Lost Soul

Hi ok here it is I'm going threw a lot rate now and I'm looking for a way to relive stress. Hares what’s happening with in a month and a half after graduation I'm moving out of state first time I every moved and there’s no one I know around me so for at lest a little while I'm going to be alone then I'm also going to collage witch in its own right is extremely stressful and I all so have to get a job and figure out how to live on my own and I don’t even have a vehicle besides my bike. Every thing I have tried that normally works isn’t helping. I have tried my games witch is always a good stress reliever there’s just some thing about kicking the livening hell out things in a game that relives stress also a long hot bath also that normally helps load music and so much more. And I can’t get my hands on any diapers so that’s out. So I was hoping that some one would have some thing that would help. And I would just like to say I'm not trying to complain to any one or even looking for sympathy or any thing b/c that’s not it and I want this it’s just its very stress full and I'm just looking to find a way to release that stress and anxiety. Thanks for any advice and your time

I put two answers for each I'm a dl and I'm an ab. I'm not much of a ab but its still there I want to have a mommy to hold and cuddle and take care of me but I don’t think I would ever let it happen if I found such a girl. And I still like my paci and bottle and my plushy kitty. But I'm uassly a dl that doesn’t really want any one to know so that’s why I came here to find people to talk to. And why I wear for comfort and for fun I uassly wear when I'm sad or depressed b/c I just can’t be that when I'm diapered.

Well first I would buy my mom her dream home and set her up with money to live on for life just so I can pay her back for every thing she has ever done for me and so she can’t complain about any thing I ever do agine lol. Next I would set my family the ones I like anyways up with a good amount of money and buy my grandmother her light house. Then I would buy the rain forest b/c if I hand a never ending supply of money I could buy it to save it from ever being destroyed. After doing all these good deeds I wouldn’t have to bother with any more good deeds for awhile so its me time lol as badly as it comes off I mean it in a good way. So I would buy my own personal island pay it off so I would never have to pay any taxes or any thing else on it and build my dream mansion it would be huge . This mansion would have a different decor in every room set up like a different culture of a different time period even the weapons and armor of the culture in time. Then one whole part would be a huge aquarium and tons of tanks and even a walk in one. Then I would have my own huge game room with every game and system I would every want with a huge tv speakers sround sound the works and even pay square enix to make my world that’s in my head in to a video game . Then I would have a secrete nursery that needs a key in a secrete location and have built a android nanny so I wouldn’t have to have any one no about me being a AB/DL and still have some one to take care of me and I would have maids to clean cook and every thing else. The mansion would be sounded by a huge wall and the wall sounded by a forest there would even be hot springs. Last since I would never have to work or invest any money and be set for life I would travel the world looking for my dream girl.

Hi and welcome.

hmmm well when I'm in a babyish mind set 2-3 and still in diapers of course. Wants all of mommy’s attention well if I had a mommy. I'm very cuddly and shy. I love my paci and my plushy kitty she’s black . I prefer to wear baggy cloths b/c I still don’t like to show off my diaper. My favorite color is still black. When I'm in a babyish mind set I'm much more emotional. I constantly need to be held. And I love shinny things O.O.

Dose any one know where there's any good spanking stories?

I trust them it other problems not my AB/DL side. Theres no way or a reson for them to know about this. They are there to help with other things this is to personal. I'm not dealing with any one finding out about it I cant even tell any one close to my heart how could I tell that to a tharapist. I apoligise if I'm sounding rud or mad or any thing I'm not trying to so let me say it agine thanks for any and all advice any one has and what every one has already has given me. And Bettypooh I agree with you on it but its just how do you balance it. And hidden I'm not talking like a knight in armer lol more like a modern knight. I'm talking as a like a way of being and acting.

