Sarah_Hillcrest

Chapter 9 My awareness came back slowly, I can remember the morning but part of it is like a dream. After diaper changes we were all given bottles, these weren’t the special bottle I had last night, it was like thick sweet milk. Then we were changed out of our nightgowns into play clothes. Kylie’s outfit was a dark pink bubble romper with a light pink heart, Dakota’s outfit was a pale pink dress and white tights, and my outfit was a pink care bear shirt and matching denim dress that barely covered my diaper. Under the effects of the reward pacy I giggled and thought our outfits were funny and cute. Mommy pulled a foldable adult sized baby stroller from a closet and strapped Kylie in. Dakota and I both walked, Dakota held on to the stroller with one hand to steady himself. I could walk OK, but occasionally rested my mittened hand on the other side of the stroller since my balance wasn’t quite there. Outside the nursery door I was astounded by what I saw, we were in a large open building with ceilings maybe thirty feet high. The space was well lit from natural skylights and artificial lights. The ground was artificial grass, and grippy walkways. Large cartoon sculptures hung from the ceiling, a sun, a rainbow, a butterfly, all around the perimeter were doors and all the walls were painted like a cartoon forest. It was a really magical environment and made more magical to me while enjoying the effects of a psychedelic pacifier. There were a few large playsets in the middle of the building and a small self contained building that looked like a cafe. I saw a few other women who looked like Mommy leading adult babies and several of the frilly pink maids pushing around carts. Mommy led us into the cafe. Inside there were adult sized high chairs arranged in various groups and a few very strange C-shaped tables. I could smell breakfast cooking. Mommy pushed us over to one of the strange tables. “Usually with Dakota and Kylie we just use highchairs but since there are 4 of us now we’ll use a feeding table,” she explained. The table was a bright blue color and much taller than a regular dining room table with three large holes. The holes had plastic seats inside them. She lifted Dakota off the ground and sat her through one of the holes. Then I was next. My feet couldn’t touch the ground. Finally Kylie was put in the seat and started to cry. Mommy comforted her and gave her a pacifier. There was a bustle in the room as a couple other Mommies were securing adults to high chairs and tables like ours and pink maids were moving about with baby food and bottles. We were strapped in and Mommy left us to go talk to another woman. “How did you like the reward pacy?” Dakota asked quietly. “Huh, oh, umm, yeah that was kinda nice,” I said. The effects were wearing off, and my brain still felt mushy. “Yeah I like them better than the night milk, the night milk is nice, but you just fall asleep so fast that you can’t enjoy it,” Dakota said. “What’s going on? What is all this?” I asked. My senses were getting back to normal and I looked around the room. Every now and again I recognized a face, the maids were the handful of pinks who were selected to work in classroom 5. The adult babies were inmates who disappeared, mostly ones who couldn’t handle the program that were supposedly transferred to a regular prison. I counted about 15 of us babies in the room. “I don’t know, obviously they want to turn us into babies, who knows why. If you act and talk like an adult you will get punished again, and it only gets worse. If you act like a baby then you get reward pacys, night milk, and other special treats.” Dakota said. “But what about Kylie, is she acting or is she actually a baby?” I asked. “I don’t know, she’s coming back,” Dakota whispered. Mommy returned with a couple platters of food. There were scoops of various mush, jelly, some eggs and some biscuits. She put the food down and then a pink maid came by and deposited 3 baby bottles on the table and three oversized silicone baby bibs. Mommy and the maid quickly attached the bibs around our necks. Mommy placed plates in front of Dakota and me, and began cutting up eggs and biscuits into smaller pieces. Then she spooned some of the jelly and mush onto the plate. Dakota dug in with his hands and began shoving food in his mouth, much of it falling into the tray on her bib. “I’m going to take off your mittens so you can eat,” Mommy said after unbuckling the mittens and removing them from my hands. She then used silverware to feed herself and feed Kylie who was drooling and dripping food out of her mouth. “Go ahead and eat, unless you need Mommy to feed you too,” she said to me. I carefully took a piece of slippery egg and placed it in my mouth. “Watch Dakota, you need to eat like a baby, like she does.” “I don’t want to eat like that,” I said. “Would you prefer a spanking here in front of everyone?” she said with a slight threat in her voice. I could still feel the sting in my rear so I took a big mixed handful of food and shoved it in my mouth allowing some to fall into the bib’s built-in tray. By the time we were done we were all messy, but the other two were way worse than me. Mommy laughed and cleaned up our faces and hands with wipes. Then put the mittens back on my hands. After lunch we were taken to a play area, it was an upscaled toddler swing set with a little slide. There was a set of baby style swings that we would have to be picked up and sat into, and a set of plastic seat swings that we could sit down on our own. There were several large foam objects to crawl and sit on and big foam building blocks. Everything was bright pastel girly colors. There were three others in the play area and another Mommy sitting on a bench beside an empty stroller. The adult babies were all dressed as girls and had the baby soft skin that Dakota and Kylie had. One was swinging with a blank look on her face, one was stacking up blocks with a concentrated look on her face, and the other was climbing the ladder to go down the slide. “We’ll be seeing the doctor today, so go play until it’s your turn,” Mommy said. She placed Kylie on the ground and the girl giggled and crawled towards the slide. Mommy went to sit on the bench. Dakota took my hand and led me toward the swings. “Hello Sarah, this is my little sister Chrissy,” Dakota introduced me to the girl swinging. Sarah was wearing a baby blue cotton dress with poofy sleeves and embroidery across the chest, it was much too short to hide her diaper which looked swollen. We heard giggling as Kylie and the girl on the slide were having a ball. “Hi Chrissy, my name is Sarah,” she got off her swing and dragged over a big foam block to sit on. Dakota got an empty swing, and Sarah offered me hers so I sat down. “So not feeling playful today?” Dakota asked. “No, I’m hoping if I look pouty enough she’ll give me a reward pacy,” Sarah said. “Chrissy got her first reward pacy this morning, but she got a bad spanking first,” Dakota said. “Oh I’m sorry to hear that,” Sarah said. I was confused. They were talking like children, even though the Mommies were too far away to hear. “How long have you been here?” I asked. “I don’t know, Stacey over there said she’d been here a few months maybe, and that was a few months ago. I’m having a hard time remembering things,” she said. “Listen, have you noticed any good hiding places, or weaknesses, ways to escape?” I asked. Sarah and Dakota looked upset and glanced over to the Mommies, “Shh, you can’t say that,” Sarah said. “They can’t hear us,” I said. “You don’t know, you just got here, don’t talk like that and get us in trouble,” Sarah said, visibly scared. “OK, sorry, but can’t you see they are going to make us all baby brained, we’ll be like that one over there,” I turned and pointed at the adult baby trying her best to stack foam blocks three high. Sarah looked over at the girl and rubbed her chin, “I can be mush brained sometimes without a reward pacy if I try hard enough,” Sarah said. “I think I went mushy the other day, and I don’t remember getting a pacy before,” Dakota said with enthusiasm. “What are you talking about mushy?” I asked. “Do you remember how you felt after your pacy and when you got the milk last night?” Sarah asked. “Uhh yeah,” I said blushing. “Well if you try hard you can feel that way completely on your own. Stacey told me that she calls it being mush brained, her little sister called it that and taught her how to do it,” Sarah explained. “Let's try. I think it will be easier with Chrissy here,” Dakota said. “OK,” Sarah said. She stood up from her foam block and went to Dakota’s swing. “When I grow up I’m going to be a princess!” she announced in a very childish voice. “Nuu uhh,” I’ll be the Princess and you’ll be a frog,” Dakota replied and giggled. “You know what happens to Frogs, they get kisses and turn into Princes,” Sarah said and quickly planted a very childish kiss on Dakota. “Hey no fair,” Dakota said. “Princes gotta kiss the Princess, but you gotta catch me first,” Sarah said. The girl in the blue dress took off at a very unsteady run and Dakota ran over her, they giggled and chased each other around in the soft rubber chips that made up the ground. Eventually Dakota cornered Sarah and gave her a kiss announcing that she was the princess now she then used a pretend magic wand to make Sarah into her pet cat. Sarah started crawling around and meowing like a cat while Dakota giggled and pet her head. A few minutes later they both came and attacked me with kisses, I giggled and felt kind of light hearted for a moment. “Hey, now, no kisses,” I said and pushed them away. “Come on baby Chrissy, play Princess with us!” Sarah said. “I don wann play,” I said and realized that I hadn’t really meant to talk like a baby. “You sure, kissy, kissy,” Sarah said again. I pushed them away huffed and folded my hands over my chest. They stuck out their tongues at me and went back to chasing each other around. Watching them play was surreal, they got more excited and childish as it went, their words got more mispronounced, their motor skills more unrefined and their pretend game more silly. It ended with them both sitting on their bottoms with confused looks, they were drooling and playing with their feet trying to get them into their mouths. I thought maybe they were playing or pretending and maybe they were at first, but this seemed much too authentic. My Mommy got up and walked over to Dakota and tickled her, then attached a pacifier leash to her collar and popped it in her mouth. Dakota absentmindedly sucked while she played with her feet. Chapter 10 The Doctor Mommy announced that it was my turn to see the doctor and held my hand as we walked from the play area to one of the walls where a steel door was. She placed her hand on a pad and the door opened. Inside was a small waiting room decorated with big murals of insects and grass. A woman wearing medical scrubs with a big smile on her face was there to greet us. There were two doors and we went into the one labeled examination. The room looked like a typical pediatrician's office. Cute Disney princess murals decorated the walls, and there were many shelves with assorted medical and baby items. An older man with gray hair and a lab coat was smiling at me. “Hello Chrissy, I’m Doctor Smith and I’m going to check you out.” “Now, you be good for the Doctor, Mommy will be back when you’re done,” she said and left. The nurse began to remove my denim dress, “Raise up those arms high to the sky for me,” she said. I raised my arms, “I guess you’re going to treat me like a baby too,” I said, unable to hide the annoyance in my voice. “Of course I am, you are a baby so that’s how I’ll treat you.” she said as she removed my dress and then unbuckled the mittens. “Mam, am I not a bit big to be a baby?” I asked. “Baby’s come in all sizes,” the doctor said as was getting supplies from a cabinet. The nurse then removed my care bear T-shirt and diaper which was wet and I hadn’t even realized it. The nurse then pressed a button on the wall that lowered down a metal ring that was hanging from a pulley on the ceiling. “What is the point of all of this? This is crazy!” I said. The doctor was attaching straps to the ring. “All you need to know is that you were sick and here you’re getting better, now give me your arms,” The doctor said and took my arms from me, with the nurses help he started to guide my hand into padded cuffs at the end of the straps. I jerked my hand away. The nurse and doctor weren’t strong like Mommy. “Dakota this can go two ways, you cooperate or I call your Mommy back, you get punished and then you cooperate with a sore bottom,” the nurse said. I sheepishly allowed them to put my wrists in the cuffs. The metal ring extended back up and held my arms up over my head. They then attacked velcro cuffs around my ankles that were attached to the floor and my legs were spread apart. “Good girl, now relax and we’re going to do some measurements and give you a treatment,” the doctor said. The nurse began massaging a thick white cream all over my body, while the doctor started taking readings with a high tech medical scanner, running it up and down my arms and legs. “Patient 19, designation EF67, treatment day 1,” the doctor read into his scanner. What followed next was a string of medical jargon and words that I could never pronounce. “This is going to help you relax,” the doctor said and injected me in the hip with a needle. The cream was causing my skin to tingle, but soon I felt my body relax. It wasn’t like the reward pacy, I didn’t feel euphoria or baby brained, just relaxed. The nurse spent a good deal of time massaging the cream into my balls and penis. It felt really nice and I got even more relaxed. My penis wasn’t really getting hard, but was about half way, which I thought was strange because I could feel myself starting to respond sexually. I let out a little groan of pleasure and began to rock my hips back and forth as the nurse stroked the thick cream in. “Well someone’s feeling good,” she said. “Here you go” the doctor said. Handing the nurse a rubber device. She cleaned the white cream off my genitals and then applied a clear slick gel. The nurse continued to stroke and I let out another louder groan. Then she slipped the rubber device over my penis and balls. It was like a sheath that ended with a condom. She continued to stroke over the device and with the pressure of the sheath I felt my penis begin to grow firm. “Ohh, oh,” I caught myself saying. I hadn’t had actual sex in so long, and I’d even just about quit masturbating while I was in camp. I never seemed to get that hard anyway, but now I was rock hard and could feel my very sensitive glans swollen and tingling under the nurse’s expert care. “Fuuudge,” I screamed as I exploded, pumping cum into the reservoir in the rubber device. The nurse slid the device off my penis and my body went limp, my weight hanging in the cuffs. The nurse emptied my semen into a collection cup while the doctor with examination gloves began attaching something to my now limp penis. I would have been much more concerned if I wasn’t in such a relaxed state. When the doctor was done I looked down to see my penis and balls were now enclosed in a shiny pink plastic cage. The cage was like a tight fitting bubble that surrounded my entire privates. It had a hole for drainage, and a small compartment at the top. The doctor then inserted a little tube into the compartment and a light flashed red then green. “What is that?” I asked. “Nothing to concern yourself over, part of your treatment,” the doctor said. While I hung there the doctor used his scanner to take several more readings and measurements. Finally I was given another injection in my hip, and the nurse taped a new diaper on me. “Everything looks good, she’s showing excellent response,” the doctor said. The doctor and nurse left the room together, and the nurse came back in a few minutes later pushing a folding adult baby stroller. “Well Chrissy, let's get you down and back to Mommy,” she said. “Please, just tell them I want to go back, I want to be a woman, it was a mistake to reject the treatment, will you tell them?” I begged the nurse. “I know this is very different, but it won’t be long and you’ll not only accept your treathment, but love it,” the nurse said and started unstrapping my legs. “What the fudge is wrong with you people, this is like murder. It’s like giving someone a fudging medical condition, you can’t make me a baby, you’re turning us into retards,” I yelled. Something I said seemed to hit a nerve in the young nurse, but not in the way I hoped. “You’re in trouble now Missy,” she said. She left one leg unstrapped and went over to another cabinet. She came back with a large pacifier gag, “Open up Chrissy,” she said. I set my jaw firm and shrunk back from her. She took a firm hold of the back of my hair and jerked my head back then with her other hand she pinched my nipple hard. I screamed in pain and felt the large firm nipple forced into my mouth. It was buckled tightly behind my head and large enough that I couldn’t force it out. She then used the controls to raise the metal ring, my arms which were already held over my head were extended up until my toes were only on the ground. It was very uncomfortable and I began to whimper. “Now for your information, we are giving you an incredible gift, another chance, and this time you’ll be properly raised to appreciate what our society has to offer,” the nurse said then took a long time unstrapping my other foot from the eyelet on the floor but left on the padded cuffs and strapped them to the stroller. I was crying now, completely broken, and eventually I felt my body lowered into the stroller. There was no fight in me as the nurse removed my cuffs from the ring and strapped them to the stroller. I was pushed to the waiting room where Mommy was waiting. “Well this doesn’t look good,” she said. “Yeah, she did really well until the end and she got very bratty and made some rude comments,” the nurse said. “Well, you should have got me, but it looks like you have corrected the behavior. We won’t hear any more rude comments from her for awhile” Mommy said. “Her clothes are in the stroller,” the nurse said and I realized that I was naked other than my diaper. Mommy rolled me back out of the office to the play area where a couple of other Mommies were watching several adult baby girls play. Sarah and Dakota toddled over to us, they were no longer mushy, and acting completely baby brained as they were. “Ought oh looks like Chrissy was bad,” Dakota said. “Yes, she was very fussy so she’s going to stay like this for a while,” Mommy said. “Can she play with us?” Sarah asked. “No, run along,” Mommy said and the two went back to the swings. Chapter 11 Time passed while I was strapped to the stroller. Mommy unfurled a large fluffy blanket and Sarah, Dakota, Kylie and a couple other adult babies cuddled up for naps. I couldn’t sleep and had nothing to do but think about my past. I had always been a good student in High School, between good grades and my involvement in theater I had received a decent scholarship for college and majored in history. It was really studying just how much the Regime had changed the country and was slowly stripping away freedoms that led to me leaving college and protesting. I thought alot about Sharon and Lacey, we had grown so close over the last year, in captivity. I had completely given in to the system, I was happy essentially living as a woman, I’d even accepted the lessons and theories they taught us. My personality really was far more feminine than masculine, if I’d only just signed my name and accepted the gender reassignment then I wouldn’t be stuck in this insane situation. I realized Lacey had already been offered gender reassignment and accepted it, that was why she had been changing. Then a thought hit me, would tLacey and Sharon end up working here in this part of the facility. Would they completely ignore me like Alexis did? Eventually one of the Pink maids brought us a picnic lunch and bottles. Mommy placed the small cut up sandwiches on a plate out for the now hungry adult babies on the blanket, then my gag was removed. My mouth was sore, but I happily sucked down a bottle of formula and ate a few little pieces of sandwich. Sadly the gag was replaced. I didn’t realize it but I was wetting myself alot. Wearing diapers for months had shrunk my bladder and it was common for me to go frequently, but before I could hold it if I wanted to and always knew when I was wetting. Now I could barely feel my bladder, and had no control. I could feel the plastic cage they had put on me, it felt like a gentle grip on my genitals, surprisingly it wasn’t unpleasant. Eventually another mommy came and took Sarah out of the swing. Holding her at her chest she flipped her dress up and patted a rather swollen and dark stained diaper. “Somebody made a stinky,” she said. Sarah giggled. “Poo poo,” she said. “Yeap babygirl, let's get you changed. Viv do you mind if I use your blanket?” She said to my Mommy. “Not at all, in fact I’d say my kiddos need changed too,” Mommy said as she got up and rounded up Dakota and Kylie. Mommy produced a cute diaper bag from Kylie's large stroller and laid down the two babies. I watched with a mixture of horror, surprise and curiosity as all three had their diapers removed. Kylie and Sarah were messy and the poopy smell waifed over to my stroller. All three had chubby baby soft skin and the same cage I’d been fitted with, but Kylie’s was smaller and rounder. They all three laid there shamelessly as they were wiped down and wrapped in clean diapers. The mommies rolled the sodden diapers up in tight balls and carried them over to a nearby trashcan. “You three have done such a good job playing today I think a little treat is in order. What do you say Viv?” the other Mommy asked. “Sounds good to me, show my brat here she is missing out on,” my Mommy said. The other Mommy knelt down close to Sarah and said, “Engage program B7,” My Mommy knelt down to Dakota and Kyle and said, “Engage program A4.” I heard a slight sound like a low hum as the Mommies came back and sat down on the bench beside my stroller. All three adult babies began to roll around on the blanket, I could see their faces turn to looks of concentration. Dakota was the only one who wasn’t using a pacifier but he reached around and found the one dangling from his clip and began sucking. They were getting vibrated, right here in the middle of the play area, with other adult babies and two other Mommies just across the area. No one seemed to care or even notice. Sarah and Dakota held hands and began to hump and grind their diapers against the blanket while Kylie just squirmed and waved her arms around. They began making happy little noises and moved faster. I was so embarrassed, and began to blush. I remember that just a few hours ago how turned on I’d been when the nurse had stroked me off. I felt my penis begin to stiffen up but my erection was stifled by the cage and after a few seconds it went limp. “Sorry Chrissy, bad girls don’t get treats, no play for you,” Mommy said. The program that was apparently running on the other’s cages was designed to tease out the experience. They would get faster then slower, closer and farther. Finally Kylie's little baby whimpers got louder and she spit out her pacy. With a “ahhhh mommy,” she came first, arching her back and lifting her midsection off the ground thrusting involuntarily. A few moments later both Sarah and Dakota wrapped up in a tight embrace and began thrusting together moaning through their pacifiers as they came together. When it was over, all three relaxed began to sleep deeply. I was both incredibly happy that I hadn’t been put in such an embarrassing situation and jealous of the pleasure they enjoyed. I woke up in the cafe, I didn’t remember falling asleep. The large pacifier gag that had been strapped around my head earlier was replaced by a regular adult pacifier that I was now suckling instinctively. I felt incredibly self conscious to be on display. The folding stroller I was in did nothing to hide the fact that I was naked except for a swollen diaper. The sling style stroller was getting very uncomfortable and I was unable to change positions since my ankles and wrists were bound. Mommy and a pink maid were getting Kylie and Dakota situated in high chairs instead of the feeding table that we had used this morning. “Should I get Chrissy out of the stroller?” the maid asked. “No she’s still being punished,” just feed her a bottle in the stroller. Mommy said. I recognized the face of the maid I had seen around the facility in the past, but I couldn’t remember her name. I resisted the urge to speak to her, not wanting to get in more trouble. She smiled and spoke to me in cute baby talk as she held the bottle while I suckled the nipple. I had briefly thought about resisting, but I was hungry and the milk was very good. After dinner we returned to our nursery room. Mommy pushed Kylie’s stroller and a maid pushed mine. I saw that there was a small bedroom to the left as we came in, that must be where Mommy lives? My stroller was parked at the bathroom door and Mommy announced it was time for tooth brushing and carried Kylie from her stroller to the bathroom. “Mommy, my teeth are clean,” Dakota said, but his complaints were ignored. The bathroom in the nursery apartment wasn’t large, there was a toilet that likely didn’t see much use, a bathtub shower, and sink. With Mommy, Kylie and Dakota in the bathroom there was no space for me. Mommy fixed a brush with pink glitter toothpaste for Dakota and he started brushing, but she brushed Kylie’s for her. The pink maid picked took a bag of trash from the room and said goodbye. When they were finished brushing Mommy carried out Kylie and sat her on the play mat. She crawled around and bit and then started rolling on her back playing with her toes. Dakota toddled over to the couch and sat down. My knowledge of babies was limited, but If I had to guess I would say that Kylie was behaving like she was a year old. She could barely stand on her own and mostly crawled, she could barely talk, and spent most of her time crawling around playing with toys. Would Dakota and I end up like? My thoughts were interrupted when Mommy started brushing my teeth. Surprisingly the toothpaste tasted actually good. With my teeth clean Mommy turned her attention back to Dakota and Kylie, “I bet you too would like a little nakey time,” Mommy said. She removed both Dakota and Kylie's clothes and wet diapers then placed them on a big soft blanket on the floor completely naked. They curled up on pillows and Mommy turned on a screen that was playing an animated show for toddlers with a magical dragon. They both seemed hypnotized by the show. Mommy sat down in the recliner and started reading leaving me strapped in the stroller. “Umm,” I said, getting Mommie’s attention, “Yes Chrissy?” she asked. “Can I get out please?” I asked in a slightly childish voice. “No your punishment isn’t over yet,” she said. “I’m really wet,” I said. “I know baby, that’s part of your punishment too.” About ten minutes later I felt my stomach start to rumble and my meager attempts to hold it were defeated. My sphincter opened and wet mush pushed out, but unable to move in my stroller physics pushed back and I could feel my sphincter stretch with pain. The mess flowed out of my widened orifice and mushed up both the front and back of the diaper. The bottle she’d given me at dinner must have been laced with a powerful laxative. I was growing quite uncomfortable, unable to move in a very wet and messy diaper and the smell was getting really bad. Finally I couldn’t take it much more, “Mommy, I really need changed,” I said in a childish voice. Mommy got up from the recliner where she was reading and walked over to me. “What’s wrong honey?” “I really need changed,” I said. “How come?” she asked. This must be a test, I need to act like a baby to be changed I thought. This was so humiliating, but my rear was burning and I needed to get out of the stroller. “Please change me Mommy, I had an accident,” I said. Mommy went back to her chair and picked up her book. “Please, what do I need to do to get out of this stroller, please, this is horrible,” I yelled. Dakota and Kylie ignored my outburst, they seemed hypnotized by the show. Mommy put her book down, “If you want your punishment to end then you have to stop fighting, turn off your adult brain, imagine yourself as a baby, what would you do?” she said and started reading. “I don’t know, if I was a real baby you wouldn’t leave me in a poopy diaper would you!” I yelled. She just shook her head and continued reading. Frustrated and growing angry I flexed my fists and struggled against the straps, “This is so fudging stupid,” I yelled. A few minutes later Mommy got up and picked up Kylie, “Whoops, little too much nakey time,” she said. I noticed that there was a wet spot on the blanket where the girl had been sitting. Mommy placed her on the changing table and changed her then put her in a onesie and on a different spot on the blanket. Dakota was next and I was now incredibly jealous that I wasn’t getting care. “Please,” I said in desperation and was ignored. “OK fine, turn off my adult brain, whatever,” I said and tried to visualize myself in the stroller as a baby. I remembered something I’d seen in the past. A little boy in the mall who, like me, had been strapped into a stroller. He was a big chubby toddler, maybe almost three years old. His Mother and her friend were in front of us in line. The boy was old enough to feel ashamed, he was fighting back tears and pouting, he had real fear in his eyes. His little jeans were puffed out from a very wet diaper and he was uncontrollably wetting it more. When he saw the big stain forming all over his jeans he began to cry. I remember feeling amused and sad for the kid as his Mom picked him up out of the stroller and held him out at arms length. “Tommy, your pants are soaked front and back,” she said. Her friend giggled and they put him back in the stroller. “I’ll change you in the car, you’ll just have to wait” she told him. With that memory in my mind I tried to imagine the way that poor boy felt. I found myself with real tears in my eyes. What if Mommy doesn’t change me, what if I can't stop, will I be in wet diapers forever. My jaw began to quiver and I couldn’t stop it, I was wailing like a baby, sobbing without control. There was only one thought in my head, I needed Mommy. I didn’t register the fact that Mommy was unstrapping my ankles, then my wrists and telling me she was there and to calm down. She was holding me tight against her chest and I was still crying. I buried my face in her dress and made it wet with tears and snot while she rubbed my head. The next hour was blurry, like a dream. I know I was cleaned up and changed, and after that I remember nuzzling against Mommy’s breasts while she read a story. I have no idea what the story was, but I remember colorful pictures from the pages of the book. I came to realize that for at least some period of time my adult mind had taken a back seat, I had gone mushy like Dakota and Sarah had talked about. After the story we were put to bed in our cribs, by this time I was back to myself and trying to process everything that had happened today. Like this morning I crawled to the edge of the bars and Dakota did the same thing in his nearby crib. “It was cool wasn’t it?” he whispered. I shook my head in confusion. “You went mushy, you got all, baby brained, it felt good didn’t it?” “Yeah I guess, I mean I don’t remember all that well, you were mushy most of the time at the playground weren’t you?” I asked. “Yeah, it really worked, they told me when I got a big sister it would be easier to be little,” Dakota said. “Do you realize that you had an orgasm out in public,” I asked. Dakota blushed, “Yeah, but when you’re mushy it’s just like. It’s just feeling good you know, like nothing matters, no embarrassment, no problems. It’s just perfect.” “That’s what’s wrong with Kylie isn’t it, she’s mushy all the time?” I asked. Dakota shrugged. “When’s the last time you had a conversation, I don’t think I ever heard her actually use words today?” I asked. “We never really had an adult conversation, when I first got here she just talked like a little kid alot. She had no idea how long she’d been here, she was so happy to have a big sister though. I don’t think I’ve heard her speak in anything but baby babble in a long time I guess,” Dakota said. “Hey, this is embarrassing but do you think of yourself as a girl now?” I asked. “Yeah I guess, I mean Mommy calls us baby girls all the time, and the doctor told me I’m a girl, so I guess so. How about you?” “I guess, they told me they were going to give me a treatment to make me a real girl and I refused, then I woke up here. I wish I’d just agrred.” I said. “But then you wouldn’t be my big sister and think of all the good times we’re going to have,” Dakota said. “But don’t you see, we’ll end up like Kylie, like braindead,” I said. Dakota frowned, “That’s mean, she’s not braindead, she’s a baby. Good night,” Dakota said and rolled away and covered up. Feeling like a jerk, I rolled back from the bars and tried to fall asleep.

