Sissy Sister- Part 27 added 12/24

[diaprbayb]

I too long for the baby stories, but a good story is still worth the read. 

the fact that "she" may revert back keeps me interested .

 

Ohh... if you're asking. I am not wanting Scott to get too involved. 

[BabyGabrial]

12 hours ago, fireandcrinkles said:

Gabrial, sorry I don't think this story will have what you are looking for so you should probably read other stories that hopefully will.  

That's a shame. It was interesting in the early parts. 

[fireandcrinkles]

Gabrial, sorry I don't think this story will have what you are looking for so you should probably read other stories that hopefully will.  

[fireandcrinkles]

Chapter 17

I felt like I couldn’t breathe, and my heart was racing.  I heard knocking on the door, but I tried to ignore it.  I wished I had gone into mine and Jenny’s room instead because there would be a pacifier in there.  I also wondered for a minute if my mom had left my boy clothes in Steve’s room.  Could I some how sneak over there and change.

“Cindy…  open my door.”  Allie said.  “If you don’t open my door, I am texting pics of you in a dress and in a diaper to all my friends.” 

I really didn’t think she would do that.  Especially because I was pretty sure mom would take her phone away from if she did. 

“Listen, Leslie can only stall Scott for so long.  Open the door and we can talk about how to deal with this.”  Allie pleaded.  

Her second argument was stronger than the first.  I moved to the door and slowly opened it after unlocking it.  Allie pushed her way in right after the door moved. 

“Are you okay?”  She asked. 

“No…  I can’t do this.”  I told her. 

“You can… Leslie and I have your back, Sissy.”  Allie forced a big smile with a hard accent on the word sissy. 

I was surprised that I actually chuckled at that.  When I did Allie moved over and hugged me.  When we broke the hug, she took my hand I was shocked that I let her lead me out of the room and down the stairs.  I saw Scott sitting on the couch talking to Leslie.

Their backs were to me as Allie continued to lead me further into the room.  Mom poked her head out of the kitchen and gave me an encouraging smile.  Because of where she was sitting Leslie saw me first and did the same. 

Scott noticed or sensed the movement behind him and turned his body and was looking directly at me and Allie.  His eyes widened again but it wasn’t the shock I saw yesterday.  I watched as it was obvious that his brain was absorbing what he was seeing.  He then let his eyes travel from my feet to my head and back again. 

“Scott.  This is Cindy.  She showed up in this house while you were at camp.” I was thankful for Allie’s introduction. 

Leslie jumped in.  “Cindy is my new friend and I have loved spending time with her.” 

I could see both Allie and Leslie looking and me with an expression of say something.  My heart was racing. 

“Hi Scott.  How was camp?”  I got out somehow. 

“It was good… um… how have things been here anything exciting happen while I gone?”  He stuttered. 

Allie and Leslie laughed, and I was surprised that I chuckled also. 

“Uh… no not really.”  I replied. 

At that Allie and Leslie roared with laughter and I joined them.  Scott was looking at all three of us and I couldn’t tell he if was thinking we were crazy or if he felt left out of the joke. 

“Is someone actually going to explain what is going on here?  Mike… Cindy…. Whoever?  Umm… do you want to be a girl?  Is this like a Bruce… or I mean Caitlyn Jenner kind of thing?”  Scott asked. 

The three of us stopped laughing and looked at each other.  Allie nodded at me indicating I should answer. 

“Maybe.  I am trying to figure it out.  Allie, Leslie, my cousin, and my mom are helping me figure it out.”  I said to him.

“Christine is helping you?”  Scott responded. 

I laughed again.  Scott had made it very clear that to me that he had a huge crush on Christine. 

“Yes…  These are actually her clothes that she gave me.  Oh… and her bra!”  I winked at him. 

“How do you have boobs?  They aren’t real, right?”  Scott was staring at my chest now. 

“No… not real.  I am wearing falsies.” I smiled. 

“See… I told you the boobs were a good idea.  Boys like boobs!” Allie said while sticking her chest out a little farther.  

Leslie and I chuckled then she said.  “I guess it is a good thing I don’t think I want boys to like me then.”

“You don’t like boys?”  Scott asked.

“I don’t think so… or maybe I only like girly boys… still trying to figure that out.”  Leslie said honestly.  

I smiled at her then sat on the other end of the couch.  Allie moved over to the love seat.  All three of us shared a quick smile. 

“Scott, I am sorry for springing this on you.  I have been learning a lot about myself this week and I am not sure what any of it really means.  I just know I like girl’s clothes and I like girl things.  It would be great if we can still be friends.  It would also be great if you didn’t tell anyone, yet.” 

“Um… sure.  I remember when my brother was deciding how out to people he wanted to be.  He told me and our older sister before he even told our parents.  I get it… a little I think.”  Scott was still unsure of himself as he spoke. 

“Thanks.”  I just replied. 

“Although for you it is way more obvious right.  It isn’t like when you are gay people can see it on the outside.  If you go out wearing that outfit people will know.”  Scott said.

“I don’t think anyone will know.  He looks just like a girl.  I don’t see a boy at all.”  Leslie said. 

“Not everyone.  Sorry.  That came out kind of wrong.  You are right, he… she… definitely looks like a girl, she is actually pretty.  What I meant was anyone who knows her will see what she is wearing and know.”  Scott replied.

“Oh… yes, true.”  Leslie responded.

I was still focusing on Scott saying I was pretty.  My mom, Allie, Leslie and Christine had told me that but except for maybe Leslie, I felt like they had to say that.  Scott, or a boy saying it was totally different for some reason.  I had felt my cheeks redden as he said it. 

Allie, who must have been reading my mind, looked over at me and gave me a big smile and a wink.  I shyly smiled back at her. 

“So, what are you all doing today?”  Scott asked. 

“We haven’t decided yet.  Thinking of maybe taking Cindy out for a little shopping.  She needs to add to her wardrobe.  Want to go with us?”  Allie asked. 

“Shopping, for girls’ stuff. Uh… no thanks.”  Scott laughed. 

“We were going to see if Christine could take us.  Would that change your decision?”  Allie asked in a teasing tone.

Scott blushed.  “Uh… no… but I could always hang around until she came to pick you all up.” 

I sat there listening to this.  It was the first time I had heard of these plans, so I was surprised at that.  I was also a little surprised at Scott’s confidence in his reply.  Usually when someone teased him about girls he would get really embarrassed and clam up. 

“Now that you are girl do you still play video games?”  Scott asked me.

“I am not a girl.  I am dressing in girls’ clothes and doing some things that girls do.”  I responded. 

“You are using a girl name though.”  Scott responded. 

“True.”  I was anxious to change the conversation.  “I played some games with Steve the other day, why?” 

“Well since I came over, I thought maybe we could play a game or two, before you go shopping.”

“Trying to stall to be here when Christine comes?”  I joked. 

“Maybe.”

I got up and headed towards the stairs.  I turned back to Allie and Leslie who were both smiling.  I mouthed thank you to them and moved upstairs and into Steve’s room where the video games were.  As soon as I stepped in the room I realized there was going to be a problem. 

“Dude, where is your bed?” Scott asked. 

“Uh… my mom moved it.” I stuttered. 

“Oh… because she didn’t want Steve sharing a room with a girl?  She moved you into Allie’s room?”  Scott said. 

“Uh… kind of.”  I handed him a controller for the game and turned it on.  I was hoping this would distract him. 

Scott picked his avatar while I looked for the other controller.  I found it and went to pic my avatar.  I hesitated for a second before choosing the girl one I had picked before with Steve.

Scott chuckled.  “Well at least she is hot.  Speaking of hot… Allie suddenly grew up didn’t she.” 

“Dude, that is my sister you are talking about.”  I was faking a little of the outrage, but I was surprised to hear him say it. 

“Sorry…  but it is true.  Um… what is the deal with Leslie and you.  Seems like there was comments earlier that made it seem like she is into you.  Plus, the way she looks at you is pretty obvious.”  Scott went on.

“Not really sure what is going on.  It is has been an interesting week.”  I just said.

The game started and we stopped talking.  Scott, like Steve, was way better at the game then I was.  Plus, my mind wasn’t really focused on the game but more on everything else that was happening.   I did catch him loosing focus a few times as he was checking out my boobs.  As all of that was running through my mind, I suddenly realized I had to pee, and I spurted into the maxipad. 

“Hit pause.  I have to go to the bathroom.”  I yelled out as I jumped up. 

As I made it to the hall more pee spurted out.  Entering the bathroom, I slammed the door behind me and quickly undid my shorts, just before I pushed my panties down more pee escaped.  Finally, I sat on the toilet and finished peeing. 

When I was done, I looked down to check the possible damage.  The maxipad looked fairly soaked.  The panties and shorts though were still okay.  I removed the pad and wrapped it in some toilet paper and dropped it in the trash.  I noticed that there was another one in there and realized it was probably one of Allie’s. 

I pulled the panties up and rebuttoned my shorts.  A quick hand wash and I was tapping on Allie’s door and told to come in.  It felt weird not having anything bulky between my legs although I thought the panties felt pretty good. 

“What’s up.  Scott still here?”  Allie asked. 

“Uh yea… I had to take a potty break.”  I responded.

“Oh… did you make it there in time?  Everything okay?”  Leslie asked sincerely. 

“Yea… but uh… well… I need a new maxipad.  Do you have another one I could have?”  I asked her.

“Yea… I think so.  But I need to keep at least one for me.  Let me check what is in my bag.”  She said as she reached for her bag. 

I am not sure why exactly, but it excited me a little to be asking Leslie for one of her maxipads.  Her comment about needing to keep one for herself also excited me.  I watched expectantly as she opened her bag.

“You are in luck.  I have two left in my bag.  Here you go.”  She handed me one with a big smile on her face. 

“Thank you.”  I smiled at her. 

“You two should see the way you look at each other.”  Allie interjected. 

We both got very red faced and I turned to leave. 

“Hey how long is Scott going to stay?  I asked Christine to pick us up at one o’clock.” 

I looked back at Allie.  “Are we really going shopping?” 

“Yes… you really do need clothes.” Allie told me. 

“Okay.  I will tell him I will finish this game and then try and get rid of him.”  I told her. 

“Yea, tell him he will have to ogle Christine some other time.”  Allie laughed. 

“She isn’t the only one in this family he is ogling.”  I said back. 

“Oh… you caught him checking out your tits I bet. I don’t understand why boys don’t realize how obvious they are about that.”  Allie said matter of fact. 

“I guess I have to grow some tits to experience that.”  Leslie said with sort of sad chuckle. 

“Girlfriend, I watched Gary walk into a table at the pool the other day because his eyes were glued to your ass.  You have your charms.  Cindy here… never misses a chance to watch you walk away.”  Allie laughed. 

Again, Leslie and I got red in the face.  Although I knew what Allie had just said was true.  I also wondered about Gary.  Did she mean Gary that was on the football team?  He was going to be junior when school started. 

“Um… Yes, I did catch him doing that, but I meant you.  Scott told me that you had definitely grown up and he thinks you are hot.”  I walked out after saying that. 

I went back to the bathroom to slip the maxipad in before going back to complete the game.  As I got to the door Scott caught me by surprise as he stepped out. 

“I came looking for you because you had been gone so long.  Then I decided to pee myself.  What were you doing?”  He asked. 

“I uh.  Had to check on something with Allie really quick and she wouldn’t stop talking.  I will be back in a minute.”  I blurted out. 

Scott moved out of my way, but I noticed his eyes dropped down to my hand.  I tried to cover maxipad up by holding it against my opposite thigh as I slide into the bathroom.  I quickly removed the package and the peeled the plastic off the adhesive strip.  I dropped my shorts and panties and secured it in place. 

Everything felt right again as I walked back to Steve’s room.  As soon as I walked in Scott handed me my controller and the game started up again.  As expected, he beat me pretty badly even while being distracted by my boobs.  The game ended and I figured he would ask if I wanted to play again but instead, he set the controller down. 

“Mike… sorry Cindy.  I won’t tell anyone, but it is going to get out eventually.  Unfortunately, too many people already know.  All your family, Leslie, and now me.  I would be surprised if Steve hasn’t told someone.  I was only a year or so older than him when my brother came out.  I couldn’t keep it inside and I told Lance.”  Scott was looking across the room as he spoke.

“My mom threatened Allie and Steve about telling anyone.”  I told him. 

“Yea… then how did Leslie find out?”  He asked. 

“Allie brought her over when I was dressed up.”  I said leaving out that I was dressed as a baby and had a poopy diaper at the time. 

“That wasn’t an accident.  She wanted her best friend to know.  Although it looks like Leslie took it well.  Really well actually.”  He smiled.  “She is very cute.  Anything going on there?” 

“Maybe.  Not sure yet. But probably.  I guess.”  I looked down at the floor. 

“So…  you like girls, right?  Not boys.  It is okay if you like boys, just asking.”  He smiled. 

“Yea… I like girls.  Honestly, outside of Christine I have never really had a crush on someone.  I think I am developing one on Leslie, though.”  I answered. 

“Who doesn’t have a crush on Christine?”  He joked.  “So no to boys then?” 

“I think so.  Disappointed?  I have seen the way you have been checking out my boobs!”  I laughed as I said it and it felt good to tease him.  

Scott face turned red because he had been caught. “You wish.  You kept jutting them out there all proud of yourself.  How could I not see them?” 

I don’t know why but the banter made me feel good, so I turned and tackled him face down and pushed my boobs into his back.  Scott and I wrestled all the time.  He won most of the time. 

“You aren’t going to make me fight a girl, are you?”  He said as he squirmed out from under me. 

I giggled in my best girl voice and found myself now on my back with Scott on top of me.  I was surprised by the look in his eyes as he looked down on me.   There was something that seemed very different.  I also realized I had a brief thought of wanting him to bend his head down and kiss me.

Fortunately, or unfortunately the pressure of his body on my stomach transferred to my bladder and I suddenly realized I was on the brink of peeing again.  I fleet a quick squirt escape, but I was able to stop it from continuing.  I knew I had to get out from under him soon.   

“Okay… you win.  You proved you can beat up a girl.”  I stuck my tongue out him. 

He slowly, almost reluctantly, got up from laying on top of me.  There was a slight awkwardness as we sat for a minute.  I was concentrating on holding my bladder from peeing along with trying to think of something to say in this moment.  

A quick wrap on the door and Allie opened it.  “Mom said it is lunch time.  She made tuna fish sandwich and Scott can stay if he wants one.” 

Allie looked at me funny.  Scott said sure and got up and headed towards the stairs.  As I stepped out Allie grabbed my arm and held me from moving.

“What were you all doing in there?” She asked quietly with some alarm in her voice.

“Playing a video game. Why?”  I responded.

“Because you look all… disheveled or something…. Like you were making out.  You weren’t in here kissing him, were you?  Leslie will be devastated.” 

“No… we just wrestled a little, like we always do.”  I said.

“Yea… uh… girl tip… boys wrestle each other… boys and girls don’t wrestle each other.”  Allie said.

“Yea, yea….  I need to pee and then I will be right down.”  I told her. 

Stepping in the bathroom I immediately peed.  The maxipad was wet but not drenched so I pulled it and my panties back into place.  Then I took a minute to get my clothes all situated.  When I looked in the mirror my hair was a mess, but my makeup still looked good. I fixed my hair and went down to the kitchen to eat. 

When I walked in, I noticed that Scott had taken a seat next to Allie and was talking to her.  I sat down next to Leslie who smiled at me.  Mom handed out the sandwiches and there was a big bag of chips in the middle of the table. 

Everyone talked about the end of summer coming and about school starting again soon.  It made me realize I would have to make a decision about my appearance for school in the near future. 

“Is everyone going to the summer formal on Saturday?”  Scott asked. 

“Leslie and I are.  We got our dresses the other day.”  Allie responded. 

“I bet you both will look beautiful.”  He replied while looking right at Allie and smiling. 

I realized I was maybe a little jealous of how he was looking at Allie and that he said that she was beautiful.  I knew he had said Leslie would look beautiful also, but it was obvious he was speaking directly to Allie and flirting a little with her.  

Allie seemed to be eating it up and she touched his arm as she smiled back at him asking.  “Are you going to go?” 

“I hadn’t decided but now that I know you and Leslie are going, I probably will.  Hopefully you will dance with me if I do.”  His eyes hadn’t left Allies. 

“A big sophomore would want to dance with a freshman?”  Allie had emphasized the words big and sophomore. 

“Only the really pretty ones.” Scott said.

Even mom giggle a little at that.  I was stewing in my chair as I listened to this.  I could feel Leslie watching me out of the corner of her eye as this went on.  I also had never known Scott to flirt with a girl before. 

“Allie, I figured you would only want to dance with Jimmy at the formal.  Especially since you have been fawning over him at the pool every day.”  I said.

Allie shot me a death stare while Leslie giggled.  Scott’s facial expression changed. 

“Who is Jimmy?” Scott asked. 

“He just moved here, and Allie has big crush on him.”  Leslie said.

“I don’t have a big crush on him.  He is cute though.”  Allie’s tone made it clear she wasn’t happy with me or Leslie mentioning Jimmy right now.  “Cindy, maybe you should go to the formal.  It would be a great place to let everyone see the new you.” 

“Oh… I like that idea.  And you already have a dress for it.  You could wear one of the ones that Christine gave you.  You looked amazing in them!”  Leslie said enthusiastically. 

Allie laughed.  “It is obvious who Leslie has a big crush on.” 

Leslie blushed and shot Allie a look but then said.  “You are right, Allie. I do have a crush on you Cindy. You were so beautiful when you tried on those dresses, I would love for you to go to the formal, I would love to dance with you at it.” 

I saw everyone looking at me.  Scott’s eyes were wide, Allie face showed something that was a combination of smirk and a grin, and Leslie’s face was covered with a big smile and very red cheeks.  

“Uh… thanks Leslie, you… you look amazing in your dress.  That would be a big step for me.  I am not sure I am ready for that.”  I stammered out. 

We had finished our lunch and I cleared all the plates for everyone and put them in the dishwasher.  My mom smiled at me as I finished cleaning the kitchen by wiping down the counters.  Leslie had excused herself to go to the bathroom and Scott and Allie had gone into the living room and were laughing about something. 

I had just stepped out of the kitchen when Leslie came down the stairs her bag was over her shoulder.  She reached for my arm and pulled me closer to her.  She quietly told me that she had to change her maxipad and was going to run home and get a new one.  She confessed, in an even more quiet voice, that it was the first day of her period and she was bleeding very heavily.

She moved toward the door and announced that she would be right back and just had to run home really quick.  Allie and Steve barely acknowledged her and went right back to laughing and giggling about whatever they were talking about. 

Mom motioned me into the kitchen, and I followed her.  “Umm… how are you doing?  No accidents or uh anything so far today?  The pullups holding up okay?”  

“Um… I haven’t been wearing a pullup most of the morning.  I couldn’t get the shorts on over it.”  I told her.

“So, you are just wearing, panties… and no accidents?  That is great news.”  Mom said.  She had had hesitated for a second on the word panties. 

“Not exactly.”  I replied.  For some reason I was embarrassed to tell her I had been wearing Leslie’s maxipads and had small accidents in them.  In fact, the one I currently had in place was definitely wet and probably needed to be changed out. 

“What do you mean by not exactly?”  Mom’s tone was serious. 

“Leslie gave me some of her maxipads and I have been wearing them.  I uh…. Well, I have spurted some pee into them but was able to stop myself from just freely wetting in them.”  I couldn’t look at her as I spoke. 

“Why Leslie’s.  Why didn’t you just grab one of Allie’s?”  Mom asked. 

“Because… well Leslie’s are uh… bigger or thicker.”  I responded. 

“And you like that?  Or you need that?  Or do you like knowing you are wearing the same thing as Leslie is wearing?”  Mom looked me right in the eye as she spoke. 

“Well… yes.”  I looked down again. 

“Yes… you like that they are thicker, or you think you need them to be thicker to soak up your pee?”  She seemed a little impatient.  “Or that it is what Leslie is wearing?” 

“All of it.”  I was surprised I was honest with mom. 

“Okay.  I will have to figure out what brand and style she uses, and I can get you some of your own.  I am sure Leslie’s mom doesn’t want to be paying for your maxipads.”  She gave a slight chuckle at the end.

“Oh… that would be great mommy.  Thank you.”  I said sincerely. 

There was a quick knock on the front door followed by it swinging open as Christine walked in.  I stepped out of the kitchen. 

“Hi Cindy.  You look cute. Ready to do some shopping?” She asked. 

“Yes.  We have to wait for Leslie to come back before we can go.  She wants to go with us.” I told her.

“No problem.” She said and looked over at Allie who was sitting on the couch with Scott.  “Allie, are you going with us also or are you staying here with your friend?  Is that the Jimmy I have I have been hearing about?”

Allie’s eyes bugged out and she turned red.  “I am going with you all.  Can’t miss Sissy getting more girly stuff, can I?” 

“Allie… what have I told you about that.”  Mom boomed out. 

“What… Cindy is my Sissy mom.”  Allie tried to sound indignant. 

“Christine, that is my friend Scott on the couch.  You have met him before.”  I said. 

I had been watching him and the look on his face when Christine called him Jimmy was total disappointment.  What was hard to tell was if it was because Christine didn’t recognize him or if it was because it was a reminder that Allie had a crush on some guy named Jimmy. 

“Oh… I am sorry Scott.  I didn’t get a good look at you because of the lamp shade.  If I had clearly seen you I would have remembered.  I never forget the names of cute boys.”  Christine had laid that on pretty thick. 

“Hi Cindy. It is okay.”  Scott was now beaming.

Now Allie frowned.  Scott had turned his attention from her to Christine and it was very obvious he was enthralled with what Christine had said. 

There was new quick rap on the door and Leslie came in.  Christine had moved into the family room and greeted Leslie warmly when she stepped in.  Leslie returned the greeting.  Leslie motioned to me, ,and I moved over next to her. 

When I reached her, she took me arm and pulled me close and quietly said into my ear.  “I got you a couple more maxipads.  They are in my bag.  I didn’t think you would want me to hand them to you where Scott could see.” 

“Thank you.  Can you drop your bag in Allie’s room and I could get them there?  I need to change the one I am wearing.”  I told her. 

She nodded and bounced up the stairs to Allie’s room and then came back down.  She went and sat on the love seat. 

“Uh… Scott we are going to go do some shopping.  I will text you later and maybe we can do something tomorrow. Thanks for being so understanding today.  It means a lot.  A whole lot.”  I told him and felt like I should hug him. 

“Sure.  Ah no problem.”  Scott said as he stood up and headed towards the door. 

I moved to the stairs and before heading up them, I watched Scott’s eyes dart between Allie and Christine, it was almost like he was doing a comparison or evaluation.   

I went into Allie’s room and saw Leslie’s bag lying on the bed.  I opened her bag and saw there were actually four maxipads in the bag.  I took two of them and left two for Leslie.  I stepped out in the hallway and my mom was standing there. 

“So that is the brand Leslie uses?  Did she bring those for you?”  She asked. 

I nodded and saw mom stick her hand out to me indicated she wanted to see one of them.  I gave it to her, and she examined it before handing it back. 

“Yea.  They feel pretty thick and bulky.  I can see why you like them instead of Allie’s.  I will get you some this afternoon when I go to the store.  Were you planning on changing the one you were wearing to a new one for when you go shopping?”  Mom asked. 

“Yea… the one I have on is wet.”  I replied.

“Do you really think that will be enough protection?  Remember what happened the last time you were out with the girls shopping, and that was a pullup.”  Mom cocked her eye at me. 

I stared down at the ground.  I did remember.  I had an accident and pee had run down my leg and onto the floor. 

“I really want to go shopping with the other girls though mom.”  I whined. 

“The other girls?”  She smiled at me.  “You consider yourself one of the girls now, right.” 

I nodded yes. 

“How about for today you wear one of Allie’s skirts and I diaper you before you go.  Just to be really safe.”  Mom said to me. 

“A diaper? Why can’t I wear a pullup.”  I asked. 

Mom laughed.  “Let me be sure I am hearing you right.  You are now complaining about being diapered?” 

