jenniebear

*yea!...claps her hands excitedely tause der is now anover lil bear!* Hi lil bear....me isa lil bear too.......but me goes by jen jen....or sometimes beargirl....me glad yu joined...now der is anover cub to share da honey wiff! Welcome to DD!

me and Daddy hab a lil blog W/we do together dat helps U/us 'member why W/we lubs each odder so much...me was inspired by da website dat Creavero did for Him an Himz lil girl... den a while back me saw'd boy ricky's...and fought it was an awesome blog... me's had a yahoo 360 blog for a longs time...but lately me acided dat it was getting too "complicated" for my iddle side....so............... so a few days ago...voila!...me added a new blog to Daddy's and me's already exhisting account on blogger it called "lil girl at heart" at http://jenniebears.blogspot.com/ ...me's still workin on it...but am happy at how it's turnin out.... stop by and sign mines guestbook if you get a chance! jennie

in it's day dpf was a great place......and of the people who have impacted me the most during an important time in my life...many of them i met there.......also i remember the old dpf ads in the porn mags...i was just a kid back then although obviously a not very well behaved one......and seeing the drawing of an adult in a diaper in those ads....really gave me a tiny sense of "i am not alone".... i used to talk to Tommy now and then...and once asked him for help with something in the forum ...he was definitely very helpful and kind....though he always seemed a lil aloof in chat... A lot of rumors go around about the dpf site and tommy......some prolly have a few half truths others prolly are totally incorrect...either way though i agree with Sillyfaerie it was quite a feat ...to reach out to those people who were a part of a fetish which most of us din't even know had a name..... its easy to judge now when all you have to do is type in the word "diaper" in your search tool and voila...you can know a million things about this lifestyle.....but i remember when i was 18....and searching always for any other smidgeon i could find on the topic.........heck i once found a psych book that had about a 2 sentence explanation on infantilism and even though it wasn't flattering.......i had at last found a name for what i was...... i agree that DD is an awesome site...with awesome people....and it's the way of the world for things to evolve and change.....i am thankful for DD....the site care takers here work hard and obviously care very much for DD........... dpf too....was awesome in its prime....and tommy...whatever has happened to you....be it ill health...or just disenchantment.....this ab/dl girl wishes you well in your life and thanks you for all you've done for her....... jennie bear <--name first created in dpf....

Hey Jack, Welcome to DD...it's a good place to hang.... jennie ....who is not to far from Chicago...about 2 hours from the western burbs.......i'm north of the QCA....(Moline)....just on the illinois/iowa border.....

*claps excitedly*... i a big kid now! *shows off her big giwl pull ups!*

Cats or Dogs? Cats....doggies make me sneeze........but ferrets would have to be my first choice..... Bike or Car? Car...i love my mustang! City or Countryside?...countryside...at one point in my life i would of said city......but now...nothing beats the sound of the birds chirping...a dog barking in the distance...the sound of children playing in the neighbors yard and the gentle breeze blowing in through the front screen door on this beautiful spring evening.... Spring, Summer, Autumn or Winter? spring and summer are a toss up.......though winter has snowmobiling....but if i have to choose i'd say autumn...the fall colors...the crispness in the air...family celebrations... Cookies or Candies?...thats a hard one as i love anything sweet......but i guess candy....chocolate in it's purest form..... Butter or Margarine?...butter TV or CD?....music over mindless tv....... Shower or Bath?...shower......though a nice long bath is awesome on an occasional basis Disposable or Cloth?...disposable...the sound...the feel...the way they fit on..... Chatrooms or Forums?...another hard one........chatroom when there is a good conversation going on.......forum when not....

Pipsqueak This is something that i've asked my Daddy many times...because i have a hard time understanding it as well. i guess His reply for me never really makes it much clearer .. even though it's what He feels i guess i have a hard time believing it.......or relating to it.... Like repaid i'll ask Daddy again...maybe He will take a few minutes to post it Himself.... What i do know about Him is that it's about "power exchange" yes........but most importantly for Him is His need to be in control of the situation. The worst or most threatening thought to Him must be "being left in the dark"....He want's to know what to expect at all times.....and what better way to know at all times what to expect then to be the Daddy/Dom and set the rules and expectations of His baby/slave..... Of course it's a "love/worship" sort of thing too.......but i think that the "setting expectations" thing is what brings Him to the Dom role to begin with..... Before me He wasn't a Daddy so i've cast Him into that role....and DaddyDom and abdl Daddy are quite a bit different in their "appreciation" for diapers....but in other aspects it's very much the same....