Chapter 8 I woke up groggy and confused, I dreamed I was in a crib, but it wasn’t a dream. The overhead lights were off but there was a window with curtains and a warm glowing light outside. I was still in the ruffled girls nightgown, still in an adult sized baby diaper, and I still had baby booties on my feet and thick mittens on my hands. In the crib next time me Daktoa was sitting up leaning against the crib bumper with a pacifier in his mouth and looking at me. Between the exact replica of an infant's “Little Mermaid” onesie that was swollen out around the front from a wet diaper that he was wearing and the fact he was clutching a stuffed elephant, he looked incredibly cute and innocent. “Where are we?” I asked but the boy did not answer me and just continued sucking. “Why won’t you answer me?” I said. Eventually he pulled out the pacifier and said, “We in da nursery,” in babytalk. “Are we still in the facility? Is that outside?” I asked, pointing at the window. “Dun know,” the boy shrugged. “Why are you talking like that?” I asked. “Because, don’t want to get in trouble,” Dakota said and looked down. “There’s no one here, what are you talking about,” I said. Dakota looked around the room, “Are you sure?” he asked and pointed at a baby monitor sitting on top of a chest of drawers. He crawled to the very edge of his crib and motioned me to do the same. “We have to whisper, they can hear everything, OK?” he said in a normal voice. “Yeah OK,” I said. “How long have I been gone?” Dakota asked. “I’m not sure, maybe 3 weeks,” I said. “Oh, wow, I thought it had been longer,” he said. “What the heck is going on here?” I asked. Dakota laughed. “What?” I asked. “You can’t cuss, you can’t say anything inappropriate now,” he said. “You’re full of poop, I can say what the heck I want,” I said and then stopped in confusion. “Fart, fun, funkle, fup,” Oh my God, you’re right, I can’t say it. “I can’t either, but anyway they told me I was going to prison since I couldn’t handle the program, but I was immobilized, drugged and woke up here. There was only one other crib with Kylie and she was…” Dakota scrunched up his face for a moment and I could see him tense up a second and then relax. “She was barely able to hold a conversation, now she’s even worse.” Dakota continued. “Did you just poop?” I asked. “Oh, yeah, I guess so, sorry, but get used to it, smells poopy in here alot.” Dakota answered. I sniffed the air and noticed there was an interesting combination of smells, baby powder, fresh sheets, but also a slight stink of poop, which I assume would get much worse. There was no doubt that Kylie and I would both be in messy diapers at some point but I had experienced that in the infirmary, at least it wouldn’t be a shock. “So, OK, we’re in a nursery, being treated like babies. Is there any way out of here?” I asked. “No, Mommy is very strong, and the other Mommies are too, and I can’t really walk anymore, and listen just…” There was a noise at the door, Dakota quickly put his pacifier in, laid down and closed his eyes. The door opened and the woman from last night entered. She was wearing a very old fashioned dress, with a long wide skirt down to the ankles, a tight belt around her waist and a button up front that went high up her neck. “Good morning little ones, who's ready for a change?” she said. I stood back up and realized I was still a bit shaky on my feet and grabbed the crib rail. “Hey, what’s going on? Why am I here?” I asked. The woman ignored me and stopped to sniff at my crib. “Not messy yet.” She went to Dakota’s crib and sniffed, “Messy,” she said. “Then she went to Kylie's crib and sniffed, “Yeap, we have a winner,” She opened the crib rail and slid it down then lifted the sleeping baby out of the crib. The woman was somehow able to carry the full grown adult out at arms length. Kylie was wearing a soft pastel pink short sleeve sleep suit that allowed her chubby arms and legs to be seen. I'd never really seen an adult that looked like Kylie, she wasn’t adult fat, but covered in baby fat. I noticed dark stains all around the rear of her sleeper suit and could smell the stinky poop drift across the room. She carried her to the changing table and laid her down. The door opened again and a woman entered in an old fashioned pink maids outfit with a frilly apron pushing a cart. She looked like she should be working in a fetish cafe or in Akihabara, she even had a lacey collar. I recognized her, it was a pink named Alexis, the one that Lacey said was close to graduating. We had talked a couple times but didn’t really know each other. “Hey Alexis, it's me, Chris, whats going on here?” I asked. She smiled at me like I was a child and ignored my words.. “Good morning mam, how are the darlings this morning?” she asked. “Well Little Kylie has had a blow out, so if you’d strip her bedding and replace it I would appreciate that.” The woman said. “Yes mam, Alexis said and pushed her cart over to Kylie's crib and began stripping away the sheet. “Alexis, please, why won’t you talk to me!” I yelled. “Seems like your new baby is a bit fussy this morning mam,” Alexis said. “Oh yes, and if she keeps it up she’s going to get a spanking” the woman said. “Hey lady I’m not a baby! What's wrong with you people, was it not enough that you make us pretend to be women, now I’m supposed to pretend to be a baby. Seriously, I'm funning done with this stuff. I’m not playing along anymore!” I yelled. Kylie began to cry and the woman turned herself around. “Alexis dear, would you please finish cleaning up Kylie oh and get her pacy out of the crib please.” “Yes Mam,” Alexis said and quickly went to the changing table. The woman walked across the room and unlocked my crib then lowered the side. I took a few steps back from her and fell down, unable to balance myself on the bouncy crib mattress. “This is your first day in the nursery Chrissy, so you need to learn the rules. We raise obedient and well behaved little girls here, and Mommy does not tolerate naughtiness. You will speak correctly like a little girl, you will call me Mommy, and you will call her Nanny. You will speak and behave like a little girl or you will be punished, do you understand?” “What is the point, why are you doing this? I’ll sign the form, I’ll take the treatment, let me go back OK?” I asked. The woman grabbed my hand and pulled me onto my feet. She was impossibly strong and I could do nothing. “That’s not how a little girl talks,” the woman said and carried me over to the recliner where she fed Kylie. She spun me around and pinned me over her knee. My complaints and yells were ignored, “You will be punished until you learn how to properly behave. I struggled trying to free myself but her grip was like iron. I felt her hand grab the back of my diaper and yank it down, then she flipped the nightgown out of her way and a stinging slap came down on my bottom, then another. “Hey dang it, stop,” I yelled. But the spanks came down faster and harder. I thought the correct thing to do would be to just suck it up, make a point that I couldn’t be forced and that they would have to kill me before I gave in. But the pain was becoming more intense and I could feel my resolve breaking. I saw that Alexis and Dakota were both watching my humiliation and I felt my jaw start to quiver and my eyes water. “Fine you’re Mommy, she’s Nanny whatever you say,” I yelled. “That wasn’t correct,” she said and the blows came even harder. “What? you’re Mommy, OK, please stop, please!” I yelled and felt the crying becoming uncontrollable. “Not quite,” she said and continued. “Mommy, please, I’ll be good, I promise. Please, I’m a baby. Mommy, please… Mommy!” I cried uncontrollably. The spanking stopped but I was held tight and I saw her hand draw back for another blow, “Who are you?” she asked. “I’m Chrissy,” I said between sobs. “Who am I?” she asked. “Mommy,” I said desperately. “That’s right, I’m your Mommy, and you’re my Baby girl Chrissy. Now who are you? Say it correctly,” she ordered. “I’m your babygirl Chrissy, and you’re my Mommy,” I said in the most childish voice I could manage. “Good job little one,” the raised hand came down and I was embraced in a tight hug. “Alexis, would you please bring me a reward pacy, I think that our new little girl needs a treat. Oh and bring a suppository as well. I kept my eyes closed from the shame and humiliation and felt the pacifier slip into my mouth. Instead of rubber I was met with a sweet candy. Then I felt a slick lubed finger slide something up my bottom and my diaper was pulled back up. In a few moments I started feeling my humation and stress fade. The candy tasted really good so I sucked and licked it with my tongue. “I know you have more rounds Alexis, thank you for your help, I’ll take it from here,” Mommy said. “Yes Mam,” Alexa replied and pushed her cart over to a dirty laundry basket and dumped the clothes into the hamper on her cart. She smiled at me as she walked out of the room. “OK now that the unpleasantness is over let's get you back in your crib,” Mommy said and sat me back down. I leaned heavily against the crib bumper enjoying the euphoric feeling that had come over me. I didn’t even notice that my bottom was sore. Kylie was unstrapped from the changing table and returned to her crib, then Dakota was picked up from his. “Dakota, did you have a good night?” Mommy asked. “Yes Mommy, are we going out today?” Dakota said in baby talk. “Of course dear, Chrisy has to meet the other littles,” Mommy answered. I could only see Mommy’s back but I listened with fascination to the sounds of the diaper change. Mommy said cute little things to Dakota who giggled as he was cleaned up. Each time Mommy pulled out a fresh wipe from the dispenser it made a woosh sound, then I felt a slight pressure and instinctively relaxed feeling a warm mush spread across my bottom and giggled. Yeap, I love facility style forced transition and regression stories. I've always wanted to write one with the most plausible explanation for existing, which is where this one is heading.

Chapter 7 The Nursery I woke up very slowly to the sound of soft music playing like a music box. It took a moment for my eyes to adjust. I was surrounded by soft padding decorated in pastel nursery images. White bars reached up 5 feet above me. High above I could see a big spinning mobile with rainbows and stars. That’s where the lullaby was coming from. I was in a crib, a huge crib, or was I a little baby? I looked at my body, it seemed the same dimensions. The medical diaper that had been my underwear for the last 10 months was replaced with a thicker model with a soft outer shell decorated with a cute cartoon elephant. It was wet, in fact it was soaked. My hands were covered with big thick mittens that were locked on. I was wearing a short pink nightgown with short ruffled sleeves and a picture of a rainbow and unicorn and my feet were covered in thick booties. I got to my feet and immediately fell down. Something was wrong with my balance. I crawled to the side of the crib and used the bars to steady myself. With the mittens I couldn’t even hold them. My chin came to the top of the crib bars. It was dark, but there was a nightlight. I was in a nursery, a nursery that had somehow been upsized for adults. Everything was decorated in soft pastels and white. I could see a changing table, and several white cubicle shelves filled with toys and baby items and a door to the outside. There were two other cribs and I could see bodies laying in them. “Hey, hey wake up!” I said instinctively in a whisper. I could hear light snoring coming from one of the cribs. “Hey, wake up!” I said a little louder. One of the bodies rolled over and shh’d me. “Go back to sleep,” I heard a voice. “Where am I? What’s going on?” I asked. “You’re going to wake up, Kylie, be quiet.” they whispered again. “Who’s Kylie,” I asked? Then I saw the body in the third crib roll over and sit up and then begin to loudly cry. In between sobs I heard Mommy. “Well now you’ve done it, happy now!” the voice said. A few moments later the door opened and a woman came in and flicked on the lights. I was blinded for a minute while my eyes adjusted. The woman was wearing a long lacey night gown and had her long hair pulled up in a bun on top of her head. She was big, well over 6 foot tall and plump as well. “Oh it looks like Chrissy woke up a bit early,” the woman said looking at me. “Chrissy?” I asked. The woman ignored me and walked over to the crib with the crying baby. “What’s wrong Kylie? Are you upset, Mommy is here.” She said and opened the side of the crib. With the light on I could see that Kylie was an adult, but also a baby. Her body was chubby and soft, not fat, but baby fat seeming spread all over her body. Her face was round and cute, her skin exceedingly soft, even her hair was baby soft and shiny. The woman reached in and took the crying adult baby out of the crib, she had no trouble lifting the full grown adult and cradling them. Kylie wasn’t big, but the woman must be incredibly strong. “Hey, where am I, what’s going on?” I asked. “Shush now, Chrissy, it’s 3AM and you should still be sleeping,” The woman said. “My name is Chis, not Chrissy. Why am I not in my room, what the heck is this place?” I said again. “You’re so talkative this morning, but you need to go back to bed,” the woman said while rocking the crying Kylie in her arms. She sat down the crying baby in a recliner and left the room. “Can someone please tell me what’s going on!” I yelled. The person in the crib who was talking to me sat up and I recognized their face, though it had changed some. It was Dakota, the hacker who couldn’t make it even as a Pink. Dakota’s curly black hair was even softer and he had more of a babyface than I remembered. “Dakota?” I asked. “Yeah, just shut up OK, I don’t want to get in trouble,” Dakota said and then quickly laid back down and covered up. The woman came back in and said “Mommy has got just the thing for little ones that can’t sleep.” She held a bottle in her hand, it was exactly like the classic baby bottle but adult sized and filled with milk. She climbed up on a little set of stairs beside the crib so that she was over me. She took one hand and placed it on the back of my head. I immediately tried to get away but she squeezed me tight against the crib rail. She was very strong, and with her other hand she tried to force the bottle's nipple into my mouth, but I refused to open. “You know what happens to fussy girls,” the woman said and pinched the skin behind my neck. The pain was surprising and I opened my mouth to tell her to stop. The bottle came in and she gave it a squeeze. Soon my mouth was filled with a strange tasting milk, it wasn’t bad, but it wasn’t really good either. I refused to swallow and some of the milk dribbled out of my mouth. The pinch came again, “Swallow for Mommy,” she said and I did and the pain went away. Then I swallowed again, and again. She held my head a few more minutes then took her arm from the back of my head. She took my arm that was hanging loosely at my side and placed my mittened hand against the bottle and I kept it there. I keep suckling the bottle, any resistance or confusion that I had been feeling was gone. Everything in the world made perfect sense, the nipple in my mouth made milk, the milk made me. “Little Chrissy loves her baba, doesn’t she,” the woman said. “Yeah,” I said, Without thinking.With her hand no longer steadying me against the crib I began to slide down. She caught me though and reaching over the bars she carefully lowered me the crib mattress. The nipple slid out of my mouth and I kept suckling air, and felt myself getting upset. She placed the bottle back in my mouth and positioned my hands to hold it. “Good girl, drink it all,” she said. The lights were turned out and as I laid there sucking she picked up Kylie out of the chair and then sat down with the crying girl in her lap. She unbuttoned her nightgown and lowered one side showing a big full breast with a huge nipple. At the sight of the nipple Kylie stopped crying and immediately latched on. The quiet was nice, I could hear the lullaby music again. It was really hard to keep my eyes open so I closed them and continued to suckle and fell asleep with the nipple still in my mouth.

