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I was recently involved in a pregnancy scare, and I think the thought of having a child just zapped the ABDL out of me for a while. Not in a purge cycle kind of way, just a total indifference. I didn't want to get rid of everything, it was more like when I'd see my little stuff, I'd think of it of it as an old shirt I used to love but now isn't my style anymore. No hate, no shame, just total indifference. The scare is now over and I am slowly having desires come back, but way less and way different (more-so just sexual when it used to very a huge comfort/coping mechanism). So anyone else experience something like this? ABDLs with kids, did you experience a similar downshift while you were focusing on other priorities? I assume this kind of response is normal since my mind was elsewhere, but if just the possibility of having a kid zapped all interests for a month that the scare took place and a month after, I am almost worried that having a kid might obliterate all interests. Thanks!

This seems like the only reasonable solution ? The cost of being 24/7 just went up for me! But on a real note, my go-to is usually just going with Depends in most instances where it can be planned. One of my thoughts is if I am already out and about and there is an impromptu get together -- but I guess I could just start packing a pull up in my bag and change before I get there. Thanks! And extra thanks for the laugh!

Hi hi hi! So I am curious about how you navigate explaining why you bring a bag with you to the bathroom to your friends or family that aren't in the know (and who you want to remain clueless) about your diapers? Possible examples: You're at a friend's house for a weekend. You need to go change, but go in carrying your bag. They ask why you need your bag every time you go to the bathroom. At the office, your co-worker sees you grab your bag and head to the door. They ask if you're leaving for the day. You explain you aren't, but then they ask why you're packed and looking ready. Generally, I don't care too much if strangers at the mall/store/wherever see my bringing in my diaper bag (normal messenger bag), but knowing my friends and family, I could see them asking something because nothing is off the board. So, how do you avoid this possible question, or how do you go about answering it? Do I just have an unnaturally nosy friend and family group? I know many will likely say, "It doesn't matter," but that doesn't get to the heart of the question. Thanks in advance. I look forward to reading your replies!

Thank you, everyone, for the feedback! Sounds like I may have just had some bad luck. I will order another case once I run low and hope for the best!

Thanks for the reply! It sounds like I may have just had some bad luck. I will give them another shot!

Hi everyone! I hope everyone has been enjoying the holiday season so far. I was thinking of making a post on asking on what I might be doing wrong because I have had some issues with my diapers, but then I realized that what I do is exactly the same and never used to be an issue. I have having a lot more issues with my diapers falling apart and/or leaking lately. For some background, I used to order around 60-90 diapers at a time and go 24/7 from NorthShore exclusively (the Megamax, mainly white but added some colors in every now in then...not sure if color matters...). The first case was great. I could put a diaper on, go about my day, then change after a few hours. Second case, the leg guards seemed to be a lot longer than the previous case, which would give me leg-guard wedgies and cause some of the accidents I was having to go in my pants. The leg guards also started to rub up between my legs and caused some irritation. The last case I got, I'm not sure what happened, but it has made me go from 24/7 to just at night, when I need them most. I wet once last night and it seemed full. The second wetting leaked everywhere. Mind you, with my over active bladder, a wetting for me isn't huge at all, maybe 8oz when my bladder feels like it is bursting. When I changed, the diaper looked almost like the Depends with tabs I used to buy before I had a card to order online with... I was wondering if anyone else has had an issue with NorthShore's quality this year, or if I have just been unlucky. I honestly hope I have just been unlucky because I would like to go back to being able to order my diaper and trust them immediately instead of having to constantly worry if I am adjusted just right, if this diaper meets standards, or just any other general anxiety one might have with a low quality diaper. If others have had issues, any suggestions on other brands that are around the same price-point and absorbancy as NorthShore was earlier this year? Thanks!

