jenniebear

curious girl.... whatever you decide...i commend you for looking into it like you are.... many of us ab/dl types have even been disgusted by our own actions myself included over the years....While i accept myself now...it's been a long hard journey at times.....probably because the times when i could repress it in my life were the happy times....but when i was low already...thats when i'd not be able to hide it away and it would come out....but it would also haunt me....... if you read the site enough...you'll see many of us talk about "purges"....we "play" with our diapers for a while until either we can just put them away for a while....or.....get so disgusted by how it controls us so much....that we end up trashing everything we have that we associate with it.....for me they have happened many times over the years.... While i hope your husband is a confident man....i am sure he too has had moments of "disgust" or "hate" for his own fetish.....your supportive attitude will mean a lot.........i'd find a way to express to him how much you are doing to investigate his interests and that in itself should go a long way with him.... and like others are pointing out....its not something that will ever probably completely go away.....my opinion is....you are going to have to accept it to a certain point...whether you participate or not....but a fetish is an obsession with an object......it doesn't take away his love for you....or mean he isn't cheating on you by wanting the diaper.....for myself i consider it more of an enhancement in my sexual life like a vibrator or any sexual type toy......it's not something i "play" with all the time....but when my Daddy and i include it in our "play"....it is a special time.... and just so you know....not all of us have an interest in pooping in a diaper....i agree....it's disgusting but some do it...and it's their choice....and some of the people who are ab's...and flaunt it on tv etc....they are a bit extreme for me too.......i personally think they look like idiots too...........for me its personal and private......... it sounds to me like you've gotten a skewed view of things.....maybe you could find a way to look at some less extreme things to get a better understanding...... good luck again....jen jen

sounds pretty plausable to me Phantom....thanks for the response

hmmm....doesn't need to be said probably but...he really should love you so much that he shouldn't cheat either way..... i was in a relationship for 20 years....10 of those years married....we never "played" with diapers...though he knew it was my kink because we'd talked about it once or twice over the years.... i loved him....and it was enough to be in love.... but....even though i didn't expect that from him....i tried to fullfill his every desire...but it never seemed that he spent any time...or effort in trying to fullfill mine.... a lot went wrong in that relationship....but the diapers i could of lived without his participating in.....if everything else had been fullfilling............. what i've learned between my ex...and the man i am with now...who does baby me..... is that most importantly....the more you each give to one another...the more you want to give...and the more fullfilling a relationship it seems to be.... there is no one that can tell you to what level you can or will ever want to participate in his fetish.... but yourself....all you can do is be open and honest and mature in how you deal with the desires....both of you..... and i can understand your fears...i have had many myself about the fetish over the years.....including repulsion and hate for something that seemed so demented to me..........but...it is just a small part of who i am.....sure it's a little different...but it does bring me comfort....and it isn't about being lazy for me....i personally still find that a turn off...but then what does it for me....isn't what does it for the next person in most aspects of life.......ya know? my best advice.....love is important...so is respect and self worth.....and many other things...weigh them all carefully .... best wishes jen

i was the youngest child of 3....two brothers 12 and 16 years older then me...my parents were older...tired of raising kids i think....very nondemonstrative of their love for their kids.... my mother said i was potty trained by a year old...i was out of diapers by then anyway...though i can't remember having accidents more then once and i never was a bedwetter... i think at an early age i missed the bond that is between a mother and her child when she changes their diaper...the exchange between mother and child at those moments are extremely important to the development of a baby...instead i can imagine how my mother...an extremely "uptight" person probably treated her baby... who she in her mind she had potty trained at one year old...tense...tired...and wanting to get past the "baby" years....she denied me something very important.... i would wear over my pants old rubberpants my mother had saved from when i was an infant to put on my dolls...i remember how they felt...what they looked like...and i kept them for many many years....i wish i still had them.... when i was 6 my brother and his wife had a baby girl...when they brought her home she became the apple of my parents eye...their first grandchild....they worshiped her.... i can remember being so jealous...watching how they "loved" on her...and treated her like something so precious.....holding her and cuddling her....which was something i couldn't remember them doing with me.... how i was so jealous of her ... and yet...i loved her....as she grew older...she and 4 years later her sister...were someone i could touch in an affectionate way and be touched back...i mothered every one of my nieces and my nephew....giving to them what i'd always felt lacking in my life....as an adult i am still close to them....there's a bond that came out of growing up together like we did.... as i got a little older...probably about 12...some of the feelings a young girl has at that point in her life sort of became tied into that "being babied" feeling i'd developed a desire for and hence my fetish was born.... i'd never shared those feelings with anyone except for my exhusband long long ago who was totally repulsed by it.....until i discovered dpf online....and then a while new world opened up to me....

