of earthquakes out here. After one particularly big shake, and just managing to stay on my feet I was in the clear, the pool right in front of me. I steadied myself in the middle of the earthquake and took off for the pool. I heard something dinging in the background about the time I got close to the pool. I didn't bother to figure it out, I wanted to swim. I launched off the side of the pool in full padded glory, bringing my knees to my chest and I screamed "Cannonball!!" The water rushed up to meet me as I splashed in. It felt glorious, the hot night air was banished. Weirdly though, it didn't reach my man bit, or a better way of saying it might be, it slowly crept into my man bits. Oh yeah, forgot to take the diaper off. Ha! It's soaking up the pool. I reached the bottom of the pool and kicked off to the surface again. Taking in a lung full of air, I could hear shouting behind me, but only for a second. As the diaper swelled I lost my ability to keep my head up. Uh oh, I thought. Guess I'll have to walk myself out. With that I let myself sink, the only problem was it was too dark to see the stairs. Hmmm, maybe I can find them. I started to waddle myself around, but I was rapidly needing more air, and I was finding it more uncomfortable by the second. I distantly heard a splash above me. As I looked up, I could see bubbles and a hand. Oh good, someone else wanted to swim! It was a party now! Mommy's face appeared out of the bubbles as she grabbed me and hauled me out of the pool. Well I wouldn't need to find the stairs anymore. Mommy stood up with me and the now sodden pillow between my legs, she did not look happy. Hmm, maybe a joke. "What did the elephant say to the walrus?" I began, she always laughed at this one. "Oh no, little one, you're in big trouble. Wait a second, ARE YOU DRUNK??" Mommy yelled. She was probably scary right now but I didn't care. I was carried out of the pool and inside, soaking wet, isn't she going to listen to the punchline? That was the best part. "Gary! Did you get him drunk?" Both dad and Gary stood there trying to suppress smiles. Both failed miserably, when dads snicker slipped out they both started laughing hysterically. Which served to make me laugh. Mommy growled at all of us, which only made us laugh harder, me laying on her chest clutching my sides as I laughed. My padded rear was the size of a mountain, the whole situation was so bizarre, I couldn't help but laugh. "Mrs. Gerson it seems the males in our lives have gotten a little bit too happy tonight. It also seems like a good time for bedtime for these two. If you wouldn't mind indulging me as I get changed and put them down?" Mom was thinking, I could see the wheels turning, it was like digging up a treasure chest full of memories all night long, I could remember this look. "Actually," she started pausing ever so slightly. "Can I help?"

I'm just glad to hear from you. I hope all is at least going the right way.

Fighting stories take a lot. I've got one with that thought, but it's been sitting there for well over a year being edited, I can't get the whole thing in the right way I want it.

here is my submission for you. Hope you enjoy.

The experimental school. We had all been called to a large assembly, not too uncommon since it was the 3rd day of school. Then again what was common in this school? Walking along in the crowded hall, I longed for my days before this school. So simple, hang out with friends, go bowling or to a movie, or just hang out at the park. Things were so much simpler then. And then I signed that stupid contract. I didn't have the money for a good college, I had the grades to get in but not good enough to get a ride on. I never really played sports, what I did have was a head for creativity and original things. That's what they had said got me not only accepted but desired here. Nothing about it added up. Why would you expect more out of middle level students? I'd get my degree but I had to stay at the school until graduating. Oh I got some time off campus but not much. Isolation was key, they said. No outside interference. They even restricted the TV and social media coming in. They had made their own social media platform as well. But now, I have almost graduated from this hell hole, everything I think about it my heart jumps. I was so close, one more year. I could see them trying to control me past graduation though. This place didn't let go of people. Some people had tried to quit or drop out. Each time they tried to leave without permission, they'd just turn up again on campus. Same excuse every time too. "I changed my mind, so I came back." I had asked a friend once, he gave me the same answer but when I asked why he said he wasn't sure why he changed his mind. This school was going to try and reach into my life beyond the gate. I could feel it. Whatever, it wasn't in my contract, I'd figure it out once I was free, that contract only went as far as the gates. I entered the large auditorium which doubled as a theater. It had about 500 seats in it and a stage. Long black curtains that sat at the back of the stage. On a projector screen was a welcome message that cheerily read "A time to change, and a time to be changed!" The picture in the background had students smiling and laughing. Only girls would have had the nerve to use that dumb of a slogan for the year. I knew better than to voice that opinion out loud. A girl might hear and that would definitely invoke her privileges. Probably means something about bettering yourself and others and the school or some such nonsense. Completely stupid. Last year was "Better school, better you, better world." It wasn't getting better… On the stage sat the student council, the ruling body of the school. They enacted all policies, procedures, disciplinary rules and punishments for those enrolled. Get bad grades? Then you ended up cleaning the floors. Get in a fight? Well, let's just say that wasn't happening anymore. The list of rules and consequences was quite extensive, it wasn't something one could memorize. The list was probably so long that it couldn't be memorized on purpose. If you couldn't memorize it, they could get away with whatever they decided was inappropriate. I wasn't much of a stand out, mischief maker so I rarely got into trouble. Though it had happened. I found a seat near a large group of other guys, I wasn't really in the mood to mingle and this school put a huge damper on dating, it was not a rule mind you, just not what most guys wanted to deal with. In the end, the mood for romance was kind of dead when you were not able to really have much of a say in any relationship. At least when the other side had won. Oddly enough when his side had won, I had found a girlfriend relatively easily. I tried a couple times but it just never worked out. Supposedly your "personal life" was exempt from the rules but how did that work when you were a society separated from the world and it was governed by a certain group. We lived and breathed in this school, there was no escaping it while you were in the walls that surrounded the campus. It was filling up in the auditorium and the school student secretary stepped up to the mic. "Hello, everyone!" She started cheerfully. "I know we are all anxious to start so let's hurry and find our seats. We need to start on time or we will be late for the rest of the day." She was in charge of time keeping and she was very passionate about it. She was the quintessential nerdy girl, goggle glasses and all. There were only about 300 people in this school. Its numbers kept small by the sheer fact every student had been hand picked to come here. You had to have the right personality, be willing to take a leap of faith, be creative, the list went on and on. It was more about personality than anything else, or so it seemed. Some of the students here were among the lowest scoring students in their respective high schools. I had a few friends that shouldn't have been able to get into college let alone anything prestigious. Hopefully this will be short and sweet, I thought, we can just get it over with. Boring speeches were not my thing. I waited impatiently fiddling with a pencil, we had not been allowed to bring anything with us including phones. They always cited "we should pay attention instead of playing with a phone." Like we were some kind of kindergarteners. Weren't we supposed to be self governing? That one only went as far as they wanted it to. About 5 minutes later the vice president got up and called the meeting to order. "Welcome to a new year at the Complete School of Forward Thinking." A cheer went up among the students, mostly from the girls. "I am Sarah Glockins, I will be your vice president again this year." Another pause and another shriek from the girls. She was not as bad as the others but she was still on the wrong side of the fence. "On behalf of your returning body of student leadership I'd like to welcome our new students AND our returning students to our great halls again for another year of learning and growing. Well, maybe just learning for some of us." She giggled and I caught the cryptic sense she had something up her sleeve. This wasn't good. Not in this school, surprises tended to leave you in a bad place. It never ended well, especially when the girls were in charge. I had learned the hard way that anything cryptic like that meant trouble for me. I was truly done with this school, if I wasn't so close I'd have found a way out of here. This year was going to be hell, I knew it too. Truth was, things had been getting progressively more intense over the last 2 years that the vote had gone to the girls. I was two seats from the aisle, only a little bit from the door. Girls were standing guard there. They wore something on their hip, it seemed too small to be a weapon or a stun gun. The fire escape seemed to be unguarded, but it'd probably be locked until an actual fire alarm. State of the art alarm systems would stay locked now until the alarm went off. Everything in this damnable school was state of the art too. Everything was brand new all the time. They really did have a limitless budget around here. I guess if you were doing an experiment you had to do it the best way possible. Plus, if the scope of the experiment was true we were designing a new form of government to implement in the real world, then "no expense spared" was a good slogan. Sarah rambled on about the new year and the slogan, the guy sitting next to me leaned in, "I can't believe they won again, after last year you'd have thought it was a shoe in for them to lose." I nodded. They had incorporated a few punishments that went above and beyond the normal and no one had stopped them. It seemed like the approval rating would have dropped after that. The voting system was complex and required everyone to put in a visible and tangible token. This made cheating literally impossible. It had been a landslide win again. The count wasn't even needed. The girls' tokens had filled the tube while the guys remained half empty. Of Course you never had any idea who voted for what. You were alone when you voted. Granted that had been the terms of the experiment. The students were self governing for the most part. The teachers stayed out of it and allowed those on the winning side to lead as they saw fit. The only real rules were no permanent harm or ejection from the school were allowed. In short, You had to solve issues and not just shove them aside or destroy the problem. My thoughts returned to my escape route. Best option would be to go through the stage, likely the way they wouldn't think anyone would go. Why put guards up there? Everyone would see where you were going. Applause erupted around the room as Sarah finished her monotonous deluge of annoying words. She was not one I cared to be around or listen to talk. The woman had a bad tendency to squawk when she laughed, worse she was an incessant gossip. Apparently she had introduced the lone male on the stage. He was just there to represent the losing party. "Welcome everyone, I'm Blake Townsend," he paused. "Sorry gents, we lost." Holding his hands out in mock surrender. A couple girls whistled and cheered. "But we will make do and make sure we get the better of it next year. Anyway, I'll keep it short. Keep your heads up and make the best of it. I promise it'll get better this year!" Some cheers went up from the boys, they were half hearted but still some guys were still hopeful. "We can still make it a good year. If you feel like there's any unfair treatment just let me know. I'll make sure our voices are still heard." His speech was determined. "With that I give you the devil herself, student body president, Julie Buttkiss. Oops I mean Butterkiss" He was going to pay for that. From across the stage Julie stood up. Her eyes looked amused but in a dangerous way. Her look said it all, she would return the favor and she already knew how. She was the devil though, a picture perfect one, if anyone was honest. She belonged on magazine covers. It was Likely that that was how she got the position in the first place. Too many males with hard ons that would never get anything more than Blake was getting right now. She had enacted all the policies last year that had made life a living hell for anyone who was male. "Thanks Blake, and I'm sure you didn't mean it. After all, we girls have made this experiment incredibly successful." She started, her smooth voice captured everyone's ears. It almost was transe-like. "This school was founded to change the way society works. This experiment was made so that we could develop a new form of government and social structure. Why? The old way is failing, and we have young minds that are not conformed to old ideas, we can generate a new life that is fresh and will reinvigorate our world. In the beginning we were set up clean without entanglements. Given an opportunity to change ourselves, and then change others." There it was, that stupid logo that was on the screen, I zoned out as she launched into the history of this demon infested place. If you'd been here for 3 days you'd have heard this speech 3 times. We were called because we were intelligent, could add to a constructive society, we were the creative ones that could redesign the world. And now that you've signed on the dotted line you belong to us for 4 years. I tuned back into our regularly scheduled broadcast as she went back to recapping the last few years. "In the past 2 years we have raised the average grade to almost 90%. A full ten point increase. We have seen a 60% drop in disciplinary needs." She paused as cheers went up, again mostly girls. "When this school was founded, the idea was to find out who was best at running society, who would produce the best results, and even more so, who society wanted to run society. The first 2 years it was the boys. Boys," her voice dropped to an almost conspiratorial tone, "you failed us all. In those 2 years it was chaos, and not a good learning environment. Drugs, sex, you name it, it was in our halls." I had only come here three years ago, it had been a bit rougher then, even I could admit that, but things had gone the exact opposite direction once the girls took over. "With each year that we ladies have been in charge this school has improved a hundred fold." I wondered how she was measuring that. "Since this school's founding, we have risen up from the ashes quite a bit. Last year was phenomenal, our policies brought the remaining outliers back under control. For that exact reason the polices: Feminine Judgment, Retaliation Restriction, and Corporal Punishment will remain." My jaw dropped, how could the admins not stop this? Feminine Judgment meant a girl could decide a boy or girl was misbehaving. While worded carefully to avoid sex1sm, it was definitely in favor of the girls. The result was always a disciplinary panel. They decided your fate. They were always female. Retaliation Restriction, if you were called out for negatively responding to anything educational or disciplinary you were in for it. The panel was skipped and you were basically hung where you stood. Corporal Punishment spoke for itself. It was the default now. Almost everything ended up with you bent over getting your backside tanned. It had only happened to me once but I was one of the more crafty boys. Julie continued her evidence from the damned, "70% of boys received 2 spankings last year. That's a lot for you math challenged folks." She joked, not many laughed. " 96% received one. While only 10% of the girls received one, you know who you are and we ladies expect better from you this year. In the end the measures have brought this school to being the highest functioning school in all but 2 measured metrics nationwide. Isn't that wonderful?"She never paused for a cheer or acknowledgement. "And so we will be continuing our march to bring this school to the top!" She almost shouted the last words. The top of what? The heap of annoying me? I doubted it could get much worse. The girls went wild. "Ladies calm down now. We have a new policy to enact this year. It'll be the final thing we need to push us over the top on every scale that is measured in this nation. The numbers have shown that our male counterparts are not to be trusted, that they routinely step out of line, have lower test scores and final scores than us ladies. That is to say until they've been put on a better path. Today we announce the Better Boys Behavior Beneficiance.This will allow you Ladies to properly care for and love our boys. They need a good Maternal and nurturing influence to truly thrive. Her tone was serious now, my heart was racing, and I could see a few other male faces echoing my thoughts. "Upon entering, ladies, you were given a bag and told to leave it sealed until the time came. It's not that time yet. However, we need to discuss the contents inside. First you will find a card stock paper that says "your rules" on it. You will need to read it carefully at the end of the commencement. The next is 5 sheets of regular paper, on it says "their rules." My heart was in full fight or flight now. The adrenaline in my system said "GO NOW!" but if I moved I knew nothing good would come of it yet. "These will need to be given to each of your targets today. Now I want you to know, you will not likely have 5 targets. This is just in case." TARGETS!!?! What were they going to throw at us? Bad, bad, bad! "There is a bottle you will need, please use it today. I'm begging you. Not doing so could leave you in violation of your rules and lead to corporal punishment or worse." This was getting crazy, if the girls would be held accountable like this then it had to be massive. I was already gathering myself to run. I wasn't really sure where. The contract guaranteed a free college ride but it also guaranteed you stayed put until you graduated. Once the year started you never left campus. Some families had a home here and lived with students but mostly the students stayed in dorms. The really hard part was the 15 foot wall that ran around the campus. We were told it was security but the barbs on the top were aimed to keep people in not out. Not that anyone tried to get in. "There are some other things in there including a paddle, if you need it today, and a couple other supplies for routine maintenance. The last thing in there is very important. It is the reason we all came together. It's also what you will need most today. Ladies when I say this I want you all to remain calm. Show your maturity. You see, the goal is to give boys a good example to grow into. You need to be that example, this is also not retribution but a lesson. They need to be controlled for both our good and theirs. I know you're excited ladies, but contain yourselves. If you open that bag too early it will ruin the surprise. Boys, I'm begging you, make it easy on us ladies. Please do not fight this. I promise rewards to those that are good boys. BIG rewards." That was not setting me at ease. Some other guys had already given in, just dreading it all, you could see the defeat in their eyes. Heads buried in hands. It didn't take long to be ground down if you didn't go with the flow but they had decided it was better to not be dust. Some girlfriends trying to console boyfriends, the smiles on their faces were not helping. "Those that try to resist will be punished severely." Of course they would, so far that was the only part I believed. "Now ladies, the last item in your bag is five… big… fluffy…white…crinkly… DIAPERS!" Her voice was so excited, she seemed like she was about to jump the podium. Her face was the image of a psychiatric ward patient who had been given the freedom they had wanted since being confined years ago. Everyone in the room went silent except one, his expletive echoed across the room. "What the f@*$?" He wasn't getting the "rewards" for sure. My mind latched on to that last word. She couldn't be implying the girls would be putting boys in diapers. There was no way they were that crazy. No one would allow that. As if she was reading his mind "I know ladies you are confused. I assure you this is for the best. You will be diapering the boys today. The boys have proven to be a large part of the problems here and are in need of a bit of feminine touch. Remember to treat them as well as they are behaved, they are not meat, but they are to be wrapped up today, be as loving but firm as a mother would be. Now in good faith, I will be taking care of our good boy Blake here who chose some inappropriate things to say to me. So," Reaching beneath the podium she pulled out a large rectangular white thing. I immediately assumed it was one of these diapers, "ladies, shall we begin the great diapering? You may open your bags now!" Without another word she whirled on Blake whose face had gone sheet white. I could only hear zippers from bags being opened as he protested from his seat. She went straight to work on his belt and zipper. He gave an attempt at stopping her but he wasn't fighting or running as much as he should have been. Maybe he knew something I didn't, but I wasn't going to find out. I snapped out of the horror show and looked around, girls were reading their cards, most of the guys were in a state of despair, they had just given up and were going to allow whatever happened to them happen. Being grabbed by a girl they just followed orders. A bunch were fighting back, the group around me was backed together trying to stop the feminine onslaught, the girls outnumbered the boys by a good bit and the group was being grabbed one by one and overpowered. One fool just dropped his pants and laid down grinning. Not sure what was with him. No one had even come for him yet. Some cried in defeat. Being in the center of the group of guys I wasn't in any immediate threat. I watched as girls laid boyfriends down and padded rears, each taking time to use powder, some began to administer punishments to ensure obedience, it only took a few swings to start eliciting yelps from some. The process was insane. Even outnumbered, it was taking time to work through them all. It gave me a minute to think. I needed to start my escape plan, I began to work towards a weak spot in the line trying to dissect the group around me. "John Belinger!" My name echoed from the mic. "I see you, do not move! You belong to me." That psycho, Tammy Garland. Unfortunately, she was also the treasurer. She likely had already known about this and had planned to make him hers. She'd had a crush on me for a year. My only spanking had come from her, unjustly I might add. She was intent on ruining my life. I thought I'd shaken her off last year by hitting her with a giant water balloon filled with a rancid smelling liquid we had found near a dumpster. Tammy had never given up, asking me out multiple times, I wasn't even being polite about turning her down anymore. Knowing her, She probably had a diaper labeled with my name from the very start. Seriously, the dumb girl labeled everything. I scanned around the door, the guards were still there. They had a device in hand that looked like it was designed for a medical purpose instead of anything else. I hadn't seen it used on anyone so I wasn't completely sure what it was yet. All around me boys were being diapered. Some whose pants were already at their ankles, some protesting and promising, even begging. It saved none of them. A couple girls had already diapered males sitting next to them smiling with joy. Feeling it up and down as they were inspected. Why were they so happy about this? There only seemed to be a few girls who thought this was not a good idea. They sat off to the side judging and pointing, one stifled a laugh as she watched a boy getting a beating. I could even see a woman teacher closing in on a male teacher. She was smiling from ear to ear and beckoning him with one finger and a diaper in hand. When she reached him she didn't hesitate, his pants dropped to the floor as she stripped him. She hooked his leg as he tried to back away, tripping him to the floor. His legs went up and she placed the diaper under him. I could hear a bit of his protests. "I'm a teacher not a student, we are not a part of this experiment." She, oblivious to his objections, went to work. He was powdered thoroughly and properly covered. I watched long enough to see it pulled between his legs. That psycho was probably getting close, the stage was empty aside from Blake and Julie who had finished her work and was inspecting Blake's rather puffy butt. The line of girls around me had thinned to the point where there were gaps. They had snagged enough males I could get to the edge easily. It was that moment I decided I was not going to join Blake. I'd find a new university, who cared. There was no amount of debt I was not willing to go through to get out of this. I bolted to the side of the room breaking through the girls there, and ran toward the stage. Up the stairs and toward the curtains at the back. "JOHN!" The president's voice interrupted my run. "You won't get out. We are in lock down, now be a good boy like Blake here. Tammy is going to take care of you, I promise." Her smooth voice dulled my desire to run for just a moment. She sounded sincere, calm and genuine. Blake took that moment to warn me, "John, get out, she said they will never let us out of these things, GO!" I heard him yelp as Julie leveled a slap to his thighs. "You be quiet." That was all I needed. I took off out the back. I managed to use a door in the back that led to a dressing room. Another guy was on his back here, he seemed to be enjoying the moment, at least from the state of his arousal he was. The girl simply looked me up and down "looks like you won't be getting the rewards promised." I didn't care what that meant. In the hall, I was greeted with 2 girls yelling at me to "wait where I was," yeah right. They held the same devices I'd seen on other guards. I ran on never slowing down until I was sure I was out of sight. I began checking exterior doors, one after another, all locked. I began to despair at the idea I'd get out of the school itself. I'd deal with the fence once I was free of the building. Every door and window was sealed magnetically. I would need to find a window I could break. Most of them had webbing in them that stopped being broken easily. The second floor would probably have the opportunity I needed, no one was concerned about someone breaking in up there. Maybe a fire escape, I could trigger the alarm and get out. As I ran I saw a small outlet with the a fire alarm pull. I half slid half fell and scrambled back down the hall. This had to work. I broke the glass cover and yanked on the alarm…. Nothing. Maybe it was a silent alarm. I shouldn't have been surprised, but the door wouldn't budge. I didn't wait too long to mourn the failure. I shot off like a rocket again. "There!!" A voice rang out behind me. It was male! What the hell? I was already around the corner but my surprise almost tripped me up. I recovered and flew into a stairwell. My lungs were burning as I wound my way up a flight of stairs. Into the hallway, I needed a place to hide. I had to catch my breath and get enough time to form a plan. If they'd just give me 10 seconds…. As I went down the hall I opened all the doors around corners and into new halls. I doubled back about a third of the way down a hall and went into the second to the last door I'd opened, checking to make sure they were not in sight. Hopefully that would throw them off my scent. I ducked into the dark lecture hall, there were chairs and desks in a normal row pattern. I hid myself among them. Hopefully, if they did come in they would still miss me. "He came down this hall, someone stay here, if he makes a break for it we will know. Everyone else, let's start searching classrooms." My heart froze. I could hear the click of women's heels on the hard floor in the hall. They were getting closer and closer. *click* *click* They stopped seemingly at the door. "I'll check the next one." I didn't recognize the voice. "OK, I'll check this one then." A new voice announced, I hadn't heard footsteps of two people. Then There were at least three of them and one was probably a dude. Was I screwed or what? How was I getting out of this? "John?" the new voice asked. "John, if you are in here, I promise if you are a good boy, I'll make sure you get rewarded still." I could barely breathe. My hands felt numb. "John, we want what's best for you. I promise it won't hurt at all." I saw movement, it was the teacher that had pampered another teacher. Her ankle length flowery dress seemed to be taunting me as she moved through the room checking the few hiding places. My hiding spot under the desk should keep me relatively unseen due to it being dark in the room, but she would find me eventually. "John I'll make sure you get taken good care of, even if I have to do it myself." Her voice was motherly. "John, I know you're scared, that's pretty normal, and that bloodbath in the auditorium didn't help." She seemed for all the world a sheep in wolves clothes. She sounded like the devil, everything sounded good but wrapped up a deadly intent. "But don't worry this can be good. You won't avoid it but you can enjoy it. It's up to you, John." She kept using my name, it was unnerving. If I attacked her who knew what would happen, I'd rather not deal with the aftermath of that. "Come out John, stop hiding, you can't get out. The school is locked down, the doors locked, windows are sealed, John." She was moving between the desks now, I would have to make a break for it soon. "Tammy is here too, John. She is going to be your guardian. John, she is so excited to help you. You don't understand how lucky you are. John, you need to come out." I saw her dress round the corner as far from the door as she was ever going to get again. It was the best chance I had. I chose that moment to bolt. "John stop!" The teacher yelled. She Didn't bother to run after me. It should have been a warning, but my path was already set. I Was almost through the door. I was definitely not stopping. As I passed the door, without warning I was tackled. We went to the floor of the hallway. "Just take it easy man, this'll be over soon." Was all he said. "Who are you? What kind of traitor are you? Get off of me!" I shouted and struggled. I twisted violently; it was enough to get a better view of the traitor. I didn't know him, he was blonde with a chiseled face. He was strong enough to hold me but with effort I could probably get out. "You're not seeing the bigger picture John. We males were ruining this place, they are fixing it. I sided with them to help us get better." His voice strained as he tried to keep me from freeing myself. "John, I'm going to help you accept what we are doing here." It was Tammy, my efforts doubled, the adrenaline coursing through me seemed to double as well. She held one of those devices the guards had in the auditorium. "Leave me the hell alone you b!+(#" I growled at her. I twisted the traitor off of me and sat up. It was at that point I noticed he didn't have pants on, and in full display was one of those diapers they had put on all the other guys. My mind rebelled at the thought, I tried to hurl myself away from him, but that momentary pause was all it took. I felt something pressed to my back and a sharp pain. It only lasted a second and a wave of intense numbness started to form. I didn't wait to figure it out, or atleast I tried not to wait. I made it 3 steps before whatever had been injected into me took effect. My legs stopped working all together. I dropped to the floor like a sack of potatoes. What nightmare is this? I began to try and army crawl away. I had to get away. What had she done to me? "Don't worry it's temporary, John." Tammy said coming up behind me, she rubbed my back, shushing me. I was just trying to escape. Not that an army crawl was going to get me out of here. I was never getting away now and I realised it. I collapsed on the floor and rolled away my legs limp and trailing behind me. I batted at Tammy to get her to leave me alone. "John, this won't last long so we need to get you in your diapers before that ends, I don't want to have to inject you twice." I laid my head back and began to sob, never responding to her. She didn't deserve a response. I was hauled back into the lecture hall and onto the professor's desk. "Don't be so intolerant, man, they are actually pretty comfortable, soft and you won't need a toilet anymore." The traitor went on. "Who brainwashed you? Or are you just this pathetic?" I yelled through the tears. "What kind of person just allows themselves to be made into a baby?" Tammy moved between my knees interrupting my tirade. She unbuttoned my pants and grabbed the sides of my underwear and shorts yanked them off. "You're being such a good boy now. John, I'm glad you're letting me do this. It's better this way, you'll see." I realized I wasn't fighting back anymore and my hands had been released. What did it matter? I couldn't run. "John, I'm going to put this on you now." Patting another white rectangle that I had become way too familiar with. "You don't know all the rules yet, and that's ok, but my rules are that your care and schooling are now my responsibility. Once I tape you in, I am your guardian." "Guardian?" I squawked, "what's that supposed to mean?" She sounded crazy.``Remember the day when you signed your paperwork so you could come here free of charge and get a degree. You were promised that degree, in exchange You also promised to follow the rules of the school no matter how they evolved?" I did remember that line but it hadn't been framed that way. "Remember this school is an experiment on how society could be. We are shaping the future of our nation, and maybe the world." For the first time, something touched my mind. They may be crazy but it could follow me wherever I go, it could infect the world. "You're all sick." I spat at her. "John, you boys are dangerous, always in trouble. The only time you are not is when you are in the care of your mothers. When you are under a good motherly love. That is when a boy is at his best behavior. We are going to put you boys back where you belong, at your 'mother's' skirts. Now be a good boy." She sighed, this was the behavior of someone who was insane, but she didn't seem crazy, she was calm and put together. "I know it's no secret that I like you." She leaned down and gave a slight peck on my cheek.``this could be so much better, if only you'd just let me do this one thing" "It's not just one thing, you want to ruin me. You're a wh0r3 like the rest of them." "John, you're so angry. It'll be ok, you'll see. Your perspective is the only thing making this bad." I knew I wasn't getting out of this, in my core I was trapped. Giving up the fight I layed still and just accepted the inevitable. "Whatever." I muttered. Tammy laid her head on my chest as if she was hugging me. I could smell her soap. It was nice. Gentle like a flower but strong enough not to be missed. My legs may be paralyzed but my arms weren't, I pushed with all I had, "Don't touch me." At least I would have this memory, the one of her surprised face falling onto her rear. My hands were immediately held in place by the teacher and the other guy. They weren't letting go anymore. I was effectively immobilized now. It took her a second to recover. "John, I'm going to let that one go, because I know how traumatic this day has been. However, anymore outbursts and I'll give you the second spank you've gotten from me." She seemed to consider something for a second. "Maybe reading your rules would help you to understand better. Maybe reading both our rules would help. Hmm? What do you think?" "That's a good boy", she produced 2 pieces of cardstock paper. Holding one up she read it like you would to a small child. "Rule one, you will wear diapers at all times, the only approved time without one is bathtime and when being changed. Rule two, the boys bathrooms are now boys changing stations, until all toilets are removed they are off limits, once they are removed they will be off limits unless you are with your guardian. Rule three, you will use your diaper at all times, if you refuse, the incontinence injection will be used. This will render you without control for a time, after 5 shots it will be permanent. Rule four, your guardian, the one who taped you into your first diaper, is in charge, what she says, goes. Rule five, if you fail in these things there is an acceptable list of punishments she may use. Rule 6, pants are to only be worn when weather requires it, your guardian needs to have access to you at all times, she will also make the decision on pants." Tammy leaned down and looked in my eyes. She did have a prettiness to her. Not like a girl who was just in it to be a "hot chick." It was more subtle, more real. She was a psycho though. So no matter what, she was a no fly zone. Placing a hand on my chest, "I have wanted to reward you for a long time, will you let me now? Will you be my good boy?" Placing the diaper on my thigh she slid her hand to my groin. "I promise this will be worth it" My curiosity never even engaged. Blake's words came back to me, and I just laid there not even sobbing or acknowledging her. My pants around my knees, Tammy turned and grabbed her bag. "These diaper bags are great, so many pockets." Producing a bottle of baby powder she went to work, rubbing it in. Making sure to hit everything, she went on for a long time, trying to get me going. "Nothing huh?" The disappointment in her voice was not very satisfying. At least not as much as I wanted it to be. "You really don't get how much I hate you." She pulled something from her bag that I didn't get to see well. She Never paused, she plunged it into my belly below my belly button. I felt the pressure of the injection, and screamed as the pain hit. I felt it burning my insides. All the sudden it was like a knot I didn't know was there just released. As fast as it started it ended. "What did you do to me?" Tammy smiled, caressing my face, "I'd say there are about 5 seconds before you find out. You're going to be a good boy. Since diapers are not a punishment but me educating you, I have levied a punishment for your negative behavior." I felt the need to pee and tried to clamp down on my muscles. Tammy quickly unfolded a diaper and laid it over me. At that moment I realized she had destroyed my continence. I had about half a second to come to terms with it before I made the first mess of my adult life. "Oh no, I guess you will need me. For at least the time being, the first time should last a week or so. The second injection is about 20 days, the third about 2 months. Number four will last close to a year, and well, number 5 will have you gloriously fluffy for life." She chuckled at that. My depression grew bigger, it was like a void opening below me that I fell into. She wouldn't have time to make it permanent but she could definitely do some damage. "Calm down," Tammy had gone back to that crazy tone where she seemed emotionless. "I have the fix for you too, a nice fluffy diaper. Now let's get you taken care of. "I hate you." I said "But I love you, and I'll make you a good boy." She smiled an almost sad smile. "I understand your anger but for now, before you make another mess, let's diaper you, my good boy." The diaper was raised between my legs as I felt a final dribble escape and trickle into the padding. It was gone as fast as it leaked out. She slowly taped me in. Chatting about her rules the whole time, I wasn't listening, I was mourning my life, I would never survive this no matter how I struggled, I'd be ground to dust if I tried… _-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_ I had not planned on continuing this but I have a few ideas, if it gets enough support to keep it going, I'll be motivated if not it'll die here lol. BB

