tyrantblade3500

So I was watching a bunch of AB videos on YouTube and started reading comments and on not one, but a bunch there is a guy claiming to be offended, saying the guy is a mental mess and that he shouldn't be alive, either the guy making these horrible comments is a troll of the worst kind and/or he has a horrible or non-existent life. Live and let live right? If he honestly doesn't like the vids, why keep going back, its not like there's a gun to his head with someone saying he has to keep doing that sort of stuff.

I ordered once and they were received in I think 4 or 5 days, and with their good price s and sales going on I was comfortable enough to make a huge order, so I just made a huge order of Abena m4s, molicare super plus's, dry 24/7 max absorbency and absorbency plus level 4, all size medium and in big cases, gonna be awkward when they come unless by some miracle they come at the perfect time of day, but I have the funds and then some, so since my family already knows I use diapers and it won't interrupt anything being paid im free to order what I want at such good timing.

Yeah, im not sure how I pulled off 30 hours in 2 days without sleep between them, at like 52 hours this week, this product is too much B.S. and stress for not enough money anymore, considering I don't need the money that badly, each week is less overtime lately, its only 1.5x regular pay, and my regular pay is only 8.75 per hour. Decided to not drink tonight and took my medication, hoping to catch up on sleep really good, also trying wearing a diaper to bed. I think im a lot better from where I was last weekend and trying to deal in better ways. Going to try sleeping now.

He's still working there, directly in my area, I still don't like him, but im putting up since im not trying to potentially get fired and im stuck doing it for maybe 2 more weeks (I don't know if ill last that long honestly, already at 40 hours for the week and my body always wants to give up after 13.5 hours, Monday night I couldn't even sleep and im going through 4 energy drinks a day), im getting more and more miserable, but they won't let me stop doing the product until at least the order is done so I have to try to last

If I don't get messy I don't feel like the experience is complete, and sure cleanup can be a bother, but I wouldn't have it any other way, my thing is that until recently I was making due with baby diapers (anything from a large size 4 to a large size 6 (and pampers size 7 a few times) to older kid bedwetting diapers and free adult diaper samples, and now that I have tried abena m4s and am getting to love them and get used to the 4 offset nonstretchy tabs and am getting to know where I want them and how tight I can get the abena m4s to fit im enjoying the whole experience more, here I sit with two on and the inner diaper leaking into the outer (a tab or two kinda broke, so I sliced it down the middle) so its just like im in a super thick double absorbent M4, may as well call it an m8. Im wet and messy in my room with door closed just relaxing in it and trying to get it to the limit before me and the family go do stuff at the mall, I may even go double up before I go and see how long it lasts at a slower rate (im drinking more than a fair amount of water, otherwise this seems like it could absorb for 2 days). Yup its definitely way more enjoyable doubled up and feels like a much more complete experience messy, this is just what I needed after all the stress at work lately (more on that in my last topic)

That was a very interesting read, and like all the others I don't care what the trash men may or may not know, im not throwing away anything potentially valuable and not doing anything illegal and im way past caring about anybodies judgement, why even bother with wearing and using diapers if you don't have to if you are gonna stress about being judged?

Its not union, just a factory and he's still temporary

I mean i know im not "perfect", but comparing me to this guy would be no contest, I get along with everyone, don't get kicked out of areas or walk off the line, Don't call everyone names, ive been working for the company for almost 6 months (3 as a temp, 3 as direct hire, most of it was working hard in this area), I never complained until recently (trying to make things fair for everyone in this area, its far from ideal and we go through a lot of people). In comparison its this guys second or third week I think, burned through several areas, complained he won't go in the uncomfortable room since day one. They know im a known quality, most of the factory won't work in this area, even fewer can stay the requiredhours, and most refuse to go bback after one week, if they don't make things better, They will have a mess on their hands trying to properly replace me (why replace quality with crap?) Like I said I was a bit of an instigator, but nothing bad enough to warrant violence and threats.

They already said its voluntary to work in this area, I just want to minimize the B.S., too much to deal with for not enough money if I gotta deal with someone's attitude and see them get treated better because they will complain otherwise at $6000 a batch and on track for the factory to make $18 million in sales for the year im not gonna keep getting treated unfairly and keep giving them whatever they want, im not desperate like that.

Got sent home early because some other guy starts complaining on day one (in my area, which nobody likes, only two production workers and as machine operator from 3 months ago, working in an unconomfortable area, sometimes 15 hour days) always makes fun of people, quite frankly I wish they wouldn't let him work over in my area, nobody wants to hear the complaints and deal with complainers always getting their way, but if I say nothing,

In the past ive struggled with enjoying wearing and using diapers (mom would try to shame me into stopping, I would try to stop several times, always came back to it and now im not trying to stop), and cutting myself, for very different reasons. What got me into cutting myself was a lot of different things, but mostly senior year of high school when I was so messed up mentally. Never again should you let enjoying diapers and the fear of being found out make you feel bad.

Ive got an Abena M4 on right now, my first great adult diaper ever, I can definitely see ordering more great adult diapers at least a few times every year.

