Toddler Sissy

Agreed...he doesn't seem to be taunting us or the like; just a guy who's excited to get what he's been hoping for, and came to celebrate it. I say congrats, man.

Unusual, but that's all. One hole is the standard, but you're fine, just something a little strange to look at is all it is. If it starts to bother or worry you consult a urologist about it, but you don't really have any pressing need to do so.

I'm in SLC myself for the time being...also not female IRL though.

This story makes me thankful for my parents' understanding. I had very low self esteem growing up, and this with supportive, loving parents! I was a bedwetter as late as 10 or 11, and I can't imagine what it would have done to me to be diapered and demeaned by my parents in such a cruel way.

I can't recall a time when I didn't want to wear diapers...though, it was never a conscious desire. I didn't think about wearing diapers until about 15 or so, but when diapers would come up in conversations, or on commercials on TV, I'd want to wear them. The first time I diapered myself was at 13, when I powdered myself and used a large t-shirt and some safety pins to diaper myself. I got a job at 16 and bought my first pack of Depends (which disappointed me with their appearance, but pleased me with their absorbency; decidedly better than a t-shirt), some baby food and baby formula, and a bottle and pacifier. I don't recall when the sissy side of me merged with my AB tastes, but eventually the line became blurred and I was both a sissy and an AB.

You can be tracked anywhere you go, but whether you are being tracked or not depends on where you're accessing the internet. I don't think you're being too paranoid, but a tad bit yes. Unless you're a criminal or have drawn attention to yourself in other ways, it's doubtful that anyone is tracking you. You can get IP scramblers or anonymous proxies, and other solutions if you're worried about privacy. The casual observer won't be able to track you, though someone more determined (as pointed out earlier) might be even more suspicious as to what you ARE hiding. Catch 22, no?

I like it for both. I'm trying to convince my girlfriend to use spanking to discipline me as well as gentler ones for pleasure.

I shave because putting on makeup is nigh-impossible with a beard. As for breaking the fantasy, it doesn't matter if I shave or not in that regard: I don't look nearly girlish enough to pass for a female, regardless of how much effort I put into it. I guess I'd shave even if I wasn't going to wear makeup though...somehow, it just wouldn't feel right to me to be a sissy or a baby with a beard (luckily my gf doesn't have a preference with my facial hair).

You're not listening. You -can- give a man an orgasm through anal penetration. He will orgasm, and ejaculate. If you're asking how to make him ejaculate from his anus, that's impossible. Ejaculations only occur in the sex organs in either gender; lots of activities will make you orgasm, but those orgasms will all be from the same body part. How do you make him come from anal penetration? Prostate stimulation, and plenty of it. It'll take some practice, but you can do it.

I totally understand where you're coming from. I'm very embarassed and secretive of my diapers because, simply, I have no good explanation for them (I'd rather not discuss my sexual tastes with anyone who happens to poke their nose in the wrong part of my room). If I was incontinent, although the condition itself would certainly be unpleasant, I don't see how I would be ashamed of it; it's medical. Then again, like you, that's just how I perceive it from my point of view. The incont. people who say otherwise obviously see it differently.

Use WestsideRentals.com. They're an excellent resource for cheap rentals throughout LA and orange county. Trust me, I moved out to LA from out of state with less than 1,000 dollars to cover my moving expenses; it can be done. Also try craigslist; it's not as good at finding reliable roomies (some people post the same stock photos instead of the actual apartment, so I'd recommend visiting ones found on craigslist before moving in for sure) but it does have very cheap rentals or just rooms for sublet. Good luck, and still consider a sit-down talk with your parents in the mean time.

I got named Cathy by my Mommy...before that I preferred Katie. She didn't know about my choice before she named me Cathy either, just a great coincidence. EDIT: Turns out Cathy was an example (easy mistake since she usually addresses me as "baby" during our play). She chose Kensie, because she hates Cathie.

This happened with a few stores near me as well! I don't buy diapers from the store (and I prefer cloth anyway), so it's not too big of a deal I guess, but it makes me wonder what's going on.

I agree...it's very unfortunate, but the problem is that if you're still there after 18, you're subject to their whims. I suggest what a previous poster said: A serious conversation with them, civil and polite, asking why. Point out that you have complied with them so far, you saw a psychologist, and even she has said it's fine, so what has changed their minds? If they won't tell you, I'd say consider pressing the issue (point out you're not trying to change their minds, just trying to understand what's happened to change their minds); if you can find out why it bothers them, then you'll understand their point of view and a compromise may be possible. If that fails, throw away your diapers, and find a job. Once you're able to move out, do so. It's hard, but you'll need to do it one day, might as well be sooner so you can keep the comfort of your diapers.

Talk with him, and tell him firstly, that you -do- want to satisfy all his needs, and understand them (unless you don't, but that's another story). Explain to him it's so new to you, you need time to take everything in, learn about this, and understand it. Ask him to help you, suggest that you both try things one at a time, and then do so, learning with each activity what he likes, and how he likes it done, so you can gradually get comfortable with being his Mommy and also learn how to do it. Remember, he should consider himself lucky you're this understanding: most AB/DLs never find a spouse willing to cater to their fantasy. You need to let him know that you will need time, and help to get through this. He should only be your baby in play; he should be a guide right now, helping you learn about this new, very different side of him and helping you find your place in it. If he can't understand that, then he's being selfish and insensitive (almost to the point of behaving just like the baby he expects you to treat him like). I hope you two work things out, and manage to get over this bumpy road together.