“Only because I might not be able to try on things with a diaper on.”  I quickly responded. 

“Hmm… how about… I can’t believe I am suggesting this.  How about I lend you one of my bags and you can take a spare diaper with you.  Plus, maybe a pullup and even some panties and a maxipad.  Depending on what you are trying on you can change."  Mom said. 

I thought for a minute then responded.  “How am I going to change the diaper though.  Every time I do it myself, I never get it tight enough.”

“That is why I couldn’t believe I was suggesting it.  Christine or Allie can diaper you.  It isn’t like they haven’t done it before, right?  I do have one rule though, Leslie can’t do it.  Understand.”  Mom looked at me sternly as she said the last part. 

I nodded at her but was thinking about the idea of Leslie diapering me.  I realized the idea of the made my heart beat faster and my skin feel flushed. 

Mom had stepped back into Allie’s room and pulled out a jeans mini-skirt and then came back into the hall and led me into mine and Jenny’s room.  She went over the closet and grabbed a couple of diapers, the wipes and the powder. 

“Take your shorts and panties off.  Oh, and I guess drop that maxipad in the diaper pail.  Then lay on your bed.” Mom directed. 

I followed her directions.  Mom quickly ran the wipe over me and then fluffed out my diaper and I lifted my butt up so she could slide it in place.  A quick dash of powder was applied and then she pulled the front up and began to tape it in place.  I looked at my mom and she suddenly had a big smile and I realized she was reacting to the smile on my face as I enjoyed the experience of being diapered. 

I laid there for a minute relishing the feeling of having mom diaper me.  As much as I had enjoyed the panties and maxipad today, they were nothing like the feeling of having someone pull the diaper tapes tight on you.  I wasn’t sure if just getting to experience that once each day, before bed at night, would be enough for me.

“Slide this skirt on and I will go grab my sandals for you again.  I think you can just have them at this point.”  She said. 

I put the skirt on and then the sandals.  Mom had gone to her room and came back with a large bag.  I watched as she put a pack of wipes, two pullups, two diapers, a maxipad and a pair of panties in it. 

“Tell Allie and Christine you need some mascara and lip gloss while you are shopping and get one each for your room and another set for your bag, okay.”  She directed.

I nodded yes and took the bag from her and headed down the stair after her.   

“Girls, I diapered Cindy.  I didn’t want another accident like happened on the last shopping trip.  I also packed a bag, it has some diapers, pullups, and a maxipad in it.  I also told her that she needs to get some mascara and….”  Mom stopped suddenly as she finished coming down the stairs and stepped in the living room. 

I stepped down behind her and saw that both Leslie and Christine had a look of shock on their faces.  It was when I looked over towards the door and saw that Allie was standing there and Scott was standing next to her that I understood why. 

“Jesus Christ.  Not again.  Scott what are you still doing here?”  Mom exclaimed.  

Leslie had got up and immediately moved over to me and grabbed my arm.  Allie grabbed Scott’s arm.   Scott just stared at me.  I realized that I had to tell him… something.  I just wasn’t sure what to tell him.  I pulled away from Leslie and moved towards Scott. 

“Can we step outside and sit on the porch?”  I asked him. 

He didn’t answer and just followed me out the front the door.  I took a seat on the front stair smoothing my skirt under me and being careful keep my legs together so no one could see up the skirt.  Scott hesitated but sat next me. 

“I guess you heard everything my mom said?”  I asked and he just nodded yes. 

I took a deep breath.  “So…  besides the girl thing… I have… well right now at least… I uh… I have to wear things because I… I uh… I accidentally wet myself if I don’t.” 

I figured something close to the truth was the best thing to tell him.  I did have to wear protection, or I would wet myself right now.   

Scott stared straight ahead.  “When did this start?” 

“About a week ago.”  Again, it was pretty much the truth. 

“Oh… and right now you are wearing a…  like a real diaper?”  He glanced quickly at me. 

“Yes…”  I didn’t elaborate. 

“Whatever man.  That sucks that you have to do that.  Hopefully the doctor can figure out what is wrong.  I am going to tell Allie bye really quick and head home.  Don’t worry, I will keep this secret also.”

He turned and opened the door and I heard him telling Allie goodbye and saying he hoped to see her again soon.  When the door closed, he bounded down the steps and yelled he would see me later over his shoulder. 

I stood there wondering three things.  First, why I let him believe it was a medical problem and not something I liked.  Two, why was I okay with him knowing I liked girl stuff but not with him knowing I liked diapers. Three, how did I feel about the fact that it was very obvious my best friend had suddenly developed a serious crush on my sister.   

[Eagle0769]

How old is Christine and were the waiting for her to go shopping bc she was their ride?

[fireandcrinkles]

Chapter 18

 After Scott left, we all grabbed our bags and heading out to Christine’s car.  Mom had quietly told Allie something, so she was trailing behind us.  I watched Leslie go around the car to the driver’s side and open the rear door.  As I got to the passenger side, I opened the rear door on that side and climbed in. 

As I sat down you could hear the crinkling of my diaper and I blushed as I turned to look at Leslie.  She gave me a knowing smile and then reached for my hand and gave it a quick squeeze.  I loved the feeling that gave me.  I also realized that I hadn’t even hesitated as I choose where to sit, I had left the front seat for Allie, deferring to her as my big sister. 

Allie climbed in.  “Okay, ladies ready to help my Sissy be even more of girl?” 

An enthusiastic chorus of yes was heard, and Leslie squeezed my hand again.  I contemplated what Allie meant by even more of a girl.  The drive to the mall was about 20 minutes and it was quiet at first, I saw that Leslie and Allie were focusing on their phones.  That reminded me that mom still hadn’t told me exactly when I would be able to get mine back. 

Christine finally broke the silence.  “Allie, what is the deal with Scott?  He seems very interested in you.  Do you like him.  He is pretty cute.” 

I saw Leslie’s eyes widen at the question and could tell that the question caused Allie to fidget in her seat. 

“Uh… maybe.  It is weird though he never paid me any attention before and suddenly he can’t stop talking to me, smiling at me, looking at me, umm… and checking out my boobs.”  Allie answered nervously. 

“Well, you have really grown up in the last six months, plus now you will be going to same school again, and maybe he just started really noticing girls.  What do you think Mike…?  sorry Cindy, he is your friend had ever mentioned girls before.”  Christine said. 

“Uh… not really.  But he did talk about Allie this morning.”  I responded.  I had started to tell Christine that the only girl he had ever mentioned before was her. 

“Yea... what did he say about her?”  Christine asked. 

“Just that she had grown up or something like that.”  I muttered. 

“Are you okay with him having a crush on your sister?  Would it bother you if they were a couple or dated or whatever?”  Leslie suddenly asked. 

“I uh…  I don’t think so.  As long as he was nice to her and treated her good it would be okay.  I think.”  I said.

“Awe… that is sweet that you worry about her being treated okay.  A little surprising based on how you two normally get along but definitely sweet.”  Christine smiled in the mirror at me. 

“We definitely get along better as sisters, don’t we Sissy?”  Allie laughed. 

“Yes… that is for sure.”  I replied. 

“So… Allie and Cindy, you all are okay if one of your friends is involved with your sister?”  Leslie asked with an anxious tone and an emphasis on the word involved. 

“Why would you ask that question?”  Allie laughed. 

Leslie’s faced turned bright red.  “Everyone in this car knows why I asked that question.” 

This time I reached over for Leslie’s hand and squeezed it and said.  “It is okay with me, and I hope it is okay with Allie.” 

I saw Christine smile at me in the mirror and Allie turned around and looked back at us and nodded yes with a big smile on her face. 

The car got quiet again.  My mind was racing with the thoughts of what had just been discussed and what that meant.  Leslie reached out and took my hand in hers and smiled at me in a way that made my heart race.

We arrived at the mall a short time later and Christine pretty much lead that way.  We started with buying me some more panties and bras.  We bought both two bras that my falsies would fit in and two that were A cup bras.  You could see that that the sales person was a little confused by this.  Christine gave off an air of confidence and was so sure of herself it wasn’t questioned.

Next, we bought some panties.  I was a little excited about this and looked through the different styles.  I had picked up a nylon thong and a string bikini. 

Allie came over and whispered in my ear.  “I get why you would want those but remember they aren’t going to be real practical for holding you maxipad in place.  Especially the size you and Leslie are using.” 

I blushed.  “Yea you are right, but I have that pack of cotton bikinis at home for that, right?” 

“True.  Already thinking like a girl.”  Allie winked. 

Next, we looked for some casual clothing for me.  It was during that time that I wet my diaper.  I just started to pee and by the time I realized it, I pretty much couldn’t stop, and it was soaked.   I had a realization that I had liked how it felt while I was doing it and I liked how it felt now. 

We left the store we were in with two more denim miniskirts.  One was a pastel pink, and the other was lavender.  Because they were skirts there was no problem with the bulk of the diaper, I had on fitting them over it. 

As we walked to the next store Leslie took my arm in her hands and pulled me close to her.  “You wet your diaper, didn’t you?” 

“Uh… yea.  How did you know?” I asked surprised. 

“You got a funny look on your face as you were doing it and you walk a little different when you are wearing a wet diaper.  You waddle a little.”  She told me. 

I blushed.  “I am sorry.  It started and before I realized it was happening it was too late.” 

“Don’t apologize to me.  I think it is…  I think it is kind of sexy.”  She looked up at me with a strange look on her face as she spoke. “I hope that is okay.” 

I was surprised at what she said and just quickly replied.  “Sure, it is okay.” 

We entered the next store, and it was obvious we were here for shorts.  Christine was grabbing some off the shelves and I knew that I would need to take my wet diaper off and at least put a pull up on. 

I tapped Allie on the shoulder.  “Can you come with me really quick?”

“Sure.  What do you need?”  She responded. 

I leaned close to her.  “I need to go to bathroom and change if we are going to try on shorts.” 

“Just take your diaper off and put it in the bag in the changing room.  Then put on the panties and a pad before trying on the shorts.”  Allie told me. 

“Uh… the diaper I have on is wet.”  I said quietly. 

“Oh. Like really wet? Like not just a little spurt of pee?”  Allie’s eyes had widened.  

I just nodded yes.  Which resulted Allie taking my elbow and leading me to the restroom.  I walked into the women’s room with her without even thinking about it.  Allie checked the stalls really quick and found out they were all empty.  

“Okay.  Step in and take the wet diaper off and use the wipes to clean yourself.”  Allie directed and then asked me. “Did you know you were peeing when it happened and just did it anyways?”

“No… by the time I realized it was happening it was pretty much done.” I told her honestly. 

“Hmm… how long ago was that? If you just did it, then the chance of you peeing again are pretty low and I think the panties and maxipad would be fine.” 

“It happened while I was trying on the miniskirts.” I told her. 

“Okay… you should be good.”  She responded.  “Just try and concentrate and if you even think you need to pee let me know.

I lifted my miniskirt and pulled the tapes off and before I realized it my diaper dropped to the ground.  I reached into my bag that was hanging on the hook on the door and pulled out the wipes and quickly cleaned myself.

I pulled on a pair of my cotton panties that were in the bag and the grabbed a maxipad.  As I ripped open the package and pulled the adhesive off before setting it in the gusset of the panties.  I pulled them in place and felt some contentment at the bulk between my legs. 

I grabbed the diaper off the floor and took it and the maxipad packaging and out of the stall and dropped them in the trash can.  I quickly washed my hands and grabbed the bag and stepped out and saw Leslie waiting for me. 

“Christine and Allie are already looking the shorts.  Are you okay? Are you sure you have enough… protection?”  Leslie asked. 

The way she had said protection made me smile.  “I think so.  Especially since I recently peed.  Thanks for giving me some more maxipads.  I uh… well the ones you use, I like how they feel.”  

“You are welcome.  Glad you like them.  A little secret, I kind of like how they feel also but I really hate why I have to wear them.”  Allie smiled at me. 

We met the others and Christine had already picked out several pairs of shorts.  Two pairs were denim, one plain, and the other with embroidered butterflies on it.  There was a pair of pink corduroy and a khaki pair also.  I took them from her and stepped into the dressing room. 

They all fit okay and after a quick fashion show I picked the embroidered denim ones and pink corduroy pair.  Allie teased me about picking the most girly pairs while Christine and Allie smiled at me. 

“Speaking of girly, no shopping day is complete without at least one new pair of shoes, and we should get at least a few tops to go with the shorts and skirts we have picked up.” Christine announced.

I knew I needed to put a fresh diaper on before we moved on and after a little bit of thought I stepped over to Allie and whispered in her ear. 

“Uh… can you help me with a new diaper.  Mom suggested that if I had to change it that you or Christine do it since you all have done it before.  She doesn’t want it to leak.” 

“Okay… I guess.  Not sure why I get to be the lucky one.  Why not Leslie, I am sure she would love to do it.”  Allie said. 

“Mom specifically said Leslie couldn’t do it.” I quickly responded.  “Plus… you make sure it is on nice and tight.”

“Yea… I was joking about Leslie.  Well not about her probably loving to do it, but I know why mom said that.  Come on.”  She grabbed my elbow and led me to the bathrooms. 

I headed towards the women’s restroom door when Allie stopped me and we entered the family restroom.  When we stepped in there was a large counter in the middle of it. 

“Slid those panties off and then jump up on the counter and lay down.”  Allie instructed. 

I followed her instructions and laid the panties on the counter leaving the maxipad in it. 

“Wow those things look even bigger out of the package.  How do you and Leslie walk while wearing them.  Okay, butt up.”  Allie was very nonchalant about what was happening. 

I lifted my butt up while staring at the wall.  I didn’t want to look at Allie while she did this.  I felt the diaper slide under me and then Allie flipped the front of the skirt up and she pulled the diaper up between my legs.  She quickly taped it into place, and I again noticed that she had diapered me tighter than mom which I liked. 

“Okay… all done Sissy.  Hope I made it tight enough from you.  Let’s get back to shopping.”  Allie smiled at me.

I climbed down and grabbed the panties and put them back into my bag as Allie and I exited the bathroom.  I loved how the diaper felt on me plus I realized part of it was the realization that if I did pee it wouldn’t matter because I was protected. 

“How about some Starbucks, girls before our next stop?”  Christine asked while pointing at the store across the way. 

Everyone agreed.  I ordered a venti white iced white chocolate mocha and when the girl asked for my name, I caught myself as I started to say Mike.  When my drink came, I smiled as I read Cindy on the side of it.

At the next store we stopped in, I picked up two blouses, two women’s cut polo shirts, and some v-neck t shirts that were for women.  I also got a black skater’s skirt.  All the of the shirts were either pink, lavender, purple or white. 

“Okay, almost done with the shopping.  You need some shoes girly.”  Christine announced.  “You can’t spend your life in sandals.” 

At the shoe store I got a pair of pink Keds, a pair of flip flops, and another white strapped sandal with a small wedge heel.  Christine told me that by just changing from the Keds to the wedges while wearing the polos and a mini skirt my whole look would change. 

“Cindy needs a pair of heels.”  Allie announced.  “She is thinking about going to the formal and needs some shoes for that.” 

“Really?  You are honestly thinking about going to that?  I thought everyone was just kidding about that earlier.”  Christine asked surprised. 

Leslie’s face had light up at Allie’s statement and she turned and hugged me.  “Oh, that would be so amazing if you did!”

“Uh… I probably won’t go but maybe.”  I said. 

The truth was I was pretty sure I wouldn’t go but two things stopped me from saying it then.  One, I didn’t want to disappoint Leslie right now.  Two, even if I didn’t go, I wanted a pair of heels.  I had really enjoyed wearing them when Christine came over and we all dressed up. 

“Okay.  Which dress are you thinking of wearing?”  Christine asked. 

“The teal one, right? You were gorgeous in that!”  Leslie said. 

“Uh… yea. That one.”  I said. 

“That dress okay with you Allie?  Isn’t that the one you said was a hooker dress?”  Christine smiled at her. 

“Hey… I apologized for saying that and it wasn’t the dress so much, as how well she walked in those heels.”  Allie laughed. 

“Yep… a natural diva that is for sure, but I think we will stick with a smaller heel, no more than three inches.”  Christine said as we moved over to the heel section. 

It didn’t take long to settle on a gold sequined pump with a three-inch heel on it.  They fit perfectly and everyone laughed as I easily moved around the store in them.  A part of me wanted to wear them out of the store but I knew I couldn’t.  We boxed them up and paid for them at the register and walked out of the store. 

“Alright ladies I would say that was a successful day of shopping.  Cindy, your mom said we needed to pick up a little make up for you right?  And she said we could offer to take you to get your ears pierced, if you wanted?” Christine announced. 

Wow.  I was surprised at this.  I looked at Christine, Allie, and Leslie and all three of them had earrings in their ears.  I quickly decided I wanted them also. 

“Will it hurt?”  I asked. 

“Just for a second.”  Leslie told me. 

“Okay.  Let’s do it.”  I said. 

We stopped and got the makeup first and then went to get the earrings done.  Leslie held my hand as it happened.  I was glad I was wearing a diaper because with the stab of pain each time I felt some pee escape.    I admired the gold studs in my ears in the mirror as it was handed to me. 

“Well, that smile says you are happy with that decision, huh.”  Allie said and then leaned closer.  “Before we leave do you need another diaper change?” 

“No, I just wet this one a little so I should be fine until we get home.  Thanks for everything today.  You are an awesome big sister!”  I emphasized the word big as I said it. 

“I know… and you are a great Sissy.”  She smiled back. 

We walked out to the car and loaded the bags in the trunk before taking our seats in the car.  Not much was said on the drive home, I was still kind of absorbing everything that was going on.  Leslie reached for my hand and took it in hers.  I turned to her to smile, and she leaned over to me and quickly kissed my lips. 

I was shocked but loved how it felt and squeezed her hand tight.  I looked up in the rearview mirror and saw Christine smile at me and she winked. 

Out of nowhere Allie said.  “We didn’t get you a bathing suit.” 

“Uh… no.  But I am not sure I really need one do I?”  I responded. 

“So, you are never going to the pool again?  You and Scott went to the pool almost everyday last summer.”  Allie replied. 

I laughed.  “Is this about me having a bathing suit or Scott going to the pool?  And how are you going to handled having both Scott and Jimmy at the pool?” 

“I am sorry for worrying about you.  I won’t do it again.”  Allie said tersely.

“Come on Allie.  It was a legit question, actually they were both legit questions. I am sorry I laughed a little, but it was an honest question.”  I said softly. 

“Okay… you are right.  I was thinking about Scott being at the pool.  But I was also thinking about you going to the pool.”  Allie admitted. 

“What about the Jimmy part?” Leslie asked. 

“I don’t think that is a problem.  I texted Jimmy that I liked him as a friend but that was it for now.” 

“What? Wow.  That was a quick change.” Christine jumped into the conversation. 

“I guess.  But really Scott is way hotter, well maybe not way hotter but definitely hotter. Right, Leslie?”  Allie turned back and smiled at her. 

“Not sure I am the best one to judge how hot a boy is.  The hottest boy I know caught my attention when he, sorry she, started to wear girls’ clothes.” Leslie laughed. 

“True, and it was baby girl’s clothes at that.”  Allie added and laughed.  “Okay, so back to Cindy’s bathing suit.  She needs one.  And I guess judging by today a swim diaper also.  Didn’t mom order you one of those?” 

“Woah… I don’t know about wearing a girl bathing suit to the pool and I definitely don’t know about a swim diaper although I do remember mom mentioning something about getting me one.”  I protested. 

“Well obviously you can’t wear a bikini but with a full cut one piece you might get away with it?”  Allie smiled at me. 

“Let’s swing by my house real quick.  I have some old suits I don’t wear anymore that she can have to see if they would work.”  Christine said. 

Christine’s house was only a few minutes out of the way, and we all waited in the car while she ran in.  She came back holding a bag that she passed back to me before quickly backing out of the driveway. 

“Hope one of those will fit.  They were before my boobs really came in, but my butt had definitely filled out by then.”  Christine told me.

“Oh, so you had a body like Leslie’s then.”  Allie laughed. 

“Funny.  Miss big tits.”  Leslie said but she smiled as she said it. 

Allie turned around and was looking at me as I pulled the suits out.  They were pretty plain looking but I didn’t care. I thought the chance of me every actually wearing one were pretty low. 

“Maybe Leslie can help you pick since I am sure she is looking forward to seeing you in one.”  Allie winked at us. 

Leslie and I blushed while quickly looking at each other.  I again felt that warm fuzzy feeling seeing her smile. 

Christine dropped us off at my house.  I thanked for her help again.  She told me if I decided to go to the formal that she would help me with my makeup.  I was still pretty sure I wouldn’t go but I had seen the smile on Leslie’s face when it was mentioned. 

We got the porch and Leslie said she had to head home.  She promised her mom that she would be home for dinner tonight.  She pulled me into a hug and again quickly kissed me on the lips.  I sputtered out a goodbye and told her I hoped I would see her tomorrow. 

“Even more bags?  Did you wear the numbers off my credit card?”  Mom said to me as I stepped into the house.  “Allie took the rest up to my room.  I want to see what you got.” 

I smiled at her and then stepped over and gave her a hug.  “Thanks, mommy.  I love you.” 

She squeezed me tight during our hug and when she stepped back it looked like her eyes were moist.  Mom asked Allie to keep an eye on Jenny for a few minutes. I followed her up the stairs into her room.  Each item was pulled out the bags and she complimented me on them.  When I pulled out the heels her eyebrows raised.

“Uh… we got these in case I decided to go to the formal.”  I said quietly. 

“Really?  You are thinking about going?” She asked tentavily. 

“Honestly, I don’t think so, but Allie and Leslie really want me to go.  And I will admit I would love to have a reason to wear that dress and those heels.  Plus, Christine told me she would help with my makeup.” I told her. 

“Hmm…  first, I want you to be honest with me as we talk about these things.  I also don’t want Allie or Leslie to pressure you into anything you don’t want to do.   That being said, I think you need to consider it.  You need to figure out what is next with this.”  Mom said warmly. 

“What do you mean by next?”  I asked even though I thought I knew the answer. 

“I mean is this something you just do in the house, although you went shopping in girl’s clothes today.  Or is it something you do all the time.  Or is it something in the middle? If you leave the house someone is eventually going to see you. You know that right?” 

“Yes.  I was a little worried about that today, but I loved being out with Allie, Christine, and Leslie.  It was a great day.  I am tired of being in the house all the time.”  I told her. 

“I can’t believe I didn’t notice as soon as you got home.  You got your ears pierced.  They look great sweetie.  You know you aren’t going to be able to hide that either, right?”  Mom smiled at me. 

I realized that she was right.  I thought about what I had just told her about loving being out as one of the girls, that I wanted to wear the gown and heels, that I had decided without hesitation to get my ears pierced because that is what girls did and I thought it looked good. 

“I think…  I am pretty sure…  I want to do this all the time, is that okay?”  I quickly blurted out. 

“Yes.  Brian and I will support you completely.”  Mom pulled me into another hug and this time it was obvious we were both crying. 

When the hug was finished mom looked at me and laughed.  “You need to clean up your makeup sweetie.  Crying and mascara doesn’t work really well sometimes.” 

I stepped into her bathroom and looked in the mirror and saw what she meant.  I also realized as I moved that I must have wet my diaper some more because it felt very swollen.  After I cleaned my face and moved back in the room, I saw mom holding up one of the bathing suits Christine gave me. 

“Where did these come from?  Are you planning to go to the pool?”  She asked. 

“Christine gave them to me.  I don’t know.  I want to but… I am not sure I am brave enough to do it plus… I ah… um… well I had several accidents today.”  I told her.

“Accidents? Did you not make it to bathroom on time while wearing a maxipad?” 

“No…  I was wearing a diaper when they happened.”  I responded.

“Well, if you wet your diaper, it wasn’t really and accident, right?  I mean I know you like wearing them for how they feel but the reason you have them on is because you wet yourself, right?”  Mom smiled. 

I was a little confused at this. It was like mom was saying if I had a diaper on it was okay to just wet it.  I thought she wanted me to stop wetting myself without knowing I was doing it.

“Yea… but I didn’t know it was happening.”  I told her.

