Toddler Sissy

Agreed...he doesn't seem to be taunting us or the like; just a guy who's excited to get what he's been hoping for, and came to celebrate it. I say congrats, man.

Unusual, but that's all. One hole is the standard, but you're fine, just something a little strange to look at is all it is. If it starts to bother or worry you consult a urologist about it, but you don't really have any pressing need to do so.

I'm in SLC myself for the time being...also not female IRL though.

This story makes me thankful for my parents' understanding. I had very low self esteem growing up, and this with supportive, loving parents! I was a bedwetter as late as 10 or 11, and I can't imagine what it would have done to me to be diapered and demeaned by my parents in such a cruel way.

I can't recall a time when I didn't want to wear diapers...though, it was never a conscious desire. I didn't think about wearing diapers until about 15 or so, but when diapers would come up in conversations, or on commercials on TV, I'd want to wear them. The first time I diapered myself was at 13, when I powdered myself and used a large t-shirt and some safety pins to diaper myself. I got a job at 16 and bought my first pack of Depends (which disappointed me with their appearance, but pleased me with their absorbency; decidedly better than a t-shirt), some baby food and baby formula, and a bottle and pacifier. I don't recall when the sissy side of me merged with my AB tastes, but eventually the line became blurred and I was both a sissy and an AB.

You can be tracked anywhere you go, but whether you are being tracked or not depends on where you're accessing the internet. I don't think you're being too paranoid, but a tad bit yes. Unless you're a criminal or have drawn attention to yourself in other ways, it's doubtful that anyone is tracking you. You can get IP scramblers or anonymous proxies, and other solutions if you're worried about privacy. The casual observer won't be able to track you, though someone more determined (as pointed out earlier) might be even more suspicious as to what you ARE hiding. Catch 22, no?

I like it for both. I'm trying to convince my girlfriend to use spanking to discipline me as well as gentler ones for pleasure.

I shave because putting on makeup is nigh-impossible with a beard. As for breaking the fantasy, it doesn't matter if I shave or not in that regard: I don't look nearly girlish enough to pass for a female, regardless of how much effort I put into it. I guess I'd shave even if I wasn't going to wear makeup though...somehow, it just wouldn't feel right to me to be a sissy or a baby with a beard (luckily my gf doesn't have a preference with my facial hair).

You're not listening. You -can- give a man an orgasm through anal penetration. He will orgasm, and ejaculate. If you're asking how to make him ejaculate from his anus, that's impossible. Ejaculations only occur in the sex organs in either gender; lots of activities will make you orgasm, but those orgasms will all be from the same body part. How do you make him come from anal penetration? Prostate stimulation, and plenty of it. It'll take some practice, but you can do it.

I totally understand where you're coming from. I'm very embarassed and secretive of my diapers because, simply, I have no good explanation for them (I'd rather not discuss my sexual tastes with anyone who happens to poke their nose in the wrong part of my room). If I was incontinent, although the condition itself would certainly be unpleasant, I don't see how I would be ashamed of it; it's medical. Then again, like you, that's just how I perceive it from my point of view. The incont. people who say otherwise obviously see it differently.

Use WestsideRentals.com. They're an excellent resource for cheap rentals throughout LA and orange county. Trust me, I moved out to LA from out of state with less than 1,000 dollars to cover my moving expenses; it can be done. Also try craigslist; it's not as good at finding reliable roomies (some people post the same stock photos instead of the actual apartment, so I'd recommend visiting ones found on craigslist before moving in for sure) but it does have very cheap rentals or just rooms for sublet. Good luck, and still consider a sit-down talk with your parents in the mean time.

I got named Cathy by my Mommy...before that I preferred Katie. She didn't know about my choice before she named me Cathy either, just a great coincidence. EDIT: Turns out Cathy was an example (easy mistake since she usually addresses me as "baby" during our play). She chose Kensie, because she hates Cathie.

This happened with a few stores near me as well! I don't buy diapers from the store (and I prefer cloth anyway), so it's not too big of a deal I guess, but it makes me wonder what's going on.

I agree...it's very unfortunate, but the problem is that if you're still there after 18, you're subject to their whims. I suggest what a previous poster said: A serious conversation with them, civil and polite, asking why. Point out that you have complied with them so far, you saw a psychologist, and even she has said it's fine, so what has changed their minds? If they won't tell you, I'd say consider pressing the issue (point out you're not trying to change their minds, just trying to understand what's happened to change their minds); if you can find out why it bothers them, then you'll understand their point of view and a compromise may be possible. If that fails, throw away your diapers, and find a job. Once you're able to move out, do so. It's hard, but you'll need to do it one day, might as well be sooner so you can keep the comfort of your diapers.

