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I think I'm starting to develop overactive bladder/urge incontinence from wearing nappies 24/7 through long binge cycles. My bladder is more sensitive and I feel the pressure/sensation to pee when my bladder is only half full. I'm using the toilet more and more. I'm getting bladder twinges and when it does twinge I have a strong urge to pee straight away. I can still hold until I make it to the toilet buts its uncomfortable. I find that if I don't use the toilet I have a constant urge to urinate.Yesterday I was coming in from the cold and as soon as I got into the hallway of my house which was warm I instantly needed to pee like right away! I managed to the doorway of to toilet and the last few steps I involuntarily peed a few drops in my pants which each step. I relived myself and it was less then half a bladder...When I feel a bladder twinge and I'm wearing a nappy I automatically release in my nappy and it feels a slightly more fast flow then usual, a little gush and I continue not to have th automatic clench reflex.. Which I think is muscle memory from training myself to remain open all the time. I am nappy trained.I have mixed feelings about incontinence. When I'm in a binge I want to be incontinent and I pretend to be incontinent by wetting at the slightest urge without clenching my sphincter, I'm very good at that.. I wear for 3/6 weeks at a time - 24/7 - I can wet in any position. In a purge I defiantly don't want to be incontinent. I have been binge/pruge wearing like this for 17 years.I don't know if to say screw it and continue to wear 24/7 and make it worse, the binge cycle makes me want to be incontinent but the purge wants be dry and continent. It really is a mental fight between IC and dryness!What would happen if I continue to wear 24/7 to me continence wise? What is the progression?What can I do to stop worsening symptoms but still have periods of incontinence play?

This is a very good question. I hope to answer it the best I can... I am a diaper lover, I have been since I was 5 years old, this must mean me being a diaper love is ingrained into my psyche, more so than a fetish. I wore incontinence nappies every night from age 11 to 17 because of attachment difficulties on advice from a child psychologist.. At 12 my foster mother said in a comment to discourage me from wearing nappies that if I continue wearing nappies I'll end up incontinent, ''do I want that''? I knew what incontinence meant a little and I definitely wanted to be incontinent. This made me more determined to wear nappies. I also wanted to be mentally disabled.. From age 9 until 11 I lived with another child my age with intellectual disabilities in a foster home... I was so envious with the care and attention he got from my foster parents. I felt so left out.. I have wanted to be mentally disabled since I was 9 years old.... I come from a birth mother who was physically and emotionally abusive towards me and she abandoned me at age 9.. That's why I developed a need top wear nappies from a young age, my psychologist told me that as my mother didn't give me consistent care/nurturing as a baby the only comfort I got was from my nappies, it is thought at nappies changes that's the only attention I got.. This has obviously had a profound effect on me as well as seeing another child with a disability get special attention when I was left out, my brain come to the conclusion to get care/specail attention you need to be disabled... Without going into too much detail (you can see from past posts) I now live my life as a disabled person.. I live in a group home (supported living)... I am classed as mentally disabled... I am very happy with it too. I am forced to take a antipsychotic injection every month... I am happy about that too.. Wearing 24/7 I have achieved... It isn't a problem for me wearing nappies.. My support staff know I suffer from incontinence problems. Since I've been deemed to lack capacity managing my finances and they are managed from social services department - they set up an auto order for incontinence products to be delivered to my house every two weeks. It isn't a problem for me to wet and mess around my housemates or support staff... I am respectful - I change straight away. I have lost some control over my badder and bowels from wearing 24/7... I do go through binge - purge cycles. I wear more often then not... My bowels have been affected the most.. This is from when I went through a long period of anal dilation by wearing larger and larger buttplugs... I did see results with bowel incontinence issues after wearing but my anal sphincters regained their tone... I find myself now that if I have lose stool and I'm walking I will have seepage with each step I take staining my pad/underepants, this is not a full bowel movement, somewhat my anal sphincter is weaker and doesn't seal probably anymore, but only when I have lose bowels... My bladder control is weaker too... When not wearing nappies I have to continuously go to the bathroom... I can't drink much alcohol as I have to use the bathroom all the time, this makes it difficult when visiting a pub with friends, only one pint and I need to use the toilet, my close friends now I have a weak bladder, I used wear a nappy when drinking.. I also have post micturition dribble...

