[How long]

I will go up to 18 hours in a night time diapers but during the day i usually change at most after 8 hrs

[use of anal plugs to loosen the sphincter.]

I have used several size plugs and dildos trying to cause loss of bowel control but i have only reduced the ability to hold loose bowels.

[Rearz upping capacity]

I like thicker diapers but i still tend to leak be for ever coming close to the half capacity an never near full capacity. I have use an enema bag and nozzle to control the location of the water but never been able to make them work to high capacity naturally

[Badly Describe Where You Live]

look for corn fields for miles in between 2 rivers

[Husband is sissy ABDL, young kids at home help!]

I agree with the other folks points of kids grow up so there will be time later; I also understand from the side of wanting to be treated as a sissy baby it is hard to put others ahead of the desire at times.  I would recommend a couples weekend with no kids that can indulge in the lifestyle; sent the kids to the grand parents if possible.  If you can afford it could send him to a pro dom for a session.

[I have a plan to end it]

13 hours ago, feralfreak said:

i think there is a medical standard they seem to shoot for, what is considered normal and functional, such as not needing a coping device, but doctors are not God, they dont see from behind your eyes, or have your life experiences. i wonder if it would be better for you to take a break from everything FOR A LITTLE WHILE, not sure how that can be done short of maybe spending time at a monastery, not that there is anything wrong with that, a monk lives a simple life, in service to God, doing basic chores like gardening, and free of all the things that bog us down in society, like taxes, bills for various things. if not that, i dont know, but life can take what is suppose to be simple and complicate it, it helps to get a breather now and then

I was approved for disability do to my PTSD and major depressive disorder.  So I spend a lot of time at home and do not as stressed.  My divorce was finalized so the stressor is no more and going to move to be living with the my income. Been doing some downsizing. My normal doctor understands that I regress to handle stress and changes I'm not ready for.

[I have a plan to end it]

I have been in the hospital on several occasions over my life.  They have all been against me using diapers as a coping mechanism, going so far as to shame me about it in front of the other patients. I have used diapers as a coping skill for years for stress. I have urinary accidents when stressed and bowel leakage so it is necessary to use a diaper.  I got Tommy to try and have a item to slow down and hold to keep my hands busy. i have always had dogs and they always have helped with my moods. i still use diapers but don't feel as lost when i can't when i have my puppy Layla or my baby doll Tommy. My need for these items have been listed in my medical file as regressive behaviors.  the Doctor in this last stay asked when she discharged me If I was going to go back to my regressive behaviors and i said yes and she acted like i was wrong

[I have a plan to end it]

So since I went to inpatient I talked with my Dr and decided that I should get  an Emotional Support Animal.  I had had one in the past but she passed away in 2018 and traveled for work. Now it's been determined that I should not return to work and was approved for disability. So this is Layla, she is a Yorkie Pomeranian cross. 

[New Rearz design coming]

I have so got to order some 

[Anxiety]

On 5/22/2022 at 9:21 PM, Arceus said:

Just wondering what people do to help relieve anxiety especially when really stressed out. I have tried breathing/mindfulness, watching movies/tv, video games to distract myself but I have noticed I get stuck when high stress and anxiety and nothing seems to help me get over it other than time. Just wondering if anyone has any tricks they try to help relieve anxiety quickly ?

I have a baby doll I hold and go into little space, if he is unavailable I rub the hem of my shirt in between my fingers and thumb

[Flying For The First Time Today]

I flew for the first time last year i made sure i was padded. i was terriffied the whole time and it was only 2 hours each flight on teh way down adn 6 on the way home. no issues at security with my carry on and laptop. 

[I have a plan to end it]

So i hid from the sheriff for that weekend so i could get the house to be safe for my return with the help of my friends. I called the sheriff that monday and let them know where i was and got picked up they let me take my doll tommy with me. the er let me keep hime with me and the hospital i was transfered to let me have him my first night. the doctor ordered the staff to take the next morning as it is not normal. i argued of corse stating he helps with stress and coping. her response was they needed my to be stressed to know if my new meds were working. i did mention i thought it was more appropriate in that setting than to retreat to a little space. was told both are unhealthy. they called my friend to get somemore info on what was going on in my life at that time as i just shut down. he told them they should give me tommy back and i would probly be more relaxed and open. i did ask if i could have him just at night and the doctor told me it was the equivelent of asking for a beer.  that pissed me off. so of coarse when i got him back when i left i didn't put him down for like 2 days. 

My soon to be ex-wife did file her response with the court to end the marriage. that was hard to see but was able to be with friends this week and that has been some very needed time  as was on the road traveling for work and that was contributing to stress and feeling like i had failed. I just got home from our local dirt track with the race team i support. 

I have had to look at some of my priorites and that has be a little hard to start saying no. I appreaciate eveyones encouragement and with keep updating over the next couple months.

