DiaperedAllTheTime

Crinkly DC Amors...I can hear them every step I take!

I am all about this for sure.

Even as someone who wears diapers permanently I still fight the same feelings you are describing from time to time. Just today I contemplated not wearing a pink diaper to work because I felt ashamed to do so. I even went back into my house I got a plain white diaper should I need to change at work. With ABDL feelings you never really know what side of the crib you are going to wake up on day to day. The important thing is to be honest with yourself and to accept yourself for the unique individual you are. The great thing about ABDL feelings is you can be discreet about them. The world does not have to know you desire to be a little or that you desire to be diapered. The only person that needs to accept this about you is you. For years I fought my desires to be a baby girl and I basically lived life miserable. Now that I have given in to those feelings I am emotionally in such a better place even if I feel ashamed about it from time to time. For some of us, diapers are that important. The good thing in today's world is it is so easy to realize you are not alone with your feelings. Although this fetish is unique there are many more people just like you that feel the same way. This forum is a safe place for you to share your padded feelings and desires regardless of what they may be and no one will judge you for doing so.

I would agree but I believe that they do exist. My wife and I have delved into both the cuckolding lifestyle and chastity scenes and there are wives who are extremely dominant and controlling on more than a regular basis. I believe that that woman out there exists.

I definitely wished my wife was like this. We have tried living a FLR lifestyle but it is simply too hard for my wife to be constantly strict and mean. I have even tried paying her off with lavish gifts in exchange for her iron fist but you just simply cannot change someone's pesonality. I would kill to be with a woman that spent all day making sure I tend to all her needs and takes pleasure in humiliating me constantly.

You are absolutely right that I enjoy wearing diapers. I do not know if I could even be happy outside of diapers. I have most definitely put myself first. One could even say I was selfish. My wife had no choice when I decided to wear diapers permanently. She was adamant about me NOT wearing around our children, family, and friends but her concerns fell on deaf ears. Over time she learned to understand that if the proper steps are taken diapers can be worn all the time discreetly and wearing them permanently is not such a big deal. You must never feel sorry for me because she had a boyfriend in the past. It was me and me alone that encouraged, supported, and accepted her infidelity. I would not be a cuckold if I never had the desire to be one. She was willing to make all the necessary sacrificies in the bedroom to remain sexually depraved and frustrated for the rest of her life. She believed in better or worse and for her having a husband who desires to be a full time sissy wearing pink diapers with no desire to make love to her the way a man does was worse. Still she remained at my side. She deserved a nornal sexual union with a man and I am glad we found a way to make that reality. Most think this was forced upon me by my wife but in all actuality is was me who really forced her to do it. The reason why she is not actively sexually involved with her boyfriend now is because she love me to much. In my book she is about the best wife and sissy baby could ask for even if she does not entertain my little side. I know what a purge cycle is and this really is not that. If is simply my real life feelings about how frustrating it can be for me personally to unpotty train myself. This is not an easy thing to try and accomplish and I feel it is important to share that with those that have similar desires.

It is hard to describe. I sometimes feel frustrated. Mentally you convince your mind you need diapers permanently and you wish your body could simply commit to the same desires physically. I am not so sure why diaper dependancy is so important to me or any of us that desires incontinence. I could wear diapers permanently and still never be diaper dependant. For some reason that is not enough. I have yet to take my diapers off and honestly I do not have any idea how long I could stay out them for. I know that I do not want to confuse my wife again. Diapers one minute, trying to be a man the next. It was much more complicated then before diapers all the time. September 30th will be two years in diapers permanently and I think I will atleast try and keep my diapers on until then. Even if I choose not to wear them permanently you can rest assured I will be wearing them often.