Dude I hope you are feeling better, thats more important. Dude I hope you are feeling better, thats more important.

I do, and I don't fault anyone for writing like this, this just hits close to home, mean step mother that used to put me in bad places.

I'm not going to lie I love your writing style. I read a good bit of it, but cannot read more. It's too close to some reality just minus diapers and insert other not as pleasant things. I do hope to read other stuff by you though. You have quite the skill in my opinion.

Ch. 17 It's hard but it's also easy. My mind was broken, how was she here? What was she doing? What was she thinking? My Mom stood in front of me, less than 10 feet away. Mom not mommy, the woman who had given birth to me. I hadn't been embarrassed about a diaper in a few weeks, but today I felt ridiculous to be standing there in nothing but a swim diaper. Gary of course broke up the staring contest. "Well, I'll bet that's not how THAT was supposed to happen!" I covered myself with my hands looking for a towel to cover myself. "Son, what happened? Were you adopted? Dad and I can fix this? You just hold on. We can find a way to save you from him." Mom kept going but I wasn't listening, I had wrapped a towel around myself and was just sitting there my head in my hands. Gary trying to console me. Mom trying reassure me. "Stop, please just stop!" I almost yelled. Everyone kind of just sat there for a second. "Mom, I promise it's not what it looks like, I know you don't understand but it's ok. He's not my daddy, I'm not really sure what he is right now." Mom interrupted me trying to explain, "Son, I don't know how the brutes got you but here it's not possible for them to keep you. We can get you free, even fix whatever they've done to you." Pointing at my covered diaper. "They probably used hypnosis too," now she seemed to be talking more to herself, "we will need to find out what they did. Maybe even do full scan. Your dad will be along in a few minutes…" She continued on obliviously. As she ranted on, Mommy and Cindy came marching up. "Joshua, are you all right?" I nodded. "Mrs. Gerson I presume?" It snapped mom out of her tirade. "Are you the one who kidnapped my son?" She glared up at Mommy like she was going to attack her. "I bet you tried one of those legal tricks, well it won't work here, the locals sympathize with us. They'll have you hauled back to your country in cuffs." "Mrs. Gerson, did I not tell you to come with an open mind?" Mommy was a little scary right now. "Mommy, please don't hurt her. She's my mom." Mommy looked at me like I'd stabbed her with a knife. "Oh my sweet baby boy, I would never hurt her. She's your mom. I invited her here to help fill my part of the contract, love." She paused but only for a second. Sarah came walking up the beach with her board. "Everything all right Ms. T.?" Mommy replied, "of course! Not as planned but definitely all right. I think we all need a few minutes to digest the moment. Why don't you take Joshua and Cindy up to the house to get them changed and cleaned up? It's almost lunch time anyway" "Right away, come on you two, it's time for some food and a set of fresh diapers. How does that sound?" Not bad actually, but I didn't want to leave mom, it had been too long since I'd seen her, and I didn't want to leave without her knowing I was happy. "Joshua," Mommy bent down to my eye level, it was like she read my mind. "This will not be the last time you see them unless you don't want to see them." I hesitated, but nodded and gave into Sarah pulling me back to the house. My mind raced, how? Why? When? The questions didn't stop coming. Sarah was trying to distract me with the thought of yummy fruit and cakes, it all sounded bland and I tuned her out. When we reached the house Cindy got a bath first so I sat on the third floor watching Mommy with mom and tried to figure out what was happening. I knew this much, my mom being here was planned. Our meeting at that moment was not. Mommy had wanted us to be here when we met with mom. I guess in hindsight I should have seen something coming. I mean Mommy never has been much for purposeless things. A recreation vacation alone seemed too empty for her style. Gary had known, and it hadn't phased him at all, nothing ever did. My contract had to be completed and this was one of the promises, that I would be able to, if at all possible, thank them for everything. Sarah chose that moment to get me, ruffling my hair and swinging me into a laying position in her arms, "you know, everything will be alright. Your Mommy is the best of the best. She knows what she's doing, and yes if I had to bet on it, she planned it all." Those words seemed to comfort me more than anything else. So, it was onward to bubbles and soap, and a dry diaper. Which did wonders for me. ______________________ Tina had been slightly surprised to see Mrs. Gerson standing there with Joshua. To her credit she wasn't trying to drag him off. She hadn't known Joshua was here yet, only an invitation to talk about life and better things. Also a free vacation to a place where littles were welcome and wanted. All expenses covered, and no expense spared of course. The coalition's presence here almost eclipsed the headquarters population. Here was safe and so recruitment could be world wide. The reach of those trying to bring more littles into the organization could usually make a lot of headway here. In fact the only recruiter with a success rate close to Tina's was regularly in the country, using the local culture to induce trust. While the public still didn't know why, they could recognize the coalition's symbol on sight. They knew it was an equality organization and that was all. It allowed for a measure of respect not commonly found elsewhere. As Sarah led the boy off, Mrs. Gerson laid into Tina. "How dare you!? That's my son. You will pay for this, every bit of it. I'll make sure you are swinging by your toenails until you die." Tina was a little irritated, "Mrs. Gerson, I haven't done anything to him that he did not want or agree to, without coercion. Everything was his choice." "I'll bet, right after you hypnotized him." "You are welcome to interrogate him later. However, I feel you'll be disappointed in the result. He has been hypnotized but only by his own decisions." That put a sock in the woman's mouth. She was mouthy, this one. Disrespectful too. She was certain someone would want her if she could be convinced, even as old as she was. It would likely be a pair deal though, she was married. Speaking of where was her husband? "Yeah, I'll believe it when I see it." She had every right to be confused. "Well you are invited to dinner tonight. As we promised, we want to talk to you about a great deal of things. That is if Joshua doesn't change his mind. This is all for his benefit after all." Gary had finished putting the umbrella away, which seemed to be his nemesis. "We will expect you at the address provided at 6. His bedtime will have a little leeway while we are here but it is still in effect." Gary took that as the sign to start back to the house. "Mrs. Gerson, I really do hope you come. He made it pretty clear he wanted to thank you and your husband, so much so I added it to his contract." That ought to leave her at least curious. "You better believe I'll be there." She turned and left huffing off through the sand. Well, that made things more complicated. They were supposed to see each other at dinner tonight and be slightly prepared, Joshua would be in more than just a diaper sagging from that cute bottom of his. As it stood, the look of distress he had had was worrying. The red pill lessened any negative emotion, it didn't erase it, just eased it a bit. So the fact he had been so upset was a sign of how much it had meant to him. Tina knew it meant a lot but how much was beyond her. Walking silently with Gary, who always seemed to show way more was in that head of his than he let on, especially in these moments. She contemplated how she was going to approach it with Joshua. This was going to be hard. Maybe breastfeeding first. Always seemed to calm him down. They arrived home to the sound of Cindy laughing and circus music being played loudly. It had the air of someone trying to be cheered up. Tina found all three of them on the playset, Sarah hanging upside down, doing something in front of her while Cindy laughed, Joshua just sat staring, at least he wasn't trying to hide like he would when he was in trouble. Tina waited and watched, she loved to hear both of her little laugh. So she bided her time and just enjoyed Cindy's enjoyment. It didn't take too long before she was noticed though, Cindy came running over, "Mommy, play with us!" "Oh honey, I wish I could. I think there's a little boy who needs me though." Cindy nodded, the girl was a little flighty but not so out of touch she couldn't see he needed a little more today. Without asking she scooped him up and carried him downstairs. Once in her room she settled him in her lap facing him, he only ever contemplated his belly button. "I know you didn't expect it, but I also know you knew it would come soon enough." Tina started, "that was not how I planned it at all. I had planned on you being a little man for when they came over tonight." He looked up at that, "I had planned to warn you as best I could." He leaned on her chest. He was seeing how much work she had put into it. Always reading between the lines this one was. Tina began to understand how much she needed to watch what she said around him. "Want some milk? It always seems to make you feel better." He nodded quietly, the act was well practiced by this point. He suckled for about 15 minutes before he fell asleep. Tina gathered him up and wiped his chin off and laid him on her shoulder. That was where he slept all the way through lunch. _________________ I woke up a little hazy but Mommy had some hot tea and a sandwich for me. I ate and found out I had missed lunch by about 30 minutes. In the end I boiled it all down to some simplicities. My mom was important but Mommy was more important. I loved them both I'm happy where I am. No one got to take it away from me They were all truth, and I recited them over and over as Mommy got me dressed like we were going somewhere fancy. A button down shirt that looked like it was for a kid, some nice pressed slacks, but of course they had buttons on the crotch for easy diaper changing, a tie with cartoon characters on it and some shiny shoes. Right as we got downstairs, Gary who had a similar getup minus the whole button fiasco, was waiting with wine and juice. "Tonight you can be a big boy if you want." He had said. I was never much for wine so I chose the juice which was put into a wine cup so I "felt like a big boy tonight." At about 4:30 a man arrived wearing a white shirt and a fluffy white hat that resembled a floppy mushroom. He was a chef and was going to cook for us tonight. Apparently he would cook most of our meals this week. "Don't worry little man, I can make the nasty stuff tasty and tasty stuff so good you will drool enough to fill up those pampers of yours!" He told me when he saw me eyeing him up and down. "I Love all the little ones. Always so adorable." Mommy smiled at him and Gary made a funny face behind the chefs back, which served to make me laugh. Mr. Chef, that's what he'd told us to call him, "Easier to remember, adorable to boot." He'd tried to whisper to Mommy. Started bringing things in from his car. After about 10 loads he put everything in order and began slicing some stuff up. I watched in wonder, he was very good. He seemed to like me watching him. Cindy had gone off to try and sneak in the pool. I knew this because she kept triggering the proximity alarm, eventually she got a spanking and a time out for it. Eventually, Mr. Chef reached over and handed me a few berries. "These are so sweet this time of year. Try one." It was orange and a bit bumpy. I wasn't sure if I should eat it whole or not, it was too big for a single bit anyway. "Like this" Mr. Chef seemed to understand I wasn't sure if it should be peeled or not, and he popped one whole in his mouth. I followed suit and ended up trying to chew with an overall mouth. I wasn't complaining. It was delicious even as juice dribbled down my chin, it was like dessert or candy. A certain soft sweet that was almost too sweet. "There'll be more with dessert." Mr. Chef promised. Mommy came by, "Don't spoil your dinner young man." She said in a half threatening tone. "I need to get Cindy and then we need to have a family meeting. Gary and Sarah are already waiting for us on the screen porch. Can you go there for me, please?" Nodding enthusiastically I hoped down. Mommy looked at Mr. Chef, "if he ever bothers you just give me a wink, I'll move him on." "Oh no miss, I do love the littles. One day when I settle a bit I'll make sure to find one who wants to be loved, and maybe even loves to cook. Can you imagine a father/son chef team? What a delight that'd be." Laughing, "all right there 'dad' chef, I hope that dream comes true, and soon." That was all I heard from that conversation. I felt like I was going to be hearing about him again soon through the coalition. Mommy was never not interested in expanding. On the porch, Gary was teasing Sarah. "Sure they will, big giant whales, they just gulp up tweeners. You see amazons are too big and we get stuck in their throats. Littles are just too small to even be a snack. See tweeners really are one of their favorite food." "Mr. Gary, you know I'm not a child, I actually go to school and I even did a project on whales last month." Sarah countered. Gary wasn't giving up, "all right then, see for yourself. Swim all the way out there but I'm warning you, we will never find you if one of them gobbles you up." Her eyes looked worried but her tone said she was not so shaken. "Mr. Gary, you're an odd one." Mommy came in holding a sullen Cindy's hand. She was in a pretty evening dress, easy access to the diaper underneath as well as making her look adultish. It was different to see her in something like that. It sparked something in Joshua. He wasn't sure what yet. "Well then let's make this short and easy" Mommy began cheerfully. "Tonight is a big night for Joshua, really for all of us. His birth parents are coming to dinner. They should be here any time." She looked me in the eye. "They will likely be confused at first. As well as being angry, it's important that we do not get angry at them. They will need to vent, that's ok." She paused a second or two, possibly waiting on a question. "Remember to be on your best behavior. When I say it's bedtime, it's bedtime, no arguments, do you 3 understand?" To her credit Sarah didn't argue and all 3 agreed simultaneously. Mommy probably wanted to talk to Mom and Dad alone at some point. I could understand that. "Does anyone have any questions?" Mommy finished. To his credit Gary waited long enough to know there weren't any questions coming then simply said, "yes, when can we eat? The sand and sun made me hungry as a whale." He looked menacingly at Sarah, who rolled her eyes and threw a pillow at him. The finishing of the meeting was almost like a signal, and the doorbell rang. "I'll get it!" Cindy didn't even wait for approval and made it halfway out of the room before she was stopped. "I think it's best if both of us go, little missy." Mommy responded. My heart pounded in my chest. I didn't follow them into the front atrium, instead I ran up to the third floor. I wasn't ready to see them yet. I heard footsteps join me. It was Gary, I knew who it was just by virtue of who it couldn't be. Mommy never made a noise when walking, Sarah and Cindy couldn't have been that loud. I never turned around, just walked to the playset and climbed in, dropping my legs off the side and putting my head on the rail. Gary was at eye level, "hey, big man." He seemed to be empathetic at the moment. "This is pretty scary isn't it?" I nodded, "you have every right to be afraid." That didn't sound like a "Garyism" to me, it caught my attention. "Look, let's boil it down,you haven't seen them in a long time. The one thing they trained you to do was avoid exactly where you are. Yet here you are, you feel like you failed them. Pampered and babied, you now have to stand in front of them and defend yourself. Did I miss anything?" This guy was something that I really didn't understand. He had nailed it on the head. I was shocked by that revelation. "I'm going to ask you a question, my little man." That was the first time he had said "my," it felt odd but somehow it fit. "Why do you need to defend yourself if you are happy?" That hit me somewhere below the ribs. It was a good question though. "I guess I feel like I owe them." "Of Course you do, their your parents, you wouldn't be nearly as much of a good boy if you didn't, they do so much for you and try to make sure you get to that 'happy life' they want for you, but they can't see what you see." Tapping my forehead with a finger, "not what you see here. You found your happily ever after. Now instead of defending that, why don't you show them that?" I pondered that thought. In spite of wanting to prove Gary wrong, because, let's face it, he was Gary and everyone wanted to prove him wrong. I failed to find anything wrong in that logic. "You're right." Was all I said. Gary saw a lot, he also knew a lot, and he didn't let on that he had both of those things in his deck of cards. Maybe that's why Mommy kept him around. He put his hands out for me to jump to him. Which I did with a laugh, he tossed me in the air a couple times making me laugh harder. He carried me downstairs like a football. I felt like a football being thrown to people who were going to fight over me. Well, in any case I'd be happy, because I was where I wanted to be. ____________________ Tina had been a little worried when Joshua bolted up the stairs. She had been really worried when Gary went after him. In a red dress of her own she bent down, checked a diaper absently minded and straightened Cindy's dress. It accentuated her as an adult. Tina wasn't fond of the thing, but Cindy had saved up her money for it and had begged and pleaded to be allowed to have it. In any case it did nothing to hide the fact she was diapered even in the thinner things she was in now. The thought of combining something a lot less inconspicuous and the dress made Tina laugh. It may have to happen tonight. It'd be cute. As they walked to the front door the food caught their attention. It smelt amazing, Mr. Chef was hard at work; he kept dipping something in a boiling pot. Moving it and then dipping it again. "All right, best foot forward, let's welcome them in, NICELY young lady." Cindy smiled up and gave her affirmative. When she opened the door they both smiled, however, the littles on the other side did not. "Good afternoon, I would like to see our son." Was all they got. This is going to be a long hard night. -_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_ Sorry for the delay, I've been in writers slump. I've gotten started on 18 already so hopefully it'll be faster than this one was. I'm hoping I can cover the rest of the story in about 12 chapters. We will see. I have 2 more major events planned. BB

