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Only more government infringement on our rights, I am not dogging on your nation but one thing that made America what it "was" is an article that's apart of our Constitution called the Bill of Rights. But Bill of Rights? who in this nation gives a shit about that? Just look up the opposing arguements to this Health Care Reform bill. I am not against a health care reform, just one that's going to give the government even more control of our lives among all the other bull-shit that's going to result after this reform is put into effect is all. I am just burnt on debating this. So if you really want to know just look it up.

I second this guy and I would suggest that you need to think long and hard about the situation of you telling her, her totally not wanting anything to do with it and if you could truly be happy in the relationship if she has nothing to do with it. Be prepared man. Some advice from my therapist is that the more shamefully you present the fantasy or fetish to your partner the more likely they will think something is wrong with it and will assume that it must be bad because as you are presenting it shamefully you are drawing your self out as the freak for which you are not. My therapist says that as long we don't force our fetish/fantasies on anyone or let our fetish/fantasies control our lives there is absolutely nothing wrong with it. So there is some more food for thought.

Yeah I can relate, my dad was busy being a drug addict/alcohlic and never around which forced my mom to work her ass off to support me and my younger brother so leaving me and my brother with babysitters all the time. My first memories are full of only 2 constant scenario's, one was of me constantly crying for my mom and the other is of me always trying and at times being successful at sneaking my brother's diapers to put on and wear. I had problems with wetting the bed also and one of my first memories are of me wetting the bed and me going into my mom's room to wake her up to let her know that I wet the bed again. I remember my mom being frustrated about this and taking me into my brothers room and diapering me. I don't remember it being a very good experience but I loved the feeling of the diaper. The comfort and pleasure I get from diapers and pretending to be a baby has been with me as far back as I can remember leaving me always searching to experience that again with a awesome girlfriend who wouldn't mind being my mommy every so often. So yeah its some what similar to the topic starters experience.

...and yes I miss Hubbies.com as well. It was a great site but always wished they could get more mommies some how. But loved everything else about the site though. R.I.P.

Ha Ha, you must feel really strongly about this in order to search out this old ass post and on top of that it being your first post! I am just giving you a hard time man. Welcome and I am also a huge fan of pics of mommies babying guys as it is my fantasy. I think Plastic Mommy is about as good as it gets for pay sites. Although I haven't subscribed to a paysite since Plastic Mommy first went up. There always seems to be good Mommy/baby photos at ABkingdom if you search long enough because they have a very extensive selection of pics there and best of all its free all you have to do is register and your opened to literally thousands of photos. Thank god they where able to get the site back up after that scare a couple of months ago. Don't know how you feel about Domme's babying guys and I am talking actual mothering not babying as in humiliation or punishment but if you search out enough websites of Mistress's who are into infantilism you can get a lot of free pictures out of there preview pages and even more if you subscribe to their sites. Hell, I just started to re-build my catalog of mommies babying guys if there was a way to send you what I got so far it would be a good start for you. Anyway good luck on your journey and don't be a stranger!

Ha Ha! Shit, if Oprah Winfrey did something like that us ab/dl's wouldn't have anything to worry about when it comes to finding mommies. The woman has so much power over her minions that it would actually be a dream come true for us, ha ha.

Yeah man my stalker, like would never leave me alone when ever I happened to run into her at AA meetings (I am a recovering alcoholic/addict) then it start dawning on me that she was like figuring out my meeting schedule and "just so happening to drop by" then she got my number from one of my friends and she would call me non-stop. She would constantly make up reasons of why she needed to call me and why I should come over her house to help her with something. Then once I caught her following me home from a meeting that was my limit. I gave her a piece of my mind and after awhile she started slowly fading out of my life. Thank god! cause it was getting pretty spooky there for awhile. And it serves that douche bag right to piss himself for all to see. karma can be a bitch.

