Rockies Fan in Diapers

I've sometimes wished that I could go & be a kid all over again, but then giving up the positives & independence of being able to make my own decisions & choices has held me back changed my mind since I had to fight & work harder than I should've had to in order to get those things when I was a chronological kid. The more I go through & discover & go through layer after layer of pain in counseling, I'm almost seriously considering saying screw losing even the things that I had to work & fight so hard for. I'm tired & angry that I got screwed out of things that I should've had thanks to my "parents".