jessm5

Yeah, when it starts stinking it's time to change it. Can't stand the stale wet diaper odor.

Hahaha

Haha I've had a few close calls too. Here's one that I'll never, ever, ever forget. It was kinda traumatic at the time, but luckily now I can look back and laugh. My story takes place when I was a senior in high school. One Saturday, my family decided to take a day trip somewhere. I couldn't go since I had to work in the morning. But it was actually a blessing because once I got through with work I had the whole day to myself - which I planned to spend by indulging in diapers. So I get off work and am on my way home when I decide I need to pick up a pack of Depends. So I go in the store, pick them out, and pay. No problem. As I'm leaving the store, I felt a number 2 coming on. I was actually wearing a diaper at the time (I wasn't worried about getting caught at work)... and I bet you guys know where I'm going with this story... I hardly ever use the diaper for that purpose, but since my whole family was out of town and I was heading straight home, I figured what the heck. And I went number 2 in my diaper in the parking lot, en route to my car. And I could feel it was a pretty decent load too. I get back to my car, or I should say, waddle back and wouldn't you know it, I LOCKED MY KEYS INSIDE MY CAR!!!!! So just so we're all clear, here's my situation: I have a poopy diaper on, I'm holding a package of adult diapers in my hands, and am in the middle of a freaking parking lot with no way of getting in my car!!! I hope you can appreciate the gravity of my situation. So my first action was to panic, which I accomplished. Next I called my parents and explained what happened, although I neglected to mention anything about being soiled or why I was at the store. They had an extra key with them but they weren't coming home for a few hours. Luckily that bought me some time. There was a restaurant near by and I figured I could go there and get myself changed, but first thing's first, I had to get rid of the diapers I just bought. The problem was that I couldn't find a place to just dump them, and I didn't want to leave them in public. So what do I decide to do? I decide to return them. After all, desperate times call for desperate measures. So I march into the store, poopy diaper and all. I'm sure I stunk to high Heaven, and the cashier gave me weird looks the whole time. I mean, there's no way he didn't know the diapers I was returning were for me. But it worked and he gave me my cash back and I gave him a wry smile before I left Next I went to the restaurant and made a bee-line right for the bathroom to get myself cleaned up. I must have spend 40 minutes in that bathroom stall getting myself cleaned up. Of course I didn't have any wipes or anything so I had to use dry toilet paper though occasionally when no one else was in the bathroom I could go and wet some from the sink.... yeah it was as bad and awkward as it sounds. I had to make sure I was extra clean because I had no clean diaper to change into and I didn't wear boxers or anything. (ie. I was going commando). But 40 minutes later, I deemed myself clean enough. I still had an hour and a half left and luckily there was a movie theater nearby so I caught a movie until my folks came. So yeah, it all worked out fine... Lol though every time I pass that shopping complex I shudder... then chuckle.

Ok, then what you should do for next year to ensure that you get an AB/DL gift is tell all your friends, family, acquaintances, former teachers, former class-mates, and even your auto mechanic that you have a thing for diapers. If you mention it enough, someone is bound to take notice. There! Problem solved. This is fun!!!

Why don't you give yourself a nice Christmas gift? That's what I did! I bought myself a pair of footed PJs at Target (see my discussion thread below) and am so glad I did it.

Hey folks, the other day while wearing, I had this weird (but nice) mental image. I was wondering if anyone else has felt the same way in the past. Say you've wet a diaper multiple times, almost to the point where you feel gross and unhygenic (ie, you wrecked that diaper). You go to change into a nice fresh clean diaper... you get yourself all cleaned up, maybe even apply some powder or lotion. Last but not least, you throw away that old stinky diaper. Now you feel fresh and clean and ready to take on the world.... Only that feeling doesn't last because you *promptly* have to go again. And, since there's no point in holding it in (since you'll probably change into a new one later on anyways), you wet the new one! So here you are... wet... again! At this point you're pissed, not only literally, but also that you're right back to where you started. It almost feels like that diaper change was for nothing. But on the other hand, you couldn't keep that old one on- it was gross. So where does that leave you? Well, since you already soaked your nice clean diaper once, it doesn't matter when you do it again. If it's 18 minutes later, fine, if it's an hour and a half later, fine. You realize it doesn't matter because it will eventually be wrecked, just like the diaper you just got rid of. When you start to feel dirty and unhygenic, you'll change again - only to soak that new diaper. And it goes on, and on, and on. But this is where it gets interesting! Although it may sound annoying to the layman, for us AB/DLs it's actually a GOOD feeling to have. Because, when you think about it, when you're wet (again) you are truly using the diaper as it was intended. Diapers aren't intended to be savored or used when convenient for the wearer, they're meant to be used at any time... they're there simply to stop you from soaking your pants - even if that means you don't get to enjoy the feeling of a nice fresh clean diaper. In other words, you can't savor the feeling of a nice clean diaper because you're busy using the diaper as it was intended! And yet, using the diaper as intended makes you appreciate them even more!... Wow! So there you have it. Pretty trippy, huh? Comments are always welcome.