I've never had sex, doesn't interest me... So I would totally have a night wearing nappies.

I'm from the U.K. and receive a support package. Although my support provider knows I wear incontinence nappies (They have been instrumental in bringing my pads and wipes to hospital when I have been involuntarily hospitalised and they have purchased me nappies when I have asked them too) I haven't brought up that I'm wearing nappies because I like too. That is my business. I think if they knew I chose to wear nappies the support management wouldn't care. That is my personal choose... I do think some of the front line support staff, if they knew they would gossip about me. The staff think I have incontinence issues and its not a problem.. I live in a shared house with other people with disabilities and ofter wear tight pyjamas with thick nappies, you can clearly see I'm wearing a nappy and nobody says anything about it, they are respectful. They bring my nappies packages in for me. I don't flaunt wearing just that I'm comfortable, I don't openly talk about it. I'm happy with my situation....

From around 12 my foster parents started buying me incontinence nappies from advice from the child psychologist. My bedtime was 9.30 and I used to put my nappy on about 8pm and sit with my foster parents in the living room... I remember I used to like exposing my nappy a little bit so they would see it. I'm not a exhibitionist today.... I don't know why I wanted them to see me in my nappies?

I would think they thick I wear because of choice. One minute and wearing then not wearing. Over time I think they picked up on it. They never say anything.

I live with 3 housemates. I have gone long periods wearing 24/7 and its very difficult hiding the fact your wearing nappies... I was having 3 big boxes of incontinence nappies delivered every month often all 3 boxes gaffer taped together. The box is hard to carry in the house as you probably aware nappy packages taped tougher are very heavy. When asked what's in the box at first I was making excuses saying things for my room. But I am getting boxes delivered every month. I then struggle to carry the huge box up the stairs to my bedroom. I then have trouble disposing off the boxes - the boxes have markings such as Molicare - the size marking and quantity in the box. Then the disposing of used nappies - 4/5 nappies used per day and having to carry a black binliner down every night, past the kitchen where housemates are often socialising. Always carrying a nappy bag with you... When changing it becomes pretty obvious you're changing your nappy - particularly when in public restrooms - I eat out a lot with housemates. But this is what got me found out - After I had a bath in the morning I temporally left a used incontinence nappy on the bathroom floor while I got my toothbrush out my bedroom and one of the housemates decided to use the bathroom at that exact minute. I heard the bathroom door shut. It turns out the other housemates knew I was wearing nappies for awhile - I asked the person who seen the nappy on the bathroom floor how - and it was the plastic crinkle of the nappies (Molicare) I thought they wasn't that loud. They had know for a while. They are very respectful.. Never heard any underhand comments about it... I openly wear nappies now - I never flaunt wearing them.

Would the procedure/surgery for Anal dilatation be easy to do... Stay if a person went to Turkey or Mexico and told a doctor you want the Anal dilatation surgery. You've suffered from severe haemorrhoids in the past and you don't want to go through the experiences again, you want the Lord's procedure and don't be afraid to tear the anal muscles. I don't mind if I end up bowel incontinent... Say I offer the doctor £12.000..... I would think that would be an easier surgery than being made Urinary incontinent? I would think having a Lords procedure would be very easy to do? I really like the thought of this... I like the thought of having passive bowel incontinence. I think if I have to wear nappies because I'm totally bowel incontinence that'll then force me to lose control of my bladder. Although I'm not going to purposely harm myself... I just like the idea.