After one year and almost ten months wearing diapers permanently I am beginning to think that it may be impossible to loose full control of my bladder like I desired. In the last three months I would say that my bladder control has even improved as I was concentrating less and less on wetting continuously. I have only had one possible betwetting episode in all this time. I am honestly contemplating on taking my diapers off and see what happens. I know I will have to be on the potty a lot more than before and messing my panties after two years in diapers is a possibility as I have grown to not worry at all about anal leakage. It is not an easy decision after so many months in diapers. I believe taking my diapers off would make my wife happy although she is adamant that she loves me and fully accepts that I wear diapers. Not the update I am sure everyone wanted to hear but this entire post has been about being completely honest about all my feeling about unpotty training good and bad.

I think you can purchase ones that do but most just insert into the urethra. If you do have one that extends into the bladder I would be very concerned avout getting a urinary tract infection.

The biggest negative about wearing diapers and a chastity device is hygiene. After wearing diapers and a chastity cage for a week straight with no removal the smell was repulsive when my wife finally decided to let my lil wee wee out. All this despite bathing throughly multiple times a day and using Q-tips to reach the hard to wash places. The are a lot of benifits to wearing a chastity device while diapered as well. For some, it will keep you in diapers. Many men after having an orgasm want to remove their diaper. Being constantly aroused should keep your desire for being diapered fueled. Additionally, your diaper leaks less as your wee wee is guaranteed to be pointed down and also wets more towards the middle of your diaper. It is also easier to wet because your little guy is not stuffed against padding.

I experience this regularly with my wife. She gets too got up in life to remember just how important simply changing my diaper is for me. The strange thing all I have to do is ask her but when I do so I often feel it is a burden on her. Part of me also believes a little girl should not asked to be changed. Communication is paramount here. Share your TRUE feelings with one another. Do not water down things so that you do not hurt feelings. If you have selfish feelings share them. If she has negative feelings about you wearing diapers she needs to share them too. The truth is not always what you want to hear but atleast its heard. Partners can change over time. My wife's emotions towards me permanently in diapers all the time even changes with her menstrual cycle. I know that right before her period her husband in diapers seem to turn her off completely and she will have nothing to do with me sexually and will never voluntarily change my diaper. When she is ovulating she will be much more playful and diapers do not bother her at all. Understand this an adapt if necessary. Diapers and my wife's sexual desires for the most part makes us not sexually compatible. This was a hard one for us to get around. She needed a dominant man to take her not a little girl in diapers with a soft wee wee. I encouraged her to find a real man to take care of her needs. When she did and finally was sexually satisfied she practically changed every dirty diaper and was so very playful. She locked me into chastity and even called me her Cinderella. Still, after the fun of having another sexual partner wore off, she went right back to out of sight out of mind mode. She currently no longer cuckolds me which is her personal decision. Sometimes I wonder if her lack of pamper play is because she unconsciously wished she had a real man again. My wife accepted that her husband was going to wear diapers permanently. That was enough for me. If she chooses not to participate then I have to accept that. It is not an easy thing to do and it took me years to understand this but it is t th e right thing to do particularly after all of her sacrifices to allow me to stay in diapers.

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I post a lot in incontinence forums to share my padded experience and to answer a lot of questions particularly for those that are newly incontinent. Which diaper do I wear? How do I travel wearing diapers? How do I wear diapers discreetly to work? We all have are own diaper style so to speak but most of us on here who have worn diapers for a lifetime are diaper experts and that experience and knowledge is great to share with someone who all of the sudden had to start wearing diapers for a medical reason. I have never looked in my medical file but I assume it says I am urinary incontinent. My doctor knows I wear diapers and she only asked me if I wanted to try medicine once. In her eyes it is about quality of life and since wearing diapers makes me happy there is nothing more to talk about. Interestingly enough my desire for diapers all started over having week bowels which I still have to this day. For me having a degree of bowel incontinence as a child and being humiliated for that actually made me want to be in diapers.

Baby powder for me. Have you considered taking an internal deodorizer such as Nullo pills? My wife confirms that when I am taking these pills the smell in my diaper is greatly reduced.