Hey babies! So after a lot of thought, consideration, and talking with my partner, I have decided to go full on 24/7 for the foreseeable future! I am just finishing my first full week of nothing but diapers, and I honestly feel great. Some background/thoughts/questions are below if you’re interested! I am not *actively* trying to untrain, but I am also not holding my pee at all. If some of my bladder capacity goes away, well there wasn’t much there anyways (long history of overactive bladder). I thought after a full week, I would be burnt out on diapers, but I am weirdly the opposite. I already feel like I can’t imagine going back to underwear/Depends. After saying the above, I also am aware that I have not had to do anything like go into my office (yay remote work!), see friends or family, or spend a large period of time away from home. Once I have a leak out and about or need to change in public, I may hate diapers for 24/7 use haha. I currently wear Megamaxes and can get through a day with just 2 changes (I told you I got a small bladder!). I got a case coming in soon and have turned on auto-shipment so I won’t need to worry. As my partner who is not involved in ABDL stuff (just really accepting) said, “It will be like you have a big making sure you always have your diapies.” I am super open to suggestions for diapers for stuff like going to the office, going to the gym (mainly cardio and I sweat a LOT), or hanging out in situations that might be close with people I know. I used to wear Depends pullups anytime I left the house, but I’d like something a little thicker so I don’t feel like I am diaperless and won’t be instantly leaking if I have an accident. Depends also always broke apart if I had to do any kind of activity and sweat. I prefer pullups for work since pulling up and down a diaper is kind of a hassle in a stall (what with the noise, and then the diaper getting deformed sometimes), but not sure if there are any good pullups? My biggest struggle by far is wanting to take off my diaper after ehm…adult time? I am so proud that I haven’t yet. I just deal with the feeling of shame for a minute and then I am back to normal! Anyways, thanks for reading! I just am excited and strangely proud of myself for setting this goal of not taking off my diapers and sticking with it and I just wanted to share it ?

Hey mick_dl! Thanks for your reply. Sorry if I caused any confusion. I think the main reason I've considered going a more 24/7 route is because of my frustrations with my OAB. As I mentioned, I don't think I could ever realistically do that just because my experience with Depends has been enough of a pain. I was mainly wondering if people who went to 24/7 found their life easier considering their OAB. I just wanted to learn of people's experiences because right now, it doesn't sound easier, but it's just so frustrating right that am trying to be open to other options. That being said, I have started doing Kegals again to see if that might help. Thanks! Also, WetDad, I can imagine that tractor making it worse ? I used to work around similar equipment years ago. The tingling sensation was horrible for the OAB!

Thanks for the reply, WetDad! It sounds like your bladder acts up more than mine. I'm glad you have supporting wife on your side! Is there anything you do to ease your worries when you've been dry and are not wearing protection? The fear of accidents is what keeps me in Depends when I go out. Would you say the winter is harder or easier for you mentally since you are wearing diapers consistently? Thanks again for your reply

