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Hi everyone! For nearly a year or so, I’ve been unable to login to my DD or Hotmail account. I had changed my passwords and recorded them wrong. I had to wait until my Hotmail account recycled and create it again. I did that about a month ago and forgot the “easy” password. I thought I would have to wait all over again but yesterday I was in a Starsmucks on my other laptop and it had the new password remembered. I was able to get the Hotmail account changed and afterwards change the DD password. And this time I recorded them immediately and correctly. Well, this last year has been a good year. Of course I’m still 24/7, wetting only. On the job front, I switched companies with a boost in pay and position. I still travel a bit but it is well scheduled. I’m wearing disposable more often now. With the higher salary, I can afford to do so. A couple of months ago, I switched from Abena to Wellness Brief brand diapers. I read about them here so I gave them a try. They are hands-down, much better than Abena. They fit better and the plastic doesn’t bother my skin at all. They also have a larger fit to them that makes them much easier to put on and they are thinner. They also seem to hold more than an Abena diaper. Hard to believe but that’s what I’ve discovered. Physically, I’m doing great. Feeling good and I’m happy. There are people at the new firm that know I wear diapers but it isn’t an issue. I’m convinced that social attitudes have changed or at my age people just assume prostate or other issues and don’t go beyond that. When changing at the gym, I treat my diaper wear as normal and don’t overtly hide or unhide it. When in the restroom, I am just matter of fact about things and you can’t really hide the fact that when you do enter the restroom, you use a stall, have a carry bag, make un-taping or tearing noises and don’t seem to pee in the toilet. But it is also about attitude. I’m happy all the time and I think I just project a feeling of it all being normal and ok. So those around me just assume the same. I do poke my head into DD as guest from time to time. (Never at work.) I find all the serious talk about becoming incontinent funny. I found it easy to do but that may have been me. I’ve always wetted myself so it may not have been much of a stretch for me to just stop holding it. Maybe others have it harder. Well the wife and mother-in-law are doing find and say “Hi!” –they just got in from shopping so I’m going to go. I’ll poke my head in more often and throw my 2 cents in more often. (Or cup of gas to the fire as it is!)

I'm not a distance runner but I do jog and have a very active work life. I mow my lawn, do yard work and physical labor wearing diapers. I also jog about 2 miles every day wearing a diaper and plastic pants. I also wear lycra shorts over the diaper and plastic pants under my jogging suit. This keeps everything in place. Even if I didn't wet, the diaper gets absolutly soaked with sweat. But disposable are even worse, they absorbent materials breaks up and clumps up. And get very leaky. It takes practice to do it right to avoif chaffing, leaks, sagging, and looking like you are wearing a diaper.

For me, this is not a hobby or a weekend activity. It is the way I live my life. As I’ve said before I wasn’t physically incontinent before but I was “emotionally” incontinent. I needed to do this as deeply as any other thing in my life. I needed to do this and live this way to be whole. So my wife and I look at this as a necessary expense and part of our budget. I’ve budgeted our my diaper and other supplies to allow me to live this way. In short, it means I needed to use cloth mostly and stay away from disposables except when absolutely necessary. A while ago I worked out the minimum amount of diapers needed for one day with laundry every day. The cost was about $300. I started with that and then added more sets of diapers to have about 4 days of diapers and plastic pants on hand. Haven’t bought a cloth diaper in about 2 years. Plastic pants don’t last as long. The initial cost of cloth diapers is high but disposables are very expensive if you wear 24/7. If all the money spent on all my cloth diapers was spent on disposables, they would only last bit over 6 months. One set of cloth diapers will last many years whereas the same money spent on disposables will only last about 6-8 weeks. You can easily spend around $6/day on disposables but I’m down to around $1 per day with cloth. The cost is not the only issue. The lifestyle change is the real issue. Changing multiple times every day, the “diaper pail”, and laundry, laundry, laundry. Keeping things clean and fresh takes real commitment. So, how committed are you to diapers 24/7? It isn’t just the cost, it’s a whole life change. I do enjoy being able to wet myself all the time and as my wife has said, it is a lot cheaper than therapy or happy pills.

