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two reasons. 1 when the tapes pop the no longer fit properly and they feel less comfortable. and become less effective in the mental boost i get from them. and 2 once in a blue moon i do choose to use them when i feel i need to. btw thanks for the tip on the tena's

yes, so i've been diapered nearly 24/7 for alittle over a month now. i've simply needed to be so i have been. my mother came down a week before thanksgiving and within a day she had put so much stress on me that i just said *$@!# it... went to my room and took care of myself. things just got worse and worse, she stayed for about two weeks and i don't know what i would have done without my escape. it and some other events that happened around that time pushed me real deep and i've been steadily coming out of it and am doing quite well now... still diapered, and thats fine. oddly while i've been diapered constantly for a month i still haven't used one. but thats my choice. the funny thing is, i see my theropist a few times a week now, and i have no car so i have to walk... i've been running lately. both due to the fact that i rather enjoy pushing myself in that way, and i also have been waiting till the last possible second to leave the house wich doesn't usualy give me a choice. now i have to admit i rather enjoy running. and i think just becouse they raise my spirits i can quite honestly run further without stopping and push myself farther while i'm diapered. i've compared it. i go a number of blocks farther before i have to stop. this brings up a question i had forgoten about till just now - the depends (only brand avalable without a speciality store or ordering online) any way their tapes kinda suck for this. ofcourse they aren't exactly made for the "senior citisin on the go" but it's a problem for ME. i'll be runing along and i can feel and hear when one pops off. the question is, are there any good diapers for an active person - i do prefer the brief style they help me more. moving back to the running... i just find that interesting, and plan to continue to do so. so i'm doing well i think. now as i've been going practicaly 24/7 for a month now i've been tearing through my stash. what normaly would have lasted me another 3-4 months is gone. i think i've decided that i am going to continue with this. i really feel it is helping me, and i guess the only draw back is i'll just have to buy diapers more often. i was thinking about trying to get my hands on a pack of Tena Ultra's i think... the cloth-like ones. anyone know if they'd hold up for a sustained moderately paced run?

it's clearly a problem that interferes with her life and she's asking for help. it may go away with time but she is asking for something more imediate. i'm going to assume that this is a problem that occurs weather the diaper is wet or dry? and is most likely due to it rubbing apon you... well let me think... plastic pants may not rub on you and cause this problem... but i'm not sure they work for fecal incontinance... silly thought... but you could try placing a maxi-pad / panty liner inside the diaper... it may be just different enough not to stimulate you so, and is disposable. i'm making these ideas up as i go... if it's a problem that occurs only when you are wet... change more frequently... i'm sorry, i'm a bit sleepy and my ideas may come off as lame... but i'm trying to offer anything i can think of to help you.

seems almost like thats saying they support it, as at times it seems when you have these feelings - the compulsions or desires for me atleast can be so strong that, to ignore them "interferes with the rest of your life -- ruins your grades, keeps you out of romances, upsets or drives off friends, makes you depressed, that kind of thing. " just amusing myself, I've actualy told my theropist, told him once and moved on to the more important things... i think he's fished for information before, to see if they were doing anything negitive to me, but i don't think either of us feel it gets in the way of the rest of my life... i'm using them to feel comfortable enough to Have a life... and who knows, when i'm comfortable with my life, i may not need them anymore. it won't bother me if i do or do not need them when that time comes, i'll still be happy.

oh yes, i can understand those types of feelings very well. thanks for sharing your story with us. the remarkable thing is that you have found someone who shares alot of your interests, entierly out of chance it would seem. you two have fun togeather and be carefull on the roads.

not sure exactly what you ment by that ^^

you are self concious about it, you believe it to be wrong and this is why you throw them out eventualy. i've seen that from multiple posters. but again, it is something you feel you need, possibly on a subconcious level. when you do not have them you are compulsivly driven to get them eventualy. it sounds like you are more than likely "One of us" truthfully, you're one of us for life more than likely. my recomendation is this, you are definetly going to keep wanting them. so get some. but for now by single bags, so that if feel ashamed of yourself and must purge you are doing it atleast cost effectivly. You need to come to terms with yourself, self acceptance is important no mater what the issue is. once you feel more comfortable with yourself and realise there is nothing wrong with this - and there isn't - you will have an easier time understanding why it's there in the first place. it sounds like you are in the perfect envoronment to explore this safely, but it is always a good idea to keep things hidden away neatly just incase you have friends over, the truth is they will not accept it as they do not understand it - and don't want to. (i say that as in a relationship there is hope as the other person may Want to understand it. and once they do, they may eventualy accept it about you themselves.) just try to figure out what it is about the diaper that you desire? the comfort? the feel? once again, there really is nothing wrong with it, look at these boards - you're not alone. we all have this interest, and we're not bad people or freaks or anything like that... we're normal, and so are you. i hope my words help you and comfort you, you're going through something that i went through as well and i know it can be very confusing... so again i remind you, you're not alone, and theres nothing wrong with it at all.

