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I anm diagnosed as Schizoaffective, which is basically Bipolar and schizophrenic together. I have always had a problem, from day one of wearing a diaper for incontinence due to sacral root injury, with exhibitionism of my diaper. My psychiatrist says that it is because my normal inhibitions are repressed and that I do it to calm myself as well. My current medications are working well to help me combat this and the other nastier symptoms, but I still feel the urge to expose my diaper infrequently, I just don't act on it. (at least not every time) It has been a long time since I have subjected some poor person to that visual, and I do not condone it. If you get these urges whatever the reason, get help. Some of the meds I hate of course, but I also never want to go to jail in a diaper, lol.

sometimes you can just smell a horrendously shitty day in the making.

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And my Psychiatrist wonders why I hate People...

I Love the Inflate-a-minion! that's great.

Me and a friend were at the Ohio BMV some years ago when, during the inevitable really long wait, I leaned over to him and asked if he knew where the restroom was, he replied that they didn't have one and said, "you are gonna have to use your backup". This was the same friend, who when originally told about my incontinence simply replied "what a pisser." Funny dude.

“I’m not one to make waves, but dadgummit, this is wrong. People need to know. Next time it could be you.

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Must have been Rummspringa.

You kind of 'Waddle' when you use the clutch...

actually Mythbusters tried that and found that lighters are suprisingly resiliant. they even used heaters outside the car and raised the temp till they got a cook-off.

Probably all sweetened with high fructose corn syrup and not sugar too.

My roommate is a sixty year old amputee who is usually in a wheelchair. she is kind of crazy too, in more or less a depressed-paranoid way. This is perfect because I am Schizoaffective and physically disabled due to a sacral root nerve injury. I have been in diapers since 1996 and she is a family friend who has been aware of this the whole time, and sometimes wears diapers herself due to her limited mobility. we live in Venice, Florida and It does get hot here most of the year. This past week it has been consistantly above 90F most of the time we keep the airconditioning on but sometimes we just open all of the windows and turn on some fans. We were talking about the heat last week and I kindof mentioned that when I lived at my last place I would wear just a diaper around the house. She said to go for it, that I should be comfortable in my own home. I have been in just a diaper for about half the time since that conversation, and I am loving it. Yay! for cool roommates.

what? nobody else watches this show?

On tonights four hour episode of Destination Truth St paddy's Day special on SciFi channel the hosts of the show were startled while looking for the Banshee and Barry, the guest host from the Ghost hunters crew, said that he had to call out for a new diaper. please corrections and updates welcome!

I have to say that when I was in the Army in 1993 If you were caught bedwetting you would have had to have a complete medical exam to determine the cause. If you were found out to have lied on your entrance exam. the least that would happen is an immediate medical discharge or general or dishonorable discharge. possibly federal prison at Leavenworth. Yes, the military is THAT strict. real life here, there is no reset button in real life! if still in basic they might also be able to just have your contract annulled. The U.S. military does not accept recruits who are bedwetters, even if it is as stressful as it used to be when I was in, the whole point of basic is to teach you and to filter out the ones that can't handle it. the military may be desperate for new recruits to send to the wars in Iraq or Afghanistan but even they have to draw the line. After you finish your Basic Training and Advanced Training and move on to your Duty Station then you could possibly get away with bedwetting and they would possibly let you stay in but they would monitor your progress, or lack and decide if you can stay in. you would most likely once again get a medical discharge,they would assume you were injured in service after you took your entrance physical which they would use as a comparison, because you did not have any problem when you signed up it would be considered a service connected disability by the Veterans Administration, rated at 60% by the VA at $976 per month, tax free, plus free medical for life. now, just in case you are wondering how I know, I can tell you that this did actually happen to me, sort of. I fell off the back gate of a 5 ton truck and landed on my sacrum on cement, after surgery I had problems with wetting day and night and did actually wear pads then diapers, while still in service. I was lucky that the powers that be decided that I should stay in the Army until my End of Term of Service date only five and a half months later, in fact I took terminal leave and left for home four weeks early. I have had three total surgeries by now and have to tell you that I am always going to be dependant on diapers and will be in pain until the day I die. so while sometimes I love diapers, I have been wearing every minute since then which really sucks most of the time. by the way if you try to fake being a wetter and get caught faking in the military you can also go to jail for a really long time. Look up the word Malingering. the uniform code of military justice is very strict. Don't F with it.

between you and Jon Stewart, I don't have to watch the actual news anymore!