I have always loved nappies, since my earliest memories. When I was 11 I started stealing incontinence nappies from special needs school, my foster Mum soon found the used pads under my bed. Soon after a visit to a child psychologist my foster parents started buying me incontinence nappies only to be worn at night with a good behaviour chart. I pretty much wore nappies every night from age 11 to 17.. Tena Slip Supers.... But I remember around age 12 my foster mother threatening me, she said ''If you continue wearing nappies you'll end up incontinent, do you want to end up incontinent?'' That was the time I first learned about incontinence and I knew straight away I wanted to be incontinent.. I hit puberty and my whole sexuality evolved around nappies and incontinence. I didn't find people attractive - still don't. I only loved the thought of being double incontinent, and permanently in nappies. Also I learned that I wanted to be disabled... I wanted to be cared for. I wanted to be seen as vulnerable.. I had a pretty bad abusive childhood. Because I went to a special needs school and had learning difficulties at the time but no official diagnosis - I wanted to explore this further and be diagnosed with a actual condition. I did develop psychosis when I was 22 and was involuntary admitted to hospital. Things have worked out very good for me since then. I'm now seen as disabled and I absolutely love it. I have always wanted to be mentally disabled since I was a small child. I actually feel whole as a person. I freely wear nappies all the time... My support staff encourage me to go see my GP and tell them about my incontinence - They don't force me... They know that the antipsychotic I'm on can cause incontinence... Even when I've been hospitalised through psychosis I take my incontinence nappies into hospital with me. And on occasion get my support staff to fetch them for me.. They have a clinical waste bin put in my room... I think what I've learned about wearing nappies 24/7 in care settings that actually being incontinent isn't a big deal to people... You'll be surprised how many people are incontinent in Intellectual disability hospitals and respite centres...

I could of written that. I feel exactly the same. I have a strong desire to be incontinent. My fetish resolves around the incontinence side and diaper dependence.

First time back in nappies were hard for me with wetting. You need to practice wetting while standing very still, its going to be hard, You'll automatically clench when you start wetting but keep doing it, wetting when you can. Your muscle memory in all the years you have been continent makes it hard to pee but after awhile it'll get easier. My muscle memory now I only have to look at a nappy and want to pee.

I have two Kylie sheets used in rotation. I move around lots at night so Kylie sheet gets ruffled up and somehow I become too hot.. I use Ironing bored ties and fasten both wings under my mattress and attach the ties, keeps Kylie sheep tight. I also have a cloth backed mattress protecter. I buy the 100 scented nappy bags for around £1.99. I always wrap put used incontinence pads in them, I then I have a regular kitchen bin with strong back line with ties. When I'm going 24/7 I always empty before I go to bed. I also love Drylife incontinence nappies. Although they are quite thick I do feel confident wearing these, I mean if doesn't feel like I have a nappy between my legs and I am confident they will absorb wetting fast. I love medical looking incontinence nappies.

I have been interested in incontinence desires in forever. I got my first internet connection in 2003. Even then their was lots of discussions on how to achieve incontinence, especially on Wet Set message boards.

I'm waiting for another case of Attends Regular plus 10. They are really good nappies. They are very absorbent and they wick good. They are comfortable to wear. Also they are very crinkly.

I have found that not only do I dribble smallish amounts, I also feel like I’m weeping urine in very small amounts, I can feel the trickle at the end of my penis. I still have control but am very practiced keeping my sphincter completely relaxed.

The last time I wore 24/7 I wore for about 13 weeks solid. I have been 24/7 many times before but this particular time I practiced keeping my sphincter completely relaxed and I would pee at the slightest urge.. At first after peeing my sphincter would instinctively clench shut, then open, have a little dribble, clench shut, then open , have a little dribble.. I soon leaned not to instinctively clench. Only when I remained still I could easily relax my sphincter and keep it open and wet in drips/dribbles/gushes. As soon as I moved my sphincter would clench shut. I started to drink a lot of water and as my bladder filled I would wet, I would then walk slowly around the kitchen table. Same thing would happen, clench shut, then open, very little dribble and clench shut again. It took much practice too wet while walking without clenching. I practiced the remaining open when sitting down and getting up. I was already very good at wetting sitting down from wearing nappies many time before. I continued this for a few weeks and learned to wet in all positions. It took practice too wet while lying on my side. That was the hardest. I can now wet in in drips and dribbles on my side without clenching my sphincter. I kept my sphincter open all the time, it would only clench shut when I sneezed. I started to noticed the sensation of needing to pee all the time. A dull feeling in my bladder, only relived when I peed and it would be a tiny amount. The sensation would go away then return minutes later. I have had bladder spasms and they are very different to the sensation of needing to pee all the time. With the spasms it's like a moderately painful twinge in my bladder that comes out of nowhere, it only lasts momentarily. With the constant needing to pee sensation its like a dull ache in my bladder all the time. The last time I went 24/7 and practiced to keep my sphincter open I stopped wearing around March last year.. I have continued having little binges lasting for a few weeks..At all times wearing I would practice keeping my sphincter relaxed and this was very very easy to do... I reverted backed to wetting automatically without clenching my sphincter, this sometimes after not wearing nappies for weeks.. I also can still wet in all positions. I think my pelvic floor muscles have learned muscle memory. As little as a few days doing this I have the constant urge to pee all the time.. Its differently coming on more quickly each time I've had a binge. I am wetting in smaller amounts, I can feel its a weak stream and after I think I have stopped wetting I can feel a little trickle of pee.. I would like to hear more of you experiences oznl... How did you get to the stage you are at?

