oznl

My nick is 'oznl' - it's not Hungarian, just a variant-spelling acronym of "Australian Nappy Lover". Yes, I know: this is a lame nickname and I can blame nobody other than myself as I chose it. I suppose I could call myself "Starfire" or "ColdFusion72" or perhaps even "MildewRefrigerator" but I've had Oznl for over a decade and too many people know me by it to make change painless.

I've wanted to wear and use nappies (thick cloth pinned under plastic pants are my preference but since I'm permanently in nappies, they are often disposable) since I was a toddler. Apparently, I was toilet trained at a spectacularly early age as a consequence of my mother's unending pursuit of convenience. I wonder if this is why I don't have more convenient fetish: a kind of Newtonian third law applied to psychology.

I'm not an AB although I if I look hard enough, I can find a little bit of AB buried there somewhere. Maybe it's the thick flannel pyjamas or the fact that I quite like just wearing nappies and a t-shirt. Wearing nappies also for me isn't entirely sexual. I often just wear them for the strange comfort they provide.  In fact, now that I'm fifty-something, the whole sex thing isn't that big a part of it.

In case you were wondering, I would use my nappies for everything unmoderated. I'd cheerfully sleep in full nappies but this would have my partner reaching for the flame-thrower (I'm tolerated wet though).  She knows, she participated, she tolerated, that faded, then she disapproved and after I stood my ground, she disapproved silently. I think she knows that I talk to others but we operate on a "don't ask/don't tell" basis there. I have kids but they are kept well away from all of this.

I've been in nappies 24/7 permanently since late December 2018 (there was a couple of weeks break in March 2019 but it didn't last).  As a consequence, whilst I'm still continent during the day, I have range and urgency issues that make day nappies a more practical and comfortable alternative to a bathroom.  At night, I've somehow conditioned myself to bed wet.  This has extended to the point where I will either not sleep or sleep and wet the bed if I do NOT wear a night nappy so these are compulsory for me now.  Once you've learned to manage leaking, it's not as bad as it sounds and can be quite comfortable.

I'm not looking for love or thrills, more to be able to communicate with others and feel a little bit less of a freak and a little bit less alone.  That is all.