“That is why I insisted you wear a diaper today.  I knew you would be distracted and that would probably happen, mom always knows best you know.”  She smiled at me. 

I laughed.  “I guess you do.  If I go to the pool I will definitely be distracted and will most likely wet myself.” 

“That is why I got you a swim diaper.”  She told me. 

“You actually got it?  I wasn’t sure.” 

“Yep.  Want to try it on and see how it looks with the bathing suit?”  She asked.

She didn’t wait for my answer and left the room.  A few minutes later she returned with the swim diaper, a pullup, and some wipes. 

“I figured you would need a change afterwards.”  She told me.

I picked up the red bathing suit from the pile and set it off to the side.  Then I removed the clothes I had on.  When my skirt came off mom commented on how wet my diaper was.  It was then I realized that I must have wet in more than once. 

I turned my back to her and removed the diaper and quickly cleaned myself with some wipes.  She handed me the swim diaper and I pulled it on and tightened the Velcro.  I definitely wasn’t as bulky as my normal diapers.  I turned and grabbed the bathing suit and stepped into it.  I was surprised at how much I liked how it felt as I smoothed out the straps on my shoulder.  I did miss having my fake boobs. 

I turned and mom said.  “You look cute sweetie.  And the diaper doesn’t really show.  It just looks… bulky down there.  It actually made your butt look a little curvier from the back.  You could wear a pair of Allie’s sports shorts over it and look fine.” 

I looked in the mirror and agreed with mom, but I liked the idea of wearing the sports short over it and totally hiding it.  The girl life guards at the pool did that most of the time they were walking around.  If we sat close to the pool, I could take them off and quickly jump in the water before anyone would have time to notice the diaper. 

Mom stepped over to the door and called down to Allie.  She came up stairs holding Jenny on her hip.  She complimented me on how I looked and when mom told her the idea about the shorts, she agreed and went to her room coming back with a red pair of shorts.  I stepped into them and liked how they looked.  

“You look really cute, honestly.  The front of that is high enough that I think you could wear your forms with it.  If it is tight enough, they should stay in place when you are in the pool.”  Allie said.   

Mom stepped over to my clothes and removed my falsies from the bra on the bed and handed them to me.  I took them and for some reason turned my back and slide them into place.  As soon as I did, I could feel the shoulder straps on the bathing suit tighten and liked how that felt.  I also realized that after having worn them all day it felt natural to have boobs.   

“See, I was right.  That looks fine and if you are wearing those, the boys will be less likely to maybe notice your diaper.  Plus, I think Leslie likes your boobs.”   Allie laughed.

Mom frowned.  I wasn’t sure if it was the comment about the boys or Leslie that caused it.  I had moved over to the full-length mirror, and I was happy with what I saw.  I had a sudden burst of courage and decided I would go to the pool. 

I turned to Allie.  “Can we go to the pool tomorrow?”

Both Allie and mom were a little shocked I think that I was ready to expose myself to everyone. 

“Um… can we wait an extra day or two.  Right now, isn’t a great time for me, or Leslie, to be going to the pool.  Of course, mom if you would let me use a tampon it wouldn’t be a problem.”  Allie said. 

I had never even thought about that.  I also hadn’t realized that the reason Allie wore a pad was because mom wouldn’t let her use tampons. 

“Next summer sweetie.  I promise.”  Mom told her. 

“Okay…  Leslie’s mom won’t let her so it really wouldn’t matter anyways.  Although unlike some people I hate having something bulky between my legs.”  Allie smiled at me as emphasized some people. 

I decided I needed to change.  I didn’t want to risk wetting the swim diaper I was wearing.  I slipped out of the room and went and got a fresh diaper out of my room.  I came back into mom’s room and Allie slipped out. 

“Do you want me to diaper you?  I thought we were doing either pullups or maxipads during the day?” She pointed to the pullup she had brought in earlier.  

“I uh… I have had a lot of accidents today; I have kind of needed to wear a diaper.  Can we start over with that tomorrow?”  I asked nervously. 

The truth was I wanted to wear the diaper.  Today had reminded me how much I liked wearing and wetting diapers.  It was convenient that I had happened to need one also. 

“Hmm…  you need to wear one?  Or you want to wear one?”  Mom asked suspiciously. 

I hesitated.  “Both.” 

“How about a deal.  You wear a pullup and try to use the potty until dinner time.  Right after dinner I will diaper you and again before bed if you wet it.  If you do that, you can have your phone back.”  Mom said.

I really wanted my phone, so I said yes and picked up the pullup off the bed.  I decided to change out of the bathing suit in my room and put the pullup on and the Mickey Mouse tshirt on.  I wanted to wear the mini skirt I had taken off earlier with it, the mini skirts fit better over my diapers and pullups.  I stepped into the hallway to grab my clothes I had left in mom’s room.  I almost ran into Allie as I stepped out of the room

“Cute outfit.”  Allie said seeing my pullup peaking out from under my t shirt. “I need to grab a diaper for Jenny.  She is wet.”  

I stopped and then stepped towards her and gave her a hug.  That caught her off guard, but she hugged me back. 

“What was that about?”  She asked.

“It was about you the fact you have been a wonderful sister the last couple days.”  I told her honestly. 

“You forgot the word big in that sentence.”  She laughed as she went into the room and grabbed a diaper and wipes.

“You are wonderful big sister.”  I told her. 

“Thanks Sissy.”  She said coming out of the room and heading downstairs. 

I hesitated and followed her down, deciding I didn’t need to cover my pullup from anyone in the house.  I went into the kitchen to get a water and came back and saw Allie changing Jenny’s diaper.  I was a little jealous of Jenny as I watched. 

“Here you go sweetie.  Now remember if you think you are going to pee, try and make it to the bathroom.”  Mom told me as she handed me my phone. 

I immediately turned it on and saw a bunch of texts from Scott.  He hadn’t lied about trying to get in touch with me before showing up at the house yesterday.  There were a couple of texts from our friend John and one from another friend named Matt. 

I sent a quick one to Scott- ‘hey just my phone back fyi.  Thanks for being so cool about stuff.’

A few minutes later he texted back- ‘cool.  Yea no worries. Hey think you could give me Allie’s number?’

Allie had sat on the couch at the other end.  She was on her phone and had a funny look on her face. 

“Hey Allie, Scott just asked for you number.  Is it okay if I give it to him?”  I asked her. 

The look on her face immediately changed and she smiled broadly. 

“Really?  Yes, definitely.  Do you think he is really interested in me?  Or do you think… do you think he just likes my boobs?”  She had become quieter and less sure of herself as she finished talking. 

“Just a second.”  I told her. 

I sent Scott her contact info and texted- ‘Don’t be an asshole to my sister.  I don’t know why but I think she actually likes you.’

He texted back. ‘Thanks dude.  I won’t. I actually like her also.’

“I think he actually likes you.  Allie, you are very pretty.  I kind of always knew that but this week it really sunk in.  And yes, you have big boobs for a fourteen-year-old girl but they only make you more attractive they aren’t the only thing about you that is attractive.”  I told her. 

Allie smiled at me and then moved across the couch and hugged me tightly.  “Thank you.  I needed to hear that.  Jimmy had texted me and said that he didn’t care that I only liked him as a friend.  He said the only reason he was interested in my is he wanted to play with my tits.”

“Well, he is an asshole.”  I replied. 

She smiled again.  “Do you want Leslie’s number, now that you have your phone back?” 

“Ah… sure.”  I said. 

“Great.  Maybe you can text her so she will stop texting me about you.  If I have to hear one more thing about you two kissing today, I may vomit.”  Allie chuckled.

“You kissed Leslie today?”  Mom exclaimed. 

I almost jumped off the couch.  I had not heard mom come into the family room.  I also realized that I had immediately flooded my pullup.  I sprang off the couch, making sure I had leaked or gotten it wet.  I reached under my skirt, and nothing was wet.

“Did you wet yourself?”  Mom asked. 

“Yes.”

“Fully?” 

“Yes… you scared me and it just… just happened.”  I said nervously. 

“Okay.  Let’s go change you.” She directed and moved to the stairs. 

I followed her up into my room and watched her grab a diaper and the wipes.  I went straight to the bed and laid back.  I pulled the back of my skirt up under me as I did it.  Mom didn’t say anything as she flipped the front of the skirt up and ripped the sides of the pullup. 

“Lift up sweetie.”  She instructed. 

I lift my butt and the pullup was removed.  I was cleaned with a wipe and then the diaper was slide under me.  Mom pulled the front of it down and then attached the tapes making sure it was secure.  Again, I felt something in me that I couldn’t totally describe.  A feeling of warmth, comfort, and something else. 

“After dinner we are going to talk about Leslie, and about your reliance on diapers.  Okay.” 

I nodded yes and continued to lay on the bed as mom walked out of the room.  Her tone had made me very nervous.

[kerry]

This is one of those stories that just feels nice and warm all the time. ?

[Eagle0769]

Very good chapter I enjoyed it. I think it is set for any way Mike/Cindy will be going.

What is driving Cindy to dress as a girl did, he have these feeling before?

[fireandcrinkles]

We had a quick dinner of chicken fingers and mac and cheese.  I offered to clean the kitchen while mom took Jenny up for her bath.  Allie and Steve hung out in the living room.  Steve been upbeat and friendly during dinner.  It seemed like he was okay with me as teenage girl but when mom treated me as a toddler he would clam up and not talk to me. 

Mom had brought Jenny back down stairs right after her bath and I watched as she got her bottle ready for her.  I felt that small pang of jealousy and a wish that I could have one too.  Mom must have noticed it my facial expression because she gave me a knowing smile. 

“Hey Cindy, want to play a video game?”  Steve called out from the family room. 

I raised an eyebrow when I heard him calling me Cindy without hesitation.  Mom put her arm on mine and whispered.  “Sounds like he is trying sweetie.” 

I nodded to acknowledge that, and mom loudly said.  “She can play one game but then I need to chat with her.” 

“Okay…  come on.”  Steve said as he moved past the kitchen and headed up stairs. 

We entered the room and grabbed our seats.  I choose the girl avatar I had been using and Steve picked his usual.   As always, he was beating me and beating me pretty badly.  I was so bad that the my character was dead pretty quickly. 

“Were you always this bad?  Or did you just get worse because you are a girl now?”  He laughed. 

Allie was at the door and said.  “Let me see if I can show what a girl can do.” 

“Really, you want to play?”  Steve asked her. 

“Sure, I will give it a shot.  Cindy when you are done with mom can you chat with me?” Allie said as she stepped into the room. 

I told her yes and handed her the controller and walked out to find mom.  She was in the laundry room switching over a load of clothes.  She picked up a laundry basket and told me to follow her to her room.  When we got there, she sat it on the bed and closed the door. 

“Have a seat on the bed sweetie.”  She told me. 

I got up on the bed and expected her to do the same, but she went over the basket and started to fold the clothes. 

“Tell me what happened with Leslie today.” 

“Um… what do you mean?”  I asked. 

“You know what I mean.  You kissed her right?  How did that happen?”  She didn’t look at me as she spoke and continued to fold the laundry. 

“I guess what really happened was she kissed me.”  I told her. 

“And you were okay with that?  Did you like it?” 

“Yes.   The first time I was really caught off guard and surprised the second time though I really like it.”  I explained. 

“There were two times?”  Mom folded the last piece of clothes. 

“Yes.  Once in the car and again on the porch.” 

Mom climbed on the bed next to me.  “Do you like Leslie, like do you have a crush on her?  It is very obvious that she has a crush on you.” 

“Yes.  I do like her.  She is very pretty, and she is so nice to me.”  I said with a big smile. 

“So, you like girls?  Do you want to kiss her again?”  Mom raised her eyebrow. 

“Yes.  Or at least I like Leslie and I want to kiss her again.”  I felt warm as I said that. 

“Okay.  I am happy for you.  Just realize that will change some rules with her when she is in the house.  You two can’t be alone in a room with a closed door for example.  How does Allie feel about this?” 

“She is okay with it.  Partly I think because she is interested in Scott, and he likes her.”  I told her. 

“Really?  Guess my kids are growing up.  Not sure I am ready for two first teenage romances at the same time.  Especially two teen girl ones.”  Mom laughed. 

I reached over and hugged her.  I knew I was very lucky to have a mom like her and got some tears in my eyes. 

“You okay honey?”  She asked seeing my eyes. 

“Yep… I love you mommy!” I hugged her tighter. 

“I love you too.”  She hugged me back. 

Nothing was said for a few minutes.  Then mom said.  “Speaking of growing up.  Let’s talk about your diapers.”

I sighed.  I wasn’t sure how this conversation was going to go, and I felt myself fidgeting because of my nerves. 

“I know you like wearing them, I know you like when I change them for you, you even like how it feels to wet them.  About the only thing you don’t like is a pooping in them and a wet cloth diaper, right?”  Mom asked. 

I just nodded.  Not sure what she wanted me to say. 

“Do you want to wear them all the time?  Do you want to have to wear them all the time?  What happens when school starts?  How are you going to manage that?  Sweetie, if you plan on being a girl all the time you are already going to have a lot of… struggles.  Add diapers to that and…  well, it will be a lot to deal with.”  Her tone was sympathetic. 

“I haven’t really thought about school honestly.  I mean… I understand what you are saying.  I also really appreciate that you have let me wear them.  I can try to work on not needing them, but I really don’t want to give them up all together.”  I told her honestly. 

“What if I made you responsible for them.  If I stopped changing them for you.  Would that make you not want to wear them as much?  Plus, it isn’t like I could change them for you when you are school.”  Mom asked. 

I knew I wouldn’t like that.  One of the things I really liked was when my diaper was taped on tightly.  That was a big part of the experience for me.   It was the reason I had really liked Allie doing it even as embarrassed as I was when it was happening.  She taped them really tight. 

“I don’t know…  maybe I wouldn’t like it as much.”  I said quietly.  

“How about a compromise.  I would diaper and change you in the evening and maybe on the weekends and you would do it during the day or you wouldn’t wear them during the day which would be best.” 

I knew that was a good compromise.  I then had a thought.  Maybe I could get mom to give me a bottle on the diaper days.  Or even every night when she changed me.  I was still surprised at how much I had enjoyed those. 

“Umm… that might be okay.  Could I…  well… I was wondering if maybe… could you…”  I was stuttering.

“Just say it… or ask it.” Mom said. 

“Would you give me a bottle at least occasionally?”  I blurted out. 

Mom didn’t say anything. I could tell she was surprised by the question and that she was thinking.   

Finally, she said.  “I don’t know.  I have to think about that one, sorry.” 

“Okay… not a big deal.”  I realized I was lying to her as I said that. 

“All right, is your diaper wet?  Do you need a change now?”  Mom asked. 

“It is a little wet but okay for now.”  I told her. 

“I am going to go take a bath but when I am done, I will change you for the night.  I am tired tonight and plan to go to bed early.   You can stay up until ten o’clock like Allie.”  She said.

“Uh… I can ask Allie to change me before bed if you want go to bed.”  I told her.

Mom thought for a second.  “Okay, I guess.  She has done it few times already.”

I got up and hugged her.  Then I left the room so she could go take her bath.  As I walked to the stairs, I enjoyed the feel of the slightly wet diaper between my legs.   I was also a little excited that Allie would be changing me tonight and my diaper would be a little tighter tonight. 

I found Allie sitting on the couch.  She had the phone in her hand, and it looked like some new Netflix show was on the TV.  Steve must still be in his room playing a video game.  She looked down at her phone and had smile but also let out a big sigh. 

“Everything okay?”  I asked. 

“Yea… Scott has sent me a few texts.  He is trying to be a little flirty, but you can tell he is nervous.  Jimmy was better at it, honestly.” She told me with a smile.  “What did mom want to talk to you about?”

“Does that mean you like Jimmy better?”  I asked. 

“No… Scott is definitely cuter.  I can’t believe I am telling you this, but I have had a little crush on Scott for a while.  I was always happy when he would come visit you.  You thought I was trying to pester you, but I was really just trying to spend time with him.”  She blushed as she told me. 

“Really?  Wow… can’t believe I didn’t realize that was what you were doing.  Here is a secret.  Scott is scared of girls.  The fact that he is trying to flirt with you means he is really into you.”  I told her. 

Her smile got really big.  “Thanks for telling me that Sissy.  So, what did mom want?”

“She just asked a few questions about Leslie.  Told me that Leslie and I can’t be alone in a room with the door closed.  Bet you get the same rule about Scott.”  I laughed.

“That was it.  You were up there for a while.” 

“No, she talked to me about my diapers.  She wants me to work on not wearing them during the day.  Especially during the week.”  I told her. 

“Yea.  That makes sense.  Not sure how your diapers would work at school.”  Allie smiled at me.

“That is basically what mom said also.”  I told her. 

“What is mom doing now?”  Allie asked. 

“She said she was tired and wanted to take a bath and then go to bed.” 

“She must be missing Brian this evening.”  Allie laughed. 

“Why do you say that?”  I asked.

“Because she is taking a bath so she can…well you know be alone.”  Allie said quietly while blushing.

“Not sure I understand.”  I said more as a question than a statement. 

“Oh… yea… I guess it is a girl thing and while you are definitely girl, your plumbing is different so you probably don’t enjoy baths the same way.”  Allie said flatly. 

I finally got it and got really embarrassed.  One thing I had enjoyed about the last week and me doing more girly things was Allie talked to me about things she would have never talked to me about before. 

“What did you want to talk to me about?”  I asked her. 

“Will you please text Leslie.  I told her I was going to give her number to you, and she was so excited.  I am pretty sure she is sitting on her bed with her phone in her hand waiting for a text from you.”  Allie winked at me. 

“Did you give her my number?  Why hasn’t she texted me?  Why is she waiting for me to text her?”  I asked perplexed. 

Allie laughed.  “Because the boy normally takes the lead.  Oh… hmm… yea.  This is a little bit of quandary isn’t it. I am not sure how it works when it is two girls.” 

I smiled and leaned over and hugged Allie. 

“What was that about?”  She asked surprised.

“Because you didn’t tease me about being a girl, because you are treating like I really am girl.  Thank you.”  I smiled at her. 

“Oh… well you are definitely girly aren’t you, Sissy.”  Allie hugged me after saying it. 

She picked up the phone and typed something.   Then handed her phone over to me. 

‘Looks like you might need to take the lead with Cindy.  She is being super girly and waiting for you text her.’  She had added a bunch of smiling emojis about it.

I laughed as I read and saw the dots that showed Leslie was typing.  As I handed her phone back to her, we both heard it ping with a new message.  Allie laughed as she read it. 

“Be ready for a text Sissy.”  She said to me.  

A few seconds later my phone announced a new text.  Allie grinned at me as I reached for it and opened it. 

‘Hey Cindy.  I really loved today and spending time with you.  I really loved that you were my first kiss.’ Leslie had added several kissing and heart eyed emojis to the text. 

I felt a warm flush run through me remembering her kissing me.

I texted back.  ‘I am really glad you were my first kiss also.  I love it every time I get to spend time with you.’  I sent the same emojis back.

Watching the dots of her typing excited me while I also felt nervous at the same time. 

‘Are are you going to go the pool now that you have a bathing suit?  Did your mom get you a swim diaper?  Allie and I have to wait another day before we can go.  I would love to go with you if you go.’

I did want to go to the pool, but I was pretty scared of what the reaction would be.  I knew I wouldn’t go until both Leslie and Allie could go with me.  I was also hoping Scott would go.  It was supposed to be rainy again tomorrow anyways.

‘Yes, on the diaper.  I want to go but I don’t want to go without you and Allie.  It is supposed to rain tomorrow anyways.’  I sent. 

‘Yea.  I can’t wait.  I bet you will look beautiful in your bathing suit.  Maybe we could all go to a movie tomorrow afternoon.  The new Star Wars movie is out.’ 

I liked that she had mentioned me looking beautiful.  I also realized that if I went to the pool, I would get to see Leslie in her bathing suit and I wanted to see that.   I liked the idea of going to the movies, but I knew that there would probably be kids from school there and they would see me in girl’s clothes if we went. 

‘Text me in the morning about going to the movie.  Do you want me to see is Allie wants to go or do you want to ask her?’  Leslie texted before I could respond. 

‘I will ask her.  Good night.  XOXOXO.’  And I added several hearts eyed emojis. 

Leslie texted back.  ‘Great. XOXOXO.’  With the same emojis. 

I got up from the couch to get a drink of water and realized my diaper was pretty wet.  I had felt myself wet it a little earlier but must have wet it again without realizing it. 

When I walked back into the family room Allie said.  “You are wet, aren’t you?” 

“Yes.  I told mom I would ask you to change me before bed.  Is that okay?” I asked shyly. 

“Yea.  Do you want me to do it now?” She asked.

“In a minute.  I need to go grab a fresh diaper and wipes.  Leslie wants us all to go to the movies tomorrow since it is going to be raining.  Do you want to go?  And do you want to see if Scott wants to go?”

Allie blushed.  “Sure.  And I definitely want Scott to go but I will be honest and tell you I am nervous about that.  It is weird but now that I know he might be into me I am anxious about being around him.” 

“Might be into you? Did you see how he was looking at you today?”  I laughed. 

Leslie blushed even darker red.  “I did and I liked it.” 

“Do you want me to ask him, or do you want to?”  I responded. 

“Okay… this is going to sound, I don’t know, but can you tell him that you are Leslie are going and see if he wants to go also?  Then maybe suggest that he asks me?  I would kind of like to be asked out on date or whatever.  It is a girl thing.  You know the way you wanted Leslie to make the first move.”  Allie smiled at the end, but you could hear the nerves in her voice. 

I picked up my phone.  ‘Hey Scott, Leslie and I are going to see the new Star Wars movie tomorrow afternoon.  It is suppose to be a rainy day.  Want to go?”  

I showed it to Allie, and she thanked me.  While I waited for his response, I got up to go to my room and got a fresh diaper, wipes, and my nightgown. 

Walking towards the stairs I heard.  “Nice waddle Sissy.” 

Just as I walked back into the family room my phone dinged. 

‘Is Allie going also?’ 

I handed the wipes and diaper to Allie.  “He wants to know if you are going also.” 

I quickly typed.  ‘Why don’t you ask her to go.  I am sure she would like that.’

He immediately responded. ‘Are you sure???  Just nervous man… or girl.’  He added a winking emoji after girl. 

I laughed while at the same time feeling happy that he had joked about me being a girl.  I realized I was very lucky to have him as a friend. 

“What did he say?”  Leslie asked anxiously. 

“He is nervous about asking you and wanted to be sure that you would want to go.”  I told her. 

She smiled.  “Don’t tell him you are sure, but you think so.  It is cute that he is nervous, and I don’t want to throw myself at him.” 

I typed back.  ‘I think so.  She did say that she thought you were kind of cute.’  I added a blushing emoji after that. 

He immediately responded.  ‘What about that Jimmy dude.  Is she still into him?’ 

‘Jesus’ man… you are being such a girl.  Maybe you should wear skirts also.’  I added a winking emoji after that.  ‘Just ask her I am sure she will say yes.’ 

‘Okay I will.  And don’t let it go to your head, but you look pretty in skirts.  I would just look like a boy wearing a skirt.’  He texted back. 

I smiled as I read the part about looking pretty.  I am not sure why, but I really enjoyed a boy telling me that.  I heard Allie’s phone make a noise and then saw her face light up with a smile.  She quickly typed something back and smiled even bigger at the reply to it. 

“Hey.  Let’s go up to my room and change your diaper there.  It is easier on the bed than on the floor.”  Allie announced gathering up the supplies. 

I followed her out of the family room and headed up the stair behind her into her room.  She patted the bed as I came in.  I dropped my skirt so it wouldn’t be in the way and climbed onto the bed. 

“Wow… that thing is soaked.”  Allie said as she patted the bed indicated I should climb up. 

I laid back and Allie set the wipes and new diaper on the bed next to me.  She removed the tapes and I lifted up my butt as she pulled the wet diaper out from under me.  She quickly used the wipes to clean me and slide the new diaper under me.  She brought the front up and pulled the tapes on the left side over and secured them.  She then pulled the tapes over from the right.  She pulled on the top and decided it wasn’t tight enough and resecured the diaper. 