I was having thoughts, diaper thoughts, about the whats and whys and whatnot... they went something like this first off, Whats wrong with my fetish in the first place? why is it treated as more creepy/odd than the others? Well , i couldn't figure out the answer to that one, but it was an important question for me to form to move on to the other questions... in comparason to some of the Fetish'es i know about, diapers seem to be harmless to both the person using them and the people around them. it may be Odd, but is it really more Odd than say... openly admiting you have no self worth, and asking another person to treat you as garbage, flith, dirt... or, wanting another person to do bodily harm of some degree or another to you. Both of these examples seem to be more common and more accepted as apropriate behavior than the comon diaper fetish. if someone in your workplace finds out you're into BD/SM you're likely to get nothing more than a chuckle, a nudge with an elbow and a wink. and surely no end to the jokes, but they will still see you as a normal person. maybe it's the same with diapers, but my fear is that i would be ridiculed due to lack of understanding. possibly to the point of needing to resign. Now why is that? What is my fetish anyway? well for me it's based in a level of security, and as i was thinkin about that i came to a conclusion. without them out in the world i am more stressfull and nurvous... who else does this? who else has something they do to deal with nervousness, occupy the mind on some level to make life easier.... Smoking, gum chewing, that guy who clicks his pen constantly. or bounces his pencil-eraser off the table during board-meetings. drinking, social gossip, having to preen, and comb your hair constantly so it's always perfect... etc. all these things i see as being on a similar level of things people do to be more comfortable with their suroundings, with themselves. that is the true level of my fetish... now on my view of the sexual nature of a diaper fetish.. . first off, i'm not sexualy active and have no viable experiance in that area. i'm pretty sure i even qualify for the status of Virgin, so my views here are potentialy flawed. now first off, i probbably will endevor to involve the diaper in sexual play. why? becouse i have them avalable first of all, and secondly it seems like it has alot of potential and versitility in that area. common uses are for taking controll away from a partner in a BD/SM environment, or the humiliation factor but theres more. that and they're just darn Kinky. Diapers make any woman instantly cuter, but i believe that has more to do with the belief that when i see a diaper girl, i know she understands me, atleast alittle and that is the truely erotic part for me. personal turn-on, but i dream of a girl whom wants to get to know ME and accepts me for who i am... and the diaper, for now, is part of my inner self, and the inner self is the intimate part. so therefore when i see a girl in a diaper, she is sharing an internal intimate part of herself with me as well... kinky. but isn't that last part about the same idea as lingerie... so yes, i will probbably evolve a sexual fetish around diapers... but it's seperate from my every day usage... it may be true as well for some of our incontinant members. as i said when diapers are avalable they do seem to make a versitile and potentialy fun tool for the sexual scene... i would imagine that being openly accepted WITH your diaper by your partner (incontinant or not) would get your engine going, as it is something you may be incredibly self concious about. no one likes to hear, "i love you, but that part of you repulses me - lets pretend it doesn't exist" in my mind sexual intimacy needs to be on a level of total acceptance of ones self and ones partner, i can not see any other way for it to be. it is giving ones self fully to your partner. so i say diapers have a valid place in this area for this reason. i am speaking outside my realm of experiance and hope not to offend anyone... thank you for letting me share my thoughts. and to all the BD/SM'ers out there... just using it as an example, i was saying i believed it to be an activity for two likeminded adults to engage in - and that scociety seems to accept it as well. I was just asking why a diaper fetish should be any different.

he's probbably a student himself, i tutor other members in my classes all the time. however in my situation they are usualy alot older than I. from the look of it he's 19, so i don't know how fully statutory rape issues would come into play if at all... but i'm going to shut up now, as i really know nothing about the issue.

i play second life, but i am usualy just off in a corner somewhere building something to entertain myself for the moment... on ocassion you may find me in a diaper, but it's usualy something i only participate in around people i am comfortable with. if you're lookin for a good place to start you could try "Daddy Chris' AB Playground"... it's got 5 or 6 regulars and quite a few visitors through out the day. i haven't seriously looked for any other groups as they mostly tend to be sexualy focused and that isn't my interest.

when i was being potty trained, i didn't like to stand either... had the seat come crashing down on me too many times, and thats not very pleasant. ofcourse i didn't like to sit either, didn't have a training seat and my small bottom would fall in. so it made for a difficult time for my mother.

i'm not real qualified to deal with children as i've never had any of my own, i've just been around a few and this is what i would do if i were in the situation... i'd say just talk to her about it when the time comes. kids, even little ones, are very smart and are usualy not given enough credit... just tell her honestly that "Daddy wears diapers becouse he needs them." she'll ask "Why" and you get to say something like "daddy got hurt/sick along time ago" and she'll most likely then be concerned for daddys well being and want to know that everything is okay. assure her that daddy is fine, but he just needs diapers now, and proceed to poty train... the only real problem is she is little and you never know when "Daddy wears Diapers" will pop outta her mouth ^^ anyway, anyone who actualy has kids, feel free to override my comment.