Yeah I can only hope that working as hard as I am will lead to getting some kind of recognition beyond "thank you for 65 hours in 5 days" (really just "thank you" and a short speech before we are told we can go home), but regardless work isn't for recognition, raises or if you are lucky bonuses right? The main thing is trying to satisfy your employer so you can keep the job and get ahead in life, I think ill be fine as is (with the job and mentally) but its always in the back of my mind the possibilities (even though some are probably next to impossible to happen)

im not saying ive ever dehydrated myself, just that I would not go through fluids as quickly with my makeshift solutions to handling the urge to wear and use diapers as I would if I had proper quality adult diapers to use, hopefully this makes sense. I just never bothered to try a quality adult diaper yet (ive only had a job for just over a year total in my whole life so far, and the first job which lasted 8 months was a horrible job that didn't pay enough for me to have enough money to get a pack of quality adult diapers), but I have a pack of abena x plus on order now that I have a decent full time job.

It's not like I will consciously do anything stupid its just that some of these coworkers are quite literally POS's that never listen and don't care how what they are doing effects you and makes you work extra hard and im almost afraid to tell them off as im still somewhat new and don't want to seem like that kind of person. And while not perfect and I wish the pay was better, its probably the best I can get all in all and I actually enjoy it most of the time, ive been trying to show that im versatile so I don't work in that area an awful lot, but when I do its just so infuriating

I actually think smell on day one can be anywhere from decent to horrible, usually by the end of one week (if even that long, sometimes I don't immediately dispose) that's when it can be intolerable, as for mess, for me being messy makes the clean after a hot shower feel much better.

For example, are more girls hesitant to mess while more boys mess whenever they can? I know im a male and can't imagine not messing, unless im just testing for absorption (which I do every so often to get a better idea of what im working with as i make due with size 6 baby diapers, not ideal but it works okay with me for limited time after work to up the absorption with a diaper stuffed inside another)

Its odd, but I keep thinking about how I could In the future possibly be so much worse mentally, I mean I really believe I could in the future have some sort of blackout and come out of it to just regret what Ive done, or possibly just start hallucinating like a schizophrenic, I hope neither comes true but idk, for one thing I laughed when I heard an ex teacher of mine had a son that died, and I did black out once when I was mentally at my worst in my senior year of high school, I just remember this student I hated that made all these stupid, boring, exhausted jokes, somehow we went to the upper left corner of the room and I knocked him out, he was on the floor yelling that I was gonna get arrested and being escorted out of the room, at the time I couldn't remember anything except for the end. I used to be at one end or the other and would cut myself, but now I haven't cut in quite a while, don't remember when my last depressed episode was, and don't fully know if I have had a manic episode in quite a while either, but I do know some of these coworkers of mine these days make me furious on the inside and im hoping that I won't black out again. So are my thoughts really odd? I also have a therapist and psychiatrist and feel my medication is working good (though im mot taking quite as much as maybe I should)

I wear and use as a stress relief, and I started getting interested in diapers at around age 13 (I was picked on several times before 7th grade, one year was quite bad (I think it was 5th grade), largely because at the time I was essentially incontinent (didn't know why at the time, was asked by my mom if I wanted to wearing diapers, and at the time I said no as I didn't have interest in them yet and I could only imagine that getting picked on was only gonna get worse if I did), knew when I had to go, but trying to go was useless, it would happen pretty much at random times when I wasn't trying to use the bathroom, surgery at a hospital fixed that, guess it was a blockage. What sparked my interest at 13 was an odd interest in a pack of diapers when my niece was gonna be born soon, couldn't quite wear until over a year after that when my niece was bigger and sometimes I would run off and steal goodnites, sometimes I would go into the bathroom at the store, use and dispose, sometimes I would steal and take home some, I sort of knew it was wrong at the time, but didn't care because it felt so right, once I was so addicted I tried to steal with employees stocking the shelves, so incredibly stupid, this was before we were moving from FL to NY, luckily they didn't feel like doing anything and let me go, I also remember a few times going into the ladies room just to check for "dirty" diapers, also very stupid since some lady could have caught me and got me in serious trouble if they felt like making a big deal of it and if they wanted to label me as a sexual deviant ot pervert or whatever, since then there were a few times I would steal size 6 and later 7, yet again very stupid as I was getting older and could of been put in the local county newspaper (I doubt most of the people in it care as they seem very happy to get busted for criminal activity), but I would of never heard the end of it from family. Then I became a mental mess in final year of high school (always interested in sharing if anybody is interested) I haven't stole in several years and have made due legally with baby diapers for as long. So yeah I made some very stupid decisions, but ive widened up and got it under control now.

So far I sleep better without as I mostly make due with size 6 baby diapers, not ideal at any time, but I have found both absorption and fit I can modify to work for maybe 6 hours if not drinking a lot and pushing absorption to the limit, im thinking about trying a good adult diaper soon though, so that may change things.

Well if suspicions count yes, otherwise no, im still living at home with mom (not play "mom" that will actually take part, and I don't ask as the answer of course would be no and it would be really awkward and strain our relationship of mother and son and if not for living at home I would not be able to do much with my money as most would go to bills) its my best way to get ahead and not so bad and one time she said something along the lines of "are you wearing a diaper", I guess it was more obvious than expected as I didn't do very much in that one (pooped a little, but didn't think it was that obvious), and didn't wear it for too long (kinda why I didn't want to take it off knowing I was going to the store). She knows I have no real need for diapers, that I just like them.

What can you do per pack of abena M4s, I could potentially be interested in two packs if cost is right (plus shipping increase should be minimal from just shipping one pack)

Well I guess at least I didn't put in a huge order and hopefully they pull through for anybody with an order in