Chapter 6 - Reassignment It was just a normal day, work had gone well. It was so easy to make quota now by 2PM that we usually finished with time to spare. It was a Tuesday morning and around 9AM a new pair of campers drove up in their cart looking confused. As the teachers have suggested I stopped thinking of this place as a prison and now it's a camp in my mind and my fellow pinks and the blues are campers. It feels much nicer to call us campers than prisoners. One of the interpersonal skills classes had focused on interacting with new campers. The teacher had said that the worst thing we could do was swarm them, that instead we should allow them time to adjust to their surroundings and only interact if they came to us or after they had spent some time on the work site. The new campers approached a guard and were told to go spread out their gravel. “Oh my God Chris, they are just like we were, look at them,” Amy laughed. They were struggling with their shovels and picking up big scoops of rocks. One of the things you learn over time is that there is a minimum amount of material necessary for your scoop to register and that amount is small. New campers are always exciting, we can ask them what’s going on out in the real world, but it’s also tough for most of us. All of us biological men living as pinks had accepted some level of feminization. Over the winter besides shaving my body I had started a facial beauty regimine, painting my nails, wearing makeup, and keeping my long brown hair in a high ponytail. I'd even taken to stuffing my bra a little. There were several reasons, it had gone from wanting to fit in and avoid being noticed by the blues, to actually feeling more dignified and moving up on the pecking order. Underneath the makeup I was still a man, a man dressed like a woman wearing a diaper. Nothing made us feel more humiliated than meeting new campers. “Lets go talk to them on our next trip,” Amy said. We drove up our cart next to them and got off. The two new campers were both young with punk styled colorful hair. The guy had huge ear lobes but his ear gages had been removed so they hung kind of limp. “Are you guys the welcome wagon?” the guy said. “Yeah I’m Amy and this is Chris, welcome to camp 4.” “This is one of the Re-Education camps isn’t it, where people go and never come out?” the guy said. “It is an education camp, but people are released all the time,” I said. They both looked at me in confusion of my deep voice, apparently I had passed as a woman until they heard me talk. “Hey I’m Steve,” the guy said. “I’m Angel,” the woman said. “Have you met your orientation person yet?” Amy asked. They both shook their heads in confusion. “Well look, don’t work too hard today and try to make your quota, you’ll just get sore. Just do a little work to keep the guards happy. Your orientation expert will explain things.” Amy said. Steve was looking around and noticed that there were very few people in blue coveralls like his. “So umm, no offense, but is this like a camp for trans people?” he asked. “Not exactly, but… They do accommodate us transgender people very well,” I lied. To her credit Amy didn’t miss a beat, of course they asked about the bathroom, but we didn’t have time or the desire to discuss the whole diaper situation so we told them we had to get busy and took off. “Us transgender people?” Amy asked once we were driving off. “It’s a lot easier to say that then to say I shave my legs and wear makeup to fit in.” I said with a laugh. A few hours later Amy and I stood in line waiting for our first class assignment of the day. Amy was sent to classroom 4 for more interpersonal training and I was told to go to the conference room. This wasn’t completely out of the ordinary, every few weeks our Orientation Expert would pull us from a class for a meeting. I’d had 2 meetings in the last ten months, both times to just check on how I was feeling and discuss future plans when released. I arrived at the conference room and waited patiently for about 20 minutes before Francine came in. “Hello EF67, how are things going?” she asked. We got the small talk out of the way and she came to the point of the meeting. “Well I have good news for you. You have been selected for Gender realignment,” she said. “Umm, what?” I asked. “The AI has decided that you have integrated enough with the female gender to become a productive female citizen. So we are ready to offer you your gender reassignment ” “Wait, gender reassignment, like hormones? Why hasn’t Lacey or any of the others told me about this?” I asked. “They are legally bound not to, just as you will be, discussing gender reassignment with other residents is not permissible,” Francine said. “Look, I’m happy like this, I don't want hormones,” I said. “You actually won’t be given hormones, there have been incredible strides made in genetic therapy and we have a safe and effective treatment to actually make you genetically female,” she said. I weighed the pros and cons in my mind, I had grown used to being a girl, but I was sure it was just a result of their brainwashing. Maybe I liked being a girl now, but back in the real world I would just go back to being a guy and be just as happy. Even more important was Amy, we couldn’t be together as a lesbian couple, the Regime had outlawed it. “No, I don’t want this,” I said. Francine raised her eyebrows in surprise. “Really, you’ve done so well here. You really do make an excellent woman Chris, I wish you would reconsider.” “You’re just going to do what you want, why are you even asking me?” I said. “The Regime is a lawful government and the AI acts in the bounds of those laws, it can’t administer this treatment without your signed permission,” Francine sat her tablet down on the table and showed me where to sign, “Just sign here and we can move on.” “What happens if I don’t sign, will I be sent to prison?” I asked. “No, your education will continue, but the AI will modify your program and reassess in the future,” she said. “That's fine,” I said. “Are you sure, one last chance, I really think it would be better for you to agree,” Francine said. “No,” replied. “Very well,” Francine said. She hit the large red X on her tablet screen. I immediately felt a shock and then my body went limp in the chair like a toy whose battery had been removed. Francine got up and left the conference room, some time later the side door of the room opened and two guards came in with a wheelchair. I was transferred to the chair and rolled through the door down a white hallway and through a couple different security doors. I had never seen these doors, and suddenly I was overwhelmed with fear. A man in a lab coat was there and stuck a needle in my arm. Just as I suspected the bastards were going through with the treatment anyway. Though my eyes didn’t close, the world blacked out.

Chapter 5 - Rumors Fall slowly turned to winter, but it was a mild winter in this geographical area. The morning temperatures were around 40 degrees and would usually warm up to 50. Leggings, jackets and thicker winter bonnets were added to our wardrobe. On days it was much colder or raining outdoor work would be replaced with indoor work, we would all be issued cleaning supplies and deep clean the facility. All in all things were going pretty well for our little group, but as winter started winding down I could sense things were changing. Besides Amy, Lacey had become my best friend and while it was subtle I could see changes occurring. If I didn’t know her from 8 months ago then I would assume she was a biological woman. She had been in her 30s but she looked like she was in her 20s now, her skin was softer and smoother, her hair had grown long, thick and fuller, her eyes seemed larger, heck her butt, hips and breasts had grown. It was obvious that she was being given female hormones. When I asked her about it she just shrugged and said it must be something in the water. I was changing as well but as far as I could tell not physically yet. I had taken to shaving my body hair to better fit in with all the girls. Plus I had really grown a distaste for the whole man in a dress and being called a fag so I tried to look and act as feminine as possible to fit in, Lacey said my makeup skills were really top getting better. I was even stuffing my bra with toilet paper to try to get the appearance. I was completely aware that we were all being brainwashed, but what choice did we really have. I could go back to being blue anytime I wanted, but then I’d have to work twice as hard and spend all my time with angry bigots. I also suspected that there was something in the candy they gave us, heck even the soap made me feel all bubbly and happy. Then there were the diapers. There was no rule that you had to wear them at night in your room, so I didn’t at first. But I found I was waking up several times a night to go pee. When you are wearing your bathroom you just start to go whenever you feel like it. So I started wearing a diaper to bed. I wasn’t incontinent, I could hold it, but there was never a reason too. The reality was that wetting myself had become so common that I didn’t even think about it, there is no way I could get through a day without diapers now. Winter turned to Spring and more changes came to our group, Sharon and Lacey were now well over their year anniversary and over half way through with their credits. They both switched to mostly indoor work when it was available, so we started spending less time together. While at the new worksite one morning in late Spring I saw a new Pink standing around looking confused with their shovel, they were working with another fairly new Pink named Rick that I had talked to once. Rick was working far from the new guy. Feeling like they might need help we drove over to talk with them. “Good morning guys, how's it going?” I asked them. “Just another day in gay paradise,” Rick said. I ignored Rick’s negativity. Amy walked over to the new guy, “What’s your name?” she asked. “Dakota,” he said with a tear in his eyes. Dakota had curly black hair under his bonnet and a cute baby face, most inmates are young, but he could pass as a highschool kid. “Dakota it’s going to be OK, it’s really hard to accept this, but I promise it will get better,” Amy told him. “No you don’t understand. I heard rumors about these camps on the dark web, I thought it was make believe and now I’m here,” the boy said. “What rumors did you hear?” I asked. “AI controlled prisons where dissidents go in and come out brainwashed slaves to the Regime. Men are somehow turned into women and married off to high level party members. It’s real, they’ve already brainwashed you and you don’t even realize it.” Dakota said. “I know it seems like that, but this place is really OK, and way better than prison.” Amy said. “This is a prison, not some kind of a cross dressing summer camp!” Dakota said. A guard was coming toward us quickly so Amy and I got out of the way. “Back to work!” he said. Dakota quickly drew back his shovel to strike the guard but before he could swing the violence prevention program running on his chip interpreted his intentions and immobilized him. He laid on the ground paralyzed for 20 minutes, before getting up and going through the motions of working. For the next few days Dakota gave half hearted efforts to conform with the program but after the fourth day of throwing temper tantrums he was removed by the guards and we didn’t see him again. We both figured it was for the best, he would spend his youth in prison, but we’d seen it before. Some people couldn’t adjust to the Program. Still it left me with nagging doubts. “What if what Dakota said is true, what if we’re going to be married off to Regime party members. What if they are going to turn me into a girl?” I asked Amy at supper that night. “You already are a girl,” Amy said with a laugh. “I'm serious, you can see it can’t you, heck, Lacey’s growing boobs and most of the Pinks that we’ve known for a while are changing too, at least the male ones,” I said. “You’ve been blooming there in the chest department yourself Chrissy,” Amy said. “I’m stuffing so the blues don’t notice me as much, you know that,” I said. “So is Lacey, you worry too much. The dark web is full of conspiracy theories and propaganda. We’ve talked about this. When we finish our credits we’ll use our housing stipends and get a nice place together and start a new life. Of course we’ll have to potty train first but it’s going to be OK,” Amy said. Maybe Amy was right, but I had nagging suspicions. What Dakota had said made perfect sense to me. The Regime needs loyal and traditional women to raise loyal and traditional families, what if they found a way to make them

Chapter 4 "Go With The Flow" Going with the flow is what we did. The diapers were actually much easier and convenient than I thought they would be. They were incredibly absorbent and the way they swelled up into a warm pillow that hugged my rear actually felt good. We were required to wear them any time we left our rooms, but luckily we were still allowed to unbutton our uniforms and use the toilets for number 2s. Amy and I worked with Sharon and Lacey, but we also made friends with some new “pinks” as we often called ourselves and helped them deal with the new environment. We still endured occasional verbal abuse from the blues but they were usually far too busy to spend much time taunting us. The weather here was slowly changing and getting slightly cooler, the days had gone from warm 80s to lower 70s and some of the trees were changing so it must be getting close to Fall. Lacey said it was early spring when her and Sharon had arrived. The work had changed a bit. The first huge gravel foundation we had been spreading was complete and now under construction. Building robots were putting up foundation and walls for a new facility. We were now taking loads of powered concrete mix to refill the machines, but some of us were still spreading gravel on a new road leading off from the gravel where another huge worksite was being cleared by bulldozer robots. Now that we were in diapers full time and accustomed to the work it was easy to make the 2 PM classes. Shower time and classes were quickly becoming my favorite part of the day. I always felt so relaxed and comfortable after my shower and I was finding the classes interesting. We were assigned different classes each day, and I had figured out the room assignments. Room 1 was a basic classroom where we were taught things like managing accounts, planning budgets, history, math, and even art. Really all stuff we’d already learned in school, but it was taught in a very conservative and a girly way. Room 2 was the kitchen, which was becoming my favorite, I’d always liked cooking anyway. Room 3 was etiquette and personal skills, we were taught how to look and act more feminine. The classroom was basically a beauty salon and fashion store. Many classes here focused on fashion, beauty and makeup. Most days we changed out of the uniform into more fashionable dresses. For someone like Lacey the class was perfect as she wanted to be a woman anyway. The biological women in the class usually had a ball, but for many of us pinks it was just a credit that we bobbled our way through. Still to earn our reward candy even us that had no interest in being female did the best we could to learn things like cheekbone contouring and flawless mascara. Room 4 was my least favorite and luckily I wasn’t assigned too many classes here. Room 4 was interpersonal skills and intimacy. Classes could be like the one on my first day about how to give and take compliments, but they could also be about how to kiss. I was forced to learn to french kiss with 4 different partners. Luckily many of the more advanced intimate skills were theory only, but I have now gone through the indignity of learning how to appropriately suck and stroke a penis until climax. The practice models they make us use are very realistic. Room 5 was still a mystery. A few girls more advanced in the program would go to room 5 instead of work, and come out well after the last class period. None of us had ever been assigned classes there. Those who did work would only say it was advanced classes We also discovered that there were other options available to some students besides the work detail. Once you’d put in over half your time you could sign up to work inside, inside workers were given a frilly apron and assigned to domestic duties such as cleaning the classrooms, helping with meal prep, some were even given tablets and put in charge of organizing the students into their classes. I also discovered that there were weekends in the facility, but they were only one day a week, on Sunday. We were all directed by guards to another new room, a basketball gym, where folding chairs had been set up. Organ music was playing and a man in a suit stood at a pulpit on a small stage, a small group of mostly pinks gathered in chairs behind him as a choir and to my utter surprise a traditional church service was held. The service was a combination of giving one’s life to Jesus, asking for forgiveness of sins, but also the importance of family values and patriotism to the state. Lacey warned me to behave during the sermon and I found out why. A new Pink stood up to leave and then immediately sat down like a toy whose battery died. We were getting our religion whether we wanted it or not. Once it was complete the blues went to the bleachers on one side of the gym and the pinks to another. What happened next was surreal, Lacey had told us this was a thing, but actually seeing it happen was bizarre. A few of the blues and pinks went off to doors marked “Locker Room.” They returned wearing basketball uniforms, and 8 pinks were also dressed as cheerleaders. They proceeded to play a game. Our pink team was 2 biological women and 3 men. The cheerleaders were probably split about evenly but it was getting harder to tell. I’m not much into sports but I found myself getting wrapped up in the game, since I really wanted to see us beat the men’s team. Lacey said it was rare for the girls to win, but it did occasionally happen. Though we lost 46 to 55 in that game. Sunday afternoons were totally unstructured time but there was always something fun going on in the rec rooms. Blues retired back to their bar to drink and watch sports, Pinks had our choice between the three rec rooms, and girls were always planning events. Poetry readings, game tournaments, pageants, it was really a fun afternoon and gave us something to look forward to all week. As the weeks went by I realized that new inmates were always entering the camp, and a few left. Usually two new inmates a week entered. It would take well over 626 days to earn enough credits to graduate the program. Lacey and Sharon were over 200 days now, and had around 300 credits, as there were several days where they hadn’t made it in for the early class. As far as Lacey and Amy knew no inmates had graduated the program yet. They knew a Pink named Alexis who had over 600 credits, she was one of the first inmates at this facility. Besides graduation there were two other ways to leave the facility. Failing to earn credits and being transferred to a prison, or an attachment transfer. An attachment transfer occurs when two inmates become romantically involved. Because of this I made sure to keep my relationship with Amy strictly on platonic terms. Not that having a physical relationship here was even possible. Our chips caused pain if we entered someone else's assigned room and there was no private space in any of the rec rooms. Luckily our sex drives all seemed to be stifled by this place. It was around my 90th day when I discovered what happens when an inmate here is not feeling good enough to work. I felt a bit sick when I went to bed and woke up with a fever and fatigue. My watch had a medical alert warning on the screen and that morning a guard arrived and took me to the infirmary. The infirmary was a small treatment room surrounded by 6 small bed chambers. A nurse undressed me and put me in a short hospital gown that barely covered my diaper. I was put in bed and tests were taken which determined I had a influenza virus. I spent three days in the infirmary not allowed to leave the bed. The nurse explained that if I tried to leave the bed I would be immobilized and since I could harm myself if that happened it was best if I was restrained. My ankles and wrists were placed in soft cushioned cuffs. After holding in my poop all day the nurse administered suppositories resulting in my first messy diaper. I’m ashamed to say it but my resulting breakdown was epic. I screamed and cried, cursed like a sailor, calling the nurse all manner of foul things. He came in and forced a thick rubber gag into my mouth and attached it with a strap behind my head. He told me that if I didn't calm down he would paralyze me and leave me in my mess all night and I’d get a diaper rash, but if I calmed down then I'd get candy treats. I managed to get my emotions under control, and the candy treats definitely helped me feel better. The only thing to do while in the infirmary is read, the nightstand by the bed had a selection of classic girls literature so I spent the next two days reading “The Secret Garden” and was released back to work feeling completely better.

Oh man that's such a good idea, they would for sure have a tattoo corner and secret blue team tats LOL Chapter 3 Going Pink The door wouldn’t open, my watch screen said that I had incorrect undergarments. The clothes in my room had been changed, there were still men’s and women’s but now there were multiple copies of everything in my size. I had to take off the dress, take off my boxers and put on the panties, the door still wouldn’t open, I searched through the bra drawer having no idea how to even put one on. I almost went back to the men’s uniform but I didn’t want to sit through another class like that. The bra’s were obviously not for women, they had almost no breast cup, but were lacey and feminine. I felt incredibly uncomfortable once I got everything on and looked in the mirror. The door still wouldn’t open, my screen reminded me to wear the bonnet and knee high female socks. At least with the bonnet it was difficult to see my face. The door opened and I walked from my room to the women’s dining hall with my head down. The women’s dining hall was much more crowded than the men’s and louder with several conversations going on. “Well, don’t we look fabulous this morning,” I was greeted by Lacey. I mumbled hello and she told me to cheer up, I had made the right decision. I sat at a table with Amy who refused to look me in the eye, along with Lacey, Sharon, and the other two from yesterday. The food was different in the women’s, vegetable omelet instead of biscuits and gravy, at least that was an improvement. After an hour of work Amy still hadn’t talked to me, and I finally dropped my shovel, “What?” I said a bit too loud. “I can’t believe you, going along with this!” she yelled. “What are the women’s classes like?” I asked. “I don’t know, just lame, like stuff a housewife should know, I guess,” she said. “Well the men’s classes are how to become a racist piece of shit, and I’d rather wear a dress than that. Hell, I’d rather wear diapers than turn into one of those assholes,” I said. Amy didn’t reply and just hung her head but she did try harder to get through the work. A few hours later we were loading up the gravel and were about to make our way to the restroom when she stopped me. No one was close and she spoke freely. “Chris, I can’t do this, my feet hurt, my back hurts, I can’t walk over there again,” she said. “It’s not that far, we can get through this,” I told her. “I don’t care anymore, I just want to go home, I hate it here so much,” Amy said, fighting tears. “OK, I’ll make you a deal, I’ll do it if you do it,” I said. “I can’t do that,” Amy cried. “Well let's walk over there then, but we have to do one or the other,” I said. “Oh God, this is so stupid!” Amy yelled, getting the attention of a guard. “Get to work!” he yelled at us. “We got back in our little electric truck and drove to the worksite, getting out we both nodded in agreement, closed our eyes and wet ourselves. If this had been a normal dress I could have just squatted down, pulled out my penis out of the panties and pee’d without anyone knowing, though I doubt that would be so easy for Amy. The built-in shorts made it impossible though, they had absorbed some pee and made a small wet spot on the front of the skirt. I could feel the pee running down my legs and into my knee high socks. I opened my eyes to see a slightly yellowish stain running down my white knee high socks, but otherwise it would be hard to tell I’d just wet myself, other than the puddle quickly sinking into the gravel underneath me. There was a beep and the watches we wore both announced that we had experienced an incontinence episode. Amy wiped tears from her eyes and went back to work so I did the same. An hour later a truck rolled to a stop and two blue suited men yelled over. “Hey sweet tits, how's it going,” a guy said. “Shut the fuck up,” I replied. “I wasn’t talking to you fag! Oh look, it's Chris, our new guy from last night,” the guy said. “I was pretty damn sure you were a faggot. I guess from now on we’ll call you Chrissy,” the guy said. “Chrissy Pissy Pants, it looks to me,” said the other one. “It’s better than being a dumb fucking redneck son of a bitch,” I yelled back. The guy got out of the truck and started towards me, “What did you just say fag,” “Jim get back in the truck, we don’t got time for this,” the other guy yelled. “I called you a dumb fucking redneck son of a bitch,” I said. The guy hawked a thick slimy loogie that landed on my face. Without thinking I lunged toward him to throw a punch but the moment I was about to launch my fist I felt an intense shock of pain and then fell limp on the ground unable to move. The guy stood over the top of me laughing and I could hear crunching feet as a guard was running up. “Ahh something’s wrong with the faggot,” the guy said and started back towards his truck. Amy was rushing to push him or get in his face when the guard showed up and got in her way. “What’s going on,” he asked. “The faggot there tried to attack me sir,” the guard said as he was getting back in the electric vehicle. “Then perhaps you should stay away from her, I’ll be watching you GK43,” the guard said. “Yes sir,” Jim said as their vehicle drove off. “EF67, any attempt at violence will result in paralyzation. This is your second offense so it will last for about ten minutes,” the guard said. “That guy spit in his face, how about him?” Amy asked. “Her face,” the guard corrected and started walking away. Though I couldn’t even move my eyes I could see Amy hovering over me, she reached down and gave me a hug and used her dress to clean my face then continued to work. Despite my imposed 10 minute break I could have made the 2PM girl’s quota but instead I slowed down and helped Amy. We took another emergency bathroom break but otherwise made it in at 3:30, some of the last pink dressed prisoners to finish. The women’s classes were very different, for one there were 3 times more people. There were a few people in the pink prison dress with a frilly apron who seemed to be servants, one of them had a tablet and came over to Amy and me. “Well you two had your first accident today, I’m sorry about that. Stalls 10 and 11 have new uniforms for you with your new undergarments, just come and get me if you need any help with them,” she said, though I was pretty sure she was likely a he. The shower room was much larger and instead of communal shower heads in the middle of the room there were individual stalls. Each stall had a changing table stocked with extra diapers, toilet and shower, it was stocked with a variety of nice smelling soaps, there was also shaving cream and disposable razors. I had little experience with diapers in my life, but I had changed a few of my cousins in the past. I couldn’t really believe I was doing this, I could probably make quota and still go to the bathroom, but it was a long walk, and I was doing this for Amy. The diapers were in stacks of three sizes, and were an exact copy of a baby diaper, not the pull on undergarments that you see in commercials now, though it lacked the cute designs on a baby diaper, it was completely white and very thick. I took a shower and found the soap and shampoo to feel luxurious, my senses felt more open and my mind more relaxed than it had in a long time. Without the sense of anxiety I felt about it earlier I took a diaper off the stack and unfolded it. It smelled wonderful, like a fresh and clean baby’s bottom and I found myself taking a deeper sniff of it. I laid it out on the changing table and laid down on it then pulled it up between my legs. The single hook and loop fasteners on the side were connected to stretchy panels that hugged around me perfectly. Though it was thick and a bit constricting when I closed my legs it was also quiet and comfortable. I got dressed and met Amy out in the hall. There were several women milling about chatting and Amy was with Sharon and Lacey. Like me they were feeling relaxed and fresh after their showers. “Well Chris, you're one of the girls now,” Lacey said with a chuckle. I blushed but didn’t reply. The women’s area had several more classrooms than the men’s, one of the frilly apron people with a tablet told us our class assignments. Amy and Sharon were sent to classroom 2 while Lacey and I were sent to classroom 4. There were about 20 people in the class. The teacher greeted us at the door, she was wearing a very traditional dress and had her hair tightly done up in a bun. She explained that today’s class would focus on proper etiquette and behavior. She explained situations and the proper responses ranging from receiving compliments for our looks, how to respond when receiving inappropriate attention from a man, how to enter a room, and several more. After each example some of us were required to perform the action. If you performed it correctly she rewarded us with a small piece of candy, which correctly unwrapping and eating was also a lesson. By the end of the class we had all earned a couple pieces. A small part of me knew something wasn’t right, I was completely comfortable getting in front of the class and saying, “Thank you sir, but you can see from my wedding ring that I am a taken woman.” I also noticed that I raised my voice an octave higher without even thinking about it, but the candy was so good. After class we all shuffled out into the hallway and I followed the crowd, like the men’s side classes lasted an hour then there was an hour of recreation time before the next class. After the last class it was rec time until 9. The women’s side of the facility had three distinct rec rooms and Lacey was excited to show them off to me. There was a coffee shop themed room with many books to read and frilly aproned prisoners serving coffee, a sort of club themed room with a bar, games and upbeat pop music, and the third rec room was called the sleepover room. This room looked like it was designed by a 12 year old girl, Bubblegum pop music was playing, there were screens playing girly movies, it had lots of soft beanbags and cushions in pink pastels and unicorn decor. Lacey wanted to go to the sleepover room so I followed her in, Amy and Sharon were already sitting on a big cozy couch and Lacey and I joined them. “I can’t understand this, what is the point of this?” I asked. “Isn’t it obvious? We’re here to be productive members of society, turning undesirable citizens into the kind of conforming people the Regime wants,” Sharon answered. I just shook my head. Lacey spoke up, “Haven’t you heard the speeches by the Minister of Family? The Nation is built on strong women and strong families, he’s always saying we need more traditional women, and more stay at home mothers to become strong like we were in the past.” “But, no offense Lacey, we aren’t women, what good is it to train us like women,” I said. “Look, we've been here for three months, and we’re not even a quarter of the way through our credits. We’ve seen people change here. Heck, I've changed in the last three months, I used to hate cooking, cleaning, housework, and especially family, but when I get out of here I’m really looking forward to settling down,” Lacey explained. “Yeah that’s fine for you, and Amy if she wants that, but I’m not going to be someone’s housewife? I mean, I’m a guy, the Regime did away with legal same sex marriage years ago. If they forced all of us men to conform and become patriotic braindead assholes, instead of pretending to be girls, then at least that would make sense.” Lacey acted like she or he wanted to say something but just looked down and I saw a tear in their eye. “I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to upset you,” I said. They just waved me away and smiled. “No it’s fine, I have no idea, just try to go with the flow and get through it,” Lacey said.