I think your best option would be to decide which ending sounds best to you. Write it from the perspective of what you would like to see. Do you want her to come back seeing it as a lesson learned, a new life style, a new outlook on life? The more you like the story the more you will put into it.

No I wouldn't go that route anyway. I meant more along the lines of it needs to have this theme or that content. Trying to make sure I follow the outline. That's all i mean sorry for the confusion.

Just to make sure there is no limitation on content other than the obvious? I've had an idea but abandoned it initially. It could be resurrected if it was "encouraged"

Contest link This is my entry to the contest. I'm working on defining this world a bit more. This would be the first story in its universe that I've posted. I like the non fantastical side of things. I want someone to be able to read it like it could actually happen to them. Anyway I hope people like it, whether it gets anywhere or not is not that big to me. How did I end up here?-Non Contest How did I end up here? Seriously?!?! Her hand on my padded rear, My head cradled in her arm. Laying across her lap with her boob in my mouth. Warm milk going down my throat. my mind wandered and i began to think on how I got here. —------------- My sign read "Don't report, just give me a buck, I'll be fine in a month." It wasn't so neat or so precise. It had been scrawled with a marker and some cardboard. I had written it a month ago. Best laid plans often go awry if you don't have ways to handle the unknowns in life. That's exactly what had led me to this moment. Maybe I should have seen it coming but well, I hadn't cared to be honest. A job was just a job, and if I lost one I'd just get another, I had done it 10, 15? I'd lost count how many times I had switched careers. This time the office had sent a LoGger to check on me. She had come in, done her due diligence and decided I wasn't worth her time. Maybe I just smooth talked my way out of it, maybe she was disgusted, who knew? More so who cared? In hindsight, I think she may have done something though. My newest job hunt went down the pooper. Job after job had just turned me away with no excuses. With the government and economy the way they were a job was almost guaranteed, so it had been troubling when the bills came in and I eventually got evicted. Now I was on the roadside begging for anything, dodging LoGgers as best I could. In the end they had found me, it was the same one that had been in my apartment. You could only hide so long in this city. It was one of the founding cities. They didn't have a uniform and couldn't always be easily seen coming. "You can leave the sign, let's go get you a warm meal and we will go from there." Was all the brunette had offered when she walked up. Her tight business skirt and loose blouse said she meant business. I knew I'd been caught, but maybe, just maybe I could talk my way out of it. After the meal, that is, I hadn't eaten in 2 days. She had taken me to a large apartment complex. Then to a special elevator which required a key. It had only one button. I knew then I was in trouble, but there was no running away now. When we arrived on the floor the elevator went to, the doors opened to a doctor's office waiting room. "Wait here, I'll have an escort get you cleaned up, in the meantime I'll get you a nice hot meal." My stomach was growling at the prospect. She left through one of the side doors and soon another plain Jane woman came back through. "All right, the orders are; all clean, shirt and shorts. Are you ready?" She held a hand out for me like she might a child. Expectantly waiting for me she smiled in a kind way. "I'm guessing she doesn't want a dirty companion for lunch? Why are you being so nice?" Taking my hand, "I'll answer all your questions as we walk. Firstly, you need a shower, you do stink. You've been on the streets for a month and 3 days now. Secondly, we like to be nice, it's when you aren't nice, we become the 'monsters' you all make us out to be." She was guiding me into another doorway. As we walked through it I continued to ask questions, "that's an oddly specific amount of time. How do you know that?" She never broke her stride. "Do you think we stopped watching you? You were already on a downward slope. The Lady that brought you in, well let's just say, she takes her time. She is very good at what she does and always gets her mark but she is not the fastest. Lucky for you though, she has taken special interest in you." I didn't feel very lucky, but I knew to keep my mouth out of it. Any negative emotions could likely ruin everything. We ended up in a room with a shower and a toilet, there were a few cabinets that had locks on them. It was tile on the floor and walls, a soft grayish blue hint to them that left you feeling sterile. It wasn't a comfortable place, it had an obvious purpose, clean those the Ladies of Guidance had decided needed guidance. "First let's get those clothes off. And get you in the shower. Arms up!" I was too stunned to stop her as she hauled my shirt over my head. "Well done! Such a good boy!" That was a little condescending, I expected as much from a LoGger though. "Now don't fight me on the pants, it's time for a shower." She never hesitated and dropped my drawers before I could even resist her. I had lost enough weight that my pants were falling off anyway, so they simply slipped off, underwear and all. "H H HEY, wait a second!" She only looked up and raised an eyebrow. "Remember I'm only nice as long as you are, and bets are with your weakend state I could take you physically. I know you haven't eaten in 2 days. Let's be quick so you can get to that meal." As much as I hated it, she was probably right. My stomach was agreeing with her as well. It seemed like everyone and everything was arguing against me. I swore to myself I wasn't going to end up in her care. That LoGger was going to have to deal with missing one goal. Holding one hand over my unmentionables I stood there with my pants around my ankles. "I've seen enough of those that you shouldn't worry about it. Also, not half bad." The compliment served to make me blush to my ears. I felt like a child at the same time a piece of meat. "Don't worry I don't date boys, only men.' "That's not helping." I said it before I had really thought about it. "Oh, is the cute stinky boy embarrassed? You are so adorable! Let's get you cleaned up." She started the shower and I felt the warmth from it almost immediately. I had to admit it was going to feel good. "Leave the pants. You won't need them anymore." She stated it like I was never going to wear them again. She collected them and put them in a cabinet. "Shy boys are only cute until they stop listening, let's go, your food will get cold. I just got the notice that it was being delivered soon." She was trying to entice me to obey. Right now I was motivated but it was drawing me closer to the dreaded conclusion. I was going to have to be fast when the time came. Smart and crafty too. Stepping under the water it was hot at the touch but began to feel good almost immediately, "now let me work and you'll get a minute to just enjoy ok?" Not waiting for permission once again, she went at my skin with a soapy rag. It felt like it was made of sandpaper, each scrub took a layer of my skin off. It took a second to realize that each swipe also took off every bit of hair. She was down to my mid section when I rebelled. "Hey, that's not ok!" She was expecting it I guessed and pushed me to the tile wall. A hard swat to my butt cheek quieted me. "You will not argue with me anymore. Do you understand me?" "B..but I" SMACK "Do you understand me?" "Yes." SMACK, apparently being submissive wasn't enough. "Yes what?" My thoughts raced to find a proper answer. SMACK, what did she want from me! I took 5 swats for my brain to catch on. "Yes ma'am, YES MA'AM!" "Very good! I'm proud of you, if she hadn't claimed your rehabilitation I would be all over it." That didn't sound good. They had a plan for me. She finished her job, cleaning every inch of me. The shower had lost its allure though and when she said I could stay in for a minute I just walked out. Sitting on the toilet naked and violated. "I gave you a reward and you turned it down?" I just sat on the lid of the toilet without responding. "I guess you can lead a horse to water but you can't make him enjoy it. Anyway," she dug in a cabinet and pulled out a white t-shirt and white shorts, they looked more like boxers than anything else, "put these on, and I'll deliver you. Your food is waiting. I dressed hurriedly, I wasn't looking for another spanking. The shorts were comfortable and the shirt was a bit big but close enough to not be a bother. We left the room and I was marched down a long hallway. A couple women came to the doorways along the hall, smiling. A few offered encouragement like "atta boy" or "That's a good boy." I felt my face heat up again. They didn't know I was going to get out of this. They were planning on me being taken in. As soon as I had that free meal that is. And now apparently my clothes too. Maybe without the clothes would be ok. I could figure it out. We reached the end of the hall to a door that said "For intake only, all others keep out." That's not good, not good at all. I had to find a way to do this away from this room. "Aren't we going to a kitchen or a dining room or something? I thought you said my food was here." She knocked on the door, "it is waiting on you in here. I promise, have I given you a reason to mistrust me?" My mouth once again moved without my brain telling it to, "You're a LoGger that's a reason in itself." Damnit! That was stupid! They hate that name, they only refer to themselves as Ladies. I knew better! Her face darkened as the door opened. The brunette that had brought me here stood in the doorway. She was dressed like she had been. "Oh? Did I interrupt something?" She was holding a plate with a steak, potatoes, broccoli and a piece of cake on it. My eyes focused on it, my mind blanked, I was so hungry I missed them saying "He decided to be rude a half a second before you opened the door." "How so?" "He referred to us as LoGgers." "I will ensure he understands the best way to talk to those helping him. It seems he has a need first, but rest assured I WILL handle it." Then to me grabbing my hand, "come inside, now." I followed like one of those cartoon characters that had been enticed by the vapors from a cooling pie in the window. I couldn't focus on anything. She placed the tray on the table and told me to sit and eat. I did, and with abandon. My whole mind focused on how fast I could cram food in my mouth. "Slow down,"She said gently. I never even heard her, nor did I see the stick she pulled from her pocket. It extended right into my thigh. When it connected, my world erupted into electric shock and fire. "Ahhhhh" I was thrown back by muscles reacting to the pain. Spitting the food in my mouth out like a projectile. "Do you think wolfing your food down like an animal is polite? Or do you think it's kind to someone who spent so much energy on making it just for you? Do you think it's OK to ignore me when I speak?" She hadnt said it in anger, just questioning me on proper behavior. I looked at her blankly, I wasn't sure how to respond. The pain in my thigh was beginning to dim but the memory was still there. "You will slow down, you will enjoy the food, and you will listen to me. The stick was a simple reminder, as it's your first offense I don't expect you to be perfect, however, polite and kind are things you should be already." Her stern voice was like a mother bringing her boy under control. I felt stupid. She was right and I needed to control myself if I was getting out of here without the dreaded destiny she had in mind for me. She handed a cloth napkin to me, at least I knew the answer here and placed it upon my lap. "Very good boy! I'm proud of you, now here's your knife and fork back. I'm going to go change clothes and freshen up. You eat slowly, and I'll be back. Don't want you getting sick now do we?" She stood up and I started to eat again. Slower this time. I distantly heard a door close and water running. I ate without a thought in my mind. When I had finished everything using my finger to get the cake crumbs to my mouth I surveyed the room. I was in trouble, one wall held a bed, another a door to wherever the brunette had gone. A third held a shelf a small refrigerator and a window, the shelf held every manner, color and size of diaper that existed in the hand of the LoGgers. This wasn't good. They had gotten me this far, it wasn't likely I'd talk my way out now. I bolted for the door. It should have been obvious, locked! There wasn't a key hole or anything. The knob just wouldn't turn or open. The window wasn't much more help, we were on the 5th floor or higher. I wasn't getting out easily and even with food in me I wasn't up to full strength so scaling a building wasn't going to happen. Not that I could when I was at full strength. I began searching the room frantically, I was once again so focused I never heard the door open. "There isn't a key." It shook me out of my reverie. She was leaning against the door frame, her clothes a red latex get up, skirt that went a little past her mid thigh, skin tight top. It looked like she had been watching me for a minute or two. I swallowed audibly. For one that was a hot getup and I was failing miserably to stop my freshly shaven private parts from engorging. The boxer type shorts not doing anything to hide it either. It also served as a prophetic moment for what was to come. The style suggested she wanted to play and I was goingbto be the toy. "I see you like it. Well those few that see it usually do. But they usually don't get to the softer side of it. Most of you fight until the bitter end. You however won't get a bitter end, you will be coming with me when we leave tonight. You see with no place to stay or way of caring for yourself I have invoked caregiver rights." I had never heard that before. No one had ever said anything about it. Never mentioned on the internet. My face obviously reflected my confusion and possibly revulsion to the idea. "We will talk about it more later. As for now, I see you've finished eating, would you like to use the toilet? It will be your last chance, quite probably ever." I needed to think. I needed time to plan an escape. Time to play dumb. "Uhhh, I have been using the toilet since I was 2. Why would I not be able to now?" Her attitude changed, "I am a patient person. So much so that I can wait a month or more for someone to get so low they walk themselves into my hands." The thought left me embarrassed, she crossed the room and produced a loop of metal. It came open at her touch and she placed it around my wrist. When it closed the clasp or whatever it was, vanished. "You won't get it off, and if you try you will likely hurt yourself." She stood close and asked again, "would you like to use the toilet one last time? It often helps you boys to say goodbye." I weighed my options, how long could I take? Maybe I could find a way out. "Sure." Trying to sound defeated. I turned to go in and she blocked my way. "I'm waiting, so remember that, and be polite." Her voice conveyed a threat but sounded gentle. Her eyes seemed to be motherly and I wanted to run. She moved only after I nodded. I shut the door, no lock on the handle. Probably only locked the same way the main door did. Similar to the room I'd been showered in. All the cabinets were locked, I sat on the toilet emptying myself, never knew if she could check for that or not. It would be better not to risk it. I was going to have to rely on wit and sheer luck to get out of this. I stood up pulling the white boxers as I went. Time to pour on the charm. The door opened before I even could push it open. "You took too long, let's go." She was no nonsense. "Can we talk first? I don't even know your name. Maybe some water?" "There are only 2 ways to address me right now, ma'am and Lia. Nothing else. If you are good you will not have long to wait on getting water or some juice. On the bed, on your back please." She picked up a blue diaper from the shelf and turned to see I hadn't moved. "That's one. On the bed, on your back please." "But, I haven't done anything wrong." "That's two. On the bed on your back please." Her tone never wavered as she crossed the room back to me. She tossed the diaper on the bed and looked up at me from about 6 or 7 inches below me. "I really don't see why…" that was as far as I got. I never even saw where it came from, the stick tapped my thigh again and I fell to the floor clutching my leg. It seemed to have hurt worse this time. "That's three. You won't always get 3 warnings, but for today I will, simply because you're a boy and in need of learning how to behave." She walked over to the bed and placed hand on the far side. "Now will you submit, get on the bed on your back?" I wasn't getting out of this, not right now. That stick hurt like the Dickens. I wasn't strong enough to fight her right now either. I delayed by getting up slowly. When I didn't move immediately she sighed heavily and tapped a button on her watch. "That's four, we will do it the hard way." The cuff on my arm moved of its own accord, I was dragged four or five feet to the bed, where my wrist was held fast. It wouldn't budge. What the hell was this thing? She plopped the rectangular plastic diaper in front of me, "It's an electromagnet, the tech is pretty neat huh?" Neat?! How is pinning me to the bed neat. " Where I touch, you go. Pretty simple in execution but it goes way beyond my understanding. Now we will begin. I'm going to paddle you, I want you to understand it will not stop until I think you are truly willing to obey me. So when you think you are ready for me to put you in that diaper, just say so." The way the cuff had dragged me I was laid over the bed exposed on my backside. There was no defense. She ripped the white boxers off my rear. "Can't even wipe correctly. You need a lot of help, my boy. You left streaks in the clothes you borrowed from us. That's disgusting." The first hit stung like a thousand bees stinging my ass. I couldn't see what she was using but it felt thin and hard. I wasn't going to dignify it with a yelp. Maybe if I could outlast her… She began working my cheeks over, I lost count around 15 or so. I started to yelp and do sharp breaths. She started to vary the pattern, sometimes slower, sometimes faster. I couldn't prepare for it, couldn't brace myself. Sometimes it felt like she was done, others it felt like she was just starting. I realized tears had formed in my eyes. She was never going to let me go, I was going to be in diapers, I was going to be her puppet. Like any male before me caught doing things they didn't want or deemed inappropriate. The first sob came like the sound of an old car starting up. Rough and forced. The caning kept going. Each time it felt like a hammer on my backside. I had lost all pretense and was just heaving and crying. "Please, pleeeeassse!" I cried, no response except the cane hit. A few more convinced me to try again. "I'm begging PLEEEEEASE! I'll do whatever you say, anything! I mean it." I was rambling and pleading my case. The cane kept falling. "I'll take the diaper, I will, please, I want it, please!" She paused for a second. "Now we are finally getting somewhere." Her voice sounded excited, almost erotically so. The caning started again. "No! Please, stop, I don't care, I'll do it, I'll even put it on myself!" She never reacted. The cane fell again and again. From the point where my butt met my back to mid thigh was on fire. It felt like someone had removed the skin. I collapsed into sobs not able to make coherent words anymore. Without warning the beating stopped. I could hear her barefoot hitting the floor as she walked around the bed. It didn't matter to me, I was broken, I layed on the bed sobbing, I could feel a puddle of tears that had formed under my head. When she reached me she bent down and kissed the top of my head. "I don't want to ever have to do that again, I probably will have to, You boys are stubborn, I much prefer to get my jollies in other ways. You need to understand I'm willing to do what is necessary to make you a good boy." She retrieved the diaper and walked back behind me. My sobs never abated. I felt a cool cream go onto my backside. It brought the pain back instantly. I jerked away from her hand, moaning in between my heaves as I tried to bring control back to my breathing. "I know, I know, shhhhhh, I know. This will make it feel better though." She shushed me as she worked. "Let's let that sit for a minute then we will get you properly dressed so we can go home." I was going to be in diapers. As she moved around the room she hummed and sang to herself. It reminded me of a serial killer I had once heard about. I was going to be in diapers. The thought kept ringing in my head. It was all I could think, but I had no will left to fight. It was a consuming thought. Everything I had done to avoid this moment and yet here I was. I was going to be in diapers. "All right, that should be good now, let's rollover and get you in your first diaper." I was going to be in diapers. It wasn't fair, it wasn't ok, but I complied. My tears returning. She was putting me in diapers. "Oh baby, don't worry, I'm going to take good care of you. You'll never be on the street again, ok?" I knew I needed to respond this time, "yes, ma'am" I choked out between sobs. The pain in my rear grew again as pressure came from being rolled onto my back. My legs were lifted, Lia used her shoulder to hold me off the bed enough to slide the diaper underneath. She laid me down gently, and began to rub in oil all over my groin. "You're such a good boy for me." After that came baby powder. "I bet that feels nice, even in such a state you like it don't you? Getting the little boy all excited!" She talked down to me like a child the whole time. "But it's not fun time, no no no. We have to get him tucked away all nice and cozy." With that she pulled the thick padding up between my legs, I fought back the heaving sobs again. I succeeded but a few tears still escaped. She expertly taped me in place. I wondered how many she had done this to. "Why?" Was all I asked. "Oh baby." She tapped her watch and I felt my arm go free. She pulled me onto the bed in the correct way, pulling my head to her chest. "Oh baby, you need to understand, I don't like seeing you the way you were this morning. I don't ever want to see you struggling like that. Remember how hungry you were? How dirty? How lonely? You walked in here KNOWING that this would end here. You were so miserable you came in here willingly just for a hot meal. I did this so you will never be that desperate again." She kissed my head lovingly. "Sometimes we have to be broken to be made into something better. I will do what I must." Laying in a diaper on her chest still heaving with the occasional tear I wanted to push her away, but I needed the soft touch right then. Even if it was from her. "Now let's get something soft on those legs and we will go home. Eat a nice dinner and get some good sleep." —------------- That at least, explains how I ended up here, you know diapered, how I ended up in Lia's care. I suckled more, her milk was usually sweet. The fruit she ate kept it that way. I had learned not to use my teeth or to pull too hard. This wasn't normal though. At least for my situation. I found myself here again because I had earned it. A bit of gas escaped to my diaper, it wouldn't be long now. The pressure was building in my abdomen. Breastmilk had its effects on me. My thoughts wandered off again, why was I here? —------------- "You want to act like a baby, you will be treated like one." I had avoided using the diapers for 2 days now. Instead I had walked out to the garden pretending to want to be in the yard and hid behind a bush there. It worked, mostly. At least until Lia had found out. The diaper still around my ankles, she activated my wrist cuff. I was dragged across the yard over the pool decking and slid into the wall by the door where the hidden magnet pad was. She had a few of them around the house. The one in the yard had been particularly embarrassing, she had left me there one day in nothing but a diaper. It had been 4 hours. My side, clothes and the diaper were destroyed in the process of being dragged across the yard. So there I lay bleeding from the road rash I had just received, mostly naked, completely embarrassed and horribly terrified. She was not happy. She hauled me up by my ear and took me to my room where she all but threw me on the changing table. "We use our diapers, little boy. I expect better from you. Did you think I wouldn't find out? What were you going to say when I checked you and you stayed dry for 3 days?" She was angry, and that was the understatement of the year. "This is ridiculous. You know better." She began cleaning out the roadrash, it was like she was using sandpaper. My sharp intake of air was enough to calm her a bit. She liked to know I was not enjoying my punishment. This was obviously a good punishment I thought. Maybe she'd leave it at that. Last time I'd been rude I'd had to use a pacifier for 24 hours. If she couldn't hear me suckling it she would swat my thigh. My jaw was aching by the end of the 24 hours. One time she caught me awake and out of bed, I had a week of nap times. Her brand of punishment was usually on the bizarre side of babyhood. "Don't think that this is going to be the end of it either." There went that hope. "This was beyond dumb." She laid a cloth against my leg for a minute. Then pulled it off and bandaged my leg. She put me in a new diaper and dragged me up off the table. A new pair of pants was added over top of the diaper, they had a lock on them. Before she locked them on though a hand went down the backside of my diaper and a finger pushed something in. "If you push that out there'll be a spanking and you'll get another one of them" The lock was fastened and I was brought to the living so "I could be watched." It didn't take long to realize she had put in a suppository and locked me in. I was about to uncontrollably poop myself. She watched with a glass of wine in hand. I began to struggle against the wave of contractions. I had always been allowed privacy until now. I got up to walk away, but was stopped. "Uh uh, get back here and sit on the carpet facing me." I didn't argue the spankings were worse than the babying. I knelt in front of her and she pulled me closer. Putting my head in her lap, she rubbed my hair, seeming to savor every second of my discomfort. Right as a new wave was coming, I began to brace myself to fight it. She pulled my head up to look in her eyes. She looked so sophisticated at that moment. Red dress, glass of wine in hand, and my head in her other hand, it made me feel dumpy and unrefined. The climax of the contractions came on and I closed my eyes fighting the good fight. Every fiber of my being was put into stopping the medicines from d I ung their job. Without warning my mouth was invaded by a tongue. My eyes flew open to see Lia kissing me. My concentration shot, the warm mush filled the seat of the diaper. The kiss didn't end immediately though, she held on until she finished with whatever she had wanted. I just sat there filling my pants completely stunned. "That's my good baby boy, from now on during punishments you will only refer to me as mommy." Was all the explanation she said or offered. I sat in that mess for a few hours, easily developing a rash. This was the extent of the punishment, not the accident, but the embarrassment and the rash as a reminder. When she changed me she did something very odd. She only did three tapes instead of the four. "Lay on the bed." She'd commanded. Doing as I was told, confused but obedient. She threw a rag very similar to the one she had used on my leg earlier. "Masturbate" "What?" I had been put in mittens for 3 days for touching myself last time. It made me timid to do so even if she was standing there telling me to do it. "Mast- ur - bate, now. I'm not going to tell you again. I need to collect several samples to make sure you are chemically balanced. Your constant bad behavior suggests there's an issue. I need to make sure there isn't." "Like, with you watching? I can't do that." "If you don't do it I'll spank you until you orgasm. Now chop chop, I still have to make dinner." It was said so nonchalantly it left me uncomfortable. I tried, I really did. After about 10 minutes of just trying to get going nothing was happening. "Boys and their toys, turn over and get on all fours." I did as expected. I felt the ever invasive hand go into my fresh diaper. She retrieved my member and began massaging me. It felt good, but I rejected it nonetheless, "this is so weird." "It is? Then tell me why you're already getting hard?" It felt Really good, it had been a long time since anyone had touched me like that. Once I had grown stiff she pulled it from the diaper through the leg hole. "I think you want to be my boy, look at how quickly you reacted to my touch. You're going to explode aren't you? I know you need the release, you haven't had one since you've come to me." She was full steam ahead. My cock harder than I had ever remembered. "Oooooh" the moan escaped my lips without my consent. "My boy, you can finish." She leaned down to my ear and whispered "you want it so bad, go ahead, diaper boy." That was it, all she wrote. I exploded, she held the rag in place and caught everything. "You CAN be a good boy, lay down please." The afterglow left me wanting to just fall asleep right there. I rolled over as instructed, she tucked me away in the diaper and taped it back snuggly. I had never wanted to be in a diaper less than that moment. Disgusted with myself I wanted to just disappear. She had gained so much power over me in that one moment. "You're not out of the woods yet." Was the only warning she gave me. —------------ Knowing why I was here was easy enough, her hand had been patting my rump. It was strangely comforting. She dimmed the lights. It had a nice effect. My head cradled at her breast, I kept nursing. If I stopped for too long she would assume I was finished or just being lazy. So I had to go long enough to satisfy her. "I think the baby needs both tonight." She announced in an almost whisper. I whined at her breast. This always gave me digestive issues. "Oh? Is the baby too tired? I guess after his punishment it'll be bedtime and not play time." I moaned again. "Mmm, then baby should drink all the milk he can. That way he has strength for play time. Mommy may let him out of that awful waffle diaper if he eats well tonight." The great thing about punishments is when they were over they were over, she didn't let it linger or hold it over my head. "You know baby, mommy finally got your tests back from the lab. They don't show any imbalances. All your levels are just right. That leaves me wondering something. If you don't have a reason to behave poorly, do you just want to be my baby?" Her hand brushing my hair back. I never responded to her. My face turned red as her hand moved from bum, down the front of my diaper. She didn't even really have to make contact to get me going, but she did, lightly at first. I responded to her touch by pushing forward. "My my, are we needy tonight? I think you should slow down and prove to mommy you can be a good boy first." She made me switch sides so I could drain her other breast. In the months since we had been together she had taught me a lot. Most of all she had taught me to not always be a good boy. It led her to want long nights of fun. Mostly because she got to "punish" me. Those times were her favorite. Oh how she enjoyed them. Not that I was complaining, the diapers still sucked but she would let me atleast "hang out" for our fun times. In the end I wasn't going to escape. I had tried, it hadn't worked. But that is a story for another day. Why? Well, it didn't have anything to do with how I got here…

