KyleABDL

brahms ^.^

smidgin of an update. wearing is the easy part. but now we move onto the real problem. turns put disposing of 2 diapers regularly per day is turning into quite the problem. I can only stash 7-8 wet diapers per week before i clean and take them out with my critters cage as was the usual method (double bagged for up too that length of time) i suppose i could stop on my way home from work somewhere but thats an extra trip i dont really feel like making. so for now ive resolved to just cut back on usage but not wearing.

I have a haven at both work and while sleeping, and its absolutely wonderful. Its super easy for me to conceal around everyone except for close family. I thought about goodnites during those last couple of hours but I just wouldnt feel safe to have a full fledged accident in them. not quite sure when I'll take the plunge but at this point it seems inevitable. Wearing bear hugz at night and northshore air supreme while at work. Easy 45min lunch opportunity for a change if need be but its not needed. I get the urge around every 40mins-1hr during the day, and I choose to let it out or to hold for a better position to be in and thats probably right where Id like to be, for now. Like every time, id chose family in a heartbeat, way more important to me, and id always retain the ability to wear pretend big boy undies and maintain control around them, but at this point undies genuinely feel bad or uncomfortable to me, and that thought makes me sad, and for the remaining 8hrs of the day im not happy. *and its when im with my family* not that its because of them, but because of how hard it is for me to keep pretending to be something im not around them.

Alright, so new work place, its finally time for me to start branching out on my own, (go me!) Just trying to get a good feel for when its a good time to try, start, or what necessities need to be in place before I attempt to do so. easy 35hr week. minimal activity, maybe sitting or standing most of the day. Only break is a 30min lunch middle of the day. outfits will typically be jeans or khakis and a button down and sneakers. I dont have any intention of using while at work, but just wearing gives me that comfort. (and lets face it, diapees rule undies drool) any tips, pointers, or suggestions from the more seasoned wearers?

id be interested in cartoon briefs, designs like trains, plains, pirates, robots, dinosaurs, animals, and sports. back zipper footie pajamas too! anything fleece, i wore as a kid but for the life of me nothing is for grownups.

?? mmm nope nope nope nope nope nope nope. i will march my tooshie right back to the nursery before i even THINK of dealing with that.

did a 6month stint where i used only bottles and it was fun but there were def times i was THIRSTY and just wanted to chug and the bottle wasnt doing it for me. so now just ultra casually for me.

its not about ABDL. its about the girls used in music videos and music industry in general being borderline underage if they arent already already lieing just to get in. theres extreme pressure to be as "young" and beautiful in the music industry because thats what sells. the song does throw flak at that notion in a good way basically saying "the actresses and dancers are simply too young." (often performing lewd acts) and i agree with the msg overall.

For laying in bed, start with a head and neck up position, sitting on the edge if you can. then move slightly closer to laying down. break the motion up into intermediate positions from sitting, into laying horiziontally. i know it sounds cliche, but it does take practice, and thankfully after the first or second time it becomes MUCH easier. in public it gets monumentally easier when you accept that only a gigantic butthead would say anything nasty to someone who potentially needs diapers. (and even then, why would you care what a person who makes fun of someone in diapers thinks?) secondly only someone genuinely caring and trying to help you would say "um excuse me your diaper is showing." third the only other possibility is to meet another YOU and those odds are (please go buy me a lotto ticket) so out of 5000 people, which is A LOT, maybe 3 would notice. and of those 3, they choose to keep their mouth shut out of respect. so keep your head high, be modest about your wearing, and youre pretty much immune to any negativity because of it. people really do assume medical need first and foremost unless you tell them otherwise.

some are screw tops, some are just pop offs. thats the first step in figuring out which one you have. then wash it, then fill it, then pop the lid back on. and if it feels like nothings coming out, thats normal, hole is tiny and you gotta work real hard sucking at it to get anything.

.... first little tinkle now starting my sci fi movie for the night. prepd a hot choclate to sip on and nom some smarshmellows.

for me, 1 diaper a week, maybe 2. so thats a pack about every 2 months for me. a case will last a good half year or a little more..... (until i start 24/7)

i look at the cost like this.... im not drinking or smoking, or eating out 3x a week. so many other more expensive hobbies exist like boating, woodworking, arts+crafts, video games.... so its not terribly expensive in the long run. but not 0 either.

"oh no, if it isnt the consequences of my own actions" i strongly suggest an extended 2+ week trial before taking a plunge like that. and the outcome may not be desireable for you in the long run. if youre financially independant, than go right ahead, do what you like. but if you still need mom and pop for food and roof id pass and wait a bit. living with family, its not an "if" they find out, but "when" and that when could very well be the first day, do you have an explanation lined up for that? are you prepared to go to a family members pool party and give a vague explanation why you cant go in? not trying to discourage you from doing what you want, but be extra sure you can plan long term with it in mind.

homemade involving paper towels.... then goodnites / pampers baby diapers then first true adult diaper was depends which were so awful i just threw out. first real abdl diaper i tried was ABU preschools.