Yeah man stalkers are great in theory but pretty fucking terrifying in reality, I had one of those once, not cool! Fuck the asshole who took it upon himself to bust you out like that, hope he got the shunning he deserved by your classmates. And yeah I am very greatful for my ex atleast participating because I really learned a lot. I mean I enjoyed it some of the time but most of the time I was very uncomfortable and it was not what I thought it would be. Like it showed me how much I hadn't accepted my infantilism for myself and it showed me how being selfish with my infantilism is kind of like putting your S.O. in a hostage situation so they are not comfortable either. What I mean is is the time I truly enjoyed it was the rare time my ex didn't mind doing it for me. But the other 95% of the time it just felt awkward, but this is all in retrospect, its because of my therapy I am now able to recognize that 95% of the time we had "baby time" was because of my selfishness and not because she was ok with doing it for me. I am now able to recognize that she felt like she was taken hostage by me and my infantilism. Do to me not understanding how infantilism works in me I had know choice but to take her hostage because at that time there was no way for me to feel true sexual intimacy without "baby time". Therapy has been a god-send for me, there is no way I could have recognized and ironed out this clusterfuck of psychological stew with out the help of a professional.

I too am curious about this, I guess I have been so "into myself" with my infantilism I never thought much to how sexual intimacy works with a ab/dl female. But I guess your little scenerio just proves further of why sexual fetishes in general are not considered a form of sexual compulsiveness/addiction. Because I don't know if any of you are familiar with the big book of psychological disorders called the "DSM-IV". Anyway my current therapist made clear to me that when it comes to diagnosing sexual fetishism all the big gear turning psycholigists that are responsible for updated the DSM-IV regularly can never come to agreement about officially diagnosing sexual fetishes as a sexual addiction. So its pretty much saying that as long as we aren't forcing this on to anybody or letting our sexual desires rule our lives and get us into trouble we are totally cool and there is nothing wrong with it. So saying that would I need to learn how to be completely present during sex in a committed relationship with a woman who was a ab/dl herself who may have to play her own little infantilist fantasy out in her head in order for her to orgasm? If we both during sex just played out our infantilist fantasies in our heads in order to orgasm and we were cool with it would there be anything truly wrong with that? Would sex really be a factor if we just got out our sexual intimacy with eachother by taking turns babying eachother? Dude, you just got my head spinning. Good Stuff!