Ch.16 To beach or not to beach, or “What happened to you?" It had been over a month since the arrangement had been finalized. Tina sat thinking over how everything had played out since then. At first it had been quite the effort to have 2 babies in the house. However, as everyone had settled into their roles everything had gotten a lot easier. Cindy had immediately taken to having a playmate in the house. Always pushing Joshua to play with her, she had even managed to dress him up as a doll one time. He had sworn that off when Tina had found him in a dress and bonnet, while she laughed at the little’s play, he had picked up a play sword and chased Cindy Around menacingly. It had all been fun, but Tina had laughed so hard she cried. Joshua had developed so well, fitting his new role like he had been born to it. He got his back end reddened like any other, but it was normal boyish things, once he had tramped off through the woods and come back with clothes torn and diapers hanging off. He had been so proud of himself until he got that spanking. One time he'd found a lizard and scared mommy with it, that had earned him a time out. Normal boy things, perfectly as it should be. They had learned to play together so well, a few spats had broken out here and there but they had been minor. The only thing that had really been bad, was Cindy had decided on something and Tina did not know whether she should/could/would stop it. - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - Tina had been woken up from a sound sleep to the monitor going off. Cindy was moving around. Not all that uncommon, most of the time she just wanted water. She flipped on the screen and instead of a baby holding a cup, it was two babies, one rather startled, Joshua, and one comfortably snuggled up next to him. That girl knew better, getting out of bed Tina went into Joshua’s room and snatched the girl out of the bed, her protests flying into deaf ears. “But mommy I was lonely, I wanted to snuggle and Joshua wanted me to.” “Good girls don't go into boys rooms at night, you let him sleep. And you stay in your room. DO you hear me?” With that warning Tina gave one good swat to her padded backside which elicited an “ow.” - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - It had happened three times since then, the last time the girl had been laying on Joshua instead of next to him. Joshua still seemed to be oblivious to the whole thing. He never seemed to let on that he knew she was smitten with him. The problem was Cindy’s contract. The reason it presented an issue was that Cindy had to be provided a mate. That was all very well and good but how would it work in the family dynamic? Even worse, how would it work if it didn't work out? That would have to be explored later, though. It was vacation time!! ________________________ I had really been looking forward to the vacation. Mommy had promised us it would be white sand, blue sky's, and clear water for 2 whole weeks. She had shown us playgrounds and amusement parks on boardwalks, beaches and a beautiful place we had rented. Apparently, Gary would be coming for some of the time, and my nanny Sarah would come for the whole vacation. Everyone was going to get their own rooms and there was a swimming pool. I hadn't been swimming in years. Often, a swimming little looked too much like a struggling little to the amazons, you could be picked up and declared unfit for being in the water too deep for yourself. It made an easy case for overturning someone's rights. Anyway that was in the past and I could go swimming with no fear now. In the end this was going to be great. I hadn't been on a vacation before so the time away and the time in the sun would be glorious. ____________________ The day of our trip had come, mommy had shipped a supply of diapers and all our supplies ahead of us. Packed a bunch of clothes and Sunscreen and, my personal favorite, beach toys. We were off like three starstruck adventurers. The car took us to the airport where the throng of Amazon's threatened to devour us. Mommy being ever vigilant though, put us up on a cart and buckled us in. "I don't want you 2 wandering off and getting into any trouble." Mommy had said with a wink. Through security and up to the gate we went. Strangely, I noticed the symbol for the coalition emblazoned on the uniform of the airport workers. "Mommy, are they with the coalition?" I asked, I was promptly hushed. "Let's get settled on the plane, we can talk there." We moved through a gang plank and transitioned to the plane. "Immediately we were greeted by the attendants there. "Instructor Tina, we are honored by your presence today, can we take you to your accommodations?" Mommy seemed to pause a second, "Tina will do, or if you must Miss Tina. Please lead away." Down the row we went, passing a bunch of half filled seats and up a flight off stairs. There were no chairs here, only doors and a few windows that didn't lead outside. The attendant led us toward the front of the plane. The windows were actually viewports into rooms. I wasn't sure why they were there so I asked mommy. "They are for the people in the rooms to get the attention of the staff so they can order food or drinks or whatever else they want without being disturbed. All you have to do is open the curtain and someone comes to help." We went into the last room on the right. Immediately I was astonished by the view. The whole room was a big window. I could see the whole airport from here. "This will be the best view you can get, you each have a bed to sleep in, and anything you need or want can be brought here," the stewardess bent down, "if you need toys or snacks just ask." She seemed overly happy about it, standing back up she looked at mommy. "Miss Tina, if you have any needs or wants let us know, as well if any of these precious little ones need a change I would be glad to assist." Mommy simply smiled and thanked her. "Before I leave you, I was told you have a couple other companions traveling with you, when they are on board I will make sure you are informed." Mommy snorted, "knowing who they are I doubt I will need to be told they are here. Is there any way we can go ahead and get a drink? Juice boxes for them, and the number 3 on my travel list please." "Right away, maam!" With that she closed the door. I had not stopped watching out the window. I had seen a man dragging a long rope for what seemed like no reason. There was a cage on wheels that had something that looked like a bear but WAY too big and a horn like a rhino. Probably for one of those strange genetic circuses that came around.There seemed no end of things to see being loaded and unloaded on planes and carts and hover pads or just being carried. My revelry was interrupted by my pants being pulled back and a hand checking my diaper. Apparently, satisfied things were OK in my pants. She moved to Cindy, who had been digging in drawers around our cabin. Repeating the check and finding no reason to interrupt her anymore Mommy went to a chair and sat down. "We still have a little while before we take off. Are either of you hungry? Bored? Tired?" I barely responded with a "no ma'am" while I watched 2 amazons yell at each other over a large wooden crate that seemed hell bent on falling over. Cindy sat down on the floor and huffed. "How long is this going to take?" She seemed bored already. "What would you like to do? Teleport there?" Mommy asked in a playful manner. "Yes please!" Cindy stood up and planted herself in front of Mommy almost like she expected it to actually happen. "Oh you would? What if you got there and your stomach stayed here? You wouldn't be able to eat!" Mommy in an incredulous tone teased. " or what if you didn't have any more toes." Snagging the girl Mommy began tickling her. Finally collapsing in a pile of giggles and heavy sighs. The door opened with the attendant and 2 juice boxes, and a cocktail that seemed to be smoking and frozen at the sametime. I took mine happily, and began sipping away. The door had only been closed for a few seconds before an overly excited Gary burst in, singing something about no cares and sandy toes. It was off key, and not very impressive, just boisterous. He was followed by a very frazzled Sarah, I had never seen her like that. "Mr. Gary, You are harder to keep up with than a dog running with the lunch it just stole." "Awe, little miss Sarah, we are going on vacation, no need to sweat the small stuff. We made it, now, let's enjoy it!" Gary seemed to pay only as much attention as he absolutely had to. "We have the cabin across the hall so if you need some fun we will be right over there. Sarah, do we need to take care of anything before we take off?" It seemed like a cleverly disguised check on the would be teenger's diapered state. Sarah's face went bright red. "I'll be fine Mr. Gary, I promise." "Well then! I guess we should catch up and get a drink and a snack." Sticking his head out the door he yelled his order down the hall instead of summoning the attendant. The man had no sense of sophistication at all. He just seemed to fly by whim, whimsy and the seat of his pants. He seemed like a lot of fun. Mommy was laughing at him and Cindy was ignoring all of us again and looking for something fun to do. She always seemed to be living in the next adventure, it bothered me for some reason, I couldn't quite tell why. Her attitude toward me had been changing slowly. She seemed to want to touch me more and liked to bite or tease me. I'll never understand girls. Sarah bent over enough to whisper in her ear. Cindy's face lit up, and both of them left the room without a word. Mommy let them go, best I could tell she was comfortable in the fact the coalition was present. That thought made me remember the uniforms from the workers. "Mommy," I interrupted her and Gary talking about something boring, "is the plane part of the coalition?" "Come here, dear heart." She patted her lap. I climbed up and leaned into her, she seemed to like this position as much as I did. "Remember the coalition was initially a bunch of businesses?" I nodded. The company that owns all these planes is part of the coalition." Gary wasn't able to resist, "That's right buddy! You're a quick one and an observant one on top of that. We use their services because its cheaper and they will reserve things for us. We are going to have a good time training." I wasn't sure what he was talking about but I was sure I'd figure it out soon enough. Mommy rolled her eyes and took a sip of her frozen smoking drink. "What he means to say is they give us special treatment as part of the coalition. We get this sky box seating and such without having to fight for it. They will also organize transportation for us when we land. Which is nice since it is a foreign country." That was the first I had heard we were leaving the country, it didn't overly surprise me though. Not much shoreline here and it was mostly ports and immigration. Mommy had seemed to relax a bit when Gary arrived. She always seemed more at ease when he was around. I remembered a day he had come over for dinner. Usually mommy wouldn't let us go far without her. Even in the house. When he was there though we were even asked to go play by ourselves. Just as I was starting to wander off mentally, the attendant stopped by and poked her head in, "10 to flight, anything I can get you? If not, it will need to wait until we hit cruising altitude in about an hour." My privates were once again invaded, I hadn't really noticed the growing bulk but it had gotten rather large and in charge. "Well this one won't last that long, I guess I'd better get you both fresh and clean." "Miss Tina, can I offer my services? I'd be glad to handle one of them quickly for you." Mommy smiled, "that would be splendid, why don't you take Joshua here and get him changed?" "Right away!" I was stunned but didn't resist. I had lost count of the people who had wiped my butt. Mommy had told me I'd need to get used to it and the faster I did the easier it would be, so I just kind of leaned into it instead of fighting it. Changes by mommy were always better, though. I was placed on the flight attendant's hip, she smiled at me, "you ok with that cutie pie?" Not waiting for an answer she carried me off down the hall. "You can call me Samantha or Sam if it's too hard for you. I always like to change the cute littles I get on the plane." She set me on a table and took my pants away with great ease. Never missing a beat she went to work. The cool air and wipe on my crotch jolted me back to the moment. "Boop" She tapped the new diaper she had in hand on my head. "If you want when we hit our altitude, that means the height we will fly at, I'll come get you and show you where the pilots are." I nodded smiling back at her, that actually sounded fun. She finished up by putting powder on me and taping the diaper in place. It was THICK! way more than normal or even my night diapers. My best guess was this was going to be a longer flight. She folded my pants up, to which I protested. "Why can't I wear them?" Sam laughed. "Would you like to try and get them over that fluff butt of yours? And why would you want to cover up such a cute tushy like yours?" Patting my rear like we had known each other forever. She carried me back down the hall to where mommy had finished with Cindy, who was also pantless diaper hanging out. Gary was arguing with Sarah about changing. "I really think you should put a diaper on young lady, it's going to be a long flight. I know your daddy told you if you leaked it'd be diapers for a month. So I'll leave it up to you…" it was almost a threat the way he left it. Sarah held onto her dignity for only a few seconds, "ok, Mr Gary, but can I at least do it myself." "Ofcourse, Lil missy! I do hold the right of inspection but I wouldn't deprive you of your independence." Sarah smiled and blushed at the sametime. Sarah gathered her bag and left the room. Cindy was sitting on mommy's lap. Her face covered in makeup, I guess that's what she and Sarah had been doing. "where'd you go?" I responded a little excited. "Sam changed me and said she would show me where the pilots were after we take off!" Mommy laughed and Cindy seemed to feel left out, "Mommy, can I go too?" Mommy laughed harder, "I'm sure you can, girlie." "For now though you 2 need to get strapped in, taking off can be a little rough and I don't want you bonking your heads." She stood up with Cindy and placed her In a seat sized for a little, pushing the seat back just a little. It seemed to engage something in the seat, because a belt shot around Cindy then up over her shoulders. It was so fast Cindy yelped in surprise. "Pretty neat aren't they? I've thought about getting them for your high chair." Cindy glared at mommy, which made her laugh again. "All right my sweet boy, your turn, I didn't really want to get into a seat so I tried to escape, squealing and laughing, I didn't make it far, maybe 2 steps before I felt the loving hands snag me. "Are you trying to get away? I guess I'll have to punish you." I Wasn't really afraid I was in real trouble, but just to be sure I protested, "NO MOMMY!" but there was no mercy to be had. I was flipped upside down, my bare legs and feet held up right, hanging there. I was helpless to whatever my captor wanted. She began tickling my feet with abandon, and ofcourse I lost all ability to control myself, trying to jerk free and breath. When she let off and turned me back upright she asked playfully, "have you had enough or do we need to resort to extreme measures?" I was still trying to orient myself to being right-side up again. "I give up, I surrender." I said and was promptly kissed on the forehead. "Good, now let's get you in that seat, it won't be long I promise. I was set down and the same seat belt was put on me. I was glad that I had been at least seated by the window/wall. I wasn't sure how to refer to it, due to the fact that over half of the walls and ceiling were nothing but glass. "All right you two," she handed me a handheld version of the gaming console and Cindy was given a tablet she could play with, "we've got a little bit of time where we have to be in our seats. If you need me I'll be able to reach you so just say so. Her seat was to the otherside of Cindy's, but not so far I felt she was not able to get to me, for good or bad. All three were along the window in a sort of line but a little curved. She sat down and buckled in herself and finished her drink off. The plane started to move and I forgot about my game, such interesting stuff. A plane zoomed by and an Amazon stood on the pavement waving light sticks around like a crazy man, it looked like fun. There was a plane landing and one taking off. Our plane moved to the runway and paused for just a second. I could feel the engines more than I could hear them. The plane seemed to compress from the thrust of the engines. We shot off like a bullet. I was pressed into my seat as we tore off down the runway. I felt my stomach jump as we went airborne. Thinking I was glad I had been caught and strapped in or else I'd be smashed on the back wall and they would need a spatula to get me off it. It was amazing that as soon as we started going up the plane stopped shuddering and shaking and just became smooth. The view only got better, as we climbed I could see cities and mountains and everything you could imagine. It was awe inspiring. "Joshua, do you like the view?" I only nodded. "Cindy, do you want to see?" Mommy interrupted Cindy who looked up and was instantly captivated. We both just stared until a white fog covered our view. A little bit annoyed it took a second to realize it was a cloud. Which only made me more amazed, I was flying in the clouds! After a few moments that novelty wore off though. Clouds weren't much fun to look at. They never changed. I flipped the game console on and zoned out. After what only seemed like a minute or two, my seatbelt was unbuckled and I looked up to see Sam lifting me down to the floor, "Well you made it to the sky, want to go see the pilots?" Cindy made a grunt that sounded desperate and pleading at the sametime. Sam didn't miss a thing, "oh, I wouldn't dream of leaving such a pretty little girl behind!" Cindy clapped her hands together in excitement and grinned at the compliment. Cindy was pretty, I thought, especially with those legs and diapered tushy hanging out. The super thick diaper gave the impression she had a rather huge butt. I realized I needed to change my thoughts, not that with this diaper on anything was going anywhere but just to be safe. My hand was held by Sam, "Are we rdy? Miss Tina, I'll have them back before dinner time." We were off, into the hall, waddling and crinkling. "You two are just so adorable. I hope one day to find some littles just like you to love and hold. Let's take the elevator! I bet you'll like that!" We walked down the hall past the stairs and towards a set of double doors. Something triggered them to open as we got near… What greeted us made me pause a moment in surprise. It was like the room we had been seated in but this one had glass on every side except the door. Even the floor was glass. Sam tugged a little to get our feet moving again. "Oh don't worry! It's a great view." The doors shut behind us, and I suddenly felt very exposed. Cindy felt very differently though, freeing her hand she walked all they way to the outer wall and pressed her face to the window. "I feel like I'm flying." Sam laughed, "you are you silly goose." The floor suddenly felt like it was falling, instead it was really just the elevator moving down. The doors opened and we went back inside the plane this time back on the level we had entered the plane on. We went back down the aisle of chairs to a lot of "awwwws" and "soooo cute" All the chairs were full now, only a couple were empty, I felt bad for the people down here. They didn't get to see all the cool things outside the plane. We made it to the front of the plane where Sam knocked in a funny pattern on a door. "Secret knock so they know who's here." A few seconds later a gray haired and mustached face opened the door. "Sam, you don't need to knock like that." The mustache said. "Yessir, but the little ones love it. It makes it like a secret mission." "Oh, we have visitors?" The mustaches voice climbed questioningly. "Well, why didn't you say so. Come on in, I'll show you all the fun stuff and you can steer the plane!" That was all we needed. In We went. We were shown all the fun stuff, and the knobs and levers and buttons. There were a lot of them. We even got to sit on his lap and hold the plane controls. The plane didn't move when we moved the control but that was probably for the best. After what seemed like only a few seconds, mr. mustache lined us up and made us stand at attention. "All right, now that you've completed flight school it's time for your wings." With that he pinned a set of wings on each of us and saluted. "Welcome to the sky, and may your flight always be smooth." The wings had the double heart of the coalition holding 2 wings together. We were each given a toy plane, Cindy's was pink while mine was normal colors, then we were sent off to find dinner. We made it back to our cabin with little excitement. Once there we unloaded on mommy who tried to listen to both of us at the sametime. We flew our planes around for a few minutes and then dinner came. "All right you two space cadets, let's settle down and eat." Placed in our chairs we were given a simple dinner which we scoffed down. Outside the plane it was growing darker, the sun was beginning to set. Mommy decided we should probably try to lay down for a bit. Pushing a button on our chairs they laid back and the sides went up a little. They had turned into an elongated bowl of sorts. They even got softer. We each got a blanket. And curled up. Mommy told us a story about an elephant. By this time it was fully dark. Mommy turned off the lights in the cabin, "best view in the whole world tonight, my lovelies, drift off to sleep while you count the stars." It was an oddly sentimental moment for her. I hadn't seen it before. I turned from the enigma that was mommy to the stars above. My breath caught, I had thought I had seen stars before, but I never knew there were so many. Mommy began to hum, and it didn't take long for me to drift off counting the stars. _________________ They were finally on their way. Tina couldn't have been more content. Well the alcohol had probably helped, but only just a little. With Gary and Sarah coming with them she had been relieved a bit. This trip would be interesting for all of them. She glanced over at the sleeping littles her heart full and at peace. They were a handful but it was like a handful of precious things. While it was hard to hold on to, it was worth the work. Cindy, ever the adventurer, was not one for travel, she wanted to be at the destination before they even left. Poor girl would need patience in the future. Joshua had just been amazed at all the big or flashy things. He liked "new things." It was always astonishing to him, and he got to experience it with wonder and curiosity now, something he wouldn't have expressed before out of fear. The stars above her, her heart found an old lullaby, one her mother would sing to her back in simpler times. She began to sing it softly. The littles seemed to melt into sleep. Joshua even brought his thumb up and began suckling it. She noted it, and decided to find a paci for him. He would probably fight it at first but it would be cute and eventually he'd grow to love it. _____________ Tina hadn't meant to doze off, she woke a few hours later to Gary walking in. Rising they went into the hall so they could talk and not disturb the babies or Sarah in the other room. "Does he expect anything?" Gary started. "No, as far as he knows it's just a vacation." "How did you convince them?" Gary probed "Honestly, I'm not 100% sure I did, I know they are coming because they checked into their flight. Barzot is known for its free thinking around littles so, maybe they thought it was just safe, maybe they want something else. Who knows?" "You amaze me, trully" Gary leaned in and kissed Tina in a very passionate way. Tina had been expecting a kiss a lot sooner than this. Maybe he was afraid of her, "good she thought, he should be." With that thoughts melted away and she simply enjoyed the moment. After they parted, they never said anything about it again, they continued to chat until there was a thud from the room. Upon entering they found Cindy out of her bassinet styled seat and trying to find a drink. "Girl, you are two messes past a disaster." Tina laughed. The plane landed as the sun was coming up and the jostling Joshua awake. He would be grumpy, always was if he got woken up. Oh well, the beach may be able to fix that for him, time would tell. ____________ Everything was settled for the crew of five, bags were waiting in a large SUV which had been stocked for littles and amazons alike. The drive wasn't terribly long but long enough to leave Cindy grouchy about having to be strapped into a seat. When they finally had arrived everyone was ready to not be traveling. Both littles ran around the house exploring. There was a playset on the top floor where all the windows could be opened and allow the air to flow through freely. Screened of course for littles protection. The cribs were soft and seemed less like a prison and more like a bed. Mommies room was big and open with plenty of space, Sarah and Gary took one end of the house and the family took the rest. There was an empty extra room that was set for littles, but not babies. It was only a minor curiosity as they explored. Joshua tried to get to the pool but the proximity alarm, made for just that purpose, alerted the amazons and they put a quick stop to his escapades. The thing that most captivated Joshua and Cindy though, was the beach. A thin strip of sand that ran as far as the eye could see, even from the third floor, and beyond that was the ocean. It was massive, it was blue, it was foreboding and tempting at the same time. "We have a while before lunch, do you want to go out on the beach for a while?" Mommy said coming up on the two littles who were looking out the third story window. Both just nodded still in awe. Neither had ever seen something so vast. "Well then, let's change those pee paddings of yours and get ready" Twenty minutes, a lot of wrestling, Sunscreen and 2 threats of spankings later they walked to the beach with Gary carrying an umbrella and 2 chairs. Mommy had a blanket for the babies. _______________ I had been dressed in an aquatic themed swim diaper and smeared with sticky sunscreen. I was already not really wanting to deal with it but I wanted to go play in the ocean. So I dealt with it. We walked onto the hot sand and mommy told us to run for the water so our feet wouldn't burn. Gary, who apparently didn't go to the beach much, struggled with the umbrella, telling jokes the whole time about whoever had invented that umbrella needed to find a new purpose in life. We spread out our blanket and Cindy and I made a big sand castle. I dug a huge hole and we buried Gary in it. We played in the surf, and Sarah used a boogie board to body surf. It had been about 2 hours and I was getting tired when I walked back to our blanket with a handful of shells. I was arranging them when from behind me I heard a voice, it unlocked memories I thought gone forever. Something deep and permanent. It reminded me of being a real child. When I was even smaller. I turned around and there she was. She only said one astonished word. "Son?"

