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Somebody once posted a great discussion there calling DPF to the ab ghetto, and I think that describes it perfectly. Think about it: Back in the day (in internet lingo, a few years ago) that site was the place to be. There was always interesting stuff being posted and the site truly had a community feel. Largely due to neglect, the site slowly started to loose its touch. People began using the discussion boards as a battleground to vent their chatroom frustrations. As a result, attitudes started to change from encouraging, to apathetic, to discouraging. Then people started leaving in droves to sites like this which were fresh and new and constantly updated and all that good stuff. All that's left now is a decrepid shell of what it used to be. Please don't get me wrong. I'm not using this as a means to bash DPF. (If you go to their forum, you'll see that there's nothing to gain at this piont.) Instead, consider this a learning experience. DailyDiapers is everything that DPF should've been. Appreciate what we have here, don't take it for granted, and most of all show your gratitude to Daily Di for putting in the time and energy to make the place free and sweet. As for DPF, the best thing Tommy (the moderator) can do at this point is shut down the board, or to continue the anology - bring in the wrecking ball. DPF, was the first site to expose me to the world of diapers, like it was for so many others. It provided many years of great memories, and I only hope that it ends with some dignity. -Jess

Dane Cook rocks my world. He has so many good bits, but I love the one about his dream house and especially his trap door that leads to a pit of marshmallows. On one hand you're pissed because you just got sent through a trap door. But, how mad can you be if you land in a pit of marshmallows?

I bought my first pack of diapers before I was 16 which meant that I didn't have a driver's license at the time. Funny thing is that I don't remember being nervous about riding my bike to the store, paying, and riding home without anyone noticing. Actually, what I most remember about my first time was being furious about how small the baby diapers were. In hindsight, I realize it was extremely nieve of me to think they would fit, but at the time I had imagined they would fit like a glove. I later discovered on accident that they made adult disposable diapers. Even then, I wasn't nervous for my first purchase. To this day, I don't get nervous about buying diapers, although I do do a quick check around the store before hand. (Ha! I said do do ) Now that you brought this up, my mind is taking a stroll down memory lane to those very early days of being a DL. I remember all of the baaaad modifications I did to try to get them to fit. It was all trial and error, but mostly error. I tried stapling diapers together, taping them together, taping them to underwear, making diapers out of plastic bags and even taping diapers to myself! Not to change the subject on ya, wv, but anyone else have stories of their first failed attempts? (EDIT) This reminds me of a quote from a very funny move called Airplane! Airplane Passenger: Nervous? Ted Striker: Yes Passenger: Is this your first time? Ted Striker: No, I've been nervous lots of times in the past -Jess

To paraphrase George Carlin, The WORLD is not coming to an end any time soon. HUMANS, may be in danger, but the Earth will still be here.

I've been caught a couple of times. Once a couple of years ago, I went to Walgreens to purchase diapers. The store I went to was just a little outside of town, and I made sure to go pretty late at night just in case. At the store, I did a quick walk around and determined that no one in the store knew me. No problem So I get the Depends and cooly put them on the counter. As soon as I put them down, I hear the chashier say, "Hi Jess!" It turns out that the cashier was the parent of one of my brother's friends. I didn't recognize her, but she knew me. She asked me how I was doing and other small talk. I tried to play it off, but I must've looked horrified! Finally, as I was leaving, I asked her to keep the diaper thing just between us. As far as I know, she has. Another time, I was with one of my friends. We were trying to figure out how to hide some firecrackers or something from my folks. My younger brother, who was 5 at the time blurted out, "why don't you just hide them where you hide your diapers?" My friend turns to me with a puzzled expression. I shrug and say with a nervous laugh, "I don't know what he's talking about." I don't think my friend bought it, but he didn't bring it up again. About a month or so later, I had another close call at a sleepover at the same guy's house. I decided to wear diapers to sleep that night, and unfortunately, my diaper leaked. In the morning, he noticed a small wet spot right where I was sleeping. He asked me if I had an accident. Again, I nervously say that I didn't. So then he says, "Must've been the dog." I nodded my head in agreement , but again, I don't think he bought it.