I was surprised that I had found my eyes on Allie’s cleavage while she was leaned over to diaper me.  I don’t think it was because I was attracted to her but more of wishful thought that I had cleavage like hers.  I also thought about Leslie and wondered if her boobs would get bigger. 

“That good?  Tight enough?”  Allie said smiling. 

“Perfect.  Don’t tell mom but I like it better when you do it.”  I blurted out and then got embarrassed. 

“Really?  How about when Christine does it?  Do you like that better then me diapering you?”  Allie asked.  “I know you have had a crush on her.” 

“No.  I like you doing it the best.” I told her. 

Allie’s smile got really big.  One thing that had happened this week was I realized how insecure Allie was about how she looked.  She really didn’t understand how pretty she was.   

“Hey… change into your nightgown, okay. I will be right back.”  Allie instructed me as she grabbed something out of her dresser and left the room. 

I followed her instructions and then climbed up on her bed and sat and waited for her to return.  It was probably only about five minutes, but it felt longer.   Allie walked back in wearing a sleep shirt and holding the clothes she had on before in her hand.  She threw those in her hamper and climbed into bed and laid back on her pillow.

“I had to change my… my maxipad.”  She told me. 

“Oh… are you still feeling…  bad?  Like do you still have cramps and all of that.”  I asked as I laid down next to her on the pillow. 

“No.  Usually that is the worse the two days before it starts and the first day.  I feel okay now but just have to deal with the…  mess.  I really hate wearing these maxipads.  It is probably why I will never totally understand you wanting to wear a diaper.”  She turned and smiled at me. 

“Honestly, I don’t understand why I want to wear one either…. But I do.”  I told her. 

I remembering Allie chuckled a little at my comment. I don’t remember if anything else was said after that.  I also don’t remember pulling her sheets and comforter over me.  I definitely didn’t remember falling asleep in her bed. 

I woke up the next morning and was a little disoriented.  As my eyes blinked open, I rolled over to figure out where I was.  I noticed immediately that my diaper was wet.  I finally realized that I was in Allie’s bed, and she was asleep next to me.  I felt a moment of panic and checked to make sure my diaper hadn’t leaked and was very happy to find out it hadn’t. 

I leaned up and looked over Allie’s shoulder to see the alarm clock.  I was shocked to see it was after eight o’clock.  This was the latest I had slept in a while.  I felt Allie begin to move around and saw her eyes slow open the go wide as she saw me in her bed. 

She quickly sat up.  “What… did you sleep here…  I remember us lying in bed and…  wow we must have both just fallen asleep.” 

“Yes… I just woke up myself and it took a minute to figure out where I was.  I slept really hard last night.” 

“You didn’t…  you didn’t leak or anything did you?”  Allie asked nervously. 

“Nope… I checked immediately.  It is pretty wet but fortunately my diaper was on pretty tight so it would have been hard for it to leak.”  I smiled at her.

“Guess it is a good thing I am so good at diapering you, huh.”  She chuckled. 

“Yes…  Allie…  thanks for letting me stay here last night.  Actually…. Just thanks for everything.  You are an awesome big sister!”  I actually felt tears in my eyes as my emotions overtook me.

“Oh Sissy…”  Allie pulled me into a hug.  “I need to go to the little girl’s room, or it will be my fault the bed is wet. Want me to grab you a new diaper on my way back?” 

“Sure.”

I watched Allie climb out of bed.  Her sleep shirt had ridden up and you could see her the top of her maxipad outlined in her white panties.   That reminded me that mom wanted me to not wear diapers during the day and I started to tell Allie not to get a diaper.  She was out of the room before I could tell her to hold off and I also knew I wanted Allie to diaper me. 

Allie returned holding a new diaper.  She picked up the wipes container that she had set on the top of her dresser last night.  I swung around in the bed, so my butt was closer to the edge and pulled my nightgown out from under my butt. 

Allie pulled off the tapes.  “Butt up Sissy.” 

The wet diaper was quickly pulled off and then Allie grabbed the wipes and cleaned me.  She fluffed the new diaper and slide it under me.  She pulled the tapes tightly and smiled at me and asked if it was good.  I nodded yes and hopped off the bed and hugged her again. 

She broke the hug.  “Let’s go see what mom has for breakfast this morning.” 

We bounded down the stairs and found mom playing on the floor with Jenny.  She smiled when she saw us come down together. 

“Did you two have a little sleepover last night?”  Mom asked. 

“Yes. Wasn’t really intentional, we feel asleep while we were chatting lying in the bed.”  Allie told her. 

“Cindy, did you wake up wet?”

“Yes.  But I didn’t leak.  Allie’s bed was fine.”  I quickly said. 

“That is good.  When you take your wet diaper off remember you need to wear pullups or a maxipad during the day.”  Mom told me. 

“Uh…  I forgot and Allie has already changed me.  I will do that the next time I need to be changed.”  I said looking at the floor. 

“Okay little missy.  I am serious though about getting you out of wearing diapers all the time.  Do you understand?”  Mom’s tone was stern. 

“Yes mommy.  Sorry.”  I responded. 

Allie, who I think was anxious to change the subject as what was for breakfast.  Mom told her that she needed to go with Pop Tarts this morning because she needed to go to the grocery store.  She then asked if Allie would keep an eye on Jenny and Steve while she did it. 

“Sure.  Do you know what time?  We were thinking about going to see the new Star Wars movie this afternoon?”  Allie responded. 

“I will go later this morning.  Who is we?  You and Cindy?  How were you planning on getting there?”  

“Yes… me and Cindy and possibly uh… Leslie… and maybe Scott.” Allie’s voice trailed off as she mentioned Leslie and Scott. 

“Oh… so it is a double date kind of thing?  And you didn’t answer the question about how you were going to get there and back.”  Mom’s eyebrow went up as she asked that.

“Honestly, maybe a double date. I think we are all sort of trying to figure it out.  And we hadn’t talked about that yet.  This idea just came up last night.”  Allie told her. 

I was glad Allie was the one telling mom about this.  She really was being the older sister in our relationship.  I also hadn’t missed that mom had asked her to watch Jenny and Steve when she went to the grocery store.  

“Okay.  I will want to know all the plans.  Times, who is driving you, who is going, all of it.  Understand?”

Allie and I said yes in unison and then headed into make our Pop Tarts.  While were eating Steve came down and joined us at the table and had some also.  He had asked mom if he could go over to his friend’s house for the day and mom told him she would drop him off on her way to the grocery store. 

Mom and Steve left about an hour later.  Allie and I had been checking our phones to see if either Steve or Leslie had texted us.  We had put Frozen on the TV for Jenny and she was content to play with her plushies and watch it. 

“What are you going to wear?”  I asked Allie. 

She laughed.  “You are such a girl, aren’t you?  Already thinking about what outfit you are going to wear.  I will probably wear a my khaki shorts and my v necked lavender shirt.  It uh… shows off my cleavage a little.  Plus, I have some eyeshadow that goes well with it.” 

“Can I wear a miniskirt?  I know mom said I wasn’t supposed to wear a diaper during the day, but I don’t want to spend the whole time in the movie thinking if I might pee any minute.  That also means you will need to diaper me before we go, okay?”  replied. 

Just then Allie’s phone chirped.  She grabbed it and I heard her take a deep breath as she opened the message.  I watched as a smile came across her face.  I was getting ready to ask her who had texted her and what is said when my phone alerted me to a new message. 

‘Good Morning!  Hope your day is going well.  Still want to go to movies with me?’  Leslie had texted. 

My heart fluttered and I quickly typed.  ‘Good morning.  Are you asking me on a date?’  I added a half dozen heart eyed emojis. 

I was surprised that I had been so direct, but I also really wanted her to say that is was a date. I wanted it to be my first official date.  I looked over and Allie was beaming as she typed out and read messages.  It seemed like forever before Leslie responded. 

‘Yes, I am asking you on a date.  Will you go to the movies with me on a date? Looks like I am going to have to be the boy in this relationship huh?’  Leslie had sent.  She added a winking emoji. 

I quickly responded.  ‘Yes, yes, yes, yes!!!  I will go on a date with you.  And I don’t want you to be a boy, you are way to pretty to be a boy!  I just get nervous and like when you take the lead.’ 

Leslie led off with a heart eyed emoji and then gave me the details.  The movie started at one forty-five and her mom would drive us there after picking us up at our house around one.  Scott was going to come over here and meet us.  Scott’s mom was going to pick us up after the movies and bring us all back.  She had been texting Scott this morning to work out the details. 

When Allie and I had finished texting Leslie and Scott we smiled at other.  Right then “Let it Go” came on Frozen and we joined Jenny in dancing around the family room and singing at the top of our lungs.  When the song was over Allie scooped Jenny up and told her she was going upstairs to help her big sisters pick out their outfits for their dates.  Allie had emphasized the word dates and we smiled at each other as she said it. 

We had both picked our outfit.  I had chosen the pink miniskirt that we had gotten yesterday.  Allie lent me a long sleeve white shirt to go with it.  At first, I wanted to wear the wedge sandals but Allie talked me into the pink Keds. 

“Are you going to wear your forms?”  Allie asked. 

“Yes, or at least I think so.  I got a white bra yesterday so it wouldn’t show through the shirt.  Do you think I should?”  I really wanted Allie’s opinion. 

“I know you like wearing them.  I know Leslie likes seeing you with them.  Um…  and honestly, I like when you wear them because I don’t stand out as the only one with boobs, or larger boobs.  Leslie’s don’t show up much.”  Allie laughed. 

“Okay… then yes” I smiled. 

We heard mom come in and went down to help her unload the groceries.  While we did this, we told her about the plans for the movie.  Her facial expression was hard to read.  I couldn’t tell if she was happy, worried, sad, or something else as we told her. 

When we were done helping, I said I was going to go take a shower and asked Allie if she would help with my hair and makeup.  I had also realized that I needed to poop and was excited to not have to do that in a diaper.  It had been three or four days since the last time I had to do that and as much as I loved my diapers, I was really happy not to have to do that. 

In the shower I used Allie’s shampoo and conditioner and seeing her razor I ran it over my legs.  I am not sure any hair had grown since the last time I had done it, but I liked how it felt.  I quickly did my underarms and when I was done with the shower,  I got the peach fuzz under my nose and a couple hairs on my chin. 

Walking out the bathroom, I had the towel up under my arms like I saw mom and Allie do when they wore a towel.  Allie jumped in the shower right after me.  I went into my room and grabbed a pullup and slide it on under my towel. I loaded up my bag, placing a diaper in the bottom of it with pullups on top of it, a spare pair of panties, and two maxipads.

When I came out, I ran into mom in the hall and she asked.  “What are you wearing for protection?  Not a diaper, right?”

“I put on a pullup.”  I said and headed to Allie’s room. 

First Allie blew dried my hair.  She had put something in it, and it gave it a lot of body.  She had brushed a part in the side and when she finished it definitely had a feminine look to it.  We did our makeup together next.   I did mine on my own with a lot of instruction and help from her.  With the eye shadow I found less was more but that I needed a little more mascara for my eyelashes.

As we got dressed, we were giddy and excited about our first dates.  Mom had asked us about lunch and we both ran down and had a quick peanut butter sandwich.  We wanted to be able to have popcorn at the movie. 

“You both look so pretty.  Are you excited?”  Mom said as we ate. 

We both quickly said yes.   Mom turned her attention to Jenny, and you could sense that there was a little sadness about Allie and I being old enough to go on a date. 

During lunch I felt my pullup getting wet and quickly went into the bathroom.  I hadn’t really been able to stop peeing once I started and by the time got to the toilet my pullup was pretty wet.  I felt a little guilty when mom congratulated me on using the bathroom. 

I finished my sandwich and said I was going to go change my pullup.  I went into my room and removed the wet pullup and put it in the diaper pail.  I then slide a new pullup on and grabbed a diaper and quickly took it into Allies’ room.  I needed to figure out how to get Allie to diaper me right before we left so mom wouldn’t know.

Right before one o’clock I looked over at Allie.  “I want to check my makeup one more time.  Allie, can you help me in your room?” 

“Sure.  You look great though.  But yea…I will help you.”  She responded.

Right after we closed the door she said.  “Sorry.  I almost missed that.  This is so I can diaper you, right?” 

“No problem, yes.”  I walked over and pulled a diaper out from under one of her pillows. 

“Lay down on the bed.”  She instructed. 

I laid back bunching my skirt under me.  Allie reached up and yanked the pullup off me as I lifted up my butt.  She quickly slide the diaper under me and pulled the tapes tight.  I smiled at her as she did that and she knew it was because I appreciated how she did the diapering. 

As we walked down the hall she whispered.  “Don’t get to close to mom you can hear it crinkling a little.” 

I nodded and when we got downstairs, I quickly moved across the family room and took a seat on the love seat.  When I looked up, I saw that mom had a strange expression on her face and she was staring in my direction.   

“Cindy, make sure you are careful how you sit today.  You still need to practice moving and sitting in those skirts.  You don’t want people to be able to up your skirt.”  Mom said. 

I immediately grabbed the hem and pulled on it.  While trying to close my legs tighter, the bulk of the diaper making it slightly more difficult. I looked up and saw mom frown. 

“Too late, I already saw.” Mom was interrupted by a knock on the door.  “I will talk to both of you about this later.” 

Allie opened the door and Scott was standing there.   They exchanged an awkward greeting and Allie asked him in.  I quickly stood up and moved over towards them.  I was surprised that I would be more comfortable near Scott than my mom right then. 

“Hey Mi…  sorry… Cindy.  You look cute.”  Scott said. 

I smiled and turned to my sister.  “Thanks.  Allie helped me a lot.” 

A new knock on the door caused Allie to open it and Leslie stepped in.  We all quickly exchanged hellos and said goodbye to my mom.  She told us to have fun and that she would see us later.  She did give me a stern look. 

As we walked to her mom’s car Leslie turned to me.  “You look really pretty!”  

“Thanks, so do you.  Uh…  I just thought about this.  Does your mom know this is… this is like a date?” 

“Kind of.  Maybe.  I am not sure.  Honestly, I haven’t really told her anything.  I just asked her to take us to the movies.  She does know about…  well about you and wearing girls’ stuff and wanting to be a girl.  Oh… and about your problem.”  Leslie squeezed my upper arm and smiled at me. 

Allie opened the back door of Mrs. Harding’s Honda Accord and said hello to her.  She slide into the middle and Scott followed after also saying hi.  Leslie reached for the passenger seat door, so I walked around and got in the back door on the other side.  I greeted Mrs. Harding as I sat down. 

The drive to the movie theater took about fifteen minutes.  Mrs. Harding made some small talk that we all answered a little awkwardly.  I know we were all grateful when she arrived at the theater and dropped us off out front. 

Allie and I were surprised when Leslie and Scott told us that they had already got our tickets.   They showed the their phone at the entrance, and we went to concession stand.  I told Leslie I would be paying for the popcorn and drinks.  I was scanning the lobby and concession stand for anyone I might know, suddenly very conscious of what I was wearing.  Thankfully, I didn’t see anyone. 

I got a medium popcorn and two medium drinks for me and Leslie.  Even thought it was a supposedly a medium the drink was huge. She smiled as I handed her the drink, and we went in and found seats.  Leslie sat to my left and Allie was next to me, but she was leaning toward Scott. 

I think it was nerves, but I found myself drinking a lot.  Our hands bumped each other as we reached for the popcorn, and we gave each other a nervous smile.  By the time the previews were done I had finished half my drink and was really glad I had worn a diaper as I already felt pressure on my bladder. 

The movie was pretty good.  Leslie though had started to squirm halfway through.  She finally whispered in my ear. 

“I am not wearing a diaper like some people, and I am sure my maxipad won’t hold it.  I need to run to little girls’ room, be right back.”  She squeezed my forearm and got up. 

As soon as she stood up, I felt myself begin to wet my diaper.  I loved both the feeling of warmth in my crotch and the release of pressure on my bladder.  Leslie returned quickly and after she sat down, she immediately took my hand in hers.  I turned to her and gave her a big smile.

By the time the movie ended I had wet my diaper twice.   As soon as I stood up, I know I needed a diaper change.  I could feel the weight of it as it drooped between my thighs and knew I had a waddle. 

“Someone has a very wet diaper, doesn’t she?”  Leslie said as she squeezed my hand and smiled at me. 

When we got to the lobby, I turned and looked back and saw Allie and Scott holding hands and Allie had a huge smile on her face.  I hated to do it, but I slide over next to her and whispered in her ear. 

“I so sorry but I really need my diaper changed.  Can you please help me?” 

She gave me a little bit of a dirty look but nodded and said something to Scott before taking my elbow and guiding me towards the family restroom.   She opened the door and ushered me inside. 

“Okay Sissy.  Up on the counter.”  She directed. 

I climbed up and watched her dig into my bag for a new diaper and wipes.  She pulled them out and before I knew what was happening, she had removed my soaked diaper and was cleaning me.  A fresh diaper was fluffed and slide under me and taped tightly in place in record time. 

“Thanks Allie.”  I told her. 

I watched as she moved over to the toilet and dropped her shorts and panties.  She pulled her maxipad from her underwear, it was obvious it needed to be changed.  She wrapped some toilet paper around it and set it to the side.  She then grabbed a new one and while I heard her peeing in the toilet, she placed the fresh one in her panties.

She took some more toilet paper and quickly wiped herself, stood up and flushed the toilet, then pulled her panties and shorts up.  She grabbed my diaper, and her used maxipad, and put them in the trash can before washing her hands. 

“Ready?” She asked as she reached for the door and opened it. 

We stepped out of the bathroom and immediately saw that Leslie and Scott were standing with a group of about half dozen or so of our friends from school. 

[Bel George]

This story keeps getting better and better.

[kerry]

21 hours ago, fireandcrinkles said:

Leslie and Scott were standing with a group of about half dozen or so of our friends from school. 

OK, looks like the moment of truth has arrived.

[BabySerenity]

Excellent story I’m an adult baby and a Transgender girl so it has a bit of both for me!! I especially love the Sissy points! Wish my mom had been nice about me being girly let alone my stepfather!! But hey not all stories are happy!! I can’t wait to find out if Cindy is actually going to start hormones, and all to transition? Would be wonderful to find out?

[fireandcrinkles]

Chapter 20

I froze.  Leslie looked at me with an expression that was somewhere between fear and total panic.   Allie was behind me and crashed into my back when I stopped moving.  She looked up and saw all the eyes turn towards.  She looked over at me and then reached for my arm and took it into her hands. 

“It is going to be okay.  I got your back.”  I heard Allie tell me. 

Stacey and Abby moved towards us with Stacey calling out. “Hey Allie.  How are you?” 

Allie responded to her and continued to squeeze my arm.  I could see that they were trying to figure out who I was as they got close.  It was Abby’s eyes that first showed she recognized me. 

“Hey…  Mike.  Uh… what is going on.  What is with your outfit?  Lose a bet or something?”  Abby asked. 

As she spoke you could see the surprise on Stacey’s face as she put it together. 

“Abby and Stacey, meet Cindy.  She has been figuring herself out this summer.”  Allie said squeezing my arm again. 

“Oh… wow… that is really cool.  It is nice to meet you, Cindy.”  Abby said with a genuine smile on her face.  

Stacey just nodded at me.  Her expression was difficult to read but it definitely wasn’t as welcoming as Abby’s.  Leslie had moved over to me, and she now had my other arm in her hands and was squeezing them.  It felt good to know that Allie and Leslie were supporting me and close by. 

Adam and Ryan came over while Stephanie and Melody stayed with Scott a few feet away.  I noticed that Adam and Ryan were focused on Allie and their eyes kept going to her boobs.  Then they looked at me, first looking at my chest then my face. 

“Hey guys.  Meet Cindy, doesn’t she look great.”  Stacey accented my name heavily and it sounded like she was being sarcastic as she said I looked great. 

Adam was the first to recognize me.  “No way.  Mike…  what the hell?” 

Ryan, whose eyes had moved back to Allie’s cleavage, head popped up and looked at me and a grin spread across his face. 

“She prefers to be called Cindy.”  Leslie interjected. 

“Yea, okay whatever.  So, are you doing this all the time or is it just an occasional thing?”  Ryan asked. 

“Uh…  all the time.”  I told him and realized it was the first time I had spoken. 

“Whatever floats your boat, I guess.”  Adam said before focusing on Allie.  “How has your summer been?  Do anything fun?  Excited about being a freshman and in high school this year?” 

Allie blushed, it was very obvious that Adam was looking at her differently than the last time he had seen her.  I could also see that Allie was focused on Scott and the attention that Stephanie and Melody were giving him.  The smile on his face showed he was happy to have their attention. 

“Are you okay?”  Leslie said quietly to me.

“Yea, this has gone better than I thought.  I guess the cat is out of the bag, huh?”  I responded.

She squeezed my arm looked up at me and smiled.  “Yes, yes, it is.” 

Scott’s group moved over near us.  He had noticed Adam’s attention on Allie and the look on his face changed.  He slid in next to her and put his hand on her low back.   Allie leaned into his side and smiled. 

Stephanie stopped in front of me and with what appeared to be smirk said.  “Nice outfit.  I love your skirt.” 

“Uh… thanks.  Your hair looks really cute.”   I responded.  She had her hair in braided pig tails. 

“Thanks, are you going to be dressing like this at school?” 

I nodded yes although I hadn’t really discussed that with my mom and completely committed to it.

“Well, good luck with that.”  She turned and her pigtails swished as she moved over to Ryan.

Out of the corner of my eye I thought I saw Melody taking a pic of me with her phone.  She quickly slide her phone in back pocket and gave Leslie and I a quick little wave.  Steve had his phone out and was looking at it. 

“My mom will be out front in less than five minutes, lets head out there.”  He announced. 

We said goodbyes to the rest of the group and headed out to the front.  It was then that I realized how fast my heart was beating.  I took several deep breaths.  Leslie slide her hand into mine and she squeezed it tightly. 

“You okay?”  Allie asked. 

“I think so, yea.”  I blurted out. 

Scott’s mom pulled up and we climbed into the car.  Scott sat up front next to her and the rest of us slide into the back seat with me in the middle and Allie and Leslie on each side of me.  I looked up and saw that Scott’s mom was staring at me in the rear-view mirror.  The only good news was that she was smiling as she did it. 

“Kids.  How was the movie?” 

Allie and Scott both said great at the same time which caused us to all to chuckle a little. 

“Cindy… did you like the movie?”  She asked. 

I quickly said yes.  Scott’s mom had made a hard accent on Cindy.  It was as if she wanted me to know that she knew that was the name that I was now using. 

“You girls all look so cute.  I remember those teenage girl days of being able to wear such darling things, doing your makeup, you all are just so lucky!  I sometimes wish I had a daughter.  Allie and Cindy, your mom is so fortunate, she has three now.” 

It seemed like an over-the-top way to address the elephant in the room of me now presenting myself as a girl, but her tone was sincere.  I honestly think she genuinely believed what she was saying. 

Allie spoke up.  “You are lucky though Mrs. Worthington, you have two amazing sons.  They are both good people and pretty cute also.” 

Leslie and I gasped a little at how bold Allie had been in talking about Scott to her.  We both turned to her and smiled. 

“That is true Allie.  I definitely am lucky.” 

Fortunately, we got back to Scott’s house pretty quickly.  We had told Mrs. Worthington that she could just drop us off there and we would all walk to our houses since they were so close. As I slide out of the car on the driver’s side, she reached for me arm to stop me from walking away.  I heard Scott saying he was going to walk with Allie back to our house. 

“Cindy, I admire you being so brave about this.  Just know that there are going to be some that have an issue with it.  I remember when Joel first came out and what he went through.  If you want, I am sure he would be glad to talk to you, or help you get resources or whatever you may need.  He is part of the LBGTQ advocacy group at the school you know.”  She then pulled me into a hug. 

“Thanks Mrs. Worthington, that means a lot.  I might reach out to him.  Allie was right, you have amazing sons.” I said while finishing our hug. 

Leslie was waiting for me at the back of the car and when I reached her, she took my hand.  Scott and Allie had gotten ahead of us walking on the side walk. 