Chapter 2 A Man’s World The next day I was up early, dressed and out the door. The men’s dining hall reminded me of a morning cafe full of guys drinking coffee to get mentally prepared for work. Most of the guys seemed a bit older. I was congratulated by a few for staying true, apparently they were watching me. A couple guys asked to partner up with me, but I told them I was working with Amy. We met at 7AM at the gravel pile, she was obviously embarrassed by the pink outfit and especially the old fashioned sun bonnet. Most people worked in pairs and we were the only blue-pink pair. By 10AM it was obvious to me that neither one of us had much experience with hard labor. Between the forced hydration alarm, the long walks to the bathroom, and the fact that neither one of us were quick, we weren’t on schedule to make quota by 2PM. We noticed that very few of the workers were going to the bathroom, especially the pink clad workers. Sure, there were a few in the pink, but they were mostly guys and physically fit so they could jog or speed walk to the restroom, plus those who were working harder were sweating more out. At noon a group of pink uniforms gathered near us at the worksite to eat lunch.. Sharon and Lacey from yesterday and two others. While I was concerned about the time, Amy needed a break, and truth be told I did too, plus it was good to get to know some of my fellow inmates. Sharon was much like me, a college drop out, who was involved in the dissident movement, protesting the war and income inequality. Lacey was different, and after spending some time with her I just accepted that he was a she. She was a school teacher who was outed online as a crossdresser. She was fired and eventually kicked out of her apartment and living in shelters. One day she went to bed in a shelter and woke up here. She had been here for a few months and seemed to be actually enjoying it. “It really doesn’t make sense though, they arrest me for being a queer crossdresser and then put me in a re-education camp that encourages me to be a queer crossdresser,” she laughed. After a short time she just started using her girl name and just accepted that she was transgender. The other two were a male and female and both a bit older than me, the girl had maxed out several credit cards and had ran several scams trying to make enough money to pay her rent. The guy was another protester who had been snatched from a rally on the opposite coast. One thing that seemed apparent was that they only took unemployed people, and they didn’t take married people or people who had close relationships with their family. Eventually I asked the question that had been on my mind, “OK, what's the deal? I’m barely seeing anyone use the restroom, you said yesterday to just pee, but that’s crazy, plus none of you have wet dresses, or socks, or whatever,” I asked. The 4 of them looked at each other and no one wanted to answer, eventually Lacey said, “Look, this place is weird, I guess they want to humiliate us, or those of us who won’t work like dogs.” She looked around to make sure no one was watching and then lifted the front of her skirt. The female dress uniform had a built in stretchy style underpant, but it was obviously bulging out from a thick padded diaper. Lacey patted her rear end and I instead of a slap I heard a thud and a crinkle. “Oh my God,” Amy said. “It really isn’t that big of deal, everyone here is wearing them,” Lacey said and the other 3 nodded in shame. “No way, there is no way,” Amy replied. “There is no way I could make quota without them, and I’m not going to spend the rest of my life here,” the scammer girl said. “But how does that even work?” I asked. “If you wet yourself out here, the uniform knows, when you get back you’ll have a pack of protection in your closet, the door won’t open next morning unless you are wearing one,” Sharon answered. “But how do you work all day in a wet diaper?” I asked. “They are really good, you barely notice them after a while, and the classes have changing rooms,” Lacey said. Amy started crying and I looked around at them in disbelief. “You don’t have to wear them though, I mean some people don’t, that’s the ones who are working so hard and jogging to the restroom,” Lacey explained. “Look, I know it’s crazy, but classes will help, and it’s just to get out of here,” Sharon said. “What exactly are these classes even about,” I asked. “Oh just things, like I’ve learned alot about makeup,” Lacey said. I had no reply. The rest of the day I worked like a dog while Amy had given up, she didn’t make her quota, and skipped an entire trip to just walk to the bathroom. At 3:30 I had made quota and left her at the gravel pile. I was allowed back in and followed the signs to the men’s classroom. I was greeted by a guy in a white dress shirt and tie who introduced himself as Mr. Smith the teacher, he congratulated me on making quota and gave me a tour. The classroom was actually a cluster of rooms. There was a large classroom with a modern vid screen, desks and chairs, posters hanging around the room celebrating traditional history. Posters of heroes from the ages, former presidents, generals, Arnold Schwarzenegger, and of course the current president and leader of the Regime, Baron. There was a large shower room, where several guys were showering naked during the tour. There were two enclosed shower stalls marked disabled that had a single user, “That’s where piddle pants guys go to wash up after their shift,” the teacher said. “Piddle pants?” I asked. “Yeah guys who wet themselves, there are diapers in there for them,” he said. I was a bit stunned by the language, and the teacher laughed. “Hey, some guys choose to game the system piss themselves so they can get through work faster. We give them a hard time about it, but it’s better than going pink,” he explained. The last stop on the tour was a rec room, that could have been any oversized man cave or bar, complete with pool table, bar, and posters of pin up girls on the walls. I realized that there were a few biological women in the room as well, which made sense. If men could wear the women’s uniform what would stop women from wearing the men’s. The teacher noticed me examining a woman, “Oh that’s Sue, she’s a hardass alright, if she weren’t chipped then she’d probably whip all our asses. We have a few dykes here, but don’t worry, they are OK,” the teacher said. I discovered that misogyny was the standard here, the guys razzed each other, about having limp dicks, and leaky cocks, they constantly made fun of women and especially fags, which was the common terminology for a male who wore the female outfit. The teacher encouraged it. There were about 25 inmates in the room at 4:10 and the teacher started class by lecturing about the brave sacrifice of soldiers in the battle of Fallujah. I had only a passing familiarity with the old Middle East wars and found the lecturing interesting, but the political overtones were nearly impossible to stomach. Slides and films of massacred Muslim fighters, were accompanied with racial slurs which the teacher echoed. Strange music and sounds would occasionally play during short video clips. Some guys sat there glazed over, others were fully engaged as if they were at one of the political rallies that the regime held. Class was over in about an hour and then we retired at the “bar” for an hour of drinking and bullshitting. I had never frequented bars and felt very uncomfortable, and I received my fair share of razzing. Once I returned to my room I tried on the fit of the women’s uniform.

New Story I've started, which I'm 100% going to finish. It's not going to be a long one. I'm also posting it on wattpad if you prefer reading there. https://www.wattpad.com/story/358722560-re-education-camp Chapter 1 Get to Work I was still a bit groggy and stiff from the drugs and the long train ride from the city to the countryside. It was so strange, I was on a train, and then a bus for hours, but I can barely remember it, like I dream. The noises I could hear were getting louder, doors opening, mumbled speech, shuffling feet. I got off the bed and looked around. My room was small and spartan, though it had the clean and white style that the regime favored. I was wearing white boxers and a white undershirt, I have no idea where my clothes are, my wallet, my phone, its all confiscated, but that's the price you pay when you drop out of college and become a dissident. My smart watch was gone and had been replaced by a larger model with a steel bracelet and bigger screen. The screen had the time, it was 8:30AM, and a few numbers in the corner. There were not buttons on touching it didn’t seem to have an effect, even worse there was no way to take it off and the steel bracelet seemed incredibly durable. I saw a shadow through the small window of the door, then it opened, "EF67, put on your uniform and report to the dining hall,” said a burly guard in body armor. "Hey, what uniform, what's going on? I demand due process under the law," I said approaching the door. The guard entered the doorway, pulling a baton from his belt, I jumped back but he was too quick. A strong gloved hand took my arm and the baton landed almost gently across my chest. I felt a shock and my muscles immediately stopped functioning. He let go and I collapsed on the tiled floor, unable to move. "Your motor functions will return in 3-5 minutes, due process has been suspended for class A dissidents. Put on your uniform and report to the dining hall. You will comply," the guard said and exited the room. I laid there unable to even move my eyes, all voluntary muscle control was suspended. 'Great, they've chipped me,' I realized. When my motor functions returned I got up and explored the room. The steel door to the outside had a large window, I grabbed the handle but it wouldn’t turn. “How the hell am I supposed to leave if you locked me in!” I yelled. It was a small bedroom, padded bunk protruding from the wall. There was a toilet, wash basin, medicine cabinet, chest of drawers and closet. I opened the top left drawer and was surprised to see plain white women's panties, the drawer under that had bras. A smaller middle drawer had regular white socks and a drawer underneath it long thin white knee high socks. "What the hell?" I said. I quickly opened the right top drawer and saw plain white men's boxer shorts like the ones I was wearing, the drawer under that one was similar white undershirts. I opened up the medicine cabinet and found it stocked with menstrual pads, tampons, basic shaving and grooming supplies, and even first aid. Next I went to the closet and found that it contained several identical copies of a men’s and women’s uniform in various sizes. ‘I guess it’s a unisex room?’ I thought. The men’s outfit was a pale blue pair of coveralls and a blue ballcap. The women’s outfit was a pale pink mid length dress that buttoned up the front, hanging on the side of the women’s uniform was a pink sunbonnet. On the floor of the closet were sturdy work shoes in a selection of sizes. There was a chute near the closet labeled soiled wash, and another one labeled trash. “The regime sure likes their traditional gender roles,” I said and pulled the blue uniform off a hanger in my size and put it on. The watch buzzed on my arm and when I checked it said, “uniform connected.” I pulled on the socks and put on the shoes and both times the watch buzzed indicating I had put on clothing items. ‘This is some fancy tech for prison,’ I thought. When I returned to the door it didn’t open for me, but the monitor beeped. The screen said, “hat.” I went and put on the ballcap and then the door opened. I entered the hallway. There was a sign nearby that said men’s dining and women’s dining with corresponding arrows so I followed the men’s and arrived at another door which opened for me. Inside only a few men were eating from trays at long tables, two guards stood on either side of the room. There were trays on the counter of bland food so I took one and sat down. In a few minutes an older guy came by and sat down beside me. “Hey you’re a new guy right?” he asked. “Yeah, I just got here,” I said. “Well you’ve got a ton of work before your shift is done so you better eat quick and get started.” He pointed to a door on the opposite side of the hall from the one I entered. Go there, oh and remember don’t go too far from any paths or roads. You’re going to hear some nonsense from bums today but don’t believe it” The man said and got up taking his tray to the disposal area. “Wait what nonsense?” I asked but he was already gone. While I was eating a woman walked into the dining hall with a confused look on her face. She was round and soft looking, since I was the only person now in the dining hall she walked up to me. Umm, the woman’s dining hall wouldn’t open, but the men's door did?” she said. She was a bit overweight, and had punky style hair dyed green. It was shaved on one side and long on the other. “I guess it’s based on the uniform and you didn’t opt for the girl’s uniform,” I said with a chuckle.” “Hell no,that thing was hideous. I’m Amy by the way. What is this place.” “Re-education camp for dissidents, I’m guessing you are a protestor.” I said. “Yeah, I was in a protest when the cops showed up, but instead of just chasing everyone off they were snatching people. A cop sprayed something my face and I woke up here.” Amy explained. “Yeah, we’ve been chipped too,” I said. “I was already chipped, my parents made me two years ago,” Amy said. “Dang, thats a bummer, I’m Chris by the way. I was told by the last person to leave we should hurry,” I said. We quickly ate our breakfast and then went to the exit. It led down a long hall with a few doors that wouldn’t open for us, but the door at the end of the hall was labeled EXIT and opened to the outside, there was concrete sidewalk but surprisingly no fences. Off in the distance I could see a white building, but mostly it was countryside some of it cleared grass fields and some forested. The weather here seemed nice, to my left down the wall of the building I exited I could see a path, and no guards in sight. “I guess they aren’t worried about us running away,” but let's just see what happens.” I said and started walking off the concrete sidewalk. After maybe 20 steps I felt the start of a headache, in 5 more steps it was sharp excruciating pain. I remember what the man had told me and quickly started back toward the path, the pain disappeared. “I fucking hate these people!” I said and continued down the concrete path. In a few minutes our paths had converged. A guard was coming down the path toward us and motioned for us to continue, so we looked at each other and shrugged. “You two are running behind, you better get started quickly, let's go,” she said. We followed the woman down the path to a large gravel pad with a huge pile of gravel in the center. A small electric vehicle with a truck bed was parked nearby. Like a slightly bigger golf cart. “You need to load this truck with gravel, drive down to the site and start spreading it out. Men need to hit 3000 shovel loads before then can return for classes which start at 2PM and 4PM and you don’t want to miss classes. “Why?” I asked. “Because classes are what get you released.” “How many do I need to make?” Amy asked. “3000,” the guard said. “Yeah, but I’m a woman,” Amy replied. “You’re wearing the men’s uniform so you need 3000,” your screen will count up. “You’ll get a warning if you’re getting dehydrated and your scoops won’t count until you drink water. There is water and food on the cart,” the guard explained. “Don’t you have machines that could do this?” I asked. “Work is an important part of the program. The restroom is over there, but you have to walk. Your uniform can only unsnap in the restroom so don’t try to relieve yourself at the work site,” the guard said. I looked at the distance to the restroom, it was probably tenth of a mile, “You’re kidding, the bathroom is way up there?” A small truck was coming down a gravel road with a pair of guys in blue coveralls, they quickly backed up to the gravel pile and started shoveling furiously. They were strong and worked like someone cracked whips at their back. When they were finished loading they took off a jog down the walkway to the bathroom. I went to the small vehicle. There were work gloves and shovels in the back so I put on a pair and started loading it. Amy did the same, but neither of us was accustomed to this kind of work. The two guys were long gone and another truck had come and gone as well, but eventually we filled the small truck and I got in and started driving down the gravel road, it was only a few minutes and we arrived at a large work site, a giant excavated square perhaps a half a mile wide that might someday serve as a foundation. All over the square we could see the little trucks and teams working with shovels along with occasional guards walking about. My jaw dropped when I realized that most of the workers were women in the pink dress uniform and bonnet, “These bastards are taking mostly women as prisoners,” I said. We found a spot far away from anyone else and started unloading our gravel, I watched my counter go up as I spread the gravel. Amy struggled more than me with the work and needed to stop several times. I took a break myself and spent a few minutes observing the area. The smaller number of blue clad workers were hustling, while the pink workers were lackadaisical in their work, taking frequent breaks and meeting up in clusters to talk. Eventually a pair came driving across toward us. They climbed out of their vehicle and I immediately suspected that the driver wasn’t a woman, despite being in the dress and bonnet. The driver was taller, and had a squarish frame, their dark hair was long, but their face and body had no feminine qualities. “Hi we’re the welcoming committee," the passenger said and reached out to shake my hand. “Hi I’m Sharon and this is Lacey,” she said pointing at the driver in the pink uniform dress. He smiled and stuck out his hand as well which I noted had painted fingernails, they were both wearing makeup. “Hey, there, so as I’m sure you’ve guessed you can choose which gender uniform you want to wear,” Lacey said and did a very girly little presentation of himself and spun around smiling and giggling a bit. “Ummm, that makes no sense. I thought the Regime was all about traditional gender ideology?” Amy said. “Oh yeah, I mean, that’s one of the reasons I’m here, I was involved in women’s liberation, they actually snatched me at a Rally and brought me here,” Sharon said. “I don’t really get it either, but 1500 scoops is way better than 3000,” Lacey said. “How long have you been here?” I asked them. “It’s hard to say, the seasons don’t change much here, I was counting days but lost count. It's more than 100, I think around 120 something, so about 4 months,” Sharon answered. “So if we finish our work we go to classes? What are they like?” I asked. “I know this is going to sound stupid but they are kind of fun, we watch movies, play games, do arts and crafts,” Lacey answered. They have been brainwashed, there was no doubt about it. “Umm, that doesn’t sound like prison?” Amy said. “So you guys shouldn’t work too hard today, as long as you work a little bit the guards won’t bother you, but its too late to make your quota today so just take it easy. Tomorrow wear the pink uniform and make sure you get back to the building before 2PM so you can attend the first class.” Sharon explained. “What happens if we don’t make our Quota?” Amy asked. “Nothing, you just don’t get credit for the day, but the guards will send you back in at 6PM to eat. “What are credits?” I asked. “They’ll explain it all in class tomorrow, oh and when you’re suit tells you to drink you better drink,” Lacey said. The two looked at each other for a moment and nodded. “Even at 1500 hundred scoops it can be hard to make the quota if you take a lot of bathroom breaks. So, if you’re behind, just pee.” Lacey explained. “But these buttons don’t work, the suits are locked on,” Amy said. “Just wet yourself, the suit material dries really fast, it’s not that big of a deal,” Sharon said. “This is insane,” I told them. “I know but you get used to it, it’s not so bad, we gotta get back to work,” Sharon said as they got back in their little truck and drove off towards the gravel pile. “So the plan is to turn us into transgender bimbos?” Amy asked me when they were gone. “Yeah, I don’t know, but look around, I don’t see that many blue uniforms,” I said. “It’s like that old movie, The Matrix, you know red pill, blue pill. It’s like they are giving us a choice.” “Yeah keep your dignity and work your brains out, or lose it and get brainwashed.” “But did you see how pretty his nails were?” Amy said and we both cracked up. We took their advice and just worked easy. About every 30 minutes our screens would light up telling us to drink, and wouldn’t unlight until we finished one of the 12 ounce bottles in the cart's built-in cooler. The next trip to the gravel pile we walked down the path to the bathroom it took about 15 minutes to go and make it back. Around noon we ate the packed lunch in the cart, it was a plain sandwich and snack bar. Shortly thereafter, two guys in blue coveralls stopped next to us. They both had sweaty brows from working. “Hey there, good to see you on team blue, the driver said. “Hey thanks,” I told him. “So if you don’t want to end up a pansy fairy like most of the fags here then you best work your fucking asses off tomorrow and make quota.” The passenger said. “Oh, umm OK,” I said. “And you are welcome in blue as well Miss, we take anyone that can work. Don’t gotta have a cock to shovel,” the guys said as they drove off. We both looked at each other and shrugged. As the day wore on the work site emptied out, we seemed to be the only new people in the area. The third time I walked to the bathroom I was starting to seriously consider just letting it rip. At 4PM we were the only workers left. My counter said I had done 700 scoops, Amy had only managed 400. At 5PM the guards had all left but one, who approached us, it was the same woman who had talked to us this morning. “OK lets head back, you aren’t making your quotas today.” She said, I tried to ask questions but she shook her head. "You should receive orientation after dinner,” was all she would tell us. Once we got back inside we were greeted by a well dressed woman in a traditional dress. She led us to a small conference room. “Welcome to Camp 4, my name is Francine and I’m your orientation expert. Sorry I couldn’t make it until now. Of course you know that the latest in violence prevention technology has been installed in both of you for your safety so any attempt to harm yourselves or others will result in paralysis.” She explained. “Yeah I know how they work,” I said. “Very good, so as you can see this facility is state of the art, and will help lost souls such as you better integrate into society through education. Education is key to success. That facility is run completely by A.I. The guards are rotated through on a weekly basis and all receive their directives from the A.I. So the system is completely fair and impartial.” “Can you explain this whole pink and blue thing, it doesn’t seem much like the regime’s style?” Amy asked. “Certainly, while society needs adherence to strict gender roles we feel that those who weren’t successful in their biological gender will be more successful if they are educated in the opposite gender. If you wear the men’s uniform you will attend men’s classes, if you wear the women’s uniform you will attend women’s classes,” Francine explained. “It seems to me like this place is designed to turn us all into compliant women, who piss themselves. Why make the bathroom half a mile away, why make women do half as much work?” I asked. Francine just laughed and ignored my snarky comment. “If you make your quota tomorrow you will attend classes and earn credits. Once you earn 1000 credits you will be released and also given recompensation in the form of government sponsored housing. “I’d like to call my lawyer,” I said. “No outside contact is allowed during education.” Francine answered. “I want to call my parents,” Amy said. “Again no outside contact, do not worry, your family has been notified of your placement. You will see them again.” If you work hard you can make it in for the early 2PM class and earn 2 credits a day. That means you’ll be finished in under two years for sure.” “What if I don’t cooperate, what if I just sit in my room, will you let us starve?” I asked. “Failure to make quota and attend classes will result in your removal from this facility, and transfer into the general prison system with a sentence of 10 to 19 years for dissident activity. You are really lucky to be here and have a great opportunity to improve yourselves.” “Great,” I said, feeling defeated. Francine had food brought to us and we ate alone in the conference room. We talked for a couple hours about our lives, and made plans for tomorrow. I would continue in the male uniform and Amy would wear the female uniform so that she could make her quota then we could tell each other about the classes. Around 8 o’clock a guard told us to return to our rooms. It was surprisingly easy to fall asleep.

That's a great idea, but doesn't really fit the context of the story, plus maybe a bit extreme. I thought about using a stent in the story, but I'm not sure. First, I know several people who tell me they have used catheters to enforce 24/7 diapers on themselves, I bought some catheters several years ago to try that on myself even trying the holy foley modification. As I said I couldn't stand it though, but maybe I didn't try hard enough. People have told me they know it's there for awhile but get used to it and forget it's there. Second, I'm working on a story in which a younger ABDL guy is being slowly manipulated into increasingly more extreme diaper experiences by an older Daddy, and I want the story to be in the realm of possibility. That's why a stent seems unlikely,

I'm researching for a story, but also personally interested. My experience with catheters is pretty horrible. When I tried Foley style draining into a diaper it felt like I needed to pee all the time but couldn't which was annoying, but I'd also get spasms that weren't exactly painful, but would bring me a complete halt no matter what I was doing. Was it the wrong size, wrong ballon? to much pressure from the outlet? I'm working on a story and situation I'm wanting to explore is a person who is forced to wear diapers because of a catheter for at least several days. It seems like a long silicone intermittent cath kept in place by a chastity cage would work really well and better than a foley just hanging out. Thanks!

