Markley

You guys haven't heard from me in quite some time, but I just wanted to let out a little steam before attempting to let go of my past... I have been a Diaper Lover for years... As long as I remember, and though it was nice to be able to indulge in my fetish, it's becoming more bothersome than I would have thought.

Large Secure X-Plus.

Just curious to see if there were any DLs in the North Central part of West Virginia. Not looking to ask anyone the same stupid sexual questions, or anything. Just want to maybe socialize with a few , and maybe in some rare chance, find a nice woman to chat with. Never know... I might get lucky.

Bought the Sample combo of the 1 medium and 1 large Bellissimo. The large seems to be a perfect fit for me. Very comfortable diaper, but I wish we could have the choice of an all-white version.

I really do enjoy these diapers, but it seems to me the quality is getting worse... When I first bought these things, they just felt like higher quality. Both waistbands were comfortable, and I was forced to waddle a tad... Now it's just a slightly thinner version of an Abena.

Man... my ex girlfriend of 6 and a half years had the same exact problem... I was 3 years into our relationship when I finally worked up the nerve to tell her... She wasn't supportive of my Diaper Fetish at all. She allowed me to indulge but it was an out of site out of mind thing. I noticed a change in her feelings for me instantly... I tried to talk to her about it quite a few times, letting her know that I was more than willing to stop indulging, but she would refuse to get me to stop. She wanted me to be happy, but I wanted her to be happier. For awhile I got to wearing alot more often, and allowed myself to believe she was fine with it... She basically spent the next 3 years unattracted to me sexually... She eventually lost all interest in me, started seeing another guy, and well... the rest was history... She told me the diapers had nothing to do with it, but I'm quite positive it triggered the downfall... Be honest with the guy. Tell him exactly how you feel about it, and for God's sake, don't drag it on... Things will become very painful for the both of you if you guys take the same path we did.

I never really understood why any symbol that someone tries to make up for this Lifestyle always has to be Pink and/or Light Blue... Being a "rough in tumble" man, like myself (Works on airplanes, drives a Muscle Car, camps, goes to Church) and being a DL is bad enough... I really don't feel the need to sport some symbol showing the locals that I wear diapers for the enjoyment... Let alone sporting a symbol that can be confused with weakness and/or femininity. Why do we have to make a big deal out of it, anyway?

I have found that this "Climate Change" and "Global Warming" is just a way of scaring people into tuning in to the media. Doctors saving lives, and a cure for cancer unfortunately does not attract ratings, but war, death, and impending Earthly doom does. It's a scientific fact that this "Climate Change" is nothing more than a phase that the Earth is naturally going through... Even though it's been 1000s of years after the last ice age, by the Earth's pov, we're just fresh out of the ice age, and we will continue to see climate change for tens of hundreds of years. Within the lifetime of Earth, it's gone through ice age after ice age. It's just a cycle. As for petroleum usage goes, that again is debatable. with the record amount found in the Gulf, and the reserves we're not even allowed to touch due to eco-nutjobs in Alaska, there's more oil than we've ever had to deal with. Not to mention Texas is still producing, and oil in the middle east is still showing no signs of emptying out. Oil would not be such a hot topic if it wasn't for Politicians with stocks in the oil companies, and the media being fueled by political propaganda. I blame all the Going Green BS on politicians whose main focus is more about money, and less about "we the people" and scared people who cant just go about their lives without believing they can change the future because Fox News said so. Personally, I don't care. The Earth will be healthy enough to live in for years after I die, and by that time, I wont care what happens to the people and Earth... I'll be to dead to care.

Heh... I really wish they would change that little title... I dont really want to be labeled as a child, even it is just part of the forum's setup... I thank you for your willingness to help talk about what I go through. Maybe one day I will work of the nerve to have a nice one-on-one chat with a few of you guys, but I have to admit... I'm lacking a tad in the open mind department...

It's easy to say that wearing diapers doesnt change who you are, but when your SO founds out... It does change who you are in their mind. Before I came out to my SO, in her mind, I was this hardened manly guy who worked on cars, sexy, funny, etc... The moment she pictured me in a diaper, all she seen then was something else... Something she tried so hard to over look. To find out that her "man" was a diaper wearing weirdo, it has been a rough road since. She denies that her finding out about my "issue" caused her to think differently about me, but I'm quite sure it had everything to do with her losing interest in me... ... Before I knew it, we grew very distant... She didnt find my sexually attractive anymore, so much so that sex has been void for nearly 9 months, and to make matters worse, another guy eventually got into the picture, and he met everything she was look for in a man... things have been a trainwreck for myself. I have questioned who I am as a man... I have become so paranoid, my self confidence is shot... The only time it seems to be normal is when I'm on this forum where everyone's got themselves fooled into thinking that everyone else just needs educated and everything will be fine. I doubt there will ever be a greener side to this DL hill. Not when society continues to look at a healthy grown adult in diapers and relates it to being a weakminded wannabe baby, a pedo, or just plan and simple, mentally sick. I hate it that for me to keep people from thinking any different of me, I have to hid the part of me that screams for attention. Of course, to me nothing did change who I am... Not when I have been a DL most of my life. That doesn't mean shit to normal people. I come out and say anything about how I feel about diapers, and my whole identity becomes a whole different person.

Well, I do accept myself to an extent... It would be alot better if "she" accepted me more too... I dont know... It's hard to want to accept this side of me when the most important person in my life cant... Yeah, I know it sounds shallow of me, but oh well.

Seen this episode quite a few times, and I expected no less from the narrator. I find it more disturbing that grown adults actually act like the guy that was killed... ... and it's just one reason why I kind of hate the fact that I enjoy wearing diapers... No matter what I ever say to justify myself, I will always carry the same label this guy carried...