Well March has come and gone and that means I’ve been diapered 24/7 for over 3 years now. I don’t post regularly because there isn’t much to say about wearing diapers and wetting myself. To me it is just normal. My wife still doesn’t seem to mind and my mother-in-law is as supportive as always. The people at work know I wear but they don’t know why. They assume it must be a medical issue and I’m not going to correct them. My diaper use is just a part of everyday life. I usually wear cloth and plastic pants because of the expense of disposables. I do wear disposables every now and then when I just can’t take the plastic pants anymore. Oh, that happens less these days because I’ve found out why. It was a laundry issue. The cloth around the elastic wasn’t getting clean enough. I also needed to shower at least twice a day to make sure my skin stays clean and sweat doesn’t cause problems. When I wear disposable they are usually Tranquility Premium OverNight briefs. When worn right they take a lot without leaking. But don’t usually last the night. Things have shifted in our social circle. Most people know I wear diaper and wet myself but they don’t believe that I’m doing it on purpose. I’m not sure how that idea changed but there have been rumors of prostate trouble and other things. My diaper usage isn’t discussed anymore and hasn’t come up socially in over a year. I no longer do the thing where I wet the bed at night. I just became disinterested in it. I haven’t seen the shrink in ages. I’m not sure when I stopped. She wasn’t really interested in my case and we saw no reason to continue with the treatments and payments. Simply put, it is all just routine. I am more happy than before I wore diapers. It still feels completely normal and right for me to wet myself all the time. My wife doesn’t really understand but she likes me being happy and after we sorted out the issues of money, laundry, smells, and leaks, we were ok. My relationship with my mother-in-law has certainly changed. She always looked at me as a bit of an uptight conservative but not anymore. She is much more friendly to me and thinks it is great that I’m doing my own thing. She is re-living her wild commune/hippy youth in a way. She is in her 60’s and won’t wear any clothes in her apartment or our house. Not a stitch. She will wear her beaded necklaces and things on her wrists, waist and ankles but no clothes. She says that if I can wear a diaper around then she can go around as nude as nature intended. Last summer she went on a nude hippy retreat. I’m sure there was plenty of herbal sampling going on. (For those that don’t know. My wife’s mother joined a commune in the 60’s and my wife spent her early years in a commune where many of the people were naked most of the time. It was the late 60’s and early 70’s and they really believed all that stuff. My wife grew up but her mother is still a real, genuine hippy. ) Well that’s my yearly wrap up. I still wet all the time including at night while sleeping. It is just want I wanted. No “excitement” from it, it just feels “right” and the way I should live my life.

This is normal even for high quality Abena diapers. Its a matter of surface area exposed. If your diaper is on snugly or depending on your physical posistion, your pee may sit on the front of the diaper and take up less space. You need your pee to reach as much area of the diaper as possible. When this happend again, walk around or re-adjust your diaper to allow your pee to flow donward for a bit. If you may flood, you need to make sure that your diaper is snug around the legs or it will leak. It is also common to leak out the top if your pee has nowhere to go. I always recommend wearing larger underwear around your disposable diaper to help catch any of these minor leaks.

I have traveled cross country recently from Dulles and National. I wear Tranquility brief through the scanners and then put on an Abena diaper in the restroom near the gate. This way I don't have any bulk in my waist but will be ok when we sit on the tarmac for hours.

Yes you can do it like this. It took me about 10 months before I started to wet the bed most nights without knowing it. It took about 12 months wet at all times involuntarily. I've been wearing diaper and wetting for nearly 3 years now. It does take time and you can "untrain" your body. It really is amazing to find yourself peeing without you realizing you are or have been. Sometimes it feels like I'm always peeing but I'm not. Just as sometimes I don't feel like I have to pee yet I am. It is also neat to just dribble and drip with no feeling of control. It isn't easy and you have to be commited to being 24/7. You can't have "time off" or work around your job or social life. You must set in to be 24/7 and really live it. But it is fun! It can be very annoying and painful at times but I still get a thrill out of it!