So when I'm working I'm pretty busy and being little doesn't factor much into my life and I don't seem to miss it that bad. As soon as work shuts down for the holidays it's like a switch goes off in my head, "BABYTIME." The last time I bought diapers was a half case from ABU last Spring. I still have 10 of those, but in the last week I've bought diapers at thrift stores, I order some Sunkiss Masterpiece diapers, a half case of Tykables Unicorns, and a case of size 7 Rascal and Friends baby diapers to use as stuffers. I've spent well over 200 bucks in the last week, and I know I'm going to feel like a POS when I go back to work. I also know that 200 dollars for what will likely bee all the diapers i need for a year isn't that big of a deal. I just wish I could stop being so hard on myself

Oh yeah, Moving is horrible, but especially bad for us. I have three separate wardrobes, my everyday clothes. A huge collection female clothes, then a decent collection of Sissy and ABDL clothes. Then there were boxes and boxes of disposable diapers, cloth diapers, baby stuff. My move was only half hour away, but I did it all myself with the help of family so I had to get all the girl and baby boxes stashed away myself early.

Alley saw flashing lights, colors spinning, a chorus of voices telling her over and over again that she was perfect, a princess, a little princess. So much pink, so much cuteness, so perfectly soft and delicate then it was over. Meanwhile Alley awakes to the sounds of birds chirping, and light pouring into the room. The room is decorated in soft colors, with a toddler bed, dresser, and play area. Everything is pastel, frilly, girly and cute. Disney princesses adorning the walls and decorations. "What in the world," Alley says and sits up and tries to remember where she is. She sits up in her fluffy princess canopy bed and looks down to see she is wearing an adult sized Cinderella nightgown and feels something thick but soft between her legs. She lifts up the nightgown to find she is wearing an adult sized Disney Pull-up complete with Frozen character designs, and her skin is silky smooth. Her breasts have shrunk a cup size, and are perky. Her hair has grown an inch and has a softer childish feel. . "How did I get here," Alley asks herself, "Am I in a simulation, no that can't be.'' She looked around and triesdto get out of the bed, it's very tall and a long way down and she feels it's a bit scary, but she feels like this is something she can do and slides down to the floor. Alley is filled with wonder when she sees the room, it's so cute. There is a tall mirror in the corner and she hurries over to look at herself. "Whoa, I'm super cute," Alley says. "I think my breasts are smaller, but they look good.” Alley looks around the room, it's full of dolls, stuffed animals, a large changing table, a wardrobe, and a toy chest. "Wow, I thought we were doing Star wars? This must be the new program. It looks fun, but it feels so real." Alley is distracted by the sound of her stomach growling and is confused,. "I must be really hungry." she says. She wanders over to the window and looks outside. "Wow, big green lawn, a princess play castle, and a huge tree house," she says. "This must be a new simulation." Alley heard footsteps and a knock on the door, "Princess, are you awake." "Umm, yes, who is it?" "It's me, your nanny, can I come in, it will be time for breakfast soon?" "Yes, please come in," Alley says and watches as a plain faced woman in her late 40s opens the door, she is dressed in a light blue dress, with white apron, her hair is bound in a tight bun, she smiles warmly and exudes love. "Good morning Princess, are you ready to start your day," she says in a British accent. Alley isn't sure what to do, and looks bashful. "Aww, don't worry princess, I'm here to help, and we're going to have so much fun," the nanny says. She enters the room and lifts Alleys nightgown up, with her other hand she squeezes the crotch of her pull-up. "Oh my Princess, you've had a dry night, you really are ready for Pull-Ups aren't you?" Alley feels embarrassed but then a warm feeling flows over her. "Thank you," she says. She suddenly remembers her friends, "Umm, where are Nick, Tom, and Diane?" "Lets go check on them, they are in the nursery," Nanny says and extends her hand to Alley. She is a bit confused why they would be in the nursery but she’ll find out, she takes the hand and goes with the nice woman. "Come along dear, you've got a big day ahead of you." They leave the bedroom and walk down the hallway and enter into a large room that is set up like a nursery, but everything is sized for adults, she hears her friends talking, but the lights are off and she can't make out much detail. "Nanny, where am I, is this a simulation," Alley asks, and feels very confused. "No, silly goose, this is not a simulation, you've been reborn. You are a Princess now, and your friends are babies now, for you to play with," Nanny says as she turns on the lights. "Babies," Alley asks. "Yes, see," Nanny says and Alley sees her friends, Tom, Diane and Nick, they are all in a large crib that takes up an entire corner of the room. Besides the crib there is a floor mat play area, and a small kitchen, and changing table. Another small crib is off the to the side. "Hi guys, is this some kind of weird simulation?" Alley asks. "Umm, no, Alley, this is real, but I'm not sure what's going on," Nick says.Alley and the nanny walk closer to the crib. "Don't you remember we were kidnapped by those men, and this is some kind of sick game," Diane says. "Kidnapped, no I don't remember anything like that, I was sleeping, and I woke up here, it seems like a simulation, but it's not," Alley says. "That's right, princess, your mind has been reset, and your body changed. All of you have been changed, but since Alley here was the sweetest she was the easiest to change and now she likes her new self, Don't you Princess?" Nanny asks. "I think I like it here, but this seems crazy, and where are we?" Alley asks. "Your home princess," Nanny answers. "Alley, don't let them brainwash you help us out of here? We have to escape," Nick yells. "But I don't want to escape I just got here," Alley says. "That's my Princess," Nanny says, "You're safe now, and you will always be safe, and your friends will learn to enjoy their new lives," Nanny says. Alley looks over her friends and takes in their changes, "Oh my gosh Nick you look so pretty like a sissy, and Tom you look cute as a button, and Diane, your face is so smooth.” . "Alley, don't freak out, you're different too, your hair, and umm, other things are different," Nick says. "I don't mind," Alley says. "Alley help me out of the crib!" Nick yells as he tries to climb out. Alley watches him with amusement and laughs, "Oh the big strong boy can't get out by himself." "OK kids, it's time to get ready for the day, and then we can play, I'm sure your tummies are hungry and your little bladders full. I'll be taking Princess Alley back to her bedroom to get dressed. Mistress and your nurses will be down shortly to get you ready for breakfast. Say goodbye to the babies Alley." Nanny said. "Bye, bye," Alley says. "Alley wait," Nick pleads. Alley looks at Nick and waves, and the Nanny takes her hand and leads her back to her bedroom. "She gets her own bedroom, this is bullshit," Diane yelled as Alley and Nanny left the Nursery. "We have to get out of here," Tom says. "I'll help, but they are going to have to take off these locks, I can't take off the romper and I can't get out of the crib. Maybe if all three of us try," Nick says. Tom seems distracted, his face is one of concentration, he has a sudden strong need to pee and "Oh, no," Tom says and holds his penis in his hands under a blanket "What," Nick asked. Nick is squeezing down on his penis but it starts to burn and he lets off, A moment later his hand is wet as he loses control, Nick and DIane see the blanket that Tom had wrapped around himself get a yellow stain in the front, Tom clamps down on his penis to stop the flow, but the damage is done, the blanket is stained and he can't stop it. Nick and Diane can hear the pee flowing out and creating a stain all over the blankets on the crib floor. "Tom, how could you," Diane says. "Guys, I couldn't hold it, I tried I really did, but I couldn't stop it." "Ok, we have to get out of here before they do to us what they did to Alley," Nick says. "Yeah," Diane and Tom agree. "We could..." Diane stops in mid sentence and places both hands on her thickly diapered crotch. "Diane, don't," Nick says, but it's too late and a dark yellow spot forms on her diaper, and within seconds it is completely saturated. "Oh God," Diane says, "but at least I didn't make a puddle." “They've drugged us or hypnotized us, and it's making us piss our pants." Nick says. "What are we going to do, they are coming, what should we say," Tom says. "We tell them the truth, that we want to leave," Nick says. "My Dad has money, he's got connections he can..." Nick suddenly feels the same overwhelming need to pee and then feels himself lose control, a warm wet sensation fills his diaper and he suddenly can't remember the point he was trying as three woman approach the crib. "Hello babies," the mistress says, and then her voice changes from a high pitched sing song tone, "we know you are not ready to accept your new life, but you will." The nurse turns the lights on, and all of the babies are taken aback, the nursery is so bright and colorful, and incredibly realistic, everything from the play area with giant baby toys, the small classroom setting with adult sized tables and chairs that look like they are made from crayons, and the changing area which is fully stocked with diapers, wipes, lotions and creams. "I bet you're all ready for a fresh diaper, and to get something to eat," Mistress says. "What the hell is going on!," Diane yells. "What is the meaning of this! Who are you people, and what do you want?" Nick added. The mistress laughs and looks at Nick, "Oh you silly boy, I'm your mother and your mistress, and this is your nursery." "What, no way, you can't be serious," Nick says. The woman who seems to be in charge, had long dark hair was was wearing a tight business dress. She was flanked by two woman wearing pink fetish maid outfits, complete with long stockings and garter belts. They have frilly aprons and lacey headbands One has red hair and one blond. They have large breasts that are barely contained in the gathered bodices of their dresses. "Ok, so, you're not my mistress, and you are certainly not my Mom, but what is this place, why did you do this, and what happened to my girlfriend, she’s acting different. "Baby, your new mommy did this to help you, your friends are babies just like you, and your girlfriend is a baby princess now,” The Mistress said in a mocking voice as if talking to a baby. "You've got to be kidding, that's not a baby, and not my girlfriend, and if this is some kind of perverted sex dungeon." "Actually this isn't a sex dungeon at all, but this is where we train new baby slaves whereever your new owners see fit to keep you," the Mistress says. "No," Diane says. "Yes," Mistress replies. "This is crazy," Tom says. "I'm not a baby and I’m not any ones slave!" Nick yells. "Well, the good news is we have all the time in the world to help you become happy healthy babies, and when we're done you'll not only thank us for it, but you won't even remember being adults." The mistress takes a step forward and looks into the crib. "Somone has been naughty and taken their diapers off, and another someone has already had a wetting accident," she says. "It wasn't my fault," Tom says, and looks at the ground. "Naughty babies who aren't in diapers are punished. Rule number one is you don't take off your diapers. Nurse please restrain Tommy. "Yes, Mistress," the nurse with red hair says. "No, what, don't," Tom yells as the nurse grabs him, Diane grabs on to Tom's leg but she is unable to resist and is pushed back into the crib. "What are you going to do," Nick yells, but he is ignored. The nurse pulls Tom out of the crib, and stands him up completely naked in front of the mistress. Tom places his hands in front of his manhood to hide his shame but the Mistress grabs his wrist and spins him around, "Since this is your first misdeed the punishment will be a simple spanking," she says as she is handed a wooden paddle by the blond nurse. "You’re kidding, get the f**k off me," Tom yells. "Oh yes," she says, and slaps the paddle hard against Tom's bare bottom. "Ouch," Tom says, and moves to cover his bottom with his hands. The red haired Nurse pulls his hand away, and the Mistress lays another sharp blow against Tom's bottom. "This is for your own good Tommy, you must learn to follow the rules," The mistress says as several sharp powerful blows rain down on Tom's bottom. "Ok, stop, stop," Tom yells, "I'll put on a diaper, I promise." "Not good enough," Mistress says, and continues to paddle Tom's ass. Tom feels his face scrunch up, like a child he can't control his emotions, the spanking hurts but it's more than just physical pain, it's deep humiliation that leads Tom to cry out like a toddler, he knows this is not how he would react but he can’t help it. "Oh, oh, no, please, oww, stop, please," Tom pleads. The spanking goes on for a full minute, and the Mistress's blows get harder and more frequent. Tom's behind is now glowing a warm red and he is crying like a child. "Ok, you've learned your lesson, haven't you baby," the mistress says, and the paddle drops. "Yes, mistress, I'm a naughty baby," Tom says between sniffles. "Good, now nurse lets get little Tommy back in diapers before he has another accident," Diane and Nick watch in silence as their friend is led across the room to the changing area and placed on the changing table. "Don't forget the baby powder, and mittens so he can't take his diaper off again, oh and I think he deserves a pacifier after that," the Mistress says and the red haired nurse gets to work. "Now, for the rest of you, if you're going to be good babies, you won't have to experience that kind of punishment." The Mistress turns to the blond nurse and says, "Please check them and if they aren't too wet bring them up for breakfast and don't forget to bring Timtim." "Yes, mistress," the blond nurse says. Mistress walks to the door and stops and looks back at the two young adults standing in the crib. Nick looks her in the eyes and stares daggers, but Diane looks at the ground, embarrassed. She smiles a wicked grin and heads out the Nursery door. The blond nurse reaches over the crib bars and says "Alrighty little ones, lets see how wet you are." "Don't touch me," Nick yells and the nurse grabs his wrist and pulls him forward. "Nick, stop," Diane yells, "you'll only get yourself hurt." "Good girl, come with me," the nurse says, and lifts Diane out of the crib, she places a hand under her crotch and feels. Diane freezes and blushes as the diaper check arouses her sensitive parts. "You're just a little wet sweetie, no need to change yet, just sit here for a minute while I check on Nicky." "Ok," Diane says, and sits down at the play area, she watches the nurse pull Nick out of the crib. Nick's face is flushed with anger, and the nurse easily overpowers him and checks his diaper underneath the PVC romper. "Yeap, you're just a little wet too, making it easy on your nurse this morning sweetie. It won't be long until you are enjoying your morning checks. It looks like Tommy is ready as well." Tommy is led up to the group by the Red headed nurse, he's now wearing a fresh diaper, mittens and he's suckling a pacifier that is leashed to his T-shirt. He is embarrassed and looks down. The blond nurse goes over to the much smaller crib in the corner and helps a sleepy boy who looks to be around 20 out of the crib and on his feet. "Good morning Timtim, did you have a good night's sleep," the blond nurse asks the boy. "Nurse Nurse!" Timtim yells with excitement and buries his face in her ample bosom. "Ahh Good morning sweetheart," The blond nurse says as she hugs him and with a free hand checks the back of his diaper. Which is wet and saggy, "you have a very messy diaper, time for a change, come with me," the blond nurse says. "Ok, Ok, Nurse Nurse," Timtim replies. Nick, Diane and Tom watch in horror as the nurse easily picks up the boy, who is wearing nothing but his stained saggy diaper, they can now smell the stinky poo as it drifts across the room. Timtim realizes he forgot his pacifier and reaches back into the crib for it but can't reach. "Uhh, pacy, pacy," Timtim yells while pointing into the crib. The blond nurse smiles and hands Timtim his pacifier. "Yum yum," Timtim says as he pops it in his mouth. "What have they done to him," Tom asks. "Shh, quiet, we don't want to anger the nurse," Diane says. "Go ahead and take the new ones up to breakfast I'll change mush tush here and be right behind," the blond nurse says. "Nurse nurse, ugh, mushy tummy," Timtim says. "Oh, poor baby, did you drink your bottle of milk last night," the nurse asks, and Timtim shakes his head no. "I hope you don't have a yucky tummy day for both our sakes." "No no," Timtim says. "Lets go to the changing table," The blond nurse says, and caries the small boy to the changing table. "Lets go kiddos," the Red haired nurse says and takes Nick and Diane by the hand, follow us Tommy," she says. . As the group leaves the nursery they can hear the blond nurse singing, "Timmie had a messy diaper, and it was all yucky and icky and smelly, but he was a good boy and he went poopoo, and let nurse nurse clean up his diaper and make him nice and clean." "I don't believe this," Nick says. "It is quite shocking, but you'll learn to love your life as a baby, trust me, and you'll be happy." The Red haired nurse said. *** Back in her bedroom with her Nanny Alley stands in front of the closet looking at all the cute dresses inside, "You mean I can pick anyone I want?" "Of course my princess, today is the first day of your new life and you can start by choosing a new dress, some shoes, and maybe some accessories," the nanny says. "But I can't choose, there are so many to choose from." "Well Nanny will help you, how about this super cute pink one?" The Nanny pulls out a frilly pink dress with puffy princess sleeves and delicate lace accents and shows it to Alley who's face lights up. "Oh, it's so beautiful, and soft, and the lace, and it's so pretty." "Do you want to try it on, maybe with some new white tights, and the shiny pink shoes that match it," the Nanny says. "Yes Nanny, thank you," Alley says, and gives the nanny a big hug. "Ok sweetie, but do you need to do something first?" Nanny asks. "Uhm, no?" "Aren't we supposed to be potty training, princess?" "Oh," Alley says and looks over at the bathroom door. "I think I do kinda need to go." "Lets go try, and remember we want to go potty like a big girl." "I can do it," Alley says and runs off into the bathroom. Alley sees that instead of the toilet there is a pink princess training potty with a cute handle. She pulls off her nightgown and slings it on the floor then slides her pull-up down and begins to tinkle in the potty. Once finished she gets up and sees her naked body in the mirror. "Wait this isn't right, why am I going along with this?" Alley quickly puts the nightgown on and decides to get some answers. "Oh good job sweetie, I heard you tinkle." the nanny says as Alley exits the bathroom with a confused look on her face. "No, you need to answer some questions. What's going on, why is everyone acting like I'm a baby, why do I keep calling you nanny? "Oh dear, we've already had this talk, I'm afraid you're a bit confused, come sit down with Nanny and I'll help you remember." "I don't want to sit down, I want to know what's going on, and why I'm in this crazy place, and who are those other women we saw?" "Oh that was the mistress, you'll get used to her soon enough, but she wants you to be her perfect little princess, so please do your best to remember everything." "But..." Alley is cut off by the nanny. "Now, first question, we have already talked about this, you are a baby girl, and that is all you are, no matter what your age was when you got here. But you're not like the others, you are a toddler, you're more advanced than the others and the mistress is proud of your progress." "Others, you mean Tom, and Nick, and Diane, what have you done to them?" "Shh, it's ok sweetie, no yelling, we don't want to get the mistress angry, and it's not correct for Princesses to yell. Nanny raises her voice and begins to speak hypnotically. You are special, the others are babies, but you are a Princess, just listen to the sound of my voice and remember all the talks we've had, and be calm. You are a beautiful little princess, and you are happy here." Alley feels a calmness come over her, "Yes, yes, I'm a Princess, and I'm happy here," Alley says. "That's a good girl, and you will do whatever Nanny tells you, and be the perfect little princess won't you." "Yes, I will, I will," Alley says. "So let's go get dressed, and have some fun, and have some yummy breakfast, and maybe go out and play. "Yay," Alley says, "But wait, what happened to my friends?" "They're happy, they're being changed into babies, and will be your friends and playmates." "That's nice," Alley says, and starts humming the lullaby song. "Now lets get you dressed." "Oh, I'm so excited, I'm so excited, and hungry," Alley says. Nanny helps her into the dress, and slides the tights up her legs, and puts the shiny pink shoes on her feet. Finally she places a tiara on her head. "Perfect now you're the most beautiful princess, now let's go eat." "Yay, lets go, Nanny, I'm so hungry." "I can tell sweetie, your tummy is making noises."