Nice presentation! what was the wine?

Is there a nice way to ruin your Xmas? I am already in a new house with a new roommate, bills and mail transferred and furniture moved, including ten cases of Kendall wings choice plus size extra large. Please stop sending them VA! I never thought I would ever have too many diapers. last time I telephoned them i got two cases of size XXXlarge Bariatric size. Okay I get the hint already, I'm overweight, I'm working on it.

Well, i'm back online now. On December 5th at 6am My house caught fire. I woke up to see a lot of dark smoke and seconds later the smoke detector sounded it's alarm. I did all the proper things like staying low, and checking the door for heat then got out of the house and called 911. the firestation is just down the road a mile so they arrived within minutes. They rescued my cat, then they took chainsaws to the siding on the house and sprayed hoses into the walls. then they vented the smoke with some large fans. The damage was extensive, the wall was gone and the fire had spread through the raised flooring. the fire started in the furnace with a faulty heating element. but the important thing is that I and my cat are ok.

I will look up that and go over the options with my doctor. I will also look into seeing a chiropractor haven't been to one in years. cannot do regular mri as my weight is over the limit for the table, the limit for mri is usually 300lbs I am at 330 now (was at 375, woohoo!) I might be able to get in on a table with larger capacity but it will take some arranging as I will have to use the VA system or pay for it myself. Thanks for the suggestions.

I have been wearing for almost 14 years, I have only come close to being asked once, most of the time people cannot tell. the one time was a friend of my brother's who, when he heard the telltale rustling sound of plastic, assumed I had a baggie of marijuana in my pocket and asked if I was holding. the rest of the time nobody has noticed or at least nobody has said anything if they did notice. and it's not like I have really gone out of my way to hide it either.

I just have to comment again. When I was in the Psych facilities they did know about my Diaper fetish, They have it listed in my medical records actually, as paraphilia NOS,(not otherwise specified) also exhibitionism. they could not take away the diapers though as I am truly incontinent, however they were very strict as to any and all exposing or being obvious about the diapers. As I said before I did actually get in trouble for changing my diaper in the shower room, I could be naked in there but not in a diaper. I did refuse medications at one point that I remember and I was forced to take them by injection in most cases at least at first. during the time when I was labeled as decompensating schizophrenic I did get into a fight with another patient and ended up in physical restraints, Not Fun! very scary actually, and yes later followed the chemical restraints, I woke up in my own assigned room. You are going to follow all the rules in a place like this whether you want to or not, go ahead and try to play games with them they have seen it all and don't play around. Not trying to be argumentative, but stick to the fantasy play and don't try to have 'fun' with the system, you will be disappointed. just because you read it in some AB/DL stories or saw it on a movie doesn't make it real or possible.

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Okay that helped. Sometimes I love a good rant.

Actually I did get two people into wearing diapers... sort of. I was with my sister's boyfriend while on a boat in the local waters I did not bring a bathing suit with me so he suggested that I strip to my underwear, this was just after I got out of the Army and only a couple of years after the injury that put me in diapers, which he knew about. He saw that I was pretty embarrassed at the notion of just sunning on the boat in my diaper and to try to make it less embarrassing he asked for a diaper and put one on, I even have pics of him and me boating in diapers. The second person I sort of got into diapers was years later and also my sister's boyfriend. He liked to drink (alot) and would pass out and wet often enough that my sister grabbed some of my diapers and while he was out cold she put one on him. apparently they did this enough times that she asked for more diapers from me. I don't know if the second one still uses them, I think he saw the error of his ways after getting into drinking related trouble found Jesus and moved away to start anew. the first one died of heart failure at the ripe old age of 34. (I know! f-ing 34!)