I think I made myself urge incontinent from wearing nappies 24/7. I have stopped and started my incontinence journey many times over the years. The last time I stopped I got to the point I where I had developed post micturition dribble, this was more noticeable when I was having a bowel movement, I would involuntary dribble on the floor when pooping even without straining. I was peeing at the slightest urge without clenching my sphincter muscle, this become automatic and the reflex to clamp was gone. I would have to psychically clamp to stop the flow. As soon as my bladder filled a little bit I felt a strong urge to pee and I would drip/dribble/gush depending on how much I drank. I could do this walking/sitting down/lying down. I got to the point I had the feeling of needing to pee all the time more so when my bladder filled a little bit, it became very uncomfortable and I would pee leading to a little gush in my nappy which was disproportionate to the amount my bladder was telling me I had too pee. I stopped wearing at this point.. It took some time for me to not feel the urge to pee all the time, I was going to the toilet every 30 minutes to get rid of the constant uncomfortable feeling of needing to pee. My urine stream was weak - I found it very easy to pee, it would come out in a weak uneven dribble/splatter, my bladder would empty fully and I would have to psychically clamp it to shut. When I finished peeing and pulled up my underwear I found I would have involuntary drips soon afterwards which resulted in my underwear feeing damp. This cleared up after some weeks. I found that when I was bursting for the toilet and trying to keep my sphincter clamped it would involuntary open and leak a drip or tow before it would clamp shut again. 5 months after my last incontinence attempt I'm wearing 24/7 again. I started where I left off. I can automatically wet without clenching, in little drips and dribbles...I have started feeling a constant need to pee again, way sooner than I did last time. I think me starting and starting my incontinence journey has differently had an effect on my continence.

I will just continue using iCloud and let them remain in the hidden setting. Plus have it backed up on a memory card plus CD's. If by the remote chance people see them I could just continue saying I'm incontinent and took the photos to see if my bum look big in incontinence pads as at the time I was self conscious about wearing them.

I would say I'm quite experienced going 24/7. I like to simulate incontinence and I have trained my sphincter muscle to pee at the slightest urge. This has the added benefit as the little drips and dribbles are better absurbed in the nappy so I only need to change every 4/5 hours. I wear Molicare Slip Maxis and find that when I've drank normal amounts of fluid one Molicare nappy can easily last me 4/5 hours and more. I like to change regularly to keep smells down. I choose Molicare nappies as I find them very comfortable, they have a soft back sheet and soft pulp so they don't feel bulky between my legs, I like this as this gives me more confidence as they feel discrete. I don't feel like I've got a nappy between my legs anymore I'm that used to wearing. I have 100% confidence in Molicare nappies. Going back to keeping my sphincter muscle unclenched and dripping/dribbling urine all the time. I wouldn't recommend you doing this if you want to keep your continence, it will slowly slip away if you don't regularly exercise your sphincter muscles. When you've practiced enough times and learned to keep your sphincter relaxed and opened it stays that way with muscle memory. You soon have to purposely clench to stop the peeing. I noticed with my 24/7 wearing and urinating at the slightest urge my bladder become super sensitive and as soon as my bladder fills a little I would feel a urge to pee, this almost becomes a constant urge only getting relief for 5 minutes after peeing, then the urge to urinate comes back. It become very easy too wet in any position. I noticed that I have most post micturition dribble, this is most noticeable I'm using the toilet for a number two as I'll drip and dribble uncontrollable on the floor and this is without straining to poo. I then noticed that after wetting (I only wet in little drips/dribbles/gushes) I would I have after-dribble in my nappy which feels like a post micturition dribble like a gush when I think I've stopped peeing. It is this point it feels alien to clench so you just let it happen. This is the point I stopped wearing 24/7 as I got scared. Transitioning back to underwear was hard. Although I was continent I still had a constant urge to urinate, I was going to the toilet every 30 minutes just to release maybe less then a cup of urine and the stream was very weak, I had to push to make it faster, the flow was uneven and more like a gush which splatted all over the place. After peeing I had to psychically clench my sphincter shut. When I didn't have easy access to a toilet I would soon be bursting to pee and this is when my sphincter would involuntary spasm and realise a drop of urine then clench again. I also always felt like I had damp pants after using the toilet. The constant urge to pee stopped after a few weeks but my bladder capacity has diminished. I've hit a binge phase and am wearing 24/7 again. This is after about 11 weeks of hardly wearing and my wetting abilities have started off the same as I left them. With muscle memory I can still wet at the slightest urge without clenching. Have a constant urge to pee all the time. I don't know how long before my continence does give in after yow-rowing between constantly remaining relaxed and then bladder training again. I have differently noticed a progression in lesser control over my bladder. I'm going to try and keep at the 24/7 nappy wearing. I like the thought of being incontinent. My lifestyle fits well into living an incontinent lifestyle. My housemates think I'm incontinent. But in a purge I get a strong dislike too incontinence. I think if I can manage to get through the purge cycle and not stop wearing I'll be in a better position with trying to become incontinent. What I have learned is not to have any visual reminders with incontinence paraphernalia such as packet of nappies laying around. I would keep everything out of sight. I would wear cloth backed nappies to bed like Abena premium nappies as these feel like normal underwear to me now. I think having visual remembers makes me more horny and I'm more inclined to masturbate which makes me lose interest in wearing. I think if I just get out a nappy when needed it'll become routine when changing and I'll get a less sexual stimulation and hopeful nappies will not make me horny all the time.

