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Thanks guys I didnt mean to be critical, I just hadnt posted in a while and decided to post somethin really. You do a great job dailydi, Id never accuse you of doing otherwise. Collin

I like to new setup to diapermates, its extrememly user friendly. But its that same user friendliness that leaves me feeling discouraged. I looked on there for females within 500+ miles of me and there is one with a photo. So I, for giggles, looked up men instead under the osposis of a female. You wouldnt believe the pages and pages of adds with pictures that the men here have on there in comparison to the one female add. Kind of makes you think you may never find that diapergirl. There is no real point to this post, only that I kind of felt a little defeated when I saw that. Collin

Mine is just me, kind of like a roman sculpture, only not perfect

I like it

I dont mind saying it, Im cheap, simple as that. Ive never paid for a site in my life except for dating services. Dont get me wrong, I love this site, this site showed me it was ok to be the way I am and let me know there are others out there like me and we are just normal people who like to wear diapers. That, in and of itself is priceless, and if I would have had to pay originally to get in here, I would. But now, knowing who I am, and who you guys are, though I love coming here, I dont necessarily need it and wouldnt spend money for it, I could take it or leave it. But of course, I dont post enough or chat enough to make friends. Collin

I think it was because I had to wear up until I was 7 for night-time reasons, and, being that my mom worked and if she wasnt at work she was out with her friends or watching the news and not playing with me, I began to associate love and tenderness with wearing diapers because thats the most time she spent with me in the evenings for at least five years prior to me stopping wearing. Later, because love and tenderness is what we look for in relationships, it turned sexual, not for my mom of course, but like a transitional object until another person would give me that feeling of love. So, whenever one does come around that I love, my desire to wear flies right out the window until she is no longer in my life or a potential mate, then I have my diapers to keep me company. Collin

ok, I have two, first, when I bought diapers for the first time when I was 19, i hadnt worn one in a long time. Not being a person who had any younger siblings and with no friends with babies, and further never having changed a diaper, i didnt really know how to put one on. So, it ended up backwards, I laughed at myself pretty good for that. Another time, and at the time I had roomates so I was afraid to keep diapers around. I got hammered at the pizza place and got back and got to thinking I really wanted to wear a diaper. I went to three stores who didnt have them until finally reaching ralphs. I staggered to the clerk in the back at the pharmasutical counter hoping not to attract attention to myself, buy them, and proceed out the door. 10 feet outside the door, the manager comes booking out and yells STOP! I turn, and look around, wondering if it was me he was talking to and it was. He asked if I was gonna pay for them and I showed him I had, pointing to my receipt which was discarded in an ashtray. Trying to cover for himself he asked if I needed the receipt in case they were no good. I only chuckled saying no, but thinking "theres no way to dig yourself out of a situation like this man" and walked away.

having leafed through my share of porn shops, I can say that they most likely dont have it. Collin

I like it, though this isnt my favorite chapter Ive read so far, but its your story and Im sure, basing this oppinion from previous chapters, that it will turn out great. Collin

Maybe Im just weird, but, only because its physically impossible speaking from experience, even if I wasnt sexually deprived, I would suck my own dick. I would never leave the house for crying out loud. What an awsome form of masterbation that would be. Collin

Dont stop, whatever you do, I want to hear more Collin

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The more I read, the more I like. Looking foward to the next segment. Collin

Good story, and great job with description (which is hard to do from the first person depending on the charactor), it makes me feel like Im there. It got great potential, and way to keep us drooling for the next chapter with that cliffhanger of and ending. I can see this is going to be a page turner. Collin

A dream like this could mean that all your life you may have been surpressing a feminine side that was always there and now you are finally letting a bit more of it shine through. Not to say that this means you are turning gay, just to say the the more senitive nurturing part of yourself is coming more into its own. The recurrence of this symbol may symbolize the amount of self work that is being done now. Other than that, to get a little more supernatural, you met a girl in the astral plane that happens to go to bed at the same time as you and you share the same kindred sort of conciousness, so the images you both paint on the fabric of that plane can coinside with eachother. personally, I believe the more scientific first description, but the second I through out there because nothing is beyond consideration, not matter how hairbrained. Collin

I am a person who spent his entire life from the time I was 6 in depression a lot of the time. I too know what it feels like to act the fool so others will laugh but no one to ever take you seriously. I had no idea, all up until I was 21 that I had all the tools I would ever need to be a happy and content individual inside myself. I saw an extremely good psychologist and he helped me to realize what it meant to use objective reasoning. This at least was what I needed, there are many forms of depression, many causes, and none of them are we prepared to deal with at the moment, otherwise we wouldnt be depressed. My advice to you is to seek out a good psychologist and tell him/her how you feel, trust me life is 100% better when you start to make that difference. Collin