I believe the real price increse is mainly for the price of Fuel for the trucks that haul them from factory to warehouse to store. everything in your market comes in a truck and is effected by the price of fuel...

how could anyone think diapers were being made primairly for sexual fetish use... seems like a bit of a niche market for a million/billion dollar industry... i guess all the adults with incontinance are extremly fortunate those "kinky perverts" go through enough diapers to support production and make diapers avaliable to the minority of people who actualy NEED them. - sory, i'm sleepy and my sarcasm may come off as rude, thats not intended and i hope seriously not to offend anyone who reads this later. smile, laugh, giggle if you're able... it's a joke after all

all i can say, for scenerio number 9 is Wow, you have got some persistant friends.

i had a dog jump into my lap while i was wearing a diaper last week, let me tell you it made one hell of a loud crinkle. fortunatly the only other person there knew my secret already, and didn't say anything. my guess is she didn't want to embaras me, but i could see on her face she knew. and i think the odds on someone hearing it are alittle better than one in a million. alot of it depends on the environment you are in at the time as well... if you're in a quiet park, the odds of someone just hearing it are pretty good. if you're walking down the street in New York, the odds decrease. but really, 1 in 1,000,000 just seems alittle unfounded. especialy for just hearring a sound. still, even if they do, most peoples brains will filter it out as white noise, as long as the sound does not persist for an extended period of time. people who have been around the sound may be more likely to pick up on it. i would throw mothers and children into this catagory, but they've been putting those cloth backings on diapers for a while now, and it may be an unknown sound to them as well. if all else fails, (and this is a joke) you could always carry around a plastic shopping bag in your pocket. if some one stops you on the streed and trys to pin you for wearing a diaper, pull out the bag and proceed to crinkle it, deny the diaper charges, and continue on your way.

i'm also fighting severe depression, my reasons for my depression may be different but i can certainly understaind the issue in general. and i really have to admit how much a loving person to talk to can help. I used to live with my brother, he would constantly tell me how useless he thought i was, a mooch, or worse... the coments just made my depression worse, and i became more and more "worthless" in his eyes as i couldn't get out of the house to get a job, or clean, or cook, or much of anything. i now live with my sister and her husband, she constantly compliments me, praises my attributes, and more or less inflates my ego... she may be over-doing it a bit honestly lol, but i've been doing alot better as far as my depression goes. we go on walks, and she gets me out of the house regularly. i don't think her husband understands my issues, but he is still quite kind to me. i hope to be able to hold a job, and atleast pay them rent untill i can support my self in some way. so i'm quite happy to hear you have a loving wife to support you with your needs, and good luck to you both

i'm going to agree here, i have no personal desire to become incontinant. anyway, *hugs for Jen, and the others*

not to break the topic here. but i didn't actualy notice you talking about the problem being related to sex and diapers, just seemed to be diapers in general. so i just thought i would ask if the problem was in an area other then in the bedroom. still, you could try something like wearing them under your clothing around the house (or out in the world if you're brave) while she is there. the idea here is that you will become comfortable with yourself in a diaper while she is around you. Hopefully the clothing would create a mental comfort-zone where you would have plausable deniability, still be able to tell yourself that she doesn't "know" you're wearing a diaper. it's the same idea the othet posters have been advising, i'm just saying it under a different scenario. If you want diapers to be part of your relationship, then you need to find a way to make yourself comfortable with them. She's not going to break up with you just becouse of diapers. she likes YOU, and thats just another part of you, a private part that you are willing to share with her... with how freely people give away sex these days, I could argue that it's a more intimate part of you - but that may just be my poetic side talking. anyway, you've already told her your secret... she's still there with you. and if you put yourself in a place where you feel you have to hide your desires, or give them up completly you'll most likely be very unhappy, and that could actualy eat away at yout relationship.

again thanks for the replies. just thought i would say that i know about physical activity helping with depression, only problem is i getting out the door to begin with. but i'm working on it, and it's getting better. i'm going to keep posting my updates here when i have them... it seems to help me confront the issue. I didn't sleep well last night, I kept having the sensation of spiders running up and down my arms and back every time i started to doze off, i don't like spiders. I remember my father locking me in the garden tool shed, and telling me something along the lines of "I had better be quiet or else the spiders would come eat me" i can't stand the feel of a spider web on my face, or spiders in general. diaper helped, but not compleetly. i was trying a pull-up type, and they just don't feel the same, may have had better results with a tape-on brief, if it happens again i'll have to remember to try. but the point is i was still actualy able to get to sleep, but not till around 5am.

