ABDLincontlady

This is for folks who come here for a while sometimes days in a row and then put away their heavier diapers, those they don't need for incontinence(I only need pads for stress incontinence), and baby toys and go on "as normal." Then as was true for me, the urge to get into a bulkier than needed diaper, put the binky back in my mouth and come here as often as I can just came on me. Nothing could stop me. For example, when the urge came on Sunday morning, I sat outside in the park near my house reading the newspaper until it rained. Now I put a two hour time limit on this screen name as I have a lot to do learning new computer programs. I can do that just in the diaper I am wearing. I am socializing with friends on the phone as normal as I accepted this as part of me after many years. So this posting area is for welcoming us all back and letting us express our feelings.

A Depend undergarment under a Depend Adjustable and that's all. It is cool, secure, comfortable.

I got some Depends one can wear as a pull up or diaper. Just am wearing these all day. Now I have one on as a pull-up and then for more comfort and security put one on over it using the tabs as a diaper. I can be in my home reading, practicising computer programs, working out on my exercise bike, cleaning my apt. like this just with a diaper on until Friday morning, as I have been all day today and was most of yesterday. Then I have to go out there and do things.

No one has ever changed me, and I wonder how I would feel about it. I guess it depended on the person doing the changing. I could feel humiliated or grateful and cared for. I guess how helpful I am to the person also would be important.

I have been on many binge/purge cycles and finally learned to keep my AB/DL stuff. Then I keep trying to control my AB/DL activties to one day and find it hard. I can go for months just wearing pads for my stress incontinence and not spend time online at sites like these. Then I have a strong urge nothing seems to stop and I am back at my computer like Sunday then Tuesday and now today just in a pullup sucking on a pacifier. I put a time limit on my AB/DL account as I have a lot to get done today to make up for my binge being just here all day Sunday. Still the comfort I feel today sitting here in the pullup doing all kinds of play with the pacifier in my mouth is undescribable. The key is also that I am not staying in being here isolating cancelling being out with people. It is pouring rain.

OK, I just wish I had the stuff I threw away back, a bottle and plastic pants.

Yes, it does. But the humiliation is awful. I thought about which instruments were the most humiliating. I have my top ten in this order with the most humiliating on top. I think the first five or 6 are used for littler children, the others can be part of a rite of passage. It is always more humiliating for the "spankee" to have to get the instrument than have the "spanker" get it. But then it is humiliating for the spankee to assume their position and have to wait for the spanker to come back back for the administration bringing the instrument, just being there bent over bare bottomed waiting and waiting. 1. Wooden spoon 2. Hairbrush 3. Ping pong paddle 4. Branch/switch from a tree 5. Little whip 6. Belt 7. Cane 8. Big long whip 9. Cat of 9 tails 10. Fraternity/sorority paddle

I got bored coming here every day when I had some time off and had a chance to. There are not enough new posts or photos for that. I am coming here once a month and keeping busy otherwise, not binging like before, so the site is kept fresh for me.

During times I needed psychologically to extend my "baby play" to the night, I put on a thick cloth diaper. I couldn't sleep because I was afraid of wetting the mattress like I did before. The solution is to double up on the diaper wearing two, which does get me aroused while wearing a diaper usually doesn't, and needing to repurchase plastic pants as I was dumb to throw mine out when I tried to go to full stop.

In my fantasies when I am here as a preschooler I do not get punished for dribbling in my diapers. Even if I soaked them it would be OK, it is just that I don't like the feeling myself. I had very few accidents in my childhood but reactions from my mother and brother was so awful I will never forget them. I may have been spanked, I don't recall. Definitely I was teased and it was the subject of humiliation at the dinner table. I think it is kind to put active kids in pull ups for as long as they want to wear them. Later in life I had stress incontinence dribbles and was kind to myself, I put myself in diapers usually thick pads for the expense 24/7 and put myself in pullups when I am tired/overwhelmed like today.