For some of us we just will not be happy unless we are wearing diapers every second, of every minute, of everyday and it is that simple. It takes a lot of commitment, determination, and time to become unpotty trained. If you last the long winding road to becoming incontinent is most definitely is something that you earned and something that you needed personally. Wearing diapers all the time will weed out those that thought they wanted to be unpotty trained way before they suffer any permanent effects of diaper dependancy. The first bad case of diaper rash. The first time you face a significant diaper leak. These things all happen before your bladder or bowels start to fail. People who suffer from medically related incontinence did not have the choice. Their body forced them into diapers and I could understand how they would resent that. Imagine if wearing diapers did not make you happy but you had to wear them anyway. That is true misery and my heart breaks for those people. For me diapers are what makes me happy. Not wearing them is my form of misery. That is why wearing them all the time is what I personally needed and something I will never regret regardless of any consequences that may happen based on that choice.

I personally do not purchase jars of Calmoseptine oinment as I am constantly traveling and jars do not fit so fell in my toiletry bag. I think if it was not for this fact I would buy jars as you get more for your money and it is much easier to apply. Tubes, once they get low, require some serious labor to get any oinment out.

My average cost for diapers alone is about $300 a month. I primarily buy overnight Rearz disposable diapers or ABU Simples/Simple Ultras. I need I would say at minimum about 120 of these diapers a month. My onesies I wear to exhaustion and replace them every year and a half. I usually buy 10 at once and pay around $225 for them. The Gary Activewear briefs I wear over my diapers are very durable. I have thrown out only one or two pairs in over two years. I would say at most about $100 a year for five pairs. Abena fixing pants are also very durable. Not one pair has worn out in over two years of wearing them almost everyday. I initially bought 10 pair for around $125. So for me it would cost me slightly over $4000 if I had to replace all my clothing. I buy powder and calmoseptine ointment in bulk as well but one tube lasts months.

My very, very crinkly DC Amors ?

Well Mr. Pins I know you already know my story but I will tell it again anyway for any members that may be reading your thought inspired thread. I work as a Field Service Engineer on industrial equipment. When in the office I am around about 20 employees and when out on the road it really varies how many customers I am around. If I am training it could be two dozen or more. I have discreetly worn my diapers around both coworkers and customers permanently for the last two years. Two fellow coworkers know I wear diapers because I personally shared it with them and neither one every suspected a thing. Even after telling them they both admitted they still could not tell I wore diapers. The closest I have been to being outed at work was a fellow coworker one time thought the elderly man next to us smelled like pee pee. The reality of the situation was it was the diaper I had been wearing for 10 hours that he smelled. As many people here know I do take extreme steps to hide my diapers. As you called it one time @rusty pins I wear layers. Despite wearing the thickest disposable diapers on the market they are hidden well thanks to Abena fixing pants and a dark black onesie. My jeans are always oversized and my shirt is always untucked. These same layers also work on the rare occasion that I wear dress slacks. The layers make my diaper completely silent and also do a very good job slimming down my very thick diaper bulge. If a change is required while at work I head off to the bathroom with my Gary diaper laundry bag with a clean diaper tucked inside of it under my arm. No one ever seems to notice it even in very open bathrooms at customer sites. My used diaper goes into the bag after my change and is discarded privately at my convenience. There has been some instances when I am confident someone in a customer bathroom knew that my diaper was being changed thanks to crack attacks in the bathroom stalls.