Ch. 15 To sign or not to sign Tina stood staring at the contract she had made. It was complete. Once signed The only things that could change it were someone dying or an agreement with a third party arbitrator for both of them. She was going to give it to him today. It also meant he would have to leave for a while. She would use knockout gas and take him home. Put him in his own bed, and let him find the contract on the counter. Joshua was playing video games right now. She would at least fill that tummy up before he left. Maybe that would hurry him into signing it. He hadn't needed a diaper last night so he was in his boxers today. He didn't need her right now. It was astonishing how much that bothered Tina. It won't be long. One last feeding before it was time. "I'll make it a good one…" ______________________________ Waking up in my own bed felt like I was waking from a dream. I had my window open and the sun was coming in. I wasn't even sure what day of the week it was. It felt like it had been a month since I had been here. I walked the few rooms I had just to see if anything had changed. The only thing that had changed was the clothes on the exercise bike had been moved. Dumb thing wasn't even used anymore, so I know I didn't do it. Maybe mommy had done it trying to make my house cleaner. In the kitchen I found a note and a tablet. It read: Dear heart. I'm not going to lie, this was one of the hardest things to do, sending you home. If you search the knowledge the hypnosis gave you, it will tell you why. I have prepared your list and the third contract. The final decision is yours. Please read the contract as many times as you need to. If you take 10 years to sign it, I still will not give up on you. I pray I will see you soon. Love Mommy Geez, no pressure right? I picked up the tablet and it flicked on, the facial recognition was set to me and it unlocked. There before me were the words "Last contract and Adoption from Tina" I began reading. My list was what I had expected mostly. The addition of elite martial fighting skills wasn't expected though. I did like the thought though. If she fulfilled everything she promised my life would be amazing. A mate, a family, to see my parents, to travel the world, learn a new language, and so on. Coming to her requirements I paused to get a drink because my mouth had gone dry. I would have to be adopted. Fully expected and ok with it. I would have to enroll in 3rd grade(though I would learn more advanced stuff), kind of miffed me. My age would be set to 5, hmm, that didn't sound terrible but it meant I may not have much alone time ever. I would take a new name, Joshua, so I could be identified as mommy's baby. That actually didn't bother me, as long as no one started calling me joshy or joshypoo. Buuuuh. Permanent incontinence via the red pill, now that sounded terrible. I know why she wanted it, but I didn't want to have to. I mean 5 year Olds don't need diapers. She wanted that bonding time and needed a way to guarantee it. Why couldn't she just do mandatory diaper wearing or something? All “adult” body hair would be removed. Never had to shave again? I was fine with that. All my things would be sold and put into a fund to care for me if anything happened to mommy. If I signed my things wouldn't matter. There were other parts but they seemed inconsequential to me. The name didn't really bother me. It was the age and the diapers that did. I already wanted to see her, but to do that meant diapers permanently. Also, if I just signed it it would mean I didn't think about it very much. I don't know if she would have a problem with that or not. It was disconcerting having something in your head you had not learned but there it was. Tina’s Law. This is why Tina had made this rule. In the beginning of the coalition each founder had made a governing "law" to guide the organization. Each rule was named after its founder, in this case it was "Tina's law of freedom." It stated when a little was to make their final choice they had to be in the original state they had started in, or as close to possible, so that if their old life drew them back it was meant to be that way. The influence an Amazon had over their little could be so varied, including intimidation or fear. Not that I had any of that towards Mommy. I did have a ton of anxiety. She had said in the beginning no little ever fought this, she was right. Because no one held them down and forced it onto them. She had also said that we choose it. Now I see why. The allure of a life without worry or fear. How could anyone turn it down? I decided I'd have a little more adult time as I wasn't likely to ever get some things again. Drank a beer, sat on my porch, and might have searched for some not so child friendly stuff on the internet. Drank another beer, and then another. With a deep sigh I picked up the tablet, it flicked back on to the sign page. I didn't hesitate anymore, I just signed it. It was done, I was hers now. The screen changed to her smiling face. "Baby Joshua, I am on my way, I want you to go up stairs and look in the bottom drawer of your side table. Put those clothes on and wait for me in front of your house." The tablet turned off having completed its objective. "I'd better do as she says" I thought. The drawer had a set of pj's in it, I left my underwear on since there wasn't anything else to take its place. Then took another beer to the front patio and waited. ___________________________ Sitting at the same bakery she had first met him at almost a week ago Tina had watched him almost the whole time. When he put the tablet down and went to do other things she had been greatly upset. Tina really believed he would just sign it right off. When she saw what he was doing she was glad he had, that way he was at least measuring his losses and gains. The dirty sites was a bit of a shocker. She had thought he wouldn't do that ever, but he was full of surprises. Thinking about it though, she had never said anything against doing it, so what was she going to say? The boy's habits would have to be watched. He was getting himself drunk. Tina was not pleased about that. She could understand it but she was not pleased. He would get a reddened bottom anyway for not listening on the first day, throwing that diaper away and covering himself in feces was unacceptable. Tina always wanted to make sure she got one reason for a short spanking as soon as possible. It helped to affirm that the relationship was set and that their new status was "baby and mommy." When the video feed had connected he hadn't seemed to recognize it was live and not recorded. Not that it mattered, it would have gone the same way. Anyway, time to go pick up the newest member of her family. She picked up the diaper bag and off she went. Cindy would be home soon, she wanted to be there before then. ________________________ I wasn't really sure how long I would have to wait. Turns out she was close by and waiting for me. It must have been less than 10 minutes because I hadn't even gotten half way through the beer. "Baby," was all she said. She knelt down and spread her arms out for me. If we're going to do it, let's do it right! I flung the beer down and ran into her embrace. She smiled my whole way there. Then held me for a long moment. "Baby, we need to get you properly protected and then we can go home. No fussing now, I want to beat Cindy home ok?" I nodded, my fear and anxiety dissipating. She picked me up and laid me on the grass. My fear and anxiety came back. "Ah ah, Joshua, babies do not fight diaper changes. Lay still now." My face went red, but I complied, I didn't want our first encounter as mom and son to go poorly. She pulled my pj's down to my knees, and cut my underwear off. "You won't need those anymore." Pulled out what looked like the thinnest diaper I had ever seen. "I figured you wouldn't need it much until we got home," She explained. I was quickly and unceremoniously diapered. The only thing that had seemed to change in her demeanor was that she was no longer asking. She was commanding me. Once done she stood me up and pulled my pants back up and set me on her hip. "Now, no more alcohol, do you understand me?" I nodded, and laid my head on her shoulder. "That's my good boy." She started off to the car and our new life as a family. I couldn't help but wonder why she was in such a hurry. __________________________ The night was only starting, but Tina's heart felt like it had finally been completed, when he ran into her arms she had never felt better. Never felt more whole. He RAN to her. She had been right, it wasn't doubts he had, he had been saying goodbye to his old life. She had done as she had with Cindy. Quickly making sure his new status was properly in place. The main events would happen at home. She had already prepared the room and set everything up. Everything from his first set of clothes to the hair remover and the red pill. This diaper was thin because she really never expected Joshua to use it. Which was what she wanted. He needed to make a big mess in his next one. She would see to it, she had already spiked both of the littles dinners. Oh, it would be a learning night for sure. Cindy could always use a reminder that she was a baby in spite of having a full time job. While she was fully incontinent there were still ways to remind her of who she was in the hierarchy of things. Bless that girl, she was something else. Joshua needed to learn his new role, when the red pill was introduced she wanted a big and hopefully instant mess. Done in front of mommy and Cindy, the humiliation of it wasn't the goal, it was to get him comfortable with the idea that he'd be going in front of people often, so he shouldn't hide. _______________________ Mommy had mentioned she had fun planned for the night. Games and food and play. I was excited. It would be fun to just cut loose a little. What was coming, was coming and I didn't have a choice anymore. So why fret it? Anyway diapers being what they were, weren't really that bad. It had always been a scary thing but truthfully as much as I didn't want them, it could be worse. If I was made to where I needed them it would simply be like needing a wheel chair for the paralyzed. "If?" What was I thinking, hahaha? I was going to need them. The car drove on and my euphoria at being reunited with mommy had ebbed a little, I was going to have a beautiful life. There was no reason to fear. The car drove into the neighborhood where mommy's house was. "When we get to your house are you going to finish the contract?" I asked a little timidly. Giving me a furrowed brow she said, "my house? Baby, this is our house, you live here now, you are part of the family." My heart skipped a little. "We will begin all of it tonight. I promise it will be painless, and it will be fun." Her words comforted me as we pulled into the driveway and parked. "Looks like we beat Cindy, the deliveries are still on the porch. Let's get the food inside and ready. She can't be far away." Once we had gathered all the deliveries inside, I was stripped to my skivvies. Or rather my diaper. Which felt like underwear because of how thin it was. Completely embarrassed I walked around helping carry this or that. Getting "good boy!" and “well done," after all my accomplishments. It kind of felt a little degrading because of the baby talk she added to it. "I'm so proud of you," she had said, scooping me up into the air and kissing me all over. At that moment Cindy came walking in with a "Mooooooom I'm home!" Even though we were right in front of her. Mommy didn't miss a beat, she twirled me over and lifted Cindy with the same motion. We all just spun around until dizzy, laughing all the time. Mommy seemed to have found a new level of joy tonight. Maybe she was just happy we were all together and finally a family. I couldn't be sure, but what I did know was that it was catching Cindy and I up in its wake. After we settled down for a second, mommy pulled the waistband of Cindy's skirt back and said, "Well, good thing you're home." Patting her rear, she stood up and said "wet diapers aren't fun, and tonight is about being fun together. Joshua, why don't you go into your room for a few minutes? I'm going to change this little sog bottom and we can eat dinner for the first time as a family." I went and played the video game I had almost become addicted to. It was a blast to not have to feel like an adult and just let go and enjoy things. I was exploding some bad guy when mommy returned, Cindy on her hip and clad in only a diaper very similar to mine. My face went beat red, this was going to take getting used to, mommy put me on the other hip, Which was fine with me as the thin piece of plastic wasn't likely to hide my excited state. Placed into 2 high chairs the food we had prepared was placed in front of us. Noodles and chicken tenders and fruit. A little feast for 2 littles. I wasn't given a fork so I waited, but Cindy had already figured it out. She dove in hands first. Cramming it all into her mouth, "when in Rome" I thought. I went to town eating while mommy told us jokes and ate her own food. As we finished, mommy got up and went to the fridge, getting out 3 small cakes. She brought them over and opened them, placing the 2 chocolate ones in front of Cindy and I. "These are in honor of Joshua's first night in the family. Eat up, they are good and sweet." That was all we needed. We dove in hands first. It was likely the best cake I had ever had. It was a very rich and moist cake. It had a chocolate frosting and caramel sauce. We both ate our whole cakes. In truth it's hard to eat cake with your hands and not make a mess. So we both ended up covered while mommy the picture of sophistication ate hers with a fork. __________________________ They had finished their cakes with abandon, “PERFECT” thought Tina. As they were licking their fingers she picked them up and herded them into a bath. It wouldn't take long for the effects and she needed to work quickly. Drying Cindy and re-pampering her, Tina left her in nothing but a diaper. She groaned and said her tummy felt a little funny. “You probably just ate too much cake,” Tina replied, smiling to herself, the cake would constipate them for a little while working on building up to a rather harsh climax. Quickly she retrieved Joshua and put him on the changing table. “Its time, we need to finish the first part of your responsibillities.” His face seemed to drop a little. _____________________________ I had been ready for this, or at least I thought I had been, it really didn't scare me much anymore. More of a sense of foreboding. “Not that, the red pill is next.” That left me confused, “You see the first night you decided to disobey me, you didn't put the diaper on like you had been told to. This means you didnt listen but even more you didn't trust mommy to tell you what's best for you. This cannot happen anymore. Since it was before our agreement, I will only give you half the punishment I would from now on, 5 swats and we will move forward.” It didn't seem fair but she was mommy now, I wanted to voice my opinion but I didn't get a chance. I was hoisted up and flipped over mommy's knee. The first swat stung and I yelped, the second wasn't harder, just felt harder. 3 and 4 made me cry out, and 5 had me sniffling. A full ten may have left me in full on tears. Mommy turned me back up right and cuddled me against her chest, “I dont ever want to do that again ok?” I simply nodded against her chest, the pain subsiding and the tears fading away. “All right, we have delayed enough, its time for the next part of your contract.” A thick diaper was placed beneath me. I was oiled and powdered. Mommy had the Red pill in hand, “I know it can be a bit scary but this will relax you in more ways than just your bottom, it'll give you the ability to just be a baby instead of having to be an adult.” Maybe that was the quality I had seen in Cindy. It all seemed to make more sense now. “I’m not scared, I am ready.” ________________________ That was all the affirmation Tina needed, it made it easier since the spanking had been administered already. Lifting his feet she put the red pill into his bottom and allowed it to start taking effect. Really a truly fun experience to watch the whole process only took a few minutes. The chemicals began in the brain rewiring all but the worst anxiety and other grown up emotions to be carefree and joyous. It didn't mean they couldn't get upset, it was just a lot less likely. From there it worked on their digestive tract making it work more efficiently, this was to make sure icky messes were less likely. In the end and very last it released the important sphincters that would make Joshua incontinent. His face had relaxed, then stiffened a bit as the second effect kicked in, and finally the sphincters released and his face was a picture of shock. _________________________ There was a sense of foreboding as Mommy had taped the diaper on. My stomach was in knots, but it seemed to be ok. Honestly, the pill wasn't that bad anymore. Really the diapers weren't either, I wasn't going to need to find a bathroom or fight with diarrhea or watch how much I drank. This really did have a bit of a silver lining. Then I felt my stomach change, it had seemed to tighten then release, the knots were still there but they weren’t hurting or really bothering me anymore. Then it happened, I felt my butt just give up, the same happened in the front. Mommy seemed to take my shocked face as a que and hauled me up and set me on the floor next to a seemingly concerned Cindy. She wasn't concerned about me, no, something else. “Mommy, I don't feel so good.” She said. Now that she had mentioned it neither did I, “me neither.” Mommy just giggled, “you two will be fine, now what should we do next? Hmm?” “Ugh” I groaned, there was a warm feeling between my legs and I realized I had already wet myself. It didn't bother me though, the pressure in my tummy had grown and Cindy had already doubled over a bit. Cindy took one step forward, and without warning I heard the reason her tummy was upset. “Oh geez, hoooo.” She moaned as she filled the seat of her diaper up. Right as she began to straighten, the full realization of what was happening hit me, “Mommy, did you spike our food?” Mommy laughed “yes, baby Joshua, just this once. I wanted to have 2 messy pants in the house right away.” I groaned, there was nothing for it and really no reason to be upset. She had the right, I guess. But my tummy was going to explode. I bent over a little, and moaned as the pressure built to a crescendo. Falling to my knees, the impact jarring me just enough to finish the job. It came out in one almost supernaturally large pile. “Gross,” I moaned as the tumultuous cascade continued. When I finished and stood up, I was grabbed and lifted, a hand going to my rear, mushing the mess in as I was carried off out of the room and down the hall. “You 2 stink, babies and their stinkies. We are going to need some air freshener.” My face going bright red. “Now what game should we play first?” Cindy didn’t seem phased by it all. I was trying to get comfortable. “Maybe we could play in the treehouse in the basement.” So down the hall we went, and into the basement. Eventually, Mommy changed us, I assumed she wanted me to get comfortable with the whole thing. It didn't help immediately but I was beginning to accept it all, what choice did I have really? The night went on and we played until we collapsed, literally into one pile on the floor. All three of us were exhausted. While we drifted off, mommy gave one last surprise, “I think we will go on vacation soon.” We slept on the floor, content, tired, and complete…

