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Try this link , it'll get ya to the video for Breaking Ben's new jam "Diary of Jane": http://www.shallowbay.com/2006/06/22/watch...-diary-of-jane/ Huggie

Nothing at the moment but one of my all time fav songs is "Fat Bottom Girls" by Queen. Especially when they say the part "get on your bikes and Ride" !!! Wow do I love that Also I listen to alot of Ozzy, KISS, Alice Cooper & Led Zep from yesteryears. Some of my lastest joys are Audioslave, Greenday, Godsmack, Alter Bridge (formerly Creed), My Chemical Romance and anything hard & fast. Try these guys... Breaking Bengamin http://hollywoodrecords.go.com/breakingbenjamin/ Their new release is Diary of Jane due out in Aug 06...it'll be kick ass I think! http://www.shallowbay.com/2006/05/22/new-s...aunching-today/ Later all ... Huggie

Curious get well soon...we miss you. Wow personally you can't imagine the void your absence has put in my day. Your huggles and cheerful demeanor are like WOW!!! (I miss dem) The worse thing about this all is that you are hurting, that makes me sad but girl don't rush it you get here when you get here. We will tough this out with ya! Lots of huggles from me and look forward to your return. Huggie

WOW see what I mean...Thank you all...Dee & Heather you both were in there that day and that is why I was able to open up to you cuz you was always so nice to me...FYI you three are in my top 10...I love yas!!! No more falling on me. Things are much better, Thank you. Well this place is so good for AB/DL's to work through their feelings and for the medically necessary folks to become OK with their situation. There are alot of resources at your disposal to work you through the demons. I find so much applicable info on the site as well as from the friendly chatters. I am fortunate to have you all. Well I look forward to seeing you all in the chat room soon!!! And thank you again for your kind words DEEEEeeeeee, Heather, and Curious Huggles and Kisses...Huggie

I agree djlamar2 (DiD)...I have been here on DD for apprx three months but regularly for a month now. I love it !!! For the most part everyone has really been so nice. I have now several friends that I actually look for to be on-line at DD and if I pop into the chat room and they aren't there I feel disappointed. Also if I have to be off the site for awhile for what ever reason I feel like "gosh what am I missing". What a nice collection of AB levels here also, from the real hard core baby to the DL just interested in wearing the diaper. I am somewhere in the middle. I am addicted to this site...the chat, the forum, and the photos are absolutely top notch! Thank you everyone for making my visits here so special. I love the friends I have now on DD. I need you to make my day complete! There are a group of say 10 that are so special to me. you are right up there w/ my "off-line" friends...hopefully I do a good job to let you know who you are. I look forward to meeting more AB/DL's and cultivate those friendships as well. Huggie

Hia ... WOW Chwukkie and square_duck you guys hit the nail on the head I too feel that I am 4 in my diaper. Old enough to be a big boy but still young enough to be babied. By definition I is probably a DL. Love the feel of wearing the diaper and plastic pants during all facets of my life, I actually feel like I am missing something on the rare occassions that I can't be in my diaper. My diaper of choice are pull-ups because like 4 year old I go pee like a big boy when I can. But I always have the inevitable accident I like to talk like a big boy, think for myself but have that need to be huggled & snuggled. Being babied in a true AB fashion is getting kinda tempting for me after meeting so many here on Daily Diapers. Since being here I have purchased onsies and adore being in them, I'll see as far as other items such as bottles and pacifiers go down the road. Somehow the 4 year old age is very comfy for me...I never planned it that way it just happened. Somewhere somebody wrote about the baby memories lasting for a lifetime...I agree. Perhaps that is why I am comfy as a 4 year old most of my memories seem to be from that age period. Perhaps the ritual of being readied for school at 5. Having to be potty trained, learning to tie your shoes and learning the proper manners...that was the start of our "pressured" existence all in the name that we could represent well in kindergarten. Hum! think I'm on to something there, someone needs to do a study about that Anyway 4 is my comfort zone I like to play on my own, help the big people, communicate and be independent 80% of the time...but that 20% I am babied is wonderful. I'll stick to being 4 for life Huggie

http://www.angelfluff.com/ This company out of Lewisburg Tennessee makes wonderful ONSIES. I am told they are a little pricey by other babies. But from personal experience I love them, worth every penny. Especially if you is a "king sized" baby they custom make them to fit YOU! Sturdy and comfortable...after trying other plastic pants too theirs are the best I have found (not sure who their p/p supplier is) I even gots some cloth diapers from them, they are nice too...ALL in ALL I am very happy with their products...and for a hard to fit baby the onsies are GREAT! Just trying to share Huggie

http://www.classycomfort-abdl.com/Page_1.php Wow a baby friend of mine showed me these...I saw a picture of him in them...THEY ARE SOO CUTE. He loves them Well surely these colorful diapers will catch someones attention. I hope I helped you out Huggie

http://www.jumpinjammerz.com/ Hia everybody perhaps many of you would like footed pajamas. This company from California has many cute styles. I hope somebody will find this helpful. Huggie

