Nangza

I have also thought about telling my mom, if nothing else to see if she might know why. But what if she doesnt know, not that she wouldnt understand, but I just dont have a good reason to tell her. What, would I hope she'd diaper me again? Maybe thats the motive, even if thats the case Id never own up to that, not even to myself. If you ask me, Id rethink it. Find yourself a really good friend, a reeeeaaaly good friend, and tell them and see what they think. Having told a good friend myself, its not all that liberating, because others, though accepting, arent interested so you cant really discuss with them the next coolest diaper you just discovered, ya know? thats what I say

tell her to piss off. I would, Id tell my mom Id go camp indefinately at the local campsite before I go trying to tell a bunch of churchies how I feel. If she cant understand that its hard enough just to tell her, that its not a real problem, let alone her problem, then as far as Im concerned she can get lost. Thats what I would do, but then, I never told my parents

First, Ive been drinking so bear with me. We all, as diaper loving individuals want to be diapered and have someone love us as a baby and us to be able to treat them, In my case, as a daddy. Face this, we are all, weird. We are all freaks according to the public eye and even to our own. Women are like cats, they dont like people they dont know, and are afraid, espceially with propaganda the way it is, of anything that moves. Guys have so many of their avenues of approach cut off by this recent fear from women that the chances of someone like me (us) are cut short immediately. My advice is to not sight a person for bad manners right away but to realise how you feel, and what you want, and realise that the person, however strange sounding, will do the same thing for you. We are all freaks, face it. Its not going to change. We all think the other is a freak, that can change. As soon as we realise that we are exactly the same, that we are all adult babies, not diaper lovers (diaper lovers being those who want to seem tough), we will realise that who wants to talk to us is not a psyco, but a normal, socially functioning individual just like the rest of us in need of another person. Realise that the person you meet on this website and what you see in their profile is nothing even scratching the surface of the real person. Everyone here is the person you want, if nothing else, just go from looks and go from there. Stop being so philosofical and picky and just try something, talk only moves air, action moves matter. Sighned Collin

Well, I thought I was smooth enough never to be caught but I guess not. I had ordered a case of attends to my PO box but the company used UPS. Ive gone through this before and didnt realize while I was placing the order, but they dont deliver to PO boxes so I thought the order was just going to get returned. NOPE. Instead, it goes to what the post office thinks is your physical adress, which isnt mine anymore but is my best friends. He calls me and tells me I have a package there and asks if he can open it. I didnt think anything of it because I thought it was still going to the post office despite my prior asumptions. He opened them up and startledly asked me "what the..." and it was then I said, Ill tell you later, and hung up on him. I called him back and told him to just listen and I told him the deal and that I didnt want to talk about it and I didnt want anyone else to know, and he said "thats all you need to say, you can stop right there". Thankfully, he was cool with it, not at all what I feared was going to happen, but I think its gonna take a few days for the embarrasment to wear off.

I agree with Dalydi, I think that if you told her you really did wear, but just didnt feel right about seeming, "broken", she might be ok with it. But as far as wetting at night, youd probably have to wet when you got up, because, at least for me, its extremely hard to wet while Im laying down.

Maybe, instead of responses going to your actual e-mail adress if they could go to your personal message box here on the site. That, and if the adds only had a specific time they could run unless you logged into your account to check on them, say like two weeks. That way it would eliminate all the excess adds (especially in the male section)

Ive had too many dreams to count lately, and past. Sometimes its me making out with a girl and us both in diapers. Other times, its just me and a girl hanging out in diapers. Other times it me by myself in them. They are enjoyable, seeing as I dont always have opportunes to wear because of money or roomate situations, but for me, they are quite commonplace but didnt become so until I started wearing again at age 20. Thats my contribution.

I told my best friend, Misha, about it, I guess more hoping she was into it, but also because I needed someone to be able to talk about it with. She was very understanding, and even interested in some instances. But thats all, I dont think others should know, just dont have a reason to tell them you know.

My earliest is when I was being potty trained (dont remember which age) but I was wearing a pullup and I genuinly questioned my grandma, "Poopoo in my diaper?" and she replied "no, in the toilet." That was the first but luckily, I wet the bed until I was seven and my mom diapered me every night until then and I can still remember to this day how good it felt to have her diaper me. And even outwardly expressing how much I liked it. Funny though, I didnt like it when my dad diapered me, felt like I had to be tough you know.

I usually set my camera on auto picture take, or whatever its called, and set it on top of something aiming toward where I am. They come out decent I think. Also, I dont do the myspace thing. It just seems way to cultish hehe

This publicity is kind of like a forest fire; the begginings are ugly and destructive, but the results are beautiful and I say this to mean that maybe it can gain us some sort of acceptance. Because, as you know, the more people are exposed to something, the more desensitized they become to it.