This is a heads up, this chapter gets pretty dark all around. Consider this a blanket trigger warning. -_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_- Ch. 14 Death is a sweet relief or Sometimes life is excruciating. Tina had only been in this room a handful of times. Even more, she had only used the black pill 3 times. Cindy had been hurt by 3 men. A lot of third contracts added a "removal of past entanglement" before the contract could be finalized. Things like debt usually topped those lists, but Tina liked to think she added a line a little more eloquent than most. "Remove any threats to a future happy life." That translated to anything that could ever harm her little from the past. She had handled the minor nuisance last night, it had been fortuitous that that mindless bimbo had found them. It was unfortunate it was handled in front of the littles. Now she'd deal with this last one. She really didn't like the black pill. It was a bit horrific. In the end most did not survive long. When everything good to you was seared away you were left in a state of disbelief. Even knowing what would happen didn't change anything. She watched as they chained a naked Charles above the grate. He was still pleading to be released. He was a slob. It would be easier for her if she only saw those things. The bad side of him. They had finished and left him in the room by himself. The 20 minute deadline was only 30 seconds away. She prepared herself, reminding herself of what he had done. Ding. The counter went off and without a word she walked to the door and opened it. To Charles it would look like she had made a door appear and then disappear again. "Hello, are you ready to begin?" He looked back and tried one more time. "Please, I swear, I'll do anything. I'll even kiss his feet. Whatever you're going to do to me. I promise I'll make it up to you… and and him I will." "Handicraft you despicable, insufferable man. If I thought for a second those words meant anything you wouldn't be here." Setting her bag on the table, she reached in for an inflating pacifier. His eyes widened, "I haven't done anything to be made into a baby. This is illegal!" He was getting desperate. "Don't worry no one will complain when I'm done with you." She walked around him surveying her prey. "You don't really get what you've done so, I'll explain." "You were told not to bother him. To leave him be, to act like nothing ever happened to him, you were told powerful people were looking into him, that nothing mattered more than he not be molested. You didn't succeed at that one command did you?" He tried to answer but she stopped him with the pacifier. Giving it the flip it needed to activate. All he could do was beg with his eyes now. "You took what I told you was precious, you planned to take him from me didn't you? You were going to declare him, to strip his mind, WEREN'T YOU!??" He became frantic. Obviously she wasn't supposed to find out about that. She made a fist in front of her, rotating it she raised a few inches. Charles fell over and the chain raised him to waist height. She walked to her bag and removed 2 more things. "You've likely never seen these things. One you'll recognize I'm sure." Holding up a giant folded diaper. His eyes widened and he began to thrash. "Oh that is the least of your concerns, Charlie." The nickname seemed to stun him. "Two," she held up a red bottle. "This is something we like to call the permanent pill. In the end you will be making," holding the diaper up, "number one very full." He lost it again doing anything he could to be free. She motioned and a portion of the wall slid out, it was a large slab. Walking towards the slab she continued to motion and the chains flew Charlie over and dropped I'm on the slab. She spread her finger causing the chains to go rigid and hold him in place. He grunted in pain. Tina thought she needed to be careful, or she may rip an arm off. She set the pill in his eye line, unfolded the diaper and slid it under him. He began to sob. What a weak ba**ard, Tina was done being there with him. "You put my baby through a situation very similar did you not?" She opened the pill bottle and held it up. "Are you ready to feel what that's like?" Without hesitating she rammed it in his rear, taped the diaper shut and watched. He looked ridiculous, what a man baby he was. If she had shrunk him it would have been a better image, but there was no reason to. After a few moments, his eyes widened. It was done. His last meal was about to come charging out. He was already urinating. She made the fist again and raised him up again. Without any wait he completely filled the diaper. He wasn't an Amazon. He was a pathetic piece of trash. Tina remembered the others she had done similar to. They, at least, she could have had pity on. They had already been shrunk and were looking like children. This was not the same to her mind. He stopped struggling and just hung there sobbing. Retrieving the black pill, she motioned one more time and sat Charlie on the edge of the table. The delivery method was different with these, it was an auto injector that went to the brain. Without a word she pushed the pill to his neck and let it go. She watched it drain into him. "You only have a few seconds before you can no longer feel pleasure or hope. Remember this, you put him in a place where he was destitute. I only repaid you in kind." She turned and opened the hidden door and walked out. As the door sealed the hallucinations began, and so did his screams. _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ Tina, back in the dressing room, head in hands as she sat in the chair. It wasn't in her to enjoy that. She did what she must though. The only thing satisfying in the whole scenario was that she would have her boy. She really wanted him right then. He could always make her smile. She wanted to wait until Charles had been moved off. He would be sent off to a place where he would have everything until his life eventually ended. No one could explain it. Any user of the black pill eventually just died, they didn't have a heart attack they just laid down and died. She changed and sent a note to the desk to have the suit recalibrated and cleaned. It had been a little off. Gary must have been waiting because he came through the door in less time than it took to send the note. To his credit, He didn't say a word, just went and held Tina. She wanted to hate him at that moment. In truth she usually wanted to punch his lights out. "They've taken him off." He said, "it's safe to come out. Can I walk you back upstairs?" Tina nodded solemnly. As they walked the scene replayed in her head as Gary tried his best to distract her. It wasn't until he started talking about how well Cindy had been doing at work that he succeeded. She was glad for the report, that girl could always get herself into trouble trying to be useful. There had been more than a few blistered backsides for that exact reason. There was the time she decided to mow the lawn and killed all the flowers. She once used the blender to make a smoothie for her and somehow got a banana stuck to the ceiling. That girl was a class A mess. They arrived at the gathering room where Sarah said they'd be, and sure enough there they were, a big mess of uncooked macaroni noodles and glue. __________________________ I had spent the better part of time with Sarah playing in a sandbox, the sand was sticky so we were making a castle, but everytime we got it about finished it would fall over. Sarah would laugh, I'd sigh and we started over. Eventually she asked if I'd like to make something for mommy. Well of course I did! So we started gluing macaroni onto a piece of wood. I thought it looked atrocious but Sarah just praised it all up and down. That was when mommy found us, she knelt next to me and kissed my forehead. "How was it?" I lifted my artwork up and only 2 pieces fell off, better than I had honestly expected. "Oh, I love it! I'll hang it up tonight." I felt like she was making fun but the way she looked at it, I began to doubt myself. "Yay," maybe she did, maybe she didn't. I was fine with it either way, she was happy.

That's about right, took it in high-school good for very little.

I would agree, there's a good bit of Latin on some of these pages. No one speaks Latin anymore

Ch.12 The Good the Bad, and the New or Balance is Key It wasn't a surprise waking up a bit of a mess. It was a surprise to realize I was in mommy's bed. She must have brought me here after I fell asleep. It was warm and super soft, so I was pretty pleased to be there. I could hear her breathing, it was a comforting noise. I remained as still as I could so I didn't wake her. I needed a few minutes to think. Last night had been amazing, but in the midst of it all I hadn't been able to digest everything that had happened. The first thing I noticed was that Mommy had felt completely overwhelmed by anything I had felt. It wasn't that I didn't have feelings or emotion, they just weren't nearly as strong as hers. She had been learning who I was for 2 years, it felt a little unfair for me. In that light, I had seen all she hadn't been able to say. I became aware of my fear of her, of all amazons truly. But How could such a loving and compassionate being hurt me? How could that level of care even exist? It was still hard to imagine even after seeing the truth with my own eyes. It had made me remorseful, it broke my heart that I could be so mean as to mistrust her. What was harder to understand was that I believed it all. Which is what changed everything. That belief had been like a hammer to all that supported my fear. In that moment I lost all my fear of her, why should I fear her? The resounding silence in my mind was my answer. Even if she reduced my mind to a drooling pitiable and pathetic baby, it could only be for my good. Whether it was something I wanted or not. What did I want? I wasn't as sure today as I was yesterday. My stomach protested the late morning wake up, by announcing its desire for food. It served to wake mommy up, who reached over and drew me closer. "Are we hungry?" She must have read my mind because she went straight to lifting her shirt. I latched greedily, I tried hard to make sure I didn't use teeth but I'm not sure how much I bit her. If I did she never even blinked. After a short while of feeding I couldn't get anything else, so I just kind of sat back a bit. Mommy seemed surprised, "are you done? You didn't seem to be finished there." "I think I drank too much," I said obviously with a disappointed sound. "Haha, you actually managed to empty one of mommy's breasts. I thought I might need to move to morning feedings. You and Cindy both like to fall asleep before you ever finish." Resettling us both in a better position she held me up to her other breast and I laid in her arms and drank my fill. It wasn't just that I was hungry, or that the act of breastfeeding created such a moment, or that it tasted fabulous. It was intoxicating to drink from her. Her milk was like candy to me. When I had finished she rubbed my squishy rear and decided it was time for a change. "I'm going to dress you up a little more to my liking today. I hope you'll be ok with it. We won't be going anywhere except to get Cindy and maybe dinner." I mean, who was I to argue, right? She had just fed me using her body, and I was anxious to please her. I nodded my agreement, she ruffled my hair, put me on her hip and down the hall we went. Back in the room I had been using she laid me down and quickly cleaned me up. Taping a new diaper on, it was blue with little pony-like cartoon creatures on it. "this one will not come off without help, I just like the cutesy designs, it'll make that tushie even cuter." Her voice kept moving closer and closer to baby talk. "Remember the side effects probably will keep going today, there's a price for what we got last night." That made me wonder what it had cost her. "Did it cost you anything?" "My system is stronger and so it has effects just not the same, but you don't worry that little head of yours ok?" As she finished her work she went to the closet and pulled out a pair of short-alls and a light blue shirt. I was gonna look like a 5 year old, oh well I had agreed. The shortalls had crotch snaps and everything. When she had finished her labors she smiled and plopped me in front of the mirror in the bathroom. I did look younger, I'm sure to her eyes I was now exactly what I should be. It was a little disconcerting. She handed me a toothbrush and told me to brush while she got dressed. We ended up downstairs and back in her office type room again, me on the desk and her in front of it. "I'd like to keep talking about what you want today, then tomorrow I'd like to discuss why and what I want from you. Does that sound fair?" I nodded, "I know we talked about a lot of what you want to do but what about what you want. Do you want a family of your own? Do you just want to be alone? You've always been alone as far as I've seen but is that something you like?" I thought hard for a moment "I guess it has never been an option to have friends or family, you could disappear at any second or they could. You never know what happens to them or what will be the end for them. That's a kind of pain I never wanted to cause someone." A faint spark of hope ignited in me, "but who wants to really be alone? I mean really really. My own parents vanished without a trace, I haven't heard from them in years." Mommy interrupted my train of thought, "do you miss them?" I stopped for a moment, "yes and no, they raised me and did what they could, they kept me safe until I could do it myself. I'd like to be able to say thanks at least." She typed away for a minute then looked back at me. "What do you think became of them?" "Who knows? They were crafty and sneaky, not much chance they got caught by anything unscrupulous. I can count on one hand the number of times they came home after an attitude adjustment." "Interesting, what about your job, do you like having one?" It was hard to think about after the last encounter with Mr. Handicraft. "I like seeing people, it's my one link to others in the world. I've never really made friends there, for the same reasons as before. It wasn't bad though." She typed away again. "What about your life do you like the best?" What was I supposed to say to that? After the cataclysmic events of the past 5 days, I'm not sure what life I had to return to. Thinking about it, my life had been so bland, mostly running away or hiding or trying to outsmart the amazons in my life. I said as much. "I'm not sure my life is even there anymore, or what I enjoyed. I always wanted more but what could I have if it could just be taken from me. It was easier just to keep my expectations down." I realized that the way I was talking I never expected life to go back to how it was. "I mean yeah you had some basic assurances, like you wouldn't be picked up off the street without it being illegal. But if an Amazon got it into his or her head you could be declared unfit pretty easily. Mr. Handicraft said he was going to do that." Her anger flared up,"HE SAID WHAT?!" I got up and thought about finding a hiding spot. It had been reflexive, but it was plain to see how much it had affected mommy."Don't worry dear heart, I'm not upset with you. That man has overreached himself. I don't think he's good enough for the penguins though. Maybe we will have him reassigned to a more appropriate place, a place for someone who needs to learn to follow directions and learn their place." I just stared at the floor. "Baby, you have done nothing wrong" She said, holding my chin in her hand so I had to look her in the eyes. That was the moment my stomach decided to let go and tell the world how much mommy's milk had done for me. "Haha, well I guess we need to take a break. Run upstairs. I think I have enough for now." Well that had been terrifying, I was beginning to think mommy was not a person you crossed lightly. Doing so might be the worst decision of your life. _________________________ "That fu**ing rat ba**ard," Tina thought. He'd make an awful baby but she was going to do it. After changing her baby, she let him play video games while she worked. That had gotten him back to that youthful state again. The side effects of the B.A.S.S were still wreaking havoc on her emotions. For amazons it affected the balance in their systems. If you spent the whole pill happy, you'd struggle not to be sad, joyous then you'd be angry, basically the emotions you didn't use became like a hammer for you. So when Charles got brought up it was all she could do to keep herself from finding and killing him. Luckily it was better each passing minute. What worried her most was that the pill had gotten stronger each time. Only a few more and she may need 4 or 5 special ops If she was triggered to keep her from hurting someone. Even then that might not be enough. Maybe that insufferable Gary, he had matched her on her worst days. Then again he may be the trigger. As clever as he thought he was, he could be annoying beyond reason. His skills in every area were quite strong, the problem was he knew it. Logging into her credential with the state she found Charles' extradition hadn't gone through, it was sitting on pending, perfect! She changed the orders to request he be left in the coalition's care. With it pending he would already be confined and in custody. That means he could be dealt with tomorrow. It would be a joy to deal with him. Now she just needed a nanny for a few hours that would deal with her baby properly. Logging into the coalitions website she decided to use a tweener she had gotten for Cindy once. She was available, and apparently she had a lot of fun with the littles. Huh, there was a new update to her profile. 'Possible leaks, keep in pull ups, likes to take them off.' Well, Tina thought, there shouldn't be too much to handle I don't think. Sarah was her name, she liked babysitting for money. Her age had been set at 15. Tina made a mental note to call her daddy and find out what that was all about. Scanning her profile just to see what was there, liked shopping at the mall, wanted to be a designer. The coalition had gotten too big for her to know everyone but those she was involved with she tried to keep tabs on. Sending another 4 or 5 emails to handle the details for tomorrow's change of plans, she settled in and caught up on communications she had missed Tomorrow was a new day for new fun, but today, well it had all its own issues. It was getting to be time to go get Cindy. "Time to go get Joshua ready," testing the name in her head. Ch. 13 Old habits die hard, or People need to learn to move on. They had gone to pick up Cindy from Carrie's house. Apparently they had done makeup and makeovers. Cindy looked like she had put the whole kit on her face. I didn't tease her, I wasn't sure how it'd go over, plus she was so proud of it. Carrie's dad walked us out to the car, "Well it looks like it went well." He was saying. "At least judging from the current state." I hadn't been paying attention but I figured they were trying to talk over my head, so I just listened and didn't interrupt. "For sure," Mommy replied. "In fact better than anticipated, maybe even one for study." He sighed, "you always find the best ones, and manage to get the biggest messes." He laughed a little and mommy did not smile in the slightest. That angry look from before had come back a little and she was a bit scary again. It passed almost as fast as it came on. Once we got in the car and strapped into our seats, mommy said she needed to run to the clinic. It would only take a few minutes. The doctor wanted to see her. Once inside, she left Cindy and I for a few minutes and then came back with a bandaid on one arm. She had had blood drawn or a shot. This was my fault I thought, she had taken that pill for me, she was dealing with the side-effects and had even needed the doctor. I'd have to apologize again tonight. Mommy wanted to go to dinner out so we decided to walk to a nearby place that was known to cater to both amazons and littles. Mommy ordered for us and we had a tasty dinner with fruit and chicken tenders and those weird noodle things again. I had never seen them before but I decided I'd ask about them. "They are proteins that counteract aging. It doesn't make you younger but it makes you feel younger." She said it matter of factly and moved on. After we ate mommy decided to get ice cream and we set off walking. It was a nice night so there were lots of people walking in the streets. We held mommy's hands so we didn't get lost. Out of the blue I heard a familiar voice exclaim, "oh my word! I have been worried sick about you." I felt a hand grab my free arm and turn me around. Bella Carter! Could I never be free of her? She held my arm like a spoiled child that refused to leave a store. There was no escaping it. "Let go of me!" I yelled at the bimbo. "Why are you dressed like that? Did someone adopt you? Did you agree to it? Of Course not, you wouldn't do that to me. You want to be mine even if you don't know it yet." I started to yell for mommy, but I really didn't have to because she was already there. "I don't know who you are, or what you think is happening right now, but you will release him now." She was scary again. Bella looked at me then back at mommy, "you called her mommy?" She was taken aback by this revelation. "No, no, no, no, no, no, he belongs to me. He always has." "I hate you." "Oh you'll regret that you little troublemaker." She rared back and slapped me so hard I couldn’t see for a second. Then, without warning her hand on my arm just disappeared. I looked up and mommy had her in a hammer lock. She didn't stop there, she spun and flipped Ms. Carter into the air. It had seemed effortless. Mommy walked over and placed a hand on Ms. Carter's neck and the woman screamed in pain. "You listen to me and you listen well. One, you will never touch him again unless he or I say you can. Two, you will under no circumstances consider hitting him ever again." Ms. Carter tried to get up again, mommy wasn't having it. She grabbed her by the arm again, this time instead of flipping she twisted. There was a nasty crunching sound that anyone who heard it cringed at. Ms. Carter was done. She layed on the ground holding her arm, which had a second elbow. "Why would you steal him from me?" Mommy responded, "he was never yours. Be smart, let him go, forget he ever existed. If you keep at it, you will regret it." With that we went on, mommy walking a little too fast for our legs, we struggled and stumbled along trying to keep up. Cindy fell first, skinning her knee. She sat down crying and mommy picked her up, comforting her, apologizing over and over for walking too fast. She seemed like a another person at that moment. We managed to get to the ice cream shop in one piece aside from Cindy's knee, which mommy cleaned up and put a spray on. We got our order and sat at an isolated table. "Mommy needs to say she's sorry, to you two. I should have handled that woman better," I thought she handled her fine. "There will always be amazons after you 2 and I should be more aware of them. Don't worry though mommy will always protect you two, like a momma bear. Roooooaaarrrrr" raising her hand like she was going to pounce on us, the last had made us both laugh. The tension eased and we ate our ice cream watching people go in and out. "You know what we need?" Mommy asked. "A vacation!" "Yay, I love vacations." Cindy squealed. "We can go to the water park! or ooh ooh how about we go to the river!" "I think we need a proper vacation, little girl!" Mommy laughed, "it's been too long. You and I haven't ever had one." Growing more serious, "We will go soon. How about the beach?" I didn't know how to act, was she involving me? It felt like it but how? Why? She and I had no tangible link yet. It was certainly coming though. I considered the diaper he was in and the fact I hadn't seen a third contract. It was definitely on its way. Mommy summoned the car to us so we didn't have to walk back by where that infernal hippo had tried to take me. We rode to mommy's home, Cindy dozed off, and when we got there mommy carried her to bed, and met me in the kitchen afterwards. "You ok dear heart? I know she has harassed you before." I could only nod. "Don't worry if she ever bothers you again, it'll be the last time." I nodded again. "Come on, let's go play a game before bed." Before I could go though she slipped my pants off and gave me a very invasive diaper check. "Need to change that too." ________________________ Tina was finishing up her charge's diaper change, using a little extra oil tonight. He seemed to handle it better than before. As well he handled that moron of an Amazon better than before. Tina blew a raspberry on his tummy and made him make that adorable laugh again. She couldn't get enough of it. It warmed her heart. That pill must finally be letting go. She could feel the joy that her little ones brought her again. She smiled and her heart was full. It had been a hard day. Putting the soon to be named Joshua in his onesie, she kissed his forehead. "Mommy?" He asked. "I want to learn to be as strong as you." Her timid little boy wanted to be a fighter? She gave him a confused look, "why?" He shrugged, "because I want to protect people too." She laughed at that, "my little precious warrior, with the heart of gold. I think you are something else." He fell asleep in her arms tonight. Resting on her shoulder. She held him for a long while after. Cindy would never have slept on her like this. She wished the girl would cuddle more, but what are you going to do? She was too adventurous and curious. Free spirited even. Tomorrow was going to be a hard one and a bit of a shocker for him, so she didn't want to put him down just yet. She would offer him the third contract. By now he had to know it was coming soon. The effects of the yellow pill should be wearing off on his system too. This had moved so fast. She was certain though. He would perform his part perfectly, she knew he would. The third contract, it was the most dreaded part of her job. Normally she would spend a month trying to get a little to trust her, another with spending nights and meeting Cindy and other littles and Amazons, it could take as few as 2 months sometimes as many as 3 or more. By the time she got them to spend nights over she would have started to move them to other amazons, the ones that would be adopting them but she still visited to help build their third contract. The third contract was so important. It was almost a living will. It was about what they desired for their lives. The little would literally give her all she needed to know about them. Likes, dislikes. Hopes, dreams, loves, hates, everything laid out and bare. She would arrange it into lines and promises then the contract would be written out. Plainly so their little minds could understand. Then the amazon would put requirements behind them. Things like an age, a set of behavioral patterns, any hypnosis requirements, so on and so forth. Almost all required the final pill, the red pill also called the P.A.S.S. It was so called because it was permanent. The use of it would rewire the brain chemistry to not create extra stress hormones allowing the littles to act as they are, as babies. It also removed their continence, resulting in CLOC, complete Loss of control, Amazons liked this because it made the little permanently dependent on the Amazon. She was going to require it of her Joshua, as well his name would be changed. She wanted a clean cut from the old to the new. It was easier that way. She had some extra work to do tomorrow. With the whole contract she had to fulfill the bits she needed to fill asap. In the end she would have him. It would be hard to send him home first. She knew he wouldn't like it. It was the rule. One she had made and had insisted on all recruiters follow. No questions asked. Yes, tomorrow was going to be busy, and hard. _______________________________ "She was raped, by 3 men who claimed to care for her." The boy was persistent and it had gotten on her nerves, so she answered. Apparently at some point he stumbled on the blocker hypnosis Cindy had required early on. He had asked Tina 3 times since Cindy had left this morning to go to work. He had stopped in his tracks after that. "I'm sorry, I shouldn't have pushed." "No you shouldn't have, that's not respectful behavior. The other side to it is since she does not know, so you can't tell her. Understand? Ever!" He made his promise. "Now we need to get ready to go to headquarters. I have some work to do there, Sarah, the nanny I set up for you will be there and you 2 will have a great time until I am finished, then I have a big job for you." "What job?" He asked. "Excuse me young man, did we not just get reprimanded for pestering mommy?" "Sorry mommy, I'm kind of excited to get to help." They got ready and headed to the offices, when we arrived and met Sarah, she seemed to get along with the little guy right away. Tina had to make sure she was doing as she had been told, "spin" she said and twirled her finger. The girl's face went red and a little annoyed but she did as she was told. Mommy checked her pants, the girl was wearing a pull up. "Good girl, keep it on or I'll send you home in something locking and much worse." Mommy had warned Sarah. Sarah's face was horrified and was redder than the hair on her head. "Do you need a spare?" She shook her head. Something told Tina she was going to have to diaper a teen later. Hopefully not, Sarah seemed to be embarrassed by the whole thing. She had willingly walked into the scenario though. Her daddy and her had not felt close enough, so they had devised a plan to work in intermittent accidents. It was designed to be a secret for her to keep with her daddy so they could feel closer. The triggers for it were complex so it wasn't really a common thing, the girl didn't know what they were and they would trigger an hour after the event. So Tina helped out by giving the girl a hug and placing her hand on Sarah's left shoulder. That put her on a countdown to an accident. Hopefully she went potty soon otherwise…. Sarah seemed jovial and took her boy off to play and have fun, she had said something about making crafts. He was in over his head with this one, haha. Tina though had another mission. She headed down to the 4th subfloor. Not even the state was aware of anything past the 2nd. Once there she headed through the double doors into a space they called the dead zone. It was designed to block all cell signals, all noise, there were no wires that went between the 2 rooms. Literally it was a space of about 15 ft by 15ft where no electronic thing was. The rooms beyond were completely isolated from any system, not even the internet made it here. Power was run by a generator on the surface. Using the fingerprint and eye scanner simultaneously took some getting used to but once you did, it only took 2 or three tries each time. The hall beyond was lined with 5 holding cells, usually mostly empty, today if she was right 3 were filled. One had a certain Charles Handicraft. Her heels echoed down the hall as she walked. The prisoners must have heard and they came to look, when he saw her, he began to beg. "Please, I won't tell anyone anything l, I'll go live in a jungle or a desert, yeah yeah, no one lives in a desert I can't tell anyone anything if I'm there. I'm begging you to let me go. I'll give you whatever I can, everything I have." She almost smiled, there was no reason to torture the man any further though. He was about to be taken care of forever. Going into the room at the end of the hall she entered a sort of chamber that seemed out of place. It looked for all the world like you might torture someone here. 4 chains hung from the ceiling, a hard slab was on the wall, and a grate in the middle of the floor, no visible cabinets or drawers. The part that made it purely psychotic was that there were no corners or edges in the room, everything flowed or bent instead. It messed with the mind some. Tina didn't stop there, she walked straight to a side and ran her finger down a line she couldn't see. The door slid back separating itself from the wall and then tucking itself away. Going through the door, Tina was in a booth a lot like the one 2 floors up. Except this one had 10 workstations, no littles, their minds did not need to see what would happen here. Gary, of course he was there. Cheerful as always, "you know I love to watch you work." He had a rare serious moment next, "also there is nothing in the world I like more than to watch awful amazons get what they deserve." Tina never acknowledged his comments, instead she simply began to prepare "is Charles prepared?" "Yes ma'am" came a reply from one of the amazons. "Excellent, have him stripped and moved in. Is my suit prepped?" "In the dressing room, ma'am" "All right then, we will begin in 20 minutes." A chorus of "Yes ma'am" followed her final statement. She left the room via what looked like a closet. In fact it was a dressing room. It had a suit that would allow her to control the rooms' deeper functions. It was skin tight and covered her whole body, a face shield was all that let anyone know it was her. The final thing she grabbed was a black bottle. There was a 5th pill. Not many in the world knew it existed. All in all about 40 people. Soon to be 41. It was different from all the others, it was not a reward. It caused pain, hallucinations, it had one goal. Destruction, slowly and painfully. Oddly enough it actually was the last pill invented. It destroyed the brain pathways to good memories and serotonin receptors. The pill left no good thing for you. It was believed you could not even feel loved, even if you could perceive that you were loved. This was a final resort, you only found yourself here if you found the ire of about 10 people or you were truly scum of the earth. The bag of supplies she had requested lay in the corner. She inspected it, it was all there. He had put her baby in a living hell he had had no escape from. Tina was going to return the favor.

