Living Curious

I just got a reply from my therapist. It's not secure messaging so she just acknowledged the email and said we'll talk about it next session. But now it's all out there for her. This is pretty big for me.

Thanks for the reply! So it sounds like it would be possible to get a Memokath put in for 8-12 months or something just to be certain, before spending the money on the surgery?

Stepping onto my soapbox... Will you never again complain about traffic because you chose to drive? You could avoid complaining about traffic by only using public transport. In what universe would it make sense to get all over someone's case and accuse them of buyer's remorse for their car simply because they complain about the mundane annoyances of dealing with traffic? Oooooor you could do what I think a normal person would do and say that it's ridiculous to severely restrict your freedom of movement by only using public transport and refuse to drive simply to avoid complaining, lest people think you're... ungrateful? Not joyful enough for their taste? Well, in my world, driving is a necessary reality (kinda like diapers for Reddy) and it's not 100% always fun and sometimes you just want to share your annoyance about the not fun parts like traffic or figuring out how to pay for an unexpected repair. If this was a forum about the joys of driving and someone complained about traffic, do you really think anyone would give that person such grief? Or inundate them with unsolicited advice, over and over again? Wtf? I'll take my turn to give some unsolicited advice. When someone is sharing how they feel about something and hasn't asked for advice, then one should keep it to oneself. And if one chooses to not keep it to oneself, they have no place being confused or offended that their advice isn't being followed especially when it's so grossly inappropriate to offer in the first place. Talk about emotional immaturity: "Waaah, he's not doing what I think he should! If he did things the way I think he should, he would feel better! Waaah, why won't he listen!? He should either take my advice and get happy for himself or shut up because it hurts my feelings when he complains after I told him my subjective opinion for how to do things." Harsh take, I know. Just about as harsh as some of the takes on Reddy. Reddy has shown himself fully capable of asking for advice when wanted. He's also shown himself to be willing to take the emotional risk to be honest about how he feels, even when it's uncomfortable. It makes sense that most of this thread isn't Reddy constantly celebrating and telling us over and over just how happy he is. That's pretty uninteresting and I doubt anyone would keep that up for long because it provides little value to anyone. Makes way more sense to look to the forum for support and a place to share what can't be shared elsewhere, even or especially when it's just to complain about unexpected momentary annoyances or challenges. I can't tell you just how valuable this has been for me @Reddy and @BrownBobby. Every bit of it, even the parts people think you should keep to yourself like your complaints. I'm so thankful for (what I believe is) such a faithful chronicle of events. Hearing the complaints and challenges, and then over time reading about solutions that have been tried or found and overall how things have been managed/developed over time has probably been the most valuable part of this thread for me. Because it sounds like precisely the life I want to live. All of it, not just the parts to celebrate. I wouldn't feel so confident about that if after the surgery "life was perfect" or presented as such because I wouldn't believe it. I can understand how a lot of one handed typists (not accusing anyone) get frustrated with the mundane details, but it's what I'm here for and I don't think I'm alone.

Yes, thank you for the reminder. I actually want to talk to her about whether or not I should get the surgery, because I'm not sure. She's fully aware and very supportive of me wearing diapers 24/7. But at this point I think I might actually need to be grossly UI for better mental health, but I'm maybe only 50% sure I can go through with surgery for a multitude of reasons. I need her to help me weigh the pros/cons because I can no longer deny that, most of the time, I feel convinced the pros of being grossly UI outweigh the cons of being diaper dependent. And it's perhaps getting to the point that the pros outweigh the cons so much that surgery makes sense.

I'm writing an email to my therapist right now to let her know I'm considering getting this surgery so we can talk about it in my next session in a couple days.

100% I'm seriously considering this.

This whole time reading I have been surprised that no one has brought up Memokath. I don't know much about it but this is the first I've heard that it's more risky than surgery. What makes it more risky?

I'm not a sissy and more DL than AB, by far. But I love how I feel cute in diapers, and wearing pink or other 'girly' diapers makes me feel even cuter. So, I wear them very often.

I have been diagnosed with bipolar NOS, also. I've found the right pharmaceutical therapy and life is pretty good. It took me just over a year of trying different meds before finding the right ones, and another 6 months or so fine tuning the dosage. I struggled with this my whole life and wasn't diagnosed until in my mid-20s. I'm so fortunate to be where I'm at in life and I don't take it for granted. I know all to well the struggles of having mental illness.

I bought some Crinklz from NorthShore, too, because of the sale. They're the first "ABDL" diapers I've tried and I really love them so far. I've been buying from NorthShore for a few years now, they are top notch. I really really hope they start offering more printed designs! And I'm pretty sure Adam is the founder of NorthShore.

Maybe we should start a SNH ABDL munch...

Diaper off or pulled down. Can't feel anything otherwise.