I am pretty sure I suffer from BIID, when I wear and use diapers I like to feel like I am disabled, that to me is more natural than pretending to be a baby which does nothing for me at all..I am pretty much obsessed with wheelchairs and diapers. To me it feels like how I want to live my life. I suppose it boils down to the same thing, being cared for and looked after.
A couple of years ago I had GBS which left me paralysed from the chest down and incontinent. I had to use a wheelchair and diapers then and it was brilliant. However my boyfriend isn't really the caring type and basically made me feel unloved and a burden to him. I felt so confused, happy in one respect but completely let down at the same time. In time I recovered but it's been very difficult to leave that part of me behind, as in some ways I crave to be in a wheelchair again but I know it's not normal to feel like that so I strive to have a normal life and just keep that part of me secret.
Only 1 person knows how I feel and he totally understands, and he has feelings like that too. Such a shame he is gay!