I suggest a modified approach. But this will only work if your parents or family members have NO clue about your diaper desires. First, get your job and start making money. Then at some point start deliberately wetting the bed but go SLOW. Just a very little bit every few days. If you sleep in your underwear, keep them on. What you want to do it just stain your sheets and underwear just a little. So little that “you hardly even notice it.” Let this go for a bit then just wet the bed one day. Make it a weekday or otherwise inconvenient. Take steps to hide it, very good steps. You DO NOT want anyone to find out. Let the minor night wetting happen more. Make sure you leak a little in your underwear during the day so that they stain. At some point you can buy some cheap Depends or other store brand to wear a night. Of course they will leak. After a while of this you can begin to buy whatever you like. If someone finds your diapers or mentions anything, you have your excuse already prepared. The main thing is you do NOT have someone else buy or diapers or tell anyone about this. Adult men don’t tell anyone they have a bedwetting problem. So you don’t either. They can find out in other ways but you don’t tell anyone. It would also be good to buy a new mattress at some point. Make up a good story if you need to but don’t let on that you wet the bed. Chances are, you mother would notice things early on so if things are ever discovered, you already have someone who knows what is going on. Yes, it is devious. But this is also very deviant!

I’ve succeeded making myself completely urinary incontinent it about a year just by living that way. It has been well over 2.5 years since I’ve started and it just takes a real commitment. Those who think they need to cath or use hypno are not really into being incontinent. They are just playing around. Let’s look at it. If you want to be urinary incontinent, then you would have to wear diapers all the time. So why not just start doing it? If you want to be incontinent, then do it. All you have to do it pee. You don’t need an excuse or some fake reason where it “isn’t your fault.” Just pee. If you are reading this. Just pee right now. Don’t wait for the “right time” or when you are alone or not out. Just pee. It doesn’t matter where you are or what you are wearing or sitting on. Just pee. Sounds extreme? No, because that is what it is like to be incontinent. Being incontinent means you are not in control. You don’t have any say as to where or when. You just pee. This IS the way I did it. I am now completely urinary incontinent. All the time. No drugs, no caths, no hypnosis. Just peeing the moment I felt like it and by NOT putting any special attention on it. Not making my self go. Nor holding back for any reason. It took just a few months before I would immediately wet without conscious though when awake. It took nearly a year before I would wet asleep. But it did finally happen. I leak and pee every 10-20 minutes now. Every morning I’m completely soaked. Many of the people who need a “plan” are also looking for an excuse about NOT being incontinent. They can and do blame the plan. Some people may take longer than others. Some won’t be honest about it and will not just relax and allow their bodies to unlearn their potty training. But it is very, very possible and VERY EASY! The key is to be honest about your desire. You absolutely must put your desire to be incontinent above all others. You MUST just LET GO the instant you feel like you have to pee. You absolutely can’t hold it and you must immediately let yourself RELAX. Don’t force it, just RELAX. You may not pee right away but you need to let the body know that the I-NEED-TO-PEE feeling means I-NEED-TO-RELAX-AND-LET-GO. Seriously, you have to just let go.

There could be a thousand reasons why you have the desire. I was 40 before I finally made the jump to wearing daipers 24/7 and wetting in them. It was the best decision I ever made. Even my wife agrees that I'm happier and more fun to be around. In my case it was just some sort of compulsion or desire to wet myself and I was not happy unless I did. That's all it was. It wasn't a fetish and it wasn't sexual. I don't know why you or even I want to wear a diaper but I do know that I'm only really happy when I can just wet myself and wearing a diaper allows me to do that. I'm no longer worried who may find out. -But I don't broadcast it either. I just consider myself incontenent since I can't really help myself. I look at as any other incontenent person would. I just have to use a diaper. Only in my case it isn't physical but personal. (Though it may very well be physical by now.) The "obession" feeling may end once you decide you can wear all the time. Once you take the problem out of something, the obsession part of it disapears. In other words, you may not be obsessed once you can have it at any time. It doesn't mean you may not want to wear a diaper, just that the frantic feeling may go away. I would just wear what you want. It isn't normal to discuss your underwear and bathroom habits with your mother or family so don't. IF they find out you can always say its a personal issue and that having to wear a diaper is embarassing enough without haveing to talk about it. Most people will just assume there is a physical reason you have to wear and leave it at that. As for cost, you will have to solve this the best you can. Yes, disposable diapers do cost money. For daily wear you need to consider some form of cloth and plastic pants. That is the only cost effective solution available. Wearing cloth has its own challanges but it is cheaper in the long run. But for now, decided if you really want to wear daily or not. Make no mistake, wearing diapers 24/7 is a major lifestyle choice. It isn't easy. This proven by the very few who actually do wear 24/7 by choice. (Not everyone here who says they do really do. It isn't hard to spot the posers. ) I would suggest that you try the lifestyle before you make a decision. Perhaps the IDEA if diaper wearing is all that is happening. Have you tried: Wearing for 24 hours in private? Wearig for a litte in public? Wearing and using for multiple days in private to get used to wearing and changing a diaper? Have you learned how long you can wear your diaper before it will leak? Have you learned how to wear in public and change in a public restroom? Have you tried wearing for a full weekend in private. Have you tried wearing for a full weekend in private and also running a few public erands? Are you comfortable wearing in any situation? And finally have you tired the complete diaper lifestyle for 1 week or longer? If you can do these and feel that wearing a diaper is for you, then you should just make diapers par of your life.