As someone who had to buy Depends or store brands for years and years, let me just say that I feel your pain. What I would do if I were you is buy some baby diapers (preferably size 5,6, or 7) and punch lots of holes and use it as a stuffer. That takes care of the absorbency problem. Next, get some clear duct tape (they make it now and it's pretty sweet). The Depend tapes are complete crap, and Heaven forbid if you ever got oil on the tapes. I think with those two mods it's not a bad diaper. About the cloth thing... yeah my guess is that some marketing 'guru' who hasn't worn a diaper since he was 2 years old assumed that people care more that their diaper resembles real underwear or that they 'breathe' rather than absorbency. While that may be true for a dry diaper, it is complete rubbish when it comes to soaking one of them. I've said it a few times before, if they made a baby size version of Depend or any of the store brands they'd go out of business in no time at all.

Let's hear it for the Buckeye state!

Hey there, I take it you're trying to avoid getting yo stash through the mail? As someone who has been in your shoes many, many times and have tried the local circuit, here's my advice.... They all have serious flaws. Every damn one of them. However, all of their flaws are different so the name of the game for you is to figure out what's most important in a diaper for you and find the product that is best for that purpose. If you're looking for a diaper that's babyish, I would go with CVS store brand. The butt padding goes up pretty high, and the wetness indicator isn't gaudy. On the other hand, if you are going for that geriatric look, go with Depend. If discreteness is what's important for you, try Walmart or CVS. Depends are thin but they are very crinkly. If you're looking for absorbancy go with Depend. I think they are the only one with side protection. All of the other ones tend to leak after 1 good soaking. Depend leaks after 1.5 times. If you plan to do a lot of refastening, buy yourself some clear duct tape cause they all stink. CVS is relatively better than other ones but they're not ideal. If you're looking for cost, go with any brand but Depend. If you're looking for the crappiest diaper you can find, go with Walgreens Overnight. They have no redeeming value. Seriously. All that said, if you don't mind a little thickness, your best bet (short of getting a PO box) is to use a baby diaper as a stuffer and then go with any diaper. Go with a size 6 or even 7 and punch a bunch of holes in the outer layer. Or you could wear 2 adult diapers at the same time (again punching holes in the inner one). Same diff. Good luck!

Hi friends, I know it's been forever and a day since I last posted here but I've been inspired to get more active in the AB/DL scene since attending a recent diaper party (which totally rocked by the way... if you haven't gone to one and you get the chance you should definitely do it. It really changes your prospective). Anyways, I learned through a friend at the party that Target sells footed PJs in the boys section that come in really big sizes. I didn't believe the guy so I went to Target myself and sure enough they do have them there... and they're cheap (on sale for like $13). They have them up to boys sizes 14/16 which means if you're a medium sized adult they'll probably fit you. It turns out that they also sell some footed PJs in the ladies department which may go up to even bigger sizes. I didn't look at them too much. The designs are pretty sweet too. I got the rocket ship one that glows in the dark which is like icing on the cake considering how much of a space geek I am. So, yeah, go check 'em out. Think of it as an early cheap gift to yourself. ~Jessm5 PS. It's good to be back (again) PPS. Sorry if this is a rehash of a previous discussion topic. I tried searching for Target Footed PJs in the threads and couldn't find any hits.