Ok it seems like I just might be taken the wrong way. I'm not trying to say that I dont like being a AB/DL b/c I dont I really like and enjoy it. I know its apart of me I just want to find a balance between both sides. And just to put it out there I already do go to a tharapist but I will never ever tell her about this.

althought compltly giveing in to ones AB/DL side is the way for some. I know its not for me I may not know what path is mine but I cant just give in to one side or the other. I need eqilibrum fate a destiny are messed up that way. I cant just let go of one side b/c I need both. And I might like to be taken care of and protected but I dont want to need it. I think for me being a AB/DL is more of a coping mechinisum then any thing else. Its a way to just not have to think or worry about any thing and just relaxe and stuff like that. Oh and what I mean by "knight" is not a son of a noble who fights for his king rather some one whos strong that never gives up never gives in never subits to the will of any one else any one else. Some one who fights for those they care about no matter what the cost and what they belive in. And finally some one who still knows the meaning of honer, morals, ethics, and will fight for them. Agine thanks for the advice and any thing any one might add. And Abrera I think you might be right with splitting the attributes in all but then the qastion becomes how dose one do that?

Well heres my issue thats makeing me confused. I like the whole AB/DL life stlye but part of me likes it and the other part hates it and is ashamed of it. I mean I dont really know how I can be a man if I want to wear diapers or be treated like a baby or even beening spanked after all none of witch is any thing manly (just my personly feelings towrds myself). I just dont understand my self I mean I have just recintly come to turms that I am a AB/DL but the other part of me is desusted about it b/c lets just say that outher part of me is the bad ass dark side like the mucho side if you will. And how can I be that way if I'm in diapers o.O. Even more so what if a girl I'm with finds out I would be completly ashamed and stuff. I mean this other side I also consider like a knight to who ever I'm with you know to protect them and if I'm a knight how could I protect any one if I'm in diapers ...it just dosnt mix but at the same time I really enjoy being a AB/DL. I guess what I'm asking is how can I balance the two sides out?. Thanks for any advice any of you might have.

HI! welcome to the board. Hope you enjoy your self.

I have thought about a gf or a "mommy" spanking me over her knee befor and I like it. I would only prefer items like her hand, hiar brush, belt or paddle nothing that would really cause any welts you know nothing to thin. Its crossed my mind b/c I have always had things that I felt bad about but no way to release it but for this I think I would need to be forced. But I have always liked the idea of spanking some one else insted of me being the one to be spanked. By the way if you cant tell I've been vary nughty XD.

Ok with me I love to role play weather online or real life. For me I can take many roles from baby/toddler to teen in diapers or playing daddy to a diaperd girl. My parter would ither be my mommy gf or my baby. The outfits well could range from any thing in my head lol. But with role playing I also like to have more fun with it and do fantasy scenarios. And I have to put my input on the whole Americans being considered sexually liscentious well it all depands on the person to me. Not all of us are like that and are'nt pruds and trust me most pagens are definaly not. I mean alot of people dont talk about it but its not like they will say its not fun and certinly not just for makeing babys that I think falls more along the lines of a certen religen that says that sex is bad and its a sin. Well thats just my in put on that matter.

Your insight and edvice is aprecated Yvhuce. But just to clear another point when I said I think its creepy for a guy to be a AB/DL I was mostly talking about myself thinking about me. I mean with any other guy its simpale for me just dont think about it or look at any pics. So just dont want to seem like I'm putting any one down or any thing like that b/c I'm not trying to be mean I just have to maybe say things alittle more clearly. And as far as me finding a girl I trust enough is hard enough but what I'm saying is the really hard part would be allowing it to happen b/c I dont want them to see me any diffrently then they do I mean theres loads of reasons why. But one big thing is I would have a problem letting the tipical kind of girl that I'm attracted to "baby" me b/c uassly there smaller younger and weeker no of witch fits the role of a "mommy". One last thing I want to point out I really hope I dont sound like I'm complaining lol if I do I'm REALLY vary sorry about it I'm just trying to figuer things out.

Wow thats alot of stuffies. It might be alittle weird me being a guy in all but I had still have acully some whare up in the attic a few big bags full of plushys. I have even more then my mother did when she was a kid O.O lol. But the only one thats in my room is my black kitty.