I would have to say in my honest oppinion that the reasons for this kind of behavior are not based in childhood. I say this because it seems that the reasons for this behavior are just too varied. I think you pick up the desire because of what is happening in your life at any particular time. Of course it could be because of what diapers mean to us all as a universal dream symbol, but who's to say except the individual him/herself? Thanks for your time everyone Collin

21 male 1= 1 2= 5 3= 9 4= 1 5= 9 6= mom=love happiness contentment Dad= tension 7=yes yes Moms 8= 7 11 9=5 yes 10=after work, at night, when alone 11=restlessness 12=grandma

Youll need a peice of paper for an answer sheet:) Welcome to the Nangza Shaddur ecclectic (coming from many different sources)fetish test. This is to determine if the catalyst for our behavior is common throughout, if it is predetermined by age, if it is predertimed by sex etc. Enjoy... How old an what sex are you? Minimum use 1 medium use 5 and for a whole bunch use 9. 1)Did your mom pay a lot of attention to you? _ 2)Did your dad pay a lot of attention to you? _ 3)How often were you babysat by someone other than your parents? _ 4)Did you wet/mess your pants past the age of 4/5? _ 5)Did you wet/mess the bed past the age of 5/6? _ new section, just breifly answer the questions 6)What was the main emotion you remember from your parents diapering you; Mom? / Dad? State as many as apply to either. 7)Were your parents divorced? If yes, do you recall wetting / messing more at one house than another and which one? 8)At what age, after you stopped wearing diapers, did you want to wear them and when did you try them again? 9)Are you depressed? (use the 1/5/9 scale to rate this) If 5 or higher, do diapers take this away? 10)At what point in the day do you find yourself wearing diapers? 11)Is there an emotional state that brings on the urge to wear diapers or is it always there? 12)Who potty trained you for the most part? Thats all I got for now, my next post will be concerning my own observations based on mine any your responses, and they we can discuss them I figure.

the best and thickest Ive found on hand in a drug store are depends, they arent the greatest Ive used, but for whats readily available, they are the best you'll find. You might try asking if they attends or abena abri form x there, cuz those are really good too, but they are usually only special order. Attends are the best anyone makes though far as Im concerned, but others like abena because they are about 3/4" thick, or at least they feel like it.

I suggest you really be ready to completely lose control forever. Think about how you'll get through a work day for one thing. If anyone will let you swim in their pool if they know you cant hold it. How hard it would be to get a girlfriend, any of that. And if you have it all worked out, there are places from which you can buy a hypnosis CD that trains you to be urinary incontinant. I believe you can get it on E-Bay. Good luck

Originally I got mine from playing an online game (Star Wars Galaxies) where I was Nangza Shaddur. The name has no real meaning, but Ive come to give it one, after all, why cant I make up words too? God gets to do it So Nangza means Prince and Shaddur means Angel in Elvish, cuz ive been told I look like an elf So there you have it. Collin

I think other people who have a quote unquote "unacceptable" sexual fetish or desire are more understanding to other people whose interests follow the same principal. I did read somewhere that one group of BSDM people believe AB/DL and themselves to be closely linked, so you might look there. There are also AB/DL camping trips as well, I believe they're in Canada but I dont know when. Collin

I would like to tell you that you could just get rid of the way you feel. Lord knows I wanted to. But its a part of who you are and the best you can do is forget about it, that will be the best way to avoid this lifestyle. But as soon as you decide to wear you will be hooked for good. So, two things, either make the best of it, and it can be quite good or be sad its a part of you. Either way you look at it, its a part of you and you need to include it in your life some way thats beneficial to you. Im still trying to find it myself, but thats the best I got.

What diaper is that girl in the first picture in this weeks gallery wearing? They looked really thick and I might wanna try those

I like the idea that was given to us in 2002. I think something that was already argued over in this same fashion should be kept around. As far as discression, we could just agree on some alternate meaning to tell people what it comes from and who. Besides, the symbol is already in use, so why try to educate on a totally new one. No one really needs to wear it as a pin, it could be a patch, a bumper sticker, a necklace, etc... My point is, this one is already working, lets help it work. Nangza

It was ok, they knocked it using a few of their chars but with whats his name, the older guy, they showed a bit of sympathy. As to the reasons for this, they didnt go very in depth, but the point of the show is to entertain, not to educate. So keeping that in mind, I found it factual for the most part. All in all, not too bad, course that store was bs, I called that out right away. Talk to you later, Collin

just following suit, and I must say, if not for this site I would always wonder if I was the only person who was like this. Its nice not to be a lone, thanks everyone

Id like to make out with a girl with both of us wearing nothing but short red t-shirts and really REALLY thick diapers. And while we make out we could be masagging eachother's diaper. Not too imaginitive I know, but its my fantasy

cant beat that thick babyish look, and the smell is cool, just couldnt have the scented ones in my living situation