Not sure where this article belongs, I thought this was the best place. You can read the story from USA today here: http://www.usatoday.com/life/television/ne...-csi-kink_x.htm If you don't read anything else, just know that the infamous King Baby episode on CSI was one of their most watched episodes ever! Why not 'CSI: Kink'? By Bill Keveney, USA TODAY LOS ANGELES —On CSI, the way people live can be as bizarre as the way they die. Dominatrix Lady Heather (Melinda Clarke) and Gil Grissom (William Petersen) tangle during a murder investigation. By Robert Voets, CBS Thursday's episode (CBS, 9 p.m. ET/PT) features a one-eyed pirate, Nazi-like human experimentation and a whip-wielding dominatrix. And, of course, murders. As TV's most-watched scripted show, averaging 26 million viewers a week, CSI has maintained its broad fan base even as its Las Vegas crime-scene sleuths delve into the worlds of full-grown men who favor diapers; people aroused by obese sex partners, aka "chubby chasers"; and "plushies and furries," a fetish group for whom fun fur has nothing to do with fall fashions. Many CSI viewers either enjoy or don't mind taking the one-hour trips to forbidden worlds, viewed from the safety of the living room couch. Some could do without the taboo topics but still like to watch Gil Grissom (William Petersen) and his team use science to solve crimes. Others no longer watch because of the content; the Parents Television Council has named CSI one of the worst shows for families. "It's a matter of individual taste," says Miriam Smith, who teaches broadcast communications arts at San Francisco State University. This week's offering, "Pirates of the Third Reich" (a tribute to CSI and Pirates of the Caribbean producer Jerry Bruckheimer), likely offers something to reinforce all opinions. It descends into the world of a serial-killing Nazi experimenter, one of whose victims is the estranged daughter of dominatrix Lady Heather (The O.C.'s Melinda Clarke). The sixth-season series walks on the kinky side more frequently than its spinoffs in Miami and New York. "It goes back to Vegas, where the show is set. In Vegas, anything goes," executive producer Carol Mendelsohn says. And Thursday's show "is one of our more out-there episodes." "Pirates" is significant for two other reasons. It marks the return of Lady Heather, whose hold on Grissom has made her a fan favorite. And it was written by Jerry Stahl, an author and former heroin addict who wrote a book about his habit (Permanent Midnight). Stahl has served as tour guide for the show's kinkiest trips into the netherworld of infantilism, underground sex-reassignment surgery, self-loathing models and sado-masochism. He introduced Heather and her fetish business in CSI's second season. "He's completely perverse," says Petersen, laughing. The star helped recruit Stahl for the show, saying people are fascinated by unknown, darker realms. "There's no place Jerry won't go. There's nothing Jerry won't look at." Stahl, who declined through a studio spokesman to be interviewed, is nothing if not a lightning rod. His episodes last season, the transsexual-related "Ch-Ch-Changes" and the infant-fetishizing "King Baby," were respectively CSI's most-watched ever, at 31.5 million viewers, and tied for second for the season, with 30.7 million. But some viewers didn't like them. "King Baby," which dealt with breastfeeding, enemas and excrement, drew protests from the Parents Television Council, whose members filed complaints with the Federal Communications Commission. According to the PTC, no FCC response has been received. CSI "tends to delve into areas of kinky sexual fetishes," says the PTC's Melissa Caldwell. "They go into a depth of detail that I think is unnecessary for a show about forensic investigations." 'Darker and edgier' In 2003's "Fur and Loathing," broadcast the day before Halloween, Stahl took CSI to a convention of plushies and furries, people with an affinity for stuffed animals and furry costumes. The episode related a group sexual endeavor known as a "fur-pile." "He introduces Americans to worlds that they wouldn't normally see," says CSI supervising producer Richard Lewis, who directed Thursday's episode. "It's always a little darker and edgier when Jerry writes." CSI visits such dark places to entertain viewers, Mendelsohn says, and many like the vicarious thrill. "We try to think, 'What would our fans like to see? What would be a thrill ride?' Our job is to make them want to come back next week, to create a great hour. That's the guidepost to everything we do." The taboo topics also expand the range of potential plotlines, an important consideration for a show that must produce more than 20 episodes a season. And competition from cable, with its looser content restrictions, pressures broadcasters to present edgier content, San Francisco State's Smith says. By audience measures, CSI has more than achieved its goal; it trails only American Idol. But CSI ranks fifth — one spot ahead of ABC's Desperate Housewives - on the PTC's latest list of the shows it deems most inappropriate for family viewing. That high placement is a combination of subject matter and the large audience, which means more youths are exposed to the shows, Caldwell says. Some viewers confirm they like the occasional peek into unusual lives. "I watch CSI every week and haven't had any problem with the envelope-pushing subject matter. Though I found some of the stuff slightly weird, to say the least, I also find it fascinating to see other perspectives on life and how the CSI crew are able to solve the crimes," says Sam Vowell of Lennon, Mich. However, Jane Lansing, of Minneapolis, has given up on the series. "I was a CSI-aholic when it first came on ... and this year I stopped (watching) the original because the story lines are reaching too far," she says. While acknowledging that CSI episodes such as Stahl's can enter bizarre worlds, CBS is satisfied with its "time-honored system of self-policing" to make certain programs are appropriate for viewers and advertisers, network spokesman Chris Ender says. By now, viewers generally know what to expect from CSI, too, he says. Content-rating labels and advisories also alert viewers. But even CSI's producers say they have their concerns with content and sometimes pull back. "The key to this episode is restraint," Lewis says during a shooting break. And, in the post-Janet Jackson era, scenes that were once OK are now off-limits, Mendelsohn says, acknowledging that the show is concerned about being a target for watchdog groups such as PTC. The wide range of reactions shouldn't be surprising, says S. Robert Lichter, president of the Center for Media and Public Affairs, a non-profit, non-partisan, media-monitoring group. A shocking scene that one viewer finds enticing, another may find appalling. A show such as CSI will try to strike a balance, "trying to figure out how to keep the shock value without it costing them money" from lost advertising or government sanctions. Nothing 'gratuitous' For Petersen, who is also a CSI producer, any kinky subject matter has to make sense for the story. "I just don't want it to be gratuitous." As far as fans are concerned, there's nothing gratuitous about Lady Heather, introduced by Stahl in 2001's "Slaves of Las Vegas." She took Grissom, Catherine Willows (Marg Helgenberger) and viewers into the world of sado-masochism, complete with whips, chains, leather and latex body suits, but also introduced a complex character. Lady Heather interested Clarke because of her contrasts: She was the successful operator of an upscale fetish club and the mother of a daughter attending Harvard, a woman who could give a man a whipping or, as in Grissom's case, serve him tea. "She was a multidimensional person who hadn't been seen, a dominatrix who was much more evolved — enigmatic and empowered," Clarke says. What has made the character a favorite of viewers, despite having appeared in only two previous episodes, is her ability to read the usually opaque Grissom. She's his equal and a strong foil. "Their chemistry is electric. (It) reveals aspects of the Grissom character that we don't get to see with anyone else he interacts with. Tolerance. Depth. Humanity. He feels," says fan Tammy Hoganson of New Prague, Minn., who says she enjoys when CSI delves into "less-than-vanilla subject matter." Grissom, ever the student, is curious about Heather's field of work, just as he was fascinated, not put off, by the plushies and furries convention. Grissom and Heather, Petersen says during a break between scenes with Clarke, are "both anthropologists. He's fascinated by her science, (a look at) the sexual psyche of human beings." There's also a sexual tension between the characters (one that may have been acted upon, depending on how scenes are interpreted from Lady Heather's second visit). Their delicate balance will shift in Thursday's episode, which Mendelsohn says may seem disturbing not for its sexual content but for the horrible experiments of a brilliant scientist she describes as "a Grissom gone wrong." And Lady Heather, a woman who depends on her steely control, will lose it as a victimized mother. The power roles will shift in the desert, Mendelsohn says. Grissom will have "to save her from herself."

