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RambleLamb
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Serious question: You know how like some guys are described as cumming too quickly or from just like a little touch from someone they're attracted to? I was wondering if a guy like that would cum because he farted and it like, I dunno, vibrated his bits or something.
Discuss.
Or don't, that's cool too.
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My pleasure, I Iove helping. It was interesting to look up the disorder and read a bit about it. Even if it was a silly question, I wouldn't mind helping but knowing you despite it seeming like an unusual question. I knew it was for something, I'm guessing it's research for something you're working on?
Oh and btw, I'm not sure if I had told you but I'm Chaoz from DA, although I think you know that already and I'm just being silly and forgetful.?
Anyways, glad to help. It's great to talk to you again.
Have an awesome day.
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Hey, can we talk in dms, please? I've been worried about you and your partner for some time. You two dissapeared for almost 2 months and I haven't heard anything since you two came back. Despite my last conversations with your partner being positive.
I know that last time we had talked, you ended up not wanting to talk to me again. I'm not sure why that conversation made you not want to talk to me. But I just want to have a friendly conversation with you again. Please.
I wish you well and a goodnight.
Sincerely,
Scarlet.
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Update: The next entry in the "Baby's First" series, "Daddy" has been upgraded to it's own full story and will now be called "Road To Discovery" because it became clear that making it a short story would take away from the importance of the narrative. I'll probably have the first chapter up between today and Saturday and I hope that it turns out well!
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Not sure if blog post notifies or not, please read, thank you.
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Writing is about the best anyone is going to get out of me anymore. I'm not going to answer messages or reply to comments, I'm just going to write some stuff now and then and stay in my lane. If this doesn't work for you I am gesturing vaguely toward the door for your benefit.
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Update: Still alive, still paralyzed, still incontinent, still depressed, still angry, still moving, still not up to talking, still appreciative that people care.
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I know that I'm probably hurting a lot of you by not responding to your comments and messages, I'm not doing it to be rude and I don't want you to think I don't care or appreciate you, it's just that conversation is really hard for me right now.
I have news about what's going on with me. I'm moving soon, within the next few days probably. There have been conversations that I was not involved in until the decision was made for me by my aunt and cousin regarding my situation. For a refresher, my situation is that I'm paralyzed, down a leg, depressed, suicidal, I've been hearing and seeing things that shouldn't be real, I don't sleep, I started drinking again after being sober for a little over five years, all the things that make me a treat to be around. Anyway, the decision was made that I would move in with my aunt and she and my cousin would basically tag team taking care of me.
My suggestion that they both fuck off and let me spiral out of control was soundly rejected. The point was made that I can't properly take care of myself now that I can't work, can't walk, can't control my bodily functions, yeah, on top of everything I'm also incontinent now which is basically just the icing on the cake.
I spend all my time in her room. Her bed smells like her and one of my pillows smells like the girl I was seeing so I just lay in the bed and hold those pillows and cry. I talk to them and cry. I see them and cry.
I wasn't conscious in the car before they got us out and I went to the hospital, but I see them in the apartment. Roommate is bent in unnatural ways, she's never right in front of me, always just kind of on the fringe but I know it's her because even though she talks to me and her voice is thick and wet sounding, she's still her. She asks me why I'm trying to live without her, why I spend all my time clinging to the things she left behind and the memories of her when I could be with her just by giving up. She makes giving up sound natural and wonderful but when I have the pills or the razor in my hand I freeze up and just shut down.
The girl I was seeing doesn't tell me to give up on life, she just mocks me. She's much harder to listen to because her voice comes out of the gash in her throat and there's this flapping, crackling sound every time she talks and it scares me. She tells me that I get to live my ridiculous fantasy life now, being a helpless and pathetic baby trapped in a woman's body. She laughs at me laying on the bed crying when I smell what I've done in my diaper, her laughter is gurgly and awful and no matter what I do I can't block it out.