“What was that about?”  What was that about Leslie asked.  

“She was just offering support.” I told her. 

As we got to my house, we saw Scott and Allie kissing on the front porch.  Leslie pulled me over in front of the car in the drive way. 

“Let’s give them some privacy plus I have wanted to do this since I got to your house earlier.”  She said as she wrapped her hands around my waist and pulled me close to her.  Her mouth moved towards mine and a tentative kiss soon became passionate, and I felt her tongue slid between my lips. 

“Hey guys I will…  opps… sorry.” We heard Scott say as he came around the car. 

Leslie and I broke our kiss and giggled. 

“Anyways… I hope to see you all tomorrow.  Allie and I are planning to go to the pool.  It would be awesome if you all came too.  See you later.”  Scott said and moved off towards his house. 

Leslie and I moved to front door, and she kissed me again.  This time it was quick kiss and she asked if she could text me later which of course I said yes to. 

When I entered the house mom and Allie were sitting in the living room talking.  Allie was beaming. 

“Allie said the movie was good.  Did you enjoy it?  She also said you ran into some friends and there were no…  problems?”  The word problem was heavily accented. 

“It was good.  And no that seemed to go okay.   I was fairly nervous when I first saw them, but it seemed like they were cool with how I was dressed.”  I told her. 

“Great.  So now let’s talk about what is under that skirt, missy!”  Mom’s tone had changed.  “Are you wearing a diaper right now?” 

“Yes.”  Was all I said. 

“And what did we discuss about diapers during the day yesterday?”  She asked. 

“That I wouldn’t wear them.  But…”  I started. 

“No but… that is what we agreed on.”  Mom said flatly. 

“I know… but…” I hesitated.  “I didn’t want to spend the whole time in the movie concentrating on if I needed to pee or worrying if I would need to jump up and run out to the bathroom, or worse yet that I would flood a pullup and leak.”  I said without a lot of confidence in my voice. 

“Did you wet your diaper during the movie?” 

“Yes.”  I replied.

“Is it wet now?”  She asked.

“No.  Allie changed me right after the movie ended.”  I told her. 

There was a silence, and I could tell mom was thinking. I felt my phone vibrate in my back pocket I saw Allie had pulled her phone out also.   I started to reach for my phone, but mom started to speak so I held off.

“Okay, I can’t believe I am saying this, but your reason actually makes sense.  But we are going to have….”  She was cut off. 

“Cindy… umm… You need to look at your phone.  I can’t believe that bitch did that.”   Leslie said. 

“Did what?”  Mom asked.

I pulled out my phone and saw the text from Leslie that was sent to both me and Allie.  Leslie had screen grabbed a pic from Melody’s Instagram page.   I looked at it and saw it was a picture of me.  Underneath it she added a bunch of hashtags to words like trannie, sissy, fakeboobs, and others.  It already had over fifty likes and a bunch of comments.

Allie had walked over and handed her phone to mom.  Her face went from shock to sadness.  I was scrolling through the comments which we mostly derogatory although there were some that were supportive and even a few that seemed sincerely complementary.  

I felt tears welling up in my eyes and Allie moved over and hugged me.  “Hey, let’s go up to my room, sokay.”

Mom stepped over and hugged me quickly and just nodded to indicate that Allie’s idea was a good one.  Without much thought I found myself heading up the stairs and into Allie’s room.  I was holding my phone in my hand it continued to vibrate several times.  Allie and I climbed into her bed, and she fluffed the pillows behind us and then wrapped her arms around me as I laid back into her chest.  I opened my phone to read the texts.

‘I am so sorry.  Are you okay?  Can I do anything?’  Leslie had sent. 

‘Oh, my fucking god.  What a c word.  And she thought she would end up on varsity cheer.  She is done. I am sorry cousin’ Christine had sent. 

‘Hey… that sucks man.  Joel just said if you need anything he would be glad to help you.  He has sort of been through this before.’  Steve wrote. 

It would have been great if those had been the only texts I got.  While there were some other supportive ones including one from Stephanie who had been at the movie theater with Melody.   There were also some really nasty ones that used language like the ones that Melody had hash tagged. 

I replied quickly to all the supportive ones.  Some with just a heart eyed emoji.  Allie was obviously texting on her phone as my head as slid down and was now laying in her lap.  

“Allie, I love you!”  I suddenly said for some reason. 

“Oh Sissy. I love you too!  I know this sucks but… at least from what I am now seeing there is way more support for you then negative comments.  Funny what happens when our step cousin throws some her weight around.  We knew she was like the Queen Bee at school but wow.”  Allie responded. 

“Really?” I said. 

“Yea… she commented on Melody’s post and the tide almost immediately changed.  Take a look.”  Allie told me. 

I went to my Instagram Account and tried to pull up Melody’s post.  I couldn’t find it.  When I told Allie this she checked on her phone and couldn’t find it either. 

“Looks like she deleted it.  She really is a dumb blonde if she thinks that made it disappear.  It does show that she had no idea of the shit storm she created.” Allie laughed. 

I lifted my head off her lap and sat up.  As I moved, I realized my diaper was not only wet but very wet.  The huge coke I had drank at the movies had caused me to soak two diapers in a short period of time. 

I heard a light knock on the door and mom walked in.  Trailing behind her was Leslie. 

“Just seeing how my princess is doing.  You okay?  Leslie came over to check also.”   Mom said. 

Suddenly I just started to ugly cry.  I was crying so hard I couldn’t really talk.  Allie hugged me from one side and Leslie from the other while I looked up my mom whose eyes were wet also.   The reason I was crying though was because I felt loved and accepted right then.  Hearing my mom call me princess, Allie holding my head in her lap, Christine standing up to my bully, Leslie coming over to check on me.  It was overwhelming emotionally. 

When I was finally down to just some sniffles Allie looked at me and grinned.

“Um… Sissy you destroyed your wakeup, especially your mascara, if your girlfriend saw you now, she would dump you in a second.”  She laughed as she finished speaking. 

Leslie laughed also and then said.  “Never.” 

Allie slid off the bed and took my hand and led me into the bathroom.  With her help I removed all my makeup. 

“I need to pee really quick.  By your waddle it looks like you need a new diaper, right?”  Allie said. 

I nodded yes. 

“Okay, grab one and the wipes and I will change you in my room.”  She directed. 

I started to follow her directions and when I stepped into the hallway ran into mom coming out of my room with Jenny’s diaper supplies. 

“Do you need your diaper changed also?”  She asked. 

“Yes, Allie said she would do it.”  I told her. 

“Hmm… okay.  But not while Leslie is in the room, understand?  I am ordering pizza for dinner.  Leslie can stay if you want.”  Mom continued downstairs. 

I grabbed one of my diapers and wipes and headed into Allie’s room.  Leslie smiled at me when she saw what was in my hand.  

“Uh, Leslie do you mind stepping out into the hallway.  My mom said you couldn’t be in here while Allie changed me.” I said sheepishly. 

“No problem.  Although I am a little jealous Allie will get to see your diapered butt.”  She laughed. 

Allie came in to the room.  “Up on the bed Sissy.”

I laid down her bed and Allie stepped over and flipped my skirt up and removed my wet diaper.  She cleaned me with the wipes and fluffed the diaper for me.   Without being told I lifted my butt up and she slid it place.  Then after making sure that it was situated exactly right, she pulled the tapes over the front as tight as she could.

“That good?”  She asked with a big smile on her face.

“It is perfect.  Thank you.” 

I went to get Leslie from the hallway and asked if she wanted to stay for pizza.  She said yes, so I headed down stairs to tell my mom.  Coming down the stairs I heard her telling Steve, who must have just arrived home, what had happened and warning him that my secret was out. I listened to him acknowledge what mom told him and tell her it was going to happen sooner or later. 

I yelled down to mom that Leslie was going to stay for pizza.  Steve made it to the top the stairs and looked at me for a minute. 

“Mom told me what happened.  You okay?”  He asked. 

I was a little surprised at that but responded.  “Yes, thanks.  I hadn’t thought about this before, but you might get teased some.” 

“Why would I get teased?”  He asked.

“Because you have a step=brother who dresses like a girl and wants to be a girl.”  I said flatly. 

“Yea… so what.  I don’t want to wear girl stuff so why does it matter.”  He replied.

“Okay… just warning you.  If it happens, please let me and Allie know, okay.”  I turned and headed to Allie’s room. 

Leslie and Allie were busy on their phones when I walked back in.  I climbed up on the bed and as I reached for mine, I suddenly remembered something. 

“Allie, I can’t believe I forgot to ask this.  How was your kiss?   That was your first time, right?  Was it magical?”  I gushed. 

Allie blushed and set her phone down.  I noticed Leslie had set her phone down also. 

“It wasn’t technically my first time.  I had played spin the bottle at a party last year.  But it was my first time kissing someone I really liked.”  She said. 

“And???  Spill girl!” Leslie squealed. 

“It was kind of perfect, at least for a first kiss.  I understand you two are now just making out whenever you can, in front of whoever you can.”  Allie laughed and looked at Leslie first and then me. 

“What?  Who told you that?”  Leslie asked. 

“Scott, texted me he caught you all as he was leaving.”  Allie smiled at her. 

“Well, he did catch us, true.”  I said quietly. 

“Who knew my little Sissy would be sucking face before me?”  Allie chided.  

Mom yelled up the stairs that the pizza was here, and all went to down to eat.  There wasn’t much talking while we ate.  Steve asked about the movie, and we all said that thought it was good.  He had didn’t want any spoilers since he was planning on going with his friends later this week.  Mom reminded us that Brian would be home tomorrow. 

After dinner Leslie headed home.  I walked her to the door, and we shared a quick kiss while mom was in the kitchen cleaning up.  Allie was on the floor playing with Jenny and I joined her.  At some point Steve asked if I wanted to play a video game so I went up and played with him. 

Later mom knocked on the door and was holding Jenny on her hip.  She had a bottle in her other hand.  I felt my eyes go to the bottle and a feeling for envy.  When I looked up at mom her face showed a knowing smile.

“I am getting ready to put her to bed.  Can you grab a diaper and your nightie, so you don’t have to go into your room until bedtime?”  She said.

I told her sure and asked Steve to pause the game really quick.  After getting the diaper and my Sleeping Beauty night gown I wasn’t sure where to put them.  I decided to lay them on Allie’s bed since my wipes were still in her room.  I went back and after getting my butt kicked by Steve two games in a row, I told him I was heading downstairs.

Allie was on the couch with the TV on and her phone in her hand.  I hadn’t looked at mine in a couple of hours on purpose.  I had been able to forget about Melody’s Instagram post because of it.  Reluctantly I picked my phone up and saw there were a half dozen texts on it. 

I opened Leslie’s first. ‘I know bad things happened today, but my favorite part was kissing you near the garage.  Can’t wait to do that again.  XOXOXOX… with lots of XXXX’s.’  She added a big heart eyed emoji to the end. 

Scott had sent me one also asking how I was doing.  He also asked me if Allie had said anything about their kiss. 

I responded. ‘She told me she needed to kiss someone else to compare it to.  She is going to kiss Jimmy tomorrow.’ 

Immediately after I sent it, I followed up with.  ‘Just kidding.  She was pretty happy about it.  Thanks for asking how I am.  I am doing okay this evening.’ 

He responded. ‘Bitch!  That wasn’t funny… okay it was a little funny. Glad you are doing okay.’ 

There were texts from both Christine and Aunt Marie asking how I was doing and telling me they had my back.  I responded with doing okay and thanks to both of them. 

My phone dinged with a new text from Leslie. ‘Loved our kisses today.  Hope to see you tomorrow.  Sleep well. XOXOXO.’ 

A smile spread across my face, and I sent back.  ‘I did to.  Hope to see and kiss you tomorrow.  Goodnight. XOXO.’ 

“Hey Allie.  Thanks for everything today.”  I told her. 

She looked up from her phone and smiled.  “No problem, Sissy.  What are you planning to do tomorrow?  Are you still thinking about maybe going to the pool?  I am pretty sure Scott and I are going to go.  You and Leslie could go with us.” 

“I don’t know.  I guess.  I mean the cat is definitely out of the bag.  I just…  I don’t think I want people to find out about the other thing on top of this, you know.”  I said. 

“So you don’t want to be labeled the transgendered diaper girl?”  Allie laughed. 

“Ah no.” I quickly said back. 

“I understand.  I think we have a pretty good plan to hide your diaper.  And I can change you in the family bathroom if you need it.” 

I moved over to the couch and hugged her.  “I will think about.  I really appreciate the offer and all your help.” 

“Speaking of diapers and changes.  Cindy, I want to change you tonight.  Grab your stuff from Allie’s room and I will meet you in my room, okay.”  Mom said from behind us startling me a little.   

I separated from Allie and we both looked at each other with a questioning look on our faces. I got up and headed to the stairs and up to my mom’s room.  She was sitting on it waiting for me. 

“Drop your skirt and take your top off, then hop up on the bed and lay down so I can change you, sweetie.”  She said warmly.

I did what she told me to do.  When the skirt came off my mom remarked on the diaper being wet which I hadn’t realized I had done.  I climbed on the bed and laid back and felt and heard her rip the tapes off and remove my diaper. 

“No signs of a rash which is good.  Butt up pumpkin.”  She laughed. 

I followed her directions and raised my butt and felt her slide a fresh diaper on underneath me.  She brought the front up and quickly and tightly taped it. 

“Is that tight enough?  Probably not as tight as Allie does it but hopefully it is good.”  She smiled down at me. 

I sat up.  “It is good mom, thanks.”  I reached for my nightgown and pulled it over my head. 

“Good.  I have another surprise for you.”

I watched as she picked up one of my bottles from her night stand and showed it to me.  Then she climbed on her bed and propped some pillows behind her so she was sitting up.  She smiled at me and patted the bed next to her. 

I quickly moved in next to her as she cradled me.  As the side of my head rested against her breast, she brought the bottle to my mouth.  I quickly latched onto the nipple and began to nurse from it.  An almost complete sense of comfort washed over me. 

“This isn’t going to be an every night thing but you had a rough day so I thought it might be a nice way to end it.”  Mom said lovingly. 

I smiled at her with my eyes, and I continued to nurse on the bottle.  When it was empty, I sat up and hugged my mom pulling her tight to me.  She hugged me back. 

“Okay.  Even thought you had some baby time tonight you can stay up until 10:00 if you want.  You have to go to bed at the same time as Allie and Steve.”  Mom told me.

“Thanks mom.”  I said as I climbed off her bed. 

I found Allie and Steve down stairs watching TV.  Allie looked at me and her eyes asked what the deal was with mom.  I tried to mimic mom giving me a bottle, but she didn’t figure it out. 

Steve did though.  “Are you going to go back to being a baby?  Diapers AND bottles?” 

“No.” I quickly said.

“Good.  The girl stuff is whatever, the diaper stuff I don’t know, but the baby stuff is just weird.”  He said.

I didn’t respond.  A minute later my phone dinged, and it was as text from Allie.  It was only emojis of diapers and bottles.  I looked up at her and she smiled and winked at me.  

We all watched TV for the next hour without really saying anything and when ten o’clock came got up and headed to the stairs.  Steve’s room was first, and he quietly said good night and turned into his room. 

Allie’s room was right across mine and Jenny’s room.  I said good night and put my hand on the knob when she reached for my arm and gently pulled on it.  She opened her door and led me into her room.

 

“I thought we would have another sleep over tonight.”  She smiled at me.

I was a little surprised at how happy I was about this.  I moved to one side of the bed and crawled under the covers and laid down.  Allie walked over to her dresser and pulled out a night shirt. With her back to me she pulled her shirt off and quickly removed her bra. The she slid her shorts off, I noticed she was wearing a cute pair of lavender panties.  She pulled her sleep shirt over her head and then moved towards the bed.  

“Good night, Allie.  Thanks for letting me sleep here tonight!”  I said happily. 

“Good night, Sissy, I hope mom got that diaper on tight.”  She laughed. 

Knowing Allie was next to me and that she would protect me allowed me to quickly drift off to sleep. 

[fireandcrinkles]

Chapter 21

I woke up in the morning and could see plenty of light peeking through the curtains in Allie’s room.  I rolled over and saw she was rubbing her eyes, slowing waking up also.   I felt the pressure in my bladder releasing and slide my hand down to my diaper.  It was obviously already swollen so I had wet it previously during the night.  My pee this morning caused it to continue to swell and I hoped it wouldn’t leak while I enjoyed the warm feeling that felt through my groin.

“Are you wetting your diaper right now?”  Allie asked. 

“Yes.  Sorry.”  I responded. 

“You don’t need to be sorry.  That is what the diaper is for.  Plus, you like wetting them, right?  I just hope mom got it on tight.  I don’t mind you sleeping in here, but I definitely don’t want you wetting my bed.”   

“It was pretty tight. And I don’t feel any leaks.”  I told her as I ran my hand around the sheets under me. 

“That is good.  I need to run to the bathroom, or I am going to wet the bed.”  Allie said throwing the covers off her.

Her night shirt was bunched up and I saw her panties as she sat up and swung her legs around to get out of bed.  They were a lavender bikini style with lace around the edges.  They were definitely cute, and I was a little envious of her wearing them. 

I heard my phone chirp and picked it up to see a text from Leslie. ‘Good morning!  When do I get to kiss you today?  XOXOXXXX’ There was a smiling heart eyed emoji following it. 

I typed back. ‘Good morning.  Hopefully soon.  Allie and I just woke up.  Will text you after breakfast.’ 

‘Okay.  Did you sleep in her room again?’  She wrote back. 

‘Yep. XOXOXXXX’ I added heart eyed emojis. 

Allie came back in the room.  She was holding a diaper in one hand and wipes in the other.  

“You need to be changed before you get pee on my bed, Sissy.”  She smiled. 

“Do you think mom would be okay with that?  She really wants me to try to stop wearing diapers during the day.  Maybe I should put on a pullup or…. panties and a maxipad?”  I responded. 

“You are turning down a diaper change?  I thought you loved that part?”  Allie asked. 

“I do.  And I really love when you change my diaper.   Don’t tell mom but you do it better than she does.”  I smiled at her.  “I just want to make sure I don’t make her mad.  Plus, I need to get out of diapers before school starts.  Not like I could get my wet diapers changed during school.”

“Hmm.  Maybe you need to learn how to do it yourself.  I know you wouldn’t enjoy it, but I am sure lots of people change their own diapers.” 

I wasn’t a fan of that idea for two reasons.  First, I really did like someone else changing me.  Second, I would be worried about getting it on right and tight enough.  The fear of leaking would be constant. 

“You know.  We are both going to be in high school this year.  Maybe I could change you every day during lunch or something?”  Allie offered. 

I was shocked to hear her offer that.   I knew that our relationship had really changed the last few days.  Allie had gone from being my biggest adversary to, I realized now, my best friend.   I climbed out of bed, feeling my soaked diaper droop down as I stood up, and walked over and pulled her into a hug. 

“What is this for?”  She asked while using her arms to hug me back since she still had my clean diaper and wipes in her hand. 

Through tears I answered.  “For being awesome and amazing.  I love you, Allie.” 

“I love you too, Sissy.”  She stepped back out of the hug.  “I am hungry, so diaper change or not?” 

“Diaper change.”  I smiled. 

I climbed up on the bed pulling up my night gown.  Allie set the diaper and wipes down on the bed and ripped open the tapes and removed the wet diaper.”

“Wow that thing was really soaked.”

She used the wipes to clean me, then fluffed the new diaper before sliding it under me and getting it situated properly before taping it tightly in place. 

“All done, Sissy.”  Allie sang out. 

I jumped out of bed and hugged her quickly before grabbing the wet diaper and stepping out the room.  I stepped into Jenny’s room and dumped my diaper in the diaper pail.   We met back in the hallway and headed downstairs.  Mom, Steve and Jenny were in the kitchen.  

“Good morning girls.  Perfect timing, I just set these pancakes on the table.”  Mom announced.

Allie and I grabbed some plates and utensils and sat down.  I sat next to mom, and she must have heard the crinkle of my diaper because I saw her raise an eyebrow. 

“Did you all have another sleepover last night?  Cindy did you wake up wet?”  Mom asked. 

“Yes.”  I said quickly. 

“No leaks, I hope.  I tried to make sure I diapered you as tight as Allie does.  Is the diaper you have on the one you wore to bed?”  Mom voice was accusatory. 

“No leaks.  And it isn’t.  I changed it this morning.”  I responded.

“You changed it?  And aren’t we supposed to be trying to not wear diapers during the day?”  Her tone was annoyed. 

“Allie changed it.  And yes.  But it was really soaked, and we were both hungry so she just did a quick change so we could come down for breakfast.”  I told her.

 I knew it didn’t really make sense, but I was hoping to change the subject.  I looked over at Allie, but she was busy typing on her phone.

“Allie changing your diaper would be faster than putting on a pullup?  Wow she must really be good at it.  Maybe she needs to take over changing all the diapers in the house.”  Mom sarcasm was very thick. 

Allie looked up from her phone at that comment.  Steve’s eyes darted between all of us.  He could feel the tension in the air. 

“I asked Allie if she would change me.  I wanted to wear a diaper this morning.  I like wearing them, you know that.”  I said with a bit of attitude in my tone.

“I know you like wearing them.  That is very different than being dependent on them, which is the case now.”  Mom said with some exasperation.  “What happens when school starts in two weeks?” 

I looked over at Allie.  I wasn’t sure if based on mom’s tone and attitude this morning I should tell her that Allie said she would change me at school.  This didn’t seem like the right time.  Allie looked at me and grinned. 

“I will change him…  opps… wow… sorry.  I will change her at school during lunch every day.”  Allie said with a smug smile on her face. 

“Oh, you will? I want to understand this correctly.  A little over a week ago, when all this diaper, baby, girl stuff, etc. came out, you were teasing him, threatening to expose him, complaining about him, and saying it was all ridiculous.  Now you two are best friends, and you help him with his makeup, change his diapers, and are his biggest supporter for this?”  Mom’s face was red with anger. 

Allie’s face showed shock.  Steve slumped down in his chair.  I pulled my legs up to my chest and felt my lip begin to tremble.  Finally, I burst into tears and jumped up from the table and ran to the stairs. 

When I got to the hallway I didn’t know where to go.  I suddenly felt like I didn’t have a room in the house anymore.  I went into the bathroom and closed and locked the door before sitting in the corner and pulling my legs to my chest again.  I could hear some arguing downstairs but couldn’t make out what was being said. 

About ten minutes later I heard movement in the hallway and a door close.  I thought that might be Steve going into his room since it was right across from the bathroom.  A few minutes later there was more noise in the hallway.  Someone had walked down the hall and came back fairly quickly. It was probably mom getting diaper supplies for Jenny. 

I had no sense of time or a way to tell what time it was while I was in there.  It felt like it was it was at least a half hour but maybe longer when there was a light knock on the door.

“Yes.”  Was all I said. 

“We need to talk.”  I heard mom’s voice.  

I stood up and unlocked the door then slowly opened it.  My mom stood in the hall, and I stood in the bathroom.  I waited for her to say something. 

“Come with me.”  She finally said. 

I followed her into her room.  I looked into Allie’s room as we went by and didn’t see her.  She must be downstairs watching Jenny. 

“I should have gotten angry and yelled.  I am sorry if that upset you.”  Mom said flatly. 

“You didn’t yell at me.  You yelled at Allie.  You should apologize to her.”  I told her. 

“I did apologize to her.”  Mom’s tone was defensive. 

“Okay.”  I turned to walk out of the room. 

“Where are you going.  We aren’t done young man.  We still have to talk about this diaper stuff.” 

I stopped and turned around and angrily said.  “Just the diaper stuff?”

Mom looked at me confused. 

“Down stairs you called me him and referred to my things as his.  You just called me young man.  I think it is more than diaper stuff as you call it.  You told me that you and Brian would support me but is it only if I do what you want?”  I was shocked I had the courage to say these things. 

“I… I… I am sorry.  I did do that didn’t I.”  Mom started to cry now. 

 I nodded my head affirmatively and there was a long silence. 