(I've been writing a new story using novelai. Most of the actual text is mine, as I've found that the ai software, needs alot of help.) I've currently written about 25,000 words and this is the first 4000.) It was early, or at least early enough for Las Vegas standards, 10 AM. It was late last night when Nick, Alley, Tom and Diane had all gone out together and had a couple of drinks. Nick says, "Guys I can't believe we are here, it's Vegas Baby!" They walk through the casino, the sounds of slot machines ringing. Diane says, "What are we doing today, what's first?" Nick says, "I think we should head over to the hotel and check in." Tom askes, "OK so when are we doing this VR thing, I'm really stoked to try it?" Alley follows behind, distracted as she is doing some searches on her i-tap and half her vision is filled with a list of girly boutiques she'd like to shop at. Diane and Tom are holding hands. Tom asks, "Hey are you coming with us?" Alley responds, "Uh, sure. We should do something first right, I mean isn't that why we came to Vegas?" Nick turns back and looks annoyed and says, "OK, so let me guess you want to go shopping?" Alley snaps out of her reverie and responds, "No, well I mean not yet, but it would be good to see some stores and then after the VR I'd like to check out some places. Diane checks the VR hotel on her i-tap and tells the group, "Guys its 10AM we can't even check in until 3PM and the VR doesn't start until 5PM, so we have plenty of time. Alley, where do you want to go?" Alley thinks about it for a moment and says, "Well there is a nice shopping area near the hotel called the Fashion District. I looked at a map and it seems to have some cool shops, plus I can grab some food. Nick gives Diane an annoyed look, and she responds with a sarcastic grin, "OK, yeah, that sounds good, you guys hit up Fashion District and Tom and I will go the sci-fi museum, right buddy?" Tom says, "Uh, Yeah I guess that sounds fine. Alley you have a map in your i-tap?" Alley nods yes. As they get to the main entrance of the casino and step out onto the hot Las Vegas day and see a massive crowd of people. There are signs for a concert at the hotel, a massive pop-star, the music can be heard even where they are. Tom says, "Wow, it's busy." "OK, lets meet up at 1 PM for some food, how about a Chinese buffet?" Diane asks. Nick responds, "Sounds good, see you later guys." Alley and Diane, walk off towards the Fashion District, while Nick calls an uber with his i-tap. "Dude, look at that old guy over there with the phone, wow, even here in Vegas there are old fashioned people." Nick says as he points at the man with the phone. "Oh yeah, that's crazy, I wonder how old he is?" Tom responds. "He has to be like 45 or something, what a dinosaur. Hey, check it out, that's our ride," Nick points to a red car and the two men jump in. *** Later that evening. Nick, Tom and Alley and Diane, have completed their check-in at the VR hotel, and are walking to the intake center. The place is mostly empty as a majority of the clients purchase short 2 or 3 hour sessions during the day and not the expensive overnight session that Nick has purchased. The group had been arguing for an hour about which simulation to enter. Nick stops and turns to Diane, "I'm just saying, you picked that restaurant and it was horrible, so why don't you just let me pick the simulation." Alley adds, "I liked the restaurant, I'm sorry that you didn't. Anyway, I don't know why you guys are fighting, the fact is Tom and I don't have an opinion and which simulation we do, as long as it's not too violent or confusing. So just make up your minds." "I just think we should try a star wars, where we can fly star ships, and stuff," Nick says. Tom adds, "Yeah, but we could just watch the movies, it would be alot cheaper.” “Bro, I told you my Dad hooked us up, he’s like a shareholder or something, don’t worry.” Diane said, “I'm sure you would prefer some Science Fiction nonsense, but Alley and I would prefer Rivendell." "I don't care, it's your decision." Alley said. The group enters into the VR lobby, it's a stark white environment, like a medical office. A middle aged woman is behind the counter smiling. She is wearing a stark white uniform and smiles professionally as the younger group walks up to the counter arguing. "Hello, welcome to AVR, my name is Jennifer, and I will be your technician for today's experience, please state your name and reservation code." Nick, still annoyed, says, "Hi Jennifer, I'm Nick, umm. I don't have my code." Jennifer professionally hides the annoyance from her voice, "Can you check your email on your i-tap sir, the confirmation code will be there." "Look, I'm Nick Lutz, and I've signed up and paid for a group session for 4. Here are the 4 of us, can't you just look up my name or something." "Yes sir, Mr. Lutz. Please give me one minute to look up your reservation." Alley steps up, "Hi Jennifer, can I ask a quick question? We can't seem to agree on the simulation, I'd like a fantasy simulation and he," Alley points at Nick, would like to do Star Wars. Jennifer is distracted by the question while trying to look up Nick's information. She finds herself growing more annoyed at these rude young people. "Excuse me ma'am, I need a minute to find the reservation. Then I'll be happy to answer." Another technician who had been listening in, steps forward and says, "Hi, my name is David and I'm the manager on duty, I'd be happy to answer your question." "Yes, David, thank you. Some of us want to do a fantasy simulation and the guys would prefer something in the Sci-Fi genre, any chance we could do both?" Diane asks. David answers, "Actually, we have a special today, if you purchase 4 sessions. Oh wait, no you paid for the group discount, you have to all do the same simulation. I'm sorry. These sims use tremendous computing power. You would not believe the electricity and heat load of this place. Sorry, we can't offer two." Tom adds, "How much would it cost to do two?" David smiles, "Well, the 12 hour hour package you’ve already paid for would be $1000." Tom feels his throat gulp, "Oh, umm... yeah that's alot of money." "OK I have your reservation here sir, but I still need that confirmation code for security purposes." Jennifer says. "Geeze, fine," Nick says and uses his i-tap to fill his vision with his email account, he finds the message from AVR and reads off the 6 digit code to Jennifer." Jennifer types the code and then says, "I have you and 3 others, can I have their names?" "Alley, Diane and Tom," Nick responds. "OK, looks like the decision is already made, the science fiction simulation has already been selected when the reservation was made." "You mean we've been arguing about this for an hour and you already made the decision!" Diane yells at Nick. Nick responds, "Whatever, I can't be held responsible, I asked what you wanted and you didn't respond, so I made a decision. Listen Jennifer, my friends are being idiots and my girlfriend would rather do Rivendell, whatever the hell that is, so just change it.” “I’m sorry sir, I can’t it’s already loaded, there will be a substantial delay,” Jennifer said. "Guys, calm down. OK, I'm ready for space ships or whatever." Alley says. David gives Jennifer a stern look, "Guess you’re off the hook, You think you can handle it from here?" he asks. "Yes, David, no problem. Please continue." Jennifer says. Nick is looking annoyed again, and David notices, and says, "You'll have a good time, the system is fantastic, and I guarantee you won't know you are inside the simulation. Jenn, I'm heading out for the night, I trust you'll take good care of these folks." David says and exits the room. "Thanks, David. Yes, sir, I'll take good care of them." Jennifer says and the group all notice a hint of sarcasm. "OK, please follow me," Jennifer leads the group into a side door with modern smoky glass windows. There is a conference table and comfy chairs, "Please have a seat." "Now, a few questions first, how many of you are virgins to Advanced VR?" Alley, Tom and Diane all raise their hands. "Ok, you're not alone, VR has come a long way since the days of goggles, and now thanks to the i-tap our system can connect directly with your senses and provide a very vivid dream-like experience. So, the only way to truly experience this is to do so. Just remember that while things will seem very real to you, they are not real. For instance you may get hit with a stormtrooper blaster, and you'll feel a sting, but you're not really hurt. The simulation will also make sure that you don't die." "What if I jump off a cliff?" Diane asks. "If the simulation allows it, you'll jump off a cliff. And if you would die from a fall, you won't, instead you'll just have a rough landing, maybe feel a bit shook up," Jennifer answers. "OK, I think we get it, can we start now?" Nick asks. "Of course, but because you've paid for a premium overnight simulation, there is the matter of protection." "What do you mean by protection?" Tom asks. "Well, in order for the VR experience to be authentic, the body will react the way it normally would, and so in order to preserve the authenticity of the experience, you will need protection." "What kind of protection?" Alley asks. "We have a variety, in the restrooms you will find shelves with pull on and tabbed briefs of different sizes and absorbencies, I recommend the thicker ones for an overnight experience." Jennifer explains. "You mean like diapers?" Tom asks. Jennifer smiles, "Yes, they're not really diapers, but they work similarly. I'm sorry, I didn't catch your name." "I'm Tom and there is no way I'm wearing a diaper," he says. Jennifer's face becomes stern, "Did any of you not even read a brochure, or look us up online, the overnight experience makes it clear that you will have to wear protection.” “I didn’t read that, no one told me,” Tom said. “Sir, this is the standard procedure. You signed an agreement, if you can't do it, you will not be able to participate in the simulation." Diane is annoyed and says, "Let's get this started." "Nick you didn't say anything about diapers, and you said you did this before?" Alley asks. "Umm, I just did a one hour session, but the website said nothing about diapers." "It's there, you just didn't read it, Sir," Jennifer says, "I'm sorry, I need a verbal agreement from everyone, or we will not start." Nick is clearly annoyed, "Fine, whatever." "Great, go on and get changed, make sure you have a bowel movement if you need to and after you've put on your briefs leave your clothes in the cubicles and put on the robes. I'm working overnight, and part of my job is to monitor your health, so if I find you need changed I'll take care of that. Also if I find out that you've not put on your brief, I'll just put one on you." "Wow, this is a little embarrassing," Alley says. Nick adds, "I know, but its worth it, I did it before and it's amazing." The guys and girls split off to the men's and women's room to change. Tom walks in the Men's Room and looks around, he sees a shelf with 20 or so adult briefs, and they are not what he expected. Instead of being a diaper with tapes, they are like the kind of underwear you would wear as a child, they just slide up and even feel like cloth. "This isn't so bad I guess," he says. He quickly puts on his brief and walks out. . Alley enters the women's room and is shocked. She was expecting a bunch of diapers, but the shelves have a large variety of styles. The briefs are just like the ones the men are using. "This is pretty weird, but I'll give it a try." She removes her clothing and slides on the brief, "Wow, this feels a little weird, and why did they have to make the print pink," she says. "Oh, come on, pink is your favorite color, you're the most girly girl I know," Diane replies. "True," Alley says from her stall as she slides the brief up her legs and ties the robe on. The group meets back up in the conference room and Jennifer nodes in approval. "OK guys, let me show you the next step, follow me." Jennifer leads the group into a room with four medical style beds, beside each bed is a high tech plastic device on wheels with a digital readout. The room is stark white, perfectly clean and modern. Each of the plastic machines has a thick cord of cables that all run into a computer in the corner of the room. "Please lie down on the bed." Jennifer instructs. Nick and Tom and the girls climb up onto the beds and Jennifer places the device over them and attaches a number of leads to their heads. That interact with the subdermally implanted i-tap devices. Each device had a band that wrapped around their forearm connected with a cable. "You'll feel a tiny bit of pain." She said as a small needle in the band punctured a vein and injected sedatives. For the 12 hour sessions clients would be given a continuous stream of light sedatives, fluids, and sugar. "Now, there are a couple things that you need to know, first off, once I turn on the machine and you enter the simulation, you will not be able to see me. It is extremely important that if you feel a sense of distress or panic, and need help, you just relax. Your simulations are so real that once you enter you won't be able to leave. In fact, you won't even remember you're in a simulation. But you have a safety switch, if you say 'help Jennifer' your simulation will stop and I'll come and talk you through. Just relax and try not to panic, and remember "Help Jennifer." "Wait, is this safe?" Diane asks. "100 percent safe. Now, let's begin. Remember, if you need help, say 'Help Jennifer,' and I'll be there. You're going to be asked to confirm that you are entering AVR and giving consent for our systems to interact with your i-taps. Once that happens the machine will administer a light sedative to help you enter a dream-like state where the simulation takes over." "Can't you just send us directly into the simulation," Tom asks. "That's the next generation of AVR, which is not ready yet. Just click OK, when prompted." Alley see's a wall of text in her vision that replaces the white plastic device hovering above her head. Her AI assistant assures her it's just a standard agreement so she focuses on the OK button and clicks yes. A red light on the plastic device over her head turns green. Soon everyone's devices are green. "Now, it's going to feel like you are drifting off to sleep, don't be alarmed, everything is fine." Jennifer says. Nick closes his eyes, and soon his breathing is steady, and he is asleep, a few minutes later everyone is out. "Geez what a bunch of spoiled brats," Jennifer says. "You know it is my last day here, I could teach these kids a lesson." she continues. She checks their vitals on her tablet and they are all fine. Jennifer goes over the computer which has the Science Fiction simulation loaded. She enters a password that she's seen David use several times and brings up the program index and goes to the kink simulations. As she looks through the list her eyes settle on the most humiliating one in their catalog. Jennifer goes in to adjust some of the settings. "Yeah Nick, you were the biggest jerk, and Alley, you seemed nice enough. "You guys are going to hate this," Jennifer says and chuckles then uses the mouse to click Start simulation sending the group into the "Naughty Nursery" program. Diane is rudely awakened by someone placing zip tie cuffs on her arms. She feels the sensors being yanked off her body and is jerked up. She looks around and sees the same thing is happening to Nick, Tom and Alley. "Wait, what the hell is this," Diane yells. A large muscular man is holding her zip ties. "Hush now baby, just relax, Big Daddy is here to take care of you" He says. "Look, I'm an adult, what is going on?" The man laughs, "You were an adult, not any more, the Mistress will fix that." He produces a large metal syringe and pushes the plunger. Diane feels her muscles loosen. She see's Tom try to knock his attacker's syringe away, but his arm doesn't move, and the injection is administered. "I don't understand, what are you doing to us?" Alley asks as she begins to lose consciousness. "Just take a nap," the orderly says and Diane feels herself drifting down. "I've got a special surprise for you Nick," Big Daddy says and pulls out a larger 3 inch needle, "It's a special cocktail, guaranteed to make you a pussy." The orderly holding Nick laughs and he is injected with the special cocktail. Nick is confused as his muscles go limp. He tries to resist but can't and as he's falling asleep. Everything turns black. "Guys, I think I had a bad trip, where are we," Nick says as he sits up in the crib, but something isn't right. Tom and Alley are still wake, and then realize they are sitting up in a giant baby crib.. As Nick's vision clears he is in disbelief at what they are wearing, Diane is wearing stretchy girls sleeper pajamas with rainbows and unicorn print, it's obvious she is wearing a thick diaper underneath. Tom has a t-shirt with a cute truck and a name, he lsqunts and reads, "Tomy. on his shirt. His diaper is out in the open and is an exact replica of a baby diaper complete with sesame street characters. "Where is Alley?" Nick asked. Diane looks around the crib and sees a small toy mirror attached to the bars, she looks and is mortified, "No, No what am I wearing, NO." Tom finally is able to sit up, and notices his diaper and looks around, and says, "Nick, what the fuck is this, where are we, and where is Alley?" "I don't know, but it seems like a nightmare, what the hell was in those shots," Nick answers. "I thought I was in a VR Simulation," Diane says. "Me too, I think we're all dreaming, this isn't real," Tom says. "Well I sure as hell hope it isn't real have you seen what you're wearing?" Tom asks. "I'd rather not," Nick says, but he looks in the mirror and sees he is wearing a very sissy blue and pink plastic bubble romper. Embroidered in the front of the chest it says 'Sissy' in flowing letters. "What the fuck is this shit?" "Yeah, this place looks like a nursery, and we're the babies" Tom says. Diane is freaking out, "What's wrong with you guys, look at this," She points at the diaper that is stretching her sleeper pajamas out. Tom tries to comfort Diane, "Hey, its ok, maybe they just loaded the wrong simulation?" "Nick, is that a pacifier clipped to your outfit?" Diane asks. Nick realizes he has a clip on pacifier, and reaches for it. He tries to yank it off, but it's clipped on, he removes the clip but it seems much more difficult than it should have been. "Damn it," Nick says. "Nick, I think you need this," Tom says. Nick ignores Tom and throws the pacifier across the room. "Ok, let's see if there is a way out," Nick says and looks over the bars of his crib. He stands up on the soft bedding and tries to pull himself over the bars of the crib. This should be easy for an athlete like Nick, but he can't seem to get a grip and pull himself up. "Shit, my muscles must still be out, come on help me over the bars," Nick says to Tom. "Ok," Tom says. Tom tries to lift Nick over the bars, and after a lot of struggling they are unable. "Umm, guys, we're different, my strength is way down," Tom says. "It's the drugs, just relax, let's not panic, we're probably still dreaming." "Maybe it's not a dream," Diane says. "Look at your arms, there is no hair on them," Diane says. The two men look at their arms, and their legs and sure enough their bodies have become more youthful. "That's strange, but let's not worry about that now," Nick says. "Oh and Nick, your hair is kind of feminine, it's a little longer and cute looking. And Tom, yours is longer but in a little boy way, its cute," Diane says. Nick and Tom are in shock and both look at each other and then their hair, but they are interrupted. "OK, I'm done with this shit," Nick says and tries to rip off the plastic romper he is wearing, but his strength is not what it was; the fabric stretches, and he can't tear the outfit off. He sees the the romper is snapped around his legs but it's held on with little locks. "What the fuck is going on!" Nick yells in frustration. "Guys, I don't think this is a simulation, this is real," Diane says. "Well whatever is going on I'm not playing." Tom eventually gets under a blanket. and pulls the diaper off down his legs. He wraps the blanket around his waist. "You're right, why don't we just wake up from this crazy nightmare and get the hell out of here," Tom says. "That's a great idea," Diane says. "Oh I remember, Help Jennifer," Diane says, but nothing happens. "That's right, help Jennifer." Nick repeats and again nothing happens. "Guys I don't think this is a simulation, I don't remember the one I did feel this real, and the last thing I remember is entering a room and falling asleep, maybe we were drugged." "This isn't possible, we were in a simulation center, how can we have been drugged?" Tom asks. "You guys, did you see those big needles they injected into our arms, what did they give us?" Diane says. "They had to have been huge," Nick says. "I wonder where Alley is?" he asks. "I don't know, let's look for her," Tom says and they all begin to crawl around the crib, which is filled with baby toys, soft pillows and blankets. "I'm worried about Alley," Nick says, and then looks at Diane, "Diane, did you see what happened to Alley?" Nick asks. "The same thing that happened to us, but she's not here," Diane says. "I wonder if this is some sort of sick game, do you think someone is trying to get revenge?" Tom asks. "Maybe that bitch Jennifer sold us out," Nick says. "You mean the nice lady that ran the simulation, why would she do that, we didn't know her?" Diane asks. "I don't know, let's just figure a way out of here."

My experience is exactly that. Without kids in my live I've had much more opportunity to wear than what many married men get. During my 20s my wife worked nights and I worked days so it was, work, home, diaper, gratification, followed with shame and negative feelings. It was all about arousal and the thought of wearing 24/7 was nothing but a fantasy. Over time I explored my ABDL side more and more I found more acceptance, I started wearing more frequently around my wife, who knew and tolerated but didn't want to be involved. I had always felt too ashamed to wear when she was home. During the pandemic lockdown I started wearing almost 24/7 for awhile. I'd never been able to sleep with a diaper on, I was just too aroused and excited, not just sexually either. It took a couple weeks and several sleepless nights, but soon I could comfortably fall sleep in diapers. After several weeks of wearing diapers most of the time the arousal factor really decreased, but the comfort factor went up. When I returned to work in 2020 after lockdown it was a very different environment and all the reasons I'd given myself to not wear diapers to work were gone since I was working nearly alone. During this time diapers really changed for me, going from a fetish object to just a normal part of my wardrobe. I remember one day going to the urinal at work, unzipping my pants and being surprised I was wearing a diaper. I wouldn't say arousal from diapers completely disappeared, but it was mostly gone. Eventually 2 things happened, I became scarred I was in the early stages of diaper dependence and it started to feel like there was no point in wearing. I was washing 2 loads of cloth diapers a week and buying cases of disposables. I still felt comfort from it, but as life started becoming more and more normal the practicality of wearing diapers was getting more difficult. It wasn't easy to stop, but I was pretty sure I was doing the right thing. I stopped wearing almost completely. Now a year later I'm back in a rut. I have one day weekly when my wife has to work overnight and it's like I'm back in my 20s, but for one night a week. It's the only time I wear, and it's almost pure arousal, shame and embarrassment afterwards.

I love those booties but I'm not paying for them. I bought some velcro medical limb restraints and booties/mittens from amazon. The mittens are not medical with padding velcro straps but I think they'll work. So my current plan is. 1.Diaper/onesie 2, booties 3. Velcro straps on ankles connected to belt or rope around upper leg. 3. gag, or pacifier. 4. mittens, not that restrictive can still use velcro. 5, Velcro straps on wrists connected to strap on upper arm. 6. Finally how to avoid just getting out whenever I want. I'll cut a small hole in the velcro straps when they are in place. On one I will attack a small padlock on the other I'll attach a time lock. If it works then I should be limited to crawling for the duration of the time lock. Could place the padlock key in a very far away spot in house as a backup to crawl too. A much simpler option might be to put legos in the booties and lock them on ankles. Standing would be very painful.

I'm looking for a way to limit mobility and enforce crawling by myself. I've done some different self bondage, but usually only hog ties which is too limited. This image would be perfect, but I'll have to get some locking belts. I thought about medical style restraints that velcro on and then then mittens that lock on to avoid getting them off. I have a time lock to keep the mittens on.