You keep saying "diaper fetish". Not all diaper wearing or use is a a fetish. I think you are too hung up on the fetish idea. The idea that a desire can "take over someone's life" is somehow destructive is silly. What about a desire to run in a marathon where person changes their life to train. Or someone's desire to have a baby? What you are confusing is a lifestyle choice and a fetish. Not all diaper use is sexual. It may be for you but not for many others. It is a lifestyle choice. I've seen people so hooked on coffee that they change their schedule and spend more per day on coffee than I do on diapers. Should they seek psychological help becasue they enjoy coffee? What about those who spend thousands of dollars and arrange their lives around NFL? To some of us, diaper us is just a hobby, not a defect of character. It is obvious that you really want to wear or use diaper and that you are not happy with you current non-diaper lifestyle. You are taking it out on other by saying that anyone who give in to our desires are somehow mentally damaged and need help. It is you who is struggling and just projecting that anger onto the rest of us. You need to make peace with yourself and figure out what makes you happy. For me, wearing diaper has never been about sex. Its about what makes me, me. That is all it is. My wife supports me even though she thinks it is wierd. Not everyone would be that way so I'm lucky. But the thing is, this is ME. Just as some guys have to have their football or golf, I have my diaper wetting. Even my therapist agrees with me!

I needed to take a break from cloth and plastic pants and I ended up trying out the male style of the new depends briefs. It has been ages since I tried Depend and if I wasn't so desperate to get out of plastic pants I wouldn

It is easy to get snap-on plastic pants. The do help cut down the heat a little but I still sweat heavily in them. I can't wear them to work or in public becasue they will tend to weep onto my tucked-in shirts. And there are odor issues.

Wrong. So very, very wrong. Wearing cloth and plastic pants in the heat is pure hell. Yea they sure do "absorb" sweat. The plastic pants create an oven which traps heat. Very quickly, within 15-30 minutes you can dampen a think heavy diaper completely with just sweat. The entire diaper will be and feel wet. Condensation actually forms on the inside of your plastic pants. Your whole diaper area will feel "itchy wet." You will never feel dry or comfortable. Chaffing is a big issue so are fungal infections, also known as jock itch - the same thing as athletes foot. Odor can be a big problem. If you mess a diaper, this won't work. But if you just wet them, here is what helps. Get some lycra shorts, very short even brief size if you can. These are synthetic and will wick moisture away from your body. Wear these shorts next to your skin with the cloth diaper over them. This will really help in the comfort department and help from feeling "itchy wet" all the time. It also helps with chaffing. One area that I have not found a solution for which is a real problem is the irritation of the elastic gathers on the legs. Since the inside of the plastic pant is always very wet, the area around the legs gets very irritated. I've litterally had to peel the plastic pants from my legs at times. You can try changing a lot but it won't make much difference. The lycra shorts do help. I've also used longer shorts with bloomer style plastic pants so that the leg elastic doesn't move. To do this you wear 2 lycra shorts. A brief style next to your body, your diper and then the larger shorts over the diaper. This also helps keep it in place. If you can afford it, using a disposable covered by lycra shorts is workable. Change often becasue you will sweat into your diaper and your skin may get irritated if any of the disposable diaper plastic touches your skin. Disposables sometimes feel better because they don't trap the heat as much as plastic pants but they do get hot and they WILL absorb sweat quickly causing the absorbent material to clump up and break apart. This will reduce how much the diaper will absorb. Leaks have happen much easier. When I wear disposables in the summer, I also wear lycra shorts over them. Small leaks are wicked away better and tend not to show through your clothes. Powders do nothing in the summer heat. I wear diapers ALL THE TIME. Even when doing physical labor in 90+ degree heat. And it ain't no picnic. There is no good solution.