Talk with him, and tell him firstly, that you -do- want to satisfy all his needs, and understand them (unless you don't, but that's another story). Explain to him it's so new to you, you need time to take everything in, learn about this, and understand it. Ask him to help you, suggest that you both try things one at a time, and then do so, learning with each activity what he likes, and how he likes it done, so you can gradually get comfortable with being his Mommy and also learn how to do it. Remember, he should consider himself lucky you're this understanding: most AB/DLs never find a spouse willing to cater to their fantasy. You need to let him know that you will need time, and help to get through this. He should only be your baby in play; he should be a guide right now, helping you learn about this new, very different side of him and helping you find your place in it. If he can't understand that, then he's being selfish and insensitive (almost to the point of behaving just like the baby he expects you to treat him like). I hope you two work things out, and manage to get over this bumpy road together.

My advice: Think long and hard about your fiance. Does she arouse you? Do you like having sex with her? (if you haven't done so, why not? Saving for marriage, or looking for excuses?) If you could -never- be with a man for the rest of your life, physically, would you be satisfied with your fiance for sexual gratification? You probably aren't gay, unless you're deeply closeted, but you might certainly be bisexual, in which case ending this marriage would be a terrible idea, since a bisexual person enjoys sex with both genders AND this woman already is being supportive of your diaper fantasies. After you determine your sexual orientation, also ask yourself this: why do you want to have sex with men? No, seriously, why? Physically does it seem pleasant? Do men turn you on? Or do you like how it makes you feel when a man uses you as he would a woman? You might only be entertaining the fantasies because they humiliate or degrade you. If that's what you're into, a real man might be repulsive but the emotions won't be. Now, if you have decided that you're either gay, or that you -need- to do these things with men, you have to have a long, frank talk with your fiance about it. She deserves to know before you two are committed in marriage. If not (or if she is supportive and wants to help you find a male lover/one night stand), the next step is to work on being mommy and baby. Talk with her about her comfort levels, try reading stories written on this site and others looking for ideas, and keep going slowly. Remember to keep asking her about what makes her uncomfortable, what she's willing to try out, and go at her pace so she doesn't get overwhelmed and run away. Don't be discouraged if things are slow now; you have a woman who is supportive and trying, you're essentially at the finish line of the race! Don't stumble when you're so close. Good luck, and hope to hear from you soon.

Is that so? I'd love to try that out sometime, but neither me nor my "mommy" care for messy diapers.

I think it's perfectly fair to say that most of them are true (I wouldn't say all are true, I'm sure some are fictional flights of fancy like any other variety of "true" story), and that in those cases it usually did lead to their fetish today. With me that is not the case. I -was- threatened with diapers as a punishment for something (I forget what I had done to warrant the threat), but I remember secretly wanting to get punished for it. It took me a while to get up the nerve, but I managed to get in trouble and test my father's threat, but he wound up scolding me instead. I don't think they knew I wanted to be diapered (I had been genuinely shocked when they made the threat), I just had parents who wouldn't do that. I had hoped to be diapered in two other situations: I was a bedwetter until I was 10 or so, and my parents were at their wits end as to how to get me to stop. They had told me over and over to get up at night and go, but I always responded that I wasn't awake when it happened. This was true; I wasn't intentionally wetting the bed (I'm an extremely deep sleeper, it's tough to wake me once I'm out). They went to a doctor with me for help, and he prescribed some medication that did the trick, dashing my hopes I'd get to be diapered. The second time was in High School; I fractured my tailbone, and it really hurt to walk. I'd hoped the doctor would have me stay in bed for a few weeks. Much to my chagrin, I wasn't put in diapers while the fracture healed (a long shot, I know, but it was the only hope I had by that point). So, some people may get their fetish from diaper discipline, but others (like me) already craved diapers before their parents even had a chance to start disciplining them.

Aww, now don't say that Jennie...I've always enjoyed reading your posts, and I feel what you said had some meaning here..

What does your DNA say you are again, Dragon? DNA testing is not the almighty God of Gender you make it out to be. That penis between your legs and that Y chromosome in your DNA say something very different about you than you'd like the rest of us to hear, don't they? Oh, fine, keep saying DNA is the only way to measure gender. Maybe one day you'll learn the hard way just how stupid you sound (as if putting sissies and TG people in the same boat isn't ignorant enough).

Do a little reading on her/his posting history, and you'll see exactly why. Hell, read the entire thread and you'll get it.