Wow Lynx... If I didn't know any better, I would have thought you we're actually my girlfriend. Pretty much everything you have said is where she stands with me... Lynx. I'll speak for him when I say this, but you need to communicate with him about how you feel. I went 4 years believing she was fine with me wearing diapers for chillin' out and sleeping, even having sex with me while I was wearing one once, but the whole time, she was making sure I was happy. I didn't treat her well enough, and took that for granted for way to long... She was always willing to allow me to do things that she may not have liked out of love, but it got old, and because I was never truly understanding of her feelings towards diapers, I ended up the same way your boyfriend is... Talk to him about it. If you don't want to be a part of his DL side, you need to make it clear to him, because like me, he may not listen clearly to hints. In serious relationships sacrifices have to be made on both sides... For me, it's now clear that if she doesn't like me to wear in front of her, or want to be a part of it, I will make the sacrifice. Always remember Lynx. If the man feels the same way for you that you feel for him, he will do what it takes to make you happy aswell... You just have to tell him how sometimes, and be firm with your message. She finally told me weeks ago that she never did like my wearing diapers... Hell she almost left me after I told her about my fetish. She hates it, but has told me that she felt she cant tell me to stop because its a desire that will never go away, and she wanted me to be happy. After she told me that, I respected her words, and since then, shes never even seen a diaper. I still indulge from time to time, but not when she's home. Sure, it would be killer if she enjoyed it as much as I do, but you know what? Its a dream. Fantasies cant always come true... doesnt mean its the end of my world. If he's anything like me, and I figure he is, Diapers are a big deal to him and his image... It may not be something he's proud of either. You need to talk to him about how you feel. I bet he's dying to talk to you about it, and communication cant hurt when it comes to this... You both could become even stronger after you have a good heart to heart... ... but if he happens to find diapers to be more important than your feelings... He may not be so amazing...

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I ordered the 24/7s last week. So far these diapers are awesome. They do appear to look and feel thicker than an Abri-form X-Plus. Very comfortable. New favorite, thats for sure.

I'm with you on that one. Maybe it's time to grow up and find out what you're missing?

Funny I said this... I got my new pack of X-Plus diapers yesterday, and to my surprise, the very first diaper I pull out actually had like a 1/4 inch of waistband in the front. I checked a couple of the other diapers, and it seems that this is the only one. The cutter probably just over lapped at the factory or something. I must say, just that 1/4 inch of band, the diaper actually feels like it fits more snug up front.

I'm a big fan of the Abri-form X-plus, but I would change a few things to improve on them. I would first like to see the back waistband to be a tad bigger and thicker, and see the front get the waistband aswell. I would also like to see the SAP stay together without clumping or sperating afer a good period of wearing. Maybe a landing zone for the tapes, but I can do or do without that.

Thanks I could just be looking through the wrong threads, too.

My problem is mostly still feeling out of place here... This seems to be the best place I can go to for some help in dealing with my DL side, but I admit that I find myself judging peope here... I think alot of it has to do with how I basically use diapers as nothing more than underwear mostly for night or when I'm just chilling around the house. I actually find it kinda sick for me to actually use the diapers for what they are designed for, and to read some of the threads I have been seeing, I feel I am in the wrong place. Seems that to be a Diaper Lover I must also suffer from infantism and be an Adult Baby aswell... Am I a rare breed? I agree that I should be the first to be open minded because I do infact wear diapers for the hell of it, but infantism is just something I cant seem to understand. I came here to find people like me... and I'm still lost.

What are those diapers on the right side?

I just bought the sample pack of all-white Bambinos. Wearing my second Bambino right now. After all the hype I read about these diapers I was expecting something very special, but at the same time, thinking about their relation with Secure. I've worn Secure X-Pluses a couple of times and thought they were ok, so I figured that the Bambino would have at least be an improvement of the Secure X-Plus. What I was given was an "ok" diaper. other than the appearance of a somewhat thicker softer waistband in the back and being all white it feels alot like a Secure Diaper. Seems to be just as functional as the Secure X-Plus, it's more of an AB object. Sure they are fairly comfortable, but other than that, I see nothing that really pops out at me that makes it live up to it's hype. I'd much raither keep my Abri-Form X-Plus... Now if only Abena would add a frontal waistband

I feel like I repeat myself way to much, but being a guy who just wears for the comfort and 'sometimes' sexual stimulation, I do not want to be know as a Diaper Lover to anyone. It's a private and personal taboo of mine, and the thought of others finding out is so unnerving, I would probably wanna crawl under a rock and die if someone did find out. I've tried to deal with the idea that I enjoy wearing diapers, but after all the countless stories of grown adults acting like babies, messing themselves, and things I just can't believe, I've been embarrassed for myself, and the girl I love. I can understand my ol lady's reasons for finding it weird and so hard to get used to. I have read about new DL/ABs asking how to tell their loved ones and I always keep reading the same answer... Tell the loved one to read through here.. LOL That's a one way ticket to being unhappily single, unless she's an oddball freak herself. I'm always trying to figure out ways to find diapers as unappealing as the next person, but something in my brain craves for it. I cant sleep without wearing. I want to wear one now, and I hate myself for that. The wife realises my situation and has never tried to help me get rid of the desire. She has accepted the fact that diapers are a part of me, and deals with it lovingly. She doesn't like it, but she chooses to not control me. For this I love her more than ever, but I wanna get these desires out of my head for myself. If I can figure out how to seek official help from someone who wont react like I'm a mental case, I would.