You've hit the one area I have no tolerance for. You are NOT under stress, you are just a lazy, clueless, immature, kid who just doesn't want to deal with any responsibility. You tried gamming and taking a bath. Wow. How about JUST MOVING YOUR LAZY ASS!!!! The reason you are stressed is simple. You are behind the eight-ball and and don't have a clue what to do. Your "solution" to your problems is to goof-off to relieve "stress." The only way to really relieve your stress is to solve your problems. Start taking responsibility for your situationa and do something constructive. If you want a car but don't have one, get a job to save money to get one. Gee, you may have to take public transportation like those, gasp, "low income people." Sure you may have to take a sucky job earning minimum wage. That's life but so do lots of other people who have REAL problems and families to support. Sell the game console and start being productive. You will be amazed how working even a lame job can help. Other than that, take calcium and magnesium. It will help take any edge off. Don't take any stimulants. (coffee, tea, cola)

I was thinking this morning about adults wearing diaper and a question occurred to me. Who wears diapers just for themselves? Meaning, who wears completely privately taking pains to conceal from everyone and who doesn’t want to get caught or found out? Does anyone wear diapers and is completely private about it? (Wearing 24/7 that is.) Over the last 2+ years, my attitude towards wearing diapers has changed a lot. In the beginning, I sort of wanted people to know or find out I was wearing diapers. It made it a bit exciting. But now it’s the complete opposite. I don’t want people to know or even suspect. I’ve toned down the “diaper-bag” and I take care not to show that I’m wearing. I doubt anyone would be able to tell that I was wearing. Even the way I store my diaper has changed. In the beginning, they were on open shelved in my closet (walk-in) and bags of disposables would be visible on the shelf. Even my wife has noticed that diapers no longer take center stage. She said that if she didn’t know I always wore, she would have no idea that I did. I was rather surprised. I didn’t notice this change. After thinking about it a bit I’ve realized that I don’t want people to know I’m wearing and using. I like that idea a lot. Just a bit of self reflection on my part.

I've notice no difference in desire. In fact, I tend to rush back into a diaper as soon as I can. After having an erection for a while, I will nearly always leak or dribble as the erection fades. The longer I have an erection and the more active I am, the more likely it is that I will start to leak as soon as the erection begins to soften.

My mother-in-law is a great person, her “outing” me was accidental and technically, both her and my wife “outed” me at the same time about a year ago. And ever since, my mother-in-law has been great about defending me. When my mother-in-law (and wife) mentioned it, it was in very close company and was entirely a spur of the moment remark fueled by good food, drink, and close friends. But like most juicy bits of gossip, it slipped well past that circle of friends and has made the rounds with embellishments. My mother-in-law and wife don’t get many questions about it. When they do their answers are very simple, along the lines of; “Yes, he really does have to wear diapers. The doctors say…” That usually handles everything and defuses the rumors. But this time, it was more about me wearing for emotional and not physical needs. I’ve been going back to the gym recently. (Not as often as I should.) Usually, I don’t get any questions, just a look or 2. When that happens or if there are other around who see my in a diaper, I just make a comment about the plumbing or other remark that really says; “yes, I wear diapers. Mind your own business.” It isn’t something I worry about anymore. Most think it may be a prostrate thing or something. I was in a disposable in the club changing room and a guy in his 50’s immediately launched into a story about how he had to wear boosters for about 7 months after prostate surgery. Except for the woman at the party, no one has really challenged me on the emotional need issue. I’ve always been able to say little and have people assume some sort of physical issue. I think this was the first time I really had to defend my emotional need in public. I was able to really defuse things when I mentioned something my therapist told me. (Which is funny when you think about it. I’ll say why afterwards.) She said that my emotional need was probably in response to my inability to physically control myself. That I developed my “need” when I couldn’t control my bladder. She said that some people will make up a reason why a physical limitation is their own fault or under their own control. This makes them in control of something they don’t really have control of. While it sounds hokey to me and I don’t think it applies to me at all, at least it would mean that it wasn’t something I could control. Sure, I think its psychobabble but it helped me defuse things. Oh, I think it funny because a therapist is supposed to assume that everything is mental and this one has decided that it not just mental, but a mental issue in response to a physical issue. So that would mean: I’m now completely physically urinary incontinent because I fabricated a physically condition to hide an emotional response to my inability to come to terms with being slightly physically urinary incontinent. (When I read that I realized that it is something that only a therapist could come up with.) No, I’m like this because I like to wet myself and wear/use diapers. Anything else is just BS. If I didn’t have to work for a living, I think I would be able to be open about wearing diapers but I can’t take that risk.