Purposefully done I promise. It all comes down to how the story ends.

A nice Wholesome set of chapters. Hope you enjoy: Ch. 10 The end of the beginning or the beginning of the beginning. I awoke 2 two feelings one cold and puffy between my legs, guess I wasn't completely out of the woods yet. And 2 more curiously, warmth all over behind me. Tina had slept there after coming in to keep me company. I really don't get these people. I thought. She woke up to my stirring. It was still early, the sun was just starting to rise outside and the birds were singing. "Morning" She said sleepily. I mumbled a greeting back. Last night hadn't put me off to her just made me feel awkward about myself. "How are you feeling?" She asked as she reached down to check the obviously swollen thing. "I'm ok just worried." "What about hypnosis scares you so badly? It had to be over 2 years ago because if not I would know about it." I sighed, was I really going to share this with her? "About 5 years ago, I had just moved away from home, I had gotten a big job and was excited to move and start. Everything was going great. Money was coming in. I was living a great life. I met a girl at the bar. She was amazing, pretty and sweet and she liked me. We started dating and shortly after she dragged me to a party. It was supposed to be a make fun of Amazon's party, we all dressed as faux babies. No diapers of course but you know. She wasn't any different, she had come fully diapered and everything. We laughed and said she would get picked up on the way home if she didn't change. Anyway, We danced and drank and had a blast. But as the night went on the crowd kept getting smaller and smaller, figured they were getting tired of the scene and leaving. Well, I decided to try my luck with her, and invite her home. She said she had a better idea. I must have triggered the programming because she started acting weird and got me to start following her. We went down a hall and I heard a bunch of screaming and yelling about not wanting to be a baby. I got nervous and tried to turn her around. The programming must not have had a fail safe because she went completely blank. Flat with no emotion at all. I hid away from her and watched. As I did, an Amazon came down the hall. Yelled at her and asked where I was. She had fear in her eyes as the amazon carried her off. I waited there hiding for hours, the party had been a front for a baby traffiking ring. I listened to littles cry and scream until they were turned. Each going silent in the same way, fading out slowly and eventually turning into incoherent babbling. I had almost been caught and been nothing but a drooling mindless doll." I was shaking, and she saw it. She cooed and shushed me until I was calm. "If you watch two Amazon's get the same thing would it set your mind at ease?" I had to admit, it sounded odd that any amazon would agree to the same treatment as a little. It was intriguing, "I guess it might help." "Dear heart, I will not do anything that is not for our good. All three of us. I'm so sorry that you had to endure that. I won't let anyone do that to you either. Even if you decide to leave us." The way she phrased that last one, it didn't sound like she meant the coalition. It seemed more like she was referring to Cindy and herself. I've only known her for 4 days. How could I be this attached? "Come on, Cindy will be wanting up and you mister are in a giant squishy diaper. Let's put some underwear on today, what do you think?" That bolstered my spirit a little. I waddled over to the dresser and grabbed some underwear and some clothes. "Hop up here so I can get you cleaned up first." She patted the changing table. 10 minutes later we walked into Cindy's room, me following timidly. She was sitting in bed playing tea with her dolls. The onesie had come loose, seemingly unbeknownst to her and her sagging diaper was clearly visible. "Morning mommy! Hey, no boys allowed!" "I'm sorry I'll leave!" "Cindy be nice now. He just wanted to help say good morning." She went to the girl and put her on the changing table by means of an under arm carry, like she was a football. Cindy grunted and laughed through it all. When it came time for a diaper change I got sheepish and went to read a book. Cindy didn't seem to care at all. The day started very much the same as the day before. At least until lunch. Tina made me go to the bathroom right before we left so I wouldn't have any accidents. Then we were off to the city and offices and everywhere else. After picking up lunch for three adults. We met Cindy in the lobby of the coalition building. We went to the 3rd floor and onto a balcony, we sat and ate talking a little here and there. My nerves were on end, I was still worried. Shortly after the meal we walked back inside and Cindy said she had some work to do before she could go home, so she needed to get it done. Tina took me back in the elevator and to the second subfloor. I was looking for escape routes when Tina took my hand and reassured me. We walked 3 rooms down and into what looked like a waiting room. 4 Amazon's were in there, and my heart skipped a beat. "Tina!" One of the male Amazon's said. "Is this the new recruit we keep hearing about?" "He is, go easy Gary, the process has gone by way faster than normal, so he's a little scared." Turning to me and bending down, "nothing to be afraid of! I have been in the booth 35 times myself." He seemed to be bragging. "Anyway, Ms Tina here is going to keep you all to herself, you know? Most of us are pretty jealous. You seem like a really good little, if it was anyone but Tina I'd steal you away honestly. Always wanted a boy. In truth, with her you'll be getting the better end of that deal. She's a first rate mom and a first rate person." Who was this guy? "He leaned in but never got quieter, "in fact can I tell you a secret?" He blabbed loud enough for the whole room. "If she'd be a little less stubborn, I'd take her on a really nice date." "Gary, you wanna be smoothie, that's enough. I don't think you're helping here. In any case we are going into the booth. This guy wants to watch first." She put her hand to the back of my neck and gently urged me to a door out of the way. When we entered there were 3 others in there a little and 2 Amazon's. They only nodded at our entry and kept working. On the far wall was a gallery window to a single chair with what looked like a camera attached to the screen. There was a light on what looked to be a monitor inside the room with us. On looking better it was a word that said 'execute.' There wasn't really much else. Tina flatly explained, "hypnosis tech has advanced really far with bad intentions, but we can use it for good now as well." "I want you to read the contract before we begin," she said, pulling a single sheet of paper out. It only had 4 sentences on it. I agree to be hypnotized into never speaking of the coalition to anyone I do not know is a part of the coalition. I will be hypnotized into the complete knowledge of the coalition. I agree to hypnosis that will not in any way alter my perception of reality. I am of sound mind and under no duress upon signing this, or the hypnosis will not function. That was it, no more no less. Inside the other room an Amazon I recognized from the other room walked in and sat in the chair. An attendant from our side of the window walked over and hit a button, the screen flashed twice and the amazon's body relaxed, all except their eyes, which were glued to the screen. Then she woke up and walked out of the room. The next amazon came in, sat down and repeated the process. "That's it?" I exclaimed, a little miffed there wasn't more to it. "Haha, so you're saying it's ok?" Tina asked. I wasn't really sure to be honest. I was expecting cartoons and diapers and people crapping themselves, but nothing happened. We left the booth and into the waiting room where all four amazons were again. "Nothing to it, champ!!" Gary exclaimed. "You got the stones to do it?" It felt like a pep talk from hell. I realized though that I was. So I solemnly nodded my head. Tina reached down and hugged me, she had the biggest smile I had ever seen on her. Gently she asked, "are you really ready?" I decided I was and put the paper on an end table, using the pen there I signed it. If I lost my mind at least I wouldn't know it. "I'll be with you the whole time." Tina promised and we walked in and sat down, me resting back on her chest, it felt like home. She grabbed my hand, and the screen flashed and my eyes reacted looking up. And then Tina said we were done. Nothing had happened though. I was confused but I wasn't dumb enough to argue. Leaving the room, the other 4 were still waiting. Gary, ofcourse, gave away the surprise. "Party time! Welcome to the family!" Tina responded by smacking his shoulder, "can you go 5 minutes without blabbing something? This is why we have to have hypnosis." The last was aimed at me. Everyone seemed so happy, and it was catching, I felt the excitement too. We left the room together and down a different hall. We took 2 turns and opened a double door. Inside the sound of applause exploded out. There was a sign hanging from the ceiling that said 'welcome family,' turns out there really was a party. I tried to hide behind Tina but she pushed me in, talk about betrayal. Cindy and the waitress from the bakery were waiting for me. Both dressed as little girls, neither dress hiding their obvious diapers. Cindy had a box of nice candies for me, and the waitress who introduced herself as Carrie had some of her cookies. Tina bent down, "it's tradition that the initiated get gifts from the people they know in the coalition. I have one for you too." She pulled a small bottle around in front of me, it read B.A.S.S. and the pill was yellow. "I actually have 2 but this is the one my heart says it's time for. I'll explain later, but for now, it's time for a party!" With the hypnosis I had been given a full history of the organization. I now knew how it had started as a few amazons that really wanted babies but couldn't bear destroying a little to get it, they had maneuvered and even blackmailed to get what they wanted. Tina had been there from the start. She was one of the most influential members. No wonder no one argued with her and people feared her. My mouth watered. The idea of another pill made me nervous but also excited. The green ones still made my body tremble, the blue one made me want to run and hide. But this one was yellow. Tina got Swept up in congratulations on another fine job and questions of how she did it? I wasn't given much time to think about it, Carrie and Cindy dragged me to the littles table where we had all sorts of cakes and good looking food to pig out on, and we all did. I noticed quickly while I wasn't the only one dressed as an adult, I was the only one not wearing a diaper. It was A party, we danced, sang and played, I even got to dance with Cindy. Who claimed to enjoy it profusely. After a while, I was sitting surrounded by other littles all talking at me when Tina bent down behind me. "The doctor wants to see us now. Can I carry you? It'll be faster getting out of here." I nodded my approval. Scooping me up, she held me on her hip expertly and we left quickly. She was in a hurry, walking fast and only nodding at people who talked to her. "Cindy is going to stay with Carrie tonight." She said it like I should be expecting something but it didn't click with me. I was carried the distance to the clinic quickly, no short legs to have to wait on made the trip faster. I was still on quite the sugar rush so I was ready to get down and move, once in a room I launched into story after story while Tina grinned and laughed through each story. Which only served to keep me going until the doctor walked in. "Are we being impatient, Tina?" "Yes" She responded flatly, and the doctor didn't argue. "Hello young man, do you remember me?" I nodded from behind Tina. "You can come out, I just want to see how well you are healing." I moved slowly, and he waited patiently. After a few pokes prods and tests, scans and the such he stood up and looked at Tina. "I think it'll be fine, but I'd like you to wait, it could be CLOC if you don't." Tina responded with a smile and a "I think it's inevitable that that will happen. I can't give up now." "Then it's in your hands, Tina. I don't think it'll do any damage but there is a slight chance." Tina paused, "I understand." With that we went out and left the coalition headquarters. We headed to Tina's home, I found myself thinking about why Cindy was going to sleep at a friend's. I asked Tina what CLOC meant. "It's just fancy doctor talk, but we can talk about it later." She seemed distracted. She wanted something. It reminded me of my desire for the pills. It was incessant but only when I knew it was coming. "Tina, are you ok?" She almost choked. "Dear heart, I'm perfectly fine. I have wanted something for several months and it seems close and it has made me want to hurry. I'm sorry if I made you worry in the midst of it." I couldn't wait to ask, "can I know what it is?" "Remember there are 4 pills," she began, " the first 2 you've seen, green and blue, are purely for pleasure. Nothing more, the other 2 have other effects. My gift to you is the yellow pill, more commonly called the bond pill." I went on alert again, she continued unaware of my concern, "the pill doesn't alter your thoughts or even have a permanent effect. Instead it amplifies what already exists. It makes your emotions for someone ten times more than they had ever been. If you hate them, then you will likely try to kill them. If you love them then you'd die for them. If you're indifferent then they would literally mean nothing to you. It is also the only one with a companion pill. They are meant to be taken in pairs. I will take the other." My mind reeled, what was she saying? She said it would make me love her but not, but if I did I would love her a thousand times more. "So you're going to make me love you?" "No no, my dear heart. I want to show you how much I love you. As well it'll show you how much you do or do not love me. Usually, this is months into a relationship, but circumstances and the fact I want to keep you all to myself have sped up the game a bit." "I'll do it," she slumped a bit in relief, I was curious myself. Now that I knew what she was planning, I wasn't really worried she'd hurt me, but I was curious at how this would affect us both. What if we didn't really have that mother son bond as strong as we thought? The car was nearing the house, my heart pounded. I grabbed Tina's hand, I wanted her touch, she squeezed my hand in return. ___________________ Once again I was back on the changing table, naked head to toe this time. The pill sat over my head and its partner next to it. It was similar in size but a different shape, more oblong. The diaper change was different this time, slower less rushed, it seemed she wanted to savor the moment. The oil and powder, she made small talk and booped my nose. Poked my belly button and genuinely made me feel like a kid again. I giggled the whole time, eventually, I realized she was stalling not savoring. I hoped she wasn't nervous. She had put an insert in the diaper which served to make it thick enough I could not walk, it was either waddling horribly or crawling. Apparently, I was going to need it. If this went really well it would be hard to change me, she had said. I made a complaint about it, only to be ignored. While I was only diapered, she had removed her shirt. Sitting in front of the giant she opened both pills, "are you ready?" She asked. "So, what happens when, you know, it takes effect?" Tina responded, "it won't be a trance like the others have been, instead it'll be a mental enhancement. You'll seem more focused on me and me on you. That's why Cindy is spending the night elsewhere. It'll be hard for us to focus on anything else." I hesitated, "how long are the side effects? "The effects will likely last most of the night. The diapers will be needed for a couple days." I shuddered, this might be worth it. On the other hand, we may try to kill each other. She would definitely win, but I really doubted that outcome. She took my head in her hand and raised my chin to look her in the eye, "are you ready?" How could I say no. I nodded and swallowed, I felt a hand go down the back of my diaper and something slimy went in my rear. She then immediately took her pill. "Let's toss the dice my dear heart." My last clear moment of thought was "I really like it when she calls me that…" Ch. 11 Bonds of steel or not even Hercules could break that. It was like a flower opening. My understanding of Tina was completely wrong. I could feel her heart. It was like we had been linked. Like a shining star that represented her emotions toward me erupted in front of me. It was glorious. I had never known anyone could care for me like that. My eyes began to water up. I burst into sobs, what teen girls call ugly crying. I couldn't believe I had treated her so badly, her intentions could only be pure with that emotion. How could I be so mean? "I'm sorry" I choked out. I was in her arms, my skin to hers. My head resting on her chest, her heart was beating so perfectly. I didn't even remember her picking me up. She bounced and shushed my crying, all while crying herself. "I'm so sorry." I choked out again. "No baby, it's ok, I see now. It's ok. Shhhh, you are mine now, shhhhh, I won't ever let go, shhhhhh shhhhh." I calmed a little, enough to realize for the first time Tina was becoming my world. My emotions were there too. They weren't nearly as prominent but they were there. I couldn't let her go. My arms wrapped around her neck. I was never going to let go. She was patting my bottom and swishing me. Cooing and shushing my tears. I could do nothing for hers. ___________________ It had been like a dream. His skin to hers, she had learned that contact helped. He was holding her neck. She had braced for there to be almost nothing there, for even a little bit of indifference, but this she couldn't have expected. Cindy had loved her but not nearly as much as she had loved Cindy. This was nothing like that. This was indescribable. The pill forced the body to create thousands of times its usual pheromone output. Causing those near to experience the emotions you were outputting. Then it used the adrenal system to amplify what you felt, increasing brain processing in the area of emotion and a host of other things. The effects created a wonderment of emotions and effectively caused you to know all there was to know about what could not be said between 2 individuals. Being more experienced with the pill she could sense it all. Cindy's pain had been prominent and hard to bear, but this poor thing's fear was so overwhelming, no little body should be able to hold something so big. It had utterly shocked her. Something had happened though. His emotions for her were there, but his fear had almost drowned them. Miraculously though his fear had melted to almost unrecognizable, but his love had grown to replace his fear. She had had to sit down. It had made her knees weak. How could that happen? Her only guess was that he saw what she was and all those worries and doubts were erased. Without them to hold him back his heart opened to her. It felt like a miracle. Tina had cried tears of joy. She was glad she had both drank and made him drink water, they were both crying heavily. It had been almost an hour already and neither showed signs of stopping. This poor boy, her poor baby boy. He was hers as surely as the sun rose and set. Surely as she lived and breathed. ________________ My senses started to calm from the overload. I wasn't sure how long it had been, but the sun had set before I opened my eyes. My eyes were still bleary and watery but at least the sobbing had stopped. Never had I been so happy and sad at the same time. Tina… No I wouldn't call her that again Mommy Mommy had sat down and held me, her eyes were red too. She'd cried as well. "M.. mo.." "It's ok, my baby." "Mmm.. mommy?" She pulled me back close and I could feel her warmth grow. "I have food coming, my dear heart. Are you hungry?" I nodded my agreement against her chest. I didn't want to leave her glorious smell or miss hearing that heartbeat. What was this? She had said it amplified what was there. It made you realize what you already had for another. "Mommy, can… can I.." She tried to encourage me,"it's ok dear heart, you can say whatever it is?" Her voice had grown even more soft and loving. "Can I say I love you?" Taken back, mommy's eyes began to water again, but I could feel the joy so I didn't fear I had screwed up. "Oh dear heart yes you can, you never need permission for that." "I love you" She replied with "and I love you more." ______________________ He could make her smile in the darkest night, in the rain, surrounded by wolves. Their stomachs were growling, she wished that the delivery bot would move faster. Something so dumb might ruin this moment. She'd deserve it for not being patient. They needed a distraction. Clean up a bit and get some clothes on, she thought. She carried him without asking to the bathroom where she plopped his padded rear on the counter and gently wiped his face, cleaning his snotty nose, and cleaning his eyes up. Then she let him do her face. It had made them both laugh. The food alert came about 3 minutes before they were done, so she carried the baby to get the food and get set up. She had pulled out the high chair because she wanted to be closer to him than a booster would allow. Putting him there, she prepared the food. Soon they had eaten. She had fed him most of it, which he had seriously enjoyed. He had become so carefree at that moment. Not over thinking it all, he had laughed when she had tapped his nose with the spoon getting pudding all over it. In the end he may have been wearing more than he ate. Mostly because of his shenanigans rather than babyish eating. She bathed him afterwards. They played some simple games, she tickled him until he begged her to stop, read books with his head on her chest, cuddled and watched cartoons. As the effects were beginning to wind down, she didn't want to miss the opportunity, so she sat down with him and breastfed him. Neither talked during the prep, both knew what was happening and both were excitedly expectant. The moment would go down for both of them as one of the best moments in their lives. Perfectly in sync and able to understand each other's desires for just a few more minutes, he suckled and she held him. In the end he fell asleep again, almost as if drugged. He was awake then he was asleep. He fell off the latch even though his mouth kept working at it. She wiped the drool from his lip and placed him in bed as the last of his emotions drained out. She couldn't help but think, "what would she call him when he had been officially adopted?" __________________ I was certain when she offered the third contract to me I would say yes. Historically, it had weeded out more people than anything else. I couldn't imagine life without mommy. How could I turn her down after tonight? She was breastfeeding me now, I was staring into her eyes. I could feel the full effects of the pill dwindling. I could tell I was tired, my body done. At Least I was warm, she smiled at me and that was the last thing I remembered as I drifted off to blissful sleep. It had been a good night, but all good and bad things came to an end.