Page 130 “Yes,” Kylee said. “You’re the big sister right?” Kylee nodded enthusiastically. “It's your job as big sister to protect your little sister. Would you tell me if Daddy was doing something to me, like hurting me?” Dakota asked. “That’s crazy, Daddy would never hurt us, he loves us more than anything. Stop asking so many grown up questions,” Kylee said. Dakota rolled down on the floor and stared at the ceiling. She couldn’t get the idea out of her head that she was being drugged and taken advantage of. Hypnosis wasn’t real, she knew that for a fact. Something else was going on. The evening continued as normal, Steve came home, gave them both kisses on the cheek. Like usual Dakota announced she needed to talk to him. During supper he made an announcement. “Girls, tomorrow is a special day, do you know what day it is?” “Firecracker day!” Kylee joyfully announced. “That’s right, the fourth of July,” Steve said. Dakota had completely forgotten, time was giving her problems, and the days were following together. “Daddy doesn’t have to work tomorrow so we’ll have lots of fun times together. I have some firecrackers for us and then we’ll go watch the big fireworks in our normal spot. “Wait, hold on, where’s the normal spot?” Dakota asked. “It’s a private park with a great view, no worries, Gumdrop. I’m not going to parade your cute little tushies around people.” Dakota nodded, that seemed OK, but she still didn’t like the idea of being taken out of the house like this. An hour later she was back in the leather chair in Steve’s office. “OK Katie, what do you want to talk about tonight?” Steve said. “I want to know what you’re doing to me, why am I unable to remember things after therapy?” “It’s hypnotherapy and treatment, like I told you.” “I don’t believe in this hypnotherapy bull, are you giving me drugs?” “Drugs are generally part of any psychological treatment,” Steve said. “What drugs are you giving me?” Dakota asked. Steve weighed his options, he only had a few more days to find out if Dakota would ultimately accept the treatment, and telling the patient about the treatment was something he had to do, both legally and ethically, though the legality and ethics of his special treatments were not well established. “Allright, I’m giving you two different drugs. THe first is called Pacific, the second is my own special formula.” “I knew it, what the hell, I knew you were drugging me,” Dakota said. “Hypnotherapy is a very important part of the treatment, without it the Pacific would have little effect.” Steve added. “What the hell are these things?” Dakota asked. “Pacific is a very rare drug, basically it inhibits many higher brain functions and affects memory. Along with hypnotherapy it can create a strong bond of trust because it inhibits the parts of the brain that handle suspension and disbelief. The special formula just helps you feel more like a baby, it is a combination of muscle relaxers, and psychotropics that put the patient into an almost dreamlike state. “This is well tested, and harmless if controlled by a doctor,” Steve explained. Dakota sat in the chair silent for a moment, “So basically you’ve created a baby drug?” she asked. “Yeah, but without the guided hypnotherapy it wouldn’t really work,” Steve explained. So far the reaction was what he’d hoped for. Basically what he was offering was what every Adult Baby really wanted, the ability to truly become a baby and not just pretend. “What would you do if I completely refuse, fight every step of the way,” Dakota asked. “If ultimately the treatment is unsuccessful I’ll give you a very large dose of Pacific, and return you to your apartment. Your memories will be unreliable at best, it will feel like you’ve woken up from a really intense dream. You’ll never see any of us again,” Steve said. “Well that’s a relief I thought you’d dump me in a lake somewhere,” Dakota said. “Please Katie, you have to understand, the last thing I want to do is hurt you, I’m trying to help.” “I’m sorry I just don’t trust you, you could be doing things to me and I wouldn’t have a clue.” Dakota said. “OK, how about this, from now on I videotape the therapy sessions and then the time after them, so you can see exactly what is happening.” Steve said. “I don’t know,” Dakota replied. “There’s one more thing, I usually save this for later in the therapy, but I can adjust the dosages, basically if I gave you many small microdoses of Pacific, and the special formula you will retain most of the memories. You’ll get to remember being a baby.” Steve said. “I don’t want to end up some kind of drug addict,” Dakota said. “That is a valid concern, and like any mind altering substance it could be a problem, if not well monitored and controlled. When the treatment is finished you won’t need the drugs, you’ll be free from the guilt and second guessing. You’ll be able to be a normal functioning adult and then be a baby when the time is appropriate,” Steve said. “I don’t know?” Dakota replied. It sounded too good to be true. “Let's test it tomorrow for the fireworks, do you remember watching fireworks as a very little kid, how exciting that was, imagine getting to feel that again.” Steve said getting up from his desk and walking over to hold Dakota’s hand. “And I’ll remember it?” Dakota asked. “Yes, the memories will be childish, almost like dreams, but you’ll remember it.” Steve replied. “Will this mean I’ll be finished with the treatment sooner, and will be able to go home?” Dakota asked. “It’s a step in the right direction,” Steve replied. “OK, lets do it” Dakota said. She liked for the first time she felt like she had some control back. She was making decisions and knew more about what was going on. It felt good, plus how amazing would it be to actually be a baby, it truly was a dream come true.” Thursday July 4th, 2013 This day started a little different, Dakota didn’t wake up needing to poop. Her Body was adjusting to the new mostly liquid diet and large doses of soluble fiber. Justine told her it was normal and she’d feel the need to go sometime in the morning. Dakota begged to be allowed to go to the toilet, but Justine ignored her. She changed her soaked cloth diaper and put her in one of her Unicorn diapers. Dakota had forgotten how nice it felt not to have 12 layers of cotton between the legs when she tried to toter around. The family had a late breakfast and Justine helped Dakota eat some eggs and bacon that she mashed up with her fork. It tasted really good. After breakfast Dakota and Justine sat on the couch to watch cartoons. Dakota was really starting to enjoy some of the shows, especially“My Little Pony” episodes on Netflix. She’d always found it so cute, but never had really given herself time to watch it. After the second episode she felt a grumbling in her tummy and squeezed her butt cheeks tight. “Hey, go get Mommy please,” Dakota asked. “Why, what’s wrong,” Kylee said. “Please just hurry,” Dakota replied. Kylee nodded and dashed off the couch, a few minutes later she returned with Justine who’d been talking with Steve in the kitchen. “What’s wrong honey,” Justine asked. “Can you take me upstairs please?” Dakota asked and then felt another cramp and squeezed tighter. “I think she needs to go poopy,” Kylee said. Dakota squeezed her eyes closed. She couldn’t believe this was really happening. Justine kneeled down and started rubbing her temples the way Steve did and whispered in her ear, “Good girls mess their diapers, it's nothing to be ashamed of.” Dakota continued to fight but the whispering and massaging continued and for just a second she relaxed. A moment later a soft warmth spread across her bottom, it felt so incredibly good to just let it go and mess herself. Then without a hint of control or warning she felt her bladder relax and add more warmth to her diaper. She glanced over at Kylee who was watching with a smile. She felt her cheeks grow hotter and she started to cry. “It’s normal, it’s normal for you to make messy diapers, you're a baby, you can’t help it, don’t cry honey,” Justine kept saying. “I couldn’t stop it,” Dakota stammered and hugged Justine. “Why won’t you just let me use the toilet?” “Because toilets are for big girls, one day you’ll be big enough. Let's go get you changed,” she said. Dakota was helped up the stairs to the nursery and to her changing table. Like usual the loving care she received from Justine calmed her down. Before long she was back in her cute little Denim dress with the apple aplique in front sitting on the couch watching cartoons with her Sister. Justine brought them a bowl of dry Cheerios to snack on. After lunch, which consisted of the usual baby food and bottle for Dakota and sippy cup of juice with grilled cheese for Kylee, Steve took Dakota to his office. Dakota felt a lump go down her throat. Did she really want to do this, did she have a choice? “We’ve decided to give you a full day as a baby, it will be an extra long day because of the fireworks tonight.” Steve said. “You promise this is harmless?” Dakota asked. “Yes, and to prove it I’ll record you,” Steve said. Dakota nodded, “OK, lets do it.” Steve put the goggles over Dakota and began the beach induction. Dakota had a sense of Deja-Vu. She didn’t really remember this, but knew it had happened to her. She could feel herself melting inside, her guards going down and when she came to the soft and overexposed images of the Daddy feeding the baby she didn’t resist the nipple that she felt in her mouth and began to suckle the sweet milk. Dakota started to feel weird, she was struggling to focus. She wanted to remember, to make sure she wasn’t being taken advantage of. She tried so hard but she was repeating the Mantra that Daddy was whispering in her ear and she closed her eyes. Dakota opened her blurry eyes, she was wrapped up in Daddy’s arms laying on his chest while he gave her a bottle. They were still in Daddys office on the fainting couch that Dakota had never sat on. “Hello little Katie, you dozed off there.” Steve said. Dakota didn’t feel a hint of confusion about the name Kaite, that was her name, she was old enough to know that. “Daddy,” Katie replied with a big smile “Let's finish your baba,”. Daddy’s voice was so wonderful. He put the nipple back in and Katie began suckling the bottle that he held tightly for her. She played with her hands idly. Katie was in the front room on the floor on a soft baby blanket, looking up she saw Daddy standing over her with the video camera in his hand, but she knew that if she grinned and played it would make him happy so she kicked and smiled and giggled. Mommy and Sissy were there too looking down at her, they were so big, and she was so small. “Lets get these off you,” Justine said and reached down. She used used some kind of little thing to take off the mittens and booties that Dakota had been wearing for days. Her hands would barely move, they were so stiff. She watched her fingers wiggle and laughed. She hadn’t seen them in so long. A bottle was stuck in her mouth and she instinctively suckled but tried to push it away as she wasn’t thirsty. Sissy was taking her nose, she reached in and took it off her face then gave it back. Then she would disappear behind her hands, pop out and say “peak a boo” Katie giggled and laughed each time. It never got old. Katie was crawling around looking for everyone, she couldn’t find Mommy, Daddy or Sissy. They were there a second ago and then they weren’t. She rolled up on her bottom and slowly got to her feet and took a few shaky steps. Walking was hard and she fell down. She looked around frustrated. Feeling alone she began to cry. “Mommy!” she yelled between sobs. “Mommy’s here,” Justine said, popping out from behind the couch. “I’m here too,” Sissy said, showing herself hiding behind the curtain. “Daddy’s over here,” Steve said, coming from his hiding place in the hallway. Katie continued to cry. Her emotions were like a runaway truck, the giggles could become tears and she couldn’t stop it. Mommy held her tight and patted her bottom. “Wet little girl, I think both my little girls need baths,” she said. Page 135 Dakota was in a bathtub, she was playing with her rubber ducky. Sissy was next to her getting scrubbed with pink soap. Mommy was kneeling outside the tube naked reaching in with her Johnsons baby soap and soft rag. She had her hair pulled up above her head. She scrubbed all Kylee’s parts, then it was Katie's turn. She didn’t like being scrubbed on and made ugly faces. She began to cry when some water got in her eye, but Sissy kept tickling her to make her giggle and she forgot about being upset. Mommy stood up and Katie saw that she was wearing a plain white diaper plastic diaper that was saggy.. “Diapy!” Katie yelled and pointed at the yellow stained white garment. “That’s right Katie, Mommy wears diapers too, but I’m not a baby am I?” Dakota laughed, “Mommy no baby, Mommy’s mommy!” she yelled. Justine laughed and untapped the heavy diaper allowing it to fall on the floor. She expertly rolled it into a tight ball and tossed in the trashcan and got in the tub. “Mommy is so busy taking care of her kiddos she barely has time to keep herself clean,” Justine said as she slathered up her nether regions and scrubbed them off. While Mommy cleaned herself Katie and Kylee played with toys, having a swimming party with little plastic dolls. Soon Dakota was being dried off with a cute hooded towel that had a monkey face on it. “Monkey” Dakota pointed at the mirror and giggled. “Mommies little monkey!” Justine said and tickled her. Dakota giggled. She held Sissy’s hand and toddled with ner naked to the nursery. Mommy was naked too, Dakota liked feeling the warmth through Sissy’s bare skin and held her. Soon she was lifted up on the changing table. SIssy handed Mommy a bottle of pink baby lotion and she massaged the wonderful smelling lotion all over Dakota’s body. Sissy did the same for Mommy then Mommy rubbed the lotion in on her. The room smelt so sweet and babyish. Mommy put new diapers on her girls and then one on her. “Daddy’s making supper tonight, we have time for a little nap,” Mommy said. She took her girls by the hand and the three women, naked except for diapers, went to Mommy and Daddy’s bedroom. It was decorated like a fantasy bedroom that a grown up Disney Princess might have. Deep Mahogany furniture. A huge wood headboard carved with arches and vines, big paintings of Victorian women in elaborate dresses. The bed was huge and they all crawled and cuddled up together. Mommy fed Katie another bottle and occasionally shared some with Kylee. Not a single awkward sexual thought went through Dakota’s mind, as Katie didn’t have sexual thoughts. Instead she only thought about how soft and warm Mommy’s skin was and quickly drifted to sleep.

That is a definite possibility. Sorry for the long draught between pages, I'm posting several now. Page 123 After she got dressed and still hadn’t heard anything Alex decided to stop by Dakota's apartment. She called first this time and when no one came to the door she checked under the mat for the key. It was gone. The blinds were open on the window and it looked empty in the room. Alex decided she must have either gone for a run, or was pretending not to be home. She went back to her car and found a post it note and wrote a message. “Give me a call, Alex.” *** Dakota was helped to the leather chair in Steve’s office and he took a seat behind his desk. The rest of the day had gone more or less normal, at least what passed for normal here. After spending some time playing Justine took Dakota and Kylee in for lunch, which was baby food and a bottle for Dakota, and a grilled cheese for Kylee. Then for further embarrassment Dakota was put in an oversized playpen. Unlike the baby sized pack and play this model was octagonal shaped and not suspended off the floor. It would have been trivial for an adult to step out over the 36 inch sides, but in the huge cloth diaper and booties Dakota may have struggled. Either way she was strictly warned that trying to get out of the playpen would result in punishment so she sat there holding her stuffed lamb and watched “My Little Pony” on Netflix while Kylee colored. Somewhere in there was a diaper change into another cloth diaper, and eventually Steve came home from work and another highchair feeding followed. “Can we talk, like in private,” Dakota asked after Justine had finished scooping baby food into her mouth. “So Mommy tells me you behaved well today,” Steve said. “Yeah, that’s why I wanted to talk to you. I want to really do good, and try my best.” Dakota said, sounding as meek as possible. Steve nodded and motioned for Dakota to continue. “I think I could get alot out of this, and I’m really feeling bad about how much Justine has to do for me so I want to get out of these booties and mittens soon.” “I see, and what do you think you’re going to get from this treatment?: Steve asked. “I’m going to understand myself better, you know the baby inside like you said.” “Katie, have you heard of the 5 stages of grief?” Steve asked. “Sure, I think,” “The third stage is Bargaining, you’re trying to figure out how to take control of this situation in which you have no control. In actuality you’re moving farther from the goal of regression, and repressing yourself more than you ever have.” “No, I really want to regress, I want to get through this treatment.” “OK, I’ll be working with you on Monday, Wednesday, and Friday mornings. Weekends occasionally. You need to work through the grief of losing Dakota and becoming Katie, then you can truly begin the treatment. “What do you mean begin? Is this not the treatment?” Dakita asked. “Yes, but this is really more like conditioning to prepare you to work through your grief,” Steve said. “What are the other stages of grief?” Dakota asked. “Depression is the fourth and the fifth is acceptance,” Steve answered Dakota was dumbstruck at the thought of losing herself and becoming Katie. It reminded her of why she stayed away from drugs and drinking for so long. She was afraid of losing her self control. Becoming one of those old men who posted countless pictures of themselves in diapers alone in their dimly lit apartments. Though there seemed little chance she’d end up an old man now at least. “Oh you have a couple of messages. Your mother said she hopes you have a nice vacation, be safe, and figure some things out. The other message is from Alex,” Steve said. Dakota’s eyes shot open wide. “She’s worried about you, she’d like you to let her know you’re OK.” “Wow, I thought she was done with me,” Dakota said. “She likely is feeling guilty if she knew what happened with your breakdown, she would feel even worse. We need to keep a consistent story, let her know you’ve gone on vacation.” “I’d like to call her,” Dakota said. “I”m sorry but I can’t allow that, but we don’t want to leave her wondering,” Steve answered. “OK fine tell her I’m going camping, whatever, but I can’t stay missing much longer or she’ll start looking,” Dakota explained. Steve typed out a message, and showed the phone to Dakota, “Hey, doing good, went on a camping trip for a couple weeks to get my head straight, bad reception here, can barely text,” the message read. Dakota nodded and Steve sent the message. Dakota began to think that her confinement, treatment, kidnapping, whatever it was would last two weeks. ‘That’s not that bad, maybe I should try to relax and enjoy it,’ Dakota thought. Wednesday July 3rd Dakota’s morning ahd gone much like the day before; wake up early with a need to poop, fight it until she couldn’t hold it, but this time she didn’t have the option to leave her crib. Her feet were still restrained and her arms were still attached to the baby reins. Any thoughts of relaxing and enjoying her situation disappeared when she finally gave in and loaded her cloth diaper. Luckily the thick cloth and plastic pants seemed to do a better job of keeping the smell contained, for awhile at least. After being changed, and fed breakfast she was taken to Steve’s office for her treatment session. She was told her first treatment had been on Monday but she couldn’t remember it. Steve came in and sat on the corner of his desk. “Good moring Katie,” he said. “Good morning,” Dakota replied. She decided arguing about the name was counter productive, maybe just pretending that she accepted that her name was now Katie would get her out of here sooner. “How was your night?” “Well, I’d really like to stop wearing these reins, and booties, and mittens. And I really don’t want my legs tied up in the crib,” Dakota answered. “Can we trust you to not hurt yourself again?” Steve asked. “Yes, I’m going to be good,” Dakota replied. “OK, if I get a good report from Mommy today then no reins or restraints in bed tonight, but the booties and mittens are part of your treatment for a while longer.” “I can’t do anything though, someone has to help me walk.” “That’s the point. So continuing from last time, we talked about when you were young…” “Are you going to hypnotize me or whatever?” Dakota interupted. “Perhaps but we’re just going to talk for a bit,” Steve answered. He asked Dakota about when she first started having thoughts about diapers and being a baby. In a few minutes Dakota was freely talking about it. TExplaining about how she would sneak diapers from anywhere she could get them. How she believed she was crazy and felt so terrible about it couldn’t stop. “OK. let's take a break from the talking,” Steve took a virtual reality headset out of his desk and walked behind Dakota. “Oh wow, is this the magical hypnotic headset,” Dakota laughed. “Sure,” Steve said as he placed it over Dakota’s head. Dakota could see a spinning spiral. “The spinning spiral, how cliche,” Dakota said. “Quiet now Katie, being a good girl and completing treatment is required to get out of the reins and restraints.” Dakota nodded and Steve continued. “Allow yourself to relax,and breathe. Imagine a warm and relaxing beach, the waves lapping over you, your head just above water. Warm sunshine.” The goggles showed blurry images of a warm beach that slowly transitioned with bright lights. Steve went on explaining the environment and repeating. His voice was smooth and his words truly were hypnotic. Dakota found herself feeling very relaxed. “The dry heat has made you thirsty, but Daddy has a bottle for you.” The image transitioned to a baby bottle and a blurry out of focus face of a man. “Daddy’s giving you a bottle, it’s what you want.” Dakota felt a rubber nipple caress her lips and she instinctively opened her mouth allowing the nipple to slide in. “Suckle the milk, like a baby,” Steve’s voice commanded and Dakota did. The image transitioned to a blurry video of a man feeding a baby. Steve held Dakota’s head and caressed her temples and softly whispered in Dakota’s ear, “I am me, that’s all I can ever be. Diapers and bows, playing with my toes. There is a baby that lives inside of me. Don’t push her away, let her play, and feel safe for today.” Dakota remembered her mantra from back when she was just texting Steve, but she was finding it hard to focus. Texting… she realized she had no idea what she was thinking about. Had no idea what texting even was and grew scared. Dakota spit out the nipple, “Daddy, I’m..” “Now, now, finish your bottle little Katie,” Steve said and forced the nipple back in.” Dakota knew something was weird and confusing, but Daddy would keep her safe and the milk was so good. So very good, She began to suckle again and forgot about texting, and mantras, and Dakota. *** Alex stood in the baby aisle at Target. She didn’t have to work last night, but still slept in. She found it best to keep a late night schedule even when she wasn’t working, and rarely got up before Noon. She looked both ways, she was alone. She’d walked back and forth in the aisle, looking at the cute packages with their cute designs and colors. Alex didn’t like kid stuff, she’d never liked ponies and princesses, and all that cutesy pink stuff, which was making these weird thoughts all the more uncomfortable. She knew from her research into ABDL that there were special diapers printed with baby designs for adults, but right now all she had to look at were actual baby diapers. Eventually she saw bedwetter pants and recognized them, Dakota had wore those, they seemed to fit her well, but Alex was quite a bit bigger than Dakota. She checked again and grabbed a pack of The girl’s XL girls design. They reminded her of the panties she wore when she was a kid. Then she saw the boy’s designs and examined them. They were covered in cute dinosaurs. Alex remembered wanting her mom to buy her little boys underwear when she was a kid because they had cool dinosaurs on them. She did one more look then hid the boys pack in her shopping cart. She found a Nuk pacifier with dinosaurs and put it in the cart as well. ‘It’s an experiment, maybe this is something I can get used to,’ she thought. Alex was on edge all the way through the checkout and even carrying the shopping bag back to her car. She had to admit it was kind of exciting, like she was doing something really bad, even though all she was doing was buying bedwetter pants. Luckily her sister and roommate, Dawn was working so when Alex got home she went straight to her room and took out the package. “This is so stupid,” she said to herself but opened it and took out one of the long skinny undergarments. She took her pants and panties off and slid the pants up her legs. THey stretched out like crazy but eventually went all the way up. She turned around and could see the top of her butcrack. “OK, a bit small,” she said. Alex opened the pacifier and carefully disposed of the package and then poked it in her mouth. It felt weird, but she sucked it, then she sucked it again. She looked at herself in the mirror and spit the pacifier out on the floor. “This is fucked up, she’s not worth it.” Alex yanked the pants off and tore them in the process. She shoved it all in a box in her closet. *** “Mooocow!” Dakota repeated and clapped her mittens together. “Yea! Good job Katie, cow goes moo!” Kylee said, kneeling outside the playpen. It had taken Dakota awhile to really master the toy. “Unlike the See N Say for kids that has a pull cord, this baby version had a big chunky lever that Dakota could pull even with mittens on. But it wasn’t easy for her, even after Kylee showed her a few times. Now she was able to pull the lever almost on the first try. She’d heard the moocow a few times and wanted to hear the lamb. She pulled the lever again and the spinner stopped on the dog. “Woof Woof,” the toy said. “Doggy!” Dakota yelled, then clapped her mittens together giggling. Kylee clapped for her and Dakota kept clapping and then watched her hands for a moment. “Umm,” she mumbled and stopped clapping. Everything felt weird, the room seemed to be swaying. “What the fuck,” she said looking at her mittened hands. “Katie, that's a bad word,” Kylee scolded. “Katie?” Dakota looked down at herself. She was in a ruffled onesie snapped tight around a thick cloth diaper. Milky white plastic pants poked out the sides. It started coming back to her, she went with Steve to get help, they wouldn’t let her go. She remembered the treatment this morning. The last thing she could remember was talking to Steve about her past. Kylee ran to the kitchen yelling, “Katie said a bad word, Katie said a bad word.” Justine walked into the front room with her wooden spoon and looked down at Dakota sitting in the playpen. “Did you say a bad word?” she asked. “What time is it?” Dakota asked. “Answer me Katie, did you say a naughty word?” Justine asked. Dakota remembered the spanking she received for using bad words, but couldn’t recall when it happened. “No, I didn’t, she’s lying.” Dakota said. “I’m not lying, she said the worst naughty word,” Kylee said. “No I didn’t,” Dakota replied. “OK girls, lets go. Up and out of the playpen.” Justine opened the door of the pen and lifted Dakota to her feet and helped her walk to the wall. “Up against the wall Kylee,” Justine said. “Wait, why me, she said the bad word.” Katie yelled. “You get two spankings, one for tattling and one for lying.” Kylee started crying and put her hands against the wall and stuck her rear out. Justine lifted Kylee’s denim dress and tucked it under the straps. Then she pulled her tights down revealing one of her pink diapers. Finally she pulled the diaper down enough to reveal Kylee’s bottom. Justine took a stance and prepared to swing a wooden spoon. “Wait, don’t, she’s not lying. I said a bad word,” Dakota said, feeling a tear in her eye.” Justine relaxed and turned to Dakota. “I’m very proud of you Katie, it takes alot of courage to own up to your misbehavior.” Kylee took her hands off the wall and reached back to pull up her diaper. Her cheeks were red hot with embarrassment. “Justine slapped her hand away with the spoon.” “Wait, I wasn’t lying,” Kylee said. “But you did tattle, so you still get one spanking.” Justine delivered a sharp blow to Kylee’s rear that left a big red mark. “Owww, Mommy,” Kylee screamed and began to cry. Justine pulled up her diaper and tights, and scooted her to the side and then maneuvered Dakota into the same position. “Allright Katie, one for bad language,” she said as she unsnapped the onesie and pulled down Dakota’s cloth diaper. And gave her a sharp spank with the spoon. Page 129 “Owww” Dakota screamed but kept her emotions in check. One blow wasn’t enough to make her cry or regress now that she was no longer little. “Now one more for lying about it,” WHACK. Dakota tried to rub her bottom but Justine pushed her hand away and pulled the cloth diaper up. Kylee sat on the couch with her hands crossed pouting as Justine snapped up Dakota’s onesie. “Can you tell me what time it is now?” Dakota asked. “Its almost supper time, your Daddy will be home soon,” Justine answered. That meant it was around 5 PM and Dakota’s treatment was around 8 or 9 AM. That meant she lost 8 hours. Dakota looked out the window, she could see the sun low in what she assumed was the west. “What happened, why can’t I remember today?” Dakota asked. “Babies sometimes have trouble with their memories, the more baby you become the harder it will be to remember,” Justine said. “That’s crazy, Steve is doing something to me, drugging me or hypnotizing me or something,” Dakota replied. “It’s just your treatment Katie. It’s a good sign, it means that it’s working, now you two play nice while I finish supper. Dakota was left leaning against the wall. She fell down to her hands and kness and crawled across to Kylee. “What happened today, what did we do?” Dakota asked. “You got me spanked, I’m not talking to you,” Kylee said. “I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to say it. I was just, like one minute I was a baby playing and the next I was myself again,” Dakota explained. Kylee seemed satisfied by the apology and smiled. “OK, well we went outside and I got to push you around in your stroller. We had lunch, well you had a bottle. Then I went up to my room to play games while you took a nap in the playpen. When I came down you were drooling all over yourself trying to figure out how that toy worked, so I taught you.” “How long was I in Steve’s office?” Dakota asked. “You mean Daddy?” Kylee said. She was looking uncomfortable and confused with the conversation. Dakota nodded and Kylee said, “I dunno? Not that long?” “OK, we’re sisters right?” Dakota asked.