Hey all! First off, sorry I don’t post too much. I thought I would be more active on this site, but after work is over, I like to get away from screens. Second off, I’m not entirely sure if this post belongs here, or if it should be moved. Okay, now that all that is out of the way… I am confused on what I want with my diapered life. For some background, I have always loved diapers. It wasn’t until I was a little older that I liked dressing up in cute girly clothes, but the diapers have been a consistent desire in my life for as long as I can remember. When I was a teenager, I started having bladder spasms and I would also have to go to the bathroom between every class in high school, but since it didn’t cause an issue, I never paid much attention to it. Once I got a job, I went to the doctor because I realized it isn’t normal to have to pee every hour or two. I got diagnosed with overactive bladder. I also had a few tests done to rule out anything else, but I was good. Just overactive bladder (OAB). My symptoms for OAB are either: I get a feeling that I have to pee instantly and I am at a breaking point almost every 15-30 minutes. I will then have a full-on normal pee and it’ll be crystal clear. This is a little less often, but still annoying when it happens. I feel like I have to pee very badly, rush to the bathroom, just have a few dribbles and I’m good. I feel a spasm that makes me feel like I should pee. It isn’t painful, but it is…weird. I have horrible anxiety about my health, so please do not give me any ideas on what to worry about regarding my symptoms. I have recently been to my doctor, my bloodwork came back fine (include my kidney function) and everything else appears to be in good working order. Thank you! That being said, my OAB gives me a lot of anxiety because I can never tell if I had to pee a lot, or if it is a “ghost pee.” My anxiety also makes all my OAB symptoms worse haha. At the time I got diagnosed with OAB, diapers 24/7 was not an option for me because I was young and full of pride, even though I was in to diapers. I tried some different medicines, but they made it so it was almost impossible to pee, which was a very scary feeling. I ended up just having to change my habits (watch what I drink, when I drink it, Kegel workouts, and always go to the bathroom at any chance I had). Also, I would like to point out that my OAB symptoms are not constant. They come and go. Some days I will have a normal working bladder, others I will be in the bathroom peeing way too often. A few years later, I got diagnosed with IBS. Once I got that diagnosis, I decided to swallow my pride and try Depends just to give me some piece of mind. This gave me much more security and I ended up just wearing Depends any time I left the house, even when my IBS wasn’t acting up. I kept wearing because it eased my anxiety when it came to my OAB. I have worn Depends any time I leave the house for about three years now. While I still always try and hold my bladder when I wear Depends (because they are Depends after all), I see them as a “you got a few more seconds” buffer, which eases my mind a bit and is better than having no protection. That is great, but I feel like I want more security in general. I also want more security at home. Just yesterday I had an accident in a Zoom meeting. I wasn’t wearing a diaper or any padding, but ended up having to change into a diaper after that to be safe. I am sick of rushing to the bathroom when trying to play games, or in the middle of eating, before I do a task that should take just a few minutes, or doing the potty dance while trying to finish a work project. Sometimes I just want to be able to relax my bladder and let it empty whenever. So sounds pretty cut and dry, right? Just give up control and start wearing all the time. Well, it isn’t. I’ll admit, I have thought about the idea of being incontinent as a sexual fantasy before, but any time I thought about the practicality of it I go, “No thank you. That seems hard.” I am typically a pretty active person and I can’t see wearing anything beyond a Depend on 20-30 mile bike rides, at the beach, on a rough hike, jogging, and so on. Also just wearing Depends only when I go out for the last 3 years has kind of put me off of HAVING to wear something even more time consuming/noticeable when I do anything. I know people can do it, but it sounds miserable to me. Kudos to those that are able to do it, whether willingly or out of necessity! I want the ability to wear and let go when I want. “Well just do that then, ya dingus!” I tried to wear and relax for about a week once when my OAB started getting really bad, and it took a few days for me to really get my bladder under control again. I got used to dribbling pee out, and when I tried to go out of diapers, I was going pee maybe every 45 minutes for a few days after (at least that is what it seemed like). It was a hassle. I didn’t mind it while I was diapered because I wasn’t stressed about running to the bathroom. I actually had a lot of peace of mind during that week. But I feel like if I got into a habit of doing that when I had the time to, I wouldn’t be incontinent, but I wouldn’t be able to stay away from a bathroom for long during the times where diapers aren’t an option in my book. I’d need to wear diapers in a sense, but would probably be able to make do with something smaller when I am doing something a diaper wouldn’t be good for. Another factor is my relationship. I live with my girlfriend, who is very supportive and understanding, but this isn’t her thing. She is nice enough to let me wear on “bad bladder days” and occasionally lets me dress up and do little stuff, long as she isn’t always involved. I am very grateful for this. She had also been super supportive and understanding on why I wear Depends when I leave the house. She’s great overall, and I am very fortunate to have her. We have talked a few times about the idea of me going into diapers 24/7 (because the key to a healthy relationship is communication!) but she isn’t keen on the idea. She understands the Depends when I leave, or wearing thick diapers at home when my bladder is acting up, but since she knows I can usually get to the bathroom at home she doesn’t want diapers to be an all day, every day thing. I totally get it, and I don’t thin I want it to be 24/7, either for the reasons I listed above. But I feel selfish for sometimes wanting more so I’m not uncomfortable in regards to my OAB. All I know is that I want to not have to worry or stress about my OAB anymore. Does this mean wearing more? Maybe 24/7? Or does it mean getting to a point where I feel like I don’t NEED diapers and I only wear when I’m feeling little? So yeah. I’m not entirely sure what kind of route I want to go down with my diapered life. I am interest to hear what your experiences have shown. Is 24/7 something that would be better in the long run for dealing with OAB? Is there some other middle ground that isn’t 24/7 any of you have found that has helped ease your hassles with your OAB? Should I focus on doing more Kegels to try and just make it better overall (I feel like Kegels make it harder to hold pee after doing them, though, which is why I avoid it most of the time)? What has helped you most? Sorry for the wall of text! I hope you all have a great day and I appreciate you reading this far and for any insights you may have!

foreverdl: I try my best to have my mentality, but sometimes anxiety just takes over = / I used to never care and when I am calm and not having an anxiety/panic attack, I actually don't care too much if someone were to notice. I have a history of OAB that many people know about, so anyone close wouldn't bat an eye. Strangers are strangers and I never cared about their opinion too much. In the same respect, I am not going to outwardly show them off or not be safe....I guess I tend to just treat diapers as regular underwear = P Spark: I understand with the thrill, and that could have been a very large part of it since it was the first time I got to wear/use a diaper in a while at that point. Most times, I don't get that level of excitement any more, but I think it has just been because after wearing off and on for about 10 years, it isn't always that huge of a rush = P As mentioned before, when my girlfriend is home, diapers are 100% a security blanket for me, just when I am alone and "something bad could happen" thoughts strike = / Firefly 35: That is a good idea! Generally that does help with my normal anxiety/agoraphobia, so that should also help in this situation! Thank you all for the replies! = )