Once when I was very ill when I was 3 and needed to stay in bed, my mother said she tried to put me back in diapers but I resisted her. I don't want to talk with her about it, but maybe I did end up in diapers again and really did like it. I might be an AB/DL when I am tired and overwhelmed now because I associate them with that kind of feeling and being cared for in a house with otherwise a lot of chaos.

I don't masturbate on days I spend in my pull up diapers (as opposed to most days when I just wear pads or undergarments) as I wear them for comfort and relief from pressure. Also wearing them as a female, I feel turned on but don't need relief, to masturbate would ruin the whole thing. However, when I masturbate on days I just wear stress incontinence pads, I always have a fantasy that I am in diapers or being diapered.

just don't throw your stuff away this time. Binging and purging gets expensive.

As a woman, I like looking at women wearing diapers to not feel alone in this, to feel the person could be a "friend" of sorts. I only like photos of women who are into being AB/DL's not women posing like porn. I can really tell the difference. Like the photos members send on the picture gallery are nice, but others especially of young women seem posed. I wonder if the young women are financing their very expensive now college educations posing for such photos and that is sad in a way.

I would have to get a spanking with a wooden spoon, if I soak my diaper. As a preschooler I can dribble in it but have to not be lazy and soak it and get my clothees wet. A wooden spoon is humiliating in a strange way.

Girls also forget til the last minute to stop what they are doing to use the john. So today when I am busy doing research I am put in two diapers, a Depends pullup with a thick Depends undergarment. I never get in trouble for getting them wet, I just have to make sure I don't wet my clothes or chair.

I find myself coming here when I try to go "full stop" only wearing pads I spot and not doing AB things. However, I am unable to do that and rush back here going almost on a binge, posting and being impatient to read new posts. I am going to try to accept this part of myself and moderate putting parental controls on this screen name to come here regularly for two hours a week. That will also help me not get bored as there will be new posts every time I come. I did not have a good chat experience so I won't miss that. See you in the middle of the week. Be well.

That last post was too long, but it was easier to read with paragraph breaks than other long posts. Was thinking of another concept that one is either a submissve or an acceptor of being dominated. A submissive who gives into a situation thinking it can be changed and struggles against it and spends a lot of time thinking of how. An acceptor realizes the situation can't be changed, this is the way it is/this is the way they are and happily adjusts to it. Thus an AB rebels as they can't change their situation/be competent and becomes a time draining brat. An adult acceptor realizes this is how they are hardwired even if they have compentencies and teams up with a Dom to use the competencies under their direction.

It's OK to learn to accept the need to wear a diaper as an incontinent by learning to "love" their relaxing softness and security comfort and doing other relaxing things as an AB like sucking on a pacifier when one is stressed. When I am stressed I have more problems with incontinence actually and destressing with AB activities can help.

I am going to relax today in a Depends fastenable diaper/pullup over a Depends undergarment for softness/security comfort. I will go out in these to walk around a fair where no one knows me. I am going to switch from the Depends to Rite Aid as the diaper reviews says they are just as good for a lower cost and don't make any noise.

I am not glad I am incontinent, mostly with stress incontinence and try to control the situation like with some exercises. , I found the best way to cope with this psychologically is to learn to love the diaper as when I have one on I can relax into its softness and security. Then if I am really tired and stressed out, usually after something has ended or another big change in my life, I can play act being an AB for me a preschooler allowed to have "accidents."

Not too many people replying to this poll. DK why. I feel most times as a toddler or older kid being put into diapers as someone really stressed out. As a toddler, I feel diapers are a privilege as I am not being forced to stay dry with punishments if I don't. As an older kid, it is a little humiliating at first but then it is relaxing and I like it.

Interesting discussion finding out about these ideas as I go about exploring myself and my diaper wearing tendencies further now I am back into one of those periods when I can't take off a diaper although I got about my other business as planned or stay away from this site. Good luck to you!

Well, I don't know what you expect to find here as an AB makes a lousy sub as I found from my own experience and a DL wouldn't need to be forced into diapers as a domination tool as she would like to wear them anyway.

It does get boring here as so many people view posts but don't reply it's the same way with other AB sites.