I would say I meet your definition of socially locked in. My wife, my best friends, my closest work colleagues, and my doctor all know that I wear diapers permanently. Some know more details than others and some simply know O have to wear diapers. Sharing that I permanently wear diapers with a chosen few helps insure that others do not find out. I like to think of it as they run diaper interference. For example, my wife and I work together as a team to keep the fact I wear diapers hidden from our children. That is a very challenging task. It is highly likely one day the subject will come out in the open and we will be prepared for it if oot does but for now the genie remains in diaper bag. As far as work I have always seen no need to to tell HR. I question my HR representative ethically and I am quite frankly not comfortable sharing that I wear diapers unless I absolutely have to with her. My boss does not know I wear diapers but does know I have a "medical issue" that I am not comfortable disclosing with HR. He has never pushed for what that issue is. The way I see it is the skids are greased if the sitiation does ever come up. For the most part I would not have a problem if everyone at work knew. It would make life easier. Unfortunately there are some very naive and immature people I work around and I am not very fond of being Mr. Pee Pee pants behind everyone's back despite the fact I desire humiliation. Outside of work and immediate family the people I hang out with the most all know. The is great as I do not have to go around trying to sneak a change here and there. Most I am comfortable with even seeing my diaper, I generally will not wear onesies around them. I do wear them everywhere else including a lot at home. My closet friend has even told me I do not care if you hang around me in nothing but a diaper and a t-shirt, just do not ask me to change you. To him, my diapers are my choice of underwear and see his best friend in a pair boxers is not out on the ordinary. It takes time to decide who to tell and what to tell them. Before telling the world I recommend feeling the situation out first to help determine who should be in your inner diaper circle of trust.

In my opinion the noisiest disposable diapers on the market today are DC Amors. Pair this diaper with some PEVA plastic panties and loose fitting shorts and it pretty much sounds like you are wearing a plastic trash bag.

To answer your question...kind of. I mean I was going to the potty every 20 minutes and I would also leak my mess into my panties. Did that play a part in deciding to wear diapers permanently. Sure. However, my desires sexually and mentally to wear diapers permanently were much stronger.

I find it so important for my wife to change my diaper also. For me having your diaper changed by a partner is about as vulnerable as you can be with someone else. As someone that also desires humiliation it helps to reinforce how much of a man I am not as my wife removes my used diaper and puts me in a clean one. When I have misbehaved and my wife punishes me by not participating in any baby girl games I feel devastated. I need my wife to be my Mommy just as much as I need to be in a diaper.

I agree that even after two years dripping and dribbling can be very intermittent. For me I know it is a mental. I almost dribble and drip involuntarily when making a bowel movement on the potty or when taking a bath or shower. At times I will do it all day in my diaper if I consciously think about it. Other times my body will do what it has naturally done for 37 years. Fluid intake helps because the more you have to pee the more you can continually train your bladder to stay relaxed.

Despite the title this is not a post to announce I am officially unpotty trained completely but I am definitely well on my way. For those that have had the same unrelenting need to wear diapers permanently I have a few questions. When you started wearing diapers permanently did you have a physical need to do so? For me the answer is complicated. I have definitely had an overactive bladder all my life and running the potty marathon was a normal part of life for me. I did not wet my pants or leak pee pee at all however. My biggest lack of control was my bowels. Holding my bowels even in the slightest almost always resulted in leakage which often times left me very stinky and humiliated. Since wearing diapers permanently both of these problems are something I no longer have to be concerned with. I do believe I could manage these physical issues without wearing diapers but wearing diapers completely eleminates any fear or concerns when dealing with these physical conditions. If you did not have physical need to do so did you have one when you were younger? Did you wet your bed? With me I never remember wetting my pants but I messed myself almost everyday. No full blown bowel evacuation but excessive stains in my underwear all the time. I was humiliated for this. Threatened to be treated as a baby and put back into diapers. At the time I wanted to wear diapers so I did not have to deal with messy underwear and the ridicule that came with it. I ask this question because I wanted to know if anyone reverted back to their youth lack of continence once they started wearing diapers permanently. After almost two years of wearing diapers permanently I still do not wet in my sleep. Is this because I was never a bedwetter? Did anyone who is now completely unpotty trained not wet the bed before untraining and does so know every night? For me the strangest thing is honestly my bowels are really what makes me incontinent to a degree but I absolutely only desire to lose control of my bladder. Why do you think that is? Thank you for your inputs in advance.