I'm sure you all have been over this before and I'm sorry if I'm bothering you. I'm a guy and I've always found women to be beautiful and attractive and I've always wanted to be with them romantically but never sexually. However I've never found men attractive and have never wanted to be with them romantically but I fantasize about gay sex, specifically performing oral and receiving anal. I've also daydreamed a lot about wearing dresses. My diaper fetish gets me aroused on occasion but it never involves sex of any kind. I just like wearing them and sometimes fantasize about diaper punishment. The more babyish a diaper the better. Lastly I have this issue where I don't really want to have a penis. I identify as a man but I have no desire to use my penis at all, for penetration or for being touched or for oral or anything. In fact I get really annoyed when I have an erection. If I could magically turn it into a vagina I would. I ask all this because I'm worried if I don't figure myself out soon it will be too late. I've been trying to hype myself up to go on a gay date but I'm worried I just won't be able to get over the fact that I don't find men attractive romantically. Any thoughts or advice?