curiousgirl

First of all I want to say thank you, you have all been very helpful and I appreciate you taking the time to answer my questions. Some of you said that you needed more info to accurately answer so here it goes. My husband is a dl not and ab. He revealed this secret to me before we got married. At that time I was completely freaked out. I cried for like a week. I had never heard of this fetish before and I was scared. When you think of fetish's you think of the more popular ones. I had neer heard of anything like this and I was ready to break up. I told him I couldn't handle something like that and if he couldn't live without it he shouldn't be with me. Once again didn't know the extent to which he was involved or really any details. So he told me he would stop. a couple months later I was playing on his omputer an dI found several sites with pictures of adults wearing diapers. I freaked. I felt betrayed and silly as it sounds almost like he was cheating. He again promied he would stop. 6 or 7 months later he proposed. I told him that I know he still thinks about his fetish, (I mean its a fetish you can't just completely stop) Anyways I told him that if he couldn't be happy without a partner that takes part in it then I couldn't be with him. I wanted him to be happy. He said it wasn't important and he hadn't even thought about it in awhile. I believed him and I love him so I said yes. Then a month or two in the marriage I go into the coputer room to find dl porn up on the screen. I couldn't believe it. I felt hurt and betrayed. When he came home he apologied profusely and went in a deleted it all claiming it was all old stuff and he just felt the urge to look. He promised he wouldn't go to the sites anymore. A few months later I found it again. I called him at work and when he got home we had a LONG conversation about it. He told me that ever since he was like 14 he had been turned on by diapers. He said it was hard to explain exactly why because he wasn't completely sure. He also said that he would like for me to try it once. I asked what this would entail and he said I would wear a diaper and he would change it. Then he mentioned that he really wanted me to change him and that he had never even done it with anyone else and doesn't even know if he would really like it. I told him that if I ever felt ready I would tell him and he rolled his eyes . I think that he thinks that im not thinking about it and that im just hoping he will forget, which is pry why he brings it up from time to time. Okay and someone asked me to list what scares me about it so here it goes The one video that I saw (when I found it on the comp) Showed a girl who had acctually pooped in her diaper. To me this is disusting I believe we are potty trained for a reason. (my husband told me he wouldn't want me to poop only pee. However I still feel that its wrong. I mean thats what I have been told since I was three its how my body is programmed. I mean if you have a medical thing its understandable but when you are a healhy adult. Also when I was younger I saw an episode of some talk show and they had an ab on and he freaked me right out. I was weirded out. He scared me. (I hope im not upseting any of you that's not my goal Im just trying to be honest so that I can get the answers I need.) I hope that was the info you were looking for. Thanks again you have had very helpful responses

I have made myself clear and I've told him that if I ever decide I am willing to try it I will tell him. Still every once in awhile he will mention it and it upsets me all over again. I know he doesn't want to pressure me but he doesn't believe that I am truely thinking about it

So my husband tells me he has this fetish and it totally freaks me out. Im scared to een think about this stuff. Then I find some stuff hidden on his computer, pics and stuff which freaks me out even more. He really wants me to try it but honestly im scared. I need to understand and trying to talk to him about it ends in argument. So Im asking you guys to explain to me what this fetish is and how is it not disgusting and scary. I mean I read some posts and it sounds like some of you do it cause your lazy. My husband says that he likes it because diapers turn him on. Can someone please explain this to me?