Normally I don’t discuss my diapers or wetting with people. This is was all further fallout from my mother-in-law blurting it out a number of months ago. She is a rather free spirit and to her it isn’t something to be hidden. (It’s a sixties “hippy” way of looking at things.) So a number of months ago, she just responded to a comment with something about how I wore diapers by choice. (I posted something about it at the time.) She wasn’t even at the party a couple of weeks ago. It was someone else who brought it up and I didn’t even know I was being talked about until someone asked about it as though it was a joke. It wasn’t a dinner really. It was a private get together so someone could try to raise funds for some DC charity. The husband and wife who did that had left before the diaper topic came up. People at work know I wear diapers but I’ve never said that it was my choice. It turns out that nearly everyone knew for months and just assumed it was due to some injury. I didn’t dissuade this idea. When asked by HR I just said that had lost urinary control. I consider that technically true because I have no idea if I can control it now or not. I have no conscious control of peeing or not. It just happens every so often a little at a time. I wet when I sleep as well. The only time I don’t wet is when I have an erection but if I have an erection for any length of time, I will immediately wet as is subsides. The woman who was the problem has her own issues. I’m not into gossip but this time I’ll make an exception. She is 48-50 years old and has been divorced for 10-15 years. She has her own money or still gets it from somewhere. She doesn’t work. She is kinda bi-sexual. Into younger college students, not hunks like you think but overweight nerdy types, she isn’t into sex but will do it, she likes oral more, both giving and receiving. She also has a thing for older heavier women even thought she is rather trim. She has a number of genital piercings and it is said that she likes to walk around and play tennis while using a remote control vibrator. She also drinks heavily but not to too much excess. I can’t vouch for any of that but she does like to hang around younger chubby people and one heavyset shy Hispanic girl was living with her for awhile and she ended up putting her through college. She immediately hired another heavy girl with a very bad complexion as a personal assistant. And that girl was a lesbian all the way. Not dyke-ish, but was only into women. She soon moved in with the woman. I have heard from men she had been with that she likes to perform oral sex on men – if they are heavyset. From what I’ve heard her last husband was trim and cut a very good figure. So who knows why it is her thing. While I’ve never heard any of this from her, I don’t think she is making great pains to hide it. But in a way I can see her point. I’m not a fan of the AB side of things. Or let me be more specific, I’m not into age play or the AB fetish thing. Someone who has an emotional issue is another matter. That is why TurtlePins does not creep me out. For some reason that situation makes sense, perhaps because I can see similar emotional issues for me but not as severe. It is hard to communicate just how more relaxed I am now that I can wet myself. It actually felt as though a part of me that was missing was returned. I felt like “me” for the first time once I started wetting. It isn’t just the diaper though it does provide an emotional comfort. A year ago when I used to sleep in our day bed so I could wet in my sleep, I was very happy. It was all about wetting. Obviously, I have some emotional connection to wetting myself. I don’t care why. It doesn’t matter. What does matter is that I’m able to live my life the way I want. My problem with plastic pants right not isn’t that I don’t like plastic pants in general. Usually I like wearing them with my diaper. But sometimes my leg just can’t stand the elastic and I need to give that area a rest. Sometimes my waist and belly get that way too but not very often. It may be a think with the disposables. Sometimes, I just can’t have that plastic material touch my skin. The only thing that never bothers me are Pampers baby-dry diapers. (Like in my photo.) They do a very good job as a soaker and since they are very cheap, I’ll wear them around the house in my diaper or even in just underwear to reduce the bulk and give my skin some rest. Since I leak very often, they have time to soak up a lot before they overflow. Part of the problem at the party is that I didn’t want people getting the idea that I was some sort of pervert. People associate diapers with children too easily and it would rather people know that it was my choice and why it was my choice than to think the wrong thing. Since it isn’t sexual with me, I don’t want people to think it is or that I’m being unfaithful to my wife. My wife is great. She understands how diapers and wetting have helped me emotionally. She has some rules about odor, hygiene, and costs but other than that she is very understandable. She knows that I don’t want to even try to control it even though I may be able to. She agrees that I should continue my rules at all times even if causes a minor problem or embarrassment. So she is tolerant and understanding about leaks and other mishaps because she knows it isn’t completely on purpose. In other words, I’m not leaking for kicks but because my body is just leaking. She says that we’ll consider it an emotional and physical issue that just needs to be accepted, and that we need to adapt our lifestyle to my incontinence – even though it started not as physical incontinence but as emotional incontinence that has become physical. She feels that the emotional issue is just as valid as the physical; that either way I can’t really control myself nor should I try. She gets a lot of this from her mother. Both are very sweet and have been a great help to me these last 2 years.