heck, if you notice, then you notice... but there is a difference between noticing something, and activily investigating something. all i was saying is respect the woman, and her privacy. other then that, enjoy the class, i kinda miss school personaly

just sharing more of my story, it helps me to share. now when i normaly start to get depressed, the first thing that happens is i no longer want to leave my house. and as i progress deeper and deeper, i go from there, to not wanting to leave my room... and from there to not eatting, sleeping, leaving my room for any reason, and just laying on my bed almost without end. - this right here is the point where i used to break out my diapers. i came out of a horrable depression about a few months ago, and am now to one of the points where i can feel myself going back into another depression. now i may have mentioned, but i don't think so, that I hate medication and try to avoid it if i am able... and i'm broke, so i couldn't afford it anyway. anyway, recently i have made a sort of new rule. now insted of waiting for the pit of my depression, i recently started wearing them when ever i hit one of my walls. and by wall i mean an internal force that normaly prevents me from doing something, i.e. leaving the house, my room, eatting, so forth. and even tho i have only been running this experiment about a week i must say the results are pretty amazing for me. i get up to go out, get three feet from the door and i hit a wall, something inside me doesn't want to leave, almost an overwelming fear or anxieity, but most assuradly a very uncomfortable feeling when i aproach the door to leave, so i turn around as sit on the couch a few moments... then up on my feet, to my room and throw on a diaper. get dressed and head for the door again... all of a suden, poof, i'm outside... this is actualy a big thing for me... i'm not saying the uncomfortable anxieity is gone entierly, but i certainly don't notice it. it's not magic, no sir. i still need what you may call a safty person to get out the door, but i am able to leave under circumstances that i in the past was unable to overcome. now it's kinda funny that in a way you could say that i am wearing diapers for "Medical Reasons". i could probbably even keep a straight face as i said it. i have come to the conclusion of "why should i be ashamed of this if it helps me so much." not that i'm ever going to envolve others in it, just talking self acceptance here. anyway, i'm going to continue with my experiment through out my depression cycle, and try to take note of the changes i can see in my self. perhaps even talk about the issue with my shrink, but i don't want to make him uncomfortable... it's not really his field of psycology. untill then, i guess i will continue my quest for the perfect diaper i swear it's like the Holy Grail sometimes.

personaly, i would say weather she does or doesn't it's her own buisness and it's not an apropriate topic for discussion between a teacher and a student. so your only two options are sit there and wait for her pants to fall off revealing a diaper as the result of some freak wardrome malfunction. or the day she stands up and announces to the class that she wears diapers for some reason. both are tad bit unlikely.

once again, i really apriciate the feedback. and thanks for your tips. just a personal story update... i was having trouble getting out of the house today... every time i tried to go something would convince me i didn't really want to go anywhere. i couldn't even go into theback yard to do yardwork... so i threw a diaper on. it really was an instant result, i had no problem getting out to clean up the yard alittle. i told myself a few days ago that i would just diaper myself whenever i wanted more or less, so i've used atleast 1 every day insted of my older average of about 1 a week. i'm surpised with the results, and yes alittle bit embarased even still, i don't know if that part will ever go away. but the results of my little experiment have convinced me that I have nothing against my diapers atleast, I say that as i think i may have still had some personal guilt. i think i may ask my sister next time i get a chance if she would be willing to pick me up a bag of a different type of disposable, with a cloth backing so that i feel more comfortable with the "crinkle" noise that i remain self concious of, even tho i believe no one will notice it, or know what it truely is even if they do. on a related side note, i'm pretty sure my sister has noticed my crinkling, especialy when i get up or sit down... and i know she knows exactly what it is as i've told her my secret. i know she does nothing more than maybe an internal mental chuckle when she hears it, but it still makes me self concious. so my plan now is simply when i go out, to go out diapered... does seem alittle costly, but i guess it's cheaper then anti-depresants, and honestly the better choice of the two for me. and hey, no nasty side effects that i know of. my sister and I will be traveling crouss country, i believe we leave tomorow or the day after... i've already told her i would be bringing "personal supplies" and she just said that it was fine. we'll be on the road a week or so i guess. and again i'm reminded how lucky i am. oh, she's actualy offered to sew me some cloth diapers, she loves crafts... i just don't have it in me to tell her that the idea she shared with me wouldn't work, and why. and i also can't seem to express to her what i would want to make it meet my needs... i suppose i should get over that, maybe try to find a nice diaper patern to work from insted of the diaper shaped single layer of cloth she had in mind. i'm pretty creative, especialy when it comes to design. perhaps i'll draft up a pattern myself.

thank you both for your feedback. so those really are the only two options... cloth backed disposables, or cloth with plastic pants. guess i was hoping some one more experienced than I would reveal something else. oh well, guess i'll keep searching for whats right for me with trial and error.