WOW...what a wild read this is. I honestly feel for each post. I understand IceFisherMan's wish to be incontinent and all the other responses cautioning him. Good intentions indeed I think...weather they are received as such who knows. Personally I love the idea of being incontinent but on my own terms. Sometimes using the bathroom is the best option...if you become a total incont I feel you will also become a recluse. I don't think a self mutilator will have the sympathy or concern an honest to goodness incont gets. And I just couldn't live the lie telling people I was "suffering" incontinence if I self-made the situation on purpose. That's just the way I am, that would cause more problems for me in my head (living the lie) which would take away from the diapering enjoyment. I am a full-time diaper wearer but a part time incont, I am being treated for a condition that requires stretching treatments with dilators. I was a DL before this but now that I go through these treatment I kinda live what a real incont goes through. After each stretching treatment I wear a 14 mm Foley's catheter for a week under Doctor's orders and supervision. In the beginning I hated it but now I look forward to the catheter (not the stretching treatment) and find myself really loving the involuntary wetting but I do plan where and when I go somewhere with it in. Mostly I am welcoming the need of this medical treatment to be my "excuse" for wearing my beloved diapers. I wish you well Ice in whatever you do. And to ALL the responders, your info and thoughts are educational and aids in the decision making process I believe...especially YeOldeDiapers' thoughts on "lambasting", there is no need to hurt peoples feelings in public. We all have our issues but I feel everyone that posts is genuine and sincere for the most part. I have learned so much from the forums on many sites. Keep them going! Wishing you all well...peace and love, Huggie

I just wanna add my two cents...I am a catheter wearing male for the last year. And no telling how much longer this will go on Every 4 weeks I have a Foley's catheter inserted in me by a Urologist for a period of 5 to 7 days. This is done after enduring stretching treatments, which is when medical instuments (14 to 24 mm in diameter) are inserted into my penis thru the urethra to bust thru the scar tissue that is closing my urethra. The scar tissue is right in the immediate area of the urethral sphincter muscle. It is a painful ordeal I must admit but necessary so that I may void the urine adequately. I leave it in sometimes up to 10 days depending on my social schedule at the time. See when it comes out you have little control which I dont mind (actually I like that being a DL) but the inconvienence of wetting involuntary sometimes doesn't go well if I am in certain social settings. I do wear diapers 24/7 partly cuz I enjoy it and partly because I need too. I am a regular antibiotic taker and have had illness due to the effects of the catheter presence, nasty flu-like symptoms. When I have the Foley's in I plug it so I don't have to wear a bag. The bag is painful and I have had them bust on me. Plus maybe I am self-concious but I think it smells more than a wet diaper. The daiper I wear cuz the Foley's catheter leaks often (overflows maybe a better term) or I am just not in a position to void in a restroom and wash up properly...the diaper comes in handy then. But the diaper is OK cuz I have worn diapers for recreatioal purposes since I was 12, I am 45 now. But never have I wished to be "incontinent" for real. Which I am not a full blown incontinent person by any stretch now...I still try to use the toilet on most occassions but sometimes I don't make it, that's wear my diaper loving aids in all this. I have had accidents at the onset of all this but now I choose to wear diapers 24/7 "just in case". And I am OK with being identified as such if it happens. It does present a whole different side to being an AB/DL. So don't take upon yourself to catheterize on your own and just enjoy wetting when you wanna wet. Trust me that is the way to go! In closing you may wonder what caused the scar tissue to begin with...well numerous years ago I had a kidney problem and went thru several tests/evauations using scopes thru my penis and that was the likely culprit. I never ever put anything into my penis. Huggie