TL;DR: I'm apparently in the middle of either a complete mental breakdown or a haunting and neither are great things. I'm well on my way to becoming a horrible parody of the worst ABDL stories I've ever read. I am days away from suffering more humiliation and indignity than I can possibly begin to imagine. I'm still terrible at killing myself. I have a lot of people pulling for me and sending me love and support but none of it is tangible and I hate that. I hate feeling so incredibly grateful that people care about me but remain alone and suffering.
*sigh* Anyway, I've whined and moped as much as I care to. I'll try and send out some messages before it gets dark, they tend to show up more at night for whatever reason.
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Yeah, like Kimmy said you aren't hurting anyone here. I promise. ♡
As for seeing the ghosts of your dead roommate and girlfriend... yeah, that's pretty freaky. I don't know what you believe about spiritual things or the afterlife (And I'd be happy to talk to you about it if you want) But I'd recommend finding an explanation for this that you can understand. Are they really the ghosts of your loved ones? Are they demons trying to torment you into killing yourself? Are you just insane and hallucinating? I'd recommend avoiding the latter explanation. It doesn't really hold water and doesn't really help you so it's a worthless viewpoint.
I wish I could do more for you. I want so badly just to hold you tight for hours and keep all the bad thoughts away. But until then all I can offer you is my love and support from a distance. ♡♡♡♡♡♡♡
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I am going to be quick about this and suggest the Shepherd Center as a possibility for rehabilitation. I had a coworker who went there, and it helped him gain independence after a severe injury. I'm not saying it is the right thing in your case, Ramble, just putting it out there as food for thought when you are ready to think about it.
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I want to preface this by saying that I'm not a professional. I can't provide an official diagnosis but I want you to know your not your not "crazy", a lot of people... myself included would probably be doing even worse in your situation. What I can offer is some insight from my own battles with mental health issues and doing a fair amount of psych course work as an undergrad. What you are feeling and experiencing is real and valid. There is a part of you that is trying to communicate. To me this looks a lot like extreme survivors guilt. You feel you didn't deserve to live and it's being expressed through these "constructs" or "personae" for lack of better a better term to be used to work through this guilt and any unfinished business good or bad you may have had with these people who meant everything to you.
As a scientist I'm skeptical of a supernatural explanation, but honestly if there is any validity to the phenomenon of a haunting it lies in that liminal space where our mind interfaces with the external reality. Whether or not that is literal, as in the case of PK/ESPER. Or an artifact of perception I cannot say and is honestly immaterial to your needs. I would hesitate to encourage someone to engage with a phenomenon like this but given the extreme trauma and the need to resolve unfinished business as it were... Talk to them confront the accusations head on; yell, scream, cry, get what your feeling out there. Say whatever it was you needed to say to these people but never got the chance to. Maybe write it out as a letter. Let your self feel this and grieve. It's not going to magically fix things but it could be a first step towards heeling this injury. I would strongly advise talking to someone professionally about this but I can't make that call for you. All I can do is be a shoulder if you need me...
*hugs on offer* ❤️
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Why am I still here? Why did I survive? Why can't I give up and let go, to end this pain once and for all? All I want to do is die but I can't do it.
I think about them and I cry or rage. I think about being stuck in this fucking chair forever and I cry and I rage. I hate everything and want to be alone to die but then I think about how I just want to have someone hold me and take care of me and make everything better.
There is so much darkness inside me that I feel nothing but the worst emotions. I wish I hadn't survived.
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I don't know what to say... I could talk about survivors guilt throw around technical terms but none of that makes a difference in the moment makes the pain any less. All I can say is that I'm here in any way I can be for you and that honestly I'd probably feel the same way if I was in your position.
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I wish there was a way I could take some of your pain away and help you through this. You have had such loss, grief, and despair lately that of course you are upset, outraged, and in severe shock. I don't think you can work through any problems right now emotionally or physically without the medical profession trying to offer you some healing and solace in all the ways that they can.
This hurts to see you in so much pain and not be able to help. I have a question. I don't know if you will answer, but maybe you will, Ramble. Why do you say you will never walk again .... Did the doctors tell you that you will not be able to use a prosthesis? or is there paralysis?