I told my ex-girlfriend shortly after we started dating. I told her after she confessed a lot of deep personal secrets in her past. So I shared so she wouldn't feel so uncomfortable. Plus she just happened to be a professional psychologist so I knew she was used to hearing unusual things. Once we got her sordid past out in the open and my diaper fetish out there, we never really talked about either again. As I got to know her better, I realized that she was not into anything kinky. Even though I had my fantasies, I knew they wouldn't fly with her and never brought up diapers again. We didn't live together so I still got plenty of diaper time, so I didn't need her support for me to indulge. As far as I was concerned, there was no reason to bring it up again. So I guess based on my experience, my advice would be to figure out what you want to accomplish by bringing it up again. Do you want her to diaper you? Do you want to wear diapers openly around her? Is it that you guys live together and the only way you can wear diapers is if she knows? If you're like me and the answer is 'no' to those questions, then I'd let it go if I were you. If she's that upset about it, I'm sure she'll bring it up sooner or later. Cheers

That was my first time at Ebaumsworld and boy what an experience that was. The fact that we, as members of a site dedicated to the enjoyment of regression, act a million times more mature than the posters at Ebaums does not bode well for that site. It's actually kinda humorous when you think about it.

Clever discussion!! While there's nothing I would seriously put on my CV based on diapers, it has given me some interesting skills. Here's a small list of skills that I am now more proficient in thanks to diapers. If I think of any more, I'll add them: 1. Adhesives - Masking tape, duct tape, velcro, you name it' I've tried it! 2. Online shopping - Thanks to diapers, I know what to look for and who to trust when it comes to online shopping 3. Incontinence - Even though I'm not incontinent, you can't help learning about it when you enjoy this lifestyle. 4. Internet law (pornography) - Although WE know that the fetish has absolutely nothing to do pedophilia, we have to be very careful about making sure it's not misconstrued in the eyes of the public. For this reason, I only support sites that are working with the law and not around it. 5. Alternative lifestyles - Not a specific skill per se, but I can empathize with other people who make different lifestyle choices, regardless of what those choices are. 6. Changing a diaper in silence & in pitch black -This is a completely useless skill, but I did it numerous times when I shared a bedroom with my brother.

Well said!!

Speaking of not meaning to infer stuff, I didn't mean to infer that I think there is a diaper gene out there (although there is a diaper genie which is something totally different ) All I am speculating is that very early in our childhood development some sort of imprinting occurred so that we came to associate pleasure with diapers and now that that association has been made, it's extremely difficult to disassociate the two. I guess I look at diapers the same way as being left or right handed. There's nothing you did or didn't do to make you left or right handed, it's just part of who you are. However, just because you have a hand preference doesn't mean that you can only do stuff with your preferred hand. If you are right handed, you can train yourself to write or throw or bat with your left hand, and if you work hard enough at it, you can get pretty good at using your left hand to do those things. It's just that it's not what you feel most comfortable with. Same with diapers. Some people prefer to wear them, some people don't. (I guess that we're the left handers of society since we're in the minority). With a lot of work it is possible to train yourself to not associate pleasure with them. It's just that it's not what you feel most comfortable with. Then again, I could be wrong... maybe diapers are indeed a coping mechanism for dealing with an underlying problem. If you can find the problem, address it, and have a more enjoyable life then more power to you! I know you're trying to go diaper free - and I commend you for that if that's what you want - but I would like to hear from you down the road on how your journey is going.

GTKG, interesting read! I'm with you on being curious about what it is about diapers that makes them so damn irresistible. I also agree with your comments about always liking diapers and it becoming sexual at puberty. However, I do have differing theories which I will offer as food for thought. From your post it sounds like your explanation for why you like diapers is based on an unmet psychological need. Would you agree? To tell the truth, I haven't really considered it that way. Instead, I've been focusing on the question from a more biological standpoint. I tend to believe that something happened early in our development that caused us to enjoy diapers and we became hard-wired from that point on. Perhaps as infants our pleasure receptors were inadvertently stimulated by diapers at the same time they were developing and that caused our minds to link pleasure with diapers. Or perhaps we were naturally inclined to have a fetish and it just so happens that diapers came along at the right time. Obviously our biology affects our psychology and vice versa so it's possible we're both right. But I wanted to bring up this point, because if liking diapers "is in our blood" as I am implying, diaper's aren't substituting for something else that's missing in our lives. Regardless of whether it's biological or psychological, I agree that we don't have to be slaves to our desires. I would argue that it's tougher to give up the desires than you indicated, but it's still up to everyone whether or not they act on them. The key is balance.... balance.... balance. Indulge when you want to, and don't when you don't want to. Anyways, I will keep thinking about your post and if I have any more thoughts, I will be glad to share.

Hi all, Just curious, has anyone else been told or feel that they have a child-like wonder about the world that few others share? Someone recently told me that I do, and it really got me thinking. Does having a sense of wonder and awe about the world have anything to do with being a DL? Does being a diaper lover bring out this side in people? Or what about the opposite? In other words, do AB&DL's have a unique outlook on life, and the fetish is just a manifestation of this? Or is it that AB/DL's are just as jaded as the rest of the world and I'm an anomaly? Any thoughts??