mmmm fruit.....jennie loves fruit....specially fruitloops o...and jennie isa veggietarian too...da same tind as Tux.....lacto ovo..... not accuse i don't believe in eatting meat....i live in small town midwest usa.....i understand population control of wild animals etc...... i just don't enjoy meat and i am healthier....more health conscious and more apt to varie-i-tise....my diet... though i do enjoy a veggie burger at a fast food place now and then......being veggie in the work world requires a lot of preparation and organization.....i really have to think ahead.... if the "girls" are going for lunch out....i can usually find something that will work for me at most places...though healthy choices they probably are not....

at our house if you put them under a pile of dirty dishes.........no one would find them....cause believe me no one is going near those dishes.........except me cause Daddy expects jennie to keep a tidy house....

lol.....every barbie....plushie....or doll in general i ever owned was diapered at some point.......

are you considered straight or lesbian/gay if.... if you have ever been curious about sexual experimentation with someone of the same sex.... if all your life you fantasize about sex with someone of the same sex but never act upon it due to fear of fill in the blank? if you have had one sexual encounter with the same sex and enjoyed it....but never particpated again... if you've spent five years experimenting with others of the same sex ... but wind up in a long term monogamous relationship with someone of the opposite sex? did i make a point?.... cause i'm not sure.... " i don't think that anyone would make a sudden "change over" either way....as Morv said..."humans are as confused as hell about everything including sex"....if someone changes...comes to a realization...switches.....i cannot imagine that it happened without a lot of prior thought and reflection and probably some fantasizing also .... also as Morv pointed out about himself.....some people are just "sexual" they are attracted to something else about a person other then just the body parts we are born with... Personally there are times the idea of a "nurturing female figure" overwhelms me with desire....dont get me wrong...the sexual "nurturing male figure" to me is about strength and safety....and yes i find that extremely sexy.....but the sexual "nurturing female figure" in my head is just as sexy....she is warm and loving and caressing....and oh so touchable....... ...

Yep... jennie agrees with the girls... You don't just suddenly "become" lesbian... i think people into some fetishes may have tendencies to be a little more liberal or curious when it comes to sexual experimentation.....for example a girl who is straight may be curious about what it would be like with another woman...not because of the fetish but because she just maybe has a more open mind to things of that nature...less inhibited then some....but that does not make her lesbian.... personally i am curious about the number of women into this fetish...i've heard for a long time that ab/dl is primarily a male fetish...yet since i've joined the online scene about 7 years ago....i see the number of women growing, and they are women who i believe are really women. i think that at one time men sorta "ruled" the internet and women were less apt to explore the online...especially anything that might be considered "sexual"...women tended to be more "content" with their lot in life....taking care of the kids etc....... men just tend to be a little ahead of us in these areas....and less inhibited....but more and more women are turning to the internet for many reasons....i wonder...will women one day equal the number of men in the fetish?

*raises her hand*.... Though i am in a Daddy/baby girl relationship and enjoy being treated like a 4 year old maybe once or twice a week, meaning i enjoy being cuddled and luved on at bedtime...maybe read a story too....reprimanded....or allowed to suck my thumb etc... i usually only wear a couple nights a month, sometimes not even that often. I hardly ever wear during the day unless it's a planned Daddy / baby day where W/we take pictures, do a baby type activity like go to the park, etc.... I think it's important to balance O/our life together it with "big girl" time. Especially in an adult give and take relationship. My Daddy needs a grown up to do grown up things with too....He endulges me pretty much any time i want to or need to regress, no hesitation...but i think it would be hard to always "baby" someone when you are the "adult" in a relationship...i think it would get old after a while.... I enjoy interacting with other abdl lifestylers so it's why i visit the sites and check out abdl related topics of interest.... it's important to me to stay in touch with others who have the same interests...it seems for the most part to be a pretty "isolated" interest ... i am thankful to have found online others with whom i can connect with.