I cannot imagine the pain, grief, and suffering you are going through. Too many losses in such a short time, and you are going through the agony of emotional and physical grief. Please don't give up.
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The feelings you are experiencing are normal. This is a normal reaction to the things that have happened to you. It is okay for you to be sad, it is okay for you to be angry, it is okay for you to mourn and grieve. It's normal for you to not want to have to deal with all of that suffering. It's normal to want solitude and closeness at the same time, humans are complicated that way.
I'm sorry it happened. I'm sorry you hurt.
Bad things happen to good people, and I'm sorry.
But I'm glad you survived. I'm glad you're still with us. I'm glad you're still you. I love you for the person that you are, and I've never seen you. You can make it through this. I know you can.
I'm proud of you, for how strong you are - even if you don't feel strong right now. I'm proud of you for fighting. I'm proud of you for coming back and posting again, even though I'm sure some small part of you told you not to. You have a community here, we love you no matter what, and we're all cheering you on.
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There was an accident and the girl I had just started seeing, my roommate, and her girlfriend were all killed. I was in a coma for a while, lost one of my legs, and probably won't ever walk again and I'm in so much pain because of everthing that I'm giving up, this is too much.
I'm sorry for those of you that have grown attached to me and I'm sorry that I'm not strong enough to deal with this.
Goodbye.
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I want you to know that when and if you come back, we'll be here waiting for you.
I'm deeply sorry for everything you've lost, I can't even imagine the pain you're in right now or what it means for your life. But I want you to know that I think you're an amazing person and that I love you.
You don't owe anyone who loves you an apology, and it's okay to not be strong enough to deal with everything. I hope you have some people in your life to lean on, everyone needs help and it's okay to need that help. Please don't be hard on yourself, don't say anything to yourself that you wouldn't say to a good friend.
You wouldn't tell your friend "You should be sorry for not being strong enough on your own", you would never say that to anyone. You would say, "What can I do to help?"
So, please, with what little help I can offer you, know that it's there for the taking. You can talk to me about anything, any time.
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@bbykimmy That goes double for me. ♡♡♡
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Anyone interested in what I'm working on with zero context provided?- A Normal Cheerleader- A Roll of the Dice- License to Crawl- Suburbs & Schnoodles- Under the Bed
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So....that vaguely D&D related story just turned into two stories in my thinky brain and I can't wait to work on both this weekend. I know that's not much information to go on, but since only one person besides me cares about it it's good enough.
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Did someone say "RambleLamb should write a vaguely D&D related ABDL short but not one shot short story"? No? My mistake then.
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Me ATM with my five stories going at once. So majestic...
Also me:
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Just saw the new Pokemon game trailer and UMMMMM your girl is gonna have to get herself a Switch, y'all! Obviously getting a Switch means I'll HAVE to play Breath of the Wild and Mario Odyssey because I'm a weak willed child woman and don't judge me!
Dat Pokemon game doe...
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I'm working on a story submission right now and it's legit fucking me up. I was SO excited about the idea and now that I'm writing it I'm actually feeling the crushing depression that this poor girl in the story is dealing with, this shit is palpable and goddamn it hurts. I find myself taking breaks to stop writing and just listen to the music that makes me feel better, and when I go back to writing I'm INSTANTLY fucking sad again.
Look, I know I write dark and mopey shit, but very rarely does any of that actually effect me, it's part of the process to work out my internal thoughts and worries and it makes me feel better to put it to words. This shit is something else though, this is dwelling on the vile and repugnant shit that people think and feel and buying into the reality that I'm probably not very far from the truth is not okay with me.
#bummersummer
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I'm sorry my prompt is effecting you so much, I knew the story would probably have a lot of sadness and pain in it but I never thought too too deeply on it, that's where master story writer RambleLamb comes in right? I'm really really glad you are taking my submission so seriously and trying to make it great and big and emotional, but I hope that if you are being too effected by it that you don't push yourself I would much rather a watering down on the emotional pain and the reality then to have something you derive so much joy from be ruined because of me. ?
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Hey Lambie.