I agree with that 100%

Waking up with my pacifier in my mouth is one of my dreams, but it hurts my teeth way too much after a while so I get rid of it.

Question (from the slow person at the back of the room): Does sending you the dollar still qualify to get the age verification? If so, is sending it to your email via paypal the best method? If I can get on my soap-box for a moment....Up until now, I have been purposefully avoiding the chat rooms because they tend to bring bad vibes to the discussion boards (which is the main reason I visit) and because of creepy stories I've heard from others. Now that people have to put some effort into getting approved, I'm actually MORE inclined to join in. My thinking is that it will weed out the bottom 1% which cause 99% of the problems. To illustrate my point, when I was in college, our marching band had an audition process. Even though we took everyone who auditioned, the auditions were extremely helpful because it discouraged those who wanted to join but didn't want to put in any effort. Sometimes making people jump through a few hoops is good. -Jess

Lol - Morv is Funny I've stayed in diapers in a hotel before, it's very doable. I don't think you would need a special mattress pad or anything. If you poke holes in your baby diaper soaker and then poke holes in your inner diaper, you should have 1 really, really absorbant diaper. If you need more protection than that, you should probably invest in some plastic pants to wear over the disposables. As for disposing them, bring some grocery bags with you. When you want to dispose, put them in a bag and dump them in a public trash can. -Jess

^ Commercials are fun, but I'm watching for the game as well. It's going to be a hell of a game < Thinking, "This is fun, why didn't I get involved earlier?" (And stalling so I don't have to go study for the MCAT) v Is ethanol the solution to our energy problems?

That's the stupidest thing I've ever heard of in my life!! That's the sort of thing only an idiot would have on his luggage!

Another good chapter. In addition to being entertaining, it's actually very informative. Like everyone else, I'm very curious about THE PROGRAM. It sounds like it's going to be some sort of medical study. But is it just about diapers, or is there something else, perhaps more kinky involved? We'll have to wait and see. At least if Jason joins the study, he can use it as an excuse if he ever gets busted again.