This is going to sound a bit weird coming from an ab/dl .... but even as a child.. the idea of an older child or adult wetting themselves or a diaper....especially in public used to repulse me too....to the point of making me feel sick to my stomach...but i would be so obsessed with the mental image so much that i couldn't get it out of my mind.... Somehow myself "playing" wasn't the same...i suppose in my mind others doing it represented things that i didn't understand about myself or hated about myself...or who knows...i haven't spent a lot of time working on that one yet.... When i discovered what it meant to be "ab/dl" i was online and hanging around in chat rooms where there was constant exposure at least reading and discussion of it.... I think what happened is ... ya know how they talk about kids now a days being desensitized against things like violence etc....i think i became desesitized ... and now the idea doesn't repulse me at all...i've been with other ab/dl's and i just relate to them as someone who is just like me.... As for my "Daddy" He had never heard of an ab/dl before meeting me...He isn't necessarily turned on by the same things as myself....but...He is turned on by things i do and give to Him and pleasing me....so that makes Him desire to give me what i desire.... It isn't the answer to everything i know.....but i would evaluate....do you receive enough to desire to please your husband?...ab personalities i've noticed tend to be a little self centered at times....it takes a lot of giving and communication in any relationship ...but especially one that has challenges like an ab/dl fetish can create.....i know i have been in both types of relationships and it's very easy to just give up and not want to give it your all.....maybe it's going to take more then you can even give....if you are truely repulsed...then i'm not really sure how to overcome it.....i'm hoping my thoughts maybe give you a little bit of a new direction .... keep us posted...and best wishes.... jennie........

The old honda (silverwing...sort of an ugly bike...but don't tell Daddy i said that...) died last summer....now W/we are in debate....i want a nice cruiser...Daddy wants a crotch rocket (He says just for this year...then sell the crotch rocket and buy a nice cruiser ...give U/us a chance to save a little longer)..........unfortunately...Daddy's make the final decision......but i am given the opportunity to sway Him.....any words of persuasion?

Met my Daddy in yahoo personals...live in a tiny rural town so not much opportunity to meet like minded people...got tired of the lifestyle chat rooms so took a chance...found Him...though His profile didn't list it...I could tell right away He was into the BDSM lifestyle which is what I was really hoping to find.....He'd never heard of AB/DL but BDSM lifestylers tend to be pretty open minded talked about everything the very first day online....met that night and....voila...Daddy Dom for jennie.....and He was only 13 miles away...met Him ... moved in....together 2 years...and planning O/our wedding.... Of course it's been a little more complcated then that....but W/we've learned there are a lot of challenges to relationships especially when Y/your O/our age.....but the pay off is beyond measure!

well...my name is almost jennie and it sounds littl'r then my grown up name....and baby bears are cute....specially baby polar bears which is how i sometimes picture myself...... lots of friends call me jen or jen jen...my Daddy calls me baby always unless He is talking to someone else about me....

Daddy and jennie are on Illinois side of the Mississippi river...lots of corn and piggies and a few cows .... we are rural too....very rural... I always wanted to live in the city when i was a kid and actually did live in a couple of small cities for a while....but now....i am growing a real appreciation for this quiet little town...where neighbors are friendly and helpful....the streets are quiet and tree filled....the houses are old and for the most part well maintained....by people who also appreciate the rural life....sure there are a few close minded people and a lack of cultural things to do....but there are closed minded people wherever you go.....and W/we can always visit the city.... Don't know of any get togethers in the area...but might be willing to do a weekend trip to participate in a get together if anyone got one up and going.... The pic is from an local afternoon canoe trip last summer.... and we loved visiting Indiana last summer...canoing....and visiting all the covered bridges...it was very pretty and relaxing.... jennie