Hi everyone. It has been a while since I really visited the site. I commented on post yesterday or the day before but it was minor. I have a few minutes and I need to write some thoughts out. Mostly about dealing with people who know I like to wet myself and wear diapers. In late March, I hit my 2 year mark of wearing diapers 24/7 and constantly wetting myself. No, there was no diaper cake or celebration. I’m not big into that sort of thing so we didn’t comment on it. I was also brooding a bit back then because of some things that had recently been said. About a week or 2 before my 2 year mark, we were out with some friends and people we know. Some of them were people that we see somewhat often and others just in passing or in social circles. They are a slice of upper income demographics. Liberal, conservative, high and low pedigrees, family money and “chiefs” – mostly wives of “chiefs” (“Chief” as in the C in CIO, CEO, CFO, CTO, etc.) All educated and all with their own skeletons and issues. – You know the type. Mostly snobs or better-than-you types. Granted, not all but the ones who got under my skin were. As expected, my diaper use became a topic for discussion. It’s a sordid sort of story to talk about and some people can’t help but sling dirt. As usual, at first most who didn’t know didn’t believe it even though I said it was true. There were the usual fetish discussions where I naturally said that it wasn’t and tried to explain things. I don’t believe in therapy but I knew most in this bunch did so I said how my therapist also didn’t understand but helped me to better understand why and ended up supporting my lifestyle. Its funny but everything was somewhat ok until I mentioned the word “lifestyle.” This brought up the whole AB issue and the stupid crap about NAMBLA or whatever those nuts are called. I had to go into lengthy and somewhat heated discussions about how it wasn’t anything like either. I pretty much get things calmed down when this one woman who was driving the tirade started in a louder voice: “Wait, wait – wait a minute. Are you saying that you wear diapers all the time?” “Yes, that is what I’ve been saying. I wear diapers all the time.” “And you USE them?” I replied somewhat quietly, “Yes, I do wet them.” “How often do you do this? Once a day.” “No, all the time.” She was quite for a moment and then said with a tone of absolute disgust, “Are you wear and wetting yourself NOW?” Of course everyone was looking at me and since some knew the answer, were smiling or looking away when I replied. By this point I was getting a bit defensive and very annoyed at the why things were going. So I said, very directly; “YES – I – AM. I AM WEARING A DIAPER, IN FACT IT IS A WET DIAPER. I have been wearing diapers ALL THE TIME for nearly 2 years now. It is NOT sexual in anyway. I just didn’t feel right about not wetting myself. But guess what? I’ve been wetting myself for years, since before I was a teen but I didn’t want to admit it. It was some sort of crutch or stress thing. I would just pee myself a little. Sometimes it was for a thrill, sometimes because I was scared or stressed. Sometimes when I was happy I would do it. I would wet my bed because it just felt right. And I was still doing this as an adult and no one knew. Well one day, I just “woke up” and realized I don’t have to hide and I don’t have to just do it a little. So I just let go right then and there and that’s the way it has been for nearly 2 God Damn years. Now do you get it? I do NOT know why I do it, why I NEED to do it. I just do. But I feel right when I do. YES it IS weird. I’m 43 and I wear a diaper! But I’m a lot less stressed than before. I feel better even though it isn’t easy or comfortable to wear a diaper. But it is something I do every moment of every day. And it makes me feel whole. I’m not popping pills, gambling, drinking, or banging the babysitter. I just wear diapers and wet myself. And it is none of your damn business!” The last part is somewhat paraphrased. I went on longer but I can’t remember everything that I said but I sort of let into her and some others. There was some back and forth but I don’t remember it all. I was annoyed but I needed to get it off my chest. But don’t think I “won.” You can’t really win that sort of a “discussion.” - Especially if you wearing a diaper, it is jut too weird. The evening didn’t last long afterwards. We started to get snubbed afterwards and my wife also felt the heat but of course she gave it right back. But she was pushed of the board of the swim center. Not everyone like the woman who started the mess. It turns out that she has her own issues. She is about 48-50 and has a number of genital piercings and has her own sexual quirks. (Very strange if the rumors are true.) Aside from that, it isn’t easy to keep wearing diapers. To save money, I’m washing them myself most of the time. I’ve also cut way back on my disposable usage. That wasn’t too hard because my body just didn’t like any of that disposable diaper plastic touching the skin. I also really can’t stand plastic pants right now. I’ve had to switch to bloomer style to give my upper legs a break. When I’m at home and by myself, I’ll take off the plastic pants and just put a mattress pad on my chair and cover it with a towel and sit on that in my diaper or almost naked if after a shower. But only if I’m alone, the smell is a problem. I thought about giving up diapers and going back but I just can’t do it. I don’t WANT to do that. I really do think it is something that I just need to do. I can’t describe how normal and natural it feels. Not just as I wet but as an idea. The idea feels right. I sleep well and I am relaxed. But for awhile there I was not doing well. I was depressed and feeling very angry at myself and I felt ashamed for wearing a diaper and “making up excuses” in order to wet myself. This lasted for weeks. But then I just had to admit it to myself that I didn’t want to stop and that I needed to do what I felt was right. I soon felt much better about things. Diapers were still very uncomfortable but at least I was feeling better. I still get some looks from some people who know but I don’t care. Well thanks for listening. I was thinking about not posting this but what the heck. But I may not check back for awhile so please don’t expect any quick replies or comments to your comments!

