pterautodidactyl

just try not to worry so much! go do the things you normally do. nobody will know and you don't have to tell anyone. you avoid being a recluse by going out, diapered or not.

i'd suggest giving northshores a try. the northshore supremes are pretty thick and last a good while. they're basically my standard. i think they're maybe a little step above the m4s, but that assessment is just my opinion and isn't backed up by any hard data.

i keep most of my current stock (anywhere between a pack, and a couple cases, since i order in bulk to save money) in a few stacked file crates in my room. varieties that i don't have as many of, as well as my plastic pants, and booster pads, usually go in what used to be my underwear drawer, in my dresser in my closet. my cloth diapers tend to just sit in baskets like most of my other clean laundry. lol

i always enjoy the feeling of finally letting go and doing it, and i've even come to like being messy to a certain extant, but i dislike the cleanup enough that i only do it at home when i have easy access to a shower. i used to dislike the cleanup enough that i'd swear off messing for months at a time, but i've gotten less bothered by it i guess. being diapered full time, i have more opportunities to fall to the temptation, and sometimes i'll do it a few times a week, rather than go to a potty.

seconding cloth. the biggest downside of cloth is the work in cleaning them, and how very very bulky they can be. neither of which sound like issues to you. [emoji14] i've got a 60" square terry diaper, and it is so bulky, i can't walk normally (it's almost more of a waddle really) and there is basically nothing i own that i could wear to make it less than obvious.

maybe a week ago? i tend to do it fairly frequently, if i feel the need when at home, now that i wear 24/7. but i still use the potty a lot of the time too. i don't want to get too much into the habit, and risk accidents in public.

right now, i've got probably just shy of a case (of 60) left, plus most of a pack of those purple always pullups. i generally order two cases at a time, and then reorder when i am down to a little over a weeks supply left.

if i'm not going to work or anything in the morning, i'll usually not change until (or even after) i need to. but i'll always get changed before i go out. no need to risk leaking or anything at work. even then, that usually gets me like an hour after i wake up before changing time.

i'll admit, i tried this once or twice way back when. terrible idea. it was kind of a neat sensory experience, but once it breaks open it is just an awful mess. i am glad i lived in a campus apartment, and when the bath drain was clogged from it, they had someone fix it right quick. cloth ones though, i always do this. it's the easiest way to wash it out quickly, since i don't wear cloth often and i don't want it sitting around, waiting for laundry day, smelling like stale pee.

i'm a lesbian little girl. i definitely know a couple other abdl/little saphic girls too. we may not be ubiquitous but we're around (and thank goodness too, or the world would be i think a very much worsened place).

sex isn't important to me, even if it can be fun so that's an easy third place. i'd put partner first; if my girlfriend really objected to my diapers, i probably wouldn't be untraining. but given that i am becoming rather dependent on them, i'll be trying to only date women who are cool with it in the future, so i don't have to choose between love and security.

i usually change twice a day. i'll change once in the morning, before work, and once in the evening, a while after i get home.

given those options, i'd guess i'm about moderate now. i was probably minor last year. i didn't have, like, real flooding accidents or anything with any notable frequency, but i did have a tendency to leak or dribble after using the bathroom if i wasn't very careful, which could sometimes be a bother. this year though i started wearing diapers 24/7 and i've allowed/encouraged my control to get steadily worse.