The 'work' that goes into going 24/7 is all too true, which is why I gave up 24/7 a few months after I started. However, even though my experience palls in comparison to others' here, I'm glad to share. What worked for me was using generic diapers. I would use two at a time and punch holes in the inner one, so that they would essentially act like one thick diaper. Since they were generics I didn't mind going through them quickly. My schedule was: Morning - double up. This would get me through the 'work day' when I'm out and about. I would change when I got home (I only doubled up if I was going back out). Then I would change again at night time right before bed (doubling up). As for the tapes, I don't have any advice there since I didn't go number 2 in the diapers and just held it until between diaper changes. Like I said, I gave it up after a while because it was more work than I thought. Plus, I was in a situation where I couldn't enjoy the diapers during the day time so I felt like I was wasting them. However, after a just a few weeks I was wetting in my dreams. At first I would wake myself up just as I started to go. Then I would have dreams about going but not wake up. Then it got to the point where I wouldn't even have dreams. I remember the first time I woke up wet without even realizing it. It was pretty cool. I remember waking up and not feeling well. I just changed out of my diaper without even thinking about it. As I balled it up to throw it away I felt that the front was warm, but even, so I still didn't think about it. The other thing I wanted to mention was that after stopping 24/7 I found it necessary to wear at night for a few months. Even after I stopped wearing every night, I still had a few accidents. Now I don't wear diapers most nights. But the screwy thing is that I wet in my sleep every so often when I wear diapers, but almost never when I don't wear diapers. Pretty cool, huh?

Great question! If someone gave me a magic wand which I could wave and poof... get rid of my desire to wear diapers, I would use it. I love the AB/DL community, and diapers have certainly made my life 'interesting' to say the least.... it's just that it's not a particularly socially acceptable lifestyle. I'd love to sit here and say, "I don't care what people think of me, it's my life etc" but the truth is that I do care what people think of me, and I do want to be accepted in society. Since I don't have a wand and my heart races at the mere thought of waking up in a thick warm diaper in a dry bed, I try to make the most of it. When I feel like wearing diapers, I wear them and when I don't, I don't. A while back I made up some rules of diaper wearing which I try to abide by. The point of these rules is to provide balance in my life and so far they've worked at stopping those 'blues' that come with enjoying diapers. Here they are in case you're interested. 1. NEVER let diapers interfere with a social opportunity 2. Only wear diapers when they can be enjoyed 3. Keep good hygene 4. Only visit safe and reputable AB/DL websites 5. Don't tell people unless there is a reason why they should know 6. Don't judge other people's fetishes / lifestyle choices 7. Keep a good count of my "diaper stash." Don't have diapers hidden all over the place 8. Promptly dispose of all dirty diapers. Don't let them pile up in the trash. 9. Don't worry about looking silly in a diaper 10. Have a sense of humor about liking diapers. Again, I think the key to keeping diapers enjoyable is balance. Diapers can be a safe, fun, and rewarding experience as long as you control the fetish and not the other way around.

Great story!! This is definitely a "live and learn" story. If it didn't involve your crotch and diapers I would say it's one to tell the grandkids one day. Just a couple thoughts on the whole pediatrician thing.... although it's not common for a peds doc to see adult patients, there's absolutely nothing that says they can't, especially if the doc is covering for someone else. Actually, in some cases when pediatricians have a patient with a chronic condition and the patient is doing well, the docs will continue seeing the patient well into adulthood. Also medical school does a really good job of teaching doctors to be professionally detached. I can guarentee you that your new pediatrician friend has seen more crazy crotch accidents than she can count. Heck, even if you flat out told her, "I have a diaper fetish, and thought it would be a really good idea to take a Nair bath" she wouldn't have even flinched. (Not that I recommend you do that). Also, I once decided to shave the area down there. I didn't have the running-to-the-pediatrician-with-a burning-crotch experience that you enjoyed so much, but it was the itchiest three days of my life.

