Please consider a marriages concealer , my wife and I were going though a rough time and after several months of concealing it really helped. And you will find it probably isn't all you that is causing problems.
I was around 4 and went into my brothers room and took one of his diapers out of the bag and put them on and remember loving how it felt to be diapers again.
After that I always took advantage of any diapers I came across and stashed a couple in secret places around the house.
I wore cloth when I was a baby, but my brother wore disposable s . My feelings were towards disposables, and never really wanted to wear cloth diapers, weird huh?