I have hundreds of incontinence nappy pictures of myself. I had them on CD and hadn't looked at them for some years as iMacs don't have CD drives anymore. Recently purchased a CD drive and currently have all my nappy pics stored in Photo in the hidden settings which isn't ideal. Which is the best platform to store them which is easy to access and look at them when needed but is more discreet?

Anal dilatation was the primary treatment for haemorrhoids after the introduction of the now-infamous Lord's procedure, the concept was the forceful dilation would loosen the sphincter muscle and increase blood flow to the anoderm. It is now well documented that this procedure is frequently associated with compromised continence. There is lots of information on google books that habitually stretching your rectal muscle with dilators the tone of the anal and rectal muscles and other tissues are destroyed and these become permanently stretched. Starting with a small dilator and gradually using larger and larger ones a time comes when an ordinary drinking glass may be inserted into the rectum. The anal sphincter is no longer able to close the rectum and all voluntary control of bowel action is lost and the victim of the cure is forced to wear a diaper. This results in damage to both the internal and external sphincter resulting in passive incontinence where the person in unaware of soiling. I think this is proof that wearing the Meo 24/7 buttplug and increasing the size from extra small to the extra large and wearing constantly for some months with compromise sphincter competence resulting in anal sphincter unable to close and severe fecal incontinence. I think is this interesting. What are your thoughts on anal stretching using increasing sizes of buttplugs. Can they cause incontinence?

I like FetLife. The message boards aren't as busy as here but the content is good. I have met many people with the same disability fetish as me. Its a good community.

I love reading about nappy finds. Never find anything here in England.

I had been wearing adult nappies from 11 years old (1997) not because of incontinence but because a child psychologist suggested to my foster parents that they purchase them for me to stop me stealing them from school. My foster parents let me wear them every night after that. my foster mother always used to tell him if I continue wearing nappies I'll end up incontinent. God I used to want to be incontinent so bad at 12 years old! lol. Anyway the first time I was exposed to people liking nappies (like me) was when I was around 13 in 1999, my foster father was watching something on channel 5 (If you know U.K. TV that channel showed raunchy shows especially after 9pm. I remember thinking ''WOW I'm not alone''.... I remember standing at the living room door trying to act disinterested but being totally consumed by that show. I think it was obvious that I very interested. I certainly think my foster father clicked why I liked wearing nappies. The first time I googled adult nappies was when I was 17 (around 2002ish) on the computers at my sister university campus, she left me alone in the computer room and back them I assume they didn't have blocks on websites. I was blown away. In 2003 I moved out my foster parents house into my own flat and the first thing I did was get a internet connection. Never looked back.