Thanks for sharing this Dr J.
This is a mood I get into every now and then, but I think Pipsqueak hit the nail on the head:
I am guilty of doing this - I quite recently went through a phase of thinking how unfair it was that I had to live a secret life. But it's not my life. I get a lot of different kinds of pleasure from wearing, using and playing in nappies, but it's just part of my life. Part of my life that I choose not to share with lots of people. To me (when I'm in the right space!) that makes it even more special.
Having had quite a few problems over the last few years I'm striving to live a balanced life. I'm usually an all or none kind of guy, but I'm changing and today I'm comfortable knowing that there is a place in my life for nappies - not letting it become my whole life is what I work at.
And if you're hurting, remember that it's only through pain that we grow.