SELF-CATHETERIZING...pretty accurate info posted! I am being treated for an on-going urological problem, have been for over a year now. I am a larger fella so self cathing is difficult because of my size so I go to my DR. who does it every month for me. I must say over the year it has gotten much easier to go through, I used to dread those treatment sessions. Now I show up without a worry of pain. Yes a Foley's 14 mm catheter is what is used on me. I personally let it hang and adjust it as needed. My diaper does a good job keeping it situated. Of coarse the more you wear it the more tolerant you will become having it. I think of where I am today vs. where I was a year ago when I started this treatment...it is not a big deal anymore. I plug the end of it and void like a big boy through the hose sometimes and others I just let it drip into my diaper until a changing is needed. Diapers have always been part of my life so now that I am able to legitimize their use, I am living large now I agree if you are going to self-catheterize for "recreational reasons" (which I don't condone either!) you must do it right. As Billiardnut stated it can be a matter of life & death...take the proper precautions. Use "approved medical items" they are available. Proper hygiene practices are needed as well as the constant fluid intake of water or cranberry juice to keep you hydrated and your system flushed of the buggies growing inside. I have "pleasured" myself numerous times without any ill effects but again at this point I am not a "beginner" to the catheter scene and have grown to tolerate the catheters presence. Plus after I do make myself "happy" I thoroughly wash. I will close by saying please do not penetrate your peepee with anything homemade...you may regret it!!! Happy & safe wetting baby friends Huggie

Hey wetvinyl what's the rest of the story...have you talked more about it with your roomate/ex g-f? Is she OK wit it? Has she "outted" you? I am sure you kinda feel good that somebody knows. I know I was when I confided in two friends. I love being w/ them even more now cuz I don't have to "hide" the dipee as much...I even let it show outta my jeans on occasion so they don't forget. We really don't talk about it but I love to bend over in front of them now where as with other friends I really watch what I do and how I look. Let me know even if you send me a message however you want...OK I am curious to know? Huggie

Hia BIGBABBYBLUE75...oh your post was so beautiful. I wish you hadn't all those problems. I am happy you found this place...we have babies of all kinds. Some of us have to mess ourselves because of medical problems, some of us just love being babied...there are rich ones not so rich ones...we got it all! And now we have you too, that's a good thing. Hopefully this will help you along in your life. Adult baby sites have given me the confidence to confront my feelings head on. Maybe one day you will be able to explain to your Mom and Dad and hopefully they will understand. It shows that you love them very much...you are a good boy. What a shame that children can be so cruel, you relax now you are in a good place babies are #1 here From your post you have a good handle on the world it seems. I wish you well in finding that soul mate too...there is one out there for everyone so don't give up, stay at it. As the others did I too invite you into the chat room we would love to meet you. Till then you keep your chin up and smile BigBabbyBlue Huggie

