LilChip

Julie_J, you can say what you want, but I choose to admire you. There are so many in your position that would have a "poor me" attitude, some of them less disabled than many who are considered not disabled at all! So my hat is off to you!

I have read stories lately about American women who breast feed their children up to age 5 or even 7. Evidently this was common many years ago, so maybe those little boys and girls are a lot smarter (and luckier) than we realize.

I feel lots of feeling towards diapers. But it is not an erotic attraction. I also love baseball (watching, not playing), but there is not anything erotic about it. I just love my diapers because of the mobility they provide, and they feel good. But they don't "turn me on" because nothing does that.

There are lots of reasons one might be asexual, and probably lots of different definitions of the term. In my case the testosterone level in my body is 0, or as the doctors say, "castration level." So, no testosterone = no sex! I have no sexual desire at all, either for male or female. I cannot get aroused physically or mentally. I do love diapers, but that is on an entirely different plane (for me). I am incontinent so diapers lead me lead a more or less normal life, but that's not the only reason I am a

I did the "real thing" for the first time this morning. It was sorta a half accident.. I was putting out some trash and I felt what I thought was a gas bubble. I was still wearing my all-night diaper and it was pretty wet. Anyway I started to let the gas go since I was outside, then realized it was not gas. I could have stopped it, but something suddenly grabbed me (the devil I guess), so I said what the heck and decided then and there to let it go. As I walked back into the house I acted as natural as I could, but I was having to strain quite a bit, it was a big load and it was quite solid and a little hard. By the time I got back inside I could feel the weight and bulk of what I had done.

It was a really great day for more than one reason. It forced me to decide what I would do if clearing up the UTI would clear the incontinence, and if so, what would I do about it? Well, I have always had urinary problems, and the past two weeks and a little have been mostly good. I guess maybe if I did not have to wear 24/7 I would be happy about that, but now diapers are a part of who I am,and I will not give them up.

I changed myself in a men's room today, and about four men saw me clearly. I went in to a gas bar, encouraged and maybe a little brash, but that's me. There was only one stall with a door, and that was occupied for a long time. Finally I backed into one of the urinal cubicles, they had kinda brick walls separating them with no door. So as someone suggested here, I backed up against the wall, dropped my pants and went ahead and changed. Some men came in, gave me a weird look, then went about their business. One man, a Hispanic, said very clearly as he looked me in the eye, "How ya doin?" I grinned and told him I was great, how about you? He didn't say another word, but did his business as I taped up my fresh diaper and pulled up my pants (shorts). When

Well, I went to the doc, and I went diapered! He took it a lot better than I expected, proving once more that he is a really great guy. We discussed various causes for incontinence as he examined me. I told him that I have used them all: Foley catheters, condom catheters, pull-ups, diapers. My favorite, of course, was diapers. He wanted to send me to a urologist, I said to do his tests and blood work, and if he finds nothing I will agree to a urologist. Last time I saw a urologist was almost 20 years ago, and as a result I ended up getting castrated (VERY long story).

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I am about as asexual as you can get, but still I am also a DL. Actually the last time I had any amount of Testosterone in my body was in 1997, and at that time I was fully incontinent. Now for the past two or three months I began HRT (hormone replacement therapy) and now the incontinence is back! I don't really mind being incontinent, but I still wonder if there is a connection to the presence of Testosterone.

Thank you for all the replies. When I asked about being excommunicated I was 3/4 joking. I did put in a catheter, but when I got to the ball park I realized that I could have worn a diaper just as easily. Yes, it was hot, but there was a nice breeze. I was also a bit worried about changing in the restroom, but in retrospect it would have been rather fun and a baptism of fire,changing in the busy restroom of a ball park with 30 odd thousand people. But I'm new at all this stuff, so perhaps it's good I didn't try. Anyway I'm back from the ball game. and I wold probably not even had to change because the heat kept me so dehydrated in spite of my consuming three bottles of water and a large Sprite, my belly bag only had to be emptied once, which I did at the urinals just like it was perfectly normal to pee from a plastic nozzle and not a penis! As far as I know, no one noticed. I had a good time, but the Rangers lost!

I will be travelling most of the summer and I plan to use rest areas wherever possible while on the road. I am determined to do this and not be ashamed because it is now part of who I am and I might as well get used to it. Someone suggested carrying a towel, that is a great idea! But I think I will carry two: one will go under me in cast I get really desperate and have to use a picnic table or the bare ground as a changing table.

I am going to the doc next Tuesday for the first time since becoming a full time diaper wearer. I plan to wear a Depends Realfit, so I hope I am not delayed because that thing doesn't hold much. I know I will have to take it off because my visit is twofold: Annual physical and discuss my incontinence. I really don't care about my "problem," except that it happened so fast I think I should try to find out why.

It is really HOT in Texas, and this afternoon I have a free ticket to a Texas Rangers ball game! I just received a whole box of Tena diapers and I'm itching to try them, but in 100 degree heat and full sun, I'm kinda worried about cooking. I have had urinary problems for years like urgency, frequency, etc, but I solved most problems with Foley catheters. I am tempted to wear a cath this afternoon, but would that cause me to be excommunicated from the DL community? I really do love wearing.