For those here who are lucky enough to have found a 'mommy' or 'daddy,' heck, even someone who doesn't mind you wearing diapers, my question is how did you do it? How did you find that one special person? Is it one of these things where you actively sought out a 'mommy' through personnel ads or through chat rooms and lo-and-behold you found someone who was A)Single, B)looking for a relationship, and C) happened to live in the same area. Or is it one of these things where you found your partner based on matters not related to diapers, and then one day you casually say, "Honey, I gotta admit, I love them diapers!" To which your spouse replied, "What a coincedence! Me too, sweatie! Let's get you out of those boxers and into some Attends." Both of these scenarios seem equally rediculously unlikely. Yet, it seems to have happened..... How? -Jess ps. Sorry if I seem bitter.

Come to think of it, I've never tried diapering myself in the dark. I'll have to try it next time. Now, Are we supposed to reply with our own 'Can-You' questions? If so I got one. Can you convince a family member or a friend who isn't into diapers to wear a diaper? I've gotten both my brother and a friend to wear diapers. I didn't beg them or force them, or anything like that. In both cases they wanted to know what the deal was with me and diapers and I suggested they try it. Although they both did not dislike it, they didn't like it either. Ohh well, more diapers for me. -Jess

Is it really that bad? I never chat online so i wouldn't know. Maybe I'll have to take a stroll into the chatrooms one day and see for myself. -Jess

Welcome aboard!

Very good! Looks like someone did their homework. I especially appreciate that someone outside our community acknowledges that the psychology behind infantilism is very complex. Nothing grinds my gears more than reading articles where the author claims that the reason I like diapers is because of poor parenting (not true) or because I was potty trained too early (Perhaps, but extremely doubtful) -Jess

I don't know, that's a really good question. Is the diapered mighty mouse on his side or hers?

I was reading Isabella and other's suggestions about ideas for a recognition symbol for the AB/DL community but the more I think about it, the more I agree with Babydoc and others who have suggested that we adopt the safety pin as our recognition symbol. See, the marvelous thing about the safety pin is its simplicity. Not to discredit the hard work that Isabella and others put into their logos (such as the heart logo) but I don't feel those logos represent me, nor would I feel comfortable putting one on my key chain or a bumper sticker. (As a side note, I realize that my objections to the proposed logos only contribute to the lack of a single vision that plagues our community, but that's another topic.) Yet although the safety pin is unassuming - which is good for those who want the logo to be a secret recognition icon - it's very destinctive. I especially like the idea of a safety pin because of how different it is from the 'pride' logos. It's simple, it's elegant, and it's unique. What's there not to like about it? Please tell me what you think. If there's enough approval, then I'd like to take more steps to encourage others to adopt it. -Jess

A couple of things: First, you'll find that you will save yourself a lot of hastle and frustration if you don't throw away your stock everytime you feel guilty. I think almost all of us here wear diapers for enjoyment have at thrown out perfectly good diapers in an effort to quit cold turkey, only to go out and buy some more the next week or month. Second, everyone here enjoys diapers to verying degrees so I can't say how much wearing diapers again will affect you. For me, diapers are a sexual thing and going without diapers is like going without sex. That said, for my first few years in college I didn't wear diapers at all because of a complete lack of privacy. My situation was a little different than yours because I didn't want to give them up, but even so, I found that after a while my desire to wear diapers didn't manifest itself as much. Although I'm happily back in diapers now, I would willingly give them up if I ever found myself in a situation where they could jeopardize my relationship with other people. I guess the whole key is wisdom and moderation. With anything in life, too much or too little of something is always bad and the same applies to diapers. Ohh and on a final note, Attends rock. They have a hands down better look and feel than Depends, but they are very hard to come by so get them if you can. I'm too big to fit into baby diapers and pullups so I don't use them, but I've had horrible experiencies with Wallgreen's adult diapers. -Jess

Lol, this is mildly entertaining and thought provoking. Kudos to Rhezz. I'm going to have to agree with Rhezz and say it looks weird when people who are clearly too big for baby diapers try to make them work. I'm a 36 waist. I've tried to make baby diapers fit, but every time it ends up with a lot of duct tape and a lot of leaks. -Jess

Heh..... Seriously, without knowing the details of your relationship, you may want to find out more about this. It's possible the kid could be a little DL, but more than likely he's not. However, if he does show DL tendencies in the future, I agree with Daily Diaper's stance that it should be discouraged at that young of age and it may be good idea for you to encourage your gf to proceed with caution if that comes up. -Jess

Guess I need to make up some ground. (Which is why I posted this thought instead of keeping it to my self) Keep up the good work!

Well, getting back to the subject at hand I saw the King Baby episode. Overall, I thought it was ok. It could have been better, but it could have been much worse. They made a few snide remarks about the AB lifestyle, and it didn't help that the AB who got knocked off turned out to be a real creep. On the plus side, they did show an AB shop and they had a bunch of people walking around and shopping in the background, which is neet because it made it seem that there are quite a few of us. If anyone else saw it, tell me what they thought. -Jess