In the BDSM community you can find all sorts of fetish lists. Doms or Master/Mistress' will have their submissive/slave fill out just such a list before "play" ever begins... These lists often have at least a hundred or more types of fetish / sport / activities ...which the submissive will give a rating.....some use terms like hard and soft limits....meaning a soft limit is something they might consider.....but a hard limit is something that is out of the question. Lots of the things on the first list i saw were things i'd never even heard of before...let alone considered. My Daddy had me fill out a list in the beginning of O/our relationship...but as time goes on W/we find that it tends to evolve so W/we get it out every now and then to re evaluate or consider things W/we might not of thought of on O/our own.... Golden for me is something that in the right context can be a turn on.....but not just as a spur of the moment thing.... I'd never considered myself an exhibitionist either ... but when done as a sort of a humiliation technique i am totally arroused. Pony Play was something new which i only discovered after reading the "Beauty" trilogy....Not something i am too interested in....but then someone mentioned "puppy" play....the whole puppy/baby thing just sort of clicked for me...... Imagine yourself a puppy....you must be on four legs....house trained (meaning you must ask to go out arf arf....and you must squat and pee outdoors as a puppy would)....or maybe you are only paper trained ....spankings when you wet on the floor...eatting out of a doggie dish.....being collared and on a lead......bathed.....petted and loved......mmmmm mmm mm arf arf arf

Bow Bow Belinda.....you would choose new shoobies over seeing jennie!?

Hi A/all! Do you remember either of our two names? Is there a member of the AB/DL community from the past that you’ve lost contact with? Would you really like to catch up with old friends and acquaintances? Well Smiling Happy Nappy Girl and I, Jennie Bear, have been wondering about many of our old friends, so we’ve put our heads together and have come up with an idea....(no don’t be scared...we’re being good girls)... We are declaring February 25th and 26th official AB/DL Reunion Days![/ b] We know it would be impossible for everyone to be online at the same time...so we have spread the reunion over 2 days time. Please mark your calendars and if possible stop into http://www.dpf.com/ and/or http://www.care4baby.net/ chat for a little step back in time...... Please feel free to post specific times you’ll be on... the room you plan on being in...who you hope to see there....etc.... We’d love to see you there! Please pass on the invitation to everyone from the AB/DL community...or copy and past to other forums where other AB/DL's might visit. Thanks, Smiling Happy Nappy Girl / Precious Little Sugar Angel and Jennie Bear / Whimsical Sprite

um.....just a bit of information.....ya don't have to be a bloke (if bloke means guy like i think it does) to be too "excited" to sleep in a diaper....i think it's a "DL" thing.......and some of us girls are "DL's" too... though you are right about getting used to it..... once i had the luxury of wearing nightly or as often as i wanted....that type of "exitement" takes a little more work to accomplish... Now that i live with Daddy...i don't wear anything to bed other then my collar and the chain Daddy attaches to my ankle (cause He doesn't want His most cherished possession to disapear in the middle of the night ) unless Daddy decides i haven't been a big giwl....then He puts me in a diaper....

Just my collar and my ankle chain securing me to my Daddy's bed. He says it's so i won't run away in the night..... o...and if i am in "iddle" mode...a pull up if i a big giwl...or a diaper....if i not beein a big giwl..... Dis is a picture of my bed just before me go ninite when i "iddle"

i actually found my Daddy through yahoo personals. One day i was tired of all the nutso's in the fetish and bdsm chatrooms decided to take a look at the "vanilla" guys in my area. Quite by accident or maybe fate, my Daddy's yahoo ad was the first one i looked at, and after looking at about 3 others, i paid $20 to join just so i could contact Him. i knew the second i saw His profile that He was into the bdsm lifestyle. W/we talked online all afternoon and by that evening we were together and have not spent a day apart since. The online chat W/we had that first day definitely included discussing ab/dl and what it entailed. W/we didn't actually incorporate it into O/our play for a month or two but He knew from day one it was a part of me. i was just very lucky to find such an open minded Man who was so close by.....W/we've truely been blessed.... jennie