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As i hit puberty it did indeed become sexual, probably 50%, and remained 50% comfort, mentally connected to safe etc. Thinking about it now, the ratio is still the same. I guess its different for all of us and our cirumstances and body can change over time. I dont have the intensity i experienced when i was a teen or twenties, but it is still there.

Being sexually assaulted in my bed room when i was nine. Before that event everything is blank

Get ya laughing chops around this. As a brit and a veteran of uk armed forces, i had a gun, when i demobbed i ceased to have a gun. I am happy myself and all the other people in the uk dont have guns. Its a complicated situation in the usa, we all know it, you lot knock yourself out, have as many guns as you want, so long as you stay over there. by the way the right to bear arms...is an amendment, that means you changed the constitution to add it...

I have no memories of anything before nine years old

Nice to see some more Elfy, truely a facinating story xx

I have been furloughed since 1st april, but not much alone time, so not much time to post. Spend a lot of time reading the stories sections. Definately not a lot of lil time I to play wow. Most of my characters are horde, but i have recently been working on my ally pally who is now 120

Been isolated for two weeks. In one of the high risk groups. I am home alone as my lass has been with her parents since June as her mum was diagnosed with leukaemia and she left the hospital two weeks ago after stem cell treatment. I havent seen a soul for two weeks so i am hoping to join them on wed to ride this out with company as my mental health is suffering being alone. We got sent home to work two weeks ago and got furloughed on the 1st.

Just a nappy or undies... even in the dead of winter. I get too hot. I wish i could wear a sleeper or onsie... i am like a furnace

Hi, nice to see another couple of vets waddle in.

Wow, that truely sucks, especially the shore posting. I had my fair share of dickheads in the RAF, its almost like you only get promoted if your an arsehole. I had a shit posting at first, so to get out of there i volunteered for mountain rescue duties.

Really interesting update. Well worth the wait

Wow that must have been tough. Did you know you were an abdl at that point?

Wow, so was some of that embarked on a flattop?

I hear ya... i felt paranoid enough when i was in a single man lockable room... let alone on duty

Hi guys, update. MIL has been in hospital for three weeks now, had one session of chemo, she is loosing her hair, and has had a few blips... but generally is coping ok My wife has been with her dad the whole time. Which has left me alone in our house (very important she supports her mum and dad, and i expected it) left me alone with my thoughts a lot, other than work i am not going anywhere to reduce the chance of picking something up.

Nice chapter. Loved it. This could go one of many ways

Exactly what it says on the tin... which branch of the military did you join? Doesnt have to be any more that... army... navy I joined the royal air force, at the tender age of 18. Did 13 yrs, started with gulf and ended with gulf 2. I was airframe tech... take away engines, wiring and bombs... the rest was mine.

Hi folks, thanks for the input. I think we have just scratched the surface of military abdl stories. Thanks for sharing. My hope is us military types open up a bit in here and can share without judgement

Hi everyone, thanks for your kind words. I am pulling out all of my tools to maintain my mental health. Thanks elfy, its lovely to hear from you. I hope you are both well. Xx

Hi Sorry to be posting this here. So far this year things have been pilling on bit by bit, but i feel like i am reaching breaking point. 1. Car troubles 2. Problems with my boss at work 3. Work has gone through three sets of redundancy in the last two months and it has been said another 100 have to go. 4. My fathers illness is getting worse 5. My wife's mother rang today to say she has acute leukeamia... to say my wife is upset is an understatement. I just want to crawl into the little in me and never come out.

Hi to all our new guys I hope you can use this place to connect to other service people

Did or has anyone been brave enough to wear/ use during the day while serving? Under your uniform?

I found it very difficult to come to terms with my feelings when i was in. Partly as there was no internet, i had no idea that i was not alone and that these desires were ok. I was terribly fearful someone in the forces would find out. Although i didnt have any 'baby' items... room inspections and frequent visits from others. I had a large white bath towel, and with a locked singleman room i could guiltily try to satisfy myself while constantly beating myself up over it all. I couldnt even begin to try anything when i was in a 4 man or 16 man room... no privacy at all

1. Be respectful to other people's views always 2. Try and avoid inflamitory comments 3. Don't disclose sensitive information... you all signed the disclosure 4. If someone asks a question about something, please be respectful when answering, don't insult someone for not knowing something as well as you 5. Have fun, this is the most important part of this group 6. Inter services banter is expected and encouraged... just no harsh language man.

For me its a week in snowdonia or the lakes.. fresh air... amazing views and memories