Welcome to the site, and I must say I like your art. Its kinda like a mix between old fashioned street art and that 80's cartoon movie heavy metal. Ill definately be frequenting the sight to check it out. Collin

I feel this may be something I have to study by being able to indulge in it at any time I please. Perhaps in doing so, I can wean myself off of it so to speak. Just because I think Im closer to a cure, doesnt mean the the condition has been elliviated as yet, and refraining from it hasnt helped so far. In this situation I can seek alternatives while still being able to have access to it, and maybe, one day, one of those same alternatives may prove to be a proper repalcement. Not to mention, while living by myself, I may elliviate the very stress that causes this behavior. We'll have to wait and see. (By the way, I live with roomates, not with parents, have since I was 17) Collin

Well, In a couple of months, Im gonna have my own place all to myself. I know it sounds kinda lonely, but finally Ill be able to wear diapers every day. What a change from anything Ive done before, its gonna be great I know it. Has anyone else had the chance to live by themselves, and if so, how did you like it?

I had often wondered why I was like this. Why I liked them so much, and why sometimes they were just irresistible. Well, after hearing people say they are a comfort item, I had a eureka moment. The times I realised that I had wear were times where I felt I had to always be ready to argue where I lived. Also, if things are very disturbing at work, I feel like I need to wear also. The reason, I now know, is social anxiety. I remember when I was young, I didnt like school, I hated being around so many kids, so I would act out in class to get myself thrown out so I didnt have to be there anymore. When my mom would put a diaper on me (when I was around 6 and 7), it was like the little signal for me that my anxiety was over, it was time to unwind and relax in a place I was comfortable and didnt have to feel anxious. Now I know, and maybe, just maybe, Im that much closer to a cure for myself. Not to say this is a disease, but it is an inconvenience I wish to eliviate. Collin

Cool story. I guess it is kinda weird how it starts for all of us. At least now I know the cause of mine. Social anxiety causes it. If I feel I have to walk on eggshells or constantly be ready to argue where I live or work, I need them, if not, Im cool. Collin

Wings of a Butterfly - H I M

Thanks for the reply, its good to know I have friends here, even if they have no faces that I know of. I know she is attached to her lifestyle, she is 26 and just got out of a 7 year relationship, but she has never dated a guy she actually liked, and has never had sex with a man. I know up front that her sexuality is deep rooted, and the chance of changing that is a job that only true love has a chance of accomplishing. I dont expect her to change, I hope she does because I cannot help myself. I guess thats what love is, senseless, mindless devotion to a person for absolutely no reason, and there is no controlling it. Collin

Okay, so for those of you who dont know me that well (thats probably most of you), I used to live with a girl named Misha. She was my best friend for a year and a half and I liked her a lot but was never in love with her. A few months after knowing her, I told her that I like to wear diapers, but could give no explaination. She was ok with it, and was always willing to talk about it if I wanted. I guess I had hoped she might be into it also which she never was. She moved up to san fransisco a while ago so I was without a good friend for about a year. Now, I know a girl named Leanne, who I am in crazy love with. The only problem is she is Lesbian. She knows Im in love with her, and she doesnt mind and still hangs out with me all the time, so it works good there. So last night, we were at a bar, and Id had a few. I told her how good of a friend she was, and my exact words were, "You are about the best friend I have right now." there was more to it than that, but anyhow, she kissed me on the cheek, then later, she made the excuse she was teaching me how to kiss and kissed me on the lips four times until I got it perfect. So Im thinking, 'wow, Ive made headway'. I even asked her if she really wanted to before she did it, just to make sure she didnt do anything she wasnt ready for or wanting to do. She had told me earlier that she knew me pretty well, and I told her there were still things she didnt know and didnt want to know, but she was still curious. Well, after she kissed me, I told her what it was she didnt know and of course it was my diaper thing. I dont know how she reacted only because our other friend came back to soon to continue the conversation, but she seemed cool the rest of the night. My concern is this, I just got her to kiss me, she may have been getting over the fact that someone that loves her so much is a man, and willing to try, I feel like I just put up another blockade, created a new obstacle, and its killing me. So, someone tell me it gonna be alright, cuz I gotta have someone else tell me, Im not convincing enough. Collin