I'm kinda with you on this. It seems the protagonist is more bent on manipulation to get at his married crush than to free himself from a lifetime of slavery. Yet claims he would rather be elsewhere.

Ch8 Surprise surprise or huh that wasn't expected. On one hand, the way this day had been going I shouldn't have been surprised. On the other hand, it seemed like a rather embarrassing dream. And then again we were both seemingly in the same state. Hers was a little more babyish, with cute patterns on the onesie. Of all the emotions I chose, I was embarrassed, and tried to hide behind Tina. Who, of course, had no qualms about moving. With the swiftness of a practiced mom she scooped up Cindy by her rather pronounced diapered rear and spun her once and then plopped her right next to me. I was mortified! She was not. Cindy looked me up and down, I could only stare at that captivating face. "Mommy? Is this the boy? The one you want to help?" "Yes sweetheart, he's going to stay here for a few days and recover from what a bad man did to him. Don't worry though he will be right as rain in just a few days." There was a moment of silence. "Have you 2 met each other?" "He's the boy I ran into yesterday." "Oh, really? You called him a man yesterday, so I never would have thought he was a little. You rapscallion." She threw her arms around me and gave me a hug. "I'm glad you're here." Well needless to say a lot of things happened in a very short instant. I was very glad for the diaper that hid some things though. Being alone had some disadvantages too. "All right you 2 munchkins, I know one of you is hungry because she made a big mess trying to make dinner for us, but I'd bet you're hungry too aren't you, little man?" Booping my nose with her finger. Cindy gave an impish smile and held her arms up to be set on the floor. I elected to climb down. We both trailed the giant, I marveled at her gracefulness, she seemed to flow instead of walk. The floor didn't shake when she walked, and there was no clumpiness to her. Was she perfect? We entered the kitchen where all the counters were above my head but not out of my reach. It looked a lot like my kitchen at home, just bigger. "You 2 in your chairs. "Cindy show him his booster and then get in yours please, I'll bring your plates." The meal was chicken nuggets, broccoli and some pasta thingy that only the 2 of us ate. I stayed pretty quiet the whole time letting Tina and Cindy catch up. They talked about the doctor and how work went, all of course in a very childish manner on Cindy's end. She seemed to be all there. It was kind of like all her cares were gone and she just was happy and innocent. After dinner, Tina announced it was time for her shower. She led the little ones upstairs and into her room where she placed some toys on the floor and said she would only be gone a minute. Everything on the floor seemed kind of beyond my desire to play with but I picked up something that looked like it changed between a robot and a dinosaur and fiddled with it in spite of myself. "She's not so bad," Cindy had lost that childlike quality. Her eyes were still happy but just not as innocent anymore. "I know it's hard to believe but she really does want the best for you." "How can I know that? How do I know you haven't been hypnotized?" "You don't, that's the sad part, but you've met 2 of us who have joined the coalition. Even if we are hypnotized, wouldn't a life free of worry and fear be worth it?" That was a new thought. No more Mr. Handicrafts to bully or butcher me. No more neighbors trying to poison me into a diaper. She began again,"plus I see those looks, and I like it, I feel the same way too. I meant what I said in front of the office. I am glad to see you again." She finished quietly and a little sheepishly. She was glad? "Well, this wasn't how I wanted to meet you again, wrapped up in padding and you have a mommy, she wouldn't let you and I ever go anywhere." "You'd be surprised, she's going to start making a list soon, she always does. It's going to be what you really want, not superficial desires but true dreams. I'm sure a mate will be on that list. It was for me." The water turned off in the bathroom, and Tina emerged shortly with a towel around her. "Are you 2 getting along?" She went to the dresser and got clothes out, not paying us anymore mind than she would a baby. She dropped the towel and began getting dressed. Cindy had been staring the whole time, and her mommy saw it, "would you like to nurse tonight, my dear?" "Can i?" That youthful innocent exuberance came right back. "Haha, of course my little one. We will give you some milk at bedtime." It took me a second to realize what they were referencing. Tina was lactating. I had heard Amazon's milk was addictive. But Cindy's response seemed to prove it. It also had unusual effects on littles, both digestive and mentally. I had never really talked to anyone about it, only read a few snippets on the internet. Most of the littles in the position to try it were not getting internet time, so it was only ever word of mouth. I must have been staring, because Tina laughed and teased me, "she never drinks it all, you can have some too." I blushed and pretended the toy was important again. "Well then let's get you 2 down for bed." It's been a long day, and I know 2 littles in need of some sleep." Cindy I'll put you down first. Go ahead, I'll be right there for storytime." Cindy wandered down the hall and Tina took me into my room. "While you wait for me, there are some video games you can play." I immediately got excited. "Really?" You avoided the things that the amazons thought were childish. You didn't buy them or have them because you could be considered unfit. So I had never had them, even growing up. I wanted so badly to try them but I had never been allowed. Laughing at my exuberance, Tina showed me where to turn them on and how to choose a game. For now she picked one out for me. It was a game where you ran around catching monsters. You used them to fight and such. I was immediately engrossed. _____________________ Tina messed the boys hair, such a simple pleasure had brought out the child in him so easily, the worries and trauma of the past 24 hours fading into the video games. Not even noticing her leave he kept playing. That made it easy, he was certainly a little clingy in a new environment. Tina liked it that way, it made her feel wanted and not just needed, but she also had 2 to take care of tonight. Once in Cindy's room, a pretty standard room for the girly girl who occupied it. Princess crowns and fairy wands. Pink things everywhere. She sat in the chair beside the lamp. "All right, have you picked out a story?" "Yes ma'am." The little wiggle butt waddled over and crawled up into mommy's lap. A story about a knight saving his princess was read. Then prayers and finally what the girl wanted most, Tina bared her breast and the girl latched on. She had learned not to use her teeth and was remarkably good at feeding now. This part always made Tina melt. She enjoyed this because it not only fed the girl, which was a need but it also served as a way to bond with and relax Cindy. As usual though, Cindy would fall asleep long before she even drained a single breast. Maybe Tina would try morning feedings. Laying her gently in her bed, and covering her with a warm soft blanket, Tina kissed her forehead goodnight. The little barely even stirred. Well that was one… On to number 2, he was just where he'd been left. Good! He had at least enjoyed himself for a little bit. "All right my tiny monster hunter, it's time for bed." He looked up, seemingly shocked that Tina was back. "You've had a good first time, how was it?" He was excited for sure. He began describing the game and missing details and having to go back to describe them. He would talk too fast and trip over his words. This went on for a few minutes, none of it making any sense to her, but she listened avidly as a good momma would. In the end she smiled and said "I'm glad you enjoyed it. In the morning you can play some more." Sitting on the bed she asked if he'd like a story. The boy declined but asked a potent question "why do you want me?" "Well" She had been prepared for that one, "I want you because you have a good heart, you are a smart boy, you try not to cause trouble in spite of your sometimes mischievousness. I want you because I love you." Her heart was feeling that full feeling again. He stood up in the bed next to where she sat and looked her in the eyes. Just looked, he seemed to be searching for something. Whatever it was he seemed to find it and flung himself on her, she caught him with ease and held him half cradled half supported in her arms. He was crying, maybe from relief, maybe from the stress of his life up ending in 3 days. She marveled at the bond they already shared, it usually took a month of candies and meetings just to get to where she could talk to the recruits without some sort of motivation. That round with Charles must have been worse than she had been led to believe. She would have to make sure he was shoveling penguin doo doo. His sobs were slowing, but Tina wasn't going to spoil the moment. She just rubbed his hair until he had completely calmed. When he looked up, Tina asked "all better?" Nodded, "now I promised you an opportunity. Remember you don't have to but you are welcome to breastfeed." He looked down at her shirt and contemplated it. "Can I try a little bit?" "He always knows how to make me smile." Tina thought. With practiced ease she set him in place and prepared. "Now the best way is to not use teeth and to focus on kneading and suckling." Tina assumed he wasn't listening since he seemed to be intently focused on the next step that would bring him into her arms forever. Tina raised him to the right spot and began patting his bottom the way she always did with Cindy. He didn't seem to notice. He was a natural. for all his talk of being an adult, he had done very well being a baby today. Never used his teeth, Cindy had been a bother, bringing Tina to frustration more than once, it was always hard with her in the beginning. Couldn't latch, bit, wouldn't suckle, one thing after another she had had to be taught slowly. He was perfect though, she was going to have to decide on a name for him soon. Right now Carmen and Joshua were the 2 at the top of the list. When she adopted him he would leave his whole old life behind. That meant all of it. She would give him a new life. She wouldn't take him from it, he would have to walk away from it. It was the best moment she had had with Cindy and she was hoping it would be the same for him. His suckling was slowing, he was falling asleep. Wonder of wonders, he was going to be perfect. The next 3 or 4 days needed to be very focused on what he needed from her to fulfill himself. She already knew what she wanted from him. He was even giving it now. Slow and steady though. The bonding pill couldn't be used for at least a few days. A momentary rise in anger at what had been done to him was settled instantly when she felt him slump against her breast. He was tired and had somehow and for some reason let his guard down with her. It almost made her cry. I'd bet Cindy had had something to do with that. Sneaky little girl, always trying to do anything she could to be involved, bless that precious heart. Laying him in bed and covering him with the blanket, she patted that cute little diaper butt and snuck in a little kiss. He wouldn't know, but she would. It was a nice night, so she cracked his window and left the room. Tina felt a wet spot on her shirt, it was where he had cried. After thinking about it, it was a badge of honor, and she would carry it with pride. She turned on the baby monitor and for the first time setup the split screen mode. It was going to be a fun couple days so Tina decided on an early night herself. _______________ She had come back right as I had discovered and destroyed the first boss with my monster army. Then she had said she loved me, I hadn't heard that in years. I was beginning to believe this woman. When she had offered her breast I wasn't sure I should have said yes. But her smile was all I needed to confirm that she approved. It had been sweet and savory to my taste. It had been nurturing and calming. In the end I never remembered finishing or really getting in bed. I did remember it was the best day of my life. Ch9 Next steps or What do you want for me? In the morning I woke up before everyone or at least thought I had, so I played the video game for a little bit until Tina came to evict me from my bed. I was soaked through and the diaper weighed 100 pounds plus. Tina giggle and squished my bottom with her hand. Saying it was good she had put me in such a thick diaper. After a discussion I lost hands down, seriously, I wasn't even allowed to change myself, she changed me into a light daytime thing that was a lot easier to walk in. Reminding me "the effects would wear off soon." She always seemed to have a better answer. In any case, the morning went pretty normally aside from Cindy coming down to breakfast in business attire. This was just so weird. "Oh you look so cute." Tina bent down and kissed her head. I flushed with embarrassment, as I hadn't been allowed pants yet. Something about needing to know when it was about to leak. "Mooooooooom, that's embarrassing." Cindy responded to the comment like any child might. Breakfast was a simple cold cereal, it was good to have a little normalcy in it. Afterwards Cindy said her goodbye and off she went, I assumed back to work for the coalition, where we had met. Tina took some time getting ready for the day, I could hear her singing as she went through her routine, it was a comforting thing even if it wasn't always on key. She had told me to explore a bit, so I knew where I was and what the house looked like. I walked from room to room. There seemed to be more than I thought there should have been. I only looked in Cindy's room, I felt like I was intruding by going in. It was a typical girl's room, all dolly and princess type stuff. The last thing I found was the basement, mostly open. It looked like a fun house for kids. Toys galore and and even a few playhouses and the like. I couldn't help myself and I crawled into a multi story one and climbed to the top. I felt like I was a mile up. It was probably only 10 feet or so but it felt higher. There was a rope bridge that connected to another tower and there I sat my pantless padded rear and surveyed the room a little better. Consequently, that was where Tina discovered me. She walked up to me, my feet a little bit below her eye line, and without hesitating tickled my feet. Of Course I laughed, but in my weakened state I also peed. When she had stopped, "Tina?" I said sheepishly, "I think I had an accident." "Oh dear heart, I'm sorry but that's why we had you in that diaper isn't it. The good news is you felt it, that means it's going away. Maybe just another day or so. Remember to go potty as soon as you feel the need to, ok?" She sounded like she was trying to potty train me. "Now would you like to jump to me?" That kind of sounded fun. A smile spread across my lips and Tina held her hands up to me, I only hesitated for a second or 2 thinking about falling. "Come on big boy, jump to me!" Tina encouraged me. So I did. She didn't stop at catching me though, she twirled me through the air and finally landed me in a big hug. I laughed the whole way around. It felt freeing. During the hug I felt Tina probe the diaper, probably seeing if she needed to get me into something drier. She never said anything so I ignored it. It was embarrassing enough. We went upstairs and into the office type room and sat down, her at the desk. Me on a chair made for a toddler placed on top of the desk. "I want to talk to you about what you want in your future. You always seem to live in the moment, and that makes it hard for someone just observing to see what you want and do not have yet." I got a little nervous, I had not really thought about it myself. Littles didn't get a lot of options in life. I had always wanted to travel but if you ever ended up in the wrong place or the wrong country, well, you were never heard of again. Family, who doesn't want a place they belong. Was that what she wanted from me? My face must have gotten worried because she reached out and cupped my face, "it's ok nothing to be afraid of. There aren't any wrong answers. I'll help you figure it out. This won't be our only session, just our first ok?" I felt encouraged by her words. We talked for a while until I became aware of a need for the restroom. She took me, removed my diaper, and left me some privacy. Upon finishing the toilet wouldn't flush. I tried a few things and pushed the buttons, but it would never work. I got a little frantic and Tina must have been listening, "what's the matter?" "It won't flush, I can't get the toilet to work." I heard laughing, "I forgot to tell you it's little proof. It keeps the littles from cheating. In my line of work it is essential.if you are done come on out and we will get it all sorted. And sorted we did. She flushed the toilet, not sure how, and me powdered and padded. With Each diaper change she seemed to be holding something back, more and more. I couldn't tell what, but it felt like she wanted something but couldn't or wouldn't do it. Maybe it was my imagination. Anyway the afternoon was spent doing simple things like playing board games or puzzles or even a game of hide n seek, which she was really good at. Cindy arrived home and after sometime in her room with Tina she came out dressed similarly to last night. A colorful onesie and diaper, even in that get up i couldn't help but notice her legs and shape were womanly. We went In the basement, and were told to play nice and that dinner would be ready soon. As soon as Tina left, Cindy dropped back into her adult mode. That's what I'd decided I'd call it when she wasn't playing childlike. "She really likes you." I was always stunned when she talked like that. "Why?" Cindy shrugged at that. "It's not my place, she's my mommy, and I love her for that. She's protected me from something, I can't remember what. A memory blocker was put up to keep me from ever remembering it. I have a vague understanding that it was terrible, that mommy saved me and made me her daughter to help me heal from it, but it hadn't been enough, so I decided to have the blocker put in." "You decided?" "Yep, that much is perfectly clear." Sitting in a playhouse tower it felt like make believe but I listened on. "Anyway, this life couldn't get much better, I have all I need, I get to be an adult for a few hours a day. Mommy takes all the stress off me when I get home each day. I get to play and watch TV or be a princess. Who would ever want more than to never HAVE to grow up." "You talked about a list last night, what did you mean?" Her only response was a flat, "I can't talk about it." It was almost robotic. "What about the mate thing?" "It's on my list, I have no ability to talk about it." I was now utterly confused, the way she sounded it was like a hypnosis response. There was never any sign of hypnosis until this moment. I decided to change the subject. "Why do you use diapers if you get to be an adult?" "The Amazon's want babies right? We are babies to them. We know we are not babies, they know we are not, but their minds allow them to believe we are." She paused and smiled, "I am mommy's baby." And with that she proved it, not intentionally ofcourse, but audibly and quite obviously. "Ewwwww" I said half mockingly. She just laughed so hard she fell backwards into a giant bear stuffy. From the stairs we could hear Tina coming. " What are you 2 rugrats up to?" Coming over, she didn't need an answer as Cindy's smell did the talking. "Whooo, guess we need to fix that before dinner!" Her focus changed to my crotch "Speaking of you haven't had an accident since we changed you. That's good news!" Sure enough, I was still dry. I hadn't even noticed. The praise made my cheeks flush red. "In the morning I think we can skip the diapers, as long as you promise to be careful and go as soon as you feel the need to." Yep I was definitely being potty trained. My cheeks got even redder. "Run along and get your hands washed, I'll be up shortly and we will eat dinner." I went and did as instructed, I was assuming Cindy was getting changed. Dinner was a lot the same, the pasta thingy was back again, it seemed to be a pattern, they tasted good so I didn't say anything. Bathtime and bedtime came again, there was another discussion on whether I needed diapers for bed and of course I lost. Seemed to be a pattern forming there. There was another onesie, this time powder blue. I got second round once again. So I got a few more minutes on the video game and then Tina came in. "I think tomorrow will be another good day, we can go visit Cindy for lunch and you can meet a few more Littles at the coalition." I had other things on my mind. "Why does Cindy have hypnosis programming?" I knew I should have, maybe, led into it or prepped her for it but I was curious. Tina frowned, "meddlesome little girl, always the mischievous one. Anyway, come sit in my lap." I crawled over from the bed to the chair where she settled me on her knee. "This is a bad time to be talking about business, but I think you need to know so you can sleep better. The coalition is still a secret, remember the contract you signed?" I nodded, " Well it's the first step, remember I told you there were 3 contracts?" I nodded again, " the next contract we will talk about tomorrow. The hypnosis is to help us keep a secret what we are doing. While we are strong we are not to the point where we can just go about saying we are who we are. Some people don't like what we do. Also, we don't want to be flooded with applicants, we want to find them." She trailed off for a minute, "the littles we find are always specifically chosen, the same goes for the amazons. Believe it or not they undergo the same hypnosis." It wasn't really relieving my fears. "Tomorrow 2 people are scheduled to have it done and I thought it might be good for you to see it done in person, before you made your decision." "My decision?!" I may have sounded a bit upset, "decision? To do what chop up my brain? Take parts of me away so I cannot think anymore? Make me some drooling infant?!" Tina took it all in stride, she had heard it before. "I know, it's not like that though. The contract that comes next basically say you want to keep going with us, but we have to stay safe. I know its hard to understand but it will keep you from talking about it to anyone who is not also under the same hypnosis. That's it. There isn't anymore to it." It didn't sit well with me. "I can hold you the whole time if you want. I can be with you, or maybe have Cindy there? Whatever would make you feel better." She seemed to be almost desperate, she really didn't want to lose me? Why was this so important? "I will at least see what you are talking about." She gave me a hug, "I'd also like to stop by the clinic and talk to the doctor tomorrow. Just a check up." "Goodnight, my darling little one, sleep well." I never responded, I was already lost in thought. Would it be so bad to be so happy? ___________________ He wasn't sleeping, the monitor kept notifying her of his movement. Tina just kept staring at the monitor. In the end she went in and layed down, rubbing his back. He never acknowledged her, but he slept, and so did she, right next to her would be adoptee. She would have him, and he would have his happily ever after. He wanted to belong, he had already told her that much, not in so few words but it had topped the list. He was a smart boy, how had he discovered the hypnosis? She'd have to ask tomorrow, Cindy wouldn't even remember that part of the conversation. Anyway, she'd sit with him through the procedure. It might make him feel better. If the doc went ahead with the green light, she could do the bonding pill as well. If he was genuine the pill would make him, and her, aware of it. All for tomorrow, for now they both needed sleep and he was getting a head start. Mommies need their rest too.