Good Post Boby Get comfortable because this is going to be a long one... Well where to start, I too have experienced your problem and I do believe we are in the minority when it comes to seeing a professional about being ab/dl. I have been a ab/dl my whole life. Some of my first memories are of me sneaking my younger brother's diapers and finding a good hiding place so I could put them on and pretend to be a baby. Throughout my childhood the desires to be a baby were always there. I would use make-shift diapers out of shirts or towels whenever I was home alone and such. So it was only natural that when I was 12 or so I had my first orgasm one random day while wearing a towel and fantasizing about a woman babying me. My teenage years where a very confusing and ugly time in my life and the fact that I constantly fantasized about my hot female teachers and classmates diapering me didn't help that time of my life at all. Whenever I masterbated it was always to the random fantasies of women babying me. The shame/guilt complex really kicked in around this time because when all my friends were busy having all kinds of sex it made me really look at my sexuality. I mean I was attracted to girls and had a few girlfriends at that time but I could never feel sexually attracted to them unless I put them in the dominant mommy type role. So I guess these were the first signs of the sexual dysfunction. I was never sexual with any of those girlfriends and would always immediately end the relationships when they got to the "below the surface" level or that point in a early relationship when you start to really get to know one another. When it start to get there I would get so fucking nervous I would just have to end the relationship. Didn't know it at the time but I know now that my sexual/intimacy insecurities run very deep and have a lot to do with living with infantilism all my life. There was a point in my later teenage years when I felt so alienated because of my sexual desires that I stole some Hustler and Penthouse magazines and tried to jerk off to those in hopes that I could convince myself that I was "normal". But those attempts were always unsuccessful because in order to orgasm I would just end up thinking of those models as my mommies, ha ha. That's about the just of my history of it, now I will fast forward to my ex wife. This is a very long story so I will summarize the best I can. When I met my ex-wife like 5 years ago we hit it off pretty good, we had a lot in common, we were (and are still) recovering alcoholics/drug addicts, had similar out looks on life and had big dreams. About 3 or 4 weeks into the relationship I lost my virginity, it was actually a very awkward experience because I couldn't orgasm. This went on for about a month until I discovered that eventhough I am really in love with this girl nothing has changed, I have to think of her babying me in order to orgasm. So that's how it went till about 6 months in when the big day all of us ab/dl's dread... The coming out to our significant other's. Pretty much right off the bat she was shocked and pretty fucked up about it, it did not go over well to say the least. In retrospect this was in my point of view the hump in our relationship that we never quite made it over. Anyway, she took it upon herself to set up a counseling appointment and we went through all that jazz. Although now a days I don't know what I would do without my sex therapist but the first experince with a therapist was very unpleasant. She got a sex therapist who condemned my infantilism and pretty much labeled me as a sex addict and kept directing me to Sex Addicts Anonymous meetings to "recover". In a way this was a blessing in disguise because it eventually lead me to other sex therapists that are truly supporting and have really helped me understand and accept this aspect of me. But throughout my relationship with my ex my infantilism was never accepted by her (hell, it wasn't even truly accepted by me at that time) and not because she was being a bitch about it but because of me and my selfishness. I now know how selfish I was at times with my infantilism in our relationship but back then I was so "in the dark" about it and there was so much about sex and intimacy I did not understand. She was willing to play the mommy role a few times which was amazing of her but like I said I always wanted more of it because I could not feel love, compassion, care and true sexual connection unless she was my mommy. On top of that when I told her in a therapy session about how I cannot orgasm unless I think of her as my mommy she was pretty crushed because like you said she thought that I wasn't sexually attracted to her. Now I know that I was sexually all about her its just back then I had no idea of how to give or recieve that sexual love and affection unless I was the baby and she was the mommy, you dig? Anyway we went ahead and got married anyways. She ended up coming to a point where she would be my mommy every once in awhile and I could not even mention anything about my infantilism or wear a diaper around her unless it was our "baby time". The rules pretty much were that the only time I could ask for "baby time" was when we hadn't done it in awhile and she was in a good mood. She needed this "warning" of sorts so she could prepare herself mentally and emotionally for it because she was always pretty repulsed by it. I might as well mention that "baby time" consisted of her diapering me, holding me for awhile and then jerking me off. We are not talking the royal treatment here. Not that I expected that but just to give you an idea of what we did. During this time of marriage I stopped seeing my therapist and she long before this stopped as well. Eventually her own intimacy and relationship issues caught up with her and she ended up talking to and hanging out with the love of her life ex-boyfriend that just got out of prison after serving a 6 year sentence. Another long story short we split and the divorce just got finalized 2 weeks ago. But one thing about the split was that it forced me to throw myself head first back into therapy because I believe that my selfishness and ignorance about my infantilism played a major role in my divorce. Right now I am currently working with a fetish friendly therapist who has shared with me that she has unusual fetishes herself. I just got referred to this new therapist a few weeks ago after vigorous work with my last therapist for the 4-5 months prior who suggested I try this direction with my therapy. But right now we are just starting to explore my intimacy and relationship issues with the ultimate goal being for my infantilism only to be apart of me in the intimacy of a relationship and not all of me. I should mention that when getting intimate with a woman I can get an erection and really turned on, I just can't orgasm with out the mommy thoughts. So that's about it, I still have a long way to go but I know I am so much more accepting and understanding of my infantilism then I was just 6 months ago do to the therapy. I know that my future relationships are only going to benefit from this work I have been doing. I highly recommend that if anyone feels the need for therapy to go for it because you really have nothing to lose. It will either be the best thing for you or you will just realize you don't need it, sounds pretty win-win to me. Hope somebody gets something out of my post cause I know I did, the trip down memory lane has really put things into perspective again, man I needed it this morning. Thanx Daily Di! If you have made it this far you are the champion, high-fives all around. Later

Beneath the Massacre "Dystopia"... I am addicted to this fucking cd. Simply pulverizing.

Coffee. I like my coffee black... Like my fucking soul! ha ha.

Its good to know that I am not the only one who has experienced these problems on diaperspace.com. Without re-hashing what nearly every post thus far has stated about diaperspace I will just say I am extremely grateful for Daily Diapers and I am pretty close to just giving up on diaperspace all together.

, another good one! Right on, I needed a good laugh.

"A Sun That Never Sets" by Neurosis This is the deepest most spiritually empowering song I ever heard in my life and it was written within the last 10 years. The video: The lyrics: A sun that never sets burns on New light is this river's dawn When to speak of a word so old is to relearn what is known A time to think back and move on Rebuild the loves of lives long gone The blood that flows through me is not my own The blood is from the past, not my own The blood that leads my life is not my own The blood is my strength, I'm not alone

Unless you have a particular interest in corn, cattle and/or great plains that stretch as far as the eye can see don't waste your time coming to my podunk state. Although one great thing about Nebraska is that if you want a great slab of meat you ain't going to find one better in any other state. Because in my state the steak you have for dinner is so fresh that it was most likely walking around mooing earlier that morning. Hence the company "Omaha Steaks", yeah that's named after Omaha, Nebraska, the city I live in.