“Sweetie.  I do support your gender expression needs.  I even made an appointment with Dr Jorgenson for Friday to talk about what we should be doing, if anything, to help you.  I waited until Friday because Brian said he wanted to be able to go with us to it.  We support you I promise.”  Mom said through her tears. 

“Then why did you refer to me as a boy?”  I was starting to cry again. 

“I don’t know.  Honestly, I guess I was mad about the diapers and maybe it just came out.  I really am sorry.”  Mom was getting control back now. 

“But you have been supportive about the diapers also.  Why the sudden change?”  I asked. 

“I don’t know.  Maybe…  maybe I don’t really understand that part.  I get that they feel good, I even understand how wetting them might feel good.  And the being changed… I get that.  What I don’t understand is how you enjoy having to wear them.  That you really need them.”  Mom’s tone was sincere, you could hear the questioning in it. 

“I don’t understand that part either.  Honestly, I don’t really understand any of the diaper part, but I do know that I enjoy them, that I feel secure when I wear them, and love when you or Allie change me.”  I told her.  “I actually think I understand the changing part.” 

“You do?”  Mom asked. 

“Yes.  When you or Allie change me, it is one of the two people I love the most in this world, and who I look up to the most in this world, taking care of me, accepting me, and somehow, I think, showing they love me.”  I told her. 

Mom burst into tears and then pulled me into a hug.  I heard noise behind me and saw Allie standing there holding Jenny on her hips and she had tears running down her face.  I am not sure what parts she had heard.  Mom’s face showed that she now saw Allie also. 

“Uh… I know we are talking about love and showing it by changing diapers, but Jenny’s has a dirty diaper and I don’t think I love her enough to change that.  I know that I don’t love Cindy enough to change her dirty diaper.” Allie laughed. 

Mom and I both laughed and broke apart from our hug.  She reached for Jenny and took her from Allie. 

“Do you have a stinky bottom?  Let mommy clean you up.” Mom said.  “Cindy and Allie, I am really sorry.  Can we talk more about all this later?  Please, I promise I won’t lose my temper.” 

We both nodded yes, and Allie took my arm and pulled me into her room.  

“Wow, talk about it being her time of the month.” Allie said quietly after closing her door. 

“Really?  How do you know?”  I asked. 

“I just do.  Partly because I just finished.  We are almost on the same cycle.  For some reason she is usually a couple days after me.”  She explained. 

“Oh… that makes sense.  I am sorry she yelled at you because of me.” 

“It wasn’t your fault.  Did you really mean what you said about how you feel when I change your diaper?  Do you really look up to me?”  Allie asked. 

“Yes.  I have realized that more and more the last week.”  I responded.

“But why?  I have always been such a brat or a bitch to you.  I honestly didn’t realize it sometimes, until the last week, but looking back, wow, you should hate me not love me.”  Allie said with a slight catch in her voice.

“Maybe that was because I ignored you a lot, so you acted out to get my attention.”  I told her.

“Hmm… maybe.  Or maybe I was just bitch.”  She smiled.  “Why did you ignore me?”

“I think I did that because I was jealous and envious of you?” I said honestly. 

“Jealous?  Why?”  Allie asked.

“Lots of things.  Mostly the attention you got from mom.  But I was jealous of your toys.  I was jealous of you being diapered when you were still wetting the bed.  The girl time you got with mom.”  I responded.

“I do remember trying to get you to play with the Ken dolls and you always wanted to play with a Barbie.  Should have seen this coming.”  She pointed to my night gown and laughed as she said that. 

Allie’s phone dinged and she picked up and read it.   A smile came across her face as she read it. 

“Scott just asked me about the pool.  Are you up to that?  I think you should go.  You need to see Leslie’s butt in a bathing suit.”  She smiled at me. “We will go with you, so you won’t be on your own.”

My phone chirped so I picked up.  ‘Pool today?  We could say it was our second date.’ 

Leslie had texted me and added heart eyed emojis.  I typed back. ‘Only going if it is a date and I get to kiss you at some point. XOXXXX’ 

The dots immediately showed up and she quickly sent back.  ‘Deal.  Date and kiss! XOXO.’ 

Our house was on the way to the pool so I told her to come by at 11:00 and we would leave from the there.  Allie told Scott we would be leaving at 11:00 also.  

I stepped over to Steve’s room and lightly knocked on the door.  He yelled for me to come in and I saw he was playing a video game that he paused. 

“Hey, we are going to the pool.  You are welcome to walk up with us.  Just so you know, I am going to being wearing a girl’s bathing suit.”  I told him. 

“What are you going to do about…. About your… your diaper?”  He asked.

“I am going to wear shorts over the bathing suit to hid it.  And mom got me a swim diaper to wear when I go in the pool.  I am hoping no one will notice.  But they are definitely going to notice my bathing suit.  Are you okay with that?”  I answered.

“Yea…  I told you.  I don’t have a problem with that.  Still figuring out the diaper thing.  I hated having to wear them.”  He said honestly.

“I know.  I don’t understand it either.  We are planning to leave at eleven o’clock.”  I smiled at him and then left his room. 

Allie had jumped in the shower while I was talking to Steve.  I went into Jenny’s room and found the red bathing suit that Christine had given me.  I also grabbed two diapers and a pullup.  I looked around and didn’t see my breast forms.  I remembered I had taken them off in mom’s room last night and went and found them there. 

I took all of it to Allie’s room who walked in right after me.  She had just finished taking a shower.  She told me to take a quick a shower and come back and she would diaper me, and we could get dressed.  I used all of Allie’s shampoo, conditioner and soap as I showered.  Girls stuff really did smell so much nicer I thought. 

Allie was still in her towel laying in her bed with her phone when I came back.  She looked up at me and smiled, I think because I had tucked my towel up under my arms like her.  As she got up off the bed, I was envious of her boobs that were obvious even while she was wearing a towel.  Without my forms I was very flat chested. 

“What?”  Allie asked seeing a change in my facial expression.

“You have great boobs.”  I said shyly.  “I am jealous.” 

“Good genetics.  Mom has great boobs also.  One day you might have great boobs also Sissy.”  She laughed. 

We took turns blow drying our hair.  I asked Allie about makeup, and she said that while she had waterproof mascara it wasn’t worth the trouble for a trip to the pool.  We did both put on a light coat of lip gloss. 

Allie went and got her bathing suit out of her dresser.  She was wearing a bikini today.  She pulled the bottom on up under her towel.  Then she turned her back to me to put the top on.  I noticed that she had more curve to her hips and butt than I realized.  After she got her top on, she turned around.

“Wow.  Scott and every other boy, and some girls, are going to love seeing you today.  No wonder Leslie goes to the pool with you every day, you are hot.”  I told her. 

She laughed.  “Thanks, but trust me, ever since you started wearing girl stuff Leslie hasn’t looked at me twice.  Did mom give you the swim diaper?  I don’t know what is best.  Should you just put that on here? Or should you wear a regular diaper and change into the swim diaper?” 

“I don’t know. Honestly.  Maybe I should pee right before I put it on?  And then have you put a diaper on me when we get ready to go home?”  I said. 

“That sounds like a good plan.”  Allie said. 

“Okay.  I am going to go grab a pullup and wear that until just before eleven o’clock.  I don’t want to have any accident in your room.”  I turned to go grab one.

“Yea…no accidents in my room, that sounds like a good plan also.”  Allie laughed. 

I went to Jenny’s room and grabbed one of my pullups and slide it on under my towel then went back to Allie’s room.  She was typing on her phone when I got back.  Her pool bag was on the bed now and she motioned that I should put the diapers and pullup I had grabbed earlier in it.  

Steve lightly knocked on the door and Allie told him to come in.  He stepped in and saw me sitting on her bed with the towel up under my arms.  “Yea, you are definitely a girl.  Allie, would it be okay if Kurt walked to the pool with us?  His mom can’t take him today but said he could go if went with us.” 

“Sure.  Oh wait, he just needs to walk with us right, like I don’t have to keep any eye on him at the pool or babysit or anything?”  Allie responded. 

“Yep, just the walk.  He is a great swimmer, on the swim team actually.  Thanks.”  Steve closed the door. 

“Glad I wasn’t being asked to babysit.  I am looking forward to being at he pool with Scott.  Plus. I already have one baby butt to take care of.”   She laughed.  “Probably time for you to get your suit on.”

I grabbed the swim diaper and bathing suit and went to the bathroom.  Dropping the towel, I removed the pullup and sat on the toilet.  I was able to squeeze out some pee and then wiped myself.  I pulled the swim diaper on the and felt like I was able to get the Velcro on tight.  Stepping into the suit I pulled it up and then slide my arms through the straps.  I realized I had left my forms in Allie’s room and the suit fit a little funny. 

“Did you pee?”  Allie asked as soon as I walked back in her room. 

“Yes.” 

“Where are your boobs?  Remember the girls in this family have big boobs.”  She smiled at me. 

I laughed and went and got my forms and put them in place.  Like when I put a bra on, I liked how their weight put a little pressure on my shoulders from the straps.  I moved over to Allie’s full-length mirror and was happy with what I saw.  The swim diaper really helped me look flat in the front. 

“Here are the shorts and I also grabbed you a t shirt to wear for the walk to and from the pool.” 

I took the shorts from her and slide them on.  I looked at the t shirt.  It had all the Disney Princesses on it and said Girls Just Want to Have Fun on it.  It made me smile and I quickly pulled it on.  It was a little tight in the shoulders and across my chest but fit. 

Allie and pulled a t shirt on also.  Her shirt was a tank top with a low-cut front and I was pretty sure that she had chosen it because it showed off her cleavage. 

“Are you trying to kill Scott.”  I asked with a big smile. 

“Girls!  Your friends are here.”  Mom had yelled from the bottom of the stairs. 

I felt a flutter in my chest and flush feeling.  Mom yelling girls had touched something in me.  I loved it when she referred to me as a girl.  Allie grabbed her pool bag and we headed out of the room and down stairs.  When we entered the family room, I saw Scott and Leslie immediately then I noticed another person. 

“Hey” Leslie said to me and moved over towards me.  “Cute shirt.” 

“Thanks. It is Allie’s.  It isn’t too tight is it?” I asked. 

“Nope.  It fits perfect I think.”  She smiled and winked at me.

“Hi… uh… Cindy.  How are you?”  Lance asked me. 

“Good… how are you?  How has your summer been?”  I asked him. 

“Busy.  I went out to California to spend a month with my dad. Then had soccer camp and a family vacation.”  He replied and after a short hesitation.  “You look pretty.” 

“Uh… thanks.  I get lots of help from my mom and Allie.  You look like you have grown some.” I said flustered. 

“Alright, lets go everyone.”  Scott announced. 

Mom yelled upstairs.  “Steve, Kurt, they are leaving now.  If you are walking with them you need to go now.”

I had forgot about Kurt coming also and realized I was getting ready to expose myself to another new person.  Steve came down the stairs first with Kurt behind him.   I saw Kurt look at me and then quickly look away. 

“Hey Kurt, how are you?”  I asked. 

“Uh…good.  How are you… uh… Cindy?”  He stuttered.

I smiled.  “I am good.  Ready to head to the pool?” 

He just nodded.  I then asked myself if I was ready for this.  I wasn’t sure if I was, but I was ready to find out.  We all headed out the front door.

[Haley9832]

This is one of the best stories I've read.  The transgender struggle is realistic and kind of inspiring. 

[fireandcrinkles]

Chapter 22

When we got to the sidewalk, we were mostly walking in groups of two.  Kurt and Steve were in the front. Leslie and I were behind them; Allie was with Scott behind us, and Lance trailed behind them.  Kurt kept glancing back over is shoulder at me.  I think he was still trying to grasp that I looked like a girl. When I would look back at Lance, I would catch him either staring at me or at Leslie’s butt.

I took some comfort in the fact that Steve, Allie, Scott, and Leslie weren’t looking at me like I was some sort of oddity.  They had pretty quickly accepted seeing me presenting myself as a girl.

Scott had been my best friend since I moved here.  He and Lance were best friends before that.  Most of the time it was the three of us doing things together, but I also felt a little like the odd person out.  I wasn’t sure how that would workout now.    Lance had also grown and filled out over the summer.  He was an amazing soccer player and athlete. 

The walk to the pool was about ten minutes and with each step I felt my nerves increase.  I also found myself looking down at my shorts.  I was worried that I would wet myself and it would leak through the swim diaper, bathing suit and shorts.  I didn’t want to arrive at the pool with a big wet spot between my legs. 

Leslie must have sensed my nerves and part of what I was worried about.  She took my hand and held it while quietly saying in my ear.  “Just jump in the pool as soon as you get there, that way no one will see if you have an accident.” 

I smiled and nodded at her.  I wondered how I got to be so lucky to have her as my girlfriend.  I realized that was how I thought about her, but we had never really said to each other that was what we were officially. 

We got to the club and went to the pool entrance.  As we got to the counter, we all showed our pool cards to the lifeguard that was working there.  When I handed mine to her, she looked at me and back at the card and then smiled at me, winked, and handed my card back to me.  That helped settle my nerves some. 

Walking into the pool area Allie had moved into the front with Scott right next to her.  We headed toward the area that typically the senior and juniors from high school hung out at.  As we followed her, I felt that everyone’s eyes were on me, including the moms of the much younger kids.   Steve and Kurt broke off and went over to a group of their friends. 

When Allie stopped at a row of lounge chairs and set her bag down, I saw Christine turn around and say something to her and then smile at me as she walked in my direction.  When she got to me, she gave me a big hug. 

“You are a very brave girl coming here today. I promise you it is going to be fine.”  Christine said in my ear. 

We broke away from our hug and she waived one of the people over that was standing with the others.  There was a group of about a half dozen seniors and juniors standing there.  I noticed that Scott’s brother Joel was with them. 

“Cindy.  This is Sean.  Not sure if you all have met before?  He is kind of my boyfriend.  Maybe?”  She laughed. 

Sean was the star quarterback on the football team.  He was over six feet tall and looking at him I didn’t see an ounce of fat.  He had a huge smile of white teeth and green eyes that sparkled.  I was a little surprised at how looking at him made me feel, something, I wasn’t sure. 

“Hi Cindy.  Christine said you all were going to hang out with us today.  That is awesome.  Who is your friend?” 

“Uh… Hi… nice to meet you.  This is…  this is Leslie. She is a friend of mine and Allie’s.”  I somehow blurted out. 

“Nice to meet you also Leslie.”  He smiled at her as he spoke. 

Leslie said hi and told him it was nice to meet him and gave me a strange look when he moved away.  I scanned the pool deck and saw that there were a lot of eyes pointed in the direction of our group and seemingly on me.  I noticed that Melody and some of our school mates that were at the movie theater were here.  I forced a smile as I saw her looking at me. 

“Hey.  Are you doing, okay?  The first several days that everyone knows can be tough, but it gets better.  Mostly because they move onto the next bit of hot gossip.”  Joel had put his hand on my shoulder as he spoke. 

“I am doing okay but I appreciate your support, a lot.  It is nice knowing someone who has kind of been through this before.”  I told him. 

Another boy stepped next to him, he turned and wrapped his arm around him.  “Do you know Ben?  We just started dating.  He is just coming out also.” 

“Hi Ben.  We have never meet but I know who you are.”  I said. 

Ben was a junior but had been a star on the soccer team since he was a freshman.  I could see Lance’s eyes widen as Joel had wrapped his arm around Ben’s waist in manner that was definitely not a bro hug.  I guess he really had just come out. 

There were a couple of other girls from the cheerleading team with Christine and I also saw Gary who was on the football team with Sean.  When I saw him, I remembered Allie talking about him checking out Leslie’s ass. 

The older group separated a little from us.  Scott and Lance had pulled their t shirts off and looked eager to get into the pool.  When Lance turned towards us it was obvious that he had been working out a lot since last summer.  The muscles in his arm and chest were noticeable along with how flat his stomach was. 

Leslie saw me looking at him and rolled her eyes at me.  I was getting ready to say something when Allie began to pull her shirt off.  While the tank top she was wearing hadn’t done a lot to cover up her chest, standing there in just her bikini top you could see how amazing her boobs were.

 Allie then wriggled out of her shorts unaware that we were all watching her.  Looking past her, I saw that even Christine’s boyfriend was watching her with a grin.  I turned and saw Leslie staring and when she knew I caught her she quickly looked in a different direction and began to take her shirt off.    

I watched as Leslie revealed she was wearing a bikini also.  Her breasts were much smaller than Allie’s but the bikini she as wearing made her chest look good.  Leslie smiled at me when she saw my grin after checking out her boobs. 

Leslie turned her back to me and started to remove her shorts.  As soon as her shorts were at her thighs it was obvious why Gary had walked into a table.  Her butt was perfect, starting to round right at her waist, with an almost shelf to it.  She bent over pushing her butt out at me to pull her shorts off her feet.

Leslie smiled a knowing smile at me as she stepped near me and then leaned into me and gave me quick kiss on the lips then said.  “Your turn to strip girlfriend.” 

I was suddenly very self-conscious.  I glanced around and could see that there were a lot of eyes on me still.  Some of them had shown a little shock when Leslie had kissed me.  Allie must have sensed my hesitation and she stepped over next to us. 

“You okay?”  She asked. 

“Yes… just suddenly nervous.”  I told her honestly. 

“Take the shirt off first.  Most of the people here are going to want to see your chest and try to figure out where you boobs come from.”  Leslie said. 

“You just like boobs, lesbo.”  Allie laughed at her.  “Seriously, she is right Sissy.  Take the shirt off first then wait a few minutes, take the shorts off and go jump in the pool.”

I was a little shocked that Allie had called Leslie a lesbo, but Leslie had laughed when she said it and Allie’s tone hadn’t been derogatory. 

“Okay, here goes nothing.”  I said and pulled the shirt over my head and then turned and put it with Allie’s and Leslie’s stuff. 

When I turned around, I saw that Leslie was right.  Most people were staring at me now and at my chest.  I looked over and saw that Lance’s eyes were glued to it and even Scott was checking them out.  I almost yelled out that they were fake but chose to just smile instead. 

Allie, Leslie and I took turns putting sunscreen on each other’s backs and our own arms and shoulders.  By the time we finished that I could see I was only getting regular glances now.  I felt myself spurt a little pee in my swim diaper then.  I concentrated on stopping it and felt like I succeeded. 

“I need to get in the pool now.” I blurted out.

“Oh… okay.  Then drop those shorts.”  Leslie ordered. 

I slide the shorts off, very conscious that everyone would see the outline of the swim diaper.  I tossed the shorts over with our clothes and quickly moved to the pool and climbed in.  Allie had been right, when I was in the pool no one would be able to really see the bottom of my bathing suit.  She and Leslie followed me in. 

After I dunked my head under and got my body completely wet the first thing I did, was to check to see how my breast forms were doing in the pool.  Looking down everything seemed to be in the correct spot.  Allie caught me and winked at me while mouthing silently that I looked fine.  The second thing I noticed was how the once piece suit clung to my skin.  I liked how it felt and for a second, I wished I didn’t have my swim diaper on so I could feel that sensation on my butt. 

Lance and Scott made a big production of jumping in the pool and splashing us.  That started a quick battle of splashing each other with our hands.  Scott then grabbed Allie and dunked her.  She protested but the smile on her face showed she was happy to have Scott wrap her up. 

I was shocked when seconds later Lance did the same to me.  I was surprised at how strong he was and how easily he was able to dunk me.  I was also a little surprised that like when I had wrestled Scott, I had a strange feeling run through me while feeling his body in contact with mine. 

Leslie gave us a both a dirty look after this happened and I could tell that she was annoyed by something, possibly me.  I moved over to her and tried to take her hand in mine, but she seemed to be moving away from me.  While that was happening a group of our classmates had moved through the pool and came near us. 

“Hey, you all too cool to hang out with your classmates?”  Adam said with a smile and a laugh. 

“Yea, hanging out with the seniors instead of us sophomores and freshmen?”  Stephanie added. 

“No, we aren’t too cool, but we were concerned that not all of us would be welcome.”  Allie said with some defiance. 

Leslie had moved back near me when the group got close.  I reached for her hand with mine and she took it, with a little reluctance. 

“Cindy, I am sorry about what Melody did.  For what it is worth, I think she is too but that may just be because of the backlash she got.”  Abbey said. 

“Yea… it is all good with me.”  Ryan added. 

Stephanie smiled at me and gave me a wink.  Stacey was focused on Lance, and Adam seemed to be trying to get closer to Allie.  I noticed that Ryan had a nerf football in one of his hands. 

“Who is going to the formal on Saturday?”  Stephanie asked. 

Allie, Leslie, Adam, and Scott all immediately said yes. 

Stacey immediately asked Lance if he was going.  He told her he might, and she said he hoped he would.  She was smiling at him and obviously flirting and letting him know that she was interested in him.    

“How about you Ryan, are you going?  And what about you… Cindy?  Are you going to go?”  Stephanie asked. 

Ryan nodded yes while tossing the football up in the air and catching it himself.  Stephanie turned to me and raised an eyebrow. 

“I think so.”  I told her quietly. 

Stephanie moved over near me, and I had noticed that Leslie had dropped my hand and moved away from me. 

“Do you have a gown?”  Stephanie asked. 

“Yes.  My step-cousin Christine gave me one of her old ones.” 

“Oh…  I am sure it a beautiful then.  She definitely has great taste in clothes.”  I heard Abbey say. She had moved over close to me on the other side of me. 

I looked for Leslie and saw that she was playing catch with Ryan now.  I knew that Leslie was athletic, she actually had a shot at making the varsity softball team as a freshman.  Watching her throw the football with Ryan still shocked me. 

Stephanie, Abbey and I talked about our dresses and shoes, etc. for the formal.  The discussion felt sincere, and I felt like I was a part of the girls.  I looked over and saw Scott and Adam doing what looked like a dance around Allie.  It was almost like they were fighting for her attention. 

Ryan made an errant throw with the football, and I saw it head towards us.  For some reason I threw my arms up to protect my face and let out a small scream.  The ball just missed me and splashed in the middle of me, Stephanie, and Abbey. 

“Wow, you really are a girl aren’t you.”  I heard Lance say with a huge smile.  “Need me to protect you?” 

Leslie gave me another dirty look and Stacey who moved over near us looked at Lance funny. 

We stayed in the pool until break and then got lunch from the snack bar.  Allie had brought my towel over to me as I got out of the pool and when I wrapped it around me it covered my butt and groin area, so the outline of my swim diaper wasn’t visible thru my wet bathing suit. 

While we ate lunch Leslie had made a point to sit next to Ryan and continued to ignore me.  When we finished lunch, we moved back to where we had put our stuff.  Allie and I sat on the lounge chairs while Leslie, Lance, and Scott got back in the pool and played football with Ryan and Adam.  The other girls had gone back to their spot. 

“You doing okay?  Umm… have you been able to tell if you have peed?”  Allie asked.

“I did earlier.  I am sure I did at least once while we were in the pool.  What is the deal with Leslie?  Has she said anything?  She is mad about something.”  I replied. 

“Seriously?  You don’t know what upset her?”  Allie looked at me. 

“No… I don’t.”  I told her. 

“Well… you almost drooled on Christine’s boy friend when you saw him.  Then you let Lance feel you up in the pool and it was obvious that you liked it.”  Allie said. 

“What!  I did not.” I protested. 

“Yes, Sissy, you did.  Leslie is worried that you are going to dump her for someone else… the someone else being a boy.  She is really insecure about her sexuality.”  Allie had swung around and put a hand on my knee as she spoke. 

I didn’t say anything, so Allie continued.  “Do you like boys?  Like are you attracted to them?  It is okay if you are.” 

“I don’t know.  You are right.  I did like looking at Christine’s boyfriend.  And if I am honest, I felt something when Lance was dunking me in the pool.”  I said looking down at the pool deck.  “But… I really like Leslie and I think she is really cute” 

“Then make sure she knows that.  Maybe even tell her about the other stuff also.  Just be honest with her, okay.”  Allie patted my knee.  “I am going back in the pool, coming?” 

I stood up and removed my towel and quickly got in the pool.  I moved over to where Leslie was and slide my arms around her from behind.  She tried to break away, so I pulled her under the water with me. When we came up, she was facing me, and I kissed her quickly on the lips.  She tried to continue to be mad but then a smile came across her face and she leaned in and kissed me again.

