Yuna

OMG this made me laugh so hard! I am so happy for you! Isn't it wonderful to not hold in your frustration? Sounds like he's really happy too.

I can relate to almost always putting on a better face than how I feel, although for me the pain is physical, the mechanic involved is similar. When I am just at the end of my rope, I also kinda get younger, but more like a toddler instead of the kid I normally am and I just retreat to my bed and the dark and ball up. I hope too that you can find a special friend who can relate to you in the way you need. *hugs*

I've read over and over again in the newspaper that so and so was had a mental condition, or that they were seen staggering, and many other descriptive statements. So I kinda find that hard to believe. I can actually remember one time probably last year where cops tasered ab autistic person playing with two toys (of which neither was anything close to a weapon), the officer claimed the person was armed.... I have family in the police, and so I can also tell you that they are the absolute last kind of person I would ever rely to act in a person's good interests. Their sense of morality becomes VERY twisted over time and you get lots of sick groupthinking going on, and acceptance of cruelty because they have experienced it from people they are trying to arrest. It's not that they are bad people, but ok, it does attract some pretty bad people...but I mean they are not all bad...just...corrupted. Maybe you think, oh I am nothing like the person mentioned in the OP. I could never be arrested or harassed by the police because I am much more subtle than that person. Or I am much more careful... Do you forget the ways that police used to commonly raid gay bars without cause in the USA and beat the people inside? Do you forget the black civil rights protests and how the police responded to them just a few decades ago? The police do not have a earned reputation in this country of protecting minorities and guess what, people who are adults who wear diapers are a minority at least in the US and probably in every country in the world.

But the OP didn't mention any of those things...

Hellos there Blake, I just read your thread here for the first time and I wanted to thank you for being so open and honest with us all. I found your journey very interesting. I love all the details and am shocked more people have not replied. I hope you are having a wonderful life! *hugs*

What actually scares me about this is that there is not one valid reason at least listed here why the cops had a reason to harass this individual making poor choices. Sure I don't think he should have been doing that...but what about it was illegal and therefore requiring an officer's attention?

Rosalie.bent, are you the child or the parent? Or both, but with a partner and you switch? I'm kinda like Sasami from Tenchi where I do adult things like cooking (with a cute Hello Kitty apron) and cleaning for the house, but then I like also like coloring and playing with my ponies. One thing I have heard from multiple therapist or special ed people is how they are amazed at how I have not lost any of my childlike innocence or my sense of wonder about the world. I prefer the directness of children, in speach and motivation. While children still lie sometimes, they do not murder the every moments truth with their speach.

I loved that the local theatre here ean Tomboy for 2 weeks. I loved it so much, I just love films that do not feel they need to take you on a Hero's Journey to tell you a story.

Yay for the new dress! Just don't forget to smile hun I needs to get myself a more babyish dress too.

I can identify with the first three things, but not so much with the 2nd three. I mean, I am a kid, I have come to slowly accept it, largely because I was incorrectly tought that I would grow up. For me the struggle has been: Trying to be an adult. Trying to think like an adult. And trying to trust adults. I must say though that for all of the difficulties it can cause me to not be able to be an adult like most people my "age", I must say that I am a most responsible child and I like to think that my personality contains much of the best of both age-worlds. Lots of the advantages that adults have over me, like with the art of deception are not things which I wish to learn and employ on the people around me. Being able to be a "normal" adult sure would be easier to make it through life, but I have learned that it sure isn't as much fun, even if both are equally stressful.

Oh! I am so happy for you! I never thought I would want to give up enough of my independance to want to have a mommy or daddy, but once I did, I found it to be really nice. I find it odd that she doesn't want you to have a onesie, but hopefully you can remedy that sometime soon. Just keep letting her know how she means the world to you and eventually you should be able to realize your onesie dream.

I kinda fall between the ages of 6-12 myself and I wear diapers too. It's ok to be a kid and still have accidents or to even just need some extra comfort that padding and textures can provide. I found the only way to be me was to just force my true self upon the world. The longer you dress your age and show everyone around you how wounderful and the fact that you are different but not dangerous, the more the world will open up to you. That all being said, you also have to be able to occasionally try to think like an errr adult (?) and manage the fears of an irrational human near you...however at least in my experience being trans is far more dicey than being a little tranny girl. Being a little girl 24/7 I think actually made my life safer. I hope you have a wonderful, wonderful time here! The internet, and by that I mean forums really are a splendid place to become 100% comfortable in your own skin. *hugs* I hope someday you have the island of your dreams!

I did see a hello kitty ring recently in a nearby city for sale, but I wasn't sure how it would work with a cath. I guess I might just have to check out that shop again while cathed so I can see how it feels.

I was partially pushing things...just the tiniest bit, but as I was posting I was reminded of, and I mean this is the kindest way, sissy boys who like dollies. When I was young I used to recreate the Great Pony War with a mix of Transformers and MLPs so there's no reason why toys of different genders cannot mix.

Sanrio makes a hello kitty one which is commonly available.