Welcome and if I still smoked I'd spark up a big fatty for ya

Alright cool, you sound like you know what you are talking about. I am not opposed to a Health Care Reform just this paricular one. Sure it would help out the little guy but at the expense of the tax payer (which is already the case actually) while fattening the bank accounts and giving the enemy more power by the privitization, that is basically why I am against it.

Yeah sorry dude still don't know what you mean I guess we define the word "heavy" differently, ha ha. Try spinning the Nile cd a few more times till you can grasp what's going on because when I first start listening to extreme metal I thought the same as you till I gave the cd's a few more chances. Then once I got the hang of the cd's I fell in love and ended up devoting massive amounts of my life to learning how to play my bass like the talented fucks who play bass in some of these bands. The last Nile cd I really listened to was "Black Seeds of Vengence" which is quite an epic album. I am just not a huge fan of Nile because I am not really into the whole Egyptian Mythology. I mean I love researching ancient civilization but to get that deep about a not so small fraction of the ancient world in a band just doesn't hold my interest. But its good brutal metal though. Yeah Whitechapel is pretty cool but don't care much for the other bands you have listed, I am just extremely played out on straight metalcore and I can't stand the actual singing in some of those bands you mentioned. I mean I am all about actual singing but it seems to only work in Black Metal and in one of my all time favorite bands ever Acid Bath. If you like Whitechapel I highly recommend The Red Chord and Through the Eyes of the Dead. I don't really like Iwrestledabearonce but they are definitely an interesting band. I would say some favorite metal bands of mine over the past decade or so would be: Pig Destroyer Necrophagist Dying Fetus Hate Eternal Behemoth Origin The Red Chord (especially their first album perfect mix of death and core) Vile Vehemence Cephalic Carnage and my newest favorite - Obscura

They think they know who I am All they know is I love to kill Face down, dead on the ground Find me before another is found! I come alive in the darkness Left murdered and nameless Dead unburied and rotten Half eaten by insects She was so beautiful I HAD TO KILL HER!!!!! Just got done listening to Cannibal Corpse's "The Bleeding" a little while ago. What a fucking classic!

Its a little late but welcome to daily diaper. Yeah I can relate with how back when I first joined this site how the decision to just go for it and sign up made being ab/dl "very real" for me. Yeah I remember it being quite nerve racking eventhough all it was was just signing up to a site where I would have absolutely nothing to worry about when it came to "how are these people going to judge me?" . Trust me the nervousness will pass soon if it hasn't already. And congrats for finding such a wonderfully understanding wife too.

Cannibal Corpse - Fucked with a Knife

, and good point about Rage and this Joe Mceldry being on the same label. But you know its really the "catch 22" of the music indusrty, if you are an anti-establishment band and you want the biggest platform to speak from you pretty much got to sell out to apart of the establishment to do so. So I don't see it as a bad thing but it isn't necessarily a good thing either. I just know that if Rage would have never signed to a major label I probably would have ran across them eventually through underground buzz. But being that the majority of the population out there doesn't feel music nearly as deep as I do they are not going to search for an alternative to the garbage that's being constantly shoved down their throat's through every media outlet and sold as the hot new thing. Also if Rage would have stayed underground they would have just had a career of "preaching to the choir" so to speak, which is still bad-ass but its obviously not what they wanted. They wanted to get on the big platform and shove their style of music backed up with actual thought provoking lyrics that have something to say into everybody's face, and in the process maybe switch on a few lightbulbs in people's heads that would have otherwise remained in the off position if it weren't for RATM being heard through the mainstream.

Rage Against the Machine was a band that deserved every bit of attention they got. Mainly for Zack De La Rocha's lyrics. Any lyrics exposing the corruption, mass manipulation and flat out "rage" towrads the criminals who have (and currently) in one way or another run this nation has a fan from me. The music was pretty catchy too I might add. It's just to bad that it seems most people took their lyrics as "simple minded teenage rebellion" when it was actually "current event gospel". Those lyrics are probably more relevant today then back in the 90's, the same shit was happening its just that now a days the "powers that be" have gotten more greedy and pretty terrible at covering their tracks. Still don't get why Tom Morello is a self-proclaimed Commie though. Good to see them back in the spot light.