I used to do this every day for years but I never really realized it until about a year ago. You'd be surprised how much your underwear can hold before anything shows through a pair of jeans.

I don't mean to hijack the thread but if this is the case, why do medical forms have questions about how many and what type of guns you have in your home? They even ask how often you shoot and if you have a gun safe. Not trying to be argumentitive, I was recently at a new doctor's office and I did not like the anti-gun questions. I was honest about my diaper lifestyle and got the usual lecture on hygeine and infections risks, etc.

At work, I don't say anything. I let people assume what they want. Everyone at work knows and just assumes it is medical. From my apearance and personality, I doubt anyone would think I was anything except straight laced. I doub't they could believe I just liked to wet myself. But lately with friends and neighbors, it is now (and after last weekend) very well known that I'm wearing diapers becasue I want to and that I've worn enough to become "un-potty" trained. So, except for work, I am don't hide from the fact that I really wearing by choice. Since I'm married, I don't have to worry about dating.

That is very good but my favorite is after that nice shower and the fresh, clean cloth diaper, is to suddenly feel it getting moist and wet! That is what I really like.

Sorry, not in my case. I not a fan of metal music and I don't play video games or watch TV. Except for a video every now and then. I go to the theatre, both movie and actual theatre, more often. I don't know any other DLs to have more info.