Looking up I saw that Lance, Ryan and Adam were staring at us.  We smiled at them and kissed one more time.  Then Leslie raised her hands indicating that she wanted the ball thrown to her and Ryan did.  I moved over to Allie and Scott and Allie gave me a big smile and a wink. 

When the next break was blown Allie said it was probably time to head home.  We knew that mom wanted us home early since Brian would be coming home today.  She went off to find Steve and Kurt and I moved to edge of the pool.  Leslie hopped out and said she would grab my towel.   

Allie came up behind me and grabbed her pool bag.  “Do I need to change you for the walk home?” 

“Uh… maybe I can go try and pee.  Then you can change me as soon as we get home?”  I told her. 

“That sounds like a good plan.”  She smiled. 

I walked over to the where the restrooms were.  When I got there, I hesitated.  I wished Allie was with me and slowly walked into the women’s bathroom.  Fortunately, no one was in there when I went in. 

I went to a stall and hung my towel on the hook.  I then peeled the wet bathing suit down.  Peeing at the pool was way easier as a boy. My suit was now at my ankles, and I was holding my breast forms in my hands as I sat and forced some pee out.  I pulled the suit back up and got my forms in place and wrapped the towel around me to hide my diaper bulge.

Stepping out of the stall I turned and saw Melody and her older sister Liz.  Their eyes got wide when they recognized me.  I tried to quickly move out of bathroom. 

“Are you sure this is the right bathroom?”  I heard Liz say. 

I ignored her and kept moving. 

“Just because you are wearing girls’ things it doesn’t mean you are girl.  Use the boy’s room like the boy you are.”  She continued. 

I didn’t respond and walked as fast as I could back to our group.  Steve and Kurt were waiting, and I could see that Leslie and Allie had put their shorts and t shirts on over there bathing suit.  I grabbed my shorts and pulled them on under the towel then rolled that up and pulled on my t shirt. 

As soon as I was dressed, I started to move toward the exit quickly.  We walked past Melody and Liz who gave me a dirty look as we walked out. 

Leslie fell in next to me.  “Hey you, okay? Did something happen?” 

“I am okay.  We can talk later.”  I moved my eyes to show I didn’t want to talk about it with Lance, Scott, and Kurt around. 

Leslie took my hand and squeezed it.  We pretty much got into rows to walk home except this time Lance was behind me and Leslie with Allie and Scott behind him.  I looked back and saw that Scott was holding Allie’s hand and she had a big smile on her face.  Everyone was quiet as we walked, I was little worried that Lance might hear the crinkling of my diaper. 

We got to Scott’s house first, but he said that he wanted to walk Allie to our house.  Allie reminded him that our stepdad was going to be home so he wouldn’t be able to come in and he was fine with that.  Kurt’s house was next, and we stopped and watched him walk into his house.  Steve ran ahead of us hoping that his dad would be home. 

When we got to our house Lance stayed on the sidewalk at the drive way entrance.  Allie and Scott moved to the front porch and Leslie pulled me over to the driveway in front of the garage.  Like yesterday Leslie took the lead and wrapped her arms around my waist and pulled me to her before kissing me passionately.  Brian’s truck block us from Lance’s view. 

When we broke the kiss Leslie said.  “I know your stepdad is home but any chance tomorrow we could find some time to talk?  I think we need to clear up some things.” 

“Uh sure.  And I will text you later.  Might be quick text though, okay?”  I replied. 

“Great.  I will look forward to it.”  Leslie gave me one more quick kiss and moved to join Lance on the sidewalk. 

I walked to the front door, passing Scott who gave me a smile like the cat who swallowed the canary.  When I got to the porch I looked back and saw him moving in the direction of his house and Lance and Leslie walking the other direction since they lived across the street from each other.  They both were laughing as they walked.  I realized I was feeling some jealously.   I think it was because Lance was with Leslie but maybe it was a little because Leslie was with Lance. 

Allie and I entered the house and Brian jumped up off the couch to greet us.  He gave Allie a quick half hug and then turned to me and did the same.  He told us he had missed us, and it seemed genuine.  Mom came out asked how it had gone at the pool and we told her okay.  We need to change out of our bathing suits I told her and moved to the stairs.  Halfway up I turned to Allie and quietly said you need to diaper me.

Allie went into her room and grabbed her clothes.  She picked up a pair of loose-fitting gym shorts, some cotton panties, a bra and a t shirt.  She told me she would be right back. 

I pulled one of the diapers out of the pool bag and laid it on the bed.  Then I went to see if Allie had another pair of gym shorts and found a pair pink mesh ones and grabbed those.  I found my bra hanging from her chair at her desk and picked that up.  The t shirt I had on was dry, so I was going to continue wearing it. 

Allie came into the room after changing into dry clothes.  “Do you want to change in the bathroom and try and pee before I put the fresh diaper on?” 

I actually felt a little pressure in my bladder so I knew I would be able to pee.  I hadn’t really wet a diaper since I woke up this morning and if I peed in the toilet, it would probably be a couple hours before I would need to pee. 

“Uh… would it be okay just to get diapered instead?”  I asked nervously. 

“Yea… I guess.  Just make sure you don’t pee on me or my bed while I am doing it okay?  Remember you did that to mom, and she was pissed.”  Allie replied. 

“I won’t and I do remember.  Thank you.”  I told her. 

I pulled the top of my bathing suit down and set my forms with the bra that was on the bed.  Then I pulled my shorts down and left them on the floor.  I popped up on Allie’s bed and shimmied the bathing suit down my legs.  Allie pulled it the rest of the way off of my feet and then undid the Velcro on the swim diaper and removed it. 

I concentrated on not peeing as she fluffed my diaper out and slide it under me and positioned it.  She then tightly taped it in place.  I smiled at her, and she smiled back. 

“Good?”  She asked. 

“Perfect.  Thanks.  Uh… can I borrow those short and keep wearing the t shirt?”  I pointed to the stuff on the bed. 

“You can just have them.  I don’t actually wear a lot of pink stuff anymore.  Much more of a fan of purple and lavender.  And I know how much you love the Disney Princesses, Sissy.”  She laughed. 

I pulled the shorts on.  They fit well over my diaper.  I then grabbed my bra and put the forms in before pulling the t shirt on.  Allie picked up our wet bathing suits and then used two fingers to delicately pick up my swim diaper and drop it on top of the other stuff. 

“I am heading down stairs to drop this in the laundry and then visit with Brian because I know mom wants us to.”  Allie announced. 

I nodded and followed her out of the room and down the steps.  Brian was on the floor playing with Jenny while Steve was telling him about the holding his breath competition they had with his friends at the pool.  Mom was in the kitchen prepping chicken to be grilled for dinner. 

I pulled my phone out and sent a quick text to Leslie.  ‘I hope you and Lance got home okay.  Enjoyed the pool.’ 

She immediately texted back.  ‘I enjoyed most of the time at the pool also.  And both Lance and I got home fine.’ 

It was obvious that something was still bothering her, and I started to respond but Jenny jumped up next to me and handed me the Elsa plushie.  “Play Cindy… Play.” 

I realized she was calling me Cindy not talking about Cinderella and I smiled and climbed down to play with her.  I was laying on my stomach and suddenly felt my diaper swelling as I released my bladder.  The warm feeling was wonderful.  Allie had come back, and she got on the floor and joined us. 

Dinner time soon came so we all piled into the kitchen.  While we ate there was lots of laughing and joking, I looked at my mom and loved seeing the smile on her face.  I knew she loved when we were all together and happy. 

After dinner Allie and I offered to clean up and Steve even helped by clearing everything off the table.  Mom and Brian took Jenny up to give her a bath together.  With everyone working together things were done pretty quickly. 

Mom came back down with Jenny all clean and in her pajamas and set her on the floor.  Allie and I were in the living room, and I could tell Allie was texting.  I hadn’t picked my phone up, partly because I was worried about a text from Leslie.  Brian asked Steve if he wanted to go up and play a video game and they head to his room. 

“Girls.  Let’s talk for a minute about Cindy’s diapers, okay?”  Mom said as she sat on the love seat. 

Allie set her phone down and I turned towards mom after a quick glance over at Allie. 

“First, Allie… it is amazing how accepting and helpful you are with them.  Really!  I mean that sincerely.  I just wonder if it is fair to you to have to do it so often.”  Mom started. 

“Thanks.  And mom I really don’t mind.  As I said before as long as they aren’t poopy, and she doesn’t pee on me when I change her it is all good.”  Allie said and turned to me and smiled. 

Mom nodded her head. “Okay.  Cindy.  Do you think it is a lot to ask of Allie?” 

“Uh… I guess.  I mean… most times she just offers to do it and I just accept.”  I said defensively. 

“So, you don’t ask her?” 

“Sometimes, but most of the time she offers, honestly.”  I replied and saw Allie nodding her head yes. 

“And you don’t care that you have to wear diapers pretty much all the time now?”  Mom asked. 

“Not really, no.  I am sorry but that is my honest answer.”  I told her but looked at the floor. 

“Is your diaper wet right now?”

I nodded yes. 

“So, you plan to wear diapers to school then?”  Mom’s tone had changed a little. 

“I guess… I mean I think so.”  I told her. 

“And Allie you would be okay with having to change her every day at school?”  Mom looked at Allie. 

“Yes.  If she needs it.  I would do it.”  Allie said flatly. 

“What about how this might effect your clothing choices for school.  You would have to wear skirts most of the time?  You can’t seem to find shorts that fit over your diapers.  Outside of athletic ones.  I think jeans, capri’s, and leggings are either going to be the same or it would be obvious you are wearing a diaper.”  Mom explained. 

“Oh… Cindy… one of the great things about being a girl is leggings.  Mom is right, you would definitely see a diaper bulge in those.  And trust me the boys, and girls that like girls, love seeing a well-fitting pair of jeans or leggings.”  Allie said with a little laugh.

“Allie, this isn’t about what to wear to show off your ass young lady.”  Mom admonished her but then laughed.  “But you are right.” 

“I really hadn’t thought about things like that.  I am a little worried about my diapers being seen and found out about.  But I really love how they feel mom.  And I told you why I love when you and Allie change me.”  I told her. 

The room was quiet for a minute and then I added.  “I will try to start working on being potty trained, so I don’t have to wear diapers, but I don’t want to stop wearing them.” 

“Okay… maybe tomorrow we let you try some casual looks.  Maybe Christine has some jeans and capri’s she doesn’t wear that you could try on, I know Allie has some leggings that will fit.  That might help motivate you.”  Mom announced. 

She got up from the couch and went into the kitchen.  She came back holding Jenny’s bottle and picked her up.  She told me and Allie that we needed to shower since we had been to the pool today and to be in bed by ten.  Right as she walked out, she told me that she would put a diaper and my nightgown on Allie’s bed and that she would have to diaper me before bed. 

“I am going to go take my shower now.  Is the diaper you have on now, okay?  I don’t need to change you before your shower, do I?”  Allie said. 

“I am good.  I will shower when you are done.” I told her. 

I picked up my phone and texted Leslie.  ‘Hey.  My favorite thing today was your kisses.  Just wanted to tell you.  XOXXXX.’ 

I saw the dots of her reply almost immediately, then they would disappear, then start again.  It was fifteen minutes or longer before her reply came. 

‘I liked that also.  Looking forward to talking tomorrow.  Good night.  XO.’ She sent. 

I stared at the phone.  I couldn’t decide if I should ask what was wrong or just wait until tomorrow.  Allie came down stairs with a towel wrapped around body and another around hair.  She told me the shower was all mine and that she would be in her room when I was finished. 

I decided not to respond, at least not until I talked to Allie.  I headed up to the bathroom and after I removed my clothes, I looked at my diaper.  It was drenched.  I must have peed at least one more time since dinner.  I removed the tapes and it fell to the floor with a thud. 

I used Allie’s stuff again while in the shower.  I had noticed that using her conditioner had made my hair a little fuller.  Even though I really didn’t need to I went ahead and shaved my legs and underarms again.  I liked how it felt to do that, it was something that girls did, and it made me happy. 

Running my hands over my chest as I rinsed off, I was disappointed that I didn’t actually have breasts.   I knew that mom had scheduled a doctor’s appointment on Friday for me.  I wondered if I would be able to get hormones to make my breasts grow.  I didn’t know a lot about how transgender girls were treated medically but I thought that might be part of it. 

I finished the shower and mimicked what Allie had done with the towels.  Her hair was much thicker and longer than mine, it came down past her shoulders but, again, it seemed like a girly thing to do.  I rolled the wet diaper up and set it next to the trash can.  I would take it into Jenny’s room to throw in the diaper pail when I went to bed or, if I was lucky, Allie would let me sleep in her room again and I would do it tomorrow. I gathered up my other stuff and headed to Allie’s room.

Allie smiled at me when she saw the towels as I entered her room.  She had changed into a sleep shirt and was sitting on her bed texting.  I wondered it she was texting Leslie and knew what was bothering her.  Looking at her smile I decided it was probably Scott or maybe even Adam, they seemed a little flirty at the pool today.  I draped my bra over the back of her chair and set my clothes down with the breast forms on top.

“Ready for a fresh diaper Sissy?”  Allie asked. 

I smiled and nodded.  Allie patted the bed indicating where I should lay down which I did.  As I laid down, I undid the towel and pushed the back of it up under me.  Allie fluffed the diaper and set it in place.  She made a dramatic presentation of pulling the tapes tightly in place including a little grunt. 

“That should be good.”  She laughed. 

I felt my heart swell with warmth and love for her and sat up and grabbed her in hug.  She hugged me back and then picked up my Cinderella night gown and handed it to me.  She jumped into the bed with pillows propped behind her and then directed her eyes to the other side of the bed indicating I should sit there. 

Once I was comfortable, I asked.  “How was your kiss with Scott today?  Did you all make out a little?” 

“He did slip me some tongue, yes.”  She laughed.  “I couldn’t have my little sister being the only making out with other gu… people.” 

I laughed.  I knew she started to say guys and then deliberately stopped to change it to people since Leslie was a girl. 

“Did you enjoy it?”  I asked. 

“Yes.  I think he is good kisser, but I don’t really have anything to judge it by.  I do know I hope he does it again though.  How was your kiss, or I should say kisses with Allie? I was a little surprised that you all kissed in the pool.”  She asked me. 

“They were good, but she is still mad, or upset, or something with me.  She says we need to talk about it tomorrow.  Do you know what is going on?”  I asked. 

“Um… so this is kind of weird.  Leslie is my best friend, and you are my sister and also a best friend.  You both tell me things and I don’t want to… I guess… betray… or something…” Allie was a little flustered. 

“Can you give me a hint?  I really don’t like that I upset her.”  I said honestly. 

“I already did.  When we were at the pool.  She is worried that you like guys and since she is girl that would be a problem, right?”  Allie looked directly at me as she spoke.

“Yes.  But I like her.  I think she is beautiful, and she is so nice to me.  I love spending time with her, and I really like when she kisses me.” I pulled my knees up to my chest and hugged them against me. 

“You even sit like a girl now.” Allie said looking at me and then continued.  “Okay… that is wonderful, but do you find Lance… attractive… or Christine’s boyfriend?” 

“I don’t know… do you?”  I mumbled. 

“Christine’s boyfriend… for sure.  He is fucking hot!  Lance… if I am being honest, yes.”  She said. 

“Would you rather kiss them than Scott?”  I turned to look at her. 

“Rather kiss them.  Definitely not.  Scott makes me feel pretty mushy inside.”  She smiled.  “Would I kiss them?  Maybe under the right circumstances, yes.”   

“Okay.  So… Leslie makes me feel really mushy inside also.”  I told her. 

“Yea… great… but would you kiss Lance?  Or Christine’s boyfriend?”  Allie asked and raised her eyebrow. 

“Maybe… under the right circumstances.”  I said and chuckled. 

Allie pulled a pillow out and hit me with it and started laughing.  I swung a pillow back and soon we were laughing and having a pretty serious pillow fight.  A minute later the door opened, and mom stepped in. 

“Girls! Keep it down Jenny is asleep.  And Cindy when you go to bed, please be quiet when you go in your room okay.  Unless you sleep in here again.”  Mom admonished us. 

The door closed and Allie looked at me.  “Do you want to sleep in here again tonight?” 

“More than anything!”  I said sincerely. 

“Okay… well at least I know your diaper won’t leak tonight since I put it on.”  She smiled at me and then climbed under her covers. 

I climbed under the covers on the other side. 

“Allie… thanks… I love being able to talk to you about this stuff.”  I said quietly. 

“You are welcome, Sissy.  Sweet dreams.”  She responded.

[kerry]

While I think it is lovely that nearly everyone they come across (except those two bigoted girls) immediately accepts Cindy, I'm also thinking that it isn't particularly realistic. All of her friends just deal with it positively right away? Boys like Lance make passes at her? No negative remarks or looks from the mothers of the little children...even when the narration indicates that they know? I know things have really changed from when I transitioned in the late 90s, but even in the late 10s I know high school kids were not as openly accepting.

Or are you creating a best-case scenario?

[Haley9832]

13 minutes ago, kerry said:

While I think it is lovely that nearly everyone they come across (except those two bigoted girls) immediately accepts Cindy, I'm also thinking that it isn't particularly realistic. All of her friends just deal with it positively right away? Boys like Lance make passes at her? No negative remarks or looks from the mothers of the little children...even when the narration indicates that they know? I know things have really changed from when I transitioned in the late 90s, but even in the late 10s I know high school kids were not as openly accepting.

Or are you creating a best-case scenario?

I thought how the mother went went back and forth with him/her pronouns was realistic and how she snapped and called Cindy young man after she was more or less out as a girl hit pretty close to home and I could feel her pain on that one. But I am glad this story doesn't seem super realistic cause being trans can make life incredibly difficult to go through and the story would probably be a lot sadder. I really like how Cindy has lots of support though. 

[kerry]

4 minutes ago, Haley9832 said:

I thought how the mother went went back and forth with him/her pronouns was realistic and how she snapped and called Cindy young man after she was more or less out as a girl hit pretty close to home

Absolutely! Even a mother as well-meaning as this does screw up at times.

My question was more about teen friends and acquaintances and others who see her out and about. If things have really progressed to this point (despite the loud braying of conservatives) I think that is wonderful...but I suspect all of that braying has had a negative effect on people.

[BabySerenity]

Yeah I came out several times!! When I was 6yrs old was beaten and raped for being fem and 13 locked up 3 yrs in a mental hospital, and finally 2009 entire family disowned me!! I’m better off!! But have to remain in a little space mindset permanently which is very hard without my Mommy yet!! Hopefully will be adopted by her the beginning of next month!!

But I love this story though I wonder if she’s going to remain into girl’s or become interested in boys though??

[fireandcrinkles]

Hi, I read the recent comments and wanted to reply.  The first thing I wanted to say I am so sorry about the things you all experienced when you came out.  That is awful.  

As far the acceptance that Cindy is getting from peers, etc. and if that is realistic?  There probably would be more push back in real life, but there are many transgender teens who get lots of acceptance from classmates.  Google 'Trangender Prom Queen' and you can see this.  The fact that there are several trans girls who are referred to as the 'first transgender prom queen' is telling.  This story is pretty much all fantasy with very small pieces that are based on reality.  A big fantasy element is that Cindy has basically become incontinent in a weeks' time.  

Thank you all for reading the story and for carry enough to comment.  I never thought when I started it that would go on this long.  

[BabySerenity]

On 10/19/2022 at 1:42 PM, fireandcrinkles said:

Hi, I read the recent comments and wanted to reply.  The first thing I wanted to say I am so sorry about the things you all experienced when you came out.  That is awful.  

As far the acceptance that Cindy is getting from peers, etc. and if that is realistic?  There probably would be more push back in real life, but there are many transgender teens who get lots of acceptance from classmates.  Google 'Trangender Prom Queen' and you can see this.  The fact that there are several trans girls who are referred to as the 'first transgender prom queen' is telling.  This story is pretty much all fantasy with very small pieces that are based on reality.  A big fantasy element is that Cindy has basically become incontinent in a weeks' time.  

Thank you all for reading the story and for carry enough to comment.  I never thought when I started it that would go on this long.  

We just can’t wait to see what happens next??

[FretaBWet]

I am really loving this story. As far as transgender acceptance in real life is concerned, what does it matter? This is fiction not an autobiography so it doesn't need any relation to reality. It's art and I think the author is a talented writer and I appreciate the effort that is put into it. Keep up the great work and thank you!

Hugs,

Freta

[BabySerenity]

18 hours ago, FretaBWet said:

I am really loving this story. As far as transgender acceptance in real life is concerned, what does it matter? This is fiction not an autobiography so it doesn't need any relation to reality. It's art and I think the author is a talented writer and I appreciate the effort that is put into it. Keep up the great work and thank you!

Hugs,

Freta

Perfectly said Freta

[fireandcrinkles]

Chapter 23

I woke up in the morning because I felt the bed moving.  I slowly opened an eye and saw Allie climbing back into bed.  I could tell that there was some natural light coming into the room, so it was morning, but I wasn’t sure what time it was. 

“Shush… go back to sleep Sissy.  It is still early.”  I heard Allie say. 

I must have done that because the next time I woke up it was because I could feel pressure in my bladder.  I quickly moved my hand to my diaper and at first, I thought it was dry but after fondling it a little I could tell I had wet it some. 

My movements must have been enough to wake Allie a second time because I felt her stirring in the bed.   I rolled over onto my side and as I did, I felt my bladder release and the warm feeling spread through my diaper.  I thought I heard myself sigh a little. 

“Maybe I need to consider diapers.  It must me nice not having to jump out of bed to pee right after you wake up.”  Allie snarked. 

“Hmm… it is definitely an advantage of them.  Good morning, Allie.”  I said happily. 

“You aren’t going to leak, right?”  She asked. 

“Nope.  My big sister, the expert, diapered me last night, very snuggly.”  I laughed.

Allie snorted.  “I can’t believe I have to pee again already.” 

She threw her covers off and got out of bed, heading towards the bathroom.  When she left the room, I again reached down and felt my diaper enjoying that it felt swollen and warm in my hand and against my groin. 

“Hey.  Smells like mom cooked some bacon.  Let’s get up.”  Allie announced when she returned to the room. 

“Okay… uh… can you change me really quick, please.”  I asked her.  “There should be another diaper still in your swim bag.” 

Allie sighed but moved over to the pool bag and pulled out a diaper.  She hesitated a second and then pulled out the pull up.  “Shouldn’t you put this on instead? You told mom you were going to try and work on not needing diapers.”

“I know but… I really liked wetting my diaper this morning and want to do it one more time.  I will try after that.  Promise.”  I pouted at her. 

“Whatever, just remember if mom gets mad this was completely your idea and you made me do it.”  Allie said. 

I smiled at her and threw my covers off and rotated sideways in her bed pulling my nightgown up under me as I did it.  Allie grabbed the wipes off the top of her dresser and brought them and the diaper over to me. 

“Wow… this thing is soaked.  All kidding aside it is a good thing I am so good at diapering you tightly, so you don’t leak.” 

Allie ripped off the tapes and dropped the front of my soaked diaper down and got out some wipes and cleaned me.  She then pulled the used diaper out from under me and rolled it up before sliding the new one in place, taping it tightly.  

“Take this and the one in the bathroom and put them in yours and Jenny’s diaper pail.  I don’t mind you sleeping in this room, but I don’t want this room to start smelling like pee.” She told me as she handed the drenched diaper to me. 

I gladly took it and grabbed the one from the bathroom and put them in the diaper pail.  I thought a little about Allie had said and wondered if that meant I could keep sleeping in her room with her.  She had actually said this room and not my room. 

Allie was already down stairs when I finished putting the diapers in the pail.  I moved to the kitchen enjoying the smell of the bacon and anticipated how good it would taste.  Everyone else was at the table when I got there.  I grabbed a plate, utensils, and poured a glass of orange juice and sat down. 

“Good Morning, Cindy.  How did you sleep?”  Mom asked me. 

“Good morning.  I slept great.” I told realizing she hadn’t asked about my diaper and if I woke up wet. 