Well I have worn diapers for many years since 12. There was a couple periods that I went a year or two without wearing them...basically I was tormented by the diaper demon. Apprx. 20 years ago I became OK with me wearing diapers so from that time on I always had a bag of diapers in my closet. Well Jan. 05 I had a routine operation done to correct an abdominal hernia (4th one in 12 years) things didn't go well...so much for the term ROUTINE. I was in the hospital almost a week...too lengthy to write. But as they were getting me together on the operating table they needed to put a catheter in. Well they couldn't do it through my urethra due to scar tissue build-up (I had a kidney problem several years back and I presume that Dr. injured me doing all the tests back then...that's just my feeling cuz I never had anyone put anything in my peepee!). So this Dr. doing my hernia operation was baffled, he summonsed the Urologist to attempt to put a catheter in me but no luck with him either. I had to have a supra pubic catheter inserted, that means it went through my belly into my bladder. It was in there for 3 months:( Was that a pain)...I became a recluse because I didn't want to carry my bag around in public. Then when it was removed my Urologist had to do something to correct my urinary retention problem due to the scar tissue build-up. Surgery isn't the best option because it is in the immediate area right by the urethral sphincter so if he would burn that I'd be incontinent forever most likely because he said that the on/off switch, the urethral sphincter will get damaged no matter how careful he is. The Urologist initially sought for me to self cathederize everyday. I tried but I just could not do it, so what I must endure monthly is "dilation" treatments also known as stretching. Instruments are inserted to bust through the scar tissue, we are talking five rods that are graduated up to almost the diameter of a #2 pencil...is everybody OK? bear with me...they go in after he squirts lubricating/numbing gel into my peepee with a sort plunger device. And the gel doesn't really help the pain. When that is done I must wear a Foley's catheter for 5 days...that is plugged and I void through the tube. The urine falls out via the gravity method. If I hold it too long the urine backs up through the Foley's catheter and leaks down the urethra so wetness is a constant scare. Or should I forget to place plug back in the catheter or the plug falls out then you have a constant drip which is embarrassing because when you feel it it’s too late…your soaked. These things have happened to me during the year I've been going through these treatments. And you get that pee urge feeling; they are termed SPASMS and that keeps you guessing too. Then when the catheter comes out I have little control for about 5 to 7 days because of the urethral sphincter's inactivity until it strengthens back up. OK now to the point: I wear diapers all the time now for protection. I was always a diaper lover before but now my enjoyment has turned to necessity. I guess being a long time DL has made the transition much easier to deal with...there are several things you deal with daily that the person "doing it for fun" doesn't. Having an ample diaper supply, the going when you normally wouldn't. Camouflaging the diaper, which I do because I'm still in the closet but I am working my way out. I'm sort of a macho guy with a skeleton in my closet, hahaha I've been dropping hints to my friends, they know that I've been going though the medical thing so now is the time if I wanna make it known. I will always be discreet but the fear of being outted was always a concern for me...and honestly I don't like that feeling of being embarrassed. I actually very recently told three friends who know that I have been going through this that I must wear diapers, they were very understanding about it to my joy. I have numerous others I am going to break the news to as I see them. My advice to you is do what you need to do and get on with your life. This activity will become normal (self cathing) and the diapers will remain being the fun they have always been. You should try to work through your depression to one day get off the anti-depressants. Walking will do you well...quiet time for your brain plus great for you physical well-being too. That has helped me cope with this so much. Please PM me if you like, I'd welcome working with you through this, I too had some low moments about this whole thing. That is where rooms like this are theraputic in nature. This place is a fantastic resource Till next time ... Huggie

Hia all...well it's day 3 in Daily Diapers...I am having a wonderful time. Everyone has been soo nice to me, Thank you Me a DL but kinda enjoy maybe alittle baby talk once in awhile. Never had a baby experience with anyone Someday maybe...would love to make the contacts to enjoy a "diaper party" one day. Just talking to fellow babies is neat I can only imagine that hanging out sitting in my diaper with others would be fantastic...hopefully I'll get that chance one day. Till then I have this place. So far I met a few babies pretty close to me in PA. Well I see you in the chat room Glad to be here...Huggie

lil ab peanut...hope you get this in good health. You folks are doing a great job over there. Hope things get better. I hope you have what you need as far as equipment and such. No diapers though huh...poor peanut. That must suck. I was in the service too...late 70's. USAF I hope your Mommy is well with you gone...you have alot of catching up to do when ya get back. It's cool that you are able to surf the web while taking care of business. I have many friends serving with you. I am from NEPA myself. I wish you all the very bestest, we will save you a spot in the chat room for you and your Mommy. Please be careful! I am proud of you in uniform and diapers... Huggie