I don't see why it should matter even if it IS a choice. Let's pretend that homosexuality is a choice for a second: why should that have anything to do with their civil rights? That's a serious question. I don't understand why there's such a huge fight over it being a choice or being born that way, because there's so many other lifestyle choices people make that aren't discriminated against, why should anyone choose homosexuality to discriminate over? Does anyone have a valid, non-religious reason to discriminate against them? If not, I say they should be given equal rights regardless of whether it's genetic, a choice, both or neither. I just don't understand why everyone's so caught up in "It's a choice," "No it's not,". Shouldn't gays be trying to say "We're people regardless of whether or not it's a choice, and we deserve the same rights as other people"? Just seems like the whole choice issue is a waste of time.

Lockable trunk's a good way to go, and easy enough to explain. Just say you wanted some extra storage space for your stuff (if you're anything like most of us at that age, your parents won't have any trouble believing you have clutter that needs taking care of). Doesn't have to be very big either; although I had one that was as wide as a queen-size bed (far too huge for just diapers), they make smaller ones that you could easily fit in your closet. Failing that, get an opaque plastic container with a snap-on lid. This works just fine as long as your parents aren't nosy. If you parents have a tendency to poke into anything that isn't hidden or sealed shut, you may have to stick with something you can lock. EDIT: Do you have any hobbies or crafts you're into? That's another great option. Buy a container for your supplies (one that isn't see-through), and store your diapers at the bottom, then hobby supplies on top, covering it up. Helps keep nosy parents at bay since they aren't likely to dig around once they see it's just Johnny's paints or tools or whatever in that box.

DNA don't lie, as you say Dragon. Genetic Woman: XX Chromosome Genetic Male: XY Chromosome You: Neither of the above. Don't believe me? Pick up a biology textbook. According to your straight-jacket opinion, you're NOT A GENETIC WOMAN. Cry about it all you like, insult TGs and say whatever you please, you said genetics and DNA are what matter. Guess what honey? Your DNA says you're NOT a woman, and you can have ALL the therapy, doctor visits, surgery, or whatever the hell else you've had in your life and you are NEVER EVER EVER going to be one, just like a TG isn't. Deal with it. The people on this board are perfectly willing to embrace you, just like the rest of us, with open arms. But no, you can't have that, you're a misandrist bigot who hates men and hates TGs, and you -refuse- to show them any level of tolerance. The outrageous part is if any genetic girl held the same view you hold, she'd call you a disgusting freak to your face! Can't you see that, or are you so truly blinded with ignorant hatred you can't tell you're shooting yourself in the foot with your tired, poorly-spelled argument? You know what, I have grown a pair of balls, and a real penis to match 'em. I'm here telling you to your face what I think of you and your hypocritical nonsense. I'm not the one starting topics as thinly-veiled attacks on a group of people and tee-heeing over it. I'm not the one who is too cowardly, or perhaps too stupid to realize that my arguments make no logical sense when applied to myself. Better than suggesting I get a brain (nice insult, coming from someone who couldn't meet 3rd grade standards for spelling and punctuation, good going sweetheart!), why don't you point that browser of yours away from our community, because I think I speak for all of us when I say someone who is openly insulting and cruel to others here is not welcome. We're tired of your hate, Dragon. Hit the road, and don't let the virtual door hit your transgendered wanna-be G-girl ass on the way out.

I don't mean to seem rude, since everyone here has been so civil in discussing it, but I really think this thread should stay on topic rather than being a discussion about religion and sexuality. I think I know some of the intolerance the OP was referring to, and if I do, it's safe to say any of you know precisely where I stand on it. I really think something needs to be done, and it's often up to those affected by it to take action at first. I'm not LGBT myself, although I can sympathize greatly with them (long, personal story I'd rather not go into here, so please just take me at my word), and I have a major problem with the fact that in this community, a place that should be a safe haven for all of us, people are espousing intolerant, hateful opinions and acting as though not only is that acceptable here, but that those who disagree are the ones with the problem. If this community can't be a safe place for all of us, then where can we go to be safe? All of us, regardless of sex, gender, or preference need to unite to tell these people their attitudes are not welcome here. P.S. Okay, fine, since everyone is being so incredibly polite about it, I'll weigh in on the off-topic part. I'm Christian, I believe in God. As far as sexual orientation goes, I feel it's God's place to judge, not mine. Christian means living your life as Christ would, and Jesus was of the attitude that you accept everyone and not judge them; showing love to your fellow man is a core part of the Christian faith. What kind of Christian would I be if I didn't love gays and lesbians even if their lifestyle is sinful? A terrible one. Besides, even if it is a sin, so is alcoholism and lying...you don't see us shunning people who lie like they do gay people, and that's hypocritical.