You know how they say an adventure isn't fun until after it is over? The same is with me as far as humiliation / spankings. I got my first spanking recently, but I chickened out three swats into it. It was my fault for not fully explaining...
I want someone to control me (not outside of my fantasies of course), and give me what I want...not what I want while I'm experiencing it, but what I want before.
I'd like to be tied up, completely unable to move and completely helpless. Mayhap I could be naked, gagged, and blindfolded. And then the spanking commences. No matter how much I squirm or beg, the dom does not stop until I start crying. And I don't mean begging, I mean actual tears flooding from my eyes.
Of course, I only trust a few people with this. Hopefully I will get my fantasy soon...been trying to arrange one with this one guy. :-)