I'm on the cusp.... Capricorn....Their energy is more ruthlessly realistic Aquarius.... energy embodies the airy qualities of abstraction, idealism and altruism..........Aquarian energy is quirky, eccentric, fearless and independent. While my Daddy would call me a pessimist at times....He of course is an optimimist until something bad comes along then he goes all pessimistic............ I've always definitely identified and considered myself an Aquarian for the most part......i think my friends would describe me as someone who follows her own road and is giving and concerned for others well being

I agree Dolly...i think as Pipqueak has pointed out......hiedilynn seems only to have the need to acknowledge one person...herself.... Something i've noticed too in all of her posts on the board....and i'm not going to quote her word for word.....but she said she was sexually active in an ab/dl relationship once upon a time.....but has since become celibate..... all i could think of was....how impossible it would be to try and have a relationship with someone who is so full of themself...i would imagine that lots of ab's myself included have a bit of the "attention seeking" trait to their personality....for many of us it may have even begun because of the lack of attention we received as real babies and children....but this person really is one of the most egotistical i've come across.... i believe that any talk show host or interviewer would find the egotistical aspect of him more entertaining then the ab aspect........ again it ends up being a person like heidilynn who claims to represent a sub group of people like abdl's.......who actually doesn't care at all how the abdl community would choose to represent themselves ...... but ends up making it even more easy for the general public reject the sub group.... not because they find this subgroup offensive or dislikable but because they equate it with this self involved person who manages to make mockery of something that she hasn't even tried to realistically or fairly represent ....

i make O/our bed before i leave for work in the morning.....but some mornings it's more nicely made then others........every night when i get home from work though i tidy it up nice and straight...and when it's cold i turn the electric blanket on so when Daddy and i climb at night it's nice and toasty......... one of the best things in the world is to the feeling of climbing into a bed with freshly laundered sheets right after a shower or bath.........mmmm.........don't know why but it's just the best feeling!

i am fortunate enough to know many in this lifestyle who are wise enough to be considered in the "guru" status....the unfortunate thing is....often the person who promotes themself as the "leading guru" or the spokesperson for a specific group is often just the person that makes the most noise and promotes themself the loudest......while the intelligent person who actually has something valuable to say...and who would say it with the most integrety... is the one who prefers to stay in the background.... and John Q...i enjoyed hearing your debate...while i'm sure it is pointless to continue....you points were well spoken and i agreed with you totally!

Cute thread idea fox!...and Dolly the shoe thing has happened to two friends of mine...one at a very professional meeting for work....the other just at the office...(of course we tease them unmercifully but it's because we love em...)...and Phantom...not sure what money poker is......but i love the story...especially how you got the money back and carry it as a reminder... I wasn't sure what story to write...but then fox mentioned horses and it reminded me of something that happened a long time ago.... I was 14 and my boyfriend was 17. (what were my parents thinking?) We grew up in a small farming community and though we were both "town" kids, his family rented a barn and some property in the country for a few 4H projects, a few goats, rabbits, sheep, pigs and a horse. I was still basically a "little" girl and extremely horse crazy! So a boyfriend with a horse was an added bonus. His horses name was Dixie, and that year he even bought me an ornery little pony that we named Cheval. One day after school we decided to take pictures of Dixie and Cheval. We took them out behind the barns, found a nice background of tall weeds, and took turns standing with Dixie and Cheval, snapping pictures of each other in the orange, red glow of the setting autumn sun. By the time we were done though, i was having an extreme allergic reaction...one that kept getting worse and worse. Now allergic reactions weren't that uncommon for me. I was allergic to everything especially things like ragweed and pollens just floating around in the air, but i never let it keep me from doing what i wanted to do. I was even allergic to Dixie and Cheval, but it wasn't anything a good shower and a benedryl didn't take care of. This particular allergic reaction though just kept getting worse and worse. After bedding the horses down for the night, my boyfriend took a good look at my eyes, which by this time were all puffy, and red and swollen, uttered some sort of expletive, and said "we gotta get you home". By the time he dropped me off, my eyes were just slits, which were itchy and red and my face was popping out in hives. I knew better then to scratch at them or touch my eyes, especially since i was probably still covered in whatever it was that caused such a reaction. My mom took one look at me, yelled for my Dad and we went to the Doctor's office immediately. The Doctor lectured me, and perscribed something for the allergic reaction and by the time i was back home it was all pretty much going away. My mom, just knew it was the horses and i was forbidden to ride....... A week later (back in the day when film was sent away and didn't come back for a week) i got back the developed pictures of the horses. I was sharing them with my Dad when he broke out laughing...pointing to a picture of me with Dixie standing in the middle of the tall weed patch...he asked..."do you know what kind of weeds those are?" I didn't of course, but it did begin to click in my head. That whole picture taking time, i'd been standing in, trampling through, and posing amongst a big old patch of ragweed. Of course i hadn't really stopped riding that week even though i'd been forbidden, but at least now i could be honest and say, "i'm going riding" when i left the house with my boyfriend.