Hello everyone! I don't remember the exact last time I logged in, but I think it was around June 2006. Anyways, I wanted to say, "hi" to all the folks old and new. I've actually been lurking for a little while so I haven't completely vanished. I don't want to go into all the details of my adventures for the last 20 months or so, but I did want to share some insights. If something I wrote resonates with you, I'm interested in hearing your opinion and encourage you to reply. First, why I left in the first place.... I didn't leave because I wanted to give up diapers, or had a falling out with anyone. Instead, I was concerned that several of the stories in the Story Time forum involved minors. Although the stories are all fiction and none of the stories had sexual acts, they were still there for the sexual pleasure of readers. While these stories are obviously NOT child pornography, I was still concerned about how it would look if the general public found out about the stories. Why I came back... Obviously there are still stories here about minors, and I'm still not 100% cool with them. But as far as I can tell, there's nothing illegal about them, and I don't even think you could call the stories "obscene". So although the issue hasn't gone away, I've lightened my stance on the issue. Still, I ask that if anyone reads any stories or experiences involving minors and the story takes on a sexual tone, that they report it. While we're on the subject, I do want to point out that this site is extremely well moderated and Daily Di does a heck of a job keeping the site safe. When I left the forums, I didn't even consider joining any other forums. Lastly, here are some other random insights from the last 20 months that I would've shared had I been here: - The Depend "Refastenable Underwear" diapers are an abomination. - I found out from a friend who knows about my fetish that her ex-boyfriend (who is a good friend of mine) has a diaper fetish. But she asked me not to say anything about it since she was told in confidence. Now I have no idea what the heck to do. - I stopped going number 2 in my diapers. Although it's fun, it's never worth the hassle of cleaning it up. - Although I consider myself to be completely straight, I've come to the realization that I prefer looking at pictures of men in diapers rather than pictures of women. - I live with roommate who is never home. He doesn't know about my diapers, and even if he did he wouldn't care. I'm single and I hardly ever spend the night at other people's houses anymore now that I'm older. There's really no reason why I couldn't wear diapers every night of the week (and even most days). Yet, most nights I don't wear diapers to bed. Go figure. Anyways, thems are my thoughts. I look forward to posting in the future :-) ~Jess

Digger, As I'm not incontinent, I can't really speak to the whole 'accepting incontinence' thing. However, I wanted to comment on your episode at the doctor's. First, my CYA statement: I'm not associated with the medical field at all, these are just my personal rants based on the info you provided in your post. 1. It seems to me that if you don't feel comfortable with your doctor/nurse for whatever reason, don't hesitate to get a new doctor/nurse or second opinion. There should never be an 'me versus them' attitude when it comes to your medical treatment. It doesn't matter what the reason is, or how significant or insignificant the reason is. At the end of the day, you need to be comfortable with your treatment and who's treating you. 2. That said, on the other hand, the nurse practicioner and doctor probably see dozens of patients every day, and maybe hundreds in a month. Some patients have very straightforward issues, others come with lots of strings attached. They are professionals trained to do a job. If I were you, I wouldn't worry about them judging you, or anything like that. -Jess

Very good chapter, JBonn. And you can keep sticking it to the Buckeyes all you want . (Just kidding Mr. Repaid1 - it's tough living in Columbus and not being a big Buckeye fan.)

Hmm... I don't know about Juliabam's idea. Those old red wagons can get kinda rusty which would make pushing the wagon more difficult. If you're going to do that, I'd suggest you buy some WD40 to oil it up. The plastic ones are better, but usually they have hollow wheels and you don't want to puncture a hole in the wheel, cause then you're going to have to explain both the elves and the wagon wheel. I suppose you could outfit a plastic wagon with some hard core rubber wheels. Heck, you may even start a trend of people souping up their wagons. The next thing you know, there will be an MTV show called Pimp My Toy Wagon and that's when the big bucks roll in. Seriously... I don't know if anyone can help you without knowing the details of your situation. You can't drive, you don't have time to walk, you can't have stuff mailed. I assume that since you gotta watch your little sis, you can't get a job near the grocery store (you don't want to work at the store because then people will know you). Can you get a PO box? How good are you at sewing? If you can get to a fabric store, you can buy the supplies to make your own cloth diapers. I looked online and there are websites with instructions on how to make your own cloth diapers... it looks kinda tough but I thought I'd throw it out there. The bottom line is that if it doesn't work out, it doesn't work out. In that case you'll have to watch from the sidelines. My first two years in college it was pretty much impossible to hide anything since I shared a dorm with close friends, so I didn't wear the whole time. It sucked, but that's life. -Jess

Which brand of Pullups are we talking about? I know with both the Depends and the CVS 'Refastenable Underwear' neither size quite fits me right. So I guess what I'm saying is that it may not be you, it could just be the cut of the Pullup.