Page 122 “OK, wait here a sec,” Justine left the nursery and came back pushing an adult sized stroller. In a few moments Dakota was strapped in. The last door of the hallway went to a second story outside sundeck instead of stairs down there was a wooden wheelchair ramp. Dakota felt her muscles tighten as she was exposed to the outside world looking like a vintage 1950s baby in a stroller, but looking around realized that the only clear view of the upper deck was out to the grassy forest and fields behind the house. Soon Dakota was in the fenced in backyard. It was a beautiful sunny day and Kylee was already out playing. Dakota looked around nervously even if the yard seemed private, she’d never been outside in baby clothes before. “Nothing to worry about, no one can see in here, so just relax and have fun,” Justine said. She grabbed a bottle of SPF 50 baby sunscreen out of pocket in the stroller and squirted out a handful of thick white cream. “But first, sunscreen.” Kyle skipepd over to them and followed as Justine pushed Dakota to the swing set and soon she was secured in an oversized plastic swing and being pushed by Kylee. Dakota was lost in her own mind, she was completely passive, only spoke if she had too and acted like she thought an adult being forced to live like a child would act. Aggrieved and bored. *** Alex was in a lecture hall during an Anatomy and Physiology class. The teacher was an old lady with comically oversized glasses writing notes at a white board. “Who wants to come up and label this bone? How about you Alex?” Alex mumbled something, but couldn’t talk her way out of it. She got up and walked to the front of the lecture hall with her diaper showing. It was confusing to her why she was dressed like that and then made sense of it and explained it to the class. “Yeah, I forgot my pants, and this is not what it looks like. I’m just doing this for a friend,” Alex explained to the class who were all pointing and laughing. She ran to the exit and passed through it to wake up in her bed. Alex shot up and looked around the room, her alarm clock said it was 1PM, about the time she usually got up after her midnight shifts. Her forehead was damp with sweat. “Fuck,” she said as she realized it was a dream. She had tried to make a clean break with Dakota, to just forget about her, but she couldn’t. She picked up her laptop off the floor and checked her email, then despite her best efforts to avoid it, typed “adult baby” into her search bar and started reading articles. Then she spent time looking at pictures, there were so many pictures of cute girls in diapers. “Why the fuck am I looking at this?” Alex asked after she realized she’d been browsing the internet for over an hour. She closed the laptop and began typing a text. “I’m sorry, I shouldn’t have reacted the way I did.” She erased the words before hitting send and wrote. “Hey, I’m worried about you, call me and let me know you’re OK.” A few minutes later she added, “We’re playing Friday night, you’re still welcome.”

page 119 Dakota laid on the mattress fighting a battle she knew she was going to lose, her screams had become sobs and now she was drained, both emotionally and physically. It seemed like hours had passed. The window was now lit up with morning light. She’d heard other people moving around the house but her door remained shut. She was straining to keep her sphincter tight, but could feel the pressure building and cramps building deeper. ‘This is really happening,’ she thought, I’m being forced to shit myself. Maybe in the past this scenario would have excited Dakota, she might even get off thinking about this exact situation, but now that she was living it without control it was a nightmare. Another cramp rolled through Dakota and she began to cry and stopped fighting, A wave pushed through her and she felt the poop fill the seat of her diaper and squish out. Then as if to further her humiliation she began to soak herself. In a few moments her crib was filled with the scent and she turned her nose. With the constant battle over Dakota could finally think straight and began to weigh her options. She needed to escape, get her phone, or just get out of the house. Sure it would be embarrassing to be seen running down the street like this, but she’d gladly take the embarrassment to get out. She couldn’t run in these crazy booties, so she had to get them to take them off. Dakota decided she had two options. Option one would be to play along, convince them the treatment was working and she was regressing, just be as good as possible. Option two would be to keep fighting, make it so aggravating for them that they would want to get rid of her. Dakota weighed the options and realized the danger of the fighting option. They couldn’t just get rid of her now. She could tell on them, get this insane operation that Steve was running shut down. She didn’t know what these people were capable of, her life was in danger. She couldn’t overpower them, but if she could get them to trust her, then she could make her move. The door opened and Justine came in with a huge baby bottle. “Good morning Katie,” she said. Justine stopped and sniffed, “Smells a bit ripe in here.” Dakota bristled at the comment and furrowed her brow, but didn’t say anything. She didn’t want to seem like she was faking it so she decided to at least continue acting annoyed for awhile. “It’s time for your feeding,” Justine said as she lowered the bars of the crib. She sat down on the mattress next to Dakota. “Mommy’s going to take out your pacifier,” she said as she reached around and unbuckled the strap. Dakota immediately forced the bulb out of her mouth and enjoyed the freedom to move her jaw. It was a little sore from being held open for long. “Why are you doing this?” Dakota asked. “It’s your treatment,” Justine replied. “Yeah I know, but why are YOU doing this. I barely know you people. The amount of effort and work you are putting into keeping me like this is insane. What do you get out of it?” page 120 Justine drew back and stood up, Dakota was worried she’d crossed a line and upset her captor. “It’s simple really, you need to be a baby, and we need to care for a baby. Every baby deserves a Mommy and Daddy, and every Mommy and Daddy deserve a baby.” “Couldn’t you just get a dog?” Dakota asked. Justine laughed out loud, when you’re truly regressed I’ll miss those kinds of comments,” she said. Dakota felt a lump go down her throat. This notion that they could actually regress her mind to that of a baby’s was ridiculous, but why was she so suddenly so scared. Dakota shook her head and said,“I don’t see that happening.” “Says the baby with the mushy tushy,” Justine joked. “Why can’t you understand, I’m not a baby,” Dakota said. “Are you really that sure? Think about it. What defines being a baby? You really meet most criteria, diapers, bottles, unable to do basic things, unable to care for yourself, unable to make your own decisions, you need a caregiver. You’re just a little older than the average baby,” Justine explained. “That’s dumb,” Dakota said. “Sounds like something a baby would say, Now it’s time for your morning bottle.” “Aren’t you going to change me first?” Dakota asked. “Nope bottle first, then change,” Justine pressed the nipple into Dakota’s mouth. The sweet milk flowed in and despite herself Dakota began to suckle. The feeding took awhile, it was a really big bottle, when it was over Dakota realized that she had snuggled close to Justine and she was massaging her temples. She was embarrassed by how easily she had slipped into little space. ‘Could they really regress me to a baby?’ Dakota shivered at the thought. “Time to get you changed,” Justine said and helped Dakota out of the crib. “Are you going to be a good girl?” she asked. Dakota nodded sheepishly, even if she wasn’t trying to play along she’d lost some of her will to fight. Dakota couldn’t remember the last time she’d messed her diaper. She had done it a few times when she was in her teens, but always found it was going too far and regretted it afterwards. She laid there frozen in humiliation and disgust as Justine wiped her down with oversized adult baby wipes, but her caregiver seemed unaffected by the stink. “All right all clean she said,” Dakota was surprised when she brought up a thick contour cloth diaper from under the changing table. page 121 “What is that?” she asked. “It’s a cloth diaper, we’re going to try something a little different.” Justine said as she unfolded the diaper. “Is this a punishment?” Dakota asked. “No not at all, it’s a very soft and comfortable diaper, now uppies,” Justine said and Dakota insitictily raised her rear so that Justine could slide the diaper under her bottom. She added two thick booster pads and pulled the front of the diaper up forcing Dakota’s legs to spread out a bit. Justine pulled the sides tight and fastened them with an adult sized diaper pin. “Also cloth diapers can be a bit harder for babies to remove,” she said. She pulled a pair of creamy white plastic pants over the top and helped Dakota to a sitting position. “I think we’ll just go all in on the vintage look today,” she said. Justine dug through the closet and returned with a light cotton yellow dress and slipped it over Dakota’s head and buttoned up a few buttons in the rear. She helped Dakota down from the table. “Are you kidding me? I can't close my legs.” Dakota said. “It’s not that bad,” Justine said as strapped the pink leather baby reins back on. “These are just a precaution, until we’re sure you won’t hurt yourself again.” She attacked the straps back to Dakota’s mittens so that she could only stretch her arms out about halfway. “I really want to get out of these mittens, my fingers are feeling cramped,: Dakota said. “It won’t be long if you are good, oh aren’t you adorable though, just one more thing,” Justine said as she shuffled Dakota in front of a mirror. She dug through a drawer and returned with a bonnet. Dakota stared at herself in the mirror, she was cute, really cute. The dress was so short that it only covered about half her diaper. It had a white peterpan style collar, and embroidery across the very high bodice. She felt herself melt. “Surely you have to admit, you make such a cute little baby girl.” Dakota caught herself smiling in the mirror and quickly frowned. “I just want to get this over with and go home.” She said. “Then stop fighting, just embrace it. Free yourself,” Justine said. “You sound like a cheesy self help book,” Dakota replied. “Do I need to put your naughty pacifier back in?” Justine asked as she clipped a “normal” adult sized pacifier to Dakota’s collar. “No, my jaw is still sore,” Dakota said.

Page 114 Alone and without support Dakota decided to slip down to sit on her bottom, she could have slowly walked alone in the booties if she was really careful, but right now she didn’t mind crawling. First she crawled to the crib. THe side was down and she stood up and looked inside, it was raised about three feet off the floor and the sides went up another three feet. Inside it had a thick soft crib bumper, and a plush comforter with a unicorn whose horn was decorated with flowers. Everything had the most adorable little pink and gray stars. Under the crib was a storage cabinet that was blocked by the lowered side of the crib. Dakota then sat back down and crawled to the changing table. It’s white cubicles were filled with Unicorn diapers, and 4 cute unopened packs. Dakota did some quick calculations and realized there were over 200 dollars in just diapers in this thing. She scurried stod up and checked out the PUL plined changing pad, pressing her hands into the soft memory foam. Next Dakota crawled to the closet and opened it. Inside she was dazzled by an array of cute baby clothes, she saw satin party dresses, printed cotton play dresses, shortalls, overalls, skirtalls, onesies, sleepers, there was even a big puffy snow suit. A shelf above the clothes was stacked completely full of unopened packs of ABDL diapers, in every variety. Dakota quickly crawled to the dresser and opened a drawer and saw cute socks, another drawer had shorts, another hats and bonnets. Dakota dropped back to her knees and crawled to the changing table. “Maybe this isn’t so bad,” Dakota said. “I could never afford all this.” Dakota felt a tingly deep inside, a deep satisfaction, along with a pressing need. Dakota felt aroused. She turned back and looked at the closed door and then tried pressing her mitten up against the front of her warm wet diaper. It felt nice, and it made her want more. Lusty adult thoughts filled her mind and she got on her knees. In a few minutes she felt frustrated, pressure from the mittens felt nice, but she couldn’t do anything else. She took hold of a mitten in her mouth, the canvas was really durable, there was no way she was getting it off. About that time she heard the door start to open and tried to look as innocent as possible. “Well what do you think,” Justine said as she came in with a baby bottle in her hands and sat it on the dresser. “It’s really amazing, I can’t believe this is for me,” Dakota said. “It is, it’s all for you Katie, now we need to go brushies,” Dakota bristled at being called Katie. “I wish you could just call me by my name,” Dakota said. Justine ignored her and helped her across the hall to the bathroom. She put some rainbow toothpaste on a unicorn toothbrush and brushed her adult sized baby's teeth. Dakota didn’t even have time to mount an argument, it just happened and she realized that no one had ever brushed her teeth for her before, or at least hadn’t since she was a baby. Surprisingly the toothpaste had a mildly sweet fruit flavor instead of the harsh biting mint that she was used to. Justine poured a bit of water in her mouth from a cup and she spit a bit out. Page 115 “It’s OK if you swallow some, baby toothpaste is safe to eat,” Justine explained. Dakota rolled her eyes at the thought of eating toothpaste and asked for another rinse. They returned back to the nursery and found Kylee sitting on the floor with a book and a sippy cup. “Is it story time?” she asked. “Yes but I need to put the baby down soon,” Justine replied. “Its only like 7:30?” Dakota said. “Babies have early bedtimes, lets get you changed and your PJs on,” She unsnapped the pink My Little Pony Onesie that Daktoa had been wearing all day. She had actually forgot about how childish she was dressed. “Hey wait a sec,” Dakota said as as Justine lifted her arms and pulled the onesie over her head. She turned so that Kylee couldn’t see her bare chest but Kylee was busy looking at her book. “We’re a family Katie, and you’re a baby. There is no need to be modest in front of your sister, Mommy or Daddy,” Justine explained and guided Dakota towards the changing table. “But I’m not even that wet am I?” Dakota said and realized how childish that sounded. She didn’t feel wet, and while she knew she’d wet herself some she was certain she was far from needing change out of the super absorbent ABDL diapers Justine used. “You’ll learn that schedules are very important to little ones, we always change before bed, even if your diaper isn’t that wet, but little Katie is wetter than she thinks,” Justine replied. “That’s not my name,” Dakota mumbled under her breath and felt her cheeks grow warm as she was guided up the steps to the changing table. Soon she was lost in the feelings of being changed. Afterwards Justine put her in a cute summer sleeper that snapped from the crotch up the front and guided her back to the chair. “OK girls, it’s story time,” Justine reached down and took the book from Kylee and the baby bottle she’d left on the dresser earlier. “Oh Harry Potter and Philosopher’s Stone, that’s perfect.” Justine sat on the wide recliner, and Dakota sat partially on her lap and partially on a soft stuffed pillow. Kylee gave her sister a soft and fuzzy stuffed lamb and laid down on the floor at their feet with her own pillow. “This is your bedtime bottle,” Justine said and guided the nipple into Dakota’s mouth. She was going to argue, but as the nipple slid into her mouth and the sweet milk came out she began happily suckling. THis bottle had a slow flow nipple and it only gave her a small drop at a time. Page 116 Justine read Kylee kicked her feet back and forth and rolled around on the floor. Dakota brushed the soft lamb across her face and continued to suckle. She got lost in the moment, It was like one of her dreams come true, a family that loved her for what she was. ‘Why would I ever want to leave,’ Dakota thought. Tuesday July 2nd 2013 Dakota opened her eyes, then realized there was a pacifier in her mouth and allowed it to fall out. A pale blue light filled the room. She turned her head and saw white bars and and for a few moments had no clue what was going on then she remembered story time but had no idea how she got in the crib. She was surrounded by cuteness, her soft baby lamb, a fuzzy unicorn, and a mobile with unicorns and shooting stars over her head. Dakota felt the familiar warmth and squishiness of a wet diaper. Then she felt another feeling, she needed to poop. Messing diapers had never been Dakota’s thing, she’d tried it a few times, and truth be told she often felt like there was a little voice in the back of her head telling her she should mess herself, but that voice was not to be trusted. Dakota laid around and rolled back and forth in the crib, but going back to sleep wasn’t an option. The fact that she would need to poop during this ‘treatment’ had never been discussed and Dakota hadn’t even thought about it until now. The idea that Steve and Justine would expect her to poop in her diaper never even occurred to her. She thought about yelling for someone to come let her out, but making a big fuss wasn’t really her style. Dakota set up and examined the crib. There was a simple latch near the top on both sides that locked the crib bars up. Dakota worked her mittens into the gap between the bars and pushed up. The side raised and the latch came undone. Dakota carefully let the side down and was free from her cage. She slid out and began slowly walking towards the door, but after nearly falling twice she dropped to her hands and knees to crawl. Dakota quietly opened her nursery door and crawled out to the hall and into the bathroom where she’d brushed her teeth. She shut the door but couldn’t manipulate the small lock with her mittens. Dakota crawled to the toilet and then began trying to unsnap her sleeper suit. The gloves made it difficult but she was able to eventually get the 12 snaps popped and work the suit off her shoulders. The diaper was on tight and just as she started working her mittens into the waistband to pull it down Justien and Steve entered the bathroom. “Katie, what are you doing out of bed?” Justine asked. “I have to poop,” Dakota replied. “She figured out how to get out of the crib,” Steve said to Justine, ignoring Dakota. Page 117 “You could have been hurt, you’re not allowed to crawl around at night by yourself, that’s why you sleep in a crib,” Justine said. “I guess we’ll have to start locking the latches,” Steve said. “OK, fine but can you guys give me some privacy so I can go,” Dakota asked. “Sorry Katie, but babies don’t use the toilet. How were you intending to wipe, you can’t use your hands anyway?” Steve said. “You’re kidding,” Dakota said. Steve and Justine both shook their heads no. “No way, I’m done. I’m not shitting myself,” Dakota said. “Language young lady,” Justine warned. “Fine I’m not pooping myself, I want to go home, I’m done with this crazy stuff.” Dakota yelled. “Calm down honey, it's going to be OK,” Steve said. He whispered something to Justine and started walking forward. “Don’t you fucking touch me, I told you I’m done,” Dakota said and raised her mittened fists into a fighting stance. Justine left the room quickly and Steve continued closer. “I swear,” Dakota yelled and slapped a soap dispenser. It flew through the air and bounced off Steve. The movement caused Dakota to lose balance, but Steve quickly moved forward and grabbed Dakota as she was about to fall. “I got you,” he said and wrapped her in a bear hug. Dakota kicked and screamed then her eyes went wide when she saw Justine approach with a big pacifier gag on a strap. “No, no, no,” Dakota yelled and twisted her head. Justine pressed the rubber bulb against her mouth but Dakota locked it closed. Steve pinched her nose and in a few seconds Dakota relaxed her jaw to breath. The bulb was forced in and quickly buckled behind her head. The gag was shaped like a pacifier but the nipple was larger and thicker. Dakota’s screams became muffled and she swung her head back and forth. “I’m so sorry Dakota, but you’re going to hurt yourself and lose your voice, please stop screaming,” Jstine said. “The more you fight us the harder it’s going to be,” Steve said and began forcing Dakota forward. She went limp, but between Steve and Justine they had no trouble carrying her from the bathroom into the hallway. Dakota saw Kylee in the hall standing outside her open door, “Is everything alright, she asked?” Page 118 “Pwease, heep mee,” Dakota screamed but the gag muffled her words. “It’s going to be OK, Katie is having an episode, go on back to bed” Steve said. Kylee nodded and went back in, shutting her door behind her. Dakota was forced back into her nursery and Justine fished something out of the bottom of her dresser. Dakota recognized the assortment of leather straps and buckles immediately; she’d actually considered buying her own set of adult baby reins at one time. This set was soft bubblegum pink patent leather. The front panel had an old fashioned picture of a lamb. Dakota resisted but Steve was much stronger and forced her arms out so that Justine could wrap the bottom of the harness around her chest. She pulled the shoulder straps over and buckled the entire contraption. There were two adjustable leather straps that ended in snap hooks. Hanging from the side of the harness, these were both attached to canvas loops on her gloves and shortened. Steve turned Dakota towards the mirror over her dresser and released her. “This is for your own safety Katie,” he said. Dakota looked at herself in the mirror. The straps forced her to keep her arms bent at a 45 degree angle. She’d imagined scenarios like this in the past, and now that it was really happening without her control she couldn’t believe she’d ever thought such a thing would be fun. Dakota turned and yelled, “My fughhhun num isn’t Kaite” as loud as she could into the gag. Steve shook his head and took hold of the harness. He lifted Dakota off the ground and carried her to the crib. Dakota continued to scream and began kicking. She caught Steve in the shoulder and knocked him back. Justine moved in to hold her down and Steve crawled in on top of her. Hidden under the mattress he pulled out white canvas straps that attached to loops in Dakota’s booties. It was a job to hold her legs down to attach them but soon her legs were reduced to less than half their motion. “I’m sorry Katie, we can’t have you breaking your feet on the crib, or hurting yourself. But when you calm down we’ll unhook your legs,” Steve said. Justine and Steve left the room and shut the door behind them. They both stood there for a minute catching their breath. “Why did you tell me not to get the Pacific aerosol?” Justine asked “We don’t have as much time as I’d like. We don’t have time to keep her drugged. I hate it though.” Steve explained. “I hate what that girl is going through, she hates us now,” Justine said. “We have to break her before we can fix her, let's go back to bed” Steve said. ****

That's the fundamental difference between products aimed at babies/toddlers and youth/adult. Tranquility has a pic showing the proper fit of a baby diaper vs. an adult/youth diaper. Since the dawn of disposable adult briefs they have been modeled after a high waist granny panty where the leg holes are closer to horizontal. Baby diapers have always looked alot like hicut briefs where the leg openings are closer to vertical. I've always wondered why they were designed like this, because the medical diapers rarely have full padding that goes up to the waist and those inches of extra material above the navel and low on the hip are just wasted and makes the garment more likely to be seen poking out of pants. I guess the manufacturers wanted to design a garment that didn't look like a diaper so instead tried to make it look like old person underwear? The pull on style briefs for adults make this design choice even more obvious, with their high waist elastic and so far any ABDL pull up I've seen is just a printed pull on.

I think this speaks to the multi faceted dynamic of ABDL. It's sexual fetish, coping mechanism, fun hobby and all kinds of other things, for some it's even like a competition. I love the checklist that@minachan16points out. I've done the same thing. My checklist isn't complete but I build things up in my mind, then after checking them off it's like, "what was the big deal?" As others have said Stressful situations totally shut down my interest in ABDL. For me it's not something I use to deal with stress, but instead like a therapy to recover after dealing with stressful situations. As for the pregnancy, many years ago after years of trying my wife got pregnant. Sadly it wasn't viable, but for a few weeks I had similar feelings about ABDL. I had resigned myself to the fact that we wouldn't be having children, so it was a bit of a scare, but at the same time I remember being really excited about things like building a nursery, and picking out cute outfits for our baby. I do also remember thinking that ABDL would likely be over for me and being a bit sad about it.