The bolded lines in the quote above say you really don't care if your actions hurt the community....that isn't important to you. Yet... You lecture the abdl community on standing together...or else we will continue to be seen as being different from the norm... so what i get from your post is this .....basically it's we either all do it your way....or else you'll go you're own way doing exactly as you please....whether it's the concensus of the rest of the community to be the best path or not.................that for you it's not about what's good for the community......not about standing as a whole.......not about a group undivided.......not about hearing what the whole community really wants.........though........... you feel the community will always be viewed as aberrational behaviorists we continue to not act as a while...... i won't acuse you of double speaking......because i am sure that you really feel this way.... and frankly what you do or promote yourself doesn't matter a whole lot to me....nor will it affect me.......because as i stated before.....i am not ever going public even if it becomes the next "in thing" to do......so how you choose to display yourself to the world is of no concern........ however..... what i really find myself intolerant of........is people who come right out and say they are thinking of themselves first and foremost.... and claim to be doing it to help me...... i am a member of this community......i would and try to do what i can to help it have a certain ammount of integrity and compassion respect.........and tolerance.....do i always do that in the best way possible......probably not....but i do try to understand where others are coming from....why they are who they are and if something is damaging.....i look for ways to create change........ while i respect your choices and cannot begin to fathom the differences in our lives...i still feel that everyone has a path to follow...their own choices to make and even their own mistakes to be made..........and a right to choose.....so no i won't be catching a ride with you to where ever you intend to go.......i will take the bus with the concensus of the whole community....i will speak my mind....i listen to the thoughts of others.......i will be open to the ideas of others.........and most importantly i will act with compassion and be respectful ....and always understand that the world is made up of a variety of people who may or may not differ from me remembering that what is best for me........may not always be best for the whole.......... and with all that said.......*removes her soapbox*........if your still reading........thanks for listening...... jennie

Nicely posted Tigger....i really appreciated your point about "having your wish.....but not assuming that everyone feels the same way you do...." so very well said and my thoughts exactly..... Heidilynn i'm giving you the benefit of the doubt since you may be fairly new to the boards...it is possible that you just have not returned to this post...although since you have returned to this post and other posts many times i do not think this is the case.... i had... really hoped that you would respond to my questioning your accusatory response to my post....... since i've noticed you've been posting in other topics today though ......it seem likely you do not intend to responded..... therefore .......i rest my own case.... jenniebear

i would like to know how i double spoke heidilynn............. i said i personally do not have any desire to go public.........it is an activity i enjoy in the privacy of my home with my partner........ and what i offered or hoped to offer was something for those who do wish to go public.......something to think about.......

I personally do not have any need or desire for public acceptance...i enjoy the support of the online ab/dl community but that is about as far as it's going to go for me. It is a sexual fetish for me and i certainly do not need people knowing even if it became widely accepted.... what goes on in my bedroom is private... be it diaper related or just plain vanilla activities....In every relationship since my divorce (all have begun via the internet...i've found it a useful tool in finding like minded people since i live in such a rural area) i've made sure that my partner was aware of my fetish and would accept it even before we became involved...some have accepted...others were curious...yet others enjoy participating.... as for the media attention...while it may have acquired some level of acceptance in some levels of society......i personally feel what most people are looking for would be more described as....acceptance by those around you... probably very vanilla oriented people such as family...friends...and co-workers... being accepted as an oddity among oddities i don't think is what most are striving for.......and i don't think it will be accepted in mainstream society by a blatant show of eccentricity.....i am a part of bdsm lifestyle too.....and while ab/dl is accepted by many in the bdsm lifestyle........probably even more do not know of it's existance......and of the ones who do know about it...there is a percentage who won't accept it......for them it is too closely tied to "children" even when they are forced to listen to an explanation of what infantilism is truely about...and for whatever reason...be it their own childhood scars...etc....they cannot get past that connection to pedophilia .... bdsm though does bring up an interesting phenomenon i've noticed of late....look at the "goth" styles ... just walk into even a "claires" jewelry store which is extremely mainstream and you will find all sorts of chains and handcuff type jewelry.....there is definitely a bdsm overtone.......and bdsm was at one time a pretty dark kept secret....now however....a number of my vanilla friends talk about "dabbling" with bdsm activities............ if we think about things that were not the norm 20 or 30 years ago.....but are now.....what was their process of evolution?....Did these things run full force into the mainstream wall?...or...did they slowly creep in....coming in a little at a time...through the backdoor....down the chimmney...climbing in through the side window.... I'm not sure of the answer to that.....but it might be worth contemplating when looking at a goal like mainstreaming the ab/dl lifestyle....