You're writing a subject that is deeply personal to you, you personally are already afraid that people secretly don't like you. A person without that fear wouldn't struggle as much with this prompt. There is no shame in it, knowing your own pitfalls is valuable. Give yourself grace and forgiveness for feeling insecure. It doesn't make you a bad person, nobody's perfect. I'm insecure about these sorts of things sometimes too, my pitfalls are different than yours. I NEED attention from the people I care about, I NEED to feel valued and loved or I fall apart. That's not an attractive quality! I'm not proud of it, so writing a story about a needy person would probably put me into a spiral about my own neediness.
Forgive yourself for your imperfections. We love you not in spite of them, but because of them - we're all flawed.
As for people leaving if they aren't going to get off to your story.... forget them, they're not your audience. Don't worry about it. You already have a following, and not every story is for every person. Write what you want to write. Write to make YOU feel, and your audience will feel with you.
<3
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I pitched the idea for regular story contests in the request forum, if anyone thinks it's a good idea please go show your support so we can maybe get it to be a thing.
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Currently working on a story that will only be posted on my DeviantArt page as it's...dark, like really dark. I don't expect anyone to read it, and those that do will probably hate it because it's not sexy, but I'm trying some different things with it and exploring some tones and themes that I feel make for an interesting read but what the fuck do I know?!
Anyway, I'll say something here when it's up and if you happen to check it out maybe let me know what you thought here or there or not at all, whatever works for you.
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❤️❤️❤️❤️ your wall needed hearts, it is known.
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So, I had a super scary stalkery type situation come up recently, this person knew where I lived and had my personal email and was threatening to expose me to my work and friends. I exposed myself to take away their power over me, and I'm still alive, so there's that.
I'm not sure where the person was able to get my personal information from, it doesn't really matter, I've done everything in my power to keep myself safe and if they're still planning to do something I'll deal with that too.
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@bbykimmyI'll be fine. I did get to experience a level of humiliation I didn't know existed, so yay learning things. Things will be fine though, love right back to you.
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Kimmy!! *glomps* @bbykimmy
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Just a reminder, my everything nerdy group is open to everyone, come and take a look and get all nerdy and shit.
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I made a group on here for nerdy people and the things they are interested in. If you're a nerd about ANYTHING in popular culture, give a consideration to joining! If you know anyone that's a nerd give them the info, all are welcome and everything is up for discussion.
I made a few boilerplate topics, but the only limit is people's imagination as far as what we can talk about. Anime, books, video games, cartoons, literally anything that people enjoy in popular culture is on the table.
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So, I'd like some input from some helpful readers. I'm still working on my main story, but to keep my mind functioning I do side projects and I'd like some input from you lovelies. These are the story options and you may only pick one:
A. Mandela Effect story
B. A story with absolutely no point whatsoever but written in a way that makes it seem very important
C. Stop procrastinating and get more main story done
D. What ever happened with that foreign language story you were going to write?
E. RambleLamb gets punished for her failure to keep up with her stories
F. Surprise me
Please take a moment to vote and if you get someone that doesn't follow me to vote I'll send nudes...I call cat memes nudes
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I've been asked a couple times now why I use #zeropenises on my stories and the answer is because it's my candle in the window in case someone important wants to drop by, it let's them know that it's safe for them to do so. Also, it's because there's no penises in the story, simplest answer is best answer.
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Real talk? I hate Christmas. I mean, as a Jew that's not super odd, but yeah, this time of year is the absolute goddamned worst. People forget how to drive properly, are, by and large, inconsiderate assholes, and the music, why do we have to endure Christmas music from the day after Halloween to New Year's?
I know I'm being a prickly pear or whatever, but yeah, I'm firmly in the Bah Humbuggiest of moods right now and we're still just under two weeks away. Also, if we replaced even ONE "traditional" Christmas song with "Christmas in Hollis" I would probably be so surprised and happy that I'd forget about all the other crummy stuff. Consider it, Christians, you have my number.
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@Joey_AB_DL That is amazing and hilarious, thank you for sharing it!
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Tag, you're it! If you come here and see this, say "hi"?
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