This site, much like the physical world, will have people who are kind and those who are not, you must take it all in and accept that it is just the way the world functions. I can't imagine how difficult it must be to be losing a family, much less having multiple members passing away from such a terrible thing as cancer, and for that I offer my condolences. As for College I think its best to do what ever you can to get that education, its invaluable! And losing a girlfriend is another hard thing, truly sorry that you are getting hit with all of this at once. Losing a girl, especially the first one, will hurt very badly, I know because I felt the same way. Right now you need to hang out with friends and focus on yourself. Get back to being the person you were before this girl and have fun. If you just keep thinking about her you will fester over her, letting the memories consume you... don't do that to yourself! Do what you can to keep focused on where you can go from here, the people you can potentially meet and the opportunities you can find! A good friend likes to tell me that everything happens for a reason, while the reason may not be apparent at any given time, at some point it will all make sense Hit me up anytime if you need to talk of something my friend.