was wondering how to say that Mr Otter.........once again.....You've spoken with clarity and focus......well said! btw.......it's true.......practice can change a habit.........even this kind..........though of course the interest doesn't go away.......you can now just add it to your varied "toybox"

My Daddy gets up early and usually goes ninite before me.......but because Himz don't want me to be up all alone Himz falls asleep on da couch while me watches tv or plays on my laptop.... He usually tells me when it time to go ninite though....when Him wakes up to go potty .... den W/we go to da basement and go to sweep........me usually sweeps in Daddy's bed in da Dungeon.......but if me naughty ... or cranky Daddy might make me sweep in slaves quarters.......occasionally Himz sends me to bed early.......but dat is when Himz finks me is cranky...... W/we hab da fings to make a cwib in da Dungeon so Daddy tan put me ninite der when Himz finks me not been a good girl.......but slaves quarters alweady has a big giwl bed in it.......me finks onwy babies sweep in cwibs........

Dear Mr. Otter, I have to admit that after your post I really felt unable to read anyones response. While i'm past that point in my life .... i have no desire to revisit it........The pain of divorce is not fun in any situation and add on top of that betrayal and fingers of the person you loved pointed accusingly at what is probably your most vulnerable and most sensitive "button" could only result in the deepest pain imaginable. I struggled myself for a while overcoming a similiar betrayal....all i can say is........ There is life after divorce...i call my life now my "chance for a do-over".... After realizing i was fine alone......i found myself able to be more confident and careful in the choosing of my future lifestyle, situations and mate.... life is never easy...and it's full challenges always.......no matter what point you are at in your life..........but believe me...........if you take your time...allow yourself to heal...think hard and wisely.................i believe you stand to find yourself in a fullfilling and joyous life...probably more than you ever imagined....

Awesome!... I laughed, I cried, I totally enjoyed!....Kudos for making the web page!

http://i175.photobucket.com/albums/w145/je.../_tallieWEB.jpg This is tallie...she has been with me for a long time...tallie isa baby giraffe...she has met a lot of other plushies (cubstatik's simba and tallie even had a little thing going for a while....)......as well as other ab/dl's...i've taken pictures of her with a few of you even ...but i won't share those Once she got left in a hotel room and i didn't get her back for weeks... Now that i travel with Daddy, before W/we leave anywhere He makes sure tallie is in the car...before W/we ever pull out of a parking spot. She watches tv with me...cuddles with me when i am on the computer and sleeps with me every night... http://i175.photobucket.com/albums/w145/je...ennieninite.jpg i also have a special elliephant and bunches of bears....but tallie is da mostest specialest of all!

All i can say is imagine the pain this young man has experienced because he was serving his country ... and is obviously still dealing with ... also...a young woman ...her life changed drastically by someone she probably never knew... there are things in this world that just do not make sense.... kindness...respect...empathy...tolerance...just a few words that come to mind......... this post has helped remind me once again how important those things are.....

Most people come to this site because of the way DD works to keep underage kids out. It is to date the most upstanding site I visit. I have no problems with spam, pop ups or any other troublesome things you might find to complain about. Obviously there is a lot that goes into running this site in order to keep it so current and free of "garbage". You will never make everyone happy no matter how hard you try, but for the type of site DD is, you are not going to find one run any better. i seriously doubt that refunding your dollar to your paypal account fee will break the DD bank, but i am sure you think you've won...hip hip hooray for you.........but we here who are regular members know that in actuality you are the one that's lost because this site offers way more then a dollars worth to those who would have welcomed you to DD had you chosen to stay.... bye bye...jennie

me finks someone gots bad diaper rash or somefin....

i coulda sworn i posted under this topic last night?....did anyone see it?......was it such an offensive post someone deleted it???......or did i post it somewhere else accidently.....or am i loosing my mind entirely