Hello Again!

[Red Littlebottom]

Hello again everyone! This ms my (hopefully) successful attempt at re-introducing myself. I joined the DD boards way back in July of 2014. I am a Baby Banker from around that time as well During those last three years, I've only written 8 posts. I apologize for being so inactive, and I definitely want to rectify that issue to the best of my ability. So much has happened and changed within my life; mostly positive, and a lot of the reasons for my being so inactive had to do with fear of public shame or scorn. I can say now that definitely I have mostly conquered these fears successfully.

To begin with, last year in 2016, I took a job as a church organist at a local Christian Science Church here where I live. I originally was just an Interim/Substitute Organist, but a few months after this, I was hired as the regular part-time Organist permanently. During the conclusion of the period of time that I was Interim Organist, when the church board was considering me for the permanent Organist position, I had an unfortunate incident happen to me. One of the church board members somehow managed to find a quite innocent Facebook post of mine regarding incontinence. Ostensibly, I wanted to help people out who were facing the issue of incontinence like I was. In that post, I also included a "G/PG" picture of myself in a diaper and a t-shirt.

I was literally told that I would "be hired faster" if I "explained that post in an e-mail." Since I badly wanted and needed the job, I acceded to the board's wishes. I e-mailed the board, and explained my whole motivation for the post, as well as my medical condition of incontinence, and the fact that I need to wear adult diapers to manage it. Realistically, I should not have been required to e-mail the church board explaining this whole thing. What the board did to me was essentially blackmail; not hiring me until I explained myself. They behaved in an invasive and ignorant manner, and for that, I am still quite upset and unhappy over the whole affair. As a direct result of this incident, I did a massive online purge, deleted most, if not all, of my content that could in any way be construed as controversial, and I stopped posting on any forums of this nature almost altogether, for quite a while.

Moreover, while I respect the people I work with at the church, and I must work with them in a professional relationship as Organist, nonetheless, they maintain a weird collective belief and philosophy that has proven frustrating and hindering for me to this day. This belief is, fundamentally, that Mary Baker Eddy's manual (the founder of the church), and the Bible alone, will heal every illness. Also, they believe that God is perfect, and therefore, there is no sickness or death - it is an unreality in their minds. While it is true that I believe that God is wonderful and perfect and loving as well, this collective belief on the part of the church members has resulted in their constantly questioning why I tend to spend my church income so quickly from month-to-month, because they completely deny and ignore that I am Bipolar I, and this mental health condition causes me to spend somewhat irrationally at times.

On a much more positive note, I now find myself to be eminently happy and content with my life in general. I managed to win a three-year long battle with the government, and I started receiving SSDI disability income in 2016. I also received a substantial retroactive lump-sum payment last year as well, enabling me to pay off most of my debts, and invest in a full home recording studio. I am now very busy with several activities and projects that include going back to college for the fourth time this Fall 2017, serving as Treasurer of my Tenant Association, being active with my honor society at college, and serving as an officer for a very large, active, social gaming community online.

I am gradually accepting the fact that I do actually enjoy wearing diapers every day. I am working on getting into my "litte-space," something that I have only managed to do perhaps once or twice so far. I have mostly solved my problems with diaper fit, leaks, and quality issues, at present. I am anxiously awaiting a package of Abena L4's to arrive tomorrow via FedEx. I think I was over-complicating things too much; I've tried booster pads, vinyl pants, and all sorts of things to wear and use with my diapers. Now, I think the overall best solution will be to just simply wear a very high-quality diaper alone under my shorts or pants, and not use anything else. That will be a time-saver and a cost-saver, to be certain, and will also result in me being more comfortable and less concerned about leaks in general.

So, overall, lots of things have changed in my life, but mostly for the better. I promise that I will try and post a lot more here in general. I have some stories and things to post, including some advice and tips about diaper-wearing and hygiene that I believe might be of some value to the members here. Thank you very much for any interesting replies or comments you may have. Take care, and be safe.

PS: Here is a recent picture of me with my kitty, Ebony. :-)

[AbabeBill]

Hi and welcome back. Quite an intro. First, I

[Red Littlebottom]

Thank you so much for your warm welcome and encouraging words. I will be posting some suggestions, advice, and possibly even some stories that I have put up on the "ADISC" forums over the last several months. I hope you enjoy reading them as much as I enjoyed writing them. Take care, and be safe.'

Best,

"Red Littlebottom"

[rusty pins]

I am no theologian but it seems that you have some issues with your church (and I do agree myself).

[duluthdiapers]

Welcome back.