Wow johnnee...you are something. This was quite interesting reading. Your updates are very detailed and specific. Your efforts are to be commended. (in my mind) Well I have worn diapers for many years since 12. There were a couple periods that I went a year or two without wearing them...basically I was tormented by the diaper demon. Apprx. 20 years ago I became OK with me wearing diapers so from that time on I always had a bag of diapers in my closet. Well Jan. 05 I had a routine operation done to correct an abdominal hernia (4th one in 12 years) so things didn't go well... so much for the term ROUTINE. I was in the hospital almost a week...too lengthy to write. But as they were getting me together on the operating table they needed to put a catheder in. Well they couldn't do it through my urethra due to scar tissue build-up (I had a kidney problem several years back and I presume that Dr. injured me doing all the tests back then...that's just my feeling cuz I never had anyone put anything in my peepee!). So this Dr. doing my hernia operation was baffled, he summonded a Urologist to attempt to put a catheder in me but no luck with him either. I had to have a supra pubic catheder inserted, that means it went through my belly into my bladder. It was in there for 3 months:( Was that a pain...I became a recluse because I didn't want to carry my bag around in public. Then when it was removed my Urologist had to do something to correct my urinary retention problem due to the scar tissue build-up. Surgery isn't the best option because it is in the immediate area right by the urethral sphincter so if he would burn that I'd be incontenent forever most likey because he said that the on/off switch, the urethral sphincter will get damaged no matter how careful he is. So what I must endure monthly is "dilation" treatments also known as stretching, these instruments are inserted to bust through the scar tissue, we are talking five rods that are graduated up to almost the diameter of a #2 pencil...is everybody OK? bear with me... they go in after he squirts lubricating/numbing gel into my peepee with a sort plunger device. And the gel doesn't really help the pain. When that is done I must wear a Foley's catheder for 5 days...that is plugged and I void through the tube. The urine falls out via the gravity method. If I hold it too long the urine backs up through the Foley's catheder and leaks down the urethra so wetness is a constant scare. Or should I forget to place plug back in the catheder or the plug falls out then you have a constant drip which is embarrassing because when you feel it it is too late your soaked. These things have happened to me during the year I've been going through these treatments. And you get that pee urge feeling they are termed SPASMS and that keeps you guessing too. Then when the catheder comes out I have little control for about 5 to 7 days because of the urethral sphincter's inactivity until it strengthens back up. OK now to the point: I wear diapers all the time now for protection. I was always a diaper lover before but now my enjoyment has turned to neccessity. I guess being a long time DL has made the trasition much easier to deal with...there are several things you deal with daily that the person "doing it for fun" doesn't. Having an ample diaper supply, the going when you normally wouldn't. Camoflouging the diaper, which I do because I'm still in the closet but I am working my way out. I'm sort of a macho guy with a skelton in my closet, ha, ha, ha I've been dropping hints to my friends, they know that I've been going though the medical thing so now is the time if I wanna make it known. I will always be discreet but the fear of being outted was always a concern for me...and honestly I don't like that feeling of being embarrassed. I want to be outted on my terms!!! My fun is wearing the diaper, it's sort of a personal thing. I have heard of people sticking things up their peepee to cause involuntary wetting...that is stupid to me. The urethra is so delicate one wrong move and you have a serious problem. Coupled with the fact an infection is serious business too. People are out there doing self mulitation in the hopes of being a real wetter. Johnnee at least you were smart and got a trained professional to guide you. And your protection of him is honorable! I too get my diapers from HDIS johnnee...right to the door of my home. I wear TENA pull-ups and occassionally Depend Super Plus'. I have expermented with many diapers and haven't found one that doesn't leak. I usually go three times in a diaper so I'm not going broke buying them. I do wear plastic pants over them to if I'm going to be out of the house a long time. Well I hope my contribution was worth something to someone... I'll be checking in and probably adding more posts to this thread. Good luck with the thesis if you do it. And I must say you have nice lady to allow you the diapered life...hooray for you both:) For the record my wife was always suportive of my diaper wearing too. Jilly Poo you are right too, I have had a guy actually grab my crotch playing around and I know he had to feel it. He looked and I looked but he never said a thing and nor did I...he had to feel it! Johnnee wear them out proudly Cloth diapers...I have heard a lot of positive things about them. I am going to get some soon to give them a try. Funny I'm too embarrassed to talk to my Dr. about diapers...imagine that. Man if I could get them to pay for them that would be great. Hum... Till next time ... Huggie

Hia Diaperdragon, digger, wetvinyl & Kal & others...I was just exploring the site and came across your thread...it caught my interest Diaperdragon you mentioned that you wear diapers as a convienence...hum, that's neat. And one wears them for recreation/stress relief. Well I vote for both of the above. I wear TENA pull-ups all the time, day & night! Did you know Tiney Tim was a diaper wearer, saw that on Howard Stern years ago. Man Howard teased the heck out of him but Tiney Tim took it well !!! I quess I am a DL by definition but I am going through some gruesome treatment from surgery complications presently that I now sort of have a need to wear them. I kinda got what I wished for. I love diapers, have since I was 12 years old. Most you all are from NE? Boo Patriots...I'm a Raider fan ...and a Yankee hater...don't hold that against me Diaperdragon. I fancy the Orioles in baseball...I know, EWW. I used to live in TX too...back in the day. I agree baseball is way too slow, I'm a score checker too. No hockey for me either...uckie! Football and NASCAR are my sports addictions...a little basketball too. (because my wife makes me) I am from PA...I'm 45 in big boy years but in diapers I am 4. I am looking for babies to talk to, perhaps you folks would be interested? If so feel free to contact me through the Pvt. Message or e-mail. Well I hope you are willing , I'll be waiting:) Huggie