“Did Allie change you this morning?”

“Uh…  yes. I asked her to.  She hesitated but I begged her to.”  I said before sticking a piece of bacon in my mouth.

“Uh… Huh…  I thought you were going to start working on not wearing diapers in the day?”  Mom said. 

“I am…  I promise…  I just wanted to wear a diaper for a little more this morning.”  I blurted out quickly.

I saw mom share a look with Brian that I couldn’t read.  Allie’s eyes said thank you for saying that I had begged her to change me.  I also saw Steve shake his head slightly. 

“Alright.  But after you wet that one you need to wear a pull up or the other thing.  Okay.” Mom directed. 

I nodded me head.  I thought it was interesting that she had referred to a maxipad as the other thing.  I wondered why she didn’t want to say that in front of everyone.  Was she embarrassed to say it front of Brian or Steve? 

“Girls we need you to babysit this evening.  I want to take your mom on a date to the movies and then out to dinner.”  Brian announced. 

“Allie you will be in charge but…  Cindy you are responsible for any diaper changes that Jenny needs.  Allie is already doing her fair share of diaper changes.”  Mom said with a slight smirk on her face. 

“Could we each have a friend come over while we are babysitting?  I promise we will keep a close eye on Cindy.”  Allie asked. 

Brian and mom looked at each other.  Brian raised an eyebrow meaning that it was up to mom to decide.  She took in a deep breath. 

“Okay… one each and everyone stays in the family room, understand?  You can order pizza for dinner.  Do we know who you are planning on inviting.  I mean I have a good idea but thought I would be sure.”  Mom chuckled a little at the end. 

“Uh… I was going to ask Scott over.” Allie replied and turned her eyes to me.

“Leslie… but I was hoping she could come over later this morning or this afternoon.  She wanted to talk to me.”  I blurted out. 

“She can come over when you want her to, and she can stay or go and come back.  It is up to you and her.  Just remember she can’t be in the room when your diaper is being changed.”    Mom looked directly at me. 

“I know.  Thanks.” 

We finished eating and Allie and I offered to clean the kitchen.  Mom was in the family room with Jenny and had her phone in her hand when we came out.  Steve came down stairs and asked if it was okay if the went to Kurt’s this afternoon and slept over there which mom said yes to. 

“Hey… Christine just said she did have a couple of pairs of jeans and a pair of capris you could have.  She is going to drop them off later this morning.”  Mom announced putting her phone down. 

I told her thanks and headed up stairs to get my phone.  I wanted to text Leslie and ask her about coming over to talk and about hanging out this evening.  I decided it was still a little early and didn’t want to possibly wake her up.  If she was mad at me waking her up probably wouldn’t help. 

I went over and knocked on Steve’s door.   

“Yea… what’s up?” He asked through the closed door. 

“Wanted to see if you were interested in a couple of quick games this morning?”  I replied. 

He opened the door and let me in taking a quick glance at me and seeing I was still wearing my Cinderella night gown.  You could also hear my diaper crinkling as I moved.  We grabbed our seats and he handed me one of the controls.

I hadn’t suddenly gotten any better and he quickly beat me in the first round, the second round I did a little better.  Mom tapped lightly on the door during the third round, and he told her to come in.  She smiled when she saw me and left Steve’s clean laundry on the end of his bed. 

We had started our second round of games when Allie popped her head in to tell me that she had asked Steve and he was definitely coming over this evening to hang out.  She had a big smile on her face as she said it. 

“Have you asked Leslie yet?” She asked. 

“No, didn’t want to wake her up if she was still sleeping.”  I responded. 

“Yea… you know she gets up early.  Are you sure you aren’t scared of her?  You aren’t being a sissy are you, Sissy?”  She laughed and I heard Steve let out a quick laugh also. 

The game was paused, and I handed my controller to her and told her to finish it for me.  I went and grabbed my phone and checked it.  I was hoping there would be a text from her but had no such luck.

‘Good morning.  Hope you slept well.  Allie and I have to babysit this evening and mom said we could have a friend hang out with us.  Want to hang out this evening?’  I sent her. 

I looked to see if the dots would appear that she was responding and didn’t see anything.  Feeling some pressure in my bladder I laid down on Allie’s bed and enjoyed wetting my diaper.  I realized then that if I wasn’t distracted, I did have at least a little idea of when I needed to pee. 

I was enjoying the warm wetness in my diaper when my phone dinged, and I immediately grabbed it. 

‘Would it be like a date?  Are you asking me out?’  Was all Leslie sent. 

I thought for a minute. ‘Yes.  I guess.  I want to hang out with you.  I like being with you.’ 

She immediately responded.  ‘Could we chat earlier.  In person.’ 

She was making me nervous, but I sent.  ‘Of course.  Whenever you want.’ 

‘Okay.  Thanks.  Can I come over in about an hour?’  She sent back.

‘Sure.  See you then.  XOXO’ I sent back.

‘OK’ was all she sent back.

I started to get up to tell Allie about our chat, but she walked in right as I was putting the phone down.  My face must have shown something. 

“You, okay?  What did Leslie say?’  She asked me. 

“She wants to come over in about an hour and talk.”  I told her.

“Oh… well okay.  Then we need make sure you look pretty when she gets here.”  Allie smiled at me.  

Allie took me by the hands and led me over to her desk and had me sit down in the chair and spun me towards her.  She grabbed a brush and started on my hair.  I wanted to work up the courage to talk our mom about going to a hair stylist and getting a true girl’s haircut. I also wanted something that could grow out and I could wear in a ponytail or pigtails occasionally. 

“You need to get mom to take you to our stylist.  This looks cute but you need a real girl’s haircut.”  Allie announced. 

I laughed.  “I know, I was just thinking the same thing.  Think mom would be okay with that?” 

“Yes… honestly the only thing mom struggles with it seems is the having to wear a diaper.  You are lucky, not as many trans girls’ parents are as accepting and supporting.”  Allie answered.

“I know.  I have been really lucky; mom has been great.  Brian has been cool; you have been awesome.” 

“Well, I am awesome so that shouldn’t have surprised you.  Okay makeup time let me grab my stuff from the bathroom.”  Allie bounded out of the room. 

She came back and went straight to work.  I couldn’t see what she was doing but I know she had used eyeliner, mascara, and some eye shadow.  She then started on my lips. 

“I want to make these irresistible to kiss.  You can’t be mad at someone that you want to kiss, can you?” Allie chuckled.

She then continued. “Listen be honest with her okay.  It is okay to say that you think some boys are attractive, if you do.  I am not sure Leslie has completely sworn off boys herself.  She seemed pretty happy tossing the ball in the pool with Ryan yesterday.” 

I felt my heart speed up when Allie mentioned Leslie throwing the ball with Ryan.  I had noticed how happy she was also but thought I was just being paranoid. 

“But I know… because she constantly tells me or texts me about it, she is really, really in to you.  I think that is why she gets insecure when you look at anyone else.  Okay, all done.  What are you going to wear, besides a tight shirt or blouse” Allie again giggled.

“I am not sure…  I mean right now my choices are either shorts or a skirt, right?” I responded. 

“Pretty much.  How about your pink denim shorts and the white v neck shirt?  And the new lacy white bra you got when went shopping with Christine.  Pretty sure Leslie would like that.”  Allie winked at me. 

I went over to Jenny’s room and got the clothes out of the dresser.  I grabbed a pair of bikini panties also.  When I got back to Allie’s room, I saw that I had about twenty minutes until Leslie would be here.  Removing my nightgown, I put the bra on first and then put my forms in place. 

“That is a pretty hot look, Sissy.  A lacy white bra and wet diaper.  No wonder Leslie has a crush on you.”  Allie laughed. 

I looked in her full-length mirror and laughed also.  My diaper was obviously wet and the contrast to the bra was startling.   I pulled the shirt on and then grabbed my panties and the wipes off the top of the dresser and moved to the bathroom. 

I took my diaper off and sat on the toilet and tried to squeeze out a couple drops of pee before cleaning myself with the wipes.  Opening the sink cabinet, I pulled out one of my maxipads and tore the wrapper off.  I pulled my panties on, stopping mid-thigh and removed the plastic backing off the adhesive strip of the maxipad.  Then I set it firmly in my panties and pulled them up in place feeling the maxipad rest snuggly in my groin. 

I quickly went back into Allie’s room, a little nervous about Steve seeing my in my panties in the hallway.  I enjoyed the feeling of the thick pad between my legs as I moved.   I entered Allie’s room and she chuckled when she looked up from her phone. 

“I think that pad makes you waddle almost as much as a wet diaper.”  She said. 

I stuck my tongue out at Allie and pulled my shorts on and walked over to the mirror.  I really liked how I looked, and a big smile came across my face. 

“You actually have a pretty cute butt, Sissy.  It isn’t a Leslie quality ass but in a tight pair of shorts you have some nice curves.  You look good.”  Allie said sincerely. 

“Thanks.  And I look good thanks to your help.”  I smiled. 

We heard a quick rap on the door, and it swung open, and mom walked in. 

“Hey girls… Christine is…  oh, wow Cindy… you look… you look beautiful.   And shorts… does that mean no diaper right now?”  She said. 

“Thanks mom.  All Allie’s doing… and no diaper right now.  Hoping that goes okay.  Leslie is coming over.  She wants to talk with me.”  I said quietly. 

“She does?  About?” Mom asked. 

I hesitated.  Mom had been so cool about all this stuff, but I wasn’t sure what she thought about mine and Leslie’s… relationship, I guess. 

“I think about what it is going on between us.”  I finally told her. 

“I see.  You and Leslie are both in the middle of figuring out things.  I think it is nice that you have someone to do that with but…  you are both young, you don’t need to commit to anything.  You will both probably have plenty of girlfriends, or boyfriends even, before you know what you really want.”

I didn’t say anything and after about a minute of silence she continued. 

“Be nice to each other okay.  Leslie is a really wonderful young lady.”  Mom smiled at me and left the room. 

“We are really lucky you know that don’t you?  We have an awesome mom.”   Allie said. 

“Yes, we do.”  I responded as I stood up.  “Thanks for helping me get ready, thanks for everything actually.  I am also lucky enough to have an awesome sister also.” 

“Awe, Sissy… you are welcome, and you are pretty amazing little sister.”  Allie winked after the little sister comment. 

I got up and left the room to head down stairs to wait for Leslie.  My timing was perfect because just as I stepped into the family room, I heard a knock on the front door.  Mom was on the floor with Jenny and Steve and looked up at me and smiled. 

I opened the door and saw Leslie standing there with a smile.  You could tell she had tried to look nice also.  Her hair was in pig tails, and she had put on some makeup, mostly mascara and lip gloss.  She gave me a slight smile as I invited her in. 

“Good Morning, Leslie.  You look cute.”  Mom told her. 

“Thank you and good morning, everyone.”  Leslie responded. 

I hadn’t thought about where we would talk.  I knew that mom didn’t want us in a bedroom by ourselves and I didn’t think this was a conversation that Leslie would want Allie to hear.  Finally, I took Leslie’s hand in mine and led her towards the kitchen. 

“Mom, we will be on the back deck okay.”  I said without waiting for an answer. 

I continued to hold her hand and opened the sliding glass door and stepped onto to the back deck closing it behind us.  There were some chairs on the other side of the deck, but I stopped and turned to Leslie and took her other hand in mine. 

“You look beautiful!” I said to her and leaned into kiss her. 

She gave me a quick kiss but stepped back.  “You look amazing also, but can we talk first.  I am really nervous, okay?” 

“Ah sure… want to sit down?”  I asked now really nervous myself as I moved over to a bench on the deck. 

Leslie didn’t respond but took a seat on the bench.  She didn’t sit right next to me but didn’t sit at the far end either.  We looked at each other and it was obvious that we were both anxious.  I saw a small smile start on Leslie’s face and felt the same happening to me. 

“Okay…  I am just going to say it.  Do you like boys?  Like I saw how you looked at Lance and you couldn’t stop starring at Christine’s boyfriend.  It is okay if you do but…  I am really into you, and I don’t want to… well I don’t want to made a fool of or whatever.”  Leslie’s eyes never left mine as she spoke. 

I quickly said.  “I am really into you also!” 

“I like hearing that, but you didn’t really answer my question.”  She grinned. 

I took a deep breath.  “I didn’t answer because…. well…  I really don’t know the answer to that.  Until recently I hadn’t thought much about boys or girls.  The only kind of crush I had was on Christine and looking back now, I think it was more that, I wanted to be like her instead of liking her.  Does that make sense?” 

Leslie nodded her head yes, I continued.  “I did, I guess check out her boyfriend yesterday, and maybe even Lance a little, but I didn’t get a warm fuzzy feeling like I do when I look at you.  I didn’t spend half my day thinking about them like I do with you.  And I didn’t have to fight the urge to kiss them like I do when I close to you.”

Leslie’s cheeks blushed a deep red as I spoke, and smile came across her face.

“Can I ask you a question?”  I said.

“Of course.  Ask away.”  

“Actually, a couple questions.  Do you only like girls?  I saw how happy you were playing catch with Ryan, and you were kind of flirting with him and smiling.  And if I was wearing boy’s clothes, would you still like me, or do you only like me because I am wearing girl’s clothes.”  I kept my eyes on her as a I spoke. 

“I think I only like girls… or maybe girls and trans girls more accurately.  I did like playing catch with Ryan and honestly, I liked that he was flirting with me but…  this sounds so bad…  I love Allie, she is an amazing best friend but since she has gotten so… so curvy… well everyone focuses on her, and it is nice when someone notices me.  I think that is what you saw.”  She looked down this time as she spoke. 

I didn’t say anything, so she continued.  “What is a little ironic is that Allie developing was what confirmed to me that I am into girls.  I kind of felt like I might be and then all of the sudden I realized I really like how Allie looked and I started to notice more and more girls.” 

“Oh wow… so you are into Allie also?”  I asked nervously. 

“No silly… I told you… I am into you.  It was just that Allie made me realize I like how girls look and not how boys look.”  Leslie reached her hand out and put it on my thigh. 

“But I am not a girl, at least not really, and I don’t have real curves like Allie.  And when I first started wearing girls’ clothes... well… they were baby girl clothes and diapers and stuff.”  I said nervously. 

“True…  well, you actually sort of have a girl’s butt.  It isn’t bony like most boys.”  She laughed.  “And you are pretty, especially when you use a little makeup.” 

“Uh… thanks… but… what about the other stuff?”  I moved my hand on top of hers. 

“The diapers…  you know I have no problem with that.”  Leslie responded. 

“Not just the diapers but that I was wearing baby clothes, baby girl’s clothes, and you really have no problem with the diapers?”  I asked. 

“Honestly, I wasn’t really sure what I thought at first.  After the first time I saw you, as I was walking home, I realized I admired you.  You were doing something that made you happy, I thought it was brave.  I had realized I was probably a lesbian, but I hadn’t told anyone because I was scared of what people would think and say.”  She looked up at the end and smiled at me.

When I didn’t say anything, she continued.  “Honestly, the pooping the diapers.  I wasn’t a fan of that part of it and even the baby clothes weren’t something I was attracted to.  I thought you looked cute in them, but it didn’t make me think I wanted to kiss you. The first time I thought about you as someone I was interested in was when I saw you in a princess dress.  You may not realize but you move like a girl when you are wearing dresses, skirts, and clothes like that. Although you still need work on not flashing everyone.”    

I laughed at the last comment.  “I think the princess dresses clicked something in me.  Looking back, I have always liked things that normally are considered more girly.  The first time I wore a diaper after I was potty trained.  I was around six or seven.  Allie wet the bed and wore diapers at night.  I snuck one of hers on while I was home sick.  It didn’t fit and I ended up wearing a pair of Allies panties over it to keep it place.  I remember liking how they looked.” 

“Really?  So, this goes back a long time?”  Leslie asked me. 

“My mom caught me and threatened me that if she ever caught me again, I would be in real trouble so until two weeks ago… I never did it again, even though I wanted to.  Honestly, Steve being a bed wetter and knowing he was getting to wear diapers and be changed by mom is what caused me to do it again.”  I wasn’t sure how much exactly Leslie knew about what had happened.

“Oh… Allie never really told me.  She just said that you liked wearing diapers and being a baby and your mom was okay with it.” 

Leslie moved over closer to me.  “Thanks for talking to me.  I know we aren’t going to get married or anything but…  I just want you to be honest, if you decide that you would rather be with a guy or another girl tell me, okay?” 

“I will…. The same for you with another girl…  or even a guy if you decide you like them also.  You never really told me though…  do you only like me when you see me as a girl?  Like if I took my makeup off and put on a pair of boy’s jeans and a t-shirt, would you be attracted to me?”  I asked. 

“Honestly…  I don’t know for sure, but I don’t think so.  Is that okay?  I mean I would be your friend of course, and I would want to hang out with you, but I am pretty sure I wouldn’t want to do this.” 

She leaned in and kissed me.  First, it was a quick kiss on the lips.  Then she smiled at me and looking in my eyes her hand went behind my neck and pulled my face to hers and this time our mouths opened, and we kissed passionately. 

When we broke the kiss, I said.  “Well, even if I didn’t love wearing girl clothes and looking pretty, I would probably do it just to be able to kiss you like that.” 

Leslie smiled and pulled me in for another passionate kiss.  This time when we broke apart, she said.  “I have to go.  My mom wants to go to lunch together today.  I think she wants to talk about what is going with you and me.  She kind of knows I am into girls, but I have never really confirmed it with her.”

“Oh wow.  Okay.  Good luck.  Your mom is pretty cool I think it will be okay.  You are coming back this evening, right?”  I said. 

“Yes.  Definitely but only if it means I get to do that again.”  She winked at me as she stood up. 

“Great…. I oh…. I have… I need to go pee like right now.  I am sorry.”  I said as I quickly made my way into the house. 

When I stood up, I had suddenly begun to pee in the maxipad.  I think I was able to stop it, but I raced to the bathroom as I heard Leslie telling me good luck and she would see me tonight. 

When I got to the bathroom, I quickly unbuttoned my shorts and pulled the zipper down, yanking my panties down at the same time and sat on the toilet.  As I was moving to sit on the toilet I began to pee and unfortunately some of it missed the toilet and got on my legs and shorts. 

I finished peeing in the toilet and used some toilet paper to wipe up some dribbles and the pee on my leg.  Looking at my shorts, panties, and the maxipad I saw that they were all very wet.  Reluctantly I pulled them all back into place since I didn’t want to walk thru the house with no clothes on the bottom part of me body. 

I came out of the bathroom and saw Allie and mom sitting on the sofa while Jenny played on the floor.  They both looked at me and then down at my shorts. 

“I sort of didn’t make it.  I need to go change.”  I explained.  “Did Leslie leave?”

“It is okay.  You tried sweetie.”  Mom replied.  “And yes she left but said she would be back this evening so I guess your talk went well.”

I moved to the stairs and heard movement behind me and turned to see Allie following me up the stairs.  She smiled at me when we made eye contact.   

“Grab some dry panties, change your maxipad and meet me in the bedroom, okay?”  It was more of a directive than a request.

I followed her directions.  Grabbing a new pair of panties out of the dresser in Jenny’s room then going into the bathroom and using a wet towel to wipe down my leg and groin area.  I pulled a new maxipad out and situated it in my panties and pulled them up.  I threw the wet pad in the trash and pilled the towel, wet panties, and shorts in the corner.

“You look cute in panties.”  Allie smiled at me as I walked in the room.  “Although… I have come to think you look cute in a diaper also.”

“I definitely feel safer in a diaper that is for sure.  If that had been out in public that would have been embarrassing.”  I told her. 

“How did it go with Leslie?  Are you all good?  I have been dying to text her but wanted to ask you first.” 

“We are good.  She just wants me to be honest with her and tell her if I like boys.  And she was honest and told me she is only into me when I am being a girl.”  I responded. 

“Do you like boys?  You are never really clear about that.”  Allie raised an eyebrow. 

“Because I am not real clear about it myself.   Right now, I like Leslie and there isn’t anyone else I am interested in.”  I smiled at her. 

“Okay.  While you were out back Christine dropped off a couple pairs of jeans for you to try on and I want to have you try on a pair of my leggings.  One great thing about being a girl is being able to wear leggings.”  Allie smiled. 

I grabbed a pair of jeans of the bed and pulled them on. They were tight but fit.  I went over to the mirror and checked how they looked.  I liked how my butt looked in them. 

“Nice ass.  Seriously.  They look good but no way a diaper fits under those.”  Allie said. 

I agreed, especially as I wriggled out of them.  I dropped them onto the floor and picked up the other pair.  These had lots of holes in them.  They weren’t as tight; in fact I was sure a pullup would fit under them and maybe even a diaper. 

“Those are cute.  They would work well for school.”  Allie said as I moved over to the mirror. 

“Yes… and I could fit a pullup or diaper under them.”  I told her. 

She nodded her head yes and then handed me a pair of black leggings.   I took the jeans off and left them on the floor next to the other pair of jeans.  I sat on the bed and pulled the leggings on.  They reminded me a little of how the pantyhose felt when I put them on the other day. 

I pulled them up into place and moved over to the mirror.  I loved how they felt as I moved and the front looked good.  There was noticeable bump in my crotch, but it was a flat bump from the maxipad, it wasn’t obvious I was boy.  When I turned and looked at my butt, I loved the curves I saw but the lines of my panties stood out. 

Allie saw my face and said.  “Yea… you pretty much either need to go commando or wear a thong.  Commando probably won’t work well in the front.  Go grab your thong and I am going to grab something.  Be right back.” 

I went to Jenny’s room and grabbed the red lace thong I had bought the other day.  I loved how girly it looked.  Heading back to Allie’s room I saw her leaving Mom’s room and she came in behind me. 

“Okay.  Take them off and take your panties off.  Then put the thong on and see if this will fit in it.”  She handed me a small package. 

I turned it in my hand and Allie said.  “It is a panty liner.  Mom has them for when she is… well, when she is bleeding heavily as a safety to her tampon.” 

Allie turned away from me and I sat on the bed.  It was kind of weird.  Allie saw me when she changed my diapers but the idea of being naked changing in front of her felt strange to both of us. 

I quickly pulled off the leggings and my panties and then pulled the thong up to my thighs.  I set the panty liner in place.  I wasn’t really secure because of the lack of material but when I pulled the thong up it sat correctly.  I ran my fingers under the side of the thong and felt it move into the crack of my butt.  I liked how it felt a little naughty.  Pulling the leggings back on I moved back to the mirror.  The front looked better than before, and my butt looked amazing. 

“I am not sure I want Scott seeing in you those.  Your ass looks hot!”  Allie laughed.

“It kind of does doesn’t.”  I smiled. 

I tried to remember if I had ever seen Leslie’s butt in a pair leggings.  She must have worn them when visiting Allie, but I had never noticed it.  If my butt looked this good Leslie’s must look amazing in leggings. 

There was a quick wrap on the door followed by mom entering it.  “Hey girls how did…  Wow… those look great on you.  When did you get a female butt?” 

I turned to see mom laughing at her last comment and when I looked over at Allie and she was laughing also. 

“Can’t pull that off while wearing a diaper though, huh.  Are you wearing anything right now?”  Mom asked. 

“Uh… not really.  Allie loaned me one of your panty liners but that was more to keep me flat in the front.”  I told her.

“Allie loaned you one…  Well, I don’t want it back so you can keep it.”  Mom laughed again.  “Seriously, that isn’t going to hold any pee Princess.  I just poked my head in to say that Brian and I will be leaving around five, but I am going to need time to get ready so can you all start watching Jenny after her nap?” 

“Sure.”  Allie and I sang out in unison and then laughed again. 

Mom closed the door.  I turned my butt to the mirror and gave it another look.  I was really happy with what I saw. 

“You probably need to change and put on one of your maxipads at least.  As soon as mom starts getting ready, I can diaper you if you want?”  Allie said. 

I was thinking about what it was that I wanted.  I loved my diapers, and I really loved when Allie diapered me.  Seeing how the first pair of jeans had looked and these leggings though at least made see the advantage of not having to wear diapers.  The question was… did I like how I had looked better than how I felt when wearing and wetting a diaper.