diaper fetish evolution

[wannatrydiapers]

How has your diaper fetish evolved?

I first started thinking how would be like for me to put on a diaper, without having any medical necessity or whatever… at first I pretended that this kind of thought has never crossed my mind, It seemed to weird, but then I just started thinking more and more about diapers so I couldn't lie to myself anymore. Pretty soon I started searcing on internet some photos of adult diapers and adults wearing them and quickly I discovered the existing of the abdl community. I wanted to try a diaper so strong and was sure that would happen one day. Finally I did what I would never tell I would do: I went to a store and bought a pack of adult diapers (like a week before I was sure that I would never buy diapers if not through internet because of descretion). When I tried them I figured out that was it was a sexual thing for me and that right after I did my deed I wanted just to get off and throw away the nappy. I thought that diapers were something sporadic for me and that I could not using them as long as I wanted. I thought I just needed to try them for the first time and that's all. Of course it was not actually true, First I never felt like I even wanted to wet them, but lately I discovered that I like also how diapers swell up when wetted and enjoy how thick and heavy they become. I also fill them with just some water.

Now I started to think about wearing for longer periods and the idea gets me very excited… I'm a little bit scared about that. One day I put on a diaper and tried to just stay in it. I was in a constant state of arousal and I couldn't keep me from watching myself padded down there… I was thinking that something was wrong with me. I think in this way I cannot exclude that one day I will be a 24/7 wearer and will not be able to get back… I don't know what to think right now

[Txdiapered]

This is something many of us went through. The exact thing. I wanted to be 24/7 for many years after I started wearing for more than the sexual part. It evolved slowly and I started wearing for a day or two. Then for a week. Then an auto accident 13 years ago, took my bladder and bowel control away. (Please don’t drink and drive! Thanks to a drunk driver I lost all control) So now I wear 24/7 due to need. And besides the way I got to this point I would not change anything.

[rusty pins]

When you think of us older diaper wearers, we had no support way back when!  No internet or social media and no good premium quality diapers!  The only way to get diapers back then was to walk in a store and buy them if you could find them.  With incontinence not talked about as much or as open as it is today, think of how you would feel going into a store, picking up a package of cheap adult diapers and carrying them to the check out counter in front of a lot of other people.  For people today, it probably wouldn't seem like a big deal, but back then it was quite a different situation.  Think of how you feel these days knowing there are websites like this one and all kinds of information on adults who wear diapers for whatever reason.  Also how easy it is to search the web for adult diapers of any kind and just order them shipped to your house with just a few clicks of your mouse.  We old timers had none of that, plus we all thought we were totally nuts for wanting to wear diapers and wet ourselves for enjoyment.  Virtually no support out there unless you might find some letter in a porno magazine from someone admitting they too wore diapers for fun.  You went around constantly thinking you were weird and the only one who liked wearing diapers.  With the internet, the biggest thing is you know you are not the only one and there are thousands of people like you all over the world.  That does help just knowing there are others, but it also helps when you start talking with them and reading about their own stories and drawing parallels with your own life.  I think the older you get and the more you have done it, the less you think about weather what you are doing is crazy, wrong, sick, whatever.  Over time you have done it so much that you get comfortable with your feelings and while some still may not want others to know, they have come to terms with their diaper wearing and are OK with it, not as nervous about it or having all these internal questions about weather what they are doing is not normal.

[Sailor Snow]

At first it was i didn't wear them for long and didn't wear them often also i only wore them at home and was somewhat determined never to tell anybody. But now im very comfterable in them dont have trouble wearing them at other places besides at home and most of the time use a few each week and i have told a few people about it.

[KyleABDL]

ive been abdl for 15years now, didnt really know it or accept it the first 6, hated myself for it. "why cant i just be normal"..... to diapers as much as possible through puberty, even makeshift ones. after i turned 18 and had reasonable freedom and privacy i experimented (the scientist in me demanded i be fair and at least try it, critique it, evaluate the outcome) came to figure out my likes dislikes and what i wanted out of it. 

now i know i dont want to be 24/7, lose control, or have my adult faculties taken away. but i found out i alsi enjoy babies/kids toys, moreso than most video games, tv, or books, but i still enjoy those things, why shouldnt i do both little/adult activities pending my mood? 

from a math perspective a 10pack of ABDL diapers, 1 coloring book(60pages 120 activities 20min a piece (40hrs) and a 64pack of crayons (28-40$ total pending diaper brand and shipping) provides more fun/time and it out values a 60$ video game which at best nowadays lasts 50-80hours. (assuming it isnt a non refundable blunder)

a reading habit can be ultra expensive at 8-20$ a book unless you can subscribe to a service.

tv prices + cable dish  are outrageous......

ideally id like to wear all the time, i just think the clothes and the diapers are super cute, comfortable, and its actually something i WANT to put on instead of boring normal drab. but whatever, i understand public opinion.