[I have a plan to end it]

Was I the hospital for 8 days new meds and mind has slowed down 

[I have a plan to end it]

So to give everyone an update. I have removed the firearms from my house with all the ammo. They are at a friends house that won't just hand them back to me. my brother called the sheriff and signed comital papers on me. the sheriff was at my house before they had the papers so they went away. they now have the papers but i have been with friends all weekend. i have let the dispatcher know i am home. i think it will be tomorrow that the come pick me up. or i will go tuesday after my appointment. 

i have a baby doll that i take with me in high stress high emotion sittuations not sure if i can take him with me or not. I can't explain while he works to help me calm down but was so worked up yesterday i had to use my pacifier which is reserved for the very bad days; it a mater of it easy to hide the diapers and i can leave tommy (the baby doll) in the car if around others but the paci i think would be the hardest to explain to my friends.   

 

[I have a plan to end it]

I have been married for 11 years and recently filed for divorce; she left the home in 2017 to a waiver home.  i have attempted in the past but have failed 7 times i have a plan. with a back up plan if that does not work. 

I have talked of filing for divorce for 2 years; i attempted to file January 1st it was turned down do to a filling error the night i filed i took what i thought would be a lethal dose.  When i woke up the next day i was pissed that i was still alive.  Every gun i have owned in the past 3 years was purchased from a friend. i final have one that was not bought from his shop. the reason i have not tried this route  in the past is i don't want to use anything that is tied to friends or family. 

I told a state trooper that pulled me over yesterday that i wanted to die he asked why; i replied i have been all my life. he responded than why am i still here. so i now have a person who is like everyone else and thinks I won't do it. 

back up plan will be in the warehouse i work out of has high ceilings and the ladders needed to reach the ceiling. 

[Help Needed. Still learning how to tape up a diaper correctly.]

I run into the same issues on many brands and it is the cut of the diaper is different across the board. When I have leaks it is mainly out of the legs and it is do to the cut of the diapers. I have found that taping on too tight lets the tabs pop off and that if i angle the tabs wrong I leak more. I usually put the tops straight and slightly angle the bottoms

[Anyone else prefer medical diapers?]

I would say that medical diapers have their place, but I wear a diaper based on absorbency not on the design i have worn ABDL styled diapers to medical procedures that the doctor has had to see them moving the waist line down for spinal injection. They said nothing it is knowing that I have to use diapers as it is listed in my medical files. the only person i have ever had question the diapers was a nurse in the psych ward and that time I had a medical style diaper with me.  the question is why if I needed them would i just not ask the hospital for some. I stated I knew the absorbency of the ones i use and could sleep better not worrying about having to get up and change. i have told my psych about my little side. His response was that my childhood would never change as it is in the past. If I know that i will be in the hospital for more than a day I will pack a plain premium diaper instead of a designed diaper. It does lead questions from other patients if there is designs  

[Northshorecare MegaMax]

I was having issues with sizing and requested an xl sample, my waist and hip size i can fit in a large but it becomes uncomfortable but the little bit of extra length on the xl s makes it alot mot comfortable as it is already to fit more above my hip verse on my hip it does cause a higher rise but I use a onesie when at work so not worried there. So far I like the fit over the xl sizes in other brands. Thank you for be able to send samples so I could find the perfect fit

[A bad week]

So I have severe depression I have delt with it for years 4 years ago was my last inpatient hospital stay.  This last week I have had so many thought of ending my life and just not wanting to deal with people.  I missed work on Monday just from the fact I didn't want to deal with anyone. I have talked to some close friends that know of my depression and how I get at times.  While talking to them again today they asked if they needed to take my firearms since they know what my plan was 4 years ago.  We got talking about it and I told them I didn't want the firearms removed at this time but would tell them if it need to happen.  The thing that stops me is as soon as I do it it will make me a hypocrite as I always tell my wife life will improve. And if I go through with it I become a liar.   I have attempted in the past and 4 years ago it involved more than my self. This time it only involved me. 4 years ago I bought my burial plot so I would have it.   This last year has been extremely hard I went from having a good paying job to being unemployed to finding a new job to being unemployed again I have not taken time lately to let my little side out as I worry about what others think. All my close friends know I wear diapers and have pacifiers for when I get overly stressed.

I was starting a new career for my second job and it triggered some bad memories and made me think of everything I did to push everyone away as a child. And I have been struggling with it since even after walking away from the job.  I think it's time to let my little out but then I worry on if he'll go back away when I have to be an adult again.

[1st hospital stay]

Last time I spent some time in the hospital  they were upset that u brought my own supplies and stated they could have provided  me with tap style diapers while I was there. I let them know I preferred my diapers and I knew that they could handle a full night so would sleep better.

[ever go camping while diapered?]

I always have diapers and pacifiers and other abdl items with me when I camp my whole family is aware of my need for diapers and that I find it easier  to just be little at times and I always respect them and only use the pacifiers and bottles at bedtime but my stuffies do hang out at times with everyone around depending on if I'm stressed out or not the higher stress the more I tend to regress

[Identify This Diaper]

The remind me of the dollar general store brand from 2006

[AVAILABLE: Baby Pants 2XL Choo Choo Shortalls]

Are they in the USA 

[Beyond XP 5000]

They definitely run small!   I ordered a case and was very sad when they did not fit, my 44 inch waist, my  hips are around 46 inch. so according to the size they should have fit but did not. and the tape tore off 3 as i was trying to make one fit. I have not ordered the next size up which would be a xl as i went and ordered a different brand that fit me in the larges

[Xp 5000 beyond]

I have moved back home so these are now in southern iowa