Thanks for the reply, rusty pins! As far as being closeted, that does make a lot of sense. It never used to cause me anxiety and I have many of the people coming over unexpectedly, almost finding my stash, or seeing people in public stories. When I moved, I actually became a lot less stressed about being a closeted diaper-wearer because no one knew me (I went from tiny town to living near/in the city). But, I do think keeping it hidden did play a role in the panic attack I had months ago. This happened shortly after a discussion with my girlfriend about doing little stuff while she was away, so I felt more pressure on hiding everything once I was done. Anyways, did you ever have any of those anxieties you mentioned before, rusty pins? If so, do you have any tips on overcoming them? My mentality used to be, "Oh well, if it happens it happens," but that just doesn't work anymore for me = / Thanks again!

Hey all! It seems like many of us use diapers as a way to reduce anxiety, but I was wondering if anyone gets anxiety when diapered or going into little space? Here recently, getting into little space has been causing me bad panic because of a recent experience. (There is a TL:DR at the bottom) What had happened is after I moved in with my girlfriend, we had agreed that I could get into little space fully (meaning diaper, cute pajamas, stuffed animals, all of that) while she was at work on days that I had off. I was completely fine with this and just happy I was in a relationship that I could be open about my little side and also have the chance to get into little space fairly often. One day while she was at work, I decided I wanted to go out to the store diapered up and get some supplies. I had been drinking a lot of water so the chances of an accident would increase throughout the day. While at the store, I started feeling really weird, so I left early and went to relax at home. By the time I got inside, I needed to change and I was starting to feel worse, so I got in the shower and decided once I was clean, I’d be done with little stuff for the day. I kept feeling worse as I was cleaning up and I became really paranoid that it was because I drank too much water. I started looking up symptoms of water intoxication after my shower...and like anytime you Google symptoms…it sounded a lot like I had it. I took the trash out so my girlfriend wouldn’t see a diaper laying on top of the trash, and by the time I got back inside I was completely winded and I felt like I was going to pass out. I called my girlfriend and she took me to the ER (bless her). They ran some tests, everything came back normal, my sodium levels were fine, and nothing to suggest water intoxication. I was released and was fine afterwards, just exhausted. It took me a while to realize that I most likely just had a massive panic attack, something that I had in the past but hadn’t struggled with in years. After that panic attack, I became very afraid to be left alone or to go out in places that “something could happen.” I have been going to therapy for the last few months because it has turned into mild-agoraphobia, with my main triggers being in places I can’t easily leave, or being completely alone. This is all due to the fact that the first panic attack I had in years happened in a situation I couldn’t leave easily and when I was alone. And what else was involved? Diapers. My mind now associates that horrible panic attack with diapers and getting in little space now. I have been trying to do some “exposure therapy” where I try to wear alone, but I can never really enjoy it the same way as before. I have also tried CBT exercises I have learned to help with my agoraphobia, such as being in the moment, telling myself that there is no real risk, thinking of it logically, telling myself “worst case scenario, someone sees me diapered,” and a few other things that are somewhat similar. It really sucks because diapers and little space were what I used to look forward to when my girlfriend was at work and I had off, it used to be like a mini-Christmas for me! Before we dated, it was my weekend go-to event because I lived by myself. But now, I feel afraid to fully get little. I fear that I will have a panic attack or something will happen that requires an ambulance to come get me and I’ll be in a pink night gown and wet adult diaper. Currently, I still have a strong urge to wear diapers and cute clothes, but I only feel comfortable to wear cute clothes if my girlfriend is home (she is okay with it occasionally). I can also wear diapers with normal clothes for a few hours when home alone before I start getting bad anxiety (which is a huge step in the right direction compared to a few months ago). I feel like I have made a lot of progress, but I am very distraught over diapers being an anxiety trigger rather than something that helps calm it. TL:DR Wearing diapers gives me anxiety most days because I had a panic attack while dressed up and now my brain associates diapers/little clothes with panic attacks. Anyways, I am curious to see if anyone else has had similar stories or if they have suggestions on how I can reclaim the joy that diapers used to give me. Thanks!

Hey kasarberang. I didn't have much luck finding an extension. Right now I just have an Incognito window up on my personal computer. Until I find something that works, I think I'll just keep it up so I can quickly check in when I am home. Thanks!

Thanks, kasarberang! I'll go check out the Chrome web store tonight before going to bed! : )