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TLDR - diaper curiosity turned into ABDL lifestyle, now after puberty im still putting on diapers regardless and just relaxing and playing like a toddler. and now is just another hobby that i like, more cost efficient than other hobbies. and it would be neat if everyone would stop assuming the worst. 

do i want to be 24/7?.... no

do i want to further my ABDL lifestyle? also no, i already figured out what works and doesnt for me.

do i want a partner/friend who accepts ALL parts of me? absolutely

[Warmwetandcozy]

At first I was about 75%DL and 25% AB when I came out to my girlfriend she started babying me to death and I very quickly became more AB than DL now I'm about 95%AB having a loving partner who treats me like a baby has made it so much easier to regress that I just don't feel the need to engage in DL activities anymore 

[Diaperedrider]

On 3/16/2019 at 8:01 AM, rusty pins said:

When you think of us older diaper wearers, we had no support way back when!  No internet or social media and no good premium quality diapers!  The only way to get diapers back then was to walk in a store and buy them if you could find them.  With incontinence not talked about as much or as open as it is today, think of how you would feel going into a store, picking up a package of cheap adult diapers and carrying them to the check out counter in front of a lot of other people.  For people today, it probably wouldn't seem like a big deal, but back then it was quite a different situation.  Think of how you feel these days knowing there are websites like this one and all kinds of information on adults who wear diapers for whatever reason.  Also how easy it is to search the web for adult diapers of any kind and just order them shipped to your house with just a few clicks of your mouse.  We old timers had none of that, plus we all thought we were totally nuts for wanting to wear diapers and wet ourselves for enjoyment.  Virtually no support out there unless you might find some letter in a porno magazine from someone admitting they too wore diapers for fun.  You went around constantly thinking you were weird and the only one who liked wearing diapers.  With the internet, the biggest thing is you know you are not the only one and there are thousands of people like you all over the world.  That does help just knowing there are others, but it also helps when you start talking with them and reading about their own stories and drawing parallels with your own life.  I think the older you get and the more you have done it, the less you think about weather what you are doing is crazy, wrong, sick, whatever.  Over time you have done it so much that you get comfortable with your feelings and while some still may not want others to know, they have come to terms with their diaper wearing and are OK with it, not as nervous about it or having all these internal questions about weather what they are doing is not normal.

Rusty is exactly right as I am an older DL myself. Attends and Depends were the best diaper that was out there and at the time Attends were way better than the Depends.  I'm surprised that they are no longer readily available today.

On top of what Rusty said above I used to travel to an out of town store and just pray that nobody I knew would be there and see me either walking to the register with the pack of diapers or people gathering being behind me at the register. My heart would pound all the way through the process until I was back in my car but at the same time it was very exciting. 

[le Hollandais]

On 3/16/2019 at 7:01 AM, rusty pins said:

When you think of us older diaper wearers, we had no support way back when!  No internet or social media and no good premium quality diapers!  The only way to get diapers back then was to walk in a store and buy them if you could find them.  With incontinence not talked about as much or as open as it is today, think of how you would feel going into a store, picking up a package of cheap adult diapers and carrying them to the check out counter in front of a lot of other people.  For people today, it probably wouldn't seem like a big deal, but back then it was quite a different situation.  Think of how you feel these days knowing there are websites like this one and all kinds of information on adults who wear diapers for whatever reason.  Also how easy it is to search the web for adult diapers of any kind and just order them shipped to your house with just a few clicks of your mouse.  We old timers had none of that, plus we all thought we were totally nuts for wanting to wear diapers and wet ourselves for enjoyment.  Virtually no support out there unless you might find some letter in a porno magazine from someone admitting they too wore diapers for fun.  You went around constantly thinking you were weird and the only one who liked wearing diapers.  With the internet, the biggest thing is you know you are not the only one and there are thousands of people like you all over the world.  That does help just knowing there are others, but it also helps when you start talking with them and reading about their own stories and drawing parallels with your own life.  I think the older you get and the more you have done it, the less you think about weather what you are doing is crazy, wrong, sick, whatever.  Over time you have done it so much that you get comfortable with your feelings and while some still may not want others to know, they have come to terms with their diaper wearing and are OK with it, not as nervous about it or